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alreadyblondenow · 3 years ago

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He was many sins | Lee Donghyuck

Part of @renhyucks ‘The First’ a Lee Donghyuck birthday special collab.

▸ Haechan x female!reader ▸ Inspired by the movie ‘The Notebook’, rich kids au but its more focused on the story ▸ SMUT, FLUFF, ANGST

Summary: “But what do you do when you don’t like what you’re discovering about Haechan? Your boyfriend. What do you do when he hurts you more than he shows that he loves you. But then again no one dares to leave. “

Word count: 10,217k

Warnings: SMUT AFTER THE CUT. unprotected, corruption, making out, oral sex (female receiving) swearing, a lot of couple fights, Haechan is…. so bad, virginity loss, mentions of haechan smelled like cigarettes, Rich people and their problems, nipple play, finger fucking in a whole new level, rough sex but not so rough, vanilla sex (oh come on its their first time of course it has to be cute), mentions of other idols A/N: Pure fiction. I think if you already experienced a peaceful break up you would get my point in this story. wahahah okay enjoy. thank you!

Moaning quietly while Haechan fucks you slowly was the hardest thing to do. Especially when he takes your breath away while he goes deeper with every thrust and your lips have been attacked by kisses the moment you stepped into his room. Skin to skin and chest to chest, he has been clinging to your body like you’re about to disappear. Again.

But the best thing about this makeup sex was not the part where you see him cum right in front of you or while he’s kissing you while you enjoy your orgasm. It’s what comes after that.

When both of your bodies are warm after a good fuck, and you’re both breathing heavily closely together, feeling each other’s heartbeats. He kissed your sweaty body all the way down to your boobs and licked your sensitive nipples for a few seconds and then that’s when it happened...

“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry. Please come back to me, I’m sorry” he said. With tears in his eyes that stained your cheek while he gives you never ending sweet kisses and promises.

You both know, that this is the first time he apologized to you sincerely. The first time. And that instantly won your heart again that you burst into tears and kissed him back aggressively and he fell to his mattress. He cupped your face, hold you dearly, and accepted your kisses that he missed so fucking much.

That night, you just stay close to each other. Enjoying the cold breeze that goes through his window, each other’s soothing voices, and listening to each other’s soft giggles.

Staying in Haechan’s arms is a natural thing that made you comfortable, safe, and loved in no time. You close your eyes as you bask in his warmth... and you wish you didn’t.

You were like an angel sleeping beside him. He would do anything in the world just be with you like this forever, even though he knew he wasn’t good enough for you.

“Good morning” you greet him with a smile because you caught him staring at you so lovingly the moment you opened your eyes. “Are you okay?” you added.

“I feel great, you’re beside me what could I possibly want more in life?” he said and placed a kiss on your forehead.

And you wish that your relationship with Haechan is always like this, light as a feather, but it's not. It never was.

“Fuck- you didn’t even wake me up? It’s already afternoon, Haechan!”

Here we go again, Haechan said to himself. Watching you gather your clothes so quickly he sat up and bravely said, “We just got back together-“ he put his palm on his face and let out a heavy sigh that you hated hearing.

“I know. I know, and I’m sorry. Just please be patient with me- I have a college tour today with my mom and if she finds out we’re together again, I don’t know what to do anymore. What we have is not easy to manage, it never was”

Irritated and almost on the verge of being mad, Haechan wore comfortable clothes too and tried so much controlling his anger. “Fine. Okay, you don’t need to remind me that I’m not good enough for you,”

“That's not what I mean-“

“I know but that’s what you’re doing to me,”

You didn’t want to talk anymore knowing that this conversation can spark a fight again. “At least let me drive you just a couple of blocks away from your house. Can you let me do that?” Haechan said with a straight face, completely dressed already and all you can do is nod weakly.

“Haechan, I'm sorry-“ But just before you could finish apologizing, he’s gone and shut the door closed and it just makes you question if love is supposed to be this complicated.

1 YEAR AGO

“Trust me. You don’t like him. I heard Jaemin likes you, go for that dude and not Haechan” your cousin whines as she starts the car and drives you both home because getting you home late is the last thing she wanted to happen tonight.

“What if I really like him? He’s funny, sweet, and not to mention attractive”

“Lee Donghyuck is trouble and heartbreak wrapped into one. Fine, if you want to play with fire then be my guest”

And there it goes. The ugly truth that completely shut you up and did not defend Lee Donghyuck any further. The worst part is, he seemed nice and sweet the whole time you were having a conversation with him. Like none of what your cousin told you about him was true. And you just can’t believe it.

Questions kept running through your mind that you oh so want to ask your cousin but you knew it will just piss her off. So forget it.

But just as you thought that you’re going to stop thinking about him, you find yourself thinking about him harder than ever. It’s been a week since that fateful night, and you try so hard to forget about him by burying yourself with books and other school activities, but you couldn’t let go of the thought that maybe your cousin was just overacting. And you couldn’t let go of the beautiful memory for when you first laid eyes on him.

