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yiyivv · 7 months ago

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Tech savvy or not, we ride in the digital world

The worst feeling you could ever make me feel is the feeling of seeing that your phone did not charge overnight and you have to be outside of your home. Yeah, sucks right. This is a big manifestation that technology and digital life is deeply engraved in my day to day life, almost to the point where I could not live without it.

Same as everyone else right now, I use my phone religiously and here are some of the ways I use it to my advantage and maybe disadvantage in my everyday life.

Firstly, as a full time 3rd year nursing student, I use my phone and laptop for academic purposes. My college is in a hybrid learning modality meaning, we study in an offline and online setup. For online classes, my phone and my laptop are my besties. They are the ones I use to access Google Meet, and Zoom, which are our primary meeting sites. Moreover, I use my phone and laptop to access my modules, submit assignments, answer quizzes, and track my academic performance through Canvas Instructure. I believe that it's quite nice that we were offered online learning as it serves as a break for me as it saves me from the very and I mean VERRRRY hectic traffic en route to school. Although, during the beginning of this online set-up, there were some difficulties that I have experienced. I was less tech-savvy back then compared to how I am right now. Back then, I didn't have a nice computer nor phone that could handle online classes and it was stressful but after a few adjustments, I am now able to do it comfortably.

I'm the type of person who cannot do anything without music playing in the background. I use music as a motivation to complete my tasks and finish work. It feels really boring doing things without music, that's why I use my laptop with loud speaker or my phone and headphone to blast my favorite music while I do things. Also, as an avid k-pop fan, I use technology, especially social media to be updated of new music releases from my favorite groups. If I have the money, I also go to online shopping sites and buy a physical album of my favorite groups to be delivered to me cuz ya know life is dull without some music right?

Aside from being a full time student, I am also active in school organizations. I recently scored a position as a public relations officer in a university wide organization in my college and I was given the task to make creative media to be used for our events and from then on, I developed an interest in creating anything digitally. One achievement I had accomplished recently was that my design was used for our school merch. I wouldn't have accomplished this skill and that feat if it weren't for technology. Thank god for free YouTube tutorials on how to use Adobe Photoshop and Canva. It is because of these apps, I now have a new hobby. I can now continue my hobby and passion for art and creation in the digital world~

Speaking of hobby, I also spend some time playing games in my laptop or in my phone. I am hooked to games such as Valorant, Genshin Impact, and now Love and Deepspace. Gaming is a nice break from acads and help me relieve stress through playing games that I find really enjoyable. It always fascinates me how amazing technology has gotten to the point where the graphics in these games almost look realistic. Due to my frequent gaming sessions, I actually had some thoughts of learning how to build games but for now, that's a plan that would probably won't be acted upon on by me for a while.

Lastly, I use technology to communicate with my friends or significant others. A little TMI, I am actually very shy talking to people in real life (aside from talking to my close friends, I really am shy) . This is why I prefer online communication. I can be more confident in speaking my feelings, thoughts and ideas online than in real life. Although I have a disdain with calls, I love texting and chatting. There could be exceptions to this though, 'cause I enjoy hanging out on Discord with my friends to study together. One core memory I have with online calls with friends is us staying up late every day just to study for our oral revalida and it was nice having all those people stay up with you while you study. It was also easier for us to hang out and continue talking even after we all went our separate ways after school 'cause the gap could be bridged through online communication.

I have also met friends from different countries because of online chatting and being on social media. I want to share this experience I will forever treasure. This experience will always be in my heart and tbh it's been my Facebook profile pin for years already. Back in 2020, during the height of the pandemic, everyone was forced to be inside of their homes with everything running through the Internet. I spent most of my days hanging out in social media and listening to a radio show by my favorite idol. From that radio show, I met people from different countries and made friends with them, and I'm proud to say that even up until now, our friendship is as tight as it was before. That newfound friendship with strangers I met online led us to being noticed by this idol of ours in his radio show and it was an experience that only happens once in a lifetime.

All in all, technology, even though you're tech-savvy or not could bring so many good things to you. Technology gives you the power to reach things that you once thought was impossible. It is just up to the holder on how they'll use this power.

