#latenightramblings

[doll-poetry]

Late Night Ramblings😌🧚🏽‍♀️ •also uploaded on my YT @DollsCreatives

[starsmuserainbow]

I really need to be physically active in some form. I absolutely, zero, don't wanna, but I very much should try to stop things from getting worse in regards to my body.

Thus, I'm once again making the plan to do physical things, yet I at least 99% surely know that it's gonna go the same as always - I'll stick with it for a little bit, be very unsatisfied with the exhaustion and the no-result (or no visible one at least), and give up. Probably within days, maximum weeks. Ugh.

[lizzieslifestyle]

Accountability

I had such an energetic, productive Saturday and then today I felt so bleh... and honestly, I think a large part of it came from eating just crappy food. We had some friends over Saturday and it was nachos, homemade cookies, chocolate, candy, etc. And this has quickly become the ‘norm’ for us on weekends. Through the week I eat relatively clean, with Wednesday being an exception for ‘take out’ Wednesday, but honestly even that is starting to be closer to a binge than a real meal. I’m just eating to eat. I wouldn’t say that I overeat to the point of discomfort as I once used to, but I’m certainly eating out of boredom and convenience at times.

I’ve been justifying it to myself, because I’m making progress (clothes are fitting better, I’m getting stronger/more endurance, etc. because I’m working out) but truly, I could feel so much better if I was making better choices about what’s going into my body.

I try to balance healthy decisions vs. control (ie. I have tendencies to go from one extreme to the next, with a negative effect on my mental health). So I think what I need to do is find a system that works for me, while allowing flexibility too.

I am a determined person. I also have incredible willpower, when I have set my mind to something. I know that this is something that I can achieve, and that it is something I want. I don’t want to feel bogged down, I want to fuel my body with food that gives me energy and nutrients.

Anyway, I’m just going to be posting here for some accountability, some rambling, some research, etc. I have come very far and achieved so much, I’m not going to let myself get stuck where I am. It’s about moving forward, every day. 

[moodymacabre]

Day 10. It’s easy to get down on yourself for not being where you think you “should” be. But as long as you’re making progress that’s all that matters. Take it one baby step at a time. Sometimes your motivation may wane, but when you push through and get it done those are the most rewarding moments. #latenightramblings #kyliedailyart #dailysketchbook #dailysketch #snail #snailfriends #motivationmonday #motivationalquotes #tombowdualbrushpens #tombow #micronpen https://www.instagram.com/p/B7StwXlhBNj/?igshid=1rj2l3wn5zzpy

[its-izzy-sunflower-blog]

Unoriginal and Mundane Insomnia

This is just here because it’s the 6th night in a row that I have had super bad insomnia! So much fun (as you can imagine) it has enabled me to binge watch so much so at least I can be grateful for that lol I’ve been trying to get my hands on a copy of ‘A Discovery of Witches’ from Waterstones but it was raining so much today in England and I didn’t have anything I could keep the book safe in so I left it xD

I finished watching Season 1 of The Society without realising that Season 2 isn’t out yet and I’m super bummed about it haha it’s so good, would recommend. 

I have also finished watch ‘The Order’ which I totally wish that it was based on a book because that would be great. There are so many series and movies that I wish had a book form as there are things that could probably be elaborated on in it. I watched ‘After the Dark’ AGES ago and the film left a lot to be desired... But I really thought if someone made that into a book it would actually have some major potential.

The ramblings of an exhausted person here but to be honest it’s kind of relaxing to just be chilling at this quiet hour and thinking of random things to watch or do... like possibly re-watching the Halloweentown movies in mid June because I can xD 

(The idea on this post is just posting when I kind of need to do something when the usual distraction tactics are feeling a little overused, not sure what I think about it yet but as I go I’ll improve and probably change what I do a million times before I find a ‘happy medium’ )

Btw dis is me with a yellow theme snapchat filter because I’m trash... Have a good night/ a good day

Yours Truly,

Unoriginal & Mundane :)

[westafricanlux]

Revamping my wardrobe and getting custom made suiting pieces to match the future me I’ve always envisioned as well as working towards a successful career path that was made possible through a social event I was invited to by my sdbf late last year. I opened my mouth, I said I wanted to do so and so and I knew he had connections in the industry I’m interested in. I had a spontaneous interview at the event when my sdbf connected me to the person I wanted to work with.

Future me works for herself, has ultimate financial freedom, lives care and stress free. Travels every other month and is married to a multi millionaire who will go to the ends of the earth to make sure she never has to stress about anything. This little steps I’m taking such as my wardrobe revamp and career path is leading me to that man. I’m grateful to the universe for bringing wealthy, generous and loving people into my life.