You remember how he was dancing under the bright party lights with a cig in his hand, puffing smoke as he enjoys his time on the dance floor. He was the epitome of loud and crazy, but that part of him did not bother you even the slightest bit and in fact, his free spirit was actually attractive. Even though you were the complete opposite and you knew right then and there that a guy like that will not be attracted to you, somehow, amidst the crazy atmosphere of the party, destiny still found a way for you to meet. Quietly.

“You’re not supposed to mix those two drinks. That will give you a stomachache the next morning,” he let out a small laugh before he makes you a decent drink. Something non-alcoholic, because he already knew you don’t belong in this scene. “You’re not from around here, aren’t you?”

“How’d you know? You know every person in this town?”

He just let out a small laugh and leaned on the wall, looking at you straight in the eyes that instantly made your legs weak. “I know because everyone in this town knows me and guessing you don’t have any idea who you’re talking to” he smirked and took a sip on his beer.

“You’re the guy who’s been so loud the whole night” you laugh and accepted defeat. What he said is true, you don’t know him.

“Lee Donghyuck. Friends call me Haechan. You. Can call me Haechan,”

“So we're friends now?” You asked after shaking his hand.

“Well, if that’s what you want. Me, I want more than friendship” he shamelessly said. “Tell me, if I ask you out for a date where do you want to go?”

“Why would I go out with you? I don’t even know you” you let out a cute laugh and offered him some chips.

“Well that’s the point of going out on a date, you learn about the person you’re with during dates” he smirked again.

And in that empty kitchen, you and Haechan had a decent conversation. Hating the smell of cigarettes that won’t leave his clothes but you don’t care anymore. In just a few minutes, he made your heart skipped a beat and the next thing you know your bodies are closer than before. But your cousin just had to ruin it and snatch you away from him.

And now that you know about Haechan’s true colors, you knew that you can’t handle him. There’s no way in hell that you can handle trouble. Is that why every person in his town knew who he was? Is it because he’s trouble and a pain in the ass? Whatever, you said to yourself. It has been a week since you met Haechan, and for exactly seven days, he’s in your mind 24/7.

You tried every distraction you could think of, tried every way to stop yourself from going through social media and search for ‘Lee Donghyuck’, you even tried imagining every bad thing Haechan could have done already to earn his title as the trouble maker to make yourself hate him. But nothing seems to be working.

Today is one of those days where your parents invite friends, business partners, families of your family’s business partners and of course your relatives, to host a luncheon together near the river under this beautiful weather. Everyone is wearing fancy dresses, coats and they’re either boasting to each other or talking about business. It's a normal scene and nothing can surprise you anymore when it comes to your parent's luncheon. Your parents have been doing this ever since before you were born, and you heard that this was quite an event for the rich. Not everyone gets invited, but everyone wants to attend.

Sounds fancy and fun, right? But this very day disgusts you to the core, for at a very young age, this luncheon taught you to recognize fake and genuine people. In other words, it opened your eyes when it comes to the truth about the rich.

“I can't stop thinking about him,” you said to your cousin while ignoring the loud chatters of adults around the area.

“Oh look, there's Na Jaemin… to make you forget about his friend. Jaemin!” she called the guy who’s looking very sharp and... well, very much handsome than anyone in this place and approached you two with a smile. Perfect pearly whites. So perfect that it made you wonder how much teeth care his parents splurged on him when he just a little boy.

“Hi,”

The gentleman greeted and disturbed you and your ugly thoughts. He looked at your cousin for a second and then turned to you. “Y/n,” he greeted while looking at you as if he’s telling you how beautiful you are, “enjoyed my party last week?”

“Okay, I’ll leave you two and go, boast about my dress” your cousin joked and gave Jaemin a wink before she left you with him.

It was quite a moment you had with Jaemin, and to be honest, you had a great time. You think he has this amazing power of making you forget where you are right now because you were so drawn to him and his stories. And as time passes by with Jaemin, at the end of the day he finally earned your interest and scored a date with you next Friday after school. But the truth is, you only said yes to him because you were nice and you wanted to forget the thrill, excitement, and attractiveness of the Lee Donghyuck. Not because you find him interesting enough.

Come Friday, a stressful day for everyone, and Senior year wasn’t going as planned. That’s why you wanted to cancel your plans with Jaemin and just stay at home to deal with things. Jaemin has been very sweet and obvious for a whole week. He calls and messages you every day, checking up on you and continuously reminding you about how excited he is about your date this Friday. As if he's not obvious enough that he really likes you, nonetheless you didn’t want to ruin it for him.

Little did you know, as much you wanted to go on with the date, someone is definitely willing to go above and beyond just so this planned date will not happen.

Haechan has arrived. Yes. Haechan is the one who pulled up in front of your house with his expensive car. And you have no idea why he’s here and how the hell he found your house.

“Hi? Haechan... Did Jaemin sent you to pick me up or something?”

Leaning handsomely on his car frame, wearing a pitch black sunglasses that suits him very well, he smirked and let out a small laugh, raked his hair away from his face, and came closer to you.

“No I’m here to steal you away from him. Now, hop in before he gets here any minute,”

And with quick movements and a firm grip on your wrist, he put you inside his car. But not against your will of course. It was as if your feet knew you wanted to come, it was as if your body knew you needed to get in. But your mind was telling you every possible consequence once you get in his car.

The drive was so awkward. Half of Haechan's brain is telling "what the fuck did you do?" while the other is saying, "congratulations, at least she didn't slap you" Nonetheless, the date still happened. And it was mighty beautiful even though it’s far from planned. He told you he wasn’t prepared for anything and that going to your house, unplanned and uninvited was completely reckless and wrong. Not to mention he just betrayed one of his best friends. And he did all this for you.

He drove and drove as far as he can go and brought you to a movie theater somewhere you don’t know but you don’t care. He took you on a decent dinner where he paid generously even though you offered your share, but he didn’t let you. What a gentleman. And over dessert he kept on making you laugh with all his stories, and through his stories, you learned that he has a free spirit. He was free like a bird, unlike you.

“Do you always, do what you want?” you asked him.

“No,” he smiled weakly and reached for your hand, “at least not yet” he cleared his throat and changed the subject, “heard your family had a great luncheon last week,”

“You knew about that stuff?” and by ‘stuff’ you mean rich people shit. So if he knew about your family’s lunch party, Haechan must be rich too.

“I know what your thinking. And the answer is yes, but that’s my family’s money not mine. Besides, I’m not on good terms with them”

“How about your friends? The uhm… 7Dream? How long are you friends with them?”

“I think I’m already friends with them in my past life. That long. And I just betrayed one of them today and I have no regrets about it,” he smiled so handsomely at you.

It was an unexpected sweet day. Your first date with Lee Donghyuck and possibly the last one. He was full of surprises even for someone who didn’t plan this and because of that your affection for him was growing and it’s growing fast. You remember how that quick conversation during Jaemin's party bothered you for a week, you wonder how many weeks are you going to relive this date over and over and over again in your hea.

On your way back to his car, it was really late already and you knew you’re going to be dead and grounded for the next few weeks. Not knowing about your situation and how your parents are really strict when it comes to your curfew, Haechan saw a public pool and told you, “come on it will be fun” and instantly climbed over the fence quietly and opening the gate from the inside for you.

“Were not supposed to do this” you whispered and reminded him like the good girl that you are.

“Says who?” He whispered back and proceeds to striping in front of you until he’s only wearing his boxers. You have never seen a guy strip in front of you and damn, he just makes you feel so shy whenever he’s careless and shameless like this.

"I have extra clothes in my car if that's what you're worried about" he said before he jumps in, the water splashes and instantly wet the new shoes that you specifically bought for this day. And you can’t believe you’re trespassing tonight. Seriously you're thinking about going to jail tonight and you're already thinking of an excuse to tell your parents. You’ve never done anything so reckless in your entire life but... you wanted to get in the water with him.

“Get in with me, please?” He pouted cutely, completely winning you over.

“Okay, but can you please turn around?” You asked of him and he immediately gave in to your request. You remove your dress with quick movements and secure it to somewhere dry. And with your matching thin underwear, you joined him shyly. Covering your body with your arms, shivering because of the cool water and trying so hard to avoid his deep gaze as he comes closer to you. And with only one soft touch you ended up pushing him away, almost panicking because you thought he will take advantage of you.

“Relax I just want to hold you close. It's warmer that way, I won’t do anything fishy,” he promised. And since he gave you his world, you reached for his hand and let him close the gap between your bodies and kept each other close in the middle of the pool. He made you wrap your legs around his waist, a bold move that felt so sinful but he didn’t do anything. Keeping his promise to you and continued to enjoy the silence of the night. When you felt him move and walk around the pool, you thought he will drown you just to make fun of you... but you are wrong once again. You then realized that he's swaying and pretending to be dancing with you. The sweet gesture made you smile and giggle, and to make the moment even more perfect, you hummed a song and Haechan instantly let out a laugh because he didn't think t that you would love his crazy idea of dancing in the middle of a public pool.

“Are you going to hurt me in the end? Leave me after you take something away from me?” you ask him a pretty straightforward question, clinging to him even more and stroking your thumb on his wet cheeks but your eyes are on his lips.

“I can't promise you but I can show you,” he said softly and gently stroked your bottom lip like he was asking for permission to kiss you, which you gave him. And the kiss happened. Smiling in between kissing and holding each other closely, you feel no regrets anymore about doing something so reckless with him.

After that night, you and Haechan dated beautifully and got addicted to each other so fast that you can't stand being apart from each other even just for a day. Especially Haechan. Though he doesn’t show it to you that much, the man is very much in love and will do everything for you. He had never been with someone who cares about him deeply and genuinely, the way you hold on to him even when your relationship is not a smooth ride and the way you accepted him as him and not because you belong in the same rich world. You knew right on that he's not perfect, but you accepted him because he has always been a reckless choice from the very start, but you never regret anything when it comes to him. And even when it comes to the little things, you simply make him happy. May it be drawing a small heart on his hand, whenever you give him the last piece of dumpling, or as simple as returning his kisses with deeper ones.

He loves you. So much. But showing it was the hardest part because he didn’t want to show you that somehow he’s vulnerable. Whenever you two fight like crazy to the point that you slap him so hard even your hand hurt like hell, he can see that you can leave him any minute. And of course he’s not going to be the weak one in this relationship. But again, he loves you.

He shows it by getting mad at you whenever you talk to boys he doesn't know. Heck he even gets mad whenever you talk to his friends to the point that he’s ready to start a fight with them.

“Have you forgotten that I basically stole you from Jaemin!”

“I wasn’t his, to begin with-“

“That’s not my point! He used to fucking like you! Of course I’m threatened!” Haechan yelled at you outside Mark’s house in front of strangers and drunk teenagers. Funny how just a few minutes ago, you and Haechan were whispering sweet words in the middle of playing beer pong with his friends. And when he left you just a few minutes to get you a drink, he saw that Jaemin got you a juice already and he was beyond pissed that he pushed Jaemin so hard, making him spill his drink on your blouse.

Now you’re just cold inside your boyfriend’s car, on your way home while he drives silently. Not saying a single word the whole cold drive. No ‘im sorry’, no ‘i love you’, not even a ‘good night, see you tomorrow'.

He shows his love by being so possessive that he almost treats you like an item he dearly owns and not as his girlfriend. You never understand it but still, you’re willing to stay and fight for this relationship.

Your relationship wasn’t any other. And the difference of your worlds reflects on your relationship even if you don’t want to, it just naturally shows... that you and Haechan aren’t compatible but your two hearts are struggling and fighting for each other.

They say that the first months of being in a relationship were the sweetest and the best because this is the part where you will know each other deeper, the part where you just can’t wait to know more about your partner. But what do you do when you don’t like what you’re discovering about Haechan? Your boyfriend. What do you do when he hurts you more than he shows that he loves you. But then again no one dares to leave. You always find a way to forgive him and he finds a way to show you that he's sorry without telling you exactly that he is sorry.

“Why do you drive me crazy like this if you won’t have sex with me,” he moans and continues to kiss you hard. You have no idea how hard it is for Haechan to stop himself from fucking you, but nonetheless, he controls himself because he has no plans on forcing you. “I can’t even fuck my own girlfriend,” he said in between kissing and you can’t help but to get offended and push him away. “Ouch! What the fuck?”

“Is sex really that important to you that you can’t let this moment pass peacefully and let me kiss you without feeling guilty?” you exclaimed.

“Stop being a bitch! It’s not my fault you’re not ready!”

“That’s it,” you gather your stuff with quick movements, “We’re over. I’m breaking up with you” you hear yourself croak and the next thing you know you’re in tears but Haechan was quick to lock his door and did not let you get out of his car.

Baby, you didn’t mean that right? I’m sorry, please take it back. These were the words that Haechan wanted to say to you and the words that you wanted to come out from his mouth, but it didn’t.

“Don't be childish you didn't mean that. I’m just saying- Look, you keep asking me to show you how much I love you, well, sex is one of those things! That’s what normal couples do” he let out a heavy sigh and soothed the part of his face that you slapped so hard, “I want a relationship where we can do things together in bed but... ugh- Whatever, go inside your mother is probably looking for you”

And so you did.

You get inside your house feeling so mad and annoyed. While Haechan drove away without apologizing or saying something about the breakup. Is it over? He was right, you didn’t mean it because the moment he drove away you wanted him back. It just came out from your mouth like when you're drunk and you just say whatever that comes to your head... even if you didn't really mean it.

If you’re being honest, one of the many reasons why you doubt Haechan’s love for you is maybe because you never let him have you. Maybe, if you have sex with him, your relationship can be saved and can get better. At least those were the advice you received from his girl friends. Telling you that sex was one of the many things why Haechan is popular with girls. And that maybe he loves you so much that he’s willing to give it up for you just because he knew you’re not ready.

On the next day, you didn’t expect him to be waiting outside your school, still wearing his school uniform. By the looks of it, he went straight to your school after his class even though you told him it’s over last night. And truth be told you're glad that he's here.

“Hi” he greets you without a smile but he approached you and asked for your bag which you gave to him without hesitation. He kissed you on the cheek and walked you over to the front seat and open the car door for you.

“So where do you want to eat?” He said while putting his seatbelt on.

“You already know my answer,” you answered calmly and with a small smile. He nodded and focused on driving, you wonder if he wanted to talk about the fight last night, you wanted to say sorry but you figured you didn’t do anything wrong. And while you’re in the middle of contemplating whether to bring up the fight last night or not, he reached for your hand while he was driving. Eyes on the road but he knew what he was doing when he got ahold of your hand which he kissed one too many times and it made your heart melt.

He loves you.

After that day Haechan never brought up sex again. He would rather be careful with his words and showing you that he’s trying to be better, than talking things out with you and thinking of a solution together. No, Haechan is not like that. He will do everything in his own way.

The fight regarding having sex stopped, thankfully. But fighting over the smallest of things will never go away. Especially when it comes to jealousy. Whether he’s the one who’s jealous, or you’re the one who’s getting really sick and tired of all the girls flirting with him, in front of you. The fight will either last for days, weeks or if you’re lucky enough it can only last a few hours. But no matter how you end up getting mad at each other, it can always be solved by sweet and sincere kisses. Forgiveness was always on the table and because of that, you feel like your relationship is invincible. As long as you forgive and forget.

