#life has just been life lately but i miss everyone so dearly 🥺

[fandomfloozy]

unfortunately i am also a fucking liar lol

if it seems like I dropped off the face of the earth:

✨it's finals szn bbs✨

[wqxianvents]

// CONTAINS COMMENTARY AND PICTURES OF TEARS OF THEMIS NEW EVENT: “ENDURING LIGHT.”

This is only the Prologue section I talk about in this one, aha and I ALRWDY HAVE SM TO TALK ABTR

first of all, another group event of course, you love to see it and they’re being dorks but in a cooler way already 💃 also btw happy new year!! hope it’s been treating y’all well already :]<3

okay so i’m going into this event basically being sus of everyone at this point LMAO, i don’t even trust our boys tbh - anything could happen and i’m excited! everytime there’s a big event i always am like “ugh… not another one i have to drain energy into and it isn’t even that interesting” (respectfully). like the last one on the train? i didn’t really care much about it, the only things that interested me were nxx being all up on eachother (exaggerating)

basically i prepare myself to be disappointed, which might sound messed up but tbh the events have only been hittin recently (for me) because of the fact that they’re not having nxx be at eachother’s throats lol. (not saying the past ones weren’t good though and that none of the recent ones were a miss bc again, i didnt fully enjoy the train event)

this one already had me though 😭 got me gagged, the ui is so fucking cool - the card system?? the OUTFITS make me wanna CHOMP my phone (esp luke’s… smth- smth abt it is just. hm, delectable). also baby davis always appearing is so cute his little “hello, miss… uh, i mean, little boss!” LMAO that is my son!!!

ANYGAYS we always have to start off with Marius talking about something going on ‘round town, intended to invite his lovely lady but of course the boys have to interrupt and say hey, where is our invitation??? 🤗 you love to see it

jxjddh “i didn’t ask you guys” LMFAO HE IS SO DONEEE - artem, vyn: “oh really? let me hit you with this comeback. give me my invitation.”, like why are they so angy ARENT YALL RICH? GET YOUR OWN INVITATION 😭😭 i just adore the difference here though like, luke is the one purely excited here and not just “oh, aha, trying to get alone with rosa? how about: no.” but vyn is like 😭 “okay, shit, thanks for the invitation, marius.”

ARTEM MINDING HIS OWN BUSINESS BY HIS COMPUTER AND DECIDING TO INSERT HIMSELF INTO THE CONVERSATIONNN. they’re silly billies.

of course we needed our typical marluke banner 🥺

“Without us, who would you team up with?” did he just call marius friendless or can i also mix that with delulu poly nxx and add a hint of, “bitch who else are you planning to invite? we are RIGHT here” LMFAO

“Luke, are things at work slow lately?” 😭😭😭 i have tears in my eyes u were gonna invite him anyway shut up

i want a group event where the guys don’t butt in just to see if marius invites them anyway HAAHSJS like he just has the stuff ready for the boys just in case they butt in again, but one time they don’t and he’s just confused 😭

kicking my feet, he loves them all dearly. they’re my babies, my lil ol family!!

ANYWAYS… we’re here. Li Hotel 🤨 && again, the wayyy i was entranced with everything omg obsessed obsessed. BY THE WAY i already suspect that the letter-friend is reporter pearce 🤨🤨 don’t ask me for proper reasoning besides the fact that they reveal the letter-friend is a guy LMAO

&& shares the same life goal (wanting to travel around the world) as little boss 😔💜 but who knows…

alright last two things ✨ nxx boys lowkey teasing rosa by being in character HAHAHDJ (NOT ME POSTING THE WEONG PICTURE AND MAKING MYSELF SAD)

same, rosa, same 😭 (and the invitation card?? zoo wee mama- the way that marius was the only one who kept his eyes on rosa thoughhj hejeejnffk GRRR. okay sorry. NAUR and the luke stare 😔 marluke strikes my heart once again!!! WHY IS VYN ALL THE WAY UP THERE BTW)

anyways. last but not least, this isn’t technically apart of the prologue but it’s when Davis takes you on a little tour as always to show you the event and there is one part where you can have discussions with the boys. you click on luke by default but the first conversation option you have, he talks about this:

&& this actually made me tear up pretty bad 😭 then i had a whiplash and went “OHH THE FUCKING CARD” LMFAOO,, LIKE WHY WOULD HYV DO THIS TO ME 😞 i love the parallels luke always has with his au cards though ugh, makes me depressed in the right way(??)

like his birthday card (the name is itching my brain, i can’t remember) and in his bday event there was a mirror and sword (i believe) that appeared 😔 now this… sobbing throwing up, do NOT TOUCH ME

