#legit I'm scared to post Nightmare stuff now

[pigeonstab]

Everyone is such a pro at characterization. I feel like I shouldn't even be talking about these characters

[inkedinfusions]

I had a physics exam.

Let's hope I got at least above 70(⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠)

Anyways! The key

Yes....yes...YESSS!!

Sorry I sound demented,but the point is YES

AHHH WE GOT GABI,FALCO AND WE MET THE WARRIORS,ZEKE WAS UNEXPECTEDLY LIKE A BIG BROTHER FIGURE AND IT FEELS SO IN CHARACTER IN ALL HONESTY (he has to let out those big brother energies somehow and Eren isn't here :))

Oh and we met Yelena....yey.

AND HOW READER WAS HANDLING EVERYTHING WAS SO SAD! AND UNDERSTANDABLE AND HOW NERVOUS SHE WAS GETTING WHEN WAITING FOR ZEKE MADE ME NERVOUS TOO AND IT FELT LIKE A JUMPSCARE WHEN ZEKE DID CAME AND I WAS LITERALLY ROLLING IN MY BED FROM SIDE TO SIDE WHILE NERVOUSLY READING AND JUST WAITING FOR WHAT ZEKE WILL SAY TO READER

Reader is honestly so hilarious at times though XD

Zeke: so you know my euthanize plan,so you agree with what am doing?

Reader: Yes (what he doesn't know is that am agreeing with him sticking with canon so I can predict his actions and deal with him)

And then we got on the boat to go to paradis and reader got smuggled like she's contraband XD

PLEASE AND HOW SHE WAS WAITING FOR EREN TO LIFT THE SHIP UP LIKE 'eren lift it up buddy,you're killing me here' 'i get motion sickness so better hurry up'

AND THEN WE LEAVE THE SHIP AND MEEEET EREN!! (Before reading all the chapters I've actually only read 8 9 10 but I still want to talk :))

I swear that no matter what timeline,what universe.eren will always have the worst first impression ever it's almost a talent (his first meeting with armin which I've talked about before,his first meeting with Mikasa where he kills two people ect)

The guy standing there like slenderman, being ominous and then saying

Eren: I know you 🧍‍♂️

Reader : ????? Yes?????

Eren: you know me too

Reader : wh-!?

Eren: don't try to deny it

Reader: ?????yes???

WE HAVE HANGEEEE!!!! AND LEVI TOO AHHHHH I LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEE HOW THEY WERE WRITTEN AND THEN THE MEETING WITH THE 104TH CADETS MADE ME GENUINELY NERVOUS

jean: no last name?

YES JEAN,NO LAST NAME WHAT'S IT TO YOU???? WHAT IF I WAS AN ORPHAN JEAN?? EVER THINK ABOUT THAT??? WHAT IF THE SHEER UTTER TRAUMA COMES BACK FROM YOU ASKING??? THEN I GO INTO COMA AND THEN THE FUTURE IS RUINED,DID THAT EVER CROSS YOUR MIND JEAN?????

(I love jean,but he legit made me so sad because reader got sad :'))

Eren is so funny here too XD

The 104th cadets looking at Eren when reader says something she definitely shouldn't know

Eren: she knows stuff :)

AND THEN WE GO TO SLEEP,OUR NIGHTMARES AND SLEEP PARALYSIS DEMON GREETS US AND WE SPRINT OUT! AND EREN...please eren

Eren: I heard something happened (my guy is just waiting for anything to happen just so he'd get an excuse to talk to reader)

AND I LOVE HOW EREN HELPS READER,AND THEN THEY TALK ABOUT WHAT HE KNOWS AND STUFF

At least even Eren seems surprised at what reader knows,watch her one day knowing stuff that is irrelevant to the future but also she must know it for a reason right?? (No Eren she just went to the wiki and trivias to know more and understand your character more,and that your blood type is B)

All in all I enjoyed the key very much :D

Physics and I have a toxic relationship lmao. Like,,, in theory I love it! but for a grade? 0/10 do not recommend, but I'm never probably taking a physics class again. I hope you get that above 70!

Im surprised about Gabi tbh lmao, at the beginning I didn't expect for her to come so naturally to me. Reiner too! Somewhere theres a post about me lamenting that I can't write him well - although that was probably because he wasn't planned. He just kinda appeared in the middle of a chapter and I was like... ok, ig we are doing this now?

Yelena! She scared the shit out of me when I watched the anime lol. Def interesting to think about her and her future role heehee

Zeke!!!! Love that man hes my favorite but I also don't like him a lot HHAHAH theres just something that makes me want to put him in a jar and shake him around to see how he reacts

Eren continuing with the trend of creepy first introductions. Wait I just realized that Y/n has a very bad track record. First creepy Yelena, then Eren standing there

LMAO SORRY I love Jean but he would

Everyone sideyeing y/n after she references something from their cadet days she DEFINITELY shouldn't know

Just leaving on the table that y/n didn't tell Eren everything lol

Thank you for your ask!! Im so glad you enjoyed it despite,,,, yknow,,, zeke and yelena HAHSA

[dolokhoded]

me starting to actually write this even though it still very obviously has some plot wholes

that ralbert au where race commits war crimes

i think it's really cute

so pulitzer is the big bad guy here for i'm basic reasons

has created some,, weird ass dumb ass evil empire

destroyed a couple towns

caused some battles

divided the world

y'know. stuff like that.

starting off with some spicy unfinished plot 🤩 but lbh it doesn't really matter anyways we're all just here for ralbert

anyways, race and al's families? pretty big part of that.

