#let me turn spell/grammar check off in the app you stupid thing

[enbyboiwonder]

“You can’tplease people who like you.”

Aside from missing a space—um, what? Okay, sure, “people-please” is usually used as the noun “people-pleaser” rather than as a verb, but. “You can’t please him into liking you” is a perfectly valid construction, and “You can’t please people who like you,” while also a valid sentence, does not convey even close to the same thing.

Google’s suggestions never used to be this bad. Why do people think “A.I.” is a good idea, again? It can’t think. I have a fic I started recently where there are a few random instances where it wants me to put verbs in the past tense, making the tenses not agree with the rest of the story, a.k.a. the exact kind of thing it’s supposed to fix, not randomly add in. Shitty google grammar/usage suggestions used to be it wanting me to use “quake” or “quiver” instead of “quirk,” or “hurts” instead of “hefts,” but at least it’s only the word choice that doesn’t make sense and it’s still technically grammatical. Now like half the suggestions it makes are ungrammatical, like wrong parts of speech and removing the possessive [’s] (although I guess that does still fall under “wrong parts of speech” since it wants me to turn an adjective into a noun). Some are still the old kind, but the rest is crap like this.

God, I wish I could turn it off on my phone. So what if that means it doesn’t catch typos. Half the things it thinks are typos are just romanized Japanese names and words anyway. Hell, half the actual typos I make it doesn’t catch, even when the typo isn’t a word!

[arianaistired]

My Experience Meeting Taylor (WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK)

@taylorswift THATS US WHAT THE FUCKKKKK

(also I just finished typing this and it’s so so fucking long I’m so sorry this is a warning. I don’t even get to rep room for so long I can’t breathe I’m so sorry)

Okay, so I’m at work right now, but I cannot for the life of me stop thinking about Saturday--which can really be the tagline for the past 3 days of my life--and then I realized that I haven’t posted a single thing about it on tumblr dot com!!! I’ve really not shut the fuck up about it on twitter but this is a whole new platform, a whole new WORLD that I have not tapped into and annoyed everyone by talking CEASELESSLY about this experience. Like I’m pretty sure that everyone is going to murder me on twitter if i don’t shut up soon, but we’re not there yet on papersairplane dot tumblr dot com so here we fucking go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay the story of my day on Saturday really begins on Friday night after Metlife night 1, a joyous occasion wherein Taylor Swift Touched My Hand at the barricade. So I was just like floating on a fucking cloud after that concert, trekking back to the lowly island of Long Island, New York and texting my friend jess @monica-geller. I was thinking about how I’ve done literally nothing to try to meet miss swift in my entire meaningless existence on this earth and I was thinking about how it doesn’t hurt to TRY so I was like hm. I’ll make a post!!! I didn’t but more on that later.

So i tell jess I’m gonna make a post and then in classic ariana fashion I just sit there on the train not making my post bc i was like deadass...I have nothing to say like nothing about me is particularly interesting it’s not like my house caught on fire and, in the absence of a fire hose, i used the soothing lyrics of stay beautiful from taylor swift’s debut album (2006) to will the flames into submission. like i just really love that woman i don’t have anything else TO SAY. omg side note i love how this started off with proper grammar and spelling and capitalization and now i’m talking like i don’t even know how to read. whatever. so then liz @lastskiss decides to get a fucking idk like a call from God Herself (stream god is a woman by ariana grande) and she’s like wow i should make ariana a post and i see her tweet and i’m life fuck it i’ve told her not to in the past but i’m tired and lazy and nothing’s gonna come of this anyway so i’ll let her make the post. so i text her my seat info and then i’m like “wow my work is done here i’m so talented for pressing send on the imessage app.”

so liz makes this post and is like “should i post it :O” and jess is like “yeah post it that dumb bitch is never gonna do anything herself” which...tea….and liz, being an intellectual in addition to being a magical wizard, is like “tea” and does it. Idk why this is a short novel already but i’m extremely bored at work and trying to get all the deets in. so this is at like i wanna say 1:45am EST aka everyone’s asleep except for liz in LA and jess in australia. so i reblog it once bc if you haven’t already grasped it i’m a lazy dumbass with low expectations and i go to sleep like “my work here is done.” so liz and jess and a few other beautiful souls by jesse mccartney reblog the post while i’m asleep, unbeknownst to me, and a few hours later at 8am i wake up and get ready for brunch. So i’m well aware that it’s gonna rain tonight so i’m like i should not put that much effort into my appearance bc i’m going to look like a drowned rat by the end of this day (stupid, but not untrue i really did) so i like actually do the bare minimum like i just basically put on whatever was most comfortable to dance around in the pouring rain in and then zoomed out the door for brunch bc it was in harlem at 12 and i was on long island at 9 so i was like g2g.