[fandomqueen10325]

Missing you tonight

Sitting here, I'm the dark

I feel so alone

There's no one here

To guide my soul

I am missing

Just a spark

...

I wander through the depths of my mind

Wondering where I went wrong

Why am I so broken, torn, I'm missing something, someone.

...

Tossing, turning, gripping, beating, I'm lying here, exhausted

My mind running a marathon

Sprinting it's way through

I wish it would just stop for once

Just let me forget

My troubles, worries and greatest fears, I want them all to rest

...

I'm sick and tired of the dark

I hate this hole I'm falling through

I want to see the light

Want you to hold me tight

And tell me it's all alright.

...

Sitting up now, sighing

They've all left

Taking hope with them

I want to break down and cry

I want to give up

I'm not the strong person you think I am

...

I miss you everyday

Blame myself

Hate myself

...

But what's done is done

It tears me up inside

Destroying me

Knowing that you don't care anymore, not enough to listen

...

I have so much to say

But I can't

Still trying to protect you,

I don't want to hurt you.

...

There is nothing I can do now

I've done my bit, tried somehow

Gathered what little strength I have

To put on a fake smile

...

I'm still falling down a dark hole

Quicker now that you've gone

I'm hurt, I've cried, not said goodbye

So I do the only thing I can

...

Sitting up

I reach over and turn them on

...

Fairy lights

...

Now the day is done

To help chase away the gloom

To bring light, hope and fill the hole

Left in the wake if your absence

With light

Even if it doesn't work, at least I've tried, right?

...

Sitting here, I'm in the light

I feel... so alone

There's no one here

To guide my soul

I am missing

You and you alone...

...

...

[cande-dooder]

Something I think needs to be said (rant, read if you want)

I saw two people who are big fans of David going at it on Twitter about people sexualizing their faves. Here’s where I stand on that: how you feel about someone is how you feel about someone. Publicizing those feelings if they’re sexual, if you and your fave are both of age, fine. If you or your fave are underage, it’s not a good idea to publicize it. You could probably get in legal trouble if either person is underage. I don’t think having sexual feelings towards someone (even if they’re famous) is wrong. If you feel that way you need to be extremely careful about how and if you publicize it.

Now, what I saw on Twitter regarding this made me upset. No matter what your feelings are about someone, we’re all in this fandom for the same reason, so can’t we all just be nice and respect one another’s feelings? If you don’t like someone else’s feelings about someone, don’t look at it. This twitter argument I saw could have 100% been avoided if those people would’ve just live and let live. Some of the sexual tweets that were referenced, no one was even tagged in.

Now, if your fave ever said themselves that seeing people sexualize them made them uncomfortable, then no matter what you feel, you should respect that, and not post that stuff. If you still need to write it out, open your notes app on your phone or get out a pen and paper and write it all out to your hearts desire.

As I stated before, how feel about your fave is how you feel, that’s just how it is. Just be mindful about posting about your feelings. Cause unfortunately someone out there will get offended, and plus, it’s the internet. Even if you delete it, people can still copy and paste or screenshot stuff.

[dragonfirejewellery]

There always seems to be a lot of Lurkers on social media. 👀 People who are always there but don't like, share or comment on anything. I would like to think this is algorithms not showing posts to everyone but sometimes I think people just like to see what ya doing and for their own reasons don't interact. 😘 Sometimes I wonder if anyone is out there, it's like shouting into the abyss of Social Media and hoping someone is out there other than bots! 🤣🤣 #mood #LateNightRamblings #thoughtsaftermidnight #must #go #to #bed #latenightwonderings (at Bexhill, East Sussex) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWuGNCqIZbn/?utm_medium=tumblr

[arwenstarsong]

So I have been asked by some people who ask about my bachelors degree in acting: why did you quit acting? So here's the answer. I always had a love for theater. And I did it since I was a kid. I went thru all the rehearsals and practices thinking I was amazing at acting, but when I got to college, shit changed. When i ditched my forensics degree for theater, I imagined myself singing in Opera. That was my true desire. Then I realized I was in the wrong majoe, but I tried for theatre anyways. I tried for many different shows. Many times my professors would ask "are you absolutely SURE this is what you want?" Because I just never seemed to be great at it. I would try directive advice and I could never get it right. When it came to opera, it was no problem. I was in the ensemble and caught on to the music quick. Same with learning any music, tbh. But with theatre, I could never compete with my amazing and talented classmates. I could not even befriend anyone properly because I was too reclused. And i commend them for doing #acting because acting is a challenge for sure. It demands physical and mental perfection. I have neither of these things. One teacher even went as far as to tell me that no matter how much I practice or get better, no one will cast me because I am not pretty enough for a lead or ugly enough to be a funny character. After that piece of advice, I stopped trying. I finished my degree. But I never pursued. Part of me wants to try again, but I am pretty jaded. I would much rather write my metal music or sing in an opera. What about you guys? Has something ever driven you away from a dream? #arwenstarsong #metalmusic #metalvocalist #storytime #goth #gothfashion #lifestory #latenightramblings #acting #mylifeasanactor #actorlife (at Lennar at Riverstone) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnQWO6ZBww4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=sg51yitnzx3z

