#less anxiety wohoo

[safetea]

today i came up with so many new ideas for my art and it has been so hard for me to even attempt that for so long. i’m so happy and proud of myself!!!

[lake-vandal]

My True Identity

Rewatching Sanders Sides

- who would've thought what hype this video would start

- ok, I know that video wasn’t done with much plans for the future but I still find it interesting that Logan is introduced first especially knowing the emphasis on emotional driven decisions in the latest videos.

- I wonder if Logan saying that there’s a class is because we learn constantly; the whole world is a classroom and we’re just students of life

- Roman, I also need to know, why that song?

- oh man, Patton was never my favorite but god damn do I miss the early Patton. Bit childish, bubbly, still representing his aspect but less... conservative Christian-like. Back then he was the father, now he’s the padre.

- first burn from Roman, bull’s-eye

- “that’s when the anxiety kicks in”, damn I can’t watch this now without imagining Virgil kicking Thomas in the butt

- Patton then: nobody’s perfect, everyone comes with their own flaws Patton now: Thomas is perfect and everything that indicates otherwise gets repressed

- The biggest fears are interesting, for Patton, embodiment of emotions, it’s something real and tangible, for Roman, it’s something emotional and for Logan it’s because of lack of knowledge.

- the “same glasses” scene always makes me laugh

- alright, I don’t think I’ve ever identified with Patton as much as in that end card. One wohoo and then – “I’m tired now, I’ll go and take a nap.” 

I saw that video for the first time a few days after it came out and I loved it. The concept was intriguing and the way Thomas played all of the characters himself fascinating. Still fun to watch.  

[psydoc2]

Benefits of laughter by Psychologist in doylestown

For a happy life, laughter is an essential element and it has a sturdy aid on both mentally and physically. It doesn't matter what type of problem are you facing or in which situation you are, laughter therapy is the ultimate solution of all the hurdles.

 All our stress can relieve if we spend some time with our family and friends who make us happy and make the environment good, see toddlers, and think and live in a positive environment.

 As Psychologist in doylestown says that if you want to increase your sense of humor then laugh as much as you can.

 Revitalize your health by a good laugh

If you want to upgrade your heart health, want immunity from depression, emotional situations, anxiety, etc. then good laugh will benefit you to overcome these issues.

 Comfort of Mental health

According to research, it says that those who manipulate hilarity to overcome stress are more positive and less lonely. In addition, it is the most productive, efficient and effective therapy especially uses for antipsychotic drugs (handle perturbation patients with dementia).

 Physical Satisfaction

Psychologist in doylestown says that laughter therapy is primarily used as harmonious for cancer patients and upgrade the value of life. Even though studies show that people who laugh a lot has great health and they feel amazing.

 Comfort of Heart Health

According to experts, when there is an unleashing of endorphins results in from an increase in oxygen-rich blood in our body which combats us from negative situation or feelings.

 How to bring laughter in your life

Sometimes it happens in our life that we forgot to laugh due to so much stress, depression or some other disease like cancer, etc. hence we have to make extra effort to make ourselves laugh. But there are some suggestions from where you can start this therapy like sit with your buddy, go to those places where you have spent good time or buy or see funny movies or read books, do things which make you happy.

 Moreover, you can join laughter groups or session.  One of them is laughter yoga which involved elongate discretionary laughter. It furnishes both physiological and psychological advantage unconstrained laughter. This yoga session is run through eye contact, group of people, jokes among the peoples. The benefits of this laughter yoga are that it expand happiness, minimize stress and lower pains and nourish immune systems.

 The second method is searching for laughter groups. Because it always difficult to laugh alone especially when we are not in a good mood or we are facing problems in our life or going through any depression, anxiety, etc. Having a group of people who are aware towards this therapy is always a good idea, these type of people feel positive and are full of energy in their life hence led a happy and healthy life.

 Furthermore, have a wohoo it is a part of laughter therapy in which research says that if we do this at least for 20 minutes or more it helps us to bring smiles on our face and we feel fresh and healthy.