This has been my sharing of how technology runs deep in my life. If you wish to share yours, feel free to drop them in the replies or reblog with your own story.

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itshesdimples · 4 years ago

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-Hello to anyone reading. This is my first time writing something and putting it out for the world to see. That being said, I would love any constructive criticism you have to give me. Thank you for any support you may give me, I cant thank you enough xoxo ~H -

I remember the day as if it were yesterday; the day you crossed the unimaginable line.

I thought we had everything, I thought I was your everything.

2 MONTHS AGO

"Hey sunshine, just calling to let you know I wont be able to make it home this time. I'm sorry, the label has me doing something that I'm not sure is a good idea but they say it will help me in the long run." He sighs at the end, I imagine him palming his forehead.

"Look, I need you to listen to me when I tell you that you are everything to me, you make me want to become the best version of myself. During the months we have been together I have seen the best and worst side of you and I'm not running, promise. I want you to be mine forever, do you hear me? Just remember that." Harry expelled.

You were a little worried, seeing as you two had been together for a little over nine months and it was extremely rewarding. The time apart has always been different to the other relationships she had been in the past but with Harry it seemed like more than she had ever received from the previous men.

As a surgical intern you work countless hours and never really get more than a few hours to yourself, so when you met Harry you really never saw it going anywhere. You were just too happy for your own good, openly expressing your life to perfect strangers and expecting them all to be accepting of who you are.

* 9 MONTHS AGO*

The hospital you worked at allotted 80 hours a work week and as hopeful as you may be feeling, there is a little voice in the back of your head telling you not to go bar hopping. "Just one drink and then water." you emphasize to your good friend Mike, the bartender.

"Vodka soda coming right up, Dr. Demanding." He chuckles. You turn around in the chair and stare at all the fellow drunks, looking for your intern comrades who should be here by now.

Although you dont find your friends, you spot a very handsome, familiar face coming toward you. Admiring the face across from you, you decide to take the first step following by the downing of your vodka soda. " You dont seem to be familiar with the very famous bar here in town so you must not be from around here," you tease, holding out your hand to shake. "I'm [Y/N]. Not to sound weird but have we met before?" You get a very bold feeling of deja vu but laugh it off. "I'm sorry, my friends are supposed to be here by now and I'm socially handicapped, sometimes I dont know when to stop talking." Now you're just rambling at the breathtaking man in front of you and feeling red in the cheeks.

"Its alright love, I sometimes feel socially handicapped around exquisite women such as yourself. Actually, that sounded like you're one of hundreds but I-- what I meant to say was that, you seem a little lonely. Can I buy you a drink?" He rambles, tugging at his jacket.

"I am only allowed one drink, I know it sounds weird but I'm on a ticking time bomb, you see this?" You pull out your pager, "any moment this thing will go off and I have to skip back to work like a dreamy little school girl but inside I am dying of starvation, need a beer and twenty hours sleep." You just keep spitting up word vomit and your face is permanently pink but you just cant stop because what if it gets quiet? Now that's when it gets awkward.

"I don't think we have ever met because I'd remember you" Harry confirms, looking you up and down your shapely body. "What do you do for a living that has you on such a tight leash?" Taking a sip of his beer, he stands up and walks next to the chair you're sitting in.

"Surgical intern, Dr. [Y/L/N] at your service, sir." You cant help but crack a little bit of the tension you have building up in your stomach while talking to him but that doesn't stop you from staring him in the eyes and trying your best to flirt.

The aura around him is too intoxicating, too much to handle without trying to add a little humor in the mix. "I like it when you call me sir, Dr. [Y/L/N] but how long have you been a doctor? I'd love to get to know you before you have to leave me." He articulates, trying to captivate her attention.

"I love my job but it has been a long winded road, it feels like years but I've only been a real doctor for a little over two months. It takes a lot out of me but that is why I'm glad I have two great friends who I can lean on. We keep each other afloat and they're also my roommates. I don't know where I would be without them." All of that poured out of my mouth before I had the chance to cork it but I couldn't help telling him something about myself that was at least surface level.

He just seems like an eerie case of the best illusion I've ever seen. I cant help but shake the feeling that I've known him all my life, like telling him the ins-and-outs of my life wouldn't be detrimental to my health.

