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lightasthesun · 6 months

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im in the pits of despair. I have my neurologist appointment tomorrow to discuss my latest mri and as always before a major doctor's appointment I'm spiraling through worst case scenarios, especially because of the latest additions to my symptoms. And it hit me that if my neurologist found what I'm suspecting they will find and I'd end up needing major brain surgery sooner than expected I'd have nobody sitting at my bedside in the hospital. And I don't think I've ever been so sad in my entire life.

#personal rant #medical mention #and it's not like i don't have enough people in my life #it's just that I'm not important enough for them to visit me in a hospital that won't be right next door #the only people that would are my grandparents and those are the people i wouldn't even want to tell im having major brain surgery #let alone find a way to visit me.l #my grandpa would worry himself quite literally sick and my grandma would decide she can drive there no matter how bad of an idea that would #neurological disability

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