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[felassan]

I received a few asks around a similar topic, so I'm popping them together here. ( ´ ▽ ` ) DA:TV spoilers under cut.

[the Felassan Files]

hello! ◕‿◕ thank you for the lovely and fun ask messages!!

lavendervoids asked: "i’ve been dying to know what ur reaction was to seeing felassan in the game was???? the moment i saw him i was yelling and hollering and my first thought was “omg what does tumblr user felassan think of this” LMAO and thank you for all the documenting you’ve been doing up until and past the release of the game, i ended up blocking every dragon age tag a couple months back to avoid any sort of spoilers but i still came to your blog everyday cause i knew you wouldn’t spoil me haha"

hhhh ( ´ ▽ ` ) tysm for thinking of me at that time!! and for the nice comment about this blog and visiting it. I'm really glad to know that my approach to spoiler tagging etc has been okay for you.

littlerune asked: "i don't even know you but you and dragon age felassan are so intrinsically linked in my brain that when he appeared in veilguard all i thought was "ohhhh i wonder how tumblr user felassan feels about this"

hhhh :D 🥺 thankyou so much for thinking of me!! ♡ some say that his ghost operates this tumblr blog, or that he lives still

songofamazon asked: "I'm still on my first play of the game, but whenever I got to the memories in the Crossroads, I thought to myself, "I hope Tumblr Felassan is having a great time. Did you?"

I had a great time playing the game and when playing the Crossroads memories sections, I loved them a lot, they were very cool and a highlight of the game. thankyou sm and for thinking of me, and I hope that you did too!!

phantabula-interactive asked: "im so glad you're enjoying the game!! I had to ask; how did you feel about seeing Felassan in game?? I was so excited to see the notes from him, I wasn't expecting a boss fight MUCH LESS. FULL CAMEO!!! They made him a lot prettier than I was expecting too (/pos)"

thankyou!! I hope that you've been enjoying it too!

so: I was sooo excited and shook to see Felassan in the game!!! I was like

(I yelped/hooted out loud like a clown) and then

and then it was suddenly like too much (pos) and my soul left my body and i astral projected into space/paradise/the Astral Plane/the Void or something etc

and then it took me some time to process or gather my thoughts about it.

obviously I was super hoping that we would see him in the game. I was sure that there would at least be some references to him in codexes/notes etc or allusions made in passing dialogue like Cole and Solas' lines about him in Trespasser. then when the marketing mentioned that we would see flashbacks from Solas' past in the Crossroads, I was like aaa omg, wouldn't that be the perfect time to actually show Felassan??, as a Fade memory or flashback or spirit echo or something. so then I was hoping like 🕯️🕯️🕯️ and yea. but even so, still when I saw him in game for the first time it was still a huge shocked Pikachu moment for me.

I was already feeling psyched from the first Felassan codex/note that I found, then I couldn't believe (pos) just how many codexes/notes scattered around written by him that there was?? I was already feeling spoiled (not spoiled by spoilers but like spoiled from eating good) from that (a bunch of codexes/notes might not seem like a lot but when your fav is a side character that has only appeared in one [1] tie-in novel..) and then he goes and actually APPEARS, AAAA. I feel like I ate so good. with the Betrayal fight and the rune at the end as well, it felt like he was threaded throughout the game and was really haunting the narrative. some assorted thoughts:

first of all everything about his DA:TV appearances/DA:TV references continues to underscore that he is the greatest of all time

it also continues to underscore the pain of his death/story and of his friendship with Solas

may I please go and start a new life living in Solas' memories of Felassan on repeat. i simply do not care that my body would waste away in the waking world from lack of sustenance

in the endgame I was trying to concentrate and punch Elgar'nan in the face and save the world but I like couldn't see straight through the tears after having been given Felassan's Magical Boyfriend Super Rune (morrigan pls.. what a way to twist the KNIFE at an extremely critical moment for thedas hhhh..)

expansion pack where we relive Solas' memories of him and Felassan dating (he didn't deserve Felassan tho fr. but then, does anyone..?)

I know that Felassan would treat Lavellan sooooo right. so well. so respectfully. felassan would pull their chair out for them at restaurants and open car doors and whatever

Betrayal of Felassan refers to Solas' betrayal of Felassan, not Felassan's betrayal of Solas

also i love how they made him DEVASTATINGLY handsome?? in the game (they didnt need to go that hard), but also how, at the same time - even before the TME Deluxe edition illustrations, we all just inherently knew deep in our bones that he was, you could simply just tell from his energy and vibes and dialogue even in only the written word. cool rolls off this guy in waves, and always has done

did his model have smoky winged eye makeup? love that. love that for him

I liked his sense of style. the hair his model has happened to be one of the ones I was debating using for my Rook. it's one of my fav ones from the CC

I appreciated the attention they paid to detail when making his model. Mythal vallaslin, violet/purple eyes, an undercut - as he was previously described or shown in TME, dev social media comments and the TME deluxe illustrations

I liked the actor they chose for him, his voice was cool

I felt like his codexes and notes that he wrote captured his voice and his character. you can see the depth of his loyalty and devotion to his friend, his concerns, and he retains his 'voice' in terms of some snark, wit etc

it's fun thinking about whether Felassan originally manifested from the Fade (and if so, what was he a spirit of) or whether he was born the usual way of other elves. (it could be either one)

Betrayal of Felassan as a manifested embodied regret and its lines like "his back, turned".. very raw. that fight was hard enough mechanically for me as it was, then the lines were like being hamstrung LOL. how could they??? (pos/lh)

I always thought that, a long time ago, Solas was essentially the player character in a different game, the main character of another story. the leader of his own group of companions and friends on their own quest (to stop the Evanuris), and that Felassan was one of those companions. Alistair to his Hero of Ferelden if you will. in DA:TV we learn that not only was he one of his companions, he was basically the second-in-command of his rebellion, a General, his closest friend aside from Mythal and his right-hand man.

he was so cool back in his heyday

pain. paaaaain. but like in a good way (I unironically love to be hurt by stories pls continue 💀...)

there are a few further posts containing more bits of my reaction and thoughts scattered through my Felassan tag. ^^

There were also a few other asks about this in my inbox, but Tumblr appears to have eaten them?? :< so if you've asked me about Felassan and my reaction since launch but the message isn't in this post, thankyou sm and I'm very sorry. 😔 pls feel free to re-send it. :)

I do remember that one of the vanished messages asked me what the Slaughter of the Pillars boss regret refers to - the Pillars of the Earth are the Titans. ("Hail Mythal, adjudicator and savior! She has struck down the pillars of the earth and rendered their demesne unto the People! Praise her name forever!") That undead boss embodies another of Solas' greatest regrets, namely what he and Mythal did to the Titans during the war with them - sundering every Titan from their spirit, severing them from their dreams, which resulted in the Blight as the dreams were driven mad. it also in a sense broke the dwarves in two and caused the fall of the fate of the dwarven people. Beyond the mural-memory that pertains to this in DA:TV, there are depictions of this time in the ancient past in the DA:TV artbook: [one, two]. Annotations there describe Solas rendering the Titans tranquil and capturing their souls; dwarves as a consequence then losing their connection to magic and fleeing into the now-Tranquil earth; and the Evanuris then building Elvhenan using the power of the captured Titan souls.

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[thenumbersgameif]

the shower thing w five using all the hot water was so mean!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! crying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[attollogame]

okay very important; does attollo have a tiktok equivalent? and if yes who uses it? who just scrolls and watches vids and who will actually make some themselves?

Yes! It’s called Snip! The user-base is about the same for TikTok—mostly adolescents—but most people have it just to pass time. In terms of RO’s, 

Scrolls and watches: Pariah, Operator

Bravely makes videos: Dreamwalker out of the Dreamwalker Persona (it’s for the PR babes), Vasilisia, Suha

Doesn’t have the app but watches compilations online: Sysba 

[attollogame]

finally started listening to the ro playlists and currently Obsessed w/ pariahs 😳 so many good bops i’ve never heard, thank u for my life. ames your taste in music,,,,,,,,,,,,,, impeccable

Sksksks thank you <3 <3 

[attollogame]

okay wow i finally finished the update (had to keep stopping to freak out every so often) and uh loved it of course.

when abyssal named dropped our sibling i had to actually get up and walk around for a minute cause i was freaking out. and uhmmm operator??? hand in marriage maybe??? 😳🖐💍. and UM voltaic??? i love them, i was so stoked to see them despite the uhh,,,, circumstances.

sorry this is such a jumble of thoughts i was just so excited about everything in this route wowowow!!!!!!!! thank u so much for the food 💕💕