"Now tell me something about yourself. For starters maybe your name? I've never seen you here before and I'm here all the time so I'm pretty good at knowing who is an out of towner, and I don't know how much time I have left." You're trying to get to know him and that is so unlike you. Having had boyfriends in the past, you were never the one asking the questions or wanting to get to know them more than a few dates and drinks. The longest relationship you have ever had was two months and you two went to high school together.

"Hi I'm Harry, and I don't know how much longer I get to sit next to you so please can I have your number, sunshine? I would love to take you for dinner sometime soon." Harry is going out on a whim asking for your phone number but keeps going, "From what I have gathered you are a very busy woman and I admire that, love it even. I know this sounds crazy but I feel like I know you already and I have never felt that with another person so please give me a chance, I will work around your schedule. I dont care what it--" he is stopped when your pager goes off as an emergent patient being admitted, all hands on deck you assume.

"Sunshine, huh? I like it." You wink at him and ask Mike for a pen so you can scrawl your number on a napkin and thank Harry for a very pleasant chat. It was good to know that he felt for you, as you did him after just meeting the man, and his nickname for you was adorable.

For the next two weekends you spent getting to know Harry on a personal note. He told you he loved writing music, performing and was already an amazing talent. Harry showed you his latest music and you wondered how you hadn't connected the dots sooner. You knew he was a very private person, as he told you on your first date.

(FLASHBACK)

"I'd love to get to know your friends, and see what kind of person you are. I can't wait to know you but I just want you to know that I can't have a lot of people knowing what is going on in my personal life." He sighs, you two sat down at dinner and he couldn't help but spit out what he wanted to tell you when you first met. "I don't want to sound pretentious or come off as someone who cares about his appearance to others but I have to tell you that I make music for a living and have quite the lot of fans. Screaming fans to be exact, " he chortles, asking the waiter for a bottle of wine to start off, "but I can't help but love them all. They made my career but I have to remain a private person. I adore my fans but they are very protective and I don't want our relationship to struggle because of a few of them saying unkind things." He grabs your hand and looks you in the eyes, trying to make you understand the reason for privacy.

"I've never met anyone like you Harry and I meet a lot of people on the regular. You have this way about you that draws me in and I want to get to know you. If that means that I cannot post my gushing about you on social media, so be it. I really like you and would like to know who you are." You declare, hoping he understands that he as a person means more than everyone understanding her lifestyle choices.

(END OF FLASHBACK)

Tonight was the night you knew you wanted to understand him on an even more personal level. You knew that the way you felt for him wasn't a normal crush, wasn't even a normal type of love. You knew he had the power to hurt you if he wished to do so but that was so far in the back of your mind. He meant so much to you already that it didn't matter you two were keeping your relationship a secret from most of the world, apart from a select few. It was the best date of them all, Harry cooked you and your best friends dinner so when you got off work, dinner was on the table. He was always so thoughtful of your needs and you thought it was the time to prioritize his.

"Take me to bed Harry." You whimper, "I want you."

*7 MONTHS LATER*

Things were hectic in your life but that was the way they always were but now it seemed like days stretched past 24 hours and turned into a marathon sprint that never ended.

The day Harry unmistakably broke you was the day that sleep had everything on you. Going for days on end was something you were accustomed to but after he cut you deeper than you could ever be, sleep seemed to be your only friend.

You thought you knew him better than anyone. He was your Harry, your everything, even your person maybe?

But when his decision to take his career to the next step interfered in your relationship, your life; that was the day to call it quits no matter the devastation. He may have been your soulmate but maybe, just maybe it wasn't right. The timing, the place of it all was just too much. Your life just didn't have room for much else, especially someone who was willing to hurt you unimaginably and not walk away in order to lessen the blow.

*2 WEEKS BEFORE THE INEVITABLE *

That was two hours ago and within those two hours you knew it was best to stay off your phone. You keep telling yourself to not look for anything leading you to clues about his voice mail. It wasn't like him to express his feelings over the phone, he was an in person 'declare-my-love-for-you' type of man so when you listened to it you thought it was best to stay off your phone.

Trailing off to the shower in pursuit of getting to work, you hear your phone's inescapable shrill from your bedroom and decide to opt away from contact to that thing.