“What If let you have sex with other girls... you know like a one night stand?”

You blame the stuffy air inside his car, the smell of cigarettes from his hair and his deep kisses that kept you moaning for the last few minutes.

You knew it was a stupid idea but you really can’t stomach how Haechan tries so hard to control his horniness whenever you two are making out and his kisses were becoming different and so is the way that he touches you. He’s struggling but you.... it feels so good to you that you feel like you’re going to give in any minute to him.

“That’s stupid-“

“Baby you’re like a vampire controlling your thirst. Look at me, look what you’ve done” you said in your calmest. Breathing hard from the heavy kisses, your dress skirt is lifted so high that he can already see your panties, your bra cups were pulled down from the inside of your dress, not to mention your nipples are hard... in other words you looked so ruined and it’s all Haechan’s doing.

He didn’t say a word but immediately tried making you decent again by fixing your clothes and wiping his spit on your cheeks due to wild kissing. He wanted to say that he’s sorry but nothing is coming out from his mouth.

“I’m not mad and to be honest I am sorry,”

“For what? I’d rather feel like shit over and over again rather than cheat on you. I have your nudes and I can take care of myself when I get home. Please never mention this again. It’s stupid Y/n,” he said and kissed you on your temple.

After that conversation with Haechan you always try to find ways to satisfy him. Ways that are subtle, but has a heavy kick for Haechan. Like whenever you use your tongue and dominate the kiss, whenever you ended up sitting on his lap while making out, whenever you reach for his hand to make him cup your boobs and tell him to knead them clothed.

And the shit that made him lose his mind, is when you removed your shirt and bra for the first time in front of him. You swear you witnessed his jaw dropped. It was during a quiet afternoon in his house and you ended up making out in his cozy bathroom where it always smelled good.

He came closer, and slowly put his hand at the small of your back and started kissing your temple, down to your cheeks and lips, but he wasn’t satisfied and so he started kissing your neck and making you weak.

“Can I touch you?” He asked through a soft whisper that sent tingles on your pussy.

“Of course,” you answered.

He touched your left boob first with his right hand. Looking directly at what he’s doing, the way his hand kneads your boobs, how his thumb brushes on your nipples and makes it hard and sensitive. He can’t believe that this is really happening now. And he made it even more real for the both of you when he started to kiss the valley between your boobs and slowly driving himself towards your sensitive spot. His kisses on your boobs felt great and tingly that you were clenching and unclenching the whole time.

But just as you thought that he was done, he made you sit on the cold tile of his sink and spread your clothed legs so he can place himself in between your legs. Haechan took you by surprise when you felt his tongue swipe on your nipple, and then he completely devoured it. Kissing it like it was your mouth, licking it fast and slow which makes you jolt every time. Left and right he takes his precious time playing with your nipples. It doesn't matter how long he has been kissing and licking them, it felt fucking good.

“Do you like it?” He asks, kissing your mouth for the meantime to give your nipples a rest. You returned the kiss and put your arms around his neck, and without any warning, Haechan then pinched both your nipples and gave the right amount of pressure to make you weak and aroused.

“Mmm. Fuck- do it again?” You ask with an innocent tone. Kissing him on the lips and on his neck to make him give in to your request.

“No,” he smirked and it made you giggle and scoff. “Thanks for letting me do this,” he placed an innocent kiss on your lips and reached for a clean shirt from his rack. He helped you look decent again and after that moment in his bathroom, your day continued in his bed while watching Netflix.

Not long after what happened, you and Haechan started fooling around even more. And by fooling around, that means he can do more than nipple play to you now.

It started when he was licking and kissing your boobs while you’re comfortably lying in his bed, making beautiful noises that only Haechan can hear. Your shirt was lifted just above your chest and your bra was long discarded and already on the floor. You thought that this would be a normal heavy makeout and intense nipple play, but Haechan decided to tease you and did something you have never experienced before.

You didn’t quite expect it and you were busy moaning with your eyes closed when he did it. Suddenly you felt his tongue interact with your wet panties. He holds you down when you were about to get up, but he was strong and to be honest, you like what he was doing. So you accepted defeat and accepted the pleasure that he was giving.

He kissed your inner thighs while playing with the hem of your panties, shy to ask if you want to go further. But you voluntarily opened your legs and put your hand above his head, playing with his soft locks while he kisses your clothed pussy. And when he finally removed your panties slowly, again he can’t believe that this is happening.

Haechan licked your very wet slit slowly, up and down, while watching you moan. He wanted to know what’s on your mind, he wanted to know if he’s doing a good job through your words. Is he licking and touching you in the right places? But even though his head is full of thoughts right now, he wanted one thing to happen. He wanted to do a good job pleasuring you because you deserve it.

Throwing away his thoughts on the side, he hooked his arms around your legs and parted your pussy lips without any warning. That bold move made you open your eyes and tried closing your legs for you feel very sensitive right now. He focused on licking your clit, and in no time you were a moaning mess. Even messier than before.

