#lets acually not talk about that rn

[malet-depressive-psychosis]

im sorry

[bapzap]

okay i actually love the idea of mirabelle and evrart interacting is driving me up the wall in the best possible way. especially if their not even like against eachother but like just happening to see eachother evrart like doing his thing just a little bit. i dont know if i like the idea of his speech being something he just genuinely talks like or if he chooses to do that because the idea of him doing his like stupidly roundabout way of talking where almost nothing acually ever gets said and mirabelle trying to like be polite is just so much rn

EVRART CLAIRE - "Please, Ms. Chevalier! Take a seat! Let us discuss your terrible, terrible troubles with this rambunctious monarch more comfortably! I'm sure you're in a hurry to get out of here and back to wherever you came from and all, but I can't help you find an aerostatic back home if you don't help me."

MEMORY OF CHANGE - You're not sure what an 'aerostatic' is. You know what an aerostat is; you took a class once on it. Your class worked together to create a blimp and see Vaugarde from the sky! Although it did... crash, because someone prepared the gas mixture incorrectly.

MEMORY OF INCOMPETENCE [Trivial: Success] - It also caught on fire. That was something that happened. You're pretty sure you were supposed to check on that before takeoff.

MEMORY OF FAMILY - Regardless!!!!!! The way the man before you speaks of these aerostatics doesn't sound like he's talking about any regular sort of blimp or balloon. Shouldn't he be offering a boat to take you back home? Is this not an island?

MEMORY OF SIFFRIN [Impossible: Success] - This Island clearly does not use boats to traverse far from shore. The clouds are far too thick, too low to the water. It would be suicide. Aerostatics are their name for the vessels they traverse through this cloud in.

Take a seat.

"Oh! Thank you, but I'd rather stand! If that's okay!"

"You know, I actually have... something else to be doing! Right now! Maybe I'll be back!". [Leave]

YOU - Take a seat.

EVRART CLAIRE - "Excellent, Ms. Chevalier. I can see you're a lady that can change as the situation demands! And change... change is something we're both quite interested in, if I may take the liberty to suggest!"

Nod quietly.

"Oh? Do you have a House of Change here too? Are you a follower?"

Crab this chair is uncomfortable...

YOU - Nod quietly.

MEMORY OF DEFEAT [Challenging: Failure] - The chair you're sitting on has got to be a trap of some kind! You're afraid it's tearing your dress apart just sitting on it!

Damaged Health! -1

EVRART CLAIRE - "Oh! I heard you had quite the... conversation with Measurehead outside. I'm quite glad he didn't give you too much trouble on the way in."

MEMORY OF FAMILY - You're still not sure what a 'ham sandwich person' is. You don't want to be sure. Nodding along to what he said seemed to make him happy though.

EVRART CLAIRE - "Now! Onto business. About your friends and that *lost rapier* of yours that went missing when you washed ashore... Let me assure you! I have the best union men looking everywhere for your *lost rapier*! We'll have it found well before any small children find and pluck out their eyes or other critical body parts with it! You have a working man's promise!"

MEMORY OF INCOMPETENCE - Your rapier! You hadn't even thought of it in the rush of coming to your senses!

MEMORY OF CHANGE - Even without it, you still have your Crafts to defend yourself with. But who knows where it's gone off to...

"How do *you* know I had a rapier in the first place?"

"I'm quite capable of finding my own blade, thank you."

"Oh, I would appreciate any help I can get!"

YOU - "How do *you* know I had a rapier in the first place?"

EVRART CLAIRE - "I know *everything* Ms. Chevalier. Nothing washes up on the union shores without the union hearing about it! And, of course, I know that you're worried. You're practically falling apart at the seams! But don't worry. Everything's going to be alright."

"It's only a blade. There's worse things out on the streets right now! You could of lost a loaded firearm. Now *that* would be something to panic about!"

MEMORY OF BOMBS - What's a firearm?

[yoboisuckzzz]

back at it again

aye what's popping lmfao nah. But fr tho I have been gone a while again no surprise. A lil update i guess I joined a sorority this fall and i was still binging/fasting which caused me not to gain weight but also didnt lose weight. I guess I have been MIA for a while due to the whole covid stuff and also idk why acually. I still went on here but didnt want to post anything until i was acually losing and keeping the wight off. Anyways December was rough for me becasue I was either fasting for 3+ days or binge eating everyday lmfao. Before christmas I was on a 9 day fast and was very close to 149 ibs but then christmas came i decied to break my fast and ever since I jist could get back on track. I have been trying to fast again but i keep feeling. Today I have not eaten (yet lmfao)  I want to fast until Monday then starting monday I would have a meal plan all set up but I also dont want to start the new year with binge eating like i did last year so i dont really know what to do. I wish I didnt have an ed at all so I can just lose weight a norml weight with a bit of a cal defecit but my ed wont let me do that its either stave myself or eat everything and anything i can get my hands on. I dont really know how much i weigh rn just because if i weigh myself i will want to kill myself yk the ususal lol. I think I might be 160 -_-. Also I am talking to a guy like acually talking ( ever since i gained weigh i am not confident at all liek what so ever i feel like no one will find me attractive lmfao) but for some reason this guy does but he wants like personal photos of me if you know what i mean and I feel so gross about the thought of him seeing my body lmfao that i am just ingnoring him beasue idk what to do. He like really and im me really fit have the whole 6 pack and alll and I feel even more gross just ugh idk.