change of scenery now: i’m at brunch in harlem with a bunch of friends and soon to be friends and its 12:15 and i’m like “cool i’m with people from the internet so it’s not rood if i check twitter” and I do and i see a dm notification and i’m like oh the let me check. And check i did. And what the fuck was there??? 10 hours after liz hit send on that blessed post what was in my direct messages on the twitter for iphone app? That’s right friends and foes. It was a dm from one miss taylor nation. And what do i do???????????? I turn my phone face down on the table and my hands just start shaking and i’m pretty sure i blacked out as if i was having a petit mal seizure. So i come to, and pick my phone back up and send them my name, my number, and the best time for them to call (“you can call me at literally any time and i will pick up”) and i turn my phone face up on the table and stare at it. And stare. And stare…………...and an hour and a half (!!!) later FINALLY i get a call from miss nation. And i sprinted out of that restaurant. The poor waitress probably thought that denise @pettyswift had threatened to murder me with how fast i ran out of the premises. 10 mins later i return to the table and everyone’s staring at me with expectant gazes and i’m just like completely utterly non reactive like i think i was just in shock because i didn’t understand what was happening. Like i literally expected it to be merch lmaosafujkafn like so to get to speak to whoever that was on the phone and to hear her say the words “if all is fine and you get confirmed, you will be meeting taylor tonight” was jsut….a shock to the system to say the least. So i was still anticipating it to go wrong because like what the fuck. WHAT THE FUCK????? Anwyay. So i get the confirmation and i’m still completely nonreactive but i call my friend anthony @shakeitoffs to tell him (sidenote: i know we’re not supposed to tell anyone but like. I was going with him to the concert i had to. Like i was already under a lot of stress i’m sure everyone understands if i didn’t follow all the rules to a t) and i say goodbye to the table and i start making my journey from harlem to new jersey.

fast forward a few hours to ~4pm and literally the only thoughts in my brain are “what the fuck” “i’m so scared” and “can jess wake the fuck up” like idk why i was so concerned with jess waking up asjkfas like i just NEEDED HER TO WAKE UP. so anthony and i make our journey to metlife because i needed to be at will call between 4-5 to pick up my rep room pass. Anthony’s buzzing, i’m on the verge of throwing up, liz is freaking the fuck out, and jess still isn’t awake. And i get to will call and give them my ID fully expecting something to go wrong….and it does!!! The will call people are like “maam we havent gotten anything from taylor nation yet please check back in 20 mins.” cool. So finally at this point jess wakes up and is freaking out so now liz anthony and jess are all freaking out and i’m just terrified that something’s going to go wrong. FINALLY 15 mins later the will call people waved me back, i gave them my ID, and i received in my undeserving hands that yellow ass rep room paper. I nearly threw up. Bc at this point i had been like working under the assumption t hat something, ANYTHING, was going to go wrong like i half expected the uber to the stadium to spontaneously combust while i was in the car. So to have confirmation that i was supposed to be at a certain gate in less than 40 mins to then be brought backstage to meet taylor alison swift….was a lot. It’s still a lot.

So i take the picture and tweet it and everyone is being so nice and happy for me which only exacerbates the feeling of A Lotness bc i just felt so completely and utterly undeserving, but this isn’t me trying to get people to tell me i deserved it it’s just me being honest about how i felt. And on top of all of this, the fact that i had never in my life tried to meet taylor also meant that i had never in my life prepared to meet taylor. Of course i’ve thought about what i’d say, who hasn’t, but never under the actual assumption that i was meeting taylor. And NEVER with the confirmed knowledge that i was MEETING TAYLOR IN HALF AN HOUR. so, as aforementioned, IT WAS A LOT.

So skip to 5:30, the meeting time, and i’m standing on the floor where i’m supposed to be and waiting in line with like 6 other people waiting for taylor nation to take us backstage. And they start to!!! But then they get to me and ask for my name and i tell them and i’m NOT ON THE LIST JKANFKASJNFJ so im panicking once again like oh this is it. But i tell the tn guy that i got my dm at like 12 that day and i can show it to him and he was like “ohhhh i think i got a text about a late add” and looks through his texts and he’s like “yeah here you are.” which was terrifying like i was really a late ass add huh like someone was like add this girl huh. the.

