#let’s write something a little positive about my blorbo after all the everything of the past few days

[stardust-falling]

One thing about Shen Jiu that is really sad to me is that despite everything he’s been through and everything he’s become, despite how he acts and how he treats others, at the end of the day there’s still a little part of him that wants to do good.

Impulsively, he still tries to save people. Obviously with Yue Qi’s case that could be contributed to the attachment between them, but even with Liu Qingge— both when fighting the well ghost and in his (failed) attempt to save Liu Qingge from qi deviation. This is someone he hates, who he ambushed multiple times, who he has threatened with death over and over again, and yet when it comes down to a split-second decision, Shen Jiu still chooses to save him.

From what he says and how he acts normally, it’s easy to say that he doesn’t care about anyone, and certainly isn’t protective. And for the most part that’s probably true!! But when he has to make a split-second decision— let someone he loathes die or help him— he still tries to save them.

Until he fails, and Liu Qingge dies.

I think that impulse just about went away entirely after that point.

[terriblyrenderedenigma]

On Transformers and Human soulmate tropes...

(i do personally attack starscream at the end, i'm sorry starscream lovers, i love him too, but he's just a sad, devious little guy.)

Just a little thought here, so, I love soulmate tropes. Depending on the plot, they can be really fun and take so many interesting paths as a medium used within storytelling, whether romantic or platonic.

But what i want to talk about specifically is Transformer x Human soulmate tropes. Like, you have this super sweet side to it where the bot can be like 'I have waited my entire life to find you, finally, I can hold you in my arms and we never have to part again'. Depending on the character/story/type of SM (soulmate, shortening it because I'm not gonna keep writing it out) trope of course.

Can I just say how...instrumentally fucked this is though? So you have this race of robots who live for, what is essentially millennia out in the wild unless they catch the smoke. Their soulmate ends up being this little creature that lives for 80, maybe 100 years tops before dying. -Unless we're going for some kind of mind switch body type thing, but we all know how that went with spike in g1.

Our beloved robo blorbos will eventually have to cope with the fact that their soulmate, the person or creature they're MEANT to be with via laws of the universe, will die a LOT sooner than they will.

This especially hits hard with the decepticons who, depending on continuity -- hate humanity already. Bots who've gone through so much, losing their home, friends, and their dignities; have to learn to put up with and accept this creature as their fated mate/spouse/conjux endura, whatever you want to call it- SOULMATE.

Then the decepticons just have to deal with the fact that they're going to lose this person too, just like they've already lost everything else and oh GOD. Maybe they choose to forget about them and move on, stay alone and mourn what could have been if the universe hadn't had such a fucked sense of humor. Maybe they choose to accept it, but never let their SM too close because they know they'll just be hurt so much more hurt when the inevitable comes.

Then you have to think about decepticons having to possibly protect their SM from other cons! From being taken and 'saved' by the autobots.

Imagine some bots or cons just flying off the handle, going crazy just to try and keep their human alive in any way they possibly can, afraid of running out of time.

(Starscream lovers forgive me for the angst)

And Starscream especially, Maybe he'd try. He'd have a great time, take a chance, and give it a go. But what if he's actually terrified? Maybe he'd also self sabotage a little, knowing the relationship will never last too long anyways; not in the short blink of time it would be next to his life. Maybe, he doesn't actually know what to do with himself in a positive relationship after being, i dunno, consistently dogged on by megatron and he freezes.

There's something actually good for him, and since he isn't sure how to receive or accept that fact, he's gone. And maybe he'll come back, but the cycle could repeat.

(Im sorry, unless you put a tracker on him and call his ass and really give him some therapy. get him some god damn therapy.)

But yeah. All around, the angst potential is immense for this stuff and it makes me sad to think about so I thought i would share it instead of just write about it in an actual fic because my character analysis and ability to comprehend my own thoughts is so shit.

Okay, CIAOOOOOO~

[hippolotamus]

🎶✨️When you get this you have to put 5 songs you actually listen to, publish, then send this ask to 10 of your favourite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) ✨️🎶

Tagged by my dearest @shortsighted-owl I'm not sure what you actually listen to means but let's give it a go, yeah? Also, 5 songs was really hard and I feel like I was very brave about sticking to just these.

1. Dammit - blink 182

Listen, I have no explanation for this. All I know is it comes on and I feel like I'm back in my wildly optimistic and curious youth.

2. Human - Christina Perri

I can turn it on / Be a good machine / I can hold the weight of worlds / If that's what you need / Be your everything

I can do it / I'll get through it

But I'm only human / And I bleed when I fall down

This is my Special Lil Blorbo breakdown era tune for obvious reasons. She has such a powerful voice that fits experiencing a person's breaking point. Just screaming at the world and hoping someone hears you.

3. I want you to want me - Cheap Trick (live from Nippon Budokan)

I want you to want me / I need you to need me / I'd love you to love me / I'm beggin' you to beg me / I want you to want me / I need you to need me / I'd love you to love me

It's a classic. It's every air drummers dream. You'll feel like a total badass while singing along in the car. And yes the live version is better.

4. Show Yourself - Idina Menzel, Rachel Evan Wood (from Frozen 2)

Come to me now / Open your door / Don't make me wait / One moment more Show yourself / Step into your power / Throw yourself / Into something new / You are the one you've been waiting for

This one probably feels a little out of place, but hear me out. Frozen 2 doesn't do a whole lot for me... this song does. In context, the singer (Elsa) is looking for answers and thinks she's being led to find them. Like suddenly all will be revealed and boom! happily ever after. The twist is she "meets" the source that's been leading her only to find out she's the one holding all the cards. There's no magic entity that's going to fix everything. It's her.

5. under the weather - caleb hearn and jillian rossi

People keep talking through my phone / They don't notice I'm so alone / I sit there and pretend / I'm not under the weather again

If seasonal affective disorder had a theme song this would be it. I'm sure of it. The lyrics specifically call out seasonal sadness. However, this really fits for anyone wearing the i'm-totally-fine-nothing-to-see-here mask and trying to avoid letting the world see they're completely falling apart.

Okay, are we all sad now? No? Excellent.

Tagging: @brrose-apothecary @reasonandfaithinharmony @vanillahigh00 @gayhoediaz @stereopticons @blackandwhiteandrose @rmd-writes @apothecarose my ❤️ @lizzie-bennetdarcy and anyone else who would like to play along