[lena-imzadi-221b]

Ah yes the classic "can't touch but will box" body language -> to claim and want to be in someone's personal space knowing the other person gives willingly, in this case shows a trusting bond, indicates wanting to possess, protect and give comfort in a private subtle way.

Lando did the exact same thing last time, it's a common language they know, give and share for whatever sign Carlos got from Lando or the other way around to show the "box". They read each other extremely well, no words needed. And Carlos read him well because Lando for some reason needed the claiming/comforting as he tried to hide it but would casually push off the railing, fall back but always a little bit closer to Carlos, into the comfort of the "box".

Carlos is more soft in his box-ing, Lando is more upfront like he did last time. Carlos' body language to Lando is very open, Lando steps close and does the box placing his arm and hand between Carlos' body and hand, closer to his hand until Checo glanced over and Carlos moved his hand a bit further.

I love how in tune they are as friends, I know some say Lando likes to take and claim and sulk or is jealous but when you read them and ignore the banter and joking, it's very much like dancing, giving and taking, following each other's steps, their silent gestures flow effortlessly. And yes lots of lip licking, gazing and a bit of jealousy for both of them, Carlos is just better at hiding it 🤭 Charles and Pierre have this comfort dance too and it's really nice to see friends share a common real honest connection.

And I just have no business in analysing the body language of two strangers but they make it so much fun. Even before I was a fan, their interactions as friends intrigued me.

That's why yesterday was so heartbreaking knowing Lando needed Carlos but couldn't ask as he needed to leave the broken pieces on the ground and be happy and proud for his friend's amazing race so he couldn't as he would break and I think that's why the hug with Lewis happened and not just a handshake or fist bump. And bless Lewis for picking up some of those broken pieces and glue them together with his experience, supporting words and reaching out again in the interviews.

Carlos was off too in the beginning, not an exploding extremely happy wohoo I got a podium and dang it I fought for it all race and deserved it and got it! No, he reined it in for Lando and for Charles cause the other broken pieces left in that McLaren, he will find a way to pick up and mend together with his care, understanding and guidance as he did when they were still team mates. A quick conversation must've happened in between the media carousel cause Lando was a bit more outspoken less devastated, Carlos smiled a bit more, less tense but yeah. Carlos is that kind of person. Empath to a fault, soft yet strong and fair yet a fighter on track.

These two deserve all the respect to choose to be and stay friends in a fast paced, money and attention driven sport where soft men are overlooked sometimes.

Don't get me wrong I also love my F1 chaos children (and yes I am old enough to be a mom to some of them) but I support recognizing emotions and feeling them, go Lando!, to be soft and supporting, to wear pink and be a geek, to hug other men and wear rainbows even if some identified themselves as straight. Be an ally.

I respect it and I hope they smother the macho system with kindness and love and yet be killers and so talented on track.

You are loved, you are allowed to make mistakes, you are human, you learn, you are allowed to give up and still be strong, you are allowed to cry your heart out and still be called strong, you are allowed to fall apart because we all get back up!

How you feel today will not be how you feel in the future. You are not responsible for how others perceive your pain, your internal conflict or fights, your anxiety nor your emotions or their version of you.

You are meant to be here and you will get up. When you read this, it's because you found like-minded souls and are accepted and not alone!

❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤

Did you see Carlos hand next to Lando during the driver parade while George and Nicholas were talking?

Of course I have 😭 boyfriends always sticking together 😍❤️

Btw, thank you for the reminder to also post yesterday's driver parade Carlando content later 😉

[celiawickedrunnah]

“Vulnerability is not winning or losing; it’s having the courage to show up and be seen when we have no control over the outcome.”

Brene Brown

Hubby and I at my fav place to run – My Kenya in FL!

Hello 2019!!! How’s that new year’s resolution going?

I can tell you that mine isn’t going. I don’t necessarily do new year’s resolution. I go one day at a time; creating new goals as I go along and as I see fit – a day, a week, a month, a semester – at a time. But I have the big picture in mind!