So finally they bring us backstage.i think i must’ve been visibly distressed at this point bc one of the other fans in line came up to me and was like “you’re nervous too huh” like i’m pretty sure i looked like i was being taken to my execution. They stop us outside of the door and i can see scottifer swift and tree paine and andrea and i’m like “holy fuck this is actually happening.” And giuseppe the dancer walks past me and i’m like “holy fucking shit this is actually happening and also that man is so fucking hot.” they tell us to put all of our shit on the table, and i do (minus my yellow pass which i was still grasping as if it was going to be ripped out of my hands as cameramen crashed the scene like i was on punk’d and everyone including taylor was going to point and laugh at the fact that i actually for one second thought this was going to happen to me. Yes i’m dramatic what about it) and i enter the rep room. The snake habitat if you will. I enter a room and the first group goes in almost immediately and i hear taylor swfit’s speaking voice saying “hiiiiiiii” reverberate around the room and i’m like OH MY FUCKING GOD…….so like i said i was nervous and definitely visibly so. Like i’m pretty sure i was pacing. I was also singing along to lets get married by bleachers because i have morals, but i definitely looked scared. So the tn person in the room keeps offering to take polaroids of me next to all of the decorations ajkfjasnfkjnfa like she must’ve been trying to reassure me which i really appreciated.

The room is like a big dark well decorated room that has a well lit corner curtained off, which is where taylor and the photographer are and where the m&g takes place. So for my sanity i needed to like look into it so that my blood pressure could return and so that i didnt throw up on taylor the millisecond i walked into the glow of the ring light, so i casually walked to where the curtain area was and looked in between the two curtains where a sliver of bright ass light was escaping and i saw taylor in all her taylor swifitan glory with my own two unholy eyes and i was liek “well…..that did nothing to cure my stress” because she was just SO TALL AND BEAUTIFUL that i was just so fucking...idk. Idk i felt so nuts it was indescribable.

Lets get married stops playing and strawberries and cigarettes (i think?) starts and it’s my turn to go in. so i just like bite the bullet and do it and the first words that escape my stupid mouth are “holy fucking shit” and taylor laughed (i cant) and hugged me and she was just so. calm . well obviously shes calm shes meeting a known moron there’s nothing to be nervous abou there this was practically charity work for her like she’ll be able to use meeting me as a tax write off next year. Really i was doing her a service.

But anyway we pull back from the hug and she’s smiling at me and i’m pretty sure i was shaking a bit like my voice definitely was shaking. And i was just like “oh my god. I love you.” klasfjasnjkf like i was incapable of speaking at that point so i think she thought that i was just going to freeze up and not say a single word but before she could fill the awkward silence i just...started talking and did not shut upas fjkasnfjkajkf. Like i was like “oh my god hi i want you to know that i could not have anticipated this happening any less like i received the dm from taylor nation confirming this about 4 hours ago there was nothign to prepare me for this i didn’t even do anything my friend liz made a post and she and jess reblogged it at like 2 am last night none of this makes any sense” and she was like “oh my god that’s so nice of them” which TEA IT ABSOLUTELY WAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And then she said “i’m so happy i finally get the chance to meet you then” which i’m sure she says to everyone but she’s so good at making you feel like she means it like she said that and it was like i had taken a xanax like i was so calm after that. Everyone says you calm down in her presence and i’ve never taken that seriously, but YOU REALLY DO….like shes just so calming she makes you feel like she’s your friend and that she genuinely wants to talk to you as if this is a casual occurrence.