they're both supposed to take over their fathers' jobs when they grow up

said jobs basically being,, in charge of,,, unleashing people to raid entire towns and burn them to the ground

they grew up side by side, have always been best friends, never seen without each other

but understandably when they started growing up and understanding what was going on around them it,,,,,,, troubled them

and they dealed with it Very Differently

albert did Not like it

he was angry, and he was sad that this was what he was supposed to become and he was already never close with his family so it wasn't really hard for him to decide he didn't want anything to do with them anymore

race,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, okay look

deep inside him race knew what was going on was,,, s o wrong

but race was also from a big tight family, it was so much easier for him to just,,,,,, shut all of that out and pretend he was just doing what was better for them

it was hard for him, it was his family

still you can understand how well it went for them when albert left and race refused to go with him

they were 17 at the time

people against pulitzer's whole thing were obviously not very,,,,,,,,, well appreciated?

the moment albert ran away he was art of the defiance. he was a traitor.

but he was also still dasilva's son and they wanted them on their side, so they wouldn't seriously hurt him

doesn't mean they stopped looking for him

he shared an apartment with romeo and finch for a while, it was in a pretty lowkey neighborhood and they covered for him

and through them he met the rest of the newsies :) who actively helped in trying to help people who's homes were destroyed by pulitzer

there were people actively fighting him too but the newsies were mostly in charge of that

well, until albert and his non-existent impulse control arrived anyways

cause look,,,,, race was being trained for a reason, and eventually he took over

so when you see this ur ex-best friend who you're in love with but have a lot of repressed feelings for, both good and bad, that you decide to dump in the 'im angry' pile and just pretend you hate him and no longer care about him,,,,, fighting occurs

and there was a bit of controversy about albert joining them because "it's the dasilva boy romeo he was specifically trained to kick our asses" but that slowly turns into "yea ok he's very legit but for the love of god someone s t o p him the next time he tries to kiLL SOMEONE-"

that's a hyperbole, of course. even as rivals, albert wouldn't kill race. he barely even hurts him.

if anything, he even kind of looks out for him

he knows he's not supposed to but somehow he still can't bring himself to let race get hurt

besides let's be honest, most of their encounters are just an excuse to bitch at each other, they'd never do anything they know would seriously hurt the other

they know each other pretty well, they grew up together, they know each other's strengths and weaknesses

which is a pretty big advantage for them, honestly

enter,,,, albert dasilva's galaxy brain and the newsies' favorite game

Is Albert A Strategic Genius Or Is He Just In Love With Race

"no i've got this i know race!! i can use that against him!!!! i can guess his every move!!!! that's how well i know him!!!! i can recognize him in a room of like a billion people!!!!! it's my ultra strategic mind!!!! i can tell the sound of his voice from miles away!!!! it's because im so invested!!!!"

specs is like "in the mission or in race"

and albert is like "WHATEVER ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT IT'S MY STRATEGIC MIND"

"I AM A MACHINE SPECS"

"you're chronically dumb"

"S T R A T E G I C M I N D."

albert really came in like well race's plan's gonna be ruined cause IM IN LOVE WITH HIM >:) what a fuckin loser

all this aside,,,,,,, albert never stops trying to get race on their side .

now RACETRACK,,,,,,,,,

we have a WHOLE LOT of being an asshole as a defense mechanism from this boy

in race's eyes, albert abandoned him

in race's eyes, he was given up on. he just wasn't enough to keep him there.

he can't see anything but that and never in a million years would he bring himself to believe albert still cares about him

he'd be getting his hopes too high and letting down his guard, and he can't afford to do that.

race doesn't notice albert trying to help him, he doesn't notice albert very carefully avoiding injuring him, he doesn't notice how albert will never say anything that would hurt him

albert's always protective of race, regardless of if he's beside or against him

which leads us to how once race eventually does get hurt, seriously hurt, literally no one bats an eye when albert returns with race unconscious, demanding they get him help

which they do, cause albert has not shut up about race for like one second, the newsies might as well know as much about him as albert did

naturally when race woke up he,,, had questions

and then he saw albert

he was sat on a chair next to him, sleeping

and this is the first time he's seen him like this in ages

and he gets a little chocked up because holy shit he almost forgot albert was,,,,,like,,, a person

and it wasn't necessary to only see him when fighting

he still had a life and friends and people he loved and he wasn't just this dude who left them because he didn't give a shit about anyone

he could genuinely care for people and he could love people and race just remembered how much he wished he could be one of those people

and how much he wished he could be albert's favorite person again and just sit and talk and laugh with him like they used to

cause that's a part of albert he'd forced himself to just forget about

and then al wakes up and he sees him looking up at him and he's like

"how're you feeling"

and then he's sad cause it's much harder to know albert is a good person with real feelings and he's capable of loving so much and race thinks he's just one of the people who will never get that side of him and he just

"fuck off"

they fight

because of course they do

they're not really sure on what terms they are at this point, and there's so much they need to get out there

at first race is just,,,, stubborn

he won't listen, he demands they let him go back

"we can just let you go, idiot, i shouldn't have ever brought you here in the first place!"

"then why did you?"

and al just shrugs it away as if he hasn't been in love with him for years and would never forgive himself if he left him there to bleed

they just go yelling at each other back and forth for a while until inevitably albert's non-existent impulse control makes his return

and he,,,,, very angrily tells him he loves him

and everything just stops cause that's the one thing race though he'd never hear him say again

and race is literally holding his breath cause he's scared he'll ruin it if he moves in the slightest and it'll all turn out to be in his head but it's not cause when he tells albert he loves him back he's still there and he just,,

takes race's face in his hands and kisses him so softly it's like they weren't just screaming at each other's faces

romeo just fuckin pokes his head in like "i heard yelling but i also heard i love you so i'll assume some of those unresolved feelings were let out and we're all ready to have a nice long healthy chat, yeah? :D"

so they do

they talk. for,,,,,,,,, a long time.

needless to say, race stays

he loves his family and maybe he'll be back for them, maybe he'll help them but he recognizes what's the priority here

plus it's a little clearer now that he doesn't have all those feelings to worry about, and it's been a while since he was actually accepted and loved, which the newsies did instantly. it's pretty obvious where he belongs now.

this au still has,,,,, SO much to unpack, holy shit, but i decided to leave this post here cause,,,,, i can't do all of that now. i might at some point though, if people actually are interested, there's a lot of hurt/comfort from this point. there's the nightmares part which is v soft and i adore it, THERE'S JUST A LOT TO UNPACK. so yeah, i'm finally posting this, ralbert stans, come get y'all's juice.