Since this was your first time receiving such pleasure, as expected you came so early and your legs were shaking nonstop. Of course, your boyfriend stopped. But he stopped not because he didn’t want to overstimulate you, but because he has something new in his mind.

“You okay? How was it?” He asked with a cute smile, placing himself on top of you while watching you get down from your previous high. This is his first time making you cum. And he loved how your body feels warm against him.

“Good. So good” you smiled weakly.

“In that case, can you give me another one?” he started kissing your neck and kneading your boobs, grinding his clothed cock on your thigh and you felt his hard bulge. Slowly his hand traveled between your legs and you spread them voluntarily. You knew what he was going to do, you see this happen in porn. And given that you’re incredibly wet right now, he was confident that two fingers will go in smoothly.

So he put two fingers inside you and positioned himself on top of you like he was fucking you already. He matched the motion of his fingers with the motion of his hips. This is the closest he can get to having sex with you.

“You feel so tight, fuck I can’t wait to fuck you someday,”

He whispered those filthy words near your ear in the most sexiest tone and surprisingly you love it. You cling to him even more, putting your hands inside his shirt and feel his warmth.

“I’m half naked and you’re fully clothed. You’re so unfair,” you informed him and kissed him deeply. “Faster,” you pleaded, and of course Haechan gave in. In no time you’ve reached your high again clenching and unclenching while his fingers are still inside you. Trying to plot another plan on making you cum, you stopped him already before you could voluntarily open your legs again. He chuckled and promised you, “okay okay. No more. Kiss me? Did you have fun?”

You placed kisses around his face, still weak from your high but it feels good that you and Haechan are having such an intimate moment. “I loved every second of it,” you answered and kissed him down until he lands on the mattress.

Moments like this are the ones you love the most whenever you and Haechan are not fighting and putting your pride first. It's not because he made you cum for the first time, and finger fucked you for the first time. You love the feeling of peace between your two hearts... even just for a few hours.

But of course, all good things come to an end, a week after that unforgettable moment you got into a big fight with Haechan. It was regarding meeting your parents and the revelation during that fateful luncheon.

Haechan didn’t want to do it at first because attending the luncheon means he has to dress up for the occasion like he’s attending one of his family gatherings during the holidays. He hated those days. But nonetheless, he’s doing this for you and picked up a decent suit even though he’s not sure if he picked the right suit for the event. He did his best and definitely put an effort into it.

“What are you wearing? At least give some effort- you’re meeting my parents for goodness sake” you whine and tried fixing his hair. He even smelled like cigarettes.

Annoyed and frustrated, Haechan shook his head in disbelief and can’t believe what he’s hearing from you. He wanted to say that he tried so hard to look decent for this fucking event but he didn’t want to say it out loud because he knew you will end up fighting.

The luncheon was a waste of time. Most of the time he’s in his own little corner with a glass of water in his hand and it seems like you forgot that you have him as a guest for today.

Funny how Haechan realized that it doesn’t matter if you both belong in the same rich world, he’s still not good enough for you..

“So Haechan where are you planning to go to college?” your mother asked but deep inside she doesn’t care about any of that.

“Not planning” Haechan answered rudely. You secretly reached for his lap to remind him who he’s talking to but he didn’t care and kept eating.

Meanwhile, your mother knew exactly what to do with this young stupid love. And because he didn’t like the way Haechan talks to her, she decided to further ruin Haechan’s afternoon.

“Do you know that Y/n is going to college? And she got accepted to a prestigious college. I’m so proud of you darling, we just got the letter yesterday,”

"That's good ma'am. I guess you're glad because she can stay the hell out of me right?" he smirked and enjoyed his food. But your mother did not shut up after that ruckus. She kept on boasting about your achievements in life, not because she's proud of you or anything. She only wanted to piss Haechan and show him that he will never be good enough for you.

Just like how his father's company is not good enough to be one of your family's business partners.

All his rage and anger came out a few days after that fucking luncheon. He didn’t call you, came to your house or picked you up after school like he normally does. And during that time, the space between you and Haechan made you realize that if this young love can’t survive before you leave for college, that’s your wake up call. And you promise to yield and not fight for this relationship anymore. But the way you see it now, you’re the only one who’s willing to work on this relationship and Haechan does not care at all anymore.

Until he finally showed up in the middle of the night, a week later. He looked like shit, he’s drunk and you can’t let him drunk drive his way home. So you sneaked him to your room and took care of him quietly. Good thing Haechan is not loud whenever he’s drunk and that he sobered up while you were helping him clean up.

After a week of not talking and not seeing each other, just like that you quickly forgive and forget about it. Because you knew he'd do the same thing if you were in his shoes. You missed his warm embrace, the sound of his heartbeat, and the feeling of his fingers intertwined with you. And tonight he’s incredibly clingy.

“Keep quiet you’ll wake everyone “ you giggle softly and kept him close after receiving a number of ‘i love yous’ from him. And even though he smelled like alcohol and cigarettes tonight, you don’t care.