First things first with the new coach, or should I say, THE COACH! Yes, Dave is THE COACH! His philosophy – the more you do something the better you will become. That means, more racing in my calendar. So let’s see where we are at with a quick-EZ 5K and go from there.

I chose to race Park Avenue 5K. It’s s local race, simple, small and relatively cheap. I heard it was nice, great post-race goodies from Seasons 52 and a medal. Of course, I would not race that doesn’t do chip time.

RACE PLAN:

Do the regular shenanigans I do for every workout. Nothing new here.

MILE 1 – 7:40 = settle in and relax

MILE 2 – 7:30 – 7:35 = focus on the mile I am in.

MILE 3 – sub 7:30 = let’s go, get tough!

Based on my previous workouts, the splits are doable. I didn’t think I could not hit these splits. However, on race day, things turned out very different.

My last race was March 2018. Then I got injured. This was my first race of the year, first post injury, first 5K in 2 years, and first with a new coach. I didn’t think that anxiety would get to me, but the sucker did. I was nervous. I was late. I was looking for a bathroom with 15-minutes to start the race. I made it to the start line but not to the START where I should be lined up. Yup, in the back of the pack with the people that want to walk, walk/race with their dogs and moms with the strollers – that’s where I was. I am going to stop right here because you know where I am going with this.

MILE 1 – 8:48 = Gee, I am lucky I even got a sub-9 pace for the first mile after dodging people back-and-forth and wasting energy.

MILE 2 – 8:00 = WOHOO, 8:00 even! Ahhh… but the effort going into this, it was not fair! It wasn’t fair I felt as if I was holding my heart and lungs on my hands for just an 8:00 pace. At this point, the entire race turned into a survival-mode; wishing for it to be over soon and, for making sure that I didn’t make a fool of myself. And by making a fool of myself I meant, get that damn PR by all means.

Really trying not make a full of myself – a PR by all means is a must!

MILE 3 – 7:44 = Where’s that finish line? Where??? I pushed and I pushed, but it didn’t feel I had energy in me. My legs felt heavy, my heart and lungs were burning, and my legs were begging to stop. But my ego wasn’t about to allow this to happen. No freakin way! I focused on breathing. With perhaps .40 mile to the finish, I heard this guy encouraging his friend to push and to pick up pace. I said: let’s go, let’s do this, I need help too! His friend didn’t respond to any of the pleading, but he ended up joining me and eventually pacing me to the finish. It was so nice to find a stranger that actually helped me to focus on my breathing and pick up my pace. He stepped back with less than .10 of mile of crossing the finish line to help his friend. Crossing the finish line never felt so good!

.12 – 6:43 It’s done. It’s over. Thank goodness I didn’t make a fool of myself. Never, Never give up! It’s a 20 seconds PR, I know I can do lot better than this, but for today, this was the best I could give.

25:20 / 8:07 / / 10th in AG

Next, please!

“I don’t have to chase extraordinary moments to find happiness – it’s right in front of me if I’m paying attention and practicing gratitude.”

Brene Brown

Bring it On Pre Vibes – Park Ave 5K “Vulnerability is not winning or losing; it’s having the courage to show up and be seen when we have no control over the outcome.”

[sommer-rain]

I’m not gonna be on the computer for long tonight tho i’m free tomorrow because finnish independence day (Wohoo) because i’m so tired right now. *yawns*

My day was rather good until about twelve. I wasn’t that tired this morning and the moon were so big and clear in the sky on my walk to work tht i almost thought it still had to be night and waking up way too early (well it has happend just a bunch of times throught the years). I love the moon so what could be better? And it was colder than yesterday so points up for that. And i actually were in a good mood that time of the day. Which means i get more things done. Usually i’m just in that i’m-too-tired-to-be-in-any-mood-yet-mood.