So i say “i really love you like i have an older sister and she’s cool and all but you have always felt like you were my older sister like you’ve been a constant in my life for like a decade. I don’t even remember my life before i was obsessed with you which is probably indicative of a brain issue if i can’t remember my life before i was 11 but its true” and she LAUGHED and like genuinely laughed which made me feel so good. Like maybe she’s just the most talented actress alive but i really felt like she thought i was funny……..the………..and then as if i didnt get it from her laughing she called me funny which is disgusting. I’m doing my best to remember this conversation i like blacked out ajskfnsanf. I DIDNT EVEN TELL HER ANYTHING ABOUT MYSELF whcih is so funny to think about now and honestly im fine with bc my life is boring anyway. But anyway i had been debating requesting a song all day, but i was like fuck it the worst thing she can do is turn me down and call me stupid for asking. So i prefaced my request with: “taylor i know youre probably getting different requests from everyone you meet and i know you also probably alreayd have a song in mind for tonight which is totally fine it’s your concert you can do whatever you want my opinion doesn’t matter i’l love anything you do” and shes laughs and is like “whats the song” and i tell her forever and always. And shes like “OHHHHH oh my god i didnt even think of that song. i have a list of songs in my mind that i can play at each show and forever & always didn’t even cross my mind i dont know why. I’ll be honest i already have a song in mind for tonight i’m going to play fearless because it’s raining” and i was like “THATS SO GREAT i love that song it’s your concert it’s your show do whatever you want i love fearless fearless is my favorite album” and she was like “that’s such a good request i didn’t evne think about that song” and i started telling her how i love that song because it was like the song that really got me into her music bc i saw her talking about it on ellen and she literally interrupted me which was an honor and goes “OH MY GOD and it has the ‘it rains in your bedroom eveyrthing is wrong it rains when youre here and it rains when you’re gone’ line and its going to rain!!! oh my god that’s such a good song i love that song” and i said me too!! Also i’m her complimenting her own song god she’s so talented. She’s absolutely right it is SUCH a good song. And i said “well its raining again tomorrow and i’ll be there!!!” and she was like “but i was thinking about playing [song she didn’t play but i dont want to say--not to be purposefully evasive bc i know its annoying--but bc i dont want her to hate me for saying it publicly asjkfjkas and also bc if she does it at gillette i want to let it be a surprise :( i feel so annoying im sorry] tomorrow because a lot of people requested it” and i was like “I LOVE THAT SONG” and then said something about the song.

And then she said (again) that forever & always was a good request and then looked SO SORRY when she was like “i’m so sorry i’m probably not going to play that today or tomorrow because i already have songs in mind but i promise i’ll try to play it later even though you probably won’t be there :(” and i was like “NO ITS COMPLETELY FINE i loved all the songs you mentioned. I’d love any song that you played it’s your concert do whatever you want you don’t ever have to play it if you dont want to it’s your show you call the shots” and she was like “i love how you keep telling me i can do whatever i want it’s so thoughtful and supportive you’re so nice” LIKE SHE KEPT TELLING ME I WAS NICE THIS WHOLE TIME and i was like “WELL PEOPLE CAN BE DEMANDING” and she was like “YEAH THEY REALLY CAN BE THANK YOU FOR SAYING THAT THEY’LL GET MAD AT ME OVER ANYTHING they’ll get mad at me if i play a song they don’t like or if i dont play a song they like-” and i was like “i know they’ll get mad at you for excluding so it goes and i’m just like guys its her concert let her live” and she laughed again and called me nice again like she kept saying i’m nice which seems so inconsequential tkjajfnjsa but it was so kind of her shes the best.

So at this point we had been there for a long ass time like it felt long and i was like “wait fuck i haven’t even introduced myself to you” and she was like “whats your name” and i said ariana and she goes “wait like air-iana or like are-iana” and i was like “i literally dont care you can call me whatever you want and i’ll respond” and she like laughed AGAIN and was like “youll just respond to anything huh. But seriously what is it” and i said my name again she was like “ariana. Cool.” bye and then she was like “well do you want to take a picture?” which is when i realized how long it had been and i was like “YEAH” and she just pulled me into a hug for a hugging picture which felt cute bc thats what i wanted to do anyway but she was probably just like god this girl has been in here for 8 years im not asking her what pose she wants to do can we please get going with this jskfnajafs but i didnt mind i was on cloud 9. So as shes hugging me i’m like “oh my god i’m going to blink in this picture and then i’ll have to die” and she was like “you wont blink i promise you wont blink she (the photog) will check to make sure” so we take the pic, the photographer tells me i’m good, and then taylor hugs me again and was like “it’s so nice to meet you” and i was like “it’s so nice to meet you too i didnt expect any of this. thank you so much for all of this i love you” and she huggged me again and called me nice again and then we said bye.

