#latenightramblings

[doll-poetry]

Late Night Ramblings😌🧚🏽‍♀️ •also uploaded on my YT @DollsCreatives

[doll-poetry]

New episode is up & peep the announcement🤗🌸

[doll-poetry]

Late night ramblings😌🧚🏽‍♀️ 🎶It's A Dream • Faraon **LAST DAY FOR THE POLL** What would yall say if I asked how yall would feel about Dolls Creatives Lives👀🤭🌸♡♡♡???

[ayumneedsleep]

I want palm hand kisses.. i think i would love them as the gesture seemed so genuine

[starsmuserainbow]

I really need to be physically active in some form. I absolutely, zero, don't wanna, but I very much should try to stop things from getting worse in regards to my body.

Thus, I'm once again making the plan to do physical things, yet I at least 99% surely know that it's gonna go the same as always - I'll stick with it for a little bit, be very unsatisfied with the exhaustion and the no-result (or no visible one at least), and give up. Probably within days, maximum weeks. Ugh.

[lizzieslifestyle]

Accountability

I had such an energetic, productive Saturday and then today I felt so bleh... and honestly, I think a large part of it came from eating just crappy food. We had some friends over Saturday and it was nachos, homemade cookies, chocolate, candy, etc. And this has quickly become the ‘norm’ for us on weekends. Through the week I eat relatively clean, with Wednesday being an exception for ‘take out’ Wednesday, but honestly even that is starting to be closer to a binge than a real meal. I’m just eating to eat. I wouldn’t say that I overeat to the point of discomfort as I once used to, but I’m certainly eating out of boredom and convenience at times.

I’ve been justifying it to myself, because I’m making progress (clothes are fitting better, I’m getting stronger/more endurance, etc. because I’m working out) but truly, I could feel so much better if I was making better choices about what’s going into my body.

I try to balance healthy decisions vs. control (ie. I have tendencies to go from one extreme to the next, with a negative effect on my mental health). So I think what I need to do is find a system that works for me, while allowing flexibility too.

I am a determined person. I also have incredible willpower, when I have set my mind to something. I know that this is something that I can achieve, and that it is something I want. I don’t want to feel bogged down, I want to fuel my body with food that gives me energy and nutrients.

Anyway, I’m just going to be posting here for some accountability, some rambling, some research, etc. I have come very far and achieved so much, I’m not going to let myself get stuck where I am. It’s about moving forward, every day. 

[moodymacabre]

Day 10. It’s easy to get down on yourself for not being where you think you “should” be. But as long as you’re making progress that’s all that matters. Take it one baby step at a time. Sometimes your motivation may wane, but when you push through and get it done those are the most rewarding moments. #latenightramblings #kyliedailyart #dailysketchbook #dailysketch #snail #snailfriends #motivationmonday #motivationalquotes #tombowdualbrushpens #tombow #micronpen https://www.instagram.com/p/B7StwXlhBNj/?igshid=1rj2l3wn5zzpy

[its-izzy-sunflower-blog]

Unoriginal and Mundane Insomnia

This is just here because it’s the 6th night in a row that I have had super bad insomnia! So much fun (as you can imagine) it has enabled me to binge watch so much so at least I can be grateful for that lol I’ve been trying to get my hands on a copy of ‘A Discovery of Witches’ from Waterstones but it was raining so much today in England and I didn’t have anything I could keep the book safe in so I left it xD

I finished watching Season 1 of The Society without realising that Season 2 isn’t out yet and I’m super bummed about it haha it’s so good, would recommend. 

I have also finished watch ‘The Order’ which I totally wish that it was based on a book because that would be great. There are so many series and movies that I wish had a book form as there are things that could probably be elaborated on in it. I watched ‘After the Dark’ AGES ago and the film left a lot to be desired... But I really thought if someone made that into a book it would actually have some major potential.

The ramblings of an exhausted person here but to be honest it’s kind of relaxing to just be chilling at this quiet hour and thinking of random things to watch or do... like possibly re-watching the Halloweentown movies in mid June because I can xD 

(The idea on this post is just posting when I kind of need to do something when the usual distraction tactics are feeling a little overused, not sure what I think about it yet but as I go I’ll improve and probably change what I do a million times before I find a ‘happy medium’ )

Btw dis is me with a yellow theme snapchat filter because I’m trash... Have a good night/ a good day

Yours Truly,

Unoriginal & Mundane :)

[westafricanlux]

Revamping my wardrobe and getting custom made suiting pieces to match the future me I’ve always envisioned as well as working towards a successful career path that was made possible through a social event I was invited to by my sdbf late last year. I opened my mouth, I said I wanted to do so and so and I knew he had connections in the industry I’m interested in. I had a spontaneous interview at the event when my sdbf connected me to the person I wanted to work with.

Future me works for herself, has ultimate financial freedom, lives care and stress free. Travels every other month and is married to a multi millionaire who will go to the ends of the earth to make sure she never has to stress about anything. This little steps I’m taking such as my wardrobe revamp and career path is leading me to that man. I’m grateful to the universe for bringing wealthy, generous and loving people into my life.

