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𝟶𝟾.𝟶𝟾.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

New habits I want to develope

Wake up before 8 A.M.

Only consume content that leaves some kind of benefit or positive/neutral impression on me

Be focused on what I'm doing in the present moment by developing better meditation and grounding practices

Move my body daily for at least an hour

Go outside and spending time in the sun and fresh air when the weather is nice

Become more disciplined by resisting the urge to indulge in distractions to train my self-control and discipline

Do tasks as soon as I can instead of procrastinating. Fight the executive dysfunction through positive frameworks (not shame)

Drink water before my coffee, and simply stay more hydrated

Learn to display my gratitude to/towards others

Go to sleep before 3 A.M.

Do everything with intention instead of staying in autopilot

Enjoy my time off and rest while I still have it

Discover and nurture my excitement for study through curiosity

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔 𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚊 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚔𝚏𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚗 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚗 𝚕𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚘𝚙; 𝚌𝚞𝚙 𝚘𝚏 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎]

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OCTOBER.

It's the busiest month of the year. There's just so much to do.

State fairs. Local fests in small downtowns. Haunted houses. The start of fall. PUMPKIN SPICE EVERYTHINGGG. Sweaters. Pumpkins. Yummy foods. SOUPS. Apple picking. Hayrides. Whimsy and child-like wonder! Divination and witchcraft. Halloween. Candy. Color-changing leaves, and thennn it’s followed by November and Thanksgiving feasts with all the turkey, mashed potatoes and gravy with the parade and football on TV! Then December Christmas and NYE and fireworks and snowww. Beautiful snow.

Oct-Dec cozy superiority FOREVERRRRRRRRRR

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𝟶𝟿.𝟶𝟸.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

I discovered my new fixation: peanut butter ramen with ajitama. It's soooo good. I'm also excited that I can now prepare ramen eggs at home whenever I want. Anyway, I was on my way to my desk with my bowl and glass of hibiscus water, but I needed to reach for something, so I put both items on my old stool. The bowl of ramen looked so yummy that I had to take a pic.

I've been writing a lot lately. I wrote some new poems but also went back and completed others that I had started and left unfinished for some time now. I wrote a specific one about my previous lover who I developed feelings for and I can't help but to go back and read it over and over... Writing it came so easily to me. Writing about him and us, has probably been the easiest and most fluent poetry I've created.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚋𝚘𝚠𝚕 𝚘𝚏 𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚐𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚑𝚒𝚋𝚒𝚜𝚌𝚞𝚜 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛; 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚘𝚎𝚝𝚛𝚢 𝚓𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚕]

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𝟶𝟿.𝟸𝟹.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

Rainy, gloomy days, where September comes to end. September days. Days where the soul comes back to life in paradoxical ways. Perpetual sunset of the year. Making way for the fall of year, where Persephone meets again her lover to keep her near.

Written by me. All me. Credit to me.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚞𝚙 𝚘𝚏 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎 𝚖𝚞𝚐; 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔 𝚜𝚎𝚝 𝚞𝚙 𝚒𝚗 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚠 𝚘𝚗 𝚊 𝚐𝚘𝚕𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝚐𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚖𝚢 𝚊𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚘𝚘𝚗]

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𝟶𝟽.𝟸𝟸.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

I started the day with a pistachio milk latte and spinach filled pastry.

Today is moody and gloomy; I can hear the thunder outside and smell the rain. I love days like these, because the rain helps with my academic focus. On the other hand, it also makes me want to stay cuddled in bed with my cats while we binge-watch comfort movies and order Chinese take-out.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎-𝚞𝚙 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚞𝚐 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎; 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚒𝚗 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚠]

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𝟶𝟿.𝟶𝟿.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

𝙲𝚞𝚛𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍: "𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙼𝚊𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚜" 𝚋𝚢 𝙰𝚕𝚎𝚡 𝙼𝚒𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚜 Getting ready to receive this fall season with this book. In "The Maidens," Mariana finds herself on the idyllic campus of Cambridge University after her niece Zoe's closest friend, Tara, has been murdered, while struggling with inner conflicts of her past. The way the author describes in great detail the settings is so dark academia aesthetic. The author also does a great job of including Greek myths and symbolism. I've read some reviews on the book afterwards and I am frustrated and annoyed at how the point and symbolism in this book has gone completely over people's heads. The author's use of red herring fallacy is sooo good, and as I'm typing this, I think he did such a great use of this fallacy because most people are misinterpreting the maidens. I think I just found a new level of appreciation for this book. The main character is a bit annoying and soooo blind, but I guess it's needed to move the story forward or whatever.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚗 𝚋𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚔𝚎𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚜 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚝;𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔 𝚌𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚋𝚕𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜, 𝚊 𝚋𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚊 𝙶𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚔 𝙶𝚘𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚎𝚝𝚜]

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𝟶𝟽.𝟸𝟷.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺 - 𝙻𝚊𝚣𝚢 𝚂𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚊𝚢

Did some light picking up around my room and laundry. I was super focused on self-care today, so I cleaned my eyebrows, did some hair treatments, and did my thorough intense skincare routine. Might journal a bit later before going to bed.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝙿𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝: 𝚐𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚊 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚠; 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚎𝚝𝚜 𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚠𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚛]

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𝟷𝟶.𝟷𝟺.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

I was summoned for jury duty.