And then the taylor nation girl who was taking my picture (who i then gave all of my polaroids and my rep room pass to for her to hold before i went int asjkfnsafj) was like “here you go sweetie” and gave it to me and then told me to go back out and wait in the hall. And like idk why but once i left the photo area it was like every overwhelming emotion i had felt that entire day came rushing out like i just started crying silently like w tears streaming down my face. Asjkfnaskfjafkj. Like i dont cry so it was so bizarre. I didnt know what was happening. So then i was the only one out there bc i guess the first group had already been escorted out, so i was waiting for the rest of the people to be done and just crying. And then andrea was there so i said hi while crying and she came up to me and was like “hi honey how was it?!?!?” and i was like sarcastically like “oh it was okay ive had better days” and i dont think she knew i was joking at first like her face fell a bit before she realized i cant breahjtraefjs btu she was like “yeah its just a normal saturday for you no big deal” and then i asked her for a picture and she complied of course and i was like “im so sorry for crying idk why im crying” and she was like “its okay sweetie youve been through a lot today” which is honestly the most truthful thing ive ever heard in my life. And then i said “i raelly have” and she was like “this is a really amazing experience for you” and once again no lies detected but it was so funny that she said that about me MEETING HER DAUGHTER JKjkjskafjkfjska. And then i thanked her for raising taylor because i love her or something i cant breahfghasf and she was like “it was my pleasure she made it easy on me” and then finally i was escorted out and i was just crying.

Okay so now i just wanted to tahnk everyone who has been nice to me since saturday it means so so much like obviously i didnt think people would be MEAN TO ME but everyone has been soooooo nice i appreciate it a lot. And also like mayb this is controversial 2 say in this economy but i also want to say that all of the taylor nation people were so nice to me like i think everyones a bit hard on them at times like theyre just doing their jobs guys and it doesnt seem like an easy job sajkfnkjas considering they have to deal with how annoying some of us can be. And also i want to thank all of my friends, jess and liz in particular, bc like i didnt do anything obviously akjfanjksfj like this was all them and i love them so much like they were so happy for me it was equally as exciting to tell them as it was to actually meet taylro idk i just love them so much. IDK WHY IM TREATING THIS LIKE AN OSCARS ACCEPTANCE SPEECH but i obviously obviously i want to thank @taylorswift Idk if you saw my post and requested to meet me or if it was just a coincidence but it was honestly such an amazing experinece and you were so GOOD at talking i cant describe it but you were so calming and i really appreciated it. I feel like we dont appreciate all u do for us enough like youre just so kind and amazing i love you taylor swift i aint never gona stop loving you taylor swift. Idk this was so amazing and so unexpected and i still dont understand how any of this happened to me. THIS WAS CRAZY and it was just everything like everything u hear about meeting taylor is just so true…..shes just so good shes such a good person i want 2 cry………………

if u read all of this…..idk why youd do that but thank you and also im sorry for how long it was i just needed to write it all down for my own memory. Thank youuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lovinitkpop]

Brown Sugar and Honey

This one is about a new girl group at SM. You could say EXO sister group there may be a love line put in it who really knows. I mean I know but then again I might not know. Heads up I’m sorry for any spelling mistakes or grammar mistakes after rereading it over and over I can’t deal with it.

Oh the reason I came up with this title is because the main OC is black and DO KyungSoo looks damn sexy and handsome when his skin is dark and tan and NOT WHITE WASHED!!!!! STOP THE WHITE WASHING!!!!!!!!

If there is a love line then it will be my first Kyungsoo series. Hope you like it but if you don’t guess what I don’t give two shits leave my blog then. Anyways enjoy bye.

Warnings: Fluffy, Angst, Language, Bullying, Stupid, May not make senses, Brain frat, May not have smut, Trigger, Suicide talk, Racism, Blood, etc.

Pairing: OC x DO Kyungsoo

Chapter 32

July 13, 2019

Renesmee sits in the back of the van next to her manager. “Take a picture with me manager oppa.” She says looking at him and he looks at her.

“I said I was sorry, you’re still mad?”

“You didn’t tell me about you being sick until two days ago.” He says looking at her still and she just pouts.

“And I’m not that sick.” She says coughing turning her head. He rolls his eyes shaking his head. “Please just take a picture with me; I have to post before the concert.”

“Fine.” He gives in to her and she smiles holding up her phone. He leans over looking at the phone and they take a couple pictures together. “Here you can do a vlive until we get there.”

He says watching her post the pictures to her Instagram. “Yay I haven’t done a vlive in forever.” She says taking his phone after he logins.

Renesmee looks at the screen fixing her hair before waving. “Hello everyone and yes I’m doing a vlive by myself; well my manager is here.”

“Say hi to everyone.”

