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❪ ♡ ❫ ─── ⠀ ⠀⠀ improvise ⠀ 〳 ⠀ a.shouta (shota) ‵

❪ ♡ ❫ ─── ( synopsis ) everyone keeps questioning famous actors aizawa shota & y/n l/n about that one scene.

♡ ˙ ˖ ✧ — afab reader, her/she pronouns, female anatomy, actor au, oral (m.receing), fem petnames (babydoll), reader and aizawa formerly academic lovers at julliard, flirty actor!aizawa, italics means flashback, breath play, cum swallowing, messy head, slight ooc!aizawa, profanity, mentions of a happy trail, mentions of pubes, wc: 3.8k, sorry it's like late bby, an entry for @h-shibas actor au collab event.

THE JOURNALIST GAVE THE TWO OF YOU A SMILE. The bright lights shining on the duo of main actors in Issa Rae’s newest tv show. Aizawa Shouta and you sat side by side dressed to the tens and with the brightest smiles on your faces. The newest HBO show was a hit and managed to trend on Twitter every night, but the latest episode seemed to have everyone in a frenzy when one particular scene played on the world’s television. 

The journalist adjusted the small mic that was clipped on her cream-colored blouse before the producer motioned for her to start the interview. The interviewer started off with easy questions. How was it working with Issa Rae? What to expect for the rest of the season? Simple questions to get Aizawa and you to talk and get comfortable with her. But, the two of you should have known what was going to be the next question that was going to linger off her tongue. 

“In the most recent episode, Chanel and Jax share a quite interesting scene together that had me and many viewers so surprised.” The journalist explained.

Aizawa let out a chuckle as he rubbed at the back of his neck nervously. His publicist had seen many questions like this one coming. Especially considering that he had a segment to read the show’s fans' thirst tweets about him. His dark-colored hair was tied out of his face in a neat man bun. His white button-down shirt had a couple of buttons undone showing a bit of his tone chest with the chest hair he had. The silver dog chain necklace clashed against his chest and he just stared at the journalist with his usual deadpan look (that had many people's hearts fluttering).

“The sex scene, many people complimented how well you two acted out that scene. It seemed so real. Was it a bit awkward at all between you two when you read the script?” The journalist asked.

Aizawa and you shared a look and your cheeks instantly grew hot. The lewd flashbacks ran laps around your mind before it was Aizawa clearing his throat to answer the question.

“It wasn’t awkward at all when you get to know your castmates..a lot of the scenes you just go with the flow,” Aizawa answered.

“Yeah, just go with the flow.” You repeated as you adjusted yourself in your seat. 

You fiddled with the booklet in your lap as you sat in your designated chair that had your name on the back of it. Production was about to wrap up for the day, but your co-stars had one more scene to do, plus the director wanted to talk to you. You usually left the set early to indulge yourself with wine and a warm bath so you can have a clear mind while you memorize your lines, but tonight you were stuck here until the end. 

“That’s a wrap guys! Go home, get some rest, and enjoy your day off tomorrow! We’ll resume filming Saturday morning!”

Your thoughts were interrupted when you could hear the director clearing his throat to gain your attention. “Be here on Saturday, I’ll be here as soon as the sun rises.” You jokingly say until you looked up and saw the director with your co-star Aizawa Shouta. 

“If you don’t know, we will be introducing your character's blossoming relationship in the show soon. I need both of you to be prepared for Saturday. Schedule to meet up to read lines together tomorrow, I need it to feel like I’m watching you two fall in love in front of my fuckin’ cameras. You two understand?” The director’s eyes darted to you then at Aizawa. 

“No need to worry, we won’t disappoint.” You answered. 

“Good. Enjoy the rest of the night.” The director flashed you two a smile before walking away, her assistant not too far behind her. 

That left both you and Aizawa awkwardly staring at each other. It wasn’t because you two would be doing a quite explicit sex scene during this season of the show, but the fact that you two had history. History that got lost as time went on and you two went your separate ways after graduating. You remember vividly the late nights at Julliard practicing lines for a play. The intense pressure of not wanting to let your family down due to the fact that Juilliard was one hard-working school. With an acceptance percentage of 8%, wouldn’t you want to make sure you use your years there in the most hard-working manner? The two of you just took comfort in each other during the harshness of your professors telling you that you weren’t going to make it in the sea of desperate actors if you couldn’t cry on cue.

“So, should meet at your place or my place just to ensure privacy from the paparazzi and fans,” Aizawa suggested. He’s tugging his phone out so you can put your number into it.

Your mouth gaped open just a bit confused. Perhaps he just forgot about you. After all, after graduating he was the one that got his first big role immediately. He meets people every day. It’s no problem.

“However, I suggest we do it at your place. Paparazzi camp out in front of mine on Fridays,” Aizawa pointed out.

Your lips formed a straight line as you were attempting to take in everything he was saying. You didn’t mind him being in your space, it was sacred and you protected it. However, you just knew your little apartment wasn’t anything compared to his big mansion right next to supposedly Kylie Jenner’s house. But your body reacted to his question before your mind did, your head just started nodding like a sports bobblehead figurine. 

“Great, put your number in my phone.” Aizawa gave you his phone which you quickly put your number into before handing it back.

“I guess, I’ll see you tomorrow,” Aizawa gave you a sly smile before walking away, but he stopped before turning around. “Text me your address when you get a chance. Have a good night (Y/N).” 

You watched as he disappeared in the crowd of crew members pushing away stuff to pack up and go home. You walked towards your trailer dialing one of your friend's numbers, when you heard your friend's voice you let out the longest sigh. “Do you remember that one guy I was super close with during college?” 

“The one with the long pretty hair and he always looked dead inside, but he was one hell of an actor,” Your friend described.

“Yes, him! We’re co-stars and he doesn’t even remember me,” You said as you walked into your trailer to grab your belongings. 

“What? You two were so close though,” Your friend reminded you. “Like really close, I remember vividly because you kept me up every Friday and Saturday night. And don’t forget when the plays you two were in was a success, you guys were like horny animals.” 

