#let’s write something a little positive about my blorbo after all the everything of the past few days

[stardust-falling]

One thing about Shen Jiu that is really sad to me is that despite everything he’s been through and everything he’s become, despite how he acts and how he treats others, at the end of the day there’s still a little part of him that wants to do good.

Impulsively, he still tries to save people. Obviously with Yue Qi’s case that could be contributed to the attachment between them, but even with Liu Qingge— both when fighting the well ghost and in his (failed) attempt to save Liu Qingge from qi deviation. This is someone he hates, who he ambushed multiple times, who he has threatened with death over and over again, and yet when it comes down to a split-second decision, Shen Jiu still chooses to save him.

From what he says and how he acts normally, it’s easy to say that he doesn’t care about anyone, and certainly isn’t protective. And for the most part that’s probably true!! But when he has to make a split-second decision— let someone he loathes die or help him— he still tries to save them.

Until he fails, and Liu Qingge dies.

I think that impulse just about went away entirely after that point.

[hippolotamus]

🎶✨️When you get this you have to put 5 songs you actually listen to, publish, then send this ask to 10 of your favourite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) ✨️🎶

Tagged by my dearest @shortsighted-owl I'm not sure what you actually listen to means but let's give it a go, yeah? Also, 5 songs was really hard and I feel like I was very brave about sticking to just these.

1. Dammit - blink 182

Listen, I have no explanation for this. All I know is it comes on and I feel like I'm back in my wildly optimistic and curious youth.

2. Human - Christina Perri

I can turn it on / Be a good machine / I can hold the weight of worlds / If that's what you need / Be your everything

I can do it / I'll get through it

But I'm only human / And I bleed when I fall down

This is my Special Lil Blorbo breakdown era tune for obvious reasons. She has such a powerful voice that fits experiencing a person's breaking point. Just screaming at the world and hoping someone hears you.

3. I want you to want me - Cheap Trick (live from Nippon Budokan)

I want you to want me / I need you to need me / I'd love you to love me / I'm beggin' you to beg me / I want you to want me / I need you to need me / I'd love you to love me

It's a classic. It's every air drummers dream. You'll feel like a total badass while singing along in the car. And yes the live version is better.

4. Show Yourself - Idina Menzel, Rachel Evan Wood (from Frozen 2)

Come to me now / Open your door / Don't make me wait / One moment more Show yourself / Step into your power / Throw yourself / Into something new / You are the one you've been waiting for

This one probably feels a little out of place, but hear me out. Frozen 2 doesn't do a whole lot for me... this song does. In context, the singer (Elsa) is looking for answers and thinks she's being led to find them. Like suddenly all will be revealed and boom! happily ever after. The twist is she "meets" the source that's been leading her only to find out she's the one holding all the cards. There's no magic entity that's going to fix everything. It's her.

5. under the weather - caleb hearn and jillian rossi

People keep talking through my phone / They don't notice I'm so alone / I sit there and pretend / I'm not under the weather again

If seasonal affective disorder had a theme song this would be it. I'm sure of it. The lyrics specifically call out seasonal sadness. However, this really fits for anyone wearing the i'm-totally-fine-nothing-to-see-here mask and trying to avoid letting the world see they're completely falling apart.

Okay, are we all sad now? No? Excellent.

Tagging: @brrose-apothecary @reasonandfaithinharmony @vanillahigh00 @gayhoediaz @stereopticons @blackandwhiteandrose @rmd-writes @apothecarose my ❤️ @lizzie-bennetdarcy and anyone else who would like to play along