#lady clef angst coming your way

[nonsensepond]

Not so fun fact about Lady Clef: Lady Clef has a complicated relationship with her real name (that ties into her complicated relationship with her inner child honestly). She only goes by her stage name (Lady Clef) and her last name (Norvellaire), but never by her first name (Madeleine). It’s practically a deadname to her. The reason for this is that she associates that name with her past and her past self, the trophy child Madeleine of the Norvellaires. She refuses to associate herself with her past.

(Yappadeedoodas under the cut)

But she hated being Madeleine, for that was the girl who had to be perfect for everyone and make everyone happy except for herself. And even with her efforts, they were always unhappy with something about her. It was an impossible task, yet they didn’t understand that. She got hurt no matter how hard she tried to fulfill how they wanted her to be. There was simply no right answer. But Lady Clef is a woman who learned the rules of the game, even if it meant that she had to be cruel like they were to her. Cruelty is nothing when everyone’s cheating their way across the board. She wasn’t frightful and obedient. She was the one who was feared, yet desired. She was the one who they wanted to please, yet nothing they do will be enough for her (or at least not for a long time).

She wants nothing to do with that girl, but she just can’t quite kill her. So she just lives locked up in the depths of her being. She’s tired of listening, but she won’t usually say a word if she tells her to stay quiet. Otherwise, she ignores her. It’s not like that’s anything new to her anyways. It doesn’t hurt as much when it’s habit. Plus, she did always prefer the solitude type punishments over the verbal and physical ones anyway. Suppose that’s just her own way of treating her a little better.

If anyone found out about her first name, and dared to use it, they were never seen again. The only people who still call her Madeleine are her parents, but she chooses not to talk to them much anymore. They treat her much better now that she’s famous, but that doesn’t really feel any better. She could have killed them off as well, but there’s too much that goes into that, and it requires a lot of interactions with them. It’s best if she just treats them as strangers.