#like I can’t just buy a ton of braces for my joints all at once no matter how helpful they’d be

[nope-body]

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[ladywinchester1967]

She Will Be Loved

Title: She Will Be Loved

Links: AO3 & WattPad

Square Filled: Friends to Lovers

Rating: E for Explicit

Tags: Feels, fluff, SMUT, angst. Beta’d by @clo-heda but any mistakes are still mine, pics are not.  

Created for: @spnkinkbingo

“Tap on my window, knock on my door I wanna make you feel beautiful.” ~ Maroon 5

Dean Winchester seethed with anger as his friend, Caroline, cried. She couldn't say exactly what was making her so upset, but held her face in her hands as Dean pulled her into a protective hug, resting his chin on top of her head.

“It's okay,” Dean soothed “shhh, just get it out. It's gonna be okay.”

She sobbed into his shoulder as she wrapped her arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. They stood like that for a long time until her tears had subsided and she pulled back.

“I'm sorry, I ruined your afternoon,” she said “and your shirt.”

He shook his head

“I wasn't doing anything.” he lied. He'd been flirting heavily with a local waitress when when he'd gotten a concerning text from Caroline “And, you're more important.” She gave him a sad smile and hugged him again. Once she pulled back, he said “C'mon, we're going for a drive.”

“To where?” she asked

“Anywhere,” he said “let's just get in the car and we'll drive around for a little bit, get your mind off that douche bag Eric and do something. Just the two of us.”

“And get ice cream?” she asked

“If you want to we can.” he said fondly and she nodded.

After a long drive including tons of classic rock sing alongs, a couple of burger joints and two hot fudge sundaes later, Caroline seemed to be more like herself as they pulled back into the bunker's garage.

“See? What'd I tell you?” Dean asked as they got out of the car.

“Dean knows best.” she said with a laugh. He came around to her side of the car and threw an arm around her shoulders, giving her another hug. While not normally a touchy, feely guy, Dean knew Caroline craved touch. She'd never once pulled away when he put an arm around her shoulders or placed his hand over hers. In truth, he liked being close to her, her against him felt like the most natural thing to him. They walked into the bunker this way and then down the hall toward Dean's room.

“I'm gonna go in,” he said “you know where to find me if you need me.”

She bit her lip and then asked

“Can I stay with you? I really don't want to be alone.”

“Yeah, of course you can.” he said and opened the door to his room as they went inside. They separated to get ready for bed and once she was in her pajamas, Caroline made her way back to Dean's room where he was already laying with his back against the headboard. She climbed onto the ridiculously comfortable memory foam mattress and snuggled up close to Dean. With her head on his shoulder and a leg draped over his waist, he wrapped one arm around her shoulder while the other rested on her knee. She listened to the steady beat of his heart for a few seconds and then looked up at him.

“Thank you,” she told him “for today, I really needed that.”

“You're welcome.” he said as their eyes connected. Caroline felt a shift between them in those few seconds. He wasn't looking at her like he normally did, he had more affection and something else in his eyes that she couldn't quite read. Dean's heart was beating harder and harder in his chest as their lips got closer and closer.

“Dean,” she breathed, sending little puffs of air on to his mouth.

“No, I'll stop.” he said an pulled back. She caught him by the back of the head and gently pressed her lips to his. Kissing him was different than she thought it would be. His lips were softer, sweeter than she had imagined. His kiss wasn’t rushed, it was slow and full of passion. He used his entire mouth to kiss in a way that left her panting and wanting more.

When he pulled back, he looked apprehensive.

“Oh god, I’m so sorry.” He said and got out of bed,

“No, Dean! Wait!” She yelled and went over to him “Please don’t walk away from me.”

“I shouldn’t have, I’m sorry.” He said.

“No, wait.” She said and grabbed his wrist “Don’t clam up, talk to me.”

“I can’t.” He said, biting his kiss swollen lip.

“Yes, you can,” she insisted and squeezed his wrist “this is me we’re talking about remember? You can tell me anything.”

He took a deep breath

“Normally, I can but this?” He asked “I can’t do.”

“Why not?” She asked

He took her left hand and held it up, showing her the ring there.

“That’s why,” he said “because I’m fucking selfish and I’m a coward.”

“Dean Winchester, I never want to hear you say that again,” she snapped “you’re one of the bravest people I know!”

He looked down at his feet, collecting his thoughts as she put a hand to his cheek. She stroked his facial hair as he turned to look up at her, leaning into her touch.

“I’m too scared,” he said “to tell you how I feel.”

Her heart thundered in her chest and blood rushed in her ears.

“What’s that supposed to mean?” She asked.