As soon as you leave for work is when your heart stops, skips a few beats and then plummets into your stomach.

"Harry Styles in a relationship with Camille Rowe? That is the best thing I have heard all week. The star tells us that they met months ago and kept it a secret in order to get to know each other. We cant wait for updates on their relationship. Now on to the juic--" That's all you can hear for the rest of the day, ringing in your mind like it is an announcement on the P.A. at work for all to hear.

You knew that was the end of everything. Devastation didn't even hit the mark, it was like everything in the world was on fast forward and you were still trying to get through the commercials. Nothing made sense any more, the glass was no longer half full. It was completely drained and then smashed on the ground into a million little pieces. That was how her whole body felt, like it was just shattered on the ground, irreparable.

The damage was done and there was nothing holding you back from wailing like a siren in front of all of the patients waiting for surgery, but your best friends always had your back. Making sure you eat during lunch and taking you to the bar at the end of your shift so you can drink the bottle dry.

Just shy of a half hour sitting at the bar was when you were cut-off by Harry running into the bar rambling about how he thought they were spinning the tabloids another way.

"I thought they were going to report that we just met and were already dating, I would have never let them ruin what we had by saying I knew her while you and I were together. I told them exactly what to say! I don't even know her, we just met." He jumbles his sentences trying to get hold of his clear message.

You stand up from your seated position and start motioning for him to join you outside. Once out there, you decide what is best moving forward.

"While we were together?" You scoff, trying to be as civil as can be under your obvious exhaustion, throwing your hands up in exasperation.

"At least you said something truthful in the last two minutes you decided to interrupt my break. Yes, you and I are no longer together. Honestly we should have never started something, our careers couldn't be more opposite and honestly I cannot afford to ruin my career over someone who wants to build his on lies. So thank you for what we had but from now on I would like to move forward, away from you." You keep talking in order to get your point across, hoping that when all is said and done there will be closure on both ends.

You know that Harry does care for you but in these last twenty four hours you've learned is that maybe you can't have it all. Maybe happily-ever-afters are only for the imagination.

Maybe life throws things at you so you can overcome them but there are times like these when she wonders what the message is supposed to be?

Is there a message?

That you can have one person in your life that should be your forever but just cant fit in there?

"I know we never said it but I do love you, I think I always will but we can't make it fit. The time we spent together was great and I hope there is a lesson in there somewhere. I can only believe that closure is what we need now." She grabs on to his shoulder and goes in for a hug to end the conversation but he pulls back,"How could you think that we need closure? What we need is each other. I need you, in my life with me forever. You are always going to be the only one for me, I just know it." He grabs on to her and holds for dear life, hoping that he can convey her to stick it out for them both.

"I know what I'm feeling is selfish because I never want to hurt you but my career is part of my life and I can't run away from who I am but I want you in my life, always. I will never stop loving you." Harry pulls away and looks in her eyes with tears in his," I cannot fathom a life without my sunshine. Maybe the timing is wrong but cant we make it right?"

[Y/N] pulls away, trying to compose herself and make the most rational decision. She needs to think about her life and what she needs, not anyone else. "Harry Styles, while being with you was the best rollercoaster ride of my life, and if I could stay on forever I would do so; I have to get off. I need to pull away for the sake of my head and heart. Being with you makes me happy but when it interferes with my work, which is saving lives, I have to be on one hundred percent all the time. You have clouded my thoughts and judgement, and while being a star is part of who you are, being a doctor is me so I cannot give up who I am. Sometimes maybe love isn't enough?" By this point you can't hold back the sobs you have held in since you knew the inevitable truth and holding them back would be foolish, so you let them come.

Harry tries to grab onto you with the little strength he has left from crying and lack of sleep. "I cannot let you get away. You are my everything! I canno--" he tries to catch his breath in between the racks of his heart," please, please do not leave me [Y/N]. We can make this work. I love you and that is enough, it is enough for me. Please." Harry whispers the last part, crouching in front of you and trying to hold you to him.

"It isn't enough for the both of us Harry, and you know it." You're trying to hold back until you can be alone. All you want is to crawl in bed and become dead to the world because that's how you feel right about now. " I will always love you and maybe one day that love will be enough but right now I just don't see how that is possible Harry. I can't rationalize what is happening in our relationship and tell you that we will make it through it. The best thing to do is cut our ties before we start to resent each other." You take one last breath, looking at your friends inside the bar. You signal to them that you're leaving, and say the one thing that you know will hurt the most.

"I can't try anymore to be with you so this is my goodbye. I wish you the best Harry, I really do." In the middle of all this you had a death grip on his hands but now is the time to walk away from one of the best things to happen to you. As gut wrenching as it is, the best thing for the both of them was to move on. Worry about the time in their career when it is at the peak so as hurtful as it is, she knows that she is doing what's best.

You pull away from his grasp, looking down at him kneeling on the ground and kiss his forehead. "I love you." You whisper through tears.

All you can hear behind you is wails of sirens, drunk people cheering on the football game inside but the one thing that is the loudest is Harry's cries. As soon as you walk away you break down into a blubbering mess. Your friends catch up after you, while looking at the mess you and Harry made behind. You can hear Harry's cries of desperation and the only thing your heart is telling you to do is 'go back, go back to him' but you know it's not logical.

If it is meant to be you will make it work at a better time. Things will come together and make sense one day but not when her mind is a fuzzy mess. Maybe weeks, months or years later she will understand what it means to have love be enough. It has to mean something right?

Good byes may hurt but sometimes they are unsurpassable. Sometimes they come barreling into your life totally unexpected and ruin something you thought could be forever.

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priyanktumbler · 7 years ago

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To Achieve Higher Things in Life

