#leah’s list of lollicking

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I’m officially doing art fight for this year! Apologies for the really scuffed presentation, trying to get this together on my phone was really awkward 😭😭 But either way, I’ve been randomly allocated Team Seafoam! Looking forward to attacking some of you fellow artists! >:) If you want to know more about my characters I have for this art fight, you can find them on my main profile using the link below!

Art fight profile:

Let the games begin! :)

Artist credits:

@/s0upjuice: Design of Cormac

@/smolnoko: Design of Nova

@/rusty-eevee: Design of Harmony

Team Star Shiners, Sprout and the Cormac profile picture are drawn by myself.

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Wishing everyone a happy Valentine’s Day, whether you have a special someone in your life or - if you’re like me - loves having both the friends I’ve made on here and my family who’s supported me throughout my life up until now. Hope it’s a good one for you all! 😄

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So I’ve been playing Hollow Knight for over 50 hours now and I’ve just now finally beaten the true Dream No More ending of the game as my first and only ending, and holy shit, I think it’s the hardest game I’ve ever played for my Autistic brain 😭😭 Although I’ve also beaten Another Crab’s Treasure (another really hard game and my only Soulslike I’ve beaten lol), Hollow Knight takes the cake as the most punishing, most frustrating and overall most rage-filled game I have beaten. Some of the bosses absolutely whooped my ass (fuck the Collector, I absolutely despise that boss with a passion lmao), but after however many deaths and attempts I had against the Radiance, I’ve finally beaten her and rolled credits before Silksong even exists, wooooooo!

Without a doubt though, the artwork for the game, the music and the feeling of finally beating some of the hardest platforming challenges (the White Palace - I’m looking at you) and bosses makes this game a 10/10 from me and for only less than £20, it makes it an absolute steal! Now I guess I’m on the hype train for Silksong (haha clown nose go honk), and may do some funny Ghost drawings (rather call them that than just “The Knight” lmao) to seal the deal (maybe).

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I’ve gone ahead and now made my own art blog based on a poll I did a while ago! You can find my art posts and anything else I do now on @leahveshavefallen!

Hope to see you there! :)

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Hi folks, whilst I’ve now officially graduated from uni on Wednesday (yeeeeaaaahhhhh!!!), I’ve been now wanting to catch up on doing Art Fight attacks since I’ve been busy up until this point to try and get some time to myself 😭😭 However, an idea cropped up in my head that I’d like to ask you guys. A lot of the time my main blog has now mostly taken up a lot of reblogs for artwork that I really like the look of and any I find that I enjoy a lot, I use tags to try and allow myself to find the post again if I ever want to allow me to smile. As a result, art that I’ve posted in the past has often gotten obscured by my tendency to often go overboard (Autism go brrrr), and so to think about it, I wondered if creating a separate art blog going forward would be the right choice so then that way my posts can have a better structure to how they appear. I’ve seen a lot of other people have accounts dedicated to specific things they like, so for me, I would only use this separate blog for art that’s made by me or if it involves my OCs in gift art and commissions, and this would only be its intended purpose, so no reblogs from any other places as then that way people can find something I post that if they want to share, then they can. I’ll go ahead and post a poll for the next day as I post this, and I want to see what you all have to say :)

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Ask game :)

Share/talk about 5 things that make you happy and ask the same to the last 10 moots that reblogged one of your posts.

(if you want to of course) 

Huh, I’ve never tried one of these things before. Thanks for the ask @driftingballoons!

I don’t know whether I can do the reblogging part because I haven’t really posted anything in a while due to mostly doing it for other people’s posts, but for things that make me happy, I’ll say:

Music on Spotify (British Pop, EDM, Country and VGM)

Pokémon - specifically Pokémon Mystery Dungeon. I have an appreciation for Super the most because it was the first game I ever started playing, but I like all the games equally based on what I’ve seen. :)

Splatoon. I started with Splatoon 3, but since then despite not having played 2, I’ve become obsessed with the series and it’s become the second thing I absolutely enjoy, most of all squid parties XD My main Splatoon sona is an Octoling that I want to get around to drawing in my own style after Art Fight 😭 XD

Writing & Drawing - I love doing stories and drawing to my heart’s content, because it’s always good to see what can come out of something done by my own hand. Completing an artwork or a story chapter just feels very satisfying 👌

Gaming - Playing games since I was a kid is the very reason I’m attempting to gain a career in the field I’ve now graduated from, which is a BSc in Computer Games Technology. Becoming a developer and playing a multitude of different video games is something I hope I can use as inspiration moving forward as a part of me that hopes to improve himself as time goes on as much as possible.