Sjsjsjsjs the Abyssal and Sibling thing made me go ‘oop—’ as well when I was writing it LMAO. Can’t trust any man in this town smh. I’m also so glad you enjoyed the Operator and Voltaic scenes! I admit I was probably the most nervous about them, especially Voltaic, since he’ll be coming up again in a later chapter (that’ll be a fun one)

I’m so so glad you enjoyed it though, and thank you so much for sharing your thoughts!! I really love reading messages like these ;; <3 

[attollogame]

demo was so good btw, love our new dad neil lmao but like,, the atmosphere,,, wowowo i was so nervous playing through cause i was worried my poor mc would get their ass beat but uhh,, luckily came away mostly unscathed. and also,,, vasilisia 😳 i can’t get over her, i’m in love

Neil is everyones father, and also probably the most reliable guy in Attollo (which is why I’m making the executive decision to preserve him lmaoo). 

Also I’m glad the atmosphere came over well!! I’ve been in situations where I haven’t known anyone or anything, so I tried to implement the feelings into the game (aka a lot of anxiety)! And again, I’m so glad you guys like Vasilisia omg

[attollogame]

uhmmm miss vasilisia,,,,,, your hand in marriage please??? 🥺🤲💕

Aaaaa I’m so glad you like her omg <3

[attollogame]

@lavendervoids made this wonderful piece and I wanted to write a little thing to go along with it so please enjoy this joke take on what happens when you get too close with Dreamwalker.

One would think, with the perpetual smog hanging in the sky, that summers in Attollo would be significantly cooler. Unfortunately, quite the opposite appears to be true. The smog in the sky seems to capture the heat radiating from the concrete streets, and even as night carefully stretches itself over the city's form, you continue to feel sweat droplets running down your back. You toss, and you turn, and you shove the blankets off of yourself, seeking any form of coolness that you can obtain. You fall asleep at a few points, but even that doesn’t last for long. 

Not to mention that the small fan in your room does nothing to help. If anything, it’s just pushing the hot air around even more. 

Judas. 

You scrunch your eyes shut and let out a soft whine, running your hands over your face. You have half the mind to go sit in the shower and sleep, keeping the cold water running over your body until the morning, but you know that you’ll never be able to afford a water bill like that. So instead, you suffer in your furnace of a bedroom, hoping that tomorrow will bring a reduction in temperatures. Rolling to your side to face the fan better, you crack open one eye and stretch out, moving to turn it on to its next highest calibre. 

The sight that greets you makes you freeze. 

Your brain is sluggish with heat and sleep, but it’s still aware enough to know somethings wrong when your gaze locks with two glowing orbs in the corner of your room. You shoot upwards in bed and let out a shriek that would put a police siren to shame, clutching your bedsheets to your chest like some Victorian grandmother who just saw a great offense. The figure in the corner jumps along with you, their eyes widening in shock as they lean further back into the corner. 

“What the fuck!” You howl, a myriad of emotions running through you. You’re terrified, angry, frustrated, and frankly quite fed up with this kind of thing always happening to you. The figure in the corner presses their hand against their chest and closes their eyes, taking a shaky breath. 

“Jesus,” they hiss, their breath coming out as a small gasp, “Are you sure you don’t have Banshee abilities or something? I feel like I’m back in the hotel room with Sysba when they found out all of ‘The Young and The Restless’ was available .” 

“Don’t lurk in the corner like that!” The words mesh together as you stutter them out, still gripping your bedsheets. “You’re like the goddamn grim reaper, Dreamwalker! Why are you here!” 

“I’m sorry,” he grumbles, flicking on your bedside lamp. You flinch against the intrusive brightness before looking at his face, which is set in a frown. “I tried to wake you, but you’re quite a deep sleeper."

You offer him a grunt, raising an eyebrow as you wait for him to continue. He stares at you for a second before letting out a sigh and pointing in the direction of your kitchen. 

“I just wanted to let you know that you’re out of almond milk again.” 

…

...

You stare at him. 

He stares at you. 

You feel your eye twitch slightly as you loosen your grip on the blankets. Just when he opens his mouth to speak, you beat him to the punch. 

“And you chose two in the morning to tell me this, why?!” 

[attollogame]

Wanted to address the rest of these bc I'm trying not to lose em sksksks @ all anons i love you and appreciate you ALL

@becksterr ily too <3

@recbeetch FAVORITE AUTHOR please im gonna CRY AGAIN

@jupitergames-if hit me w a time and date for that therapy appointment babes <3

@lavendervoids you and me and our anxieties are now besties sorry