He looks at her then the phone with a smirk. He bows his head smiling as he waves. “Hi.”

Renesmee smiles trying not to laugh. “Well we are on our way to rehearsal because today is the first day of our tour.”

She speaks looking at the comments tilting her head. “Uh yes I am a little sick that’s why we left to get my medicine.” She answers holding up the bag.

“But trust me I’m fine.”

“Are you really though?” Her manager asks looking back at her. Renesmee hums looking over at him.

“Yes I’m fine better even; I’m really excited about this tour.” She replies coughing covering her mouth. “But no tonight is going to be great.”

“Maybe I shouldn’t have given you that lollipop.” He says shaking his head and she just smiles. “No more sugar.”

“What no that’s not fair.” Renesmee pouts looking at him and he just shakes his head. “Come on what’s so bad about sugar?”

“It makes you too hyper.” He says looking over some notes. Renesmee whines looking at him and he shakes his head.

“Fine I’ll get my sugar from elsewhere; anyways tonight is going to be great.” She says bouncing in her seat.

“You don’t need sugar it messes up your teeth plus too much could kill you.” He adds watching her. Renesmee just rolls her eyes looking back at the phone.

“Well with my life I always live like it’s my last.” She says smiling nodding her head. “But like I said tonight is going to be great.”

“I believe that we will get to see what lightstick design was chosen.” Renesmee wiggles in her seat. She spends a few more minutes talking about random stuff.

“Oh look we are here, the others are already here practicing; I left to get my medicine now I ready to rock and roll.” Renesmee says as the van pulls to the venue.

She jumps out the van coughing as she makes her way inside. “Okay I’ll see you all tonight bye.”

Once the girls were ready they sit there getting some final touch ups on hair and makeup. Rosalie knocks on the door before walking in. “Huh mom?”

“Mommy!” Jisoo says running over hugging Rosalie.

“Again not your mom.” She says hugging her back. Jisoo pouts looking at her before walking off.

“What are you doing here?” Renesmee asks getting up walking over to her.

“Uh right yeah this was delivered to my house it said to give it to you.” Rosalie says handing her the box. Renesmee hums taking the box from her.

“Well are you going to open it?” Eunjin asks looking at Renesmee. The others look at her and she shrugs sitting back down.

“Well I’m leaving now have to make sure your cousins doesn’t cause trouble.” Rosalie says walking back towards the door. “Good luck girls.”

They bow smiling waving as she leaves. Renesmee just sits there looking at the box before opening it. “Okay girls get out there.”

Renesmee looks inside seeing the note pulling it out. The girls make their way towards the stage. Renesmee smiles reading the note pulling the necklace out.

‘I know I promised I would be there but I can’t be there now. I’ll make it up to you I swear. But I want you to have fun no matter what and here’s you present I promised. Fighting!’

“Hey come on Nessie!” Her manager says and she nods putting the necklace up in her bag keeping it safe.

Renesmee runs out getting into place with the others. The girls smile as they put on a show for the fans. The first half of the show goes off without a problem.

As Roxay and Yiyang do their solo stage Renesmee sits to the side taking her medicine again. Her manager walks over looking at her checking on her as she coughs.

“You okay?” He asks and she nods giving him a thumbs up. “Be careful okay.”

The girls run back out preforming a few more songs. Renesmee runs around as they sing Jelly. She nods to the beat walking over to the edge holding her mic out to the staff telling them it’s not working.

They nod grabbing her other microphone. She crouches down getting a bottle of water taking a sip. As they walk back over handing her the new mic she reaches out for it.

Renesmee covers her mouth turning her head as she coughs. She leans forward grabbing the mic; but as she does her eyes roll back and she collapses hitting the floor her head hitting one of the stage lights.

The fans scream seeing her hit the floor. The staff run over with air mask and water. “She’s not breathing!” One of the staff yells and the other staff try and block the fans view.

“No her heart stopped!” They yell and the girls look over hearing the fans screaming. The staff try and revive her as they try and get help.

“I have a heart beat!” One says as he stops pressing on her chest. Jisoo tried to run over but Moka grabs her stopping her.

The girls look around as they keep singing. “Wait no I lost it again we need to move her now!” One yells looking at the others.

“We need to get a heart beat first!”

July 14, 2019

‘Breaking News

Renesmee from Royal 1004 collapses during concert. Fans say staff claims her heart stops beating twice before they move her taking her to the hospital.