[purplerose244]

The Last Kids on Earth season 3 is out and OMG AAAAAAAAAA 😍😍😍

SPOILER ALERT!!! YOU SHOULD TOTALLY WATCH THIS SHOW IS SUPER GOOD!!!

Back when it came out I made a post about season 2 as well if you're interested 😉

I should start by saying that I legit didn't know this season was going to happen until, like, three days ago 😅

I just got on Netflix and started watching trailers mindlessly "horror, horror, animation movie cool, new season The Last Kids on Earth, another horror, tv sho- WAIT". That was one great surprise, but at the same time I was sincerely scared. Because season 2 was so GOOD and I was scared we weren't going to see the same level again.

But boy was I, mm no I can do it better, but boy was I...! Nah nah, not enough... okay...

BUT BOY WAS I WRONG!

Like, this is officially my favorite season ASAP, and season 2 was in pole position until today 🤩 Really, the building, the drama, the mystery, all the development from ALL the characters! Really amazing 👌👌

Also side note, did the animation improve? Like, this scenery right here??

IT LOOKS GREAT?!?!? Maybe it's just me 🤷‍♀️ Alright, back to the show 👍

First of all, I'm so happy Dirk got some space. He was already super lovable but seeing him actually struggling because he genuinely wanted these monsters to like him, man 💕 Interesting how this ex bully was struggling so hard to fit in in a group, and also kinda of legit. I'm guessing, after so much time spent reacting with violence, he didn't develop a lot of social skills. Another reason why I think he loves his friends so much, which was shown into this season BEAUTIFULLY 👌👌

Then Quint. Maybe I'm biased because I absolutely love Quint and Jack's friendship, but them talking and having a confrontation about being each other first best friend was really touching 😔 It really hit also when Quint admitted that he always got angry at Jack but never shown. Just like Jack he hid some stuff, because he didn't want to mess up his first significant friend. They are both messes, I guess this is why they work so well together 😉 And about messes, Quint overworking himself because he wants to be super useful to his friends, after last season when he struggled so much to find a way to be Quint-essential? HECK YEAH CONSISTENCY 😎😎

Also we had June. I'm liking her more and more as the seasons progress, especially because even if she is indeed the coolest and probably the strongest of the team, she has her flaws and worries. She is not an untouchable female character of pure perfection, she is a kid, just like the others... who happens to be bad*ss 😚 Her getting so obsessed on the radio was both funny and significant, she really must miss her parents a lot...

Now, I talked about Jack A LOT for season 2. About how much he wants to protect his friends, about his abandonment and trust issues and how this apocalypse is the only reason he was a family. I wondered how it was going to be brought forward further.

And it was INCREDIBLE. And angsty. Man Jack is so filled with angst 😰

From Jack's almost instant, and quite hilarious sometimes, fear and rivalry for the radio, to him trying his hardest to have fun with his friends because that's when he feels the happiest, to him freaking out because he is sure, ABSOLUTELY sure, that the moment his friends will find their families they will leave him behind. I was sweating when he raised the radio to break it, intense moment.

He didn't exactly learn his lesson from last season 😅 Which is fine and believable honestly, he is an orphan who grew up with families very not memorable, that didn't give him the stability he needed. No surprise he came out as the most fragile character of them all, almost getting overwhelmed by his fears.

My world, when he imagined his friends finding their families and he ran towards a couple that disappeared, leaving him crying?? I'm sorry?? I HAVE A HEARTACHE HERE 😭😭😭

And dang, I got chills at the whole Rezzoch affair, I didn't know what was going to happen and the nightmare world was so OUCH MY HEART AGAIN. I might be biased again because I have a little sick passion about seeing my favorite characters suffer 😅 Also the possession is a common theme that I adore so 🤷‍♀️ Gosh, all the supports from his friends, all the strength to banish Rezzoch away from his body, that was so satisfying to watch!

At the end, the final radio scene was really nice. Not as game changing as I though honestly, but still cool and cozy... WHO WAS THE GIRL AT THE END ON THE GIANT CREATURE?!? I NEED A SEASON 4 ALREADY HELP!! 😱

I feel very satisfied, it's more than I expected and I'm so happy they're keeping the same hype! 🤩🤩🤩 It's also interesting to see how all four of them are kinda stereotypical characters, and that's pulled forward in a coherent development: Dirk the bully who turned good, Quint the nerd, Jack the hero/goofball, June the cool girl. And the show doesn't hide it, but instead brings them forward and show how their traits evolve. From a bully to a "monster", from a nerd to a scientist, from a bad*ss to a leader, from a no one to a part of a family ❤

Also the other interactions were great, Dirk and the monster chef, Skaelka and June still the best duo, Quint and June getting so much closer (also basically sharing leadership, nice), Jack and Rover because Rover is a good boy 💙💙 Also special thanks to Bardle for being an absolute delight in everything, from being the wizard to being hilarious 😂😂 Love tsundere monster sorcerer 💕

Well, that was it! I really needed to get it out of my system 😚 Thanks for reading!