“Do I still make you happy?” he asked out of nowhere. “Don’t leave me. I’m nothing without you. You’re the only good thing left in my life”

“I always hurt you and sometimes you deserve it because you’re a bitch. But I love you so much. You know that right? Don’t leave. Please”

That time, you can’t move or respond to what he said because you don’t know what to say. And deep inside you can’t admit to him the ugly truth that you have to break up with him eventually if all things fail.

“Want to do it tonight?” Haechan brought you back to reality and the next thing you know he’s kissing your neck and putting his hand inside your sleepwear. He kneads your boobs right away, pinching your nipples just how you like it and instantly making you feel good. Oh he knows what he’s doing, then you remember.... he asked you something important.

“Mhmm. You have my consent” you said in a very sweet tone. It was dark in your room and you can’t see each other that much but you felt him smile through the kiss.

He immediately removed his clothes and you did the same with your sleepwear. And while you were busy getting naked, you were feeling kind of happy and excited to be honest. No more being shy, no more delays. Maybe after this night, finally your relationship can go smoothly.

“What’s on your mind?” He once again brought you back to reality with his kisses around your naked body.

“Us” you answered in a soft moan. Swinging your arm around his neck while the other goes in between your bodies. You kept the pleasure coming by taking the first step by bravely stroking his hard cock. Sliding it up and down your wet slit, oh how naughty of you, you thought. You have never been this sinful. You watch him roll his head back while he’s on top of you and in between your legs, arms on both sides of your head, and those beautiful moans and low grunts... you only heard them tonight.

“I’ll take over now,” he said and removed your hand from his cock. He lined it immediately on your opening, looked at you and slowly pushed in.

As expected, you were so tight and it fucking hurt.

“Continue?” He asked, of course you nod.

Pushing in again with the same slow pace but this time his lips are on your lips and his hand is kneading your boobs. Slow sex is not his thing, but this time he wouldn’t mind savoring this moment with you. So by the time that he’s fully inside, he stopped moving and enjoyed the tightness of your hole and the warmth of your walls.

“Worth the wait” he said and planted a kiss on your lips. “I should’ve said this before I go inside you,” he chuckled at his own doing, “but let’s not fight anymore. I’m so tired of fighting and us hurting each other. I’ll be better I promise,”

“Yeah, you definitely should’ve told me that before you pushed in” you both giggled and proceed to kiss. And finally, fucking finally, he moved his hips and he went deep on his first thrust.

“Fuck Haechan- you really know what you’re doing”

He just smiled and kissed you down until he reaches your chest and sucked your nipples. He pinned your legs on the mattress, looked at you straight in the eye and fucked you at a steady pace. Given that it’s your first time, the sex was kind of boring for Haechan but for you, it was heaven in bed, but he made sure that you get the perfect experience for your first time. How? Well, he started by not letting you cum too early by not stimulating your clit yet. He made sure every inch of you is touched, even your toes and he’s planning on doing that by giving you a mind blowing orgasm.

He suddenly pulled out, and gave you rest and time to breathe. Asking you questions that don't really register in your brain right now, you just smile and nod while you feel him slide his cock up and down your slit, coating it with your pussy juices and stimulating you a bit.

“Does it still hurt?” He asked.

“Not anymore, the hurt is long gone I think it’s because I’m so wet right now”

“So that means I can do this now?”

“Do what now-“ and just like that he cut you off with a hard thrust. You covered your mouth because he’s now fucking you a little harder than earlier and you love it so much that your eyes are rolling back and your lips are parting.

With hard grunts and heavy breathing, Haechan continued to fuck you harder and you take it without a question. But just as you thought that this is all the pleasure he can give you now, he finally put his thumb on your clit and put pressure on it while fucking you hard. You feel the impact of every thrust and see your boobs bounce up and down because of the intensity.

When you finally came, he covered your mouth with his free hand and let you shiver beneath him while you enjoy your high. He was satisfied even though he clearly can’t cum tonight and make a mess.

“Want me to give you head before you sleep?” You weakly offered.

“No, I’m fine. Thank you,” he kisses you on your forehead and helped you wear your panties again.

Both of your bodies are sweaty and tired but no one cares and you still met in the middle of your bed, wearing only your underwears. Neither of you wanted to finish this night, neither of you wanted to sleep and meet in your dreams, you just want to talk and talk and talk with each other. It felt like you're having your first date again. But because of the good sex earlier, you accidentally fall asleep on Haechan's chest while you were listening to him talk.

"Didn't even let me say 'good night', huh?" he scoffed and embraced you tighter, "I love you, good night" he whispered and followed you in you dreams.

On the next day, you woke up without Haechan on your side so quickly got up and made your way downstairs to check if he was gone or your mother found out that you sneaked him in last night.

When you look through the window, you saw his car still parked so that means he's around your house somewhere. Then you heard distant voices coming from the dining area and quickly checked on it. Only to find out that your mother is talking to him while she's eating her breakfast. At first look Haechan looked like shit and it’s obvious that he’s having a headache. Seeing that no one is really having a good time with their “talk”, you bravely excused your mother from breakfast and brought her to the living room where you thought Haechan wouldn’t hear you, but he clearly can.

