#lfbcu my beloved

[random-french-girl]

Okay, I’ve been asked to atone for my crimes by writing about Leah and Fatin, so... here you go LUCIE @goodobservationshirley​

1) I agree, I don’t think this means Fatin has changed her mind about Jeff, not in the slightest. But it’s Fatin compromising - and that’s a HUGE deal, because it’s the first time we see Fatin trying to meet someone else in the middle! It’s Fatin realizing that Leah is nowhere near ready to hear the truth about Jeff, and deciding that she’d rather make peace with Leah instead of sticking to her position. It’s a step towards reconciliation, a concession, a way to make amends after how harsh she was, and DAMN if it isn’t both: touching, because it shows how much Fatin wants them to be friends ; and frustrating, cause Leah really does not need anyone validating her feelings re:what Jeff did. I like the ambivalence, though - it’s both a sign of growth from Fatin, and a lie. It’s a kindness, and it’s not. It’s selfish, and selfless too.

2) LISTEN. Even if I take off my leatin shaped goggles: this is the scene where Fatin admits that she doesn’t know anything about love. I think this line is prompted in part by this very realization. It’s Fatin acknowledging that maybe she was mistaken, maybe she got it wrong, because, after all, she knows less than Leah on the subject of love and romantic relationship. (She’s right, but also, she’s so wrong.) It’s about Fatin having the self-awareness to admit she’s no expert on this - and implying that maybe, she’d like to learn. It’s also about Fatin giving Leah some much needed agency, as she often does, telling Leah “there is truth in how you experienced this thing that happened to you, maybe it’s not the whole truth, but it’s still true for you”. 

3) Now let’s look at this line again, but in a LFBCU context (Leatin Fuck Buddies Cinematic Universe). Imagine this conversation happening after Fatin realizes at the exact same time that a) she’s in love with Leah, it’s not just sex, b) Leah may still want to have sex with her on the island, but she will never reciprocate her feelings, because she’s still in love with Jeff...  Tell me you don’t hear something sad in her words! The defeated jealousy of it! The barely-suppressed yearning! Fatin who’s then determined to keep giving Leah any bit of comfort she can, who’s also selfishly not ready to give up on what they have, even if it kills her inside, even if it hurts so damn much that she can’t hope for more... DELICIOUS ANGST.