[stonertransdad]

Life Update since I hadn't been on here in forever

The pandemic was/is wild! Lockdowns started literally around the time we were going to the fertility specialist to get her pregnant. I lost my job to COVID in March shortly before we did the procedure, but we decided there's never really a good time to have a kid. Why not during a global pandemic when one of us in unemployed? (BTW, I don't recommend having a kid during a pandemic. Not being able to go to all of the appointments and having to sit in the parking lot was brutal.)

Let's talk about May friends...it was rough. (TW for mention of suicide btw. I'll post a gif where it's safe to start again if you wanna skip over it.)

So May 1st is the anniversary of my father's suicide. It had been 4 years. I found his body and since he wasn't married, I had to handle his affairs and arrange his funeral. May 1st, 2020 my wife and I had a Zoom game night with our friends and I got drunk because everyone was drinking (except my wife because she was pregnant). After our game night at like 2am, I had a psychotic break. I threatened to kill myself numerous times. My wife tried to talk me down, but eventually called the cops to take me. I thank her for that because looking back, that was the moment I knew something needed to change. I was convinced the cops were gonna kill me because I'm a trans dude in rural West Texas. I legit took the phone out of my wife's hand, hung up on 911, and yeeted her phone across the backyard and tried to hop the fence. Eventually the cops came and talked me down. They took me to the hospital an hour away in handcuffs (for their protection I did nothing wrong). They took me to the religious hospital that I was born in. So when they looked up my info by my name and date of birth from my driver's license (I only changed my middle name) literally all my paperwork and my bracelet had my deadname and wrong gender despite all of my legal stuff saying male with my new middle name. I mentioned it to them and they didn't care. They misgendered me the entire time I was there. I had hit my head hella hard on the bath tub when my wife was trying to snap me out of it, did the hospital even check me for concussion? Nope. I had punched so many things and my hand and wrist were swollen and discolored. Did they check out my hand and wrist? Nope. I was there for over 10 hours before I was able to convince them I was okay and that it was just the alcohol. Did I mention during that 10 hours I was literally out in the hall on a gurney with no mask and this was when COVID was running rampant in Texas (the first time)? I heard people die that night. I had nothing to distract me because they took away all of my personal items and clothes. My wife picked me up and we went home and I have been sober ever since. It's not the first psychotic break I've had with alcohol in my system. Alcohol just doesn't agree with me, but I'm finding new things to replace it with.

TW has been lifted...it's safe now.

A couple of weeks after that I began teletherapy because I had been on the same mood stabilizer and anti-depressant for almost a decade. The more I thought about it, the more it made sense that I felt like it hadn't been working for at least a year. This is a reminder to check in with your doctor if you feel like your meds aren't working. You may just need a different dose or a new med. There's no shame in that. I bounced around on various medications trying to find the right combo, some side effects scarier than others, but we got there. Before this, I had been diagnosed with ADHD, Major Depressive Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. My therapist threw out my Borderline diagnosis and said it was CPTSD instead, which made sense.

Fast forward to December because my wife was pregnant, I was unemployed still, and we did absolutely fuck-all because the global panini was still raging.

Our son was born on December 3, 2020. He weighed 5lbs 9oz and scared the ever loving shit out of us. He wasn't breathing when he was born so they called NICU in ASAP. I'm freaking out because I can hear and see what's going on while my wife was asking if he was okay as they put her guts back in place to sew her up. 5 or so minutes pass and a nurse asks if I want her to take some pictures. I'm like is he okay, he still hasn't cried. She's like "oh yeah, he's chillin." This goon was being held by a nurse and was just looking around not crying or anything. Chillest baby ever (he still is btw). I held him next to my wife's head until it was time to go back to the room. Little dude did have to spend 4 nights in the NICU because he couldn't keep his sugars or temperature regulated, but he was healthy otherwise. He's now 4 months old and is starting to sit up on his own a little bit and he's OBSESSED with standing. He's still a little guy, but very healthy and growing like a weed. He saves my life daily.

So after being unemployed for over 9 months, I started a new job working in a call center. I absolutely hate talking on the phone. It gives me anxiety and throws me into panic attacks, but I had been putting out hundreds of job applications since I lost my last job and this was the first offer I got. I wasn't really in a position to turn it down since my unemployment had ran out 2 months prior. It was 2 months of training, then we'd be on our own. I got thru the training and thought I could handle it...until they started putting us on live calls with someone helping us if we got stuck. My mental health hit the lowest point it had in a few years and my wife was terrified she was going to lose me. She convinced me to quit on February 28th (not because I didn't want to, but because I'm a stubborn ass who felt guilty). My meds got tweaked a little bit more dosage wise during this mess.

Starting about mid-February, I was experiencing severe shakiness, tremors, and spasms. I've always been a shaky person and never really thought too much about it, but at some points I could barely feed myself, or get a drink, or hold my son. On March 7th, I tried to make an appointment with my doctor about the weird symptoms I was experiencing, but she was out of town and her next opening wasn't until the 31st. My body said that won't work and my wife rushed me to the ER on the 9th...I had begun having seizures that day. I had no previous history of seizures. Got to the ER and had a seizure literally as I was walking thru the door, so they rushed me straight back. They took some blood and that was literally it. No MRI. No CT. They pumped me full of Ativan and said it was just a panic attack and to go home and chill.

Spoiler Alert: It wasn't just anxiety. I was having 20+ seizures a day. On the 10th, my wife rushed me to a different hospital...the good hospital over an hour away. First we had to drop off our gremlin with my mom to make things a little easier. Yet again, I had a seizure as I walked in the door and was taken back immediately. I don't really remember much because they kept pumping me full of Ativan and morphine because I had been in excruciating pain from the number of seizures I'd had. I do remember them doing a CT pretty quickly after I got there. Then they weren't happy with the results of the CT, so they took me to get an MRI, which showed possible signs of Multiple Sclerosis (but I didn't find that out until AFTER the notes showed up in my patient portal after being home a few days, so I raised hell...more on that later.) They did a 24 hour EEG on me and it showed nothing abnormal. Also, EEG glue is a bitch on your hair and scalp. After looking at everything and given my previous mental health history, they diagnosed me with Psychogenic Non-Epileptic Seizures, or PNES. It is a subset of Functional Neurologic Disorder, or FND. I couldn't walk well anymore and had to use a walker when I was discharged. I was in the hospital for 3 days.

When I had my follow-up appointment on the 23rd, I asked why the possibility of MS was never mentioned to me since it was very clearly in the notes. The doctor didn't have an explanation. He called in a referral to neurology so I could get a 2nd MRI to confirm MS and marked it as high priority. He also didn't take my pain seriously. My pain levels had been at a 5 or higher every single minute since they took me off of the morphine in the hospital. He told me to keep taking prescription strength doses of ibuprofen and Tylenol, which I had been. I let him know I had been and it didn't even take the edge off the pain. He ignored me. Leading up to this appointment, I had also added urinary incontinence to my growing list of symptoms and was forced to wear diapers so I didn't have to do laundry all the time. The doctor also took me off my ADHD meds because they were lowering my seizure threshold. He also took me off of my sleeping meds and nightmare meds for the same reason I'm assuming.

I kept my appointment on the 31st with my primary doctor because she's been my doctor for 5 years now and I knew she'd take my pain seriously. She did. She immediately wrote me prescriptions for a muscle relaxer and Tylenol 4. She also told me that my referral had been rejected by neuro. She said my case wasn't a good one for what she called a "wallet biopsy" and the doctors in neurology could be real assholes. She immediately sent the referral to other locations to get an approval. I am still waiting on that despite it being marked as high priority. She wrote me a prescription for a wheelchair because we both agreed my wheelchair was not enough for particular days.

Yesterday my wheelchair was finally ready for pickup, so my wife drove me to go get it. I'm still unable to drive due to my seizures and my tremors and twitches as it's predominantly in my legs and arms. I am an ambulatory wheelchair user now. Some days I can go short distances without my walker, some days I can't go without my walker, some days I can't even get out of bed, and some days I will be using my wheelchair. Don't judge a book by its cover, not all disabilities are visible. I have managed to keep my daily seizure count down in single digits and have even had a few seizure free days. They are still incredibly taxing on my body. I feel like I can't ever replenish my spoons fast enough to keep up with anything in my life.

So all in all, life has been chaotic. We are moving from Texas to New Mexico in the next few weeks, which should be interesting considering I can't overdo it without throwing myself into seizures. We will be closer to my mother-in-law so she can help us with our son and I can start resting a bit more on the more difficult days. Being a stay-at-home dad with an invisible illness has been one of the most challenging things I've done in my life, but I wouldn't change it for the world.

Sorry this is so long. I just wanted to update my followers since it's been over a year since I posted before a few days ago.

[bamby0304]

Her Saviours- Ch.8

Series Masterlist

Summary: During an odd case, the Winchesters came across Y/N, a scared young Omega girl who had been used as a lure for a nest of vampires. After rescuing her from the monsters, John and his sons took her in knowing she was in no state to live among ordinary people. But three Alphas and one Omega is a mixture bound for disaster.

A/N: This is unbeta’d, ‘cause I legit just finished it and kinda wanted to just post it quickly so I could move on and start writing more...

Warnings: Explicit language. ABO dynamics. Angst.

Bamby

You were fast asleep, curled into Dean’s side with his arm around you as he laid down flat on his stomach. He twitched, pulling you closer as his other hand snuck under his pillow to grab the knife hidden underneath. You barely had a chance to register the fact someone else was in the room, before Dean suddenly rolled over and held you behind his back as he turned to the intruder.

His body relaxed in an instant the second he spotted Sam standing there, with a tray of coffees and a paper bag you assumed was full of food.

“Morning, sunshine.” Sam grinned knowingly at Dean, who still had you behind him.

Rubbing at his eyes, Dean groaned, “What time is it?”

“Uh, it's about five forty-five.”

“In the morning?”

“Yep.”

You whined, rolling back over to try and get some sleep.

“Where does the day go?” Dean grumbled as he dragged himself to the edge of the bed. “Did you get any sleep last night?” he asked, his words directed at Sam.

“Yeah, I grabbed a couple hours.”

Bullshit.

“Liar,” Dean called him out. “'Cause I was up at three, and you were watching a George Foreman infomercial.”

“Hey, what can I say?” Sam shrugged. “It's riveting TV.”

“When was the last time you got a good night's sleep?”

Sam didn’t seem fazed. “I don't know, a little while, I guess. It's not a big deal.”

“Yeah, it is,” Dean argued.

“Look, I appreciate your concern-”

“Oh, I'm not concerned about you. It's your job to keep our asses alive,” he gave your covered leg a pat. “So I need you sharp,” he noted. There was a paused before he asked, “Seriously, are you still having nightmares about Jess?”

That was the last straw.

Pulling the sheets back, you threw yourself out of bed, grabbed a fist full of clothes, and stormed into the bathroom.

It’s not that you didn’t like the girl, it’s just… things were weird. They were awkward. They were complicated. You were pissed.

Here you were, with two Alphas that you cared about, and they cared about you. They were young, unbonded, familiar, safe. They were smart, funny, strong, caring. They were both the full package. Two perfect specimens… and neither wanted you. Not the way you needed them, at least.

The longer you went without John, the more time you were stuck with Sam and Dean, the clearer things got. Sam was never going to get over Jess, he was never going to let you in, you were never going to have what you used to have with him. Dean was never going to settle down, he was never going to give up other women, he was never going to claim you despite the fact he insisted he had feelings for you.