“That I love you and I can’t do anything about it.” He told her and he braced himself for the slap across the cheek that he felt was going to come but it never did. She stared at him intently and he went on “You’ve been with me through everything; you stayed when no one else did, you comforted me even though I pushed you away. You loved me through my worst times, then you met Eric and you got out of the life. I didn’t realize what we had was special until I didn’t have it any more and I was too scared to admit that I love you.”

It felt like truth bomb after truth bomb was being dropped on her and exploding all around her.

“You?” She asked with tears in her eyes “You love me?”

“I’m sorry,” he said and took her hands “I’m so fucking sorry, I’ve ruined everything.”

“Answer the question.” She said and he looked away again, his jaw clenching. “Dean, answer me before I make a huge mistake.”

He looked her square in the eyes and said

“I love you, with all my heart.”

She nodded as tears fell down her cheeks and he quickly wiped them away.

“Please, I’m sorry.” He apologized over and over as he kissed her forehead.

“Dean,” she said softly and pulled back “I love you too.”

His eyes went wide as he held her face.

“No,” he insisted “you can’t.”

“Why not?” She asked

“You have someone that loves you,” He told her “someone that’s gonna take care of you, buy you nice things, give you a future and a family. I can’t do any of that for you, this life I live, the work I do, is too dangerous. I’m too dangerous, too old and broke for you.”

“Dean,” she sobbed as more tears rolled down her cheeks “You can’t tell me that and expect me to just walk away. You don’t get to decide who I love.”

“What about Eric?” Dean asked

“He,” she paused and bit her lip “he broke it off. The engagement, the relationship, everything. He packed up and he left, saying it was a mistake.”

“What was a mistake?” he asked, shocked.

“Our relationship. The engagement, everything.” she told him “He said he knew I was in love with someone else and there wasn't room for three of us in this relationship.”

“Three?” Dean asked “You mean?”

She nodded and said

“I love you too Dean, I have for a long time. I never said anything because I never wanted to lose you as a friend.”

They kissed passionately, tears lingering on both of their cheeks and melding into one. He stroked her hair while she ran her hands up and down his back, her finger tips pressing into his shoulders.

“Dean please,” She begged “please.”

“What do you want?” He asked with all the sincerity he could muster as he looked at her. He held her face in his hands, stroking her cheeks with his thumbs to brush away her tears.

“You,” She told him “I want you, make love to me please.”

He nodded and kissed her again, his mouth enveloping hers as he backed her up toward the bed. Once the backs of her knees hit the edge of the mattress, Dean slid his hands up her shirt, taking it off and pitching it across the room. She did the same to him, running her hands all over his bare torso as he made her lay on her back, he crawled on top of her and pulled her yoga pants down.

“Are you sure?” He asked as they kissed “Really sure?”

“Never been more sure of anything in my life.” She breathed “I love you and I want to be with you.”

He bit his lip and nodded

“I want to be with you too,” he said and wrapped her into a searing kiss “more than anything.”

She slid her hands up and down his back, her nails lightly brushing over his skin. He moaned and rutted against her panty clad core as she moaned into his mouth.

“Dean, Dean!” she cried against his mouth and he let out a growl.

“Fuck,” he said “keep moaning my name like that and this’ll be over quick.”

“Can’t help it,” she said with a sheepish grin “you feel so good against me.”

He unhooked her bra and tossed it elsewhere, pressing his chest to hers.

“Like that?” He asked and then snapped his hips into her, making her cry out “or that?”

“Both, fuck!” She cried as she untied his pajama pants. He quickly shed them along with his underwear, throwing them to the ground and she wriggled out of her yoga pants and panties. Naked and vulnerable, she watched as he crawled on top of her again. Their eyes stayed connected as he laced his fingers with hers and pinned them right by her head. She spread her legs to accommodate him and grasped his hands tightly. He gently nudged his way inside her tight channel, making her back arch as she moaned loudly. He let out a hiss as he slid further into her, fighting the urge to fuck her into the mattress until she walked funny for days.

“You okay?” He rasped as he kissed her.

“Yes, fuck-shit-you feels good.” She told him. He filled her in a way she hadn’t been before, deliciously stretching her walls as he pushed all the way inside her. They kissed over and over until she cried out against his mouth.

“Move.” She begged him.

He started with slow, languid thrusts, worried he would hurt her. His hips slowly crashed into hers as she threw her head back.

“Ah, Dean!” She cried and then pulled him flush with her body. He gave in as she started to move her hips too; her warm skin against his felt like it should have been like this all along between them. He gently teased her mouth with his tongue, tracing over her tongue and then pulling back to kiss her hard.

“I love you.” he declared

“I love you too,” she answered as she met his hips thrust for thrust. “so much Dean.”

His steady strokes and the sound of his skin hitting hers made her rise up high, but he was in no rush. He didn't want to stop until she was shaking. He reached between them and pressed his thumb into her swollen mound, he stroked and worked it into a slow, steady circle as she cried out loudly.

“Mh fuck Dean, like that, just like that.” she moaned as she threw her head back.

He bent his head down and latched his mouth around her nipple, making her cry out loudly as his tongue made slow, deliberate circles, making the nipple perk up in his mouth. He switched to the other breast and did the same thing, the sensitive bud hardening in his mouth nearly instantly.

“Oh god, god!” she cried out and dug her nails into his back. He growled, the vibration from his mouth driving her insane. He quickly rolled them over so that she was on top of him. She rolled her hips into him and arched her back as his hands gripped her hips.

“Yeah, like that,” he moaned “fuck you look sexy riding me.”

She had a mischievous glint in her eye as she rolled into him harder, making his grip on her hips tighten.

“Like that?” she asked

“Yes, fuck, like that.” he breathed

“Or like this?” she asked and slammed her hips on top of him. She bounced on top of him and he moaned in appreciation.

“FUCK!” he cried and smacked a hand across her ass, making her cry out “Jesus, like that! Shit!”

“Fuck, do that again!” she cried

He smacked his hand across her other ass cheek and she cried out again.

“Oh my god!” she cried her hands snaking up her body and grabbing her breasts in her hands. She rolled the nipples between her fingers as he watched, moaning.

“Fuck,” he groaned “look at you.”

“You like watching me play?” she asked him

He nodded as she repeated the motions, throwing her head back and crying out. Dean pressed the pad of his thumb into her clit again and worked it in a slow circle as she moaned loudly.

“Oh god, fuck!” she moaned

Watching her was intoxicating, better than any porn he'd ever seen, and she was in love with him. Nothing else seemed to matter beyond that fact, no matter how hot she looked riding him. He snapped up into a sitting position and pulled her close to him with his free arm. He continued to work her clit in slow circles as she spread her hands flat on his back. She kissed him and moaned deeply into his mouth.

“Oh fuck, Dean, fuck you feel so good,” she moaned “I'm gonna come!”

“You like that huh?” he asked as he sped up a little, making her cry out louder “Tell me sweetheart.”

“Fuck, I love that!” she cried as the familiar tingle rose up her spine and she cried out into his mouth.

“Come on sweetheart, come for me.” he said as he reached his own peak, the chord in his stomach tightening hard. She let go first, crying his name loudly and he followed shortly behind her, shooting long, thick ropes deeply into her.

They lay side by side, gently caressing each other as she fought sleep.

“Just go to sleep,” he said quietly “I'll be here when you wake up.”

“Promise?” she asked with a yawn.

“I promise,” he said “and when have I ever broken a promise I made you?”

“Never.” she said, her voice full of sleep. He chuckled and gently kissed her forehead, pulling her even closer as he drifted into a peaceful sleep.

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[thegreenhorseman]

LESS THAN SIX WEEKS TO CHRISTMAS >>>> Let that sink in.

The holidays are fast approaching once again.

Non-horse people often have great intentions for gift giving to horse people but let’s face it.  WE ARE HARD TO SHOP FOR.  You can’t exactly ask for a new saddle or a new bridle (maybe if you’re loaded) and non-horse people just don’t know what to look for.

In the past I’ve included some excellent gifts for the horse person that are under $50.  Many, if not all, are still very relevant today.

Holiday Gifts Under $50 for the Horse Lover

The Green Horseman’s Recommended Gifts Under $50

This year I’m beefing up the list by stretching to reach a range of $100.

A MASSAGE: Horse people work hard.  It takes a great posture, a strong core, and a strong leg to ride horses.  They need strength but also softness.  They need to move smoothly and quietly and maintain flexibility.  Horse people don’t just ride.  They muck stalls, haul carts, lug 40-pound water buckets, groom, turn in, turn out, change blankets, carry 40-pound hay bales and 50-pound feed bags. They stress about the many horse ailments, stress about shows, stress about money, stress about time.  But a horse person must also maintain a quiet mind since horses pick up on the stress.  GET YOUR HORSE LOVER A MESSAGE THIS YEAR.  There are many spas that can offer very affordable visits and may just be what your horse person needs in their life right now.  Horse people always put their animals first.  You can help them make the necessary time for themselves.

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BACK ON TRACK: (Back on Track:): Going with the theme of taking care of the horse PERSON I highly recommend Back on Track products.  This year I am particularly highlighting the double-layer back brace ($79) and the neck brace ($39).  Back on track products are infused with ceramic particles that reflect the body’s heat back into the muscle tissue.  The energy increases circulation and helps muscles, joints, tendons, and ligaments recover faster from damage.  I have seen (with Blade and other horses) and personally experienced great results with Back on Track and I am slowly working toward acquiring as many products as I can.