Before the show starts Nessie went live on v app talking about the tour and that she was sick but was taking medicine for it. She even shows off her manager talking to him having fun. Before she ends it she says ‘I always live like it’s my last.’

With that being said really scared fans. Because some know she rather be in pain and see them smile then disappoint them. Renesmee is known for being happy and helping everyone without thinking about herself.

Now fans await on word from SM or the rest of the girls. But I think they just want Renesmee to get better and come back 100%.’

“Well she’s still unconscious as of right now.” The doctor says talking to Rosalie and she nods. “It seems her fever spiked but we got it down and she has bruises on her side like someone beat.”

“I see.”

“We checked and her ribs are fine not broken this time.” He says and Rosalie sighs nodding again. “We are doing everything we can; watching her 24/7 just in case her fever spikes again.”

Rosalie hums looking around hearing her name. “Thank you doctor you’ve really been a big help.” She says bowing to him before he walks off with the nurse.

Rosalie walks around the corner folding her arms. “So what did he say?” Li Xiuying asks folding his arm.

“She’s going to be okay they got her breathing and heart beat normal; but she’s still unconscious.” Rosalie says looking up at him and he nods looking away. “They said there are bruises on her body.”

“Bruises?” He says looking back at her. “As in someone was beating her!”

“Calm down!” She says grabbing his arm pulling him back to the waiting room. “We don’t know that, she does practice extra hard she could have fell.”

Xiuying sighs looking at her. “Can I go see her then please?” He asks looking st Rosalie. Rosalie sighs pushing her hair back. “Please I haven’t seen her since she was a baby.”

“The last time you saw her was when she was 5.” Rosalie says folding her arms and Xiuying sighs pushing his hair back.

“Please let me go see here.” He asks reaching out grabbing her arm. Rosalie groans looking at him as he pouts.

“Ugh I hate that pout, she does the same thing.” Rosalie says rolling her eyes looking away. Xiuying smiles kissing her cheek. Rosalie sighs grabbing his hand heading to Renesmee room.

“Don’t say anything and don’t touch her.” Rosalie says and he nods standing outside the door. “Hurry up.”

Xiuying opens the door walking into the room. Rosalie stands by the door watching him. He walks over to her bedside sitting in the chair.

July 24, 2019

“I don’t think I can keep going.” Jisoo says sitting in her chair getting her makeup done.

“Jisoo we know this is really hard on you.” Sora says looking over at her and Jisoo sighs. “It’s hard on all of us; but we must stay strong for Nessie.”

Xiaoling sighs before standing up. “That’s right unnie would want us to be strong a give the fans a show.” She says smiling even though she wanted to cry as well.

“This is the last day for the Seoul part of the tour; which means we get to go see unnie tomorrow.” Roxay says smiling as she jumps up. “So let’s give it our all tonight.”

The girls head out towards the stage. As the girls start the show they put on a brave face as they dance and sing. After the first few songs they stop.

“1…2…3…”

Sora counts off as they stand there. “Gimmie gimmie your love Royal 1004!” The girls say bowing doing their pose.

“Are you guys ready to have some fun!” Roxay yells and the fans start screaming.

The girls stand there talking for a few while the staff moves some stage props around. Jisoo sighs rocking side to side not wanting to talk. Moka looks over at her then slowly makes her way over to Jisoo.

Moka puts her arm around Jisoo rubbing her side. “I know I’m ready to have fun and party tonight.” Chaoxing says holding up Her microphone.

“If you’re ready to party make some noise!” Yiyang screams and the fans start screaming again. “Then lets have some fun!”

The girls run off getting ready for the next few songs. As the night goes on the girls start to have fun interacting with the fans. As the girls sing the last couple of songs they walk around waving to the fans.

As the girls look out hearing the fans sing along they notice the signs and lights. Jisoo covers her mouth as she starts crying.

‘We Love our Queen Nessie!’

Xiaoling walks over hugging Jisoo rubbing her back as she keeps singing. The others smile wiping their eyes as they stand there. The fans keep singing as the girls go silent looking at them.

At the hospital

Déshì walks into the room looking at Rosalie. “How is she?” He asks setting his bag down walking over to Renesmee.

“Still no change and now I’m starting to worry.” Rosalie says standing up looking at him. Déshì sighs sitting on the other side of the bed.

He reaches out grabbing her hand squeezing it. “Come on Nessie you have to wake up.” He says kissing the back of her hand.