I know most people hate jury duty- or at least this is how the people are portrayed in media, but I think it's beautiful though. There's a certain beauty that is almost poetic about a court of law. The deep mahogany of the wood and benches. The cold marble flooring that is reminiscent of the first courts of Ancient Rome and Greece. The air heavy with significance and urgency.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚞𝚙 𝚘𝚏 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚖𝚞𝚐 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚔 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚌𝚎; 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚒𝚛, 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚋𝚕𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢]

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𝟷𝟶. 𝟷𝟷. 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

Twenty fine. I have felt twenty five Octobers.

But can I be real and vent? I hate my birthday week. It always starts so optimistic and might I even dare say- happy? But then that optimism and happiness erodes throughout the hours of the week- slowly setting like the sun in the October sky, until I wake up filled with dread on my birth date. I wish I could pin the dread of my birthday to something as shallow and superficial as the fear of aging and growing old. But no. I hate my birthday and the week leading up to it because I’m reminded that my efforts and attention are overlooked and unreturned.

They say that to love someone is to know them. To notice. But no one pays attention or notices how I prepare my coffee. How I slowly go around the house opening the blinds while I walk and whisper talk to my cats as I show them the new day. How my eyes light up at the mention of my interests. They don’t even look up from their phone long enough to notice my interests and likes, how could they possibly see that spark in my eyes? They have headphones in their ears all the time, how could they possibly hear me repeatedly singing the same lines from the songs that speak the most to me?

I hate my birthday the most because I didn’t always hate it. I didn’t always feel like this. I was noticed and appreciated and felt like I was paid attention and known. When did it end? When did my birthday stop feeling special? Was it me who stopped being special? I wish it could be so simple and someone could just come in and say, “yes, you stopped being special and that’s why your birthday stopped being special.” But that’s not true. I’ve grown so secure in myself. So sure of myself. I know exactly who I am and I am in fact quite special and unique. I’m not ordinary, I’m quite extraordinary, intelligent and a remarkable person. A bit rough around the edges, but every rose has its thorns. They’re there to protect the beauty of the rose, and still the rose is loved and appreciated. And I guess I’ll simply bear this feeling of loneliness and misunderstanding until I find the proper environment to grow and feel comfortable, but I just wish I felt this way where I am right now. How heart wrenching to understand the pain of the now while longing for the peace of the morrow.

Lmaoooooo but anywayyyy I'm 25 and if my parents had medical insurance I would've been taken off of it. I can rent a car and I can no longer be claimed as a dependent. I think. Idk how taxes work, I just pay them 🤪

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚌𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚘𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚝 "𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚢 𝚋𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚑𝚍𝚊𝚢" 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚠𝚘 𝚕𝚒𝚝 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚕𝚎𝚜; 𝚝𝚠𝚘 𝚕𝚒𝚝 𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚎𝚍 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚠𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚟𝚎]

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𝟷𝟶.𝟶𝟸.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

I'm thrilled to see the beginning of October and feel its subtle chill as the temperature drops.

Going back and making edits to my gift idea list; I have a shared note that I add to and update so people in my life know what I want for my birthday, christmas and other special occasions.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚕𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚒𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝙶𝚒𝚕𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕𝚜; 𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚠]

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𝟶𝟾.𝟸𝟺.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

I've been doing more research on the Romani people. There's this feeling inside of me that feels almost, almost, bittersweet as I read through my research. But this feeling is far more bitter and full of sorrow- there's hardly any sweetness.

I keep looking back on my life and it feels almost like I don't have any free will or originality, it's kind of humorous lol. All my interests and things that have caught my curiosity, are all things that are connected to my ancestors in some way. Those memes that go like "I don't have a single original thought/experience" really resonate lol.

But how beautiful, that even without my knowledge I have been surrounded and embraced by my ancestors. Ancestors so far removed, I never had the privilege to meet. There's no documentation of them. The only documentation and proof of their existence is me and their living descendants. I think it's beautiful how without knowing them, I still have this strong tie and connection to them.

𝙲𝚞𝚛𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍: 𝙶𝚢𝚙𝚜𝚢 𝙵𝚘𝚕𝚔𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚋𝚢 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚎 𝚃𝚘𝚗𝚐 I went to the library the other day and was very excited to find books to help with my research into the Romani history and culture. This is a very slow read. There's passages in the book that are a bit hard to take in

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚠𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚌𝚒𝚐𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚖𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚑 𝚍𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚊𝚕𝚖 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐; 𝚝𝚒𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚙𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝚘𝚏 "𝙶𝚢𝚙𝚜𝚢 𝙵𝚘𝚕𝚔𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚎𝚜" 𝚋𝚢 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚎 𝚃𝚘𝚗𝚐; 𝚙𝚊𝚕𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚢 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚝]

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So I haven't done any official studying lately. However, I have been doing some research about the Romani people, because apparently one of my great-grandfathers (not sure how removed he is from me) was actually Hungarian and was forgotten as a baby in MX by his family and taken in by my ancestors.