Step by step guide to achieve higher things in life : 1. Clear your head - The first thing that you want to do right after you wake up in the morning is to clear your head and prepare for the day. Just wake up and go for a walk; not a run, not even a brisk walk, just a walk to breathe in all the morning freshness and breathe out all your stress. Just focus on the fresh air going through your nose to your throat and then to your lungs and feel all the stress and the negative thoughts coming out of your mouth as you breathe out. You will feel your mind getting relaxed and clear of all of the hectic schedule of life. This will help you calm down and reflect clearly upon the problems of your life. Do this daily, make it a ritual and do not skip for anything. You will find significant change in the way you look things in your life. 2. Watch a motivational video - As soon as you come back from your refreshing walk, hit the washroom, go for a shower and after shower the first thing that you need to do is, watch a motivational video on YouTube to sustain the energy that you felt while walking in the fresh morning air. Energy is like a flame it can't keep on burning unless you supply it with fuel continuously and motivation works as a perfect fuel for the flame of your energy. When you watch a motivational video, your mind starts focussing even more on the tasks at hand and this is the recipe of building (not having) a great day. 3. Remove all distractions - “You are the only problem you will ever face and you are the only solution to it.” Now that you are focussed, you don't want to lose it by getting distracted by other things like social media. In today's world of connectivity, it is almost impossible not to get distracted by the continuous status updates, check ins and photo uploads. Every second there is a new notification from one social platform or the other and you can't help but look at these things and when you check these fancy photos and all the awesome stuff that others have been doing, you feel dejected, you feel like all you've been doing in your life is work, work and work and these are the people who know how to handle it well, how to keep it balanced, they are "living" their life. This puts you in a bad frame of mind and it lowers your productivity rate as well. You don't need that kind of negativity in your life and for all you know, this all can be fake, an empty and shallow attempt to get validation from the social media that their life is going well and they are on the right track. Are you that kind of a person? No. You are a person, who does not care what people say about you. You should only care about what you say about yourself and that is all that matters. So remove all these distractions, just log out from all of your "social" media accounts and keep doing what you do best, work !! 4. Work Hard - Nothing can be accomplished just by vision, you have to work to make that vision come to reality and trust me there is no substitute for hard work. You work with all your energy and speak with all the experience you've got. There maybe times when you are wrong but don't let this become any kind of factor for you, just put whatever you have in your mind out in the universe and you will learn the right way; by making mistakes and not by someone else's experience. This way you will make your own footsteps and you would stay away from the vicious trap of the "blame game" blame game noun informal a situation in which one party blames others for something bad or unfortunate rather than attempting to seek a solution. "he elects to play the blame game but that isn't very constructive" 5. Be productive not busy - You have a tendency to be busy, even when you are not. This happens to everybody, you just keep thinking that you are busy and this gives you an excuse for not doing what you want to do. You keep saying that “My life is so busy”, “I have no time to do this”, “I am completely swamped right now and I cannot focus on anything else”. That's not true, go deep in your heart and think how often are you REALLY busy?, how often do you do the work that you say you are doing? You'll find the answer is not very often. This is where you are losing all your time. This is the time that makes you unhappy about life, it feels like you are not doing anything for yourself and you are just running on autopilot .This time can be utilized to get better, to do things that you really want to do and have a sorted life. So, whenever you doze off to some other land thinking about things that you don't have any control over, just give yourself a "mind jerk" (it's equivalent to a motion jerk but only to mind) and get back to the present scenario and ask yourself, "Are you busy right now?" and if the answer is no, you start to think about the things that you always thought of doing and take a step in that direction and you will find yourself smiling with satisfaction. 6. Make rituals and stick by them - All this talk of self improvement and progress is not going to work as long as you just think about it and do nothing about it. Everything in life is accomplished by doing and not thinking and so you need to act for it if you really want it to happen, because always remember, “We don't get what we want, we get what we have to have.” And this is achieved by doing things, things that will take you one step closer to what you desire, things that will test you, things that will break you, things that will make you think about alternatives and want you to quit. These are the only things that will get the job done, you know it, your mind knows it and your body knows it too. But the human tendency is to always look for things that demand less work and yield huge success and that's why your mind will keep on telling you all the cons of doing what you are doing and would try to make you quit. The mind will continuously remind you about how much pain there's going to be, how much trouble you have to get in, how difficult the task is and is not for you, it was something that you only thought was made for you, but it's not. It's all in the brain, your heart can change that. You just need to religiously follow your rituals Rituals are a series of actions or type of behavior regularly followed regularly and invariably to get what you have to have. Finish your rituals no matter what because success is a habit and you have to do it enough number of times to be successful. You want to wake up early, your alarm bell rings and your hand automatically goes onto that snooze button and even if you do get up, your mind starts giving you excuses (sometimes even logical excuses) for not getting up and you get back to bed. Sounds familiar? It's you, it's us, it's everybody. So what do we do to make it stop? You get up early in the morning as soon as the alarm bell rings and you get up from the bed and quickly, without giving it a thought just go to the washroom, just don't give your brain any time to think about an excuse for not doing it, just get up quickly from the bed and you go about your work. This is called a ritual, something that you don't say no to no matter what's the brain is saying, you just don't and when you have such rituals only then you will see changes in yourself, only then you will get better. So, in my opinion setting up rituals should be the first thing on your list and remember, don't say no, just don't. “If u want to have something that nobody has, you have to do something that nobody did.” 7. Be obsessive - The real satisfaction lies in progress, in getting work done and that is exactly how you succeed, by getting work done and there is no better way to do it than to be obsessed about it. People will tell you that you are insane, even the best of your friends might laugh at you for doing what you love doing and being so obsessed about it, sometimes even your parents lose faith in you and try to stop you from doing what you are doing and make you do what others do, because that is normal, that's safe. But you don't want safe, you don't want normal, you want something more so keep your head up no matter what and keep doing what you want to do, don't worry about the risks and the mistakes, they'll all seem to be worth taken in the end.Any dream that drives you to be obsessed to a level where you cannot think about anything else is the dream that's going to be a reality, YOUR REALITY. Be known for your obsession. Let people talk, you stay obsessed and stay on track with whatever you love doing, because that's how you are going to crack the code for this world. Ask yourself, how long are you going to continue this reckless behaviour? How long are you going to be tempted by other things? How long do you want to wait for that perfect personality that you want to change into in future? Remember, if you don't start acting on it now, chances are that you might never get it. So get up and don't think about anything else, follow your own rituals, be obsessed and work hard till you get there and even after that, because nobody else is going to do it for you IT'S ONLY YOU!! “Only you can DO what YOU are supposed to do. Only you can get what YOU deserve. SO GO GET IT!!”

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priyanktumbler · 8 years ago

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To Achieve Higher Things in Life

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