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Date: May 1st, 2020

Mood: Flowerish.

Topic: Today, Walk.

Hello my flower power peeps.

For someone that used to take a walk every day, this whole quarantine is messing with my life. But today me and my boyfriend decided to take a walk, when most people would be eating. ( so less people around, Social Distancing )

It felt really nice for both of us to be outside and just feel a bit normal again. Being told to stay inside and only go for necessary things outside is hard. Because besides groceries we don't really have anything that is necessary.

Just doing things for fun is why we go outside. Walking around and looking at the flowers or being a kid and play in a play yard on the swing and slides. But we can't do those things now.

But like I said before today we took a walk, it was nice. It was clearing our minds and just fresh. I feel recharged after it. ( also very hungry but my love is gonna fix that ;) )

So there were a few flowers that we encountered and as two people that love spring I had to take a picture of it.

The rain was so nice, ( specially for my allergies )

Those were some photos of the other day when I did some groceries for me and my mom. She has those very perfect spring-like plants in her garden. Always makes me happy.

~ Liz

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Date: April 23, 2020

Mood: Deep thoughts.

Topic: Celeb Quote.

Good evening / Good morning.

Sooo my boyfriend introduced me to comedy, something that I knew existed but I just didn't find a lot of what people did funny.

Which kinda should be, comedy should be considered funny, right?

So when my boyfriend told me about a comedian that I never even heard of, I was intrigued.

Louis CK.

Some of you might know him from his 2017 scandal, some of you know him because he is freaking hilarious.

Well I know him because of my boyfriend, and I found him funny, I laughed so hard at some of his jokes that I thought I peed my pants. But then I found out about his scandal.

It made me rethink some stuff, but it never changed the fact that I still think he is hilarious. ( I would love to say some of his jokes here, but he has a specific kind of humor, that not everyone appreciates, so let's not. )

But he is more than that, he is pretty damn smart in some ways. For example take this quote.

" When a person tells you that you hurt them, you don't get to decide that you didn't "

I mean, don't we all know someone that would say that they didn't hurt you. Not knowing how much courage it took you to finally be able to tell them that they hurt you. And then they just respond like that, like they don't care at all.

To all those people that react like that I want to say; " You did hurt me."

Just try not to do it the next time because you don't know how I can effect people. Own up to what you say. Be an adult.

~Liz

P.s. if you do like some kind of harsh humor that could be considered dark. Lots of now-a-day topic but with a twist. I REALLY RECOMMEND YOU WATCH HIS freaking COMEDY SPECIALS!!

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Date: April 16, 2020

Mood: Powerfull

Topic: A short piece of mind about kindness towards girls.

There are some crucial moments in a girl's life, some more crucial than others but all of them are important to shape a girls mind and soul.

Like picking out her clothes to wear, when she is 3 years old and just choosing the dress that twirls when she is dancing, or when she is 6 years old and she is actually thinking hard about what to wear. Or when she is 17 and going on her first real date.

The way her parents are disciplining her, with patience and care, telling her why something isn't right to do or say. Or just without her knowing why yelling at her for doing something wrong, without telling her why it is wrong that she was doing that.

Her first kiss, that moment she choose very carefully. She is ready for it, wearing the right amount of lip gloss and playing with her hair, hoping that her crush would get the hints and go for it.

But all of those crucial moments are involved with other people, how are they going to react to her outfit, how her parents are treating her, is her crush going for the kiss or rejecting her.

So be kind to a young girl, your sister, your mom, your grandma, your female friends, coworkers, boss.

Just be kind.

~ Liz

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Date: April 27, 2020.

Mood: confused, scared.

Topic: pregnancy ( scare )

Hello,

Okay, so something a bit more serious this time around. Around two weeks ago I thought I was pregnant. Which is totally not possible since I have the IUD. The thing they put in there that makes sure you can't get pregnant.

But to hell with that logic, I felt like I was pregnant. Although I have never been pregnant before, I was certain it was true.

My breasts were hurting and bigger than normal, I wanted to eat all kinds of weird foods that I normally don't like that much. My belly felt different, but most of all it was that feeling I just had.

So after dealing with that thought for a bit, not telling my boyfriend because I wasn't sure yet. And I didn't wanna make him freak out. But it was hard to just keep to myself.

I started acting a bit different because I was just so scared and confused. I didn't want to have a baby yet. Or did I ? Yeah I did. I wanted a baby. I want a baby.

I want a baby so badly, I think I would be a good mom. Specially now with my boyfriend, he would be the best dad and he makes me such a better person. So a better mom. But I know that right now it isn't smart, the whole quarantine thing that is going on, plus money is quite tight lately.

We are simply not ready for a baby, not right now. So when me and my boyfriend had a small argument right before bed and I got way to upset, I decided to tell him. And he freaked out.

He went into sitting fetus pose and started rocking himself, when the news that I might be pregnant started to sink in he had attention for me. He hugged me and told me that whatever the result would be, he would be here for me or us.

And I just started crying like I was the baby while he held me and told me how much he loves me. We decided that we needed to go and get a pregnancy test first thing the next morning.

So when I was more calm and relaxed we just stayed in bed talking about how it would be if I was pregnant and he just became so perfect, he started to hug me and kiss me. And soon we were doing the thing that got us into this situation. But it was magical.

When I asked him afterwards ( not during ofcourse ) why he suddenly reacted like that, he just told me that the thought of me being a mom, carrying his child was a love turn on for him. And there I went again, full on crying like a baby.

He hold me and kept on saying all the right things before I was calm enough to go to the bathroom and splash some water in my face. Trying to get the puffiness down so that we could fall asleep later. So we cuddled so close that it felt like we wanted to consume each other. And we fell asleep.

