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[katthesl00t]

Days of productivity :21/100

summation is hard

Jonathan Roxmouth is honestly boosting my willpower to live

Listening to : Being Alive -Jonathan Roxmouth

[katthesl00t]

Days of productivity :22/100

Falling in love with too many songs!!!

Listening to: Memory - Elaine Page

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Days of productivity :26/100

Making chem notes for the first time in a whole year! Went around asking A level blogs on how they cope and study sooooo trying out writing notes!

Btw gcse kids this is how I got through my O's sOoooOoo ;)

[katthesl00t]

days of productivity :18/100?

i literally just put my notes on the table and was ready to start mugging when my dad knocked on the door and was like :"eyyyyyy lets go out to eat! :D"

so of course,

i switched off the lights and went to have a lovely meal with my parents :)

[katthesl00t]

Days of productivity :19/100!

I've been sleeping early and waking up at like 4.30am but I'm feeling pretty good!

Got an Underpass for Chemistry AND I've got to finish my revision package because of that :'(

Hopefully I can catch up on my Chemistry!!!

square up July because I'm making a COMEBACK

Listening to: Beneath a Moonless Sky-Love Never Dies

[katthesl00t]

Days of productivity :16/100?

Hahah haven't been updating my days of productivity because honestly I just started getting back on it?

Listening to: GeniusBrain podcast- Living with social anxiety

I don't really know, was really in the slumps this past week but welp mid years are coming way too soon

sighpie honestly i dont know why im doing this but I uh listened to this podcast and Joe reminded me of smt-you can control your life, yes you're going to be in the slumps that's understandable, yes you're going to feel frustrated but that's all a part and parcel of life! We are so fixated on the idea that we have to be perfect 24/7 but that ain't living bro. We should never feel guilty for feeling something other than happiness, we shouldn't feel as if we're weak or worse off than someone else! You're!! Not!! Weak!!!

If you think you're all alone, know that you're not

Even if you don't remember, there's someone out there who loves you and cares for you even though they don't know how to help you right now

Everyday is a new day, a new day to be better than you were

Don't ever think that you have to square up to society's standards, take things at your own pace and never compare yourself to others alright?

[katthesl00t]

Days of productivity :13/100 oof i havent been updating i swear ive been doing work

Hahah currently waiting for my group interview to be the president of my CCA uwu i hope i dont freeze up

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Days of productivity :12/100

Questionably healthy lunch+dinner omg i need to nOt eat so much at a go idk why but i was HUNGRY i ate 2 eggs 2.5 bread slices sm cheese and a whole can of tuna what is this i havent felt this full in awhile? i feel kinda goodbut also a lil gross???? also my weight managed to drop a lil more! at the start of the year i was at my heaviest at 62.0kg and now it's 58.8kg! Im really happy about that :) honestly, the first 2kg was probably because i wasnt eating right when sch began and thats distasteful (literally) idk why but recently ive been eating more and getting a better appetite? haha maybe its cuz I've been a lil happier and praying a lil harder i hope i can rebuild my faith again hahah maybe then i can be more at peace with myself

idk sometimes i feel bad when i look at my health and appearance, it's not where i want it to be yet but im trying to find time to make it happen

maybe when i get there ill have a lot more confidence in myself and i can be

Better

Also today i read some phantom of the opera in the car and on the bus ride home! Ahhh they're coming to perform in my hometown tomorrow but i didn't manage to buy the tickets!! :( so now I'm just blasting phantom of the opera music hahahah

I was walking home with a pair of headphones today and honestly it made me realise how little self confidence i had and how self conscious i am, i kept thinking"omg nobody does this its so bulky and people are probably staring and wondering why is some girl wearing headphones" and honestly reflecting on it? People probably did NOT care and they really shouldn't, I've just got to be a lil less paranoid at people's judgement.

Tbh I hate that I'm like this

I just want to be more outspoken and embrace how my body looks and feel better about myself

[katthesl00t]

Today's haul :D

Got some fly sunglasses at 3 for $10 oof one of the nose things fell off so I've got to get a replacement for that

AND I got Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them from Kinokuniya for $8!!! WHAT A STEAL

Honestly today has been the best days I've ever had in awhile considering all the stress I've been under. This week was a trying week but I'm ready to get the grind on :>

[katthesl00t]

I'M SUPPOSED TO SLEEP BUT HOW CAN I WHEN RESIDENT EVIL IS ON

[katthesl00t]

Days of productivity :10/100? Hahah i forgot

Guess who's procrastinating at math tuition? It me!!! HAHAH I gave up on the question oof

Thank goodness for good friday it should be called GREAT Friday because it's giving me some sort of reprieve to breathe a lil and meet up with some old friends :3

[katthesl00t]

Days of productivity : 7/100

Reading the Phantom of the Opera and honestly it's so good I love it

I hate that I was looking forward to reading it at the end of the week but I guess the sad times caught up to me

Hasn't been a productive week for me sigh

Making big decisions

Hope I don't regret them

[katthesl00t]

30.05.19

SO GUYS I WENT TO WATCH THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA

It is such an understatement to say that it was the best moment of my lifetime. I had the best time there. Honestly, I was smiling the whole 3 hours I was there. My whole life is fulfilled. Jonathan Roxmouth played the phantom and I couldn't have asked for more! I watched the 2004 Phantom of the Opera the night before and omg Jonathan sounded kinda like Gerard Butler??? BUT of course his voice was a lot fuller it's just that the level of his voice was quite similar to Gerard's and omg I thought Gerard was my fav Phantom GUESS WHAT

I thought wRONG

Jonathan no doubt is my favourite phantom, he was literally made for that role. The pitch of his voice, how he could manipulate it to be so dolce and soft and go so sTRONG AND LOUD and his voice was just so RICH ugHhagqgahsjd I love him very much he will have a very special place in my heart.

