#like EVEN IF HE’S NOT AUTISTIC HE’S CLEARLY GOING THROUGH GIFTED KID BURNOUT

[zoruathemageknight]

Controversial Character Tournament Round 1: Berdly from Deltarune

[im-no-jedi]

nah, but I’m sick of it. I’m sick of people holding Hunter to unrealistic standards. yes, he’s the leader and (most likely) the oldest of the group. but do any of you even realize what that means??

it means he already holds himself to unrealistic standards. and y’all continuing to bash and berate him for it is no different than an abusive parent would do to their child, seriously 🙄

he’s not perfect. he’s going to make mistakes. he’s a freaking human being, not some flawless god who can solve everyone’s problems. 

and for goodness sakes, stop saying he’s emotionless. just because someone doesn’t cry doesn’t mean they’re emotionless. not only does Hunter clearly show emotion many times throughout the series (especially in Plan 99), but he also tries to remain the stable one in emotional situations for the sake of others. he has to. it’s his job.

and the worst part? literally nobody is telling him to be that way. sure, he probably was taught some things while in military training. but I can tell you right now as the oldest sibling, that idea of being the “stable one” is something you create entirely of your own conscious. I’ve had to go through years of therapy in order to “unlock” my emotions and be more open with people. and I still struggle with it!!

ALSO. I’m sick of the double standard held between the characters. y’all are so willing to forgive Tech and Crosshair for acting the way that they do, but as soon as Hunter does something “wrong”, he’s labeled the worst of them all. why?? why is that?? is it really just because he’s the leader?? give me a break 🙄

we learned that Tech is the way that he is because of a mental disorder. amazing. wonderful. everybody liked that.

well then. is it really so hard to believe that maybe, just maybe, Tech isn’t the only one like that??

I’m not the first person to view the entire squad as ND, and I’m certainly not the last. many ND people have found solidarity in different members of the squad, sometimes all of them (myself included). someone on Twitter even wrote a fantastic thread about how the Batch is autistic (before Tech was confirmed so in the show btw!).

so yeah. need I say more? 

dislike the way a character acts all you want idc. but try and take a minute to actually think about why you don’t like it instead of just throwing out insults and slander unnecessarily. especially when most of it is blatant hypocrisy at best. I almost feel like it shouldn’t be allowed to hate on Hunter unless you’re willing to do the same for Tech and Crosshair. but what do I know? I’m just a ND oldest sibling of four with Gifted Kid Burnout who had to go to therapy for emotional issues 🤪

[coinflict]

Hashtag low empathy personality disorder autistic evil person rant under the cut cw um at one point I briefly mention self harm and uuuuh suicide baiting at one point

I have this friend who I really really love but I can't stand listening to him talking about his problems. It drives me fucking nuts not because he treats me like a therapist or whatever but because he acts like his problems are completely unique experiences and no one's ever lived through that before and it's espetially insulting because I went through the same thing a few years ago and he just fucking ignores that. Like it feels as if he's not taking me seriously or thinks I'm lying whenever I say that I went through the same thing and it's so EXHAUSTING. Like

"Ugh I'm so burnt out and anxious I can't even respond to messages."

"I know, the same thing happened to me. I got over the burnout eventually, things never got better I just learned to live with it. You'll get better too, I'm your friend I'm here for you."

"Fair, but I *proceeds to reword the statement so it somehow sounds like a different thing*"

This was a few months back now it's all about how he NEEDS to be student of the generation like he'll kill himself if he's doesn't get it and at this point I genuinely wholeheartedly hope he doesn't get it because maybe it will give him a fucking reality check this shit's so tiring to me I get treated like a complete and utter idiot, both on a personal level and academically like literally fuck you. I can't stand this espetially because he's one of like five people who I've opened up to about how debilitating my anxiety is, how I physical symptoms next to mental ones, how I have to go to a cardiologist regularly because my HEART begins to act up because of how bad it is. Like it's genuinely a fucking disability. And on top of that I experience psychosis like I'm not fully lucid all the time one time I sliced my fucking leg open because I needed to check I was real. Yeah no fucking shit I get frozen before important events and competitions and my results are not a reflection of my actual intelligence and knowledge. And he'll be the nicest person on planet Earth all like "Oh it's okay you were sick." BUT I CAN TELL I CAN FUCKING TELL even when we're talking about things that are in my area of expertise he'll start explaining very basic shit to me. I can tell you think I'm dumber than you. I have eyes, ears, and a brain dude. And he'll say sorry but then he'll turn around and say "If I'm not the best I'll kill myself" FUCKING DO IT THEN JESUS CHRIST I KNOW YOU WON'T it's so fucking exhausting listening to this hashtag gifted kid burnout song and dance when I went through it years ago and am now supposed to pretend like it's the worst thing ever and oh no mine actually wasn't that bad because I'm clearly stupider than you please go on. And this is one of my best friends I know this he genuinely cares about me despite me making him sound like the worst person on Earth, we get along, we have fun he's a good friend but this is just incredibly tiring and I'm SCARED I'll say something I'll regret at this point I've learned I can't listen to myself when I'm mad have a nearly 100% regret rate there but it's TIRING and I genuinely don't think I can do this for much longer.