Renesmee lays there still unconscious and he sighs. Rosalie rubs her face as she yawns. Déshì looks over at her getting up. “Mom why don’t you go home I’ll stay here you need rest.”

Rosalie sighs shaking her head pushing her hair back. “I can’t leave her alone; what if she wakes up or if she stops breathing again?” Rosalie says as tears run down her face.

“I can’t lose her again I need to be here by her side.” She says her breathing becoming shaky and Déshì grabs her arm stopping her.

“Hey mom calm down she’s not going to die or be taken.” He says rubbing her arm and she looks back at him. “I’m here okay what happened then it wasn’t your fault and it’s in the past.”

“If she wakes up I promise you will be the first I call; I won’t let nothing happen to her.”

Rosalie looks over at Renesmee then back at Déshì nods. “I know she would want you rested and healthy when she wakes up.” He says and Rosalie nods wiping her face.

“Okay but you call me if anything happens.” She says and he smiles nodding.

“Promise.” He says letting her go and she grabs her bag. “Go home take a hot shower calm down as well as dad, and get some sleep for the both us.”

Rosalie nods heading towards the door leaving. She walks out yawning again and Déshì watches her leave. He walks back over sitting down holding Renesmee hand.

As the night goes on the doctor and nurses come and go checking on Renesmee. “Well that’s good nurse thank you I was starting to worry.” The doctor says looking over the charts.

Déshì looks up from his phone hearing them and the doctor smiles looking back at him. “Good news her fever is gone so she may wake up soon.” He says looking back at the charts nodding.

“We are going to up her oxygen since a little lower than before; but everything else looks good her heart beat is normal again.” He speaks and Déshì sighs in relief nodding as he follows along.

The nurse and doctor walks out the room closing the door. “Thank god you’re okay.” Déshì says walking back over to Renesmee side sitting down. “Please wake up soon.” He says grabbing her hand resting his head on the side of her bed looking at her.

After a few hours Déshì starts to feel sleepy as he watches her. He closes his eyes deciding to take a small nap. One of the nurse comes in checking on Renesmee and sees him sleeping.

She walks over grabbing the extra blanket gently covering him up. Renesmee lays there her brain slowly coming to. Her body starts to move a little as she gets flash of memory.

Renesmee starts to whimper in her sleep. Her heart rate quickly starts to escalate. She grips her fist causing Déshì to wake up. Renesmee whimper as more memories flash.

The nurse comes running in just as Renesmee wakes up screaming. “Renesmee calm down.” Déshì says jumping up looking at her as he grabs his phone.

“Don’t hurt me….please let me go!” Renesmee screams covering her face.

“Sir we are going need you to step out for a bit.” The nurse says as the doctor comes running in. The nurses walks him out the room closing the door.

Déshì calls Rosalie his hands shaking. “Mom she’s up.” He says looking into the room. “She woke up screaming they’re trying to calm her down.”

“Okay I’m on my way.” Rosalie says before ending the call.

“Please be okay.” Déshì says and the doctor opens the door looking around. “What’s wrong why is she still screaming.

The nurse walks out and the doctor pulls Déshì into the room. “Maybe you can help.” He says looking at Déshì.

Déshì walks over towards Renesmee gently placing his hand on her shoulder. She pulls her knees closer hiding her face. He sits on the bed looking at her. Déshì sighs closing his eyes thinking and the doctor watches him.

Déshì hums softly before he starts to sing. The doctor tilts his head watching Renesmee. Renesmee stops screaming hearing Déshì voice. She slowly takes a breath trying to calm down.

Déshì gently rubs her arm as he sings. Renesmee looks up looking at Déshì and he just smiles seeing her face. She throws herself at him wrapping her arms around him.

Déshì wraps his arms around her closing his eyes. “Thank god you’re okay.” He says rubbing her back as she starts crying. “They won’t hurt you those people are gone that was in the past Nessie; you’re safe now I promise.”

“How did you get her to calm down?” The doctor asks looking them. Déshì looks back at him smiling.

“That song always calms her down plus I knew why she was screaming.” Déshì says looking back at Renesmee. The doctor nods calling the nurse back. “Nessie you’re at the hospital okay; you had an accident at the concert now that you’re up they need to make sure you’re okay.”

Renesmee sits up looking around the room and she nods. Déshì wipes her face smiling standing up. “I already called your mom she’s on her way now.”

“Okay I’ll be right out there by the door.” He says before walking out the room. The doctor nods thanking him before he leaves.