Omg I know that singing during a musical/play is the worst thing you could ever do so I literally just lip synCED everyone was so talented and great and I GOT THE FRONT ROW SEATS AGH AND I SAW AN UNTERVIEW OF THE CAST AN THEY WERE LIKE oh yeah oh yeah we can see the front row really clearly :O AgH I hope they didn't think I was singing along with them because like hey man that's rude

And oWO THAT SCENE

That scENE WHERE CHRISTING FIRST TEARS OF THE PHANTOM'S MASK UHGDHEHWHWJQK

Hello maAm that is my emOTIONAL SUPPORT MASK

Jonathan was so good at acting istg

Honestly? Wig s n a t c h e d (literally for the phantom)

I was so happy to be sitting at the front row I could hear and see EVERYTHING

I really learnt a lot about musicals and plays that day, I admire that so much thought was put into a single play to just display such greatness??? Like dude mr webber how did you think of all these things??? IT WAS SO SMART OF THE DIRECTORS TO PLAY AROUND WITH THE MATERIAL OF THE CURTAINS AND HOW THEY PLAYED WITH LIGHTS TO SHOW HOW THE PHANTOM IS IN THE MIRROR yo it was the best

EVERYTHING MOVED SO SMOOTHLY AND DIDNT MISS A BEAT AND THE PROPS oh man the pROPS (bravissima) THE ANGEL STATUE AND THE PHANTOM COULD STAND ON IT :O The bOAT?? WHO COULD FORGET THE BOAT AND THE RAILING THINGY THAT COULD MOVE UP AND DOWN SO THAT IT SHOWED HOW DEEP INTO THE LAIR THEY WERE GOING OMGOSH :') i was honestly in tears when the first note was played afsgdhfjfk

Also im paying too much attention to the phantom (BUT IT'S THE ATTENTION HE NEEDS)

everyone was so talented

This one musical had every element, thrill, comedy, romance, mAGIC???? WHO COULD ASK FOR MORE

Oh yeah a fuLL PLAYLIST WHICH IS A WHOLE BOP

I love la carlotta, piangi, andre and richard for providing all of the comedy relief :D they were so funny they had me cACKLING

Raoul???? Omg that night, Alexander Mendoza played and like he just debuted a little while ago and my goodness, Shane Dawson is that you?? I'm kidding, Raoul was so handsome and charming and A LITTLE CHAP HONESTLY HE WAS SO WHOLESOME AGH (also at many some angles he looked like Jack from Supernatural) when he and Christine sang All that I ask of you

hMNhgagejwkw yes

YES

I love my wholesome couple

ALSO i cant figure out the last magic trick they had

ALSOALSO at the start after christing tears off the Phantom's mask and he sang Stranger than you dreamt it

HDJAAKLQQL

HE HAD ME IN TEARS

THE RAW EMOTION

The acCENTS THAT HE NAILED PERFECTLY AND THE LIL STACCATOS AGHHHHHHHHH

honestly the phantom of the opera just made me fall in love with music again

The shAME THAT JONATHAN ROXMOUTH HAD OMG he was literally squirming on the floor and from the front row, i could hear the floor burns. If that ain't passion, nothing is.

Jonathan nailed everything. how he switched from the staccatos to legatos and switched it back into a whisper like voice, and also with so much emotion??? I COULD FEEL THE BITTERNESS IN HIS VOICE, THE ANGUISH AND SORROW UGSHHHH that was the point where i had tears in my eyes, i was so ready to cry but i had to be strong for mother

That was the most impactful scene for me and I really don't want to forget even a second of this musical

loved the very first scene where the orchestra blasted the intro and i didnt expect it and i nearly went deaf but yknow its worth it for the phantom of the opera

I really hope i get to meet the same cast again in the future :D

I thought Ramin Karimloo would be my fav musical phantom but boi was i mistaken. Guess god had oTHER PLANS AND IM LOVING IT

Basically I just proclaimed my love for him and he said my message was bEAUTIFUL AGH

I never want to forget this moment in my life

I bought the ticket a whole month before the date of the play and I'm so glad I got Jonathan Roxmouth as the phantom honestly i lucked out that day.

This musical was the only thing that got me through school and all my sad times and I'm so grateful, really I am. I wish I had the guts to go backstage or smt and meet the cast and thank them and hug Jonathan because I would've cried for him :')

I love this musical so much, I hope I get to see them again :D

[katthesl00t]

ONE. LAST. BOOK.

I need the last addition to complete my wheel of time book collection

I bought the first half of the first book on accident at kinokuniya oof

Maybe I should buy myself the premium hardcover edition of the 14th book if I pass my promotions this year

Listening to : CdawgVA videos