If things don’t change, I’m leaving, you told yourself.

Staring at your reflection in the crappy motel mirror that made everything look a little distorted, you made a promise. If no one was willing to step up, you were going to step down.

“Thanks for making the trip so quick,” Jerry started.

After a long shower, you’d walked back out into the motel room to find Sam and Dean packing. Neither talked about your sudden departure, instead Dean had pulled you closer and kissed your forehead before telling you about a possible case. That’s how you ended up here, with Jerry, walking through the hangar he worked at.

“I ought to be doing you guys a favour, not the other way around.” Jerry turned to Sam as he went on, “Dean and your dad really helped me out. And Y/N… she was the saving grace that really calmed my family down.”

Sam glanced down at you then, lips twitching as if he wanted to smile. He fought the urge though. “Yeah, Dean told me. It was a poltergeist?”

“Poltergeist?” one of the other workers called out. “Man, I loved that movie.”

“Hey, nobody's talking to you,” Jerry snapped. “Keep walking.” He waited until he was sure no one else was listening before he nodded at Sam. “Damn right it was a poltergeist, practically tore our house apart. Tell you something, if it wasn't for you and your dad, I probably wouldn't be alive,” he told Dean and then went back to Sam. “Your dad said you were off at college. Is that right?”

“Yeah, I was. I'm… taking some time off.”

“Well, he was real proud of you. I could tell. He talked about you all the time.”

“He did?” Sam was genuinely surprised.

You ducked your head down and smiled at the ground. John had always gone on about his youngest son. The defiant black sheep of the family. John could brag about his college boy for hours if you got him going.

“Yeah, you bet he did.” Jerry nodded. “Oh, hey, you know I tried to get a hold of him, but I couldn't. How's he doing, anyway?”

“He's, um, wrapped up in a job right now,” Dean dodged.

“Well, we're missing the old man, but we get Sam. Even trade, huh?” Jerry grinned as Dean chuckled.

Sam, however, didn’t quite agree. “No, not by a long shot.”

In Jerry’s office, you all took a seat. Jerry sat on one side of the desk, while the rest of you sat on the other.

“I listened to this. And, well, it sounded like it was up your alley.” Jerry grabbed a cd and put it into a drive. “Normally I wouldn't have access to this. It's the cockpit voice recorder for United Britannia flight 2485. It was one of ours.”

The recording started, and within seconds you found your hand shooting out to grab Dean’s.

“Mayday! Mayday! Repeat! This is United Britania 2485—immediate instruction help!”

“United Britanis 2485, I copy your message-”

“May be experiencing some mechanical failure...”

Suddenly there was this loud whooshing sound before the recording stopped.

“Took off from here, crashed about two hundred miles south,” Jerry explained. “Now, they're saying mechanical failure. Cabin depressurized somehow. Nobody knows why. Over a hundred people on board. Only seven got out alive. Pilot was one. His name is Chuck Lambert. He's a good friend of mine. Chuck is, uh...well, he's pretty broken up about it. Like it was his fault.

“You don't think it was?” Sam asked.

“No, I don't.”

“Jerry, we're gonna need passenger manifests, um, a list of survivors-”

Dean nodded, cutting Sam off, “Right, and uh… any way we can take a look at the wreckage?”

“The other stuff is no problem,” Jerry assured them, “but the wreckage... fellas, the NTSB has it locked down in an evidence warehouse. No way I've got that kind of clearance.”

That didn’t seem to bother Dean, as he simply shrugged. “No problem.”

You stood with Sam outside a Copy Jack, while Dean was in doing his thing. You could have gone in with him, but you felt the need to be with the car. With the Impala.

She was as much your home as she was the brothers’. You’d lived on the road for years now, and the only consistent place you could call your won was Baby. When things always felt like they were crumbling, you knew she would always be there.

Like now. John was John, Sam was back and it was weird, Dean was his usual self which wasn’t helping you at all… you weren’t sure how much longer you could deal with all of this.

Looking over at Sam as he leaned against the car, just a few feet away from you, you wondered if things would ever be the same. If things would ever feel less strange and foreign. He used to be your best friend, someone you could rely on for anything, but now you weren’t sure.

The door to the Copy Jack opened as Dean walked out, almost pumping into a young and attractive woman right away.

She smiled, looking him up and down. “Hey.”

“Hi.” He grinned, checking her out in return.

Having seen enough, you sighed and pulled the car door open before climbing in. Just because you knew what you and Dean had wasn’t an exclusive thing, doesn’t mean you wanted to be reminded of it every time a pretty woman walks by.

“You've been in there forever,” Sam noted as his brother neared the car.

You looked out the window and watched as Dean held up two fake IDs. “You can't rush perfection.”

“Homeland Security?” Sam took one of the cards. “That's pretty illegal, even for us.”

“Yeah, well, it's something new. You know? People haven't seen it a thousand times.” Dean shrugged as he walked around the car. Both he and Sam slid in before he went on, “All right, so, what do you got?”

“Well, there's definitely EVP on the cockpit voice recorder.” Sam grabbed his laptop.

“Yeah?”

“Listen.” Sam pressed play and started the edited version of the recording Jerry had shown you.

The voices from before were all scratchy and distorted, followed by something new…

“No survivors!”

Dean frowned. "’No survivors’? What's that supposed to mean? There were seven survivors.”

“Got me.” Sam shrugged.

“So, what are you thinking? A haunted flight?”

“There's a long history of spirits and death omens on planes and ships, like phantom travellers,” Sam started. “Or remember flight 401?”

“Right.” Dean nodded. “The one that crashed, the airline salvaged some of its parts, put it in other planes, then the spirit of the pilot and co-pilot haunted those flights.”