The next morning, I woke up and I had to pee like I never had to pee before, but I needed to save my precious pee for the test. So I woke him up and we were outside within 5 minutes. ( feeding the cat and him peeing and getting dressed ofcourse )

I went into the store and bought the test, walked back to the car and we both were nervous. The drive of less than 10 minutes just seemed to be triple that. So finally at home, I go to the toilet and do my thing.

5 minute wait.

Time is done, we go into the bathroom to check it out. Negative, not pregnant.

Not pregnant.

I was so happy, that nothing was going on. Everything is okay, and is going to stay the same. My boyfriend and I hugged each other and for the rest of the day we just did our normal thing.

Later that night we had the talk again, kinda sad that I am not pregnant, and how nice it would have been if we could have started our family together. It was a nice talk, good talk.

So fast forward to now, I kinda had my period... it wasn't like my normal periods. Not sure what to think about all of that. I still have weird moments, wanting to eat late at night, wanting things I usually don't want to eat, breasts are still bigger, nauseous way more than normal, and everything in my head is just. Babies babies babies babies babies babies babies.

We will see what will happen, what is going on. But for now, nothing to really worry about.

~Liz

P.s. this song has been stuck in my mind!

Natasha Bedingfield - I wanna have your babies.

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Date: April 27, 2020

Mood: Goofy.

Topic: Clothes, Boyfriend wears my clothes!

Hello Curious Monkey,

I bet this image made you think. Is her boyfriend a cross dresser? Is he a closeted transgender? Is he just weird ( well duh! ) what is going on there?

Okay let me start with the beginning, when we were dating I used to steal uhh borrow his sweaters and t-shirts. Specially if they still smell like him! Nothing weird so far huh.

Well that is about to change! So one day he was really cold while he was with me and he didn't have a sweater ( that I didn't "borrowed " or that was warm enough ) so I gave him one of mine.

A bit of information, I am quite the curvy girl that used to be ashamed of her curves, so I have a lot of sweaters that are lots of sizes to big for me. However, my boyfriend is just shaped " normally " well he is way taller than me, so somethings are quite short but he can fit in them.

So he fell in love with that sweater, I haven't worn it ever since, because now it is his go-to sweater.

But this get more weird, he even tried on one of my pants, the ones with the build in belt, that you just kinda have to tie together, so they will stay on. It looked funny but adorable on him.

But that is not the only clothing items he has worn that are mine, when we used to take walks. ( we barely make them anymore since QuarantineLife.) And I would be wearing a jacket he would take it from me and put is on, pretending to be me for the goofs.

But what really made me think about this, what made me start to write this blog is seeing him in my leggings, you know those thight fitting things that your wear with skirts when it is a bit colder.

Well that is his go-to quarantine "pants" but my hips are way bigger than his, so it doesn't even fit him right. So he has to keep pulling them up, or just walk around with his boxers showing more than they should.

But you know what, I love him even more because of this. He is not afraid to be himself, to do whatever he wants and it makes me appreciate his butt even more when he is wearing his jeans. Damn his butt...

Have a good day or night!

~Liz

P.s. it is King's Day here in the lovely Netherlands, and we can't even go outside in our stupid orange outfits to celebrate.

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Date: April 24, 2020

Mood: Proud.

Topic: Boyfriend, GameDev.

Hello all,

So I had this little victory today (Yay), and I want to share it with you guys!

Okay so, my boyfriend, who is incredible, is a Video Game Designer/Developer. Yeah, that is a thing.

Before him, I will be honest, I kinda just thought that those games I love to play just appeared online or in the stores so that we can play it. But ofcourse there has to be someone that thinks of the games and actually makes them.

So my boyfriend is one of them, and this post isn't going to be me just telling you how amazing he is, even though he definitely is.

No this is going to be about how proud I am of myself for finally understanding him enough to be of help. Let me tell you this first, he never made me feel like my opinions didn't matter or were invalid but they also weren't top notch.

So today he was working with a light engine for his new game, and something felt off. So when he asked me to face it a look to see what a "consumer" would think I could actually say something that made him think. And even though my answer wasn't exactly the answer, it did help him find out what was wrong so he could fix it.

And for some that might not feel like a thing to be proud of, or a victory. However for me it feels like such a big think.

I am now closer to understanding him and his work. Which is also his passion and his hobby. So it is a big thing for him.

So for the victory of the day, me understanding and helping my boyfriend. #Proud

~Liz

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Date: April 24, 2020

Mood: Proud.

Topic: Boyfriend, GameDev.

Hello all,

So I had this little victory today (Yay), and I want to share it with you guys!

Okay so, my boyfriend, who is incredible, is a Video Game Designer/Developer. Yeah, that is a thing.

Before him, I will be honest, I kinda just thought that those games I love to play just appeared online or in the stores so that we can play it. But ofcourse there has to be someone that thinks of the games and actually makes them.

So my boyfriend is one of them, and this post isn't going to be me just telling you how amazing he is, even though he definitely is.

No this is going to be about how proud I am of myself for finally understanding him enough to be of help. Let me tell you this first, he never made me feel like my opinions didn't matter or were invalid but they also weren't top notch.

So today he was working with a light engine for his new game, and something felt off. So when he asked me to face it a look to see what a "consumer" would think I could actually say something that made him think. And even though my answer wasn't exactly the answer, it did help him find out what was wrong so he could fix it.

And for some that might not feel like a thing to be proud of, or a victory. However for me it feels like such a big think.

I am now closer to understanding him and his work. Which is also his passion and his hobby. So it is a big thing for him.

So for the victory of the day, me understanding and helping my boyfriend. #Proud

~Liz