-On tuesdays is the day in the week when do other tasks then the rest of the days and i generally remembers it pretty well now but then there is that one thing i’ve kept forgetting some times now to do that is one of the more important areas to clean and that is to vacuum the hotel’s restaurant carpetfloor..or floorcarpet whatevr it’s supposed to be called.. Anyway, i know i damn well and it really shouldn’t be anything to forget by all the years i’ve worked there already and done that many times and knows how important it is.   Anyhow, after i did my first usual task that i take all four days there i thought about which of all the tasks of today i’ll start to do next and went for mopping C-side’s backstairs and when i’m back on bottomfloor/lobby putting away the equipments i used both one of the kitchen personnel and my collegue looks so dang surprised seeing me again i almost thought someone would say i should be working today and just be home (boy, all those times i haven’t realised it was a holiday in the week and understood it first when i got all the way to the workplace, ugh >_<) and told me they had been looking for me and i had apsolutely no idea of that because during the whole time of that must have been about the only place they didn’t look! And it’s the backstairs, it’s kind of hidden, so i wouldn’t see and hear them and they wouldn’t do that either anyway. And said i really need to hurry up because i have to vacuum the restasurant before lunch!   Oh shit! @_@ When i remember EVERYTHING to do on tuesday EXCEPT to vacuum the whole restaurant floor! That take like an hour and i barely had an half hour left! Tho i was doing it about as fast i could i couldn’t get more than half done, still and it felt so unsatisfying.

It was unsatisfying, right but it wasn’t really enough to take down my good mood today but later some tome after lunch when had began cleaning the other half of what to clean in the tiny library/leisure room and as always had the door closed to not get disturbed and interrupted while cleaning there and so the guests understand that they shouldn’t go into that room for as long as the door is shut. And for me to not feel nervious and get/have anxiety for a bunch of people sitting in the restaurant seeing directly into the room i’m in if having the door is open. -Then there were two guests that still opened the side/slide door that i had shut so it really would be shut with that magnet mechanism some doors have (usually older door designs), stepped in the room and said that they wanted to play biljard right then and i was in the middle of viping the dust on the big bookshelf standing on the stepladder to reach the highest of the three shelfs while they just bargin in. I KNOW what i should and otherwise would have said but i got so freaking nervous and surprised by them that i almost couldn’t answer at all and it ended up with me going from the room with my things and they played that fucking stupid biljard game and i had no idea of how long they were gonna be there and i can’t just always wait until they are done entertaining themselves there when i have a schedule too with my tasks more or less. AND they just left the door open when they went into the room too. And it wasn’t so long until coffee break either which means when we have that break i’m supposed to be done with that task to spend rest of my workday/hour on mopping the whole lobby/resturant. (About half the area is with floorcarpet and rest of the half is with bigger, red tiles.)   I went to the changing room and felt like i had a minor breakdown. Such things really can take so much of my energy. And in short time too. I felt like most of my energy and motivation/good mood just dropped and poored out of me right then. I don’t know if it really were fucking anxiety or maybe, maybe something with me being an Empath or what-else but it really shot me down for the rest of the work day. I didn’t say anything to my colleagues either.   -Even more unsatisfying: I couldn’t take the rest of restaurant’s floorcarpet in the end of the workday because there where people sitting there then and it seemed liker it were supposed to come more, and i was too anxious to ask kitchen personnel and my collegues about it so i did something else instead.

[zelvuk]

That feel when a dream makes you wake up with your anxiety like at 100000%.

:) Kill me. And we gotta get up early today to set up church, but now I’m gonna have even less sleep because I woke up too early.

It started off as a nice dream about me finding a poor little abandoned white baby monkey of some sort, and having come home with some new Sonic Adventure game for the Switch.

It gave me a headache as soon as I woke up.

BUT HEY, the game had a reimagining of Aquatic Mine but it had been grown over by plants, and then there was a snowed over street that was obviously a nod to City Escape, but you played as tails on foot. There was some kind of device you had to find, and he was fast as the stage was slightly built for his speed, but the layout of the level was changed enough where it catered to him and his gliding around. It was pretty fun and the controls were similar to good old Sonic Adventure 2, not the now more slippery controls.

But then the dream showed me some shit I wasn’t okay with and now I can’t sleep, wohoo!