And there’s my list of five things, peeps! :) Anyone else who sees this is more than welcome to have a go and take part! :D

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Haven’t fully finished setting up my profile yet, but I now have an art fight account and I’ve let myself be randomly allocated to Team Seafoam! Feel free to give a follow if you’d like! :D

https://artfight.net/~WhenTheLeahvesFall

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Hello, what is your most number one favorite legendary Pokémon or regular Pokémon that you like ?By the way thank you for loving my art that was very nice ❤️.

Ello, thanks for the ask! Hard to narrow down my favourite Pokémon both in legendaries or in a regular capacity, but I personally love Kyogre, Lunala and Miraidon as my main three legendaries and Mudkip, Eevee and Scorbunny as my main three regular Pokémon, but I like a lot regardless haha. You’re welcome!

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Probably late for this, but happy Pokémon Day folks! Major copium for us PMD fans that we do get a game this year as the next Legends game is next year but I guess a guy can dream 😅

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To Look Upon The Future - Cover Art

Wrapped In Light, Before The Scar... And When Scarred

Well here it is, the thing that I've been wanting to come back to for an awful long while. To Look Upon The Future finally has some cover art and I draw again! I've been meaning to get back into drawing for a while so I'm glad to finally get this out into the world. Whilst it's definitely not the most exciting art or anything like that and due to my inexperience in digital art still (I hate using a mouse to draw DX), at least I've managed to ensure I met this in time for PSMD's 8th anniversary here in Europe. On this day (the 19th or the 20th), it released in PAL regions and slowly became one of - and still is - my favourite Mystery Dungeon title of all time. Slowly but surely I'll start making my way back to my fanfiction that I've got for this series, which you can find here and two other one-shots I've written in the past:

Fingers crossed everything can go okay for myself (screw you uni!), but for now, I hope you enjoy me posting Super my beloved 😭

...And just who does that shadow belong to as well?

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It’s difficult to know for certain now what I want to do with my life. I know a lot of the time I do ramble a lot both irl and I guess online, but a lot of the time I feel lost and without purpose without feeling I have a good place in the world. Whilst I know I’ve been wanting to get back into doing art and writing, I guess finishing uni has made me think a lot about the ups and downs of my life and how far I’ve gotten to the place I am now. I dunno… I feel lost? Scared? A mixture of it all? I haven’t the slightest clue at the moment.

I don’t know how many of you guys who read my posts a lot of the time know about this, but I’ve got Autism. I’ve had it since I’ve been about 8 years old, and for the last 13-14 years of my life knowing I’ve had this as something affecting me, it’s made me question a lot about the stuff I’m good at.

Am I good at being a writer, an artist, a student or even just a person?

What do I offer that I feel is a strength for myself?

Do I even consider myself a person who deserves to be loved, despite fearing he always constantly upsets people?

And… I guess that’s how I’ve been really feeling. A lot of the time, I don’t know whether anything I’m doing is something to be considered “good”. Do I belong here? Do I keep making mistakes so much that people don’t want to be around me?

Maybe I overthink things a lot and that’s what these thought patterns are. Yet when you’re a guy who has mostly dealt with things on his own for most of his life, I uh… I don’t know how to really be me in a stream full of people.

I guess maybe I’m not someone who can answer these questions I have about myself. But despite that, I worry a lot of the time. An awful lot. And even still, underneath it all… I feel like I’d like to try and be who I am for what I am, but my brain and the way my life’s been up until now makes me question if I do have a place in this world for people to even appreciate just myself.

For what it’s worth, thank you for everyone who has liked the dumb stuff I’ve done since I first joined Tumblr or who know me from elsewhere. I don’t know why people enjoy it for what it is as I don’t consider myself good by any means, but it does make me smile knowing there are at least a few of you who do like me for me.

I’m just thinking about I suppose what’s next for me. Do I continue to just try and participate in the communities I’m in? Or fade away and hope people forget about me so I move on with just perhaps living a normal life?

I… I’m not honestly sure. I wish I knew how to be positive for myself and to keep moving forward, but without much of a goal, what do I really hope to accomplish for myself? Do I make any of you guys happy? It’s okay if I don’t too, but I feel maybe I need to reflect better on myself, but I don’t know how.

I don’t usually ramble a lot on my blog, and for good reason as I don’t know how many of you genuinely care about the guy behind the scuffed shit and I guess see me for… I don’t know, the dumb nerd with a like for Mudkips?

I may be mistaken, but as this point I really can’t say for sure. Maybe these feelings of mine will subside, but as they are not going away right now, I guess I’ll throw them here and see what happens.

If you got to the end, then thanks. I’m sorry for making this feel overly negative about me, but I suppose sometimes when you really just want to find a way to vent… you gotta do it in the way that helps you to feel better. Sorry again.

I don’t know how much of this is my Autism, but… hopefully one day I’ll get over these doubts. Probably just not right now.

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Bit of an unrelated note cuz I’m going to be doing my next entries for Hero & Partner week later, but ahhhh I’ve just had my results back from both of my modules and now I’m 100% officially graduating uni!!!! AHHHHHH I NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION YEARS YOU’D ASK THIS DORK (me) THAT HE’D SOMEHOW GRADUATE AND NOW I GUESS AFTER THREE LONG YEARS I’M ACTUALLY GOING INTO THE WIDE WORLD-

Ahsshhsbszghss I’M TOTALLY VERY NORMAL LIKE RIGHT NOW HOLY MOLY MOTHER MACARONI

But ahhh I guess I’ve now got the motivation to give myself a boost now for my own hobbies, just so long as I know what I want to do XD

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Hey folks! I’ll be away for a week starting from tomorrow as I’m going on holiday to Tenerife. :) I’ll see if I can try and keep track of stuff if I can set up hotel Wi-Fi whilst I’m on the island, but until then I’ll try and see what happens so I don’t end up missing anything. Wishing you all well regardless! :)

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Hi everyone. I guess it’s time for another one of my ramblings, but I feel it’s something I’m curious about seeing. I don’t know if anyone would be interested in me doing this, but I’m considering entering art fight this year, but I have no prior experience, let alone know what it involves. I’m rather nervous, as I don’t really have that many OCs, I do lack faith in my own drawing ability these days and a lot of it is probably my head just playing tricks on me like it usually does. For whatever reason though, I do want to get back into practicing, even if I do feel like I’m bad at it now and so I just wanna see if it’s something I can try and do. For those of you who already picked a team, wishing you the best of luck as you’re all incredibly talented.

As for me… I dunno. Would any of you even be remotely interested if I try drawing some of your OCs? At this rate, I’d happily take some drawing practice even if I don’t feel I’m the most talented person in the world, but I’ll see how many I can draw traditionally as I can. That’ll probably be me in art fight, although if you guys feel it is something that you’d be interested in seeing then I’ll try give it a go. Feel free to reply to this or reblog with comments or tags to explain your own thoughts if you’d like.

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Oops, I think my accidental art spam of reblogging other people’s PSMD artworks has got me on the agenda to try out drawing my own main team digitally for the first time (minus Cormac last month as I’ve already drawn him). Man, I reaaaaaallly wanna draw all four of my sillies, but hey, if you’re curious, here’s the main four I wanna draw together (if I can);

Cormac - PSMD Hero and my take on the protagonist (he’s a bean who can get edgy); you can tell he’s a Mudkip

Sprout - PSMD partner and hopefully I can draw him as a floofball. Loves Cormac with all of his heart, up until when he disappeared (ahhhh uni why do you gotta be in the way, I wanna draw partner dynamic 😭😭); he’s a Bulbasaur

Harmony - PMD Explorers protagonist and feels hurt in the presence of Cormac. These two have beef (I won’t elaborate why though 😏). Has heterochromia which means he has two different eye colours - in my headcanon, he witnesses his Dimensional Screams through one of his eyes and sometimes makes him feel split between the real world and his illusory mind. Angsty bean… must DRAW!!! He’s a Riolu.

Flurr - PMD Explorers partner and Harmony’s love interest. An Eevee who acts as an extrovert after having saved the world and attaches to Harmony like super glue stuck on a canvas. She’s never not seen without Harmony, unless you bring ‘em to the Kecleon shopping mall and then all hell breaks loose… many, many Swifts later… and yes, she also be floofy.

Hopefully I can draw the four of them at some point, but ahhhh drawing with mouse is scuffed for me so not sure how long it’ll take, ahhhhhh

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Welp, I may or may not be getting back into art again whilst also doing uni work on the side haha xP But for real, I've been wanting to get back into the swing of making artwork I enjoy, finding stuff I enjoy doing and being my own person in just having fun in making games on my uni course, to just doing PMD art in general as it's something I enjoy doing and helps to stimulate my brain into an atmosphere I can let loose in without much thought. Most of this stuff is me just projecting stuff out into the world in the hopes that somehow some people like the crazy stuff I do, but all in all getting back into the habit of just doing the things I love is the thing that matters to me the most above anything else.

So for that reason, I'm setting myself a challenge of doing art at least once every month, starting from this week. Do I have any particular themes in mind? Not really. I just want to do whatever I fancy, with any characters I like and thinking of anything from human designs (for once XD) to the one I'm currently working on now: a PSMD drawing. For once, a game I've been meaning to draw for ages and it's based on the Mudkip you see in my profile picture (credit to s0upjuice for the amazing art :) ) and his partner Bulbasaur, which I aim to give some unique flavour to when I draw it. What will it be? You'll find out. ;)

Anyway scuffed thoughts out the way, hope everyone has a good week ahead of them!