“That boy is trash! He’s a disgrace from his family and it’s either he will get you pregnant or he will drag you down- Now you told us you will end things with him!” Your mother exclaimed.

“I love him I can’t just do that-“

“You’re young you don’t know anything about love!”

"You can't see it because you don't know how to love!" you yelled back at her then realized that it’s useless to talk to your mother so you walked out and went to Haechan, only to find him leaving already. You tried to stop him by calling his name over and over again, but he won’t stop walking towards his car but thankfully you got a hold of him.

“I’m sorry my mother is a monster” you apologized to him and tried to ask for a hug but he refused like he was disgusted to you or something.

“I should go and think about us Y/n, this fucking relationship is not healthy anymore”

Hearing it from the guy you love and from the guy you spoke highly in front of your parents completely broke your heart. You can't believe that you yelled at your own mother for him, only to be treated like this in the end. You scoffed and went closer to him, pushing him hard and slapping him. Making him remember his promises last night and what happened in your bed. It was scandalous and you're 100% that your neighbors can hear you and Haechan yell at each other.

“Fine! We’re over! I’m breaking up with you for good” you sob and continue hitting him. To your surprise, he opened his car door and ignored what you just said.

When he started his car, you regret saying the words again right this instance. “No- wait, we're not really breaking up right? You’re going to fix this tomorrow right? Baby? Haechan?”

But he didn't stop at nothing and drove away from you. And as you follow him while he drives away from you, you felt so hopeless as you see him leave and disappear. Is this the breakup that you both deserve after loving each other fiercely?

You feel weak as if your legs forgot how to carry you at that very moment you feel lost. Lost and you felt like something dear and special was taken away from you.

Does Haechan really mean what he said last night? Or is it just for show to have your consent that easily for sex?

That’s it right? Now that he already had you, he has no intentions of keeping you further because he already had what he wanted. And if that’s really the case then there's no point in fighting for this relationship anymore.

He didn’t show up for days and weeks again and that made your breakup official, you guess. But this time, you’re not stupid enough to chase him and ask him to come back. Although the pain in your heart still makes you cry before you sleep, but each day that passes helps you grow and move on from him. Moving on wasn’t simple, you knew that from the very start and on top of that, you still can’t believe that your relationship ended just like that.

During Jaemin's graduation party where you badly needed to attend because of your cousin, you happen to see him there with his friends and some unknown friends. Of course you didn’t take a second look, you already knew that it was him and you’re not planning to ask his attention. So you just ignored him and make everyone realize that you two had broken up already.

It was heartbreaking. You feel the room spinning even though you haven’t had any alcohol the moment you arrived. You feel your chest being squeezed so tight that you feel like someone is hugging you so tight from behind and is about to crush your bones.

Like you, Haechan accepted the breakup because he knew he should stop hurting you like this. And little did you know that Haechan is suffering as much as you are and he hated seeing you like this. His head was most of the time not present lately because he’s busy thinking about you. He feels like he has been hurting and strangling you all this time, caging you into his own little world when you can fly and achieve many great things. And during your time away from each other, he promised to himself that he will try and stop being so selfish by trying to get back to you because he knew the same things will happen over and over again but this time the hurt will be triple for the both of you and he can't do that.

But tonight is his last chance. His last chance to be with you before he sets you free. He loves you. More than you could have ever imagined.

So he quickly followed where you’re headed and decided to bravely talk to you. Only to find you on the exact same spot where he saw you for the first time. Alone. He gently tapped your shoulder and brought you back to reality for that hopeful talk. But he saw you in tears for the first time and he just lost it.

He made small talk, and you savored it.

“Do you remember the night when we first met in this exact spot? It was a good night. I had a great sleep that night by engraving your smile in my head and just… looking forward to seeing you again, even though I’m not incredibly sure that we’ll meet again. But I made it happen”

“How could I forget? You were so loud that night”

“I was loud like that because I was catching your attention” he cleared his throat before he further continues with his confession, “The day I heard about your date with Jaemin, I just snapped and drove straight to where you are even though I don’t know the direction to your house. But I made it happen”

“You hurt me all the time” you blurted out completely changing the mood of your conversation from light to really heavy.

“And that’s why I never apologized because words can’t do shit. I showed you how much I love you right? It’s just… it’s never enough and that’s what's killing me,” You can’t see it but he’s in tears too, still finishing his strong drink to gain more confidence in telling you what he really feels. “Let’s get out of here, be with me” and finally he reached out to you because he thought being honest was enough but then again, he fell short.

“How can you do that to me?” you pushed him away. Harder than expected. “You told me on our first date that you wouldn’t hurt me or leave me after taking something precious from me?”

“Do you really think I’d leave you just because we already fucked?” he scoffed but you see right through him that he was hurt. So that answers your questions, your judgments aren’t true. You watch him drink his beer in one go and threw the red cup, that simply means he’s offended, angry and frustrated. “Whatever. But can you please come with me? Please?”

And without hesitation you came with Haechan and let him drive you away from the chaos of the party and from your cousin. You aren’t exactly in peace with him yet, but it started with one kiss. Then one thing led to another and the next thing you know you’re both naked and kissing in his bed.