“Right. Maybe we got a similar deal,” Sam suggested.

“All right, so, survivors, which one do you want to talk to first?”

“Third on the list, Max Jaffey,” Sam told Dean.

“Why him?”

“Well, for one, he's from around here. And two, if anyone saw anything weird, he did.”

“What makes you say that?”

“Well, I spoke to his mother. And she told me where to find him.”

“He’s in a psychiatric hospital,” you explained before Sam could.

Turning in his seat, Dean looked to you. “Psychiatric hospital?” Both you and Sam gave a short nod. His eyes landed on you again. “You’re not coming.”

“No surprise there,” you mumbled.

“Hey. It’s a psychiatric hospital, you’re an Omega, there’s no telling what might happen,” he noted.

You shrugged. “I’m not arguing, Dean. Why should I bother?” Shifting in your seat, you turned your back on him and looked out the window.

When you don’t know what the brothers might be hunting, there’s not a lot you could do. What little research there was, had already been done. So, while locked away in the motel room, you just flicked through the TV, doing your best not to overthink.

You wanted to call John, but you couldn’t. You couldn’t bear the thought of listening to his voice mail for the millionth time. It was painful to hear, knot knowing when or if you’d veer see him again.

The motel room door opened as Sam and Dean returned. You glanced up from the TV to greet them, only to have your words get caught in your throat.

“Why are you dressed in suits?” you asked, eyes dragging over Dean and the black and white suit he wore.

Sighing, he dumped his keys, phone and wallet on the table. “Sam thought we needed to look the part.”

“You, uh… you look good,” you managed, suddenly finding your mouth a little dry.

Dean paused as he looked over at where you were sprawled out on the bed, having been watching TV. His lips curved into a grin as he started tugging on his tie and heading your way.

“I look good, huh?” He threw his tie onto the ground and then started to crawl up the bed.

Laughing lightly, you leaned up to meet him halfway as he bent down to press his lips against yours. Despite having been upset with him earlier, you just couldn’t stay mad. Especially not when he looked like this… there was something about a guy in a suit that made you all tingly.

“Guys,” Sam groaned. “Not right now. We’ve got a case and I’m still in the room.”

“Get your own room,” Dean grumbled, trailing his lips down to your neck. “My girl needs some attention.”

Your heart fluttered when he called you his girl, all thoughts and doubts from earlier fading. Dean always managed to get you to forgive him.

Sam wasn’t letting the two of you fall into each other so easily. “Dean, the case… the sulphur.”

You tensed underneath Dean and pressed your hand on his chest to pull him back up. “Sulphur.”

Nodding, he sighed again as he pulled back and stood again. “When we checked out the wreckage, we found sulphur.”

“So… we’re thinking demon?”

“Yeah,” Sam answered, looking from you to his brother, as if he was waiting for Dean to tell you more. As if he was waiting for something specific.

Dean glanced over at his brother with a look that clearly said he didn’t want to say more, but apparently, he had no choice. Sam just waited, expectantly, making Dean sigh one last time.

“Sammy and me think you should stay out of this one.”

You looked to each brother with a growing frown. “You mean… you want me sitting in the motel room doing nothing? Not even research?”

“We can’t risk you getting involved. You’re an Omega. You’re an unclaimed Omega. We don’t know what this demon is about, and the last thing we want is for it to get a whiff of you. It’s too dangerous.”

There was a tightness in your throat as you watched Dean. You took in his words, you understood where he was coming from, and you hated it.

“I’m an Omega.” You gave a curt nod. “Sure, Dean… I’ll stay out of it.” Shaking your head, you got up and headed for the bathroom before closing and locking the door behind you.

You’re an Omega. You’re an unclaimed Omega. So, in other words, you’re too fragile and vulnerable to help us. You’ll just get in the way. You should stay home and be a good little Omega, like you’re supposed to. You’re not built for this.

Fine then. If they didn’t want you to help, then you wouldn’t. Clearly you weren’t needed here.

A knock on the bathroom door had you turning your head against the bath’s edge. You’d been in there for about an hour, soaking in the hot water you’d filled the tub with.

“Y/N?” Dean called from the other side. “We got a lead… Sam and me, we’re gonna head out. You okay here?”

Rolling your eyes, you turned away from the door again. “Yep.”

There was some mumbling on the other side that you couldn’t quite make out, before Dean snapped in a harsh whisper. “I got it, Sam. Just go get in the car.”

You listened as someone moved around in the other room before they left.

“Sweetheart… you sure you’re okay?”

“I’m fine, Dean. You should go. There’s people to save and monsters to hunt, remember.”

He paused for a moment before giving the door a tap. “Okay… call us if you need anything.”

“Yep,” you answered shortly again.

Nothing else was said.

You listened as he moved about the room before leaving. Next you heard Baby start up, her roaring engine loud enough for you to hear perfectly. Then she was driving away.

The instant you were sure you were alone, and the brothers wouldn’t be back, you pulled yourself out of the tub and emptied the water. Grabbing your towel, you dried yourself off quickly and then pulled on some clothes before heading back out into the room.

Gathering everything of yours, you stuffed it into your bag. After making sure you’d left nothing behind, you pulled the strap of your bag over your shoulder and headed for the door.

Looking back once, you gave the room a sad smile before leaving.

It took no time at all before you found a car that was out of the way. No one saw anything as you broke into the car and dumped your things in the seat beside you. Dean had taught you how to hotwire a car a couple of years ago… you doubted he’d expected you to use that skill to run away from him.

Bamby

[mischiefs-hawk]

Hi! Same anon about the one in ORLANDO. It will be my first time and my family will visiting other parts of the park. I hear a lot saying about getting the FROZEN Butter beer, is it that good? Just give me a run do list on what are the most important parts to visit, but I'm most looking forward to HP world. BTW, are you able to get your own wand and be sorted?