[fandomqueen10325]

Missing you tonight

Sitting here, I'm the dark

I feel so alone

There's no one here

To guide my soul

I am missing

Just a spark

...

I wander through the depths of my mind

Wondering where I went wrong

Why am I so broken, torn, I'm missing something, someone.

...

Tossing, turning, gripping, beating, I'm lying here, exhausted

My mind running a marathon

Sprinting it's way through

I wish it would just stop for once

Just let me forget

My troubles, worries and greatest fears, I want them all to rest

...

I'm sick and tired of the dark

I hate this hole I'm falling through

I want to see the light

Want you to hold me tight

And tell me it's all alright.

...

Sitting up now, sighing

They've all left

Taking hope with them

I want to break down and cry

I want to give up

I'm not the strong person you think I am

...

I miss you everyday

Blame myself

Hate myself

...

But what's done is done

It tears me up inside

Destroying me

Knowing that you don't care anymore, not enough to listen

...

I have so much to say

But I can't

Still trying to protect you,

I don't want to hurt you.

...

There is nothing I can do now

I've done my bit, tried somehow

Gathered what little strength I have

To put on a fake smile

...

I'm still falling down a dark hole

Quicker now that you've gone

I'm hurt, I've cried, not said goodbye

So I do the only thing I can

...

Sitting up

I reach over and turn them on

...

Fairy lights

...

Now the day is done

To help chase away the gloom

To bring light, hope and fill the hole

Left in the wake if your absence

With light

Even if it doesn't work, at least I've tried, right?

...

Sitting here, I'm in the light

I feel... so alone

There's no one here

To guide my soul

I am missing

You and you alone...

...

...

[cande-dooder]

Something I think needs to be said (rant, read if you want)

I saw two people who are big fans of David going at it on Twitter about people sexualizing their faves. Here’s where I stand on that: how you feel about someone is how you feel about someone. Publicizing those feelings if they’re sexual, if you and your fave are both of age, fine. If you or your fave are underage, it’s not a good idea to publicize it. You could probably get in legal trouble if either person is underage. I don’t think having sexual feelings towards someone (even if they’re famous) is wrong. If you feel that way you need to be extremely careful about how and if you publicize it.

Now, what I saw on Twitter regarding this made me upset. No matter what your feelings are about someone, we’re all in this fandom for the same reason, so can’t we all just be nice and respect one another’s feelings? If you don’t like someone else’s feelings about someone, don’t look at it. This twitter argument I saw could have 100% been avoided if those people would’ve just live and let live. Some of the sexual tweets that were referenced, no one was even tagged in.

Now, if your fave ever said themselves that seeing people sexualize them made them uncomfortable, then no matter what you feel, you should respect that, and not post that stuff. If you still need to write it out, open your notes app on your phone or get out a pen and paper and write it all out to your hearts desire.

As I stated before, how feel about your fave is how you feel, that’s just how it is. Just be mindful about posting about your feelings. Cause unfortunately someone out there will get offended, and plus, it’s the internet. Even if you delete it, people can still copy and paste or screenshot stuff.

[cande-dooder]

I feel weird

Sometimes I think about the fact that my blog is a fan page for David and my username is still my real name, basically, and I start to feel weird about it. It would make more sense to have a username related to what my posts are about, right? I have a few ideas for a new username (that I’m not going to say, so no one steals them) but if anyone thinks of one I might like, feel free to tell me in a message lol

[cande-dooder]

Idek really what this is but here is my thoughts I guess *a couple swears ahead*

Another porn blog liked a post of mine today and being that I’m very tired and my safe mode is on so it had a pixelated profile picture I got curious (have you ever heard that saying that goes, curiousity killed the cat but satisfaction brought him back) and my dumbass clicked on that profile. I scroll through and in addition to random guys on it, I kept finding male celebrities and youtubers. Then they reblogged some pictures of David. Why? He wears all black and never takes off his shirt so you can’t even see anything. All these other guys on this page were either in very tight boxers or were naked. Why were they posting pics of David like he doesn’t match that theme at all. And posting pics of celebs and youtubers is just kinda creepy in my opinion. Like fine if some random dude is consenting to that, go ahead, even though it’s fuckin weird. Do your thing. But leave these well known people out of it. They probably didn’t consent to their nudes being posted for the world to see.

[cande-dooder]

I just realized a week from now is when I’m going to the Views tour and meeting David! I’m so excited and I can hardly believe it’s actually happening! Like I’ve said before I’m also nervous but I’m trying my best to not think about that because that’s only going to ruin the experience

[cande-dooder]

Sometimes I wonder why random porn bot blogs follow me and interact with my posts on here. Like clearly I’m not into that stuff if they look at my posts or even my following list. Then I think, well I do have a fan page, not a personal blog and maybe they like YouTube. Who knows lol

[cande-dooder]

Fun fact

I don’t know if any of you have noticed it but I edit the pictures I use for my profile picture a certain way to make them unique and I make edits of new, good screenshots I get in case I want to change my profile picture on here