ARE YOU TELLING ME HE ACTUALLY DIES IN THE CARD STOOFPFPFDB??? THAT HE DOESN’T SAY HE LOVES HER? WHAT IS THIS. punching the floor. DO THEY ALL DIE? I THOUGHT ARTEM AT LEAST LIVES…. AM I MIXING UP CARDS…. see what this event is doing to me already 😔

ojay. i’m done here, had to write the thoughts out brrr, imma go finish reading the event now 🌚 toodles (unless u can read the vyn spoiler below)

HUGE CARD SPOILERS BELOW: VYN [MEDIEVAL SUSPENSE]

OHHbajdhd and adding on why I’m not trusting anyone - even our boys - in this event is because this event reminds me too much of a card that Vyn has. A group of folks in this card are acting and Vyn’s character ended up being the killer. I won’t leave my thoughts on the card but this is why I’m sus of everyone 😔

[jeonqkooks]

hello, jen love 🤍 i'm a few days late, it seems like hehe ;u; i'm sorry for not popping in sooner, and more frequently, but i hope this letter of mine finds you sweetly and serenely.

how has the new year been treating you so far? do you have any resolutions, any aspirations you'd like to achieve this year? how about places and people to see, things to do?

secondly, how was your trip home? i hope your family has been well and healthy. what did you get up to there — did you eat all the foods, shop all the shops, walk all the streets? i hope you felt rejuvenated there, a little soul reset — i recall seeing a post or two from you, saying you miss home/your mom after coming back... i hope that part of yourself has healed, even if just by a bit.

and in the land of minho, how has that gentleman been fairing on your heart? has he been holding it tenderly? has he been loving you dearly? i certainly hope so! (every time i see a mention of him anywhere, and the group, i think of you hehe) may the stay fandom (stayblr? i saw that mentioned when i scrolled through your sideblog! what a cute name 🥺) be a safe place for you, warm and cozy.

i miss you, and am thinking of you extra. continue to stay well and happy, however that may look like to you. surround yourself with light and love; and may that carry you through the rest of the year seamlessly.

thương thương, with all my heart —

cee 🤍

MY LOVE 😭🤍 i’m so glad you’re here, i’ve missed you 🥹

the year’s been going okay so far. i’m still settling back into my routine after being back home and then having my friend visit me for 10 days over the holidays. i never really have new year’s resolutions but this year i do want to get out of my comfort zone more, get out of the house more lol, start doing more things that make me happy. i also want to get a new job and move to a new country, so hopefully that could be in the cards for me this year!! wbu? do you have any resolutions for 2024?

the trip home was good!! overwhelming at first bc so many things were different after 4 years, so many people i hadn’t met in years, it did take a while to get used to. but overall it was really nice being there. i definitely felt recharged while i was there, just hanging out with everyone and seeing all the things i missed, and i’m gonna try to visit once a year from now on! but yeah after coming back, it was pretty hard at first. the seasonal depresshaun and the loneliness got to me lol but it’s better now. it kinda sucks to think that i’ll probably experience it again every time i go home but what can you do, yk? 🫠

how’s your family? how are things with you and your love? how’s the job?

the land of minho !!! 😭 i didn’t know you’ve been checking out the new blog as well hehehe. it’s been going great!! i’m having so much fun there (knock on wood, knock on wood, knock on wood) it’s been a blast getting to explore and swoon over a new group, really reminds me of how happy i was during my early bangtan days. it’s really made me fall in love with writing again which feels wonderful. i think i’ve been writing almost every day and i’ve written more in the past couple months than i did for the majority of 2023. mimo has been the best muse and the absolute love of my life 🥹 (and right?? stay is such a cute name!!)

i’m always missing you and thinking of you. i hope 2024 treats you well (lunar new year is less than a month away!) and brings you lots of happiness and peace. love you to the moon and to saturn, thương thương 🤍

[khuzena]

Can you do chamber x reader angst? Maybe a bit argument and fluff at the end❤️🥺🇫🇷🔥🔥

You're the problem

Chamber x g/n!reader

Tw: heavy angst, hurt/comfort, go get couples therapy, eventual make up and fluff, misunderstanding

Finally an ask that isn't smut (〒﹏〒)

Over the past couple of days, you and chamber's relationship was a bit, rocky..

Chamber would always reassure you that he wasn't meeting with other girls, but there will be times your insecurities will eat you alive no matter the amount of reassuring.