SADDLE BOX (Saddle Box):  If you don’t know horse people let horse people take the lead.  The Saddle Box is just $34.95 and contains handpicked items for horse people.  It’s a win-win.

To see what MIGHT be found in a Saddle Box you can read my review at: Product Review: The Saddle Box

HORSE BOOKS (Trafalgar Square Books): Trafalgar Square Books is popular in the equine industry for their horse publications.  There are books for every discipline, every age.  The website offers how-to books for training, rider wellness, and even horse wellness.  You can find something for everyone here.  Might I suggest Danny Emmerson’s “Know Better To Do Better”?  Or maybe “The Horse Cure” by Michelle Holling-Brooks?

WINE (Horse Rescue Wine): Assuming your horse person is of legal age to drink, why not give them wine?  Buy your horse-person Angel, Mirage, or Savannah Rose from Baiting Hollow Farm.  They will be thrilled to know that a portion of your purchase went to helping rescue horses.  Though the farm no longer operates as a rescue they continue to remain active in advocating for equine welfare.

WINTER WARMTH:  Horses do well in the winter provided they have ample hay and water and a healthy winter coat.  People, however, do not.  We brave the arctic temperatures as long as necessary to make sure our equine loved ones have what they need to be comfortable.  Cleaning stalls, picking paddocks, and feeding takes time.  We also ride during the winter to keep ourselves and our horses in shape all year long.   We face frostbite and chapped extremities often.  This year get your horse person a pack of hand and toe warmers.

MORE WINTER WARMTH:  Hand and toe warmers are just the beginning.  How about treating your horse person with a nice pair of gloves?  The best pair of gloves I’ve had were sent to me in a Heart to Horse box a couple years ago.  They are the SSG Winter Rancher Gloves ($49.95).  They are warm but still allowed for decent dexterity doing farm chores. Another favorite of mine was the Morris Kaye Handsfree Shearling Gloves w/Rabbit for $38.38.  Sadly I lost the rabbit gloves (the softest!) and the rancher gloves were left out in the elements.  I’d happily buy these again.

CLEAN FUN: Heels Down Magazine has a fantastic podcast called Heels Down Happy Hour.  I love to listen to the girls talk over drinks about their experiences in the horse world.  This year at Equine Affaire they had a booth featuring soaps for dirty equestrians.  The soaps had some fun names like “Stressed Out Ammy” “Would Pick Horses Over You” and “Barn Drama Detox.”  You can buy one or buy several in a set.

HAND TOOLED LEATHER: For the equine lover that frequently goes out on trail rides why not get a nice cell-phone holder or drink holder (or a combo?).  Saddle Safe makes nice custom leather products.  Plain cases begin at $29 or $39 (combo).  Have a name or get some artwork/logos on it to really personalize the gift and make it special.  The prices vary but custom artwork will cost between $50-$80 and well worth it.  The company also creates other leather products but I definitely recommend you check out the cell phone holder.  Just send them a message on Facebook, they got back to me within minutes.

GOOD OLD FASHIONED GIFT CERTIFICATE: Horse people are very hard to shop for because the nice things are often expensive. Why not let your horse person figure out what it is THEY want and go with a simple gift card to the local tack store.  None local?  You can also try SmartPak, Dover Saddlery, or Horse.com.

FOOTSY FUN: Last year I highly recommended the Noble Outfitters Boot Socks.  They are by far the most comfortable socks I’ve ever worn.  I don’t need boots to enjoy them.  If you’re looking to go with a bit more fun and unique check out Dreamwers and Schemers.  The company offers a variety of boot socks with fun designs

EQUESTRIAN FASHION: Check out C4 Belts for great belts that your horse-person can use on their riding clothes (or anyday clothes).  They are waterproof and fully recyclable.  Every purchase helps to benefit shelter dogs in need.  They come with a LIFETIME warranty and have a ton of beautiful designs to choose from.  The best part?  They are ALL cut-to-size so you don’t have to guess your giftee’s waist size (let’s face it that would be disastrous).

Shopping for a horse person isn’t easy.  Here are a few options to help you get through the holiday season.  You can also peruse the past year’s collections at:

The Green Horseman’s Recommended Gifts Under $50

Holiday Gifts Under $50 for the Horse Lover

Happy shopping!

Holiday Horse Person Wish List 2019 LESS THAN SIX WEEKS TO CHRISTMAS >>>> Let that sink in. The holidays are fast approaching once again.