Hi Anon! 

Admittedly I haven’t physically been to HP world for a few years but via Theme Park Youtubers I keep myself on top of the goings on there. (Because I’m weird lol). To answer your Q’s first, I don’t remember drinking frozen butterbeer BUT I remembered/know without a shadow of a doubt that Butterbeer is delicious so frozen butterbeer is probably amazing. If you aren’t a big fan of sweet things you probably won’t like the froth on top (that’s my fav tbh) but it’s good. Yes you can get your own wand. IDK if you’re going to Universal Studios or Islands of Adventure or both. Both Harry Potter areas have a wandshop (and they’re Ollivanders!) They do little show type things where the Wandshop employees will pick a customer to get his/her wand. Usually they pick a kid but sometimes they’ll pick an adult/teen. With wands, you can get one of the characters (Harry, Ron, Luna, Sirius, etc) or you can get one of the original wands. They’re roughly the same price if memory serves. I haven’t been back since Fantastic Beasts came out so I couldn’t say for sure if they sell Newt, Theseus, etc wand. There are two kinds of wands, too. There are the interactive wands and non-interactive wands. The interactive wands will respond to different places around Diagon Alley and possibly Hogsmeade, too. Unfortunately, no there is no sorting that goes on. (That would be a logistical nightmare lol). 

Okay so IMO you should start in the Studios Park, and go to Diagon Alley. If you are claustrophobic be aware that Diagon Alley is very narrow, just like the movies. The restaurant there, the Leaky Cauldron is pretty good and has the same/similar menu as the Three Broom Sticks over at Islands of Adventure in Hogsmeade. It’s pretty dang good, it is solid quick service meal and you can get butterbeer there. There is also a Ice cream shop that has Butterbeer flavored ice cream- it was sooooo good! 

There are a ton of little shops in Diagon Ally, including Ollivanders, the Weasley Wizard Wheezes, and a Robe shop, and a sweet shop. And a Quidditch supply shop. They have cool stuff, sweaters, jewelry (time-turner) notebooks for each house (Remember in COG, Albus was carrying different colored notebooks? They sell those). They do sell actual robes but they’re SUPER expensive. Also, chocolate frogs in the sweet shop do have cards which is cool (more likely than not you’ll get one of the founders). Note the chocolate frog is legit like a block of milk chocolate. It’s good but it isn’t hollow, lol. 

SO what to do there- there’s the escape from Gringotts ride, which as a coward when it comes to rides, is a lot of fun. It goes through Gringotts and is an absolute must. It happens sometime around the Deathly Hallows Part 1. For whatever dumb reason, you can’t carry like bags onto the ride with you. They do provide free lockers for an hour use so you store your stuff in there and after the ride you can pick it up again. 

It is a 3d ride- you wear glasses- and is on a track. It’s v cool. 

On the outside of the building of Gringotts is the dragon, and you’ll notice quickly that it breathes fire. It happens every 15 minutes and its signals this by roaring first. Do know that if it is windy, the dragon won’t breath fire. 

If you’re on the side of the Leaky Cauldron there is a hidden path that is kind of dark but it leads to Borgin and Burkes. It’s pretty nifty and sells death eater stuff. Also there are shrunken heads around there that sing “Show me the way to go home.” This is a reference to the JAWS ride which was there before Harry Potter took it over. 

Gringotts is the only ride in Diagon alley. If you exit Diagon alley and go towards the San Fran area you’ll pass the entrance of King’s Cross-from there you can catch a ride on the Hogwarts Express to Hogsmeade. I reccomend going from the Studios to Islands so you can have this experience of riding into Hogwarts. It is unforgettable and cool as heck. 

On a side note if you exit Diagon Alley and walk in the opposite direction towards MIB, keep an eye on the windows of the brick buildings. You may spot Kreacher, the Black’s House elf. 

Okay- now in Hogsmeade is a ton of cool stuff too. There are a lot of similar shops, Ollivanders, Honeydukes, it sells a lot of the same stuff but still deserves a look through. There is also an Owl post near the Train exit. You can actually send postcards from there (which I did it was cool as heck). In there and in Hogwarts Castle (the shop in there) are stuffed magical creatures like dragons, owls, etc. If you’re going June 13th or after it, there will be a new ride called Hagrid’s Magical Creatures Motorbike adventure. Which does look fun. 

There is another ride there called Flight of the Hippogriff, it’s kind of a kid’s coaster? It’s cute. Definitely deserves a ride. 

The ride in Hogwarts, the Forbidden Journey is dope as hell. There is the same rules as with Gringotts, you can’t carry your stuff onto the ride (and for that one trust me its true) and there are lockers. You get on line and then do the lockers with this one unless they’ve changed it. 

The ride experience is actually cool? You get to go through Hogwarts, including Dumbledore’s office which is cool. I’m not going to tell you exactly what the entrance of the ride is just know its cool as hell and scared the fuck out of me when I first went on it. 

(I went when it first opened, and the line took five hours I shit you not). 

The Three broom sticks there is super yummy, my family always wants to eat there. Same deal with butterbeer. 

Also, according to my ‘rents the Voodoo donut shop in city walk is delicious!

If you want other tips around the parks, including Disney World feel free to send me another ask! I absolutely love theme parks. 

Also, I’m gonna add some links to my favorite youtuber whose tips you might like, too. (Some of these are about Volcano Bay, the waterpark there. )

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJeInnTmaqs 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T22o6Xn9GXI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j8OUOx6GIsI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=18UaovnnmXU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zxUemCZv6-g

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnPYFS21stQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YwnYWgHzTTI&t=6s