"Babe, I love you but what the fuck?!" He shouted, fuming with anger whilst trying to keep his composure, you didn't mean for it to end up like this. His eyebrows furrowed in disbelief, the once calm expression a few minutes before this argument now quirking into an expression of displeasure; a while back you snooped through his phone and was searching for any trace of infidelity that you could find, you did trust him, of course. But sometimes you really want to truly find out, even forsaking years of built up trust for one another.

You were taken aback by his defensiveness but you knew damn well you were in the wrong, your mouth was left agape as you tried to mutter out an excuse but your shitty excuses fell onto deaf ears, "T-Then, who the fuck was that girl on your fucking phone?" Accusing him again, you were too blinded by shitty rumours of him probably cheating you, using you for his own pleasure. Yet, he tried, he really did. He wanted to prove to you that he's someone you could trust even with his past mistakes, he loves you in every way but the way you accuse him with empty proofs was too irritating. Though the fatigue and stress from the missions the protocol that they laid on his shoulders made him not think properly of what he said next, "She was my ex, get over it!," His gaze diverting away from yours, turning away from you as he was about to leave you in your room, but he continued, "She was just a fling of some sort, if you're so bitchy about it then maybe I should've had fling with her more if you were going to bring more shitty stress onto me."

What he told you made you freeze on the spot, staring at him with wide open eyes. That last sentence kept ringing in your ears as you covered your ears in shock, he was never like that, of course fights are common in a relationship but this particular fight made it feel like your entire relationship together was in shambles, and it was.

You let out a choked sob as you peeked through your hands to see him staring down at your awfully pathetic figure, chamber pushing up his glasses and taking his leave; the silence was deafening with only the clacking sound of the sole of his shoes heard and the only thing he said before leaving the room, "You know what? You're the problem here," it was your last straw as the tears that once threatened to stream down your face, finally let out as your tears blotched your gaze with only hazy lights shining through your glossy eyes.

After that whole ordeal, it has been a week or two of having no contact with each other whatsoever.

You missed him dearly as you sipped some heavy alcohol, the warm liquid going down your throat as you poured another shot in your wine glass. The shame of what you did still not going away, you were too drunk to even notice someone you knew pulled a seat and sat right next to you. As you kept gorging on the wine, they open their mouth and leaned over, whispering to you, "Hello? It's me killjoy, Klara actually," she noticed you weren't understanding her words, only hearing distorted sounds of her name, maybe it was because you were too intoxicated. 8 bottles of wine, counting up to 10 if you continue.

She pinched your cheek in attempts to grab your attention but you were too far gone, lately the protocol has been in a tense mood. With the addition of new information of a life support system in Omega earth and everyone working their asses and drinking off their worries the next day without a single thought, she wishes she could help you, all of you infact. The slow music in bar and the loud talking of the crowd, some dancing to the beat or the others enjoying everyone's company; while there were some like you who tires themselves with the vast variety of wines, beers and much more. Killjoy then puts a hand on your shoulder, "Are you alright, y/n?" Her voice coated with concern for you and a worried expression that you saw on her face, to which you replied, "I-I it's just me and hic vincent," Oh. That. Some of the protocol was half-aware of the situation going on with you and Chamber. They knew you were both going through something tough but decided to not bug you both any further. You watched killjoy ordering a small glass of Chardonnay as you slowly sipped your own wine glass. "I hope you both figure it out and work on your relationship, it was pretty hard to take in when you weren't being too happy at the base," she muttered while the waitress asked you both if you wanted another shot to which you accepted, while waiting for for the waitress you looked at her woth gloomy eyes and cried out, "Yeah, I wish I could figure it out, but it's tough, and im too tired for this shit." She shoots you another look of concern and you both continued to drink and talk your worries away.

It's been 3 weeks, you could see a glimpse of him as you passed by the hallways but you two pass by each other like complete strangers, the more you look at him. He looked composed, it was like he wasn't even affected by the previous argument. Albeit, under this tough composure he also cried himself to sleep, longing for your touch and to hear your voice calling out to him.

The nighttime came, same routine but you decided to just fuck it and come straight to his workshop, with a knock on his door it slowly creaked open, the soft glow of the bedside lamp as he stares at you with a blank expression, eyes wandering onto anything but you. You broke the silent with you clearing your throat and muttering a tiny hello. "So... How have you been?" His eyes were shut from your question but hesitates for a while then saying, "Horrible," You walk around his room for a while and saw his room messy, laundry on his floor and desk with scribbled notes of weapon design blueprint sketches. Not much different to yours though, he breathes heavily before looking right back at your puffy eyes, for a moment only silence settles in. It was like there was nothing else to be said but there had to be. The sight of him so unkempt and messy like nothing before broke you completely, you broke down and fell right onto his arms, gripping his sides tightly and crying out on his chest. Gut-wrenching sobs that tore through your chest and grief pouring out in a flood of uncontrollable tears; you were too ashamed to even look onto his eyes again but he said nothing, absolutely nothing.