“Okay, no need to go that far down memory lane with that one.” You said.

“Just speaking the truth. You two were glued to each other's hips on some days,” Your friend replied.

“Well we’re working together and I don’t think he remembers me,” You managed to sadly utter out. “But it’s no big deal. He meets new people every day.”

“Oh come on, that's bullshit. That man licked every inch of your body in college.” Your friend commented. “You should help him remember you.”

“That doesn't sound desperate to you? If he cared to remember, he would have.” You commented as you were walking towards your car after leaving your trailer. 

“I’m sure he’ll remember you when you two finally have scenes together.” Your friend commented.

You could only hum along with what they said before sharing your farewells to end the call. You unlocked your car door climbing into it. The memories of college and Aizawa swirling around your mind are like lines you needed to remember. You just had to get through one reading with him and maybe he’ll remember who you were. 

WHEN THE MORNING CAME, YOU FOUND YOURSELF CLEANING YOUR ALREADY CLEAN APARTMENT. You looked at yourself in the mirror in the bathroom checking your appearance. You weren’t dressed up too fancy, after all, you two were just reading your lines for the season. You had walked into your living room being sure to already have each episode booklet for the season of the show out. You always asked for backup copies just in case you misplaced the original. When you heard the knock on the door, you would waltz over to answer it with a quickness. 

When you saw Aizawa, you were completely breathless. It was as if seeing him in front of you took all the breath out of you. His black hair was tugged into a messy bun that looked like he did in seconds. He wore a white t-shirt and sweatpants. You couldn’t help but chuckle at the fact that you both decided to dress comfortably for today’s reading. You were so into eyeing Aizawa up and down, you didn’t even hear his sudden words until after the fact.

“You know, it took me a while to realize who you were.” He would say.

“What?” You questioned as you stepped aside to let him into your apartment. 

“Oh come on, you know what I mean,” Aizawa explained as he was eyeing the decor in your space. “We went to Julliard together,” He responded as he looked at you. “You thought I would forget the one woman who got me through that damn school,” He sighed as he would plop down on your couch. 

You were speechless as you stood staring at him. “Yes, you’re literally Hollywood’s top actors right now. Of course, I would think you forgot about me.” You shrugged as you walked towards the couch grabbing one of the booklets and soon plopping down next to him. 

Aizawa’s lips grazed at his lower lip before he’s speaking once again, “When you put it like that you make it sound like I’m a Hollywood jerk. Hollywood didn’t change me that much,” He sighed as he leaned forward going through the booklets from each episode of the show you two were on. 

You watched in curiosity as he was searching for one particular booklet. “What are you doing? We should start at episode 4, that’s when our characters meet.” You told him.

“We literally have only about five lines each in that episode, we can practice that episode literally on the day of filming,” Aizawa shrugged. 

That was true. In that episode, your character Chanel and Aizawa’s character Jax only would be introduced to each other. Slowly creeping the door open for the relationship the two would be creating as the episodes go on. You watched as he finally found the episode sixteen booklet and you were forced to swallow the large lump in your throat. “I don’t know why I’m not shocked you chose that one,” You said, shaking your head.

“Y/N, it’s our sex scene episode. We have to make sure it looks believable. This scene literally is when our sexual tension between our characters finally explodes,” Aizawa comments.

“I’m aware of that you idiot,” You rolled your eyes at him before finding the other copy of episode sixteen. “I just feel like we should work our way up and then get to episode sixteen. This gives us time to think about how we’re going to portray this. You heard the director, she wants to see us fall in love.” 

Aizawa thought about your suggestion before picking up the episode four booklet. “Fine, but only because I have a suggestion on our scene.” 

Your eyebrows raised wanting to question his statement, but you only grabbed your booklet so you can start. Within the past three hours, you two spent going over lines and practicing the scenes you were in. You stopped to order food and take a break, forcing you two to go down memory lane when it came to your college years. You still felt your cheeks radiate so much heat when Aizawa would mention how close you two were. Perhaps that’s why you were so nervous about this sex scene, the fact that you two actually had sex before. Although in sex scenes you aren’t really having sex with your co-star, it was all about making it look believable. 

“So, do you want to hear my idea for our sex scene?” Aizawa asked as he was sprawled out on your living room floor. Episode sixteen booklet laying on his broad chest as his dark eyes traveled over to you who was laying on the couch. 

“What?” You asked as you were reading over some lines.

“We should improvise it,” Aizawa suggested.

“Improvise a sex scene?” You asked, “I don’t think that’s a good idea.” 

“Why?” 

“Our sex scene doesn’t even seem like it’s that long,” You responded. 

“Okay, and?” Aizawa questioned. “Not like we didn’t have real sex before,” he bluntly admitted as he looked at you to watch as you sit up with a quickness. “As I said, I remember how close we were, Y/N,” he says. “The director said she wants it to feel like we've fallen in love on screen and I think it’s our only duty to make sure that happens.” 

You were quiet for a second before letting out a sigh, “Fine, let’s practice this damn scene. But keep your hands to yourself.” You commented as you wag your fingers at him.

He would only hold his hand up, “I can’t promise you that.” He commented as he looked at you.

For the remaining thirty minutes, you and Aizawa were practicing the lines leading up to the sex scene. However, as you were getting closer to the first action of the sex scene, you could tell how hard Aizawa was staring at you. His eyes burned holes into you, which transmitted so much heat that you fanned yourself with the booklet you were reading from. Was this how it was when you two were in college? Definitely. 

The late nights of essays about some black and white film and even later nights of practicing lines. The memory that was formerly distant in Aizawa’s head was now coming back full force and he too could feel his skin heat up instantly. The two had always had chemistry. Their professor always pointed it out but also pointed out that it was important for them to have chemistry with other people together. 

The stage action of Aizawa has to be the one to make the first move. You remember specifically reading the lines that the kiss was described to be innocent at first, but it gets heated. Very heated which leads to the sex scene. You hated to admit that you were nervous about that scene. Although the long-haired male in front of you has seen you at your most vulnerable moments and placed kisses upon your body, nervous knots still twisted in your stomach. As the last line before the kiss rolled off your tongue, you found yourself closing your eyes and inhaling sharply. You expected him to kiss you. You knew he would. 

And like some love-struck fool, you eagerly kissed back. Your hand clasping at the back of his neck to tug you closer and when you gravitated closer to his body, you could feel how hot Aizawa’s body was. You could feel his tongue trace alongside your tongue as he deepened the kiss. Your lips gasped apart letting him taste you even more. Your hands toyed with the ends of the graphic t-shirt he wore, timidly your hands climbing up his shirt feeling at his toned torso. 

When the two pulled apart completely breathless and brain filled with explicit thoughts, you started at Aizawa. 

“We’re really going to do this?” He questioned, his head tilting slightly. 

Your teeth grazed at your lower lip before nodding. “You said you wanted to improvise right?” You asked. Once again tugging at his t-shirt. 

The smug look on Aizawa’s look caused you to roll your eyes at him. You have seen that look on his face countless times in college. You stepped backward letting him bring his shirt over his head to pull it off. He let the piece of clothing drop to your living room floor. His hands are now going to undo his bottoms. In your mind, you were thinking that you should stop this. That this could complicate the future of the show you two were on.

Co-stars getting extremely personal with each other never ended well. Ian Somerhalder and Nina Dobrev were examples of that. You could tell the chemistry dying down in each scene in The Vampire Diaries once they decided to part ways romantically behind the scenes. 

“We don’t have to do this,” Aizawa murmured. His pants hung loosely around his waist displaying the band of his Calvin Klein boxer briefs. 

“Let’s do it.” You said as you placed kisses on Aizawa's chest. Your lips clashing upon his heated skin sent a bone-chilling shiver down your spine as you only kissed lower and lower. Your tongue carelessly glided down the base of his toned abs as you plopped down to your knees as if you were about to pray your sins away. 

Your hands eagerly tugged down his bottoms. Despite the two of you only sharing a heated kiss, you still could see the print of Aizawa’s cock through his boxers. Your mouth instantly watered at the sight. It was particularly the fact that you haven’t had sex in a while, L.A was filled with many fame-hungry people. So, you thought it was best to keep to yourself. Afraid that when you finally got that big role, your past would come back to haunt you with an exclusive TMZ story. However, this was just Aizawa. You’ve seen him naked before. You’ve made out with him countless times. He had you folded up in the most pornographic way on some days. But even right now, he still left you breathless and nervous. 

The sight of Aizawa’s cock was something that was extremely memorable. If you were graced the opportunity to sit on it or even suck it, you were going to remember it for sure. On lazy days when he’s wearing just sweatpants, your eyes always traveled down to stare at the thick print that poked out through the fabric of his sweats. When it was free of any clothing and rock hard, it always slapped against his torso eagerly to be balls deep into either your throat or cunt. But the one thing you adored the most was the way his happy trail added much more attractive for you to want to let your tongue glide all over his body. 

You swallowed the lump in your throat before eventually letting your puckered lips place a kiss on his pink shaded tip. The taste of precum staining your lips like lip balm before you’re working your magic. The sound of Aizawa’s groan caused heat to rush up to your ears like an excited dog. Your hand palmed at parts that you didn’t have in your mouth yet while your tongue teased at the tip of his dick. Your tongue glides against the shaft of Aizawa's cock and you watched as he playfully rolled his eyes at you.

“Come on baby doll, stop teasing,” He huffs lowly while bucking his hips. 

You let your hand palm his cock for a bit, your hand now coated with your saliva. “Don’t call me that,” You said. “We’re not in college anymore.” You uttered before your mouth was once again full of Aizawa’s cock again. 

Aizawa’s teeth grazed against his lower lip as his hand went up to tug the hair tie out of his hair, letting his black hair fall out of the messy bun it was previously tied into. His dark eyes stared watching the way his cock disappeared in your mouth dug up old feelings, he thought the two of you buried when you graduated. The way your eyes shifted closed taking in the moment drove the actor insane. His hand is placed on your head guiding your movement before eventually bucking his head to feel even more of the pleasurable feeling of your mouth. Strings of hushed profanity words tumbled off his lip and his chest heaved as if he was running a marathon. 

You found yourself spitting more saliva on Aizawa’s cock before once again latching onto it with ease. Once again making eye contact with the actor as his face flushed of its color before he started to speak again, “Sure feels like college, huh?”

You couldn’t help but chuckle at his statement before you notice his hips were bucking forward a bit harshly. The gagging sound bounced off the ways of your apartment and before you knew it, you could feel the tip of your nose brushing against that same happy trail you kept staring at earlier. Your saliva dripping from your mouth making a mess not only on you but on the floors your knees were beginning to bruise from. Your perfectly manicured nails dug into Aizawa’s thighs as you endured the short pleasure of having your ability to breathe taken away from you. When his hand let go of the harsh grip he had on you to gag upon his cock, you pulled away breathless. Saliva and precum dripped out your mouth before you continued to do what you were doing.

Your nails dug into the palm of your hand as your hands were curled into a ball. The lewd gagging sound erupts from the back of your throat with each thrust forward of Aizawa’s hips. Through your teary eyes, you glanced up at Aizawa and you could feel your cunt pulse at the sight of him. It was an exquisite sight to watch him crumble in pure bliss. Feeling the warm ropes of liquid squirt in your mouth with ease as Aizawa’s thrusting grew slow and sloppy. 

When you swallowed the creamy substance, your throat felt like it was on fire. Your lungs still were gasping for air. The shirt you wore was soaked with your saliva and you felt so exhausted. Although you had just experienced one of the best moments of pleasuring someone, you still craved for more. The intense feeling of watching the way Aizawa combed through his disheveled hair a panting mess. You climbed off your knees slowly deciding to claw off the remaining clothes that decorated your body. 

“Let’s go improvise some more.” You bluntly admitted as you would lead him towards your bedroom. 

The interviewer would look between the two actors, obviously sensing the sexual tension. “But will we see more scenes like that between you two? Could you give us a little teaser on that?”

“Hm,” Aizawa brought his hand to his chin to think about the question. “I hope so.” His lips curled into a sly smirk before the interviewer let out a laugh. 

“He’s only saying that to stir up his fangirls.” You rolled your eyes. 

“Or stir up you.” 

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❝ BABY I'M YOURS ❞ + AKI HAYAKAWA

+CWs—» : actor au,film au, explicit smut, afab-reader, mention of Himeno , branding, marking, established relationship, fingering, use of pet-names, f-receiving,sub-reader, pleasure dom aki. Precis - Aki wants to know how you'd look with a little bit of jealousy; wc : 1.5k

+. NOTES—» : this is a part of ‘lights camera action’ collab hosted by @h-shibas + tap here to view more!

“Baby, I'm yours And I'll be yours until the stars fall from the sky Yours until the rivers all run dry In other words, until I die” — Arctic Monkeys

“So, Isn't this good news...that you're again on-screen with Himeno?”, a reporter asks curiously. Aki was surrounded by a mob of reporters, cameramen, fans, and Himeno was standing right beside him. Her hand tucked around Aki’s arm. She became a little fidgety while Aki being as always exclaims, “Well, I suppose if that makes my fans happy and your business is blessed—then I'm at your service; like always.”, with the cockiest smile that he had in him.

The bodyguards hurriedly made way for them to pass through and the flashes won't stop until they both entered the car. Aki Hayakawa, the popular and rising actor who was never accustomed to the crowds is so great at shutting those curious lips. For a cocooned person like him yet he's so great at dodging paparazzi. The handsome, charming man is rather flirty with his co-workers and friends; everyone loves his jolly presence.

But some were burnt with envy too because of his growing fame yet he never disrespects anyone in his line unless provoked. Now, who wouldn't want to have a guy like him in bed? And then there's Himeno, for whom Aki is ready to go to any lengths and Himeno wanted the same. Nah! Scratch that; She wanted the best for him.

Aki’s dancing eyes skimmed through the busy streets while the corner of his lips curled. “What’s with the face?”, Himeno asks to which Aki just beams saying, “Nothing!” Of course, Himeno couldn't help asking, especially when she is confident that he was thinking about you. His face glows differently when you're on his mind and lately, Himeno often catches him smiling like that.

“Honey, I'm home”, his voice echoes through the large halls as he hurriedly steps in closer to the kitchen. It's unusually quiet. He paused for a while thinking you might be in the shower but there wasn't any sound of water running, especially your humming. Aki is quite fond of your habit of singing in the shower and that is why baths with him always end up: you humming a tune as he shampoos your hair. Sometimes he does get naughty. “Okay, stop messing with me, where are you?”, Aki yells standing in the middle of his bedroom.

“Booohhh”, and he stumbles on the couch and eventually falls on the pile of laundry baskets while you burst into laughter. He blankly stares at you as your laughter comes to pause. You extend your arm to help him saying, “How come you always fall for that?” to which he says, “Because a certain someone is still a baby in their head”

“Not me”, you add helping him up. As he stands he places a soft dry kiss on your lips. “How was your day?”, you ask bluntly ignoring his affection and so he curls his hands around your waist; his arms skim under your oversized shirt as he says, “Good. Like very good. Got a chance to work with Himeno again.” His eyes scanned your expressions because you were the first thing to cross his mind the moment he signed the project.

“Woah! Congratulations”, you meekly say rubbing his cheeks with your thumb eyes flying back and forth from his lips to his dark orbs.

“What?”, he asks with a low cackle swinging sideways and finally having you on that soft comfortable bouncing bed. You close your eyes in reflex saying,

“Nothing!” He lets his body fall over yours grunting. You smile rubbing his back thinking how he is just the same as you met two years ago, childlike as always.

Aki props up on his hands, his hair strands grazing his face as he blurts out,

“I don't get it! How are you not jealous?” puckering his lips in a pout.

“Ummm... about what Aki?” you ask, unsure where it suddenly came from.

“Hahaha! Never mind”, he exclaims with a strong exhale. You lean onto his side balancing yourself on your elbow. You slowly speak as you unbuttoned his exquisite suit, “Aki... Himeno will always be a part of your life... I — I don't want both of you getting hurt by such scandal, not again... And no I'm never jealous; because no matter what you'll always find me waiting for you”

Aki blinks, once, twice and then he notices that you went silent when your hands reached over his belly, near the belt. “Go on, why did you stop?”, he whispers boldly palming your face while his thumb rubs your lips.

You melt under his touch and in a flash of the moment he rolls you over. One of his arms is underneath your valley of waistline and the other pulls up your shirt, tucking along your chest line.

The sapphire gaze of his pierces your soul as he lowers his face placing a soft kiss on your belly button while maintaining his eye contact with you. He removes a little bit of your panty to kiss on the reddened elastic mark and as he does your tummy twitches sensing shockwaves of his maddening love.

Aki quickly adjusts himself aligning to your entrance. A mischievous smirk laces his lips as he jocks down yet immediately slides upwards leaving you perplexed. “I love when you look at me like that”, he coos pushing his fingers into your hole.

“Ahhh-ah”, you mewl grabbing his shoulders as he senses your burning restlessness. He takes your lips in his easing your pain a bit, diverting your attention as he starts to thrust rashly.

Aki has always been a fan of quickies; in his car, in the kitchen, before you leave for your work‚he never forgets to show his love for you. Be it just an iota of his playful lips or his handiwork.

“Easy, easy baby girl”, he huffs as you bite onto his neckline yet his pace doesn't slow. You curl your hands around his nape moaning and breathing heavily. And he stops his movements cupping your cunt as strings of warm fluid laces his slick wet fingers.

He rolls over the bed while you sit upright grabbing the water bottle. Aki watches you as you drink water while he blurts out quite an odd bunch of words, “I was wondering how we met...

And...?”, you added raising an eyebrow at him while he plays with his hands and fingers. He's nervous. You walk up to him and sit near his feet asking softly, “What happened?”Aki palms your face making you shut your eyes, while his cobalt gaze soaked you in his sapphire hues as he blurts out, “I want us to stay together. I want to marry you.”

You stand up finding yourself backing away but he locks you in his embrace resting his head against your belly button. He softly speaks in his husky voice that he doesn't want to play this game of hide and seek anymore, doesn't want to know what would make you jealous because it is heart wrenching enough to know how you unfathomably you must love him to not be jealous.

[jotatetsuken]

i don't wanna be okay without you

submission for: @h-shibas's "Lights, Camera, Action" Collab (also, here's wishing the organizer a happy birthday too <33)

type of writing: oneshot

trope: actor au, film au, love triangle (story’s inspired from many Hindi movies, especially Om Shanti Om minus the reincarnation part, iykyk)

warnings: living a hard life in the slums, familial isolation, mentions of pregnancy, mentions of domestic abuse, toxic marriage, mentions of miscarriage, adultery, angst from Erwin, comfort from Levi, Erwin being a sexist director, police arrest, suggestive (implied NSFW, so minors please DNI), please lmk if i miss any more cw . also this is kinda dark so i'm tagging it as dark content just in case

song: i don’t wanna be okay without you - charlie burg

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number of words: 4880

a/n: okay, so this took me A MONTH to do this, and I'm finally finally here. I know I touch on really sensitive topics here, but I've had this story in my head for weeks now, so i hope y'all understand. ALSO, I love Erwin Smith, okay? I've made him a villain for the sake of the plot, nothing else. Likes, comments and reblogs, especially reblogs are appreciated. also, fyi, i do not condone cheating in any way. Also, (Y/N) = Your name, (L/N) = Last Name, (E/C) = Eye Color

Levi was sprinting through the dimly lit halls, pursued by onlookers. When he used to dwell in The Underground, a covert term for the filthiest slums in Mitras, Wall Sheena's most populous city, he had stolen a loaf of bread from the bakery. “Thief, thief,” shouted the crowd behind him as he bolted for his life. He wasn't a coward, and he was a self-taught marksman and martial arts student, but he was in a hurry to assist his ailing mother, Kuchel. She could only eat one loaf of bread at a time. He tripped over a rock while running and was about to drop the loaf of bread when he screamed. As he yelled, his body jolted as he was startled awake by the ringing of his mobile alarm. He grumbled and turned off the alarm, taking deep breaths to bring himself back to reality.

 He sat up and drew his legs closer to him, his elbows on his knees, his face on his open hands, and he groaned nonstop. He had been having recurring nightmares for a long time and had no idea how to stop them. With troubled eyes, he gazed to his left at a framed photo of his mother, who was currently in a coma, hoping that she would recover soon enough to witness his debut in his first cinematic venture. His phone abruptly rang at the right bedside table. He checked the caller ID and saw that it was Furlan, one of his best pals who was now working as an assistant director in the Eldian Film Industry, along with two other people on the conference call.

Levi answers the phone, his jaw clenching in irritation, only to hear his two other close friends, Isabel and Hange, shriek at the fact that Levi was half-naked. “Put on a freaking shirt, Levi bro,” Isabel grumbles, her left arm concealing her eyes while her right grips the phone. He gets out of bed, throws the phone on the bed, looks for a black full-sleeve shirt, puts it on, and returns to the call with a large grunt.

Isabel teases, “It took you long enough, Levi bro.” “Get to the point, Isabel,” Levi continued, grumbling. “Why did you all call me?” says the narrator. Hange rambled on, enthralled. “I hope you remember, Leviiiii, that you have to meet him today.” “Who is he?” Levi wondered, his eyes narrowing. “Erwin Smith, the head of the Survey Corps Productions,” Furlan interjected. “He was the one who cast your mo-” “Shhh!” Isabel says to Furlan, calming him down. “Levi bro doesn't need to be reminded of his mother's lineage.”

“All right, I'll go,” Levi said, sighing. “Now, everyone, hang up, right now. Don't forget to meet me there, four-eyes,” he said, addressing Hange.

They saluted him and said, “Aye, captain,” putting an end to the call. “Ugh, Do I really have to do this?” he grumbled, but then turned to gaze at his mother's photo and replied, “Only for you, ma.”

Levi chose to go by a mononym when he discovered he was descended from the Ackerman family, one of Tinseltown's most prominent families along with the Yeager and Arlert families because he carried animosity towards the clan for isolating his mother when he was born out of wedlock. He'd worked odd jobs, extra roles, and minor actor roles ever since to develop a sense of punctuality, cleanliness, orderliness, and a sense of understanding of the profession so he could help her find work. Until she was involved in an accident and went into a long-term coma, with doctors unsure when she would wake up. That’s when a tall, blonde-haired man with a certain nobility about himself introduced himself to Levi as Erwin Smith, the renowned director. 

“Levi, I was good friends with your mother. Ever since her banishment, I've made it a point to find her work in some capacity.”

Rolling his eyes, Levi says, “Look, Mr. Smith, I understand that you’ve extended your helping hand to my mother in the past, but now you can wash your hands of her,” gesturing to Erwin’s hands, “because she’s in a coma, and there’s nothing you can do to help.”

Erwin adds, folding his arms, “I knew you’d say something like that. Hence, I did not only come here to see Kuchel but also to see you. I'm offering you a lead role in my film, 'Attack on Titan,' as your first major cinematic role. You can then invest your money towards her treatment. How do you feel about that?”

He then turned to face his dying mother, who was still on a ventilator and fighting for her life. He then phoned his manager, Hange Zöe, as well as his best friends, Furlan Church and Isabel Magnolia, who had already entered the film industry, working as assistant directors to Miche Zacharius. They eventually persuaded him to do the film after a long and drawn-out argument. Levi then shook Erwin's hand and agreed to the bargain.

Erwin saw Levi and Hange come into the office with a black polo neck shirt and blue jeans on the first day of the script reading of “Attack on Titan.” “Okay, let's finish this soon,” Levi grunted, to which Erwin replied, “sure, sure, come in. The actress has yet to arrive.”

Suddenly, someone knocked on the door a couple of times before Erwin answered, “Come in,” causing the door to open and you to enter. In addition to your black jeans, you were wearing a white shirt with lace at the top. Every time you showed up, it was as if the entire world came to a halt for Levi.

When Levi saw you for the first time in the film, “Shiganshina Came Crumbling Down,” his eyes lit up. Not only was he in awe of your beauty, but also of the way you carried yourself. When he played small parts in TV shows and movies such as “Escape to Trost,” “Life at the Garrison,” and so on, he gained more respect for you. In your initial encounters and later interactions, you appeared kind to him.

He shook his head in disbelief, “Mr. Smith, am I-” Erwin smiled, continuing, “I remember you said you liked (Y/N) (L/N), so what better way to get to know her than by working with her?”

Both of you shook hands with each other, you stated while smiling, “It will be a pleasure to work with you, Levi,” and he agreed, replying “Same here, Ms. (L/N).” As they sat, she laughed and said, “Please, call me (Y/N). It's okay.”

As she turned to Erwin, Levi noticed that she had a genuine bond with him, one based on love and respect. You honestly felt glad that you had Erwin by your side. He’d been there for your ups and downs and stayed with you by your side. He was your husband after all.

However, because Erwin wanted to keep the marriage a secret (one of the reasons being that the industry is not kind to married women working in films), only both of your friends were the ones that knew, which included Mikasa Ackerman, Eren Yeager, Armin Arlert, Jean Kirstein, Connie Springer, and Sasha Braus. They were the ones who would keep an eye on you and warn you to be cautious around Erwin. Not because he didn't love you; he just had a different way of expressing it.

As you and Levi rehearsed the lines from the script, you both silently noticed that the flow was surprisingly smooth, as if they knew exactly what and how they were going to say the lines. Erwin was ecstatic about the interaction. The script readings went so well for a few days that you all decided to start shooting right away.

Months after the filming began, the level of difficulty gradually increased, especially for Levi. “I don't know how to channel these feelings into acting.”

“That's because you always have a straight face,” Furlan joked, and Isabel laughed along. Levi scowled at both of them, causing them to stand firm.

“Well, why don't you guys bond?” Hange suggested, laughing. “Start talking more, and maybe you guys will eventually help each other, and Leviii, maybe it will benefit you in some way,” they shrugged and grinned at him.

After some thought, Levi responded, “I don't see why that wouldn't be a good opportunity.” “So it's settled,” Erwin said as he clapped. “Levi, you and (Y/N) should get together and practice lines, stat.”

You went to Levi's house that day and began rehearsing the lines. While you two were taking a break, Levi nervously asked, “Would you like anything to drink? Tea, coffee, or something else?” You replied, “I'd like tea with milk, please.” Levi smiled at you, nodding in agreement and relieved that you liked tea as much as he did.

You enjoyed his way of making tea while you two were drinking. “Levi, this is some of the best tea I've ever had!” you exclaimed with twinkling eyes, “how did you learn to make it?”

Levi's eyes became sad as he looked down at the ground and said, “My mother used to teach me. She enjoyed drinking tea like this.”

You placed your hand on his and said, “Erwin informed me of the situation. I'm truly sorry. What is your mother's condition?”

Levi sighed, “She's doing okay, but I'm...,” his voice becoming softer as his shoulders sagged. “I'm terrified, (Y/N). What if she doesn't make it? Everything will be for naught.”

You took a deep breath and held his hand, “Levi, if it weren't for Erwin, I wouldn't be here today. As the world knows, the (L/N) family is well-known, but it wasn't always that way. They were in shambles and were unable to support themselves. When I was seven years old, my parents split, and I was raised by two families, one of whom, the (L/N) family, became famous. It was through them that I first met Erwin. Our conversation finally led to a strong friendship. However, both of my families liked to tell me what to do, how to eat, and how to look, and that bothered me a lot, it made me feel uncomfortable within my skin, but then Erwin promised them that he’d take care of me and I moved out of the house ever since.”

“The fact that I’m able to be the way I want to be where I am, was because I chose to do so,” you continued, putting your hand on Levi’s shoulder, smiling, “and so can you. I’m very sure that your mother loves you very much and wants nothing but the best for you. I know you’re doing this for her, and she must already be proud of you for going through this regardless.”

He turned to you with a sorrowful expression, his anxious breaths slowly calming down, smiling at you, “thank you, (Y/N). It meant a lot, and I’m sorry I had no idea you were going through a lot.”

Nodding, you smiled at him, and like gravity was trying to set you two up, you were about to stand up, but because your feet were sore, you stumbled and were about to fall off your chair, only for Levi to catch you. Both of you couldn’t explain what this pull you had towards each other but as you were going to give in to the moment, your faces approaching each other, you’re brought back to reality with a jolt as you receive a phone call from Erwin.

“Hi, Erwin,” you answer the call, and you hear from the other side, “babe, are you still at Levi’s house? Let me pick you up.” You nod, “yes, Erwin, I’m here. Thank you, please let me know whenever you’re here.”

You two adjust your clothing as if you were about to commit a travesty. “Can we not-” you start, but Levi interrupts you, “don’t worry, I won’t tell Erwin or anyone. Thank you, for everything.”

You nodded, thanking Levi, as you got a call from Erwin, where he informs you that he had reached. Levi waved goodbye to you as you got into the car with Erwin, who said, “I miss you, baby,” as he kissed you on the cheek, and you smiled while he drove you home.

Over the next few days, shooting continued as usual, but suddenly, one day, you felt uneasy, nauseated, even. So you said you would be back in five minutes. That five minutes turned into an hour. Erwin checked on you in the meantime, and another hour passed by.  

Levi was then sent to your vanity car to call for you but as he approached you, he could hear you crying from outside. So, to avoid being caught, he stayed out of their line of vision, while peering through their window. “Babe, I can’t do this, I can’t hide whatever we have with us,” you vent to Erwin as Levi overhears with a confused expression.

“(Y/N),” Erwin said with a straight face, “you know that the fans of the Elysian Film Industry are not kind towards married women,” causing Levi to gasp silently in shock, but what was said next, caused him to go blank for a while, “let alone be married to me and be the mother of our child.”

In trying to comprehend what he had just heard, Levi realized he needed to get out of their sight before Erwin saw him. Thus, he hid behind the vanity car. His heart sank as he squatted on the ground, shocked to learn that his romantic interest was married and pregnant. It irked him more as he realized that you had to hide all of this due to prejudice against married women.

A moment later, he contemplated walking out of the film shooting, the reason being that it hit too close to home. He was reminded of why he hated this industry, to begin with, because his mother was isolated from him by it. Even so, he was determined not to leave you behind as he wiped the tears from his cheeks despite not having realized they were flowing. Instead, he will be by your side every step of the way.

Levi waited for Erwin to go before knocking on your door and calling out to you as he clenched his fist and clicked his tongue in annoyance. As Erwin left, he knocked, “Can I come in, (Y/N)?” You responded, “sure, please come in,” sniffling and wiping away your tears as you put on a phony grin.

When Levi enters, he kneels alongside you and takes your hand in both of his. He looks at you, concernedly. “(Y/N)? Is everything alright with you? Can I help you in any way?”

Even though you smiled, cupped his cheek, and said, “I'm fine, Levi. Thank you for taking such good care of me. I was just sick, that’s all,” he wasn't convinced by your response, but he was willing to overlook it all for the sake of your well-being.

Because you weren't feeling well during the next few days, production had to wind up early. Levi had noticed that your face had turned pale and you'd lost your usual pleasant smile one day at the shooting when you opted to leave early. Your shoulder had a bruise that he could see through. He sensed something had happened to you, and he was determined to find out what it was.

This time, Levi was the one who came home to see you, and when your butler opened the door, he was momentarily astonished, as if he had seen a ghost. Your face looked pale, your makeup was streaked with tears, there was a lot of material all over the place, and you were sobbing hysterically.

“(Y/N), are you okay? Please tell me what happened!” he exclaimed as he ran to you and took you in his arms. He looked at you with sad eyes, softly asking, “It’s okay, shhh,” quieting you, “I’m here. So, please, tell me what happened.”

That’s when you wrapped your arms around him, sobbing, “Levi, my baby, she’s gone. I had a miscarriage. Ever since then, Erwin’s been rude and distant with me, in private,” and showed her shoulders that had bruises, marks that most likely looked like from being hit. You continued, sniffling, “I even suspect that he's been cheating on me.”

This pissed Levi off but as he was about to suggest halting the production of the film, you said, sniffling, “Listen, Levi, we’re going ahead with the film. I don’t want this film’s reputation to be marred by this, it’ll cause a scandal and I don’t want that right now, so please, can we still do the film?”

He caressed your head and said, “okay, but I’ll be staying with you in the vanity car as a ruse for practicing lines. I want to protect you,” and that caused you to nod.

For the next few days, you hide your emotions and pain and channel it through acting out certain scenes. Erwin felt would make this your best performance, when in truth, you're terrified of his behavior if things go wrong.

However, the ambiance deteriorated. Erwin treated you rudely anytime you made a minor mistake, forcing you to shudder and be afraid of him. He insulted you in front of everyone by stating that he took you from nothing and made you the actress you are right now and that you needed to pull yourself together.

You were irritated especially since this was the first time he criticized you in public, but the completion of the project was critical to you. As you returned to the vanity car to rehearse lines, you found safety in Levi, who was wise beyond his years. He, a rookie, supplied more insight into his character than any seasoned actor you'd dealt with, and he incorporated that into their methods. It had gotten to the point where you only felt comfortable in the vanity car or other places where you hung out with Levi.

During one such vulnerable moment, in the vanity car, you were crying while he was hugging you. “Levi,” you sniffled, as you two were sitting in the car, “I don’t understand why he’s being rude to me, he’s not spoken a word of kindness to me these past few days, and I’m scared that he’ll leave me.”

Levi cups your cheeks with his hands and says, “If I were you, I’d walk out of the movie and the marriage, because you deserve much better, but I know that you’re a champion and you’ve handled him so far, I believe you can handle him till the end of the film. You should leave him, though,” smiling at you while wiping the tears off your face.

He examined your face for a moment, and looked at you in sheer awe. “(Y/N), do you have any idea how beautiful you are?”

Suddenly, something sparked in his mind as he took something out of his bag to give you something. It was a snow globe that had the figures of two of them kissing while the snow was falling. As he keeps the snow globe to a side, in awe of him and everything that he’d been doing, you put your hands around his neck, draw your face closer to him and place a peck on his lips. Levi was expectedly dumbfounded by this action but closed his eyes anyway to not let go of the moment.

However, what was supposed to be a peck evolved into something else as your lips start to lock with each other, and you two end up kissing hard, as your fingers raked through his hair and he places his hand on the nape of your neck. A good amount of time passed by as you two were kissing only for realization to hit you hard as you forcefully released yourself from the kiss. “Levi, this, this can’t happen.” You stutter as Levi nods, and while both of you stayed silent, both of you realized that this was the best kiss that each other had in the longest time.

Despite that moment, everyone behaved professionally, not wanting to interrupt the shooting schedule, ensuring the film’s success. However, both of you were oblivious to the fact that ever since the accidental kiss you two shared, you're all he thought about, and he was all that you thought about.

You were the light in his life that was shrouded in darkness, and he was the escape that you needed from your harsh reality. As his Instagram account was established, and he uploaded the photographs that Furlan forced him to upload from the photoshoot, many people loved him, and many people judged each other for loving him and claiming him to be theirs, but one day, when the shooting ended, as you turned to him while you were walking away with Erwin, the languages that your eyes spoke said a thousand words to each other than flattery ever could. You two were truly in love with each other in a world full of facades, and you didn’t want to be okay without each other.

During your usual hangout at your vanity car, once you were done rehearsing the lines, you stared into each other’s eyes continuously, and with panting breaths, it hit you two that both of you realized that you liked each other and couldn’t stay away from each other. That’s when you gave in to your desires as you drew your faces closer to each other enveloping yourselves into a deep kiss as you move back to the bedroom that you’d made for quick naps.

As the clothes started to peel off each other’s bodies, the sheets were witness to a new love story blossoming as Levi kissed you in places that had the bruises, which caused you to wince, but he didn’t lose eye contact with you, because before you went back to shooting, he needed to express how deeply in love with you he was.

This didn’t end up being a one-time thing as every day, whenever you two finished practicing, you two would sleep with each other. You thus started a tryst with Levi unbeknownst to Erwin, who was clearly in awe of the way you two acted eventually in the scene, bringing the passion you two had for each other towards the film.

You didn’t just get closer to Levi physically. You two talked more often, connected on a deeper level than you with Erwin, and he introduced you to Furlan and Isabel, who accepted you wholeheartedly and were willing to defend you with all they had. Hange, while being friendly with you, warned the both of you, suggesting that you two be careful as Erwin would make life uneasy for you if he found out.

When Mikasa found out about the situation, she was concerned and doubtful about Levi’s intentions. However, once they met, she realized that he truly possessed the blood of an Ackerman. Stern and stubborn, yet kind-hearted deep down and accepted him wholeheartedly, willing to pitch in to help in however she could to ensure Kuchel’s recovery. During this time, Erwin and you had a big argument which led to you exclaiming that you were moving out of the apartment, and you then moved into Isabel’s apartment to ensure you and Levi continued to meet in secret to avoid any scandal. 

Five months later, the production was wrapped up and the film was set to release. A day before the private screening, Erwin called you, “(Y/N), are you excited about the private screening? I’d like it for us to go together.”

You scowled and were dumbfounded by his audacity to still appear on good terms in public. “Listen, Erwin,��� you retorted, sitting up on the couch while you were initially lying down, “no matter how much you cajole me to come back to you, it’s not going to work. You’d made me feel miserable about myself ever since I had the miscarriage. Do you think I depended on you to get out of my miserable past? No, I chose to go with you. We married each other, remember? Or no, your reputation is too important for you, more important than our marriage!”

Erwin laughed maniacally as fear gripped you with his tone changing to something that she’d never heard. “Oh, poor (Y/N),” Erwin smirked, “did you think I’ll let the baby come into the world while we were supposed to be the most successful couple? Hah!” He scoffed, “absolutely not! Isn’t that right, Petra baby?” Petra? Baby?

You thought to yourself for a moment as it clicked. “Wait, Erwin,” you inquired, “did you cause the-” Erwin laughed again, as he responded arrogantly, “yes! I was the one who caused the miscarriage. Remember when I asked my assistant, Petra, to serve you tea before I came to call for you?”

Your eyes widened in the realization that that day, Erwin slipped a pill in the tea, that caused you to feel uneasy and that’s how you eventually lost the baby. You started seeing red as you clench your fists in rage, but as your (E/C) orbs land on the picture of the two of you in the hall, an idea pops in your mind as you take a deep breath and tell Erwin with a cunning smile, “you know what? Let’s go! There’s no point in arguing, right?”

As you walk in your red halter neck gown with Erwin and Levi to the private screening, several pictures were taken by different paparazzi. As you posed with different supporting actors, and finally, when you posed with Erwin and with Levi, people could observe the difference in your interactions. All of you went inside the theater, and as all of you saw the final product, Levi and you secretly held hands as you two saw that every scene was picturized beautifully and for his debut, Levi created magic on screen.

After coming out of the screening, Erwin was interviewed by Connie who had opted to be one of the interviewers for the screening. “Hello, Connie,” Erwin greeted him with a smile, following which Connie grinned, replying, “Hello, Mr. Erwin, I hope you can spare a couple of seconds for an interview.” Erwin nodded, causing Connie to tell Sasha to roll the camera and Jean to make notes. “So, Mr. Erwin,” Connie asked, “how did you like your film?” Erwin beamed and continued, “I can’t be more proud of my casting choices. As always, (Y/N) has left her mark on screen as one of the most talented actresses, period, but it was Levi’s night tonight as he shone on screen. He is a force to be reckoned with.”

Connie smiled, continuing, “that’s wonderful. Speaking of (Y/N), we’ve heard from different sources, that you two are actually married in secret, and that she even bore your child, is that true?”

Erwin scowled on hearing this, but put up a fake smile, saying, “Even if it was true, the industry sadly makes fun of married women, saying that they don’t deserve to work, so you should be able to understand why we kept our marriage a secret?”

Not fazing from his stance, Connie then asked a hard-hitting question. “Ah, that makes sense. Is that why you caused her to have a miscarriage?”

Erwin widened his eyes in shock, how did people come to know? Nervously laughing, Erwin said, “oh, but that’s nonsense. Who told you that?”

That’s when he heard a voice from a distance who replied, “I did,” Levi approached Erwin and Connie and replied, “Erwin, I thank you for the opportunity that you gave me. Working with you gave me the confidence I didn’t know I needed. However, I dug deep into some articles, and I realized that it was you, who reported to the press that my mother was pregnant with me, causing her to be isolated from the family. I also know, that my once close friend, Petra Ral, who now works with you, is now dating you. So, when I came to Isabel's house, I noticed that you and (Y/N) talking over the phone. So, I found a way to record the conversation and once I recorded the conversation, I found enough arsenal needed to take you down. So I took the tape to Mikasa, who took it to Eren and Armin, who then took it to Connie, Jean, and Sasha and we devised a plan, together.”

That’s when Levi’s uncle, Kenny Ackerman, a senior superintendent in the Military Brigade of Mitras, cuffed Erwin’s hands with Sasha continuing to record the whole thing. “Erwin Smith,” Kenny ordered, “you are under arrest for…”

As Kenny was reading out the crimes Erwin was arrested for, Levi walked away from there and ran to you to hug you. Your hug then caught the attention of a section of paparazzi. “It’s all over now, baby. We can be together without any fear and I promise to support you in every way,” he tells you while you smile, seeing that justice was finally served. 

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