[iamriyabasu]

Here are some of my selfies that i am posting for no reason @ 12 am kyunki neend nhi aa ri wtf Last one is my fav tho Who all are awake btw 😂 Tell me I’m not the only one with a fucked up sleeping schedule these days 🌝 #latenightramblings #selfiemaeneliliaaj #selfiesaturday #selfportrait #curlygirl #igpodium_portraits #expressionistart https://www.instagram.com/p/CDmUZQoJ20q/?igshid=1x2wzpwmeavih

[doll-poetry]

New episode is up & peep the announcement🤗🌸

[stormyfayethechristianrunaway]

Stormy Faye The Christian Runaway Everyday people preach on how girls should grow up to be great wives and mothers and how to love, respect, and support a man/husband. There's a lot of wives in waiting. Or who's hope has died. I feel sad for those women who married only to discover that their spouse was in name only. We have a generation or two of males who love the benefits of sex, the chest beating pride of knowing they fathered another one, and minimal real interest in being a friend to those he pursues, a husband, or a father. #ISawAQuoteThatCaughtMyAttention#MarkMooreJrQuote #MarkMoore #DontDMMeImNotATherapist #ISayThings #TheGramAfterDark #ThinkingOutLoud #LateNightRamblings #FaithForTheJourney @stormy_faye StormyFaye.com Use this link when you shop: https://stormy-faye-llc.myshopify.com/collections/all https:// stormyfayethechristianrunaway.tumblr.com/ #StormyFayeTheChristianRunaway #May24th2020 https://www.instagram.com/p/CAj3feLJ_RR/?igshid=99xlk5ytov82

[aggalos]

Pay Me No Mind

I hate that I'm losing interest in people but the pursuit of financial stability is becoming my sole driving force. "You lose money chasing women, never lose women chasing money" I hate that those words ring true but I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that even though I find solace in companionship, at this distinct point in my life, relationships are nothing more than a hindrance that forces me off of the beaten path.

[mars-626]

LATE NIGHT RAMBLE:

Ok since I'm back on my OTH kick.... I was curious if there was a certain fic that exists...

So I've always been intrigued about what if both Brooke and Peyton were pregnant with Lucas' baby and how the past can be learned from ie the kids grew up not hating each other (ALSO NEITHER BROOKE NOR PEYTON ARE EVIL OR CRAZY.... I have come to love BOTH characters and not just one. Damn it is kind of hard to find a fic where one isn't crazy in that plotline lol)

Ever since rewatching OTH alongside the Drama Queens podcast I've begain to see characters in a new perspective. And with Sophia and Hilarie saying that Brooke and Peyton were the true love story; I can't help but now want to see a fic where both girls have a kid with Lucas BUT PLOT TWIST: BREYTON ends up together

Anyone know a fic like that or want to write it? 😅 (you can even make it friends to enemies to friends to lovers) Slowly making my way aboard the Breyton Ship 😅

[chasingsakina]

14/27•#TheRamadanSeries ✍🏽 - #wordprompt : #family _ I wanted to illustrate in this piece that as much as I agree to an extent w/the saying ‘you can’t pour from an empty cup’, many of us i’m sure - have been in situations when we’ve been at an all time low with no place to go and yet we’ve still managed to give to others??? how??? i hear the question bells ringing! . . Even when we feel the emptiest we’ve ever felt, we are often surprised by our own capabilities, admitting, ‘i don’t know how i did such & such but i did’ and that just goes to show - the One in control of everything knows how capable you’re - far more than even YOU think you know yourselves to be. He’s got your back even when you feel like there’s nobody else by your side. He’s always been there since day 1, whether we choose to acknowledge it or not and will forever be the constant, till the end of time & beyond ✨ PS: hope i made some sense? 🙈🙊 . . . . . . #chasingsakina / #ramadanreflections / #abstractphotography / #latenightramblings / #poetsandwriters / #cardiffarchitecture / #roathpark / #canoneos100d / #canonphotography / #amwriting / #embracingchange / #fightingperfectionism / #poetsofinstagram / #writersofig / #writingdaily / #writingcommunity / #blueaesthetic / #tumblraesthetic / #ramadan2019 / #islamicreminder / #reminderformyself https://www.instagram.com/p/BxeTL7iAAPp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=zh8lzwdodgjg