Instead he wrapped his arms around you and rubbed circles on your back in hopes to soothe your pain, but it's not that easy. He talks too much some times but his silence is more comforting than ever. A feeling of uncertainty washed over you but you knew he also craved for you, your touch, the way you laugh at his silly flirting and the way you comfort him when he feels down. He feels as if it was his role this time to do the same for you. "I'm so sorry vincent I should've never hic accused hic you like that!" Choking sobs in between as you cried harder, your voice, quavering but he needed to comfort you, say something sweet and reassuring; but he was never one to be good at such things like comfort and genuine affection. Yet, he'll try. He'll try for you, "I'm sorry too, please, don't cry anymore," he sobbed in return and holstered you in a more comfortable position, his welled up tears also letting go like a water stream but you both don't mind at all, whether it was your tears dampening his vest or the awkward feeling between the two of you, you both dont mind at all.

He finally broke the awkward crying session, "Actually, I didn't mean what I said, you're not the problem, I was." He continued to weep as he held you tightly, "No, no. It was my fault, if only I-I didn't accuse you of such, this wouldn't happen," you started to calm down but your fingers trembled against his.

Chamber cupped your cheeks and stared into you with a loving gaze, "I love you, I would never ever choose anyone else but you." He was a bit shaky but you finally eased into the warm hug. "I'll try to trust you more, I'm so sorry..." In this moment, it's just you and him. Your head rested against his neck as his hands fiddle locks of your hair.

I'm not proud of this, there's too many mistakes but I think this is the best I can do for now, I didn't proofread but i still hope you enjoyed this :( Thank you for reading and requesting! ☆

[gloomygalleon]

I’m so frustrated and I can’t put it into words why because it’s too much to explain. I’m so glad to be an adult and have a career and a life and I’m so proud of my friends who are also doing things with their lives but it’s really difficult for me to let go of the past and move on with my life. We’re all still so in love with each other and cheer each other on but we really don’t have time like we used to. It’s so sad. Those dumb jokes that get told and retold on the internet about how you can never make time to hang out with people are fucking true! Cringey but true! I hate it!

I have so much fatigue lately. I went downtown for the first time in a very long time and got drunk with some pals who I love dearly but they’re Marks friends. He and I have been dating long enough now that they’re of course also my friends but dude I just wanna spend time with the people /I’ve/ known since high school. And it’s not as if I don’t have plans to see people this week- I guess I’m just complaining. Why do I constantly feel like there’s something missing and I’m nostalgic for the way things used to be?

Anyway.. I got drunk two weekends ago with my baber boy who crashed early and fell asleep at like 10pm. He works a busy job so he’s allowed to crash but no one was there to stop me polish off an entire case of white claw and a handful of rum and cokes to myself 🥺 I messaged everyone that night. But I mean, to be fair to myself, I have been meaning to reach out to people and try to make amends and try to be more friendly and not so bitter. I do have to remind myself though that not everyone wants to be friends with me, and that’s ok. The girls in the studio told me I need to reach out to them instead when I’m drunk with all my words of love and admiration. On the bright side I feel oddly closer to my exes new girlfriend after that night (yeah when I say I texted everyone I mean I fucking texted everyone). I genuinely like her though, despite being sure us following each other was a drunken mistake on her part. But I’m glad I followed her back! At least I don’t regret anything I put out there 😭🙏

Mark and I barely left bed today. We played Pokémon all day and he got these funky foot masks that peel your skin and we prayin we don’t get chemical burns from them. It was a really lovely day though I gotta admit. Tomorrow I work but we’re gonna find time to finish Pokémon and on Friday his new game comes out. He’s a big Bloodborne/Dark Souls fan and this is from the creators (I think??). Anyway he’s been waiting for this game to come out for years and Friday is gonna be a big deal. He took two week vacation for it- and doesn’t expect to do anything from the day the game comes out til he has to go back to work. It’s exciting for him to see him get so into something like this.

I don’t know why I started using tumblr again. The lack of people who follow me yet the idea that someone /could/ read this one day I guess is enough motivation. It’s always at night after I finish wordle waiting to get sleepy. There’s a cat on my leg and I don’t know which one it is.

Man, anyway. Idk I have no more direction tonight. Maybe I’ll get back on tomorrow and do another lil ranty rant.