My mom's oldest sister shared the story with me, but both my mom and aunt have a slightly different version of the story. I wonder who, if anyone, knows the real story as it happened so they could share it with me.

According to my aunt's telling-

There were always these caravans of Hungarian gypsies that would travel to MX and set up tents and booths in a circus/carnival-type thing where they would do fortune-telling through different forms of divination (palmistry, crystal balls, tarot). During a cold winter, Little Baby was forgotten and found by Ancestor who tried to take him to the police. The police, however, were basically like "Just take him home and we'll let u know," and no one ever claimed Little Baby. Little Baby was then raised by Ancestor as his.

However, my mom says he was forgotten as a little boy, not a baby and she isn't sure it happened during winter. She also thinks it was to flee the persecution of all the Romani people in Europe and seek momentary refuge. But, I don't think the reason they arrived in MX matters too much because if it was to flee, they still had to do something to make some kind of money to afford to stay alive in the new location they arrived- hence, their divination practices. Additionally, they lived a nomadic lifestyle, so their arrival to MX would've happened regardless, at a certain point in time.

While their telling of events differs, one thing that is certain is that we have some kind of European/Middle Eastern ancestry.

As I did research on Hungarian gypsies, I found that one, they're not gypsies, but rather Romani people. The Romani people in Hungary are Hungarians of Romani descent, and the Romani people originate from Northern India. There's linguistic evidence that shows the Romani share basic lexicon with Hindi and Punjab; Phonetic features with Marwari; Their grammar is closest to Bengal.

Genetic findings say that the Romani originated in northwestern India and then migrated as a group. So my ancestor's journey had to look something like this:

Northwestern India → Middle East → Romania → Hungary

However, there's something that confuses me about my research because in my readings there was something that said the Romani people were often called "Egyptians" and/or "the Pharaoh's People," but as I try to find more information on "the Pharaoh's People," nothing shows up. So, were the Romani just falsely identified as Egyptians in the same way that people from countries like Guatemala and Cuba are called Mexicans? Or is there a real tie/connection between the Romani and Egypt? If so, are all people under a Pharaoh's rule referred to as the Pharaoh's People, or is this label saved for their "employees?"

One thing is for sure- my people have never known peace.

How sad is it, that my whole ancestry line has known nothing but discrimination and genocide. From the Spanish conquistadores who took over Mexico. The English colonizers who took Mexican land from its people. The Nazis persecuting my Romani ancestors alongside the Jewish in the Holocaust. To present day discrimination in Hungary that the Hungarian-Romani people are still facing and the discrimination Mexican people face in the US.

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Hii, I'm Libra- 24 years old, U.S based.

I already obtained my Bachelor's degree in Criminal Justice. I am currently studying and preparing for my LSAT and law school applications. I decided to start this blog because I needed motivation to study and this is a good way to monitor and document my progress while keeping me accountable.

What I'm Studying:

LSAT Languages Tarot

Languages I'm Learning:

French Russian

Interests:

Art and Music Books and Literature Cats Coffee and Matcha Dancing Nature Movies and TV Photography Poetry and Quotes Politics Thrifting Records Witchcraft Writing

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𝟶𝟽.𝟷𝟽.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺

Spent some time painting the backdrop for my new paintings during the twilight. Had a yummy breakfast bagel sandwich and coffee before I started my first Russian lesson. I’ll be looking for some Russian creators on TikTok who I find attractive so I can pay closer attention and retain the information much easier lol Also, today was such a great day at my local thrift store because I found four records and a great frame. I can finally hang up the poster that came inside of the cover for my Jimi Hendrix record! Ahhh I’m so exciteddddd!

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚕 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚖𝚞𝚐; 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚞𝚙 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚕]

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I used to be on Tumblr during its peak (circa 2012-2015) and something I'm noticing (I'm not sure if its new, or I just never noticed it), but it reallyyyyy annoys me- people using tags as a way to continue their thoughts and even add new thoughts. Like this whole space

is meant to type and put down ur thoughts, tags are simply meant to tag something with a keyword to find these tags. Creating ur own tags is fine, but adding new and or continued context in the tags is not. It’s like book genres, ur not going to type out the title and first sentence of a book in the genre tag/label

Put ALL ur thoughts in the post and use the tags the way tags are meant to be used 😭😭😭😭

[lawfullycaffeinated]

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚜𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚙𝚙 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝟶𝟼.𝟸𝟼.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺 𝚍𝚊𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚛𝚝]