#lack of nutrients.....like why are you telling me this i literally don't care they only know i don't eat meat bc i'm listed as one

[junipercastor]

i like star trek but i hate that a lot of the episodes underlying messages seem to be "if you arent normal by human standards and cant fit into human society then you don't belong with us" even if the abnormal entity in question lives on a planet that is like barren of life or theyre the only human living there amongst incorporeal aliens.

spoilers/yap sesh V

urghhh i will never get over the charlie x episode like as a person with communication issues he reminded me so much of myself in adolescence, like he was just scared and angry and alone. -__- he could have been rehabilitated into society even if he had destructive powers. and as a matter of fact so could have the blonde lady from the pilot, like yeah she was aged and disfigured from a plane crash. yes shes old and disabled, theres still a place on the ship for her as well. she didn't have to stay behind just because she was no longer attractive by human standards. and also the poor alien from episode 2, why did the enterprise members have to destroy it?? the archaeologist that took care of it was literally trying to tell them it was an intelligent creature, they knew what the alien needed to live yet they just killed it because it killed their crew for nutrients. it didnt have human morals and it was starving :(

i like star trek so far i find it entertaining!!! but the journey of the ship is so shallow to me, just exploration? they could be rehabilitating or helping all of the entities that have asked for help. but no. well in my mind i am imagining there is a rescue ship that rescues people and helps them u____u ALSO any good anthropologist knows that you dont just touch down and visit for a day, you live amongst the people of the area and learn their ways and customs and take part in the preservation and upkeep of their community.

ok also, also, i understand that mr. spock is like a super logical dude but by his own logical standards, does he just not care that the humans dont see him as a 100% equal and that he could potentially be subjected to this type of disregard hes seen displayed for other 'aliens'? in mind spock is the humans equal but theyre ever presently bemused by his seeming lack of emotion. maybe vulcans are just so similar to humans that it doesnt matter to spock? maybe they have the same values? he seems just as bemused by their amount of emotional display.

Tldr any Of This: This show is definetly a product of the 60s lol

[thru-the-looking-glass-caroline]

I hate when people ask when I am having kids [it's complicated]

⚠️Preface/warning: the content of this post will touch on issues having to do with infertility and having or not having children so if that is a sensitive or upsetting topic for you I would ask that you please take care of yourself and do not continue reading this. And as always I want to be clear I am not a doctor or nurse or mental health professional so everything posted here is purely my experience and opinions with the input of people I know personally and from doctors and therapists I see currently or have seen before. I do some research on my own but again I have no degree! You've been warned ⚠️

Some of you might be aware if you follow my main Tumblr page that on April 2, 2024 my sister in law, Caitlyn and my brother Liam welcomed their daughter and son into the world (they are twins). I can't tell you how much my niece Marley and nephew Pressley mean to me...they are so loved by the entire family! With the joy of the new additions to the family comes well-meaning (for the most part) people who use the opportunity to ask when am I having kids and when I say simply that I am not having kids because I don't want to people like to almost argue with me to get me to change my answer. Now, is it true that I don't want kids? Yes, from the time I was a little girl I knew I did not want to be a mom and that has not ever changed. I think 'I don't want to' should be reason enough but what many don't understand is there are many reasons for me not having kids...

I am not and can not have kids because I am completely infertile/sterile. Anorexia and orthorexia caused a lot of damage to my body. I struggled with these eating disorders from about the age of 6 or 7 all the way until I was 15. I am 18 now and have not ever had a period. my reproductive organs are, for lack of a better word, broken. They called it quits. It is doctor confirmed that I can not have children. I think this is a big reason why broaching the topic of children with women should be a topic left for the woman to bring up because infertility is very difficult for women. There are so many woman who struggle with the desire for children but are not able to have them. I wish infertility only happened to someone such as myself who already didn't want kids of her own. I hope if you are reading this and struggle with infertility you know how much I would like to take that for you so that you could have the children you want!

My health issues also would make it very risky for me and baby if I were able to get pregnant. I have hyperthyroidism and malabsorption syndrome and among other things that means my body does not process and absorb nutrients correctly. With out medication I could eat and eat and still literally waste away and die of starvation. Pregnancy poses a huge risk because my body would then need to also provide nutrition to baby and odds are me and baby both would become extremely ill, malnourished, and vitamin and mineral deficient and one or both of us could die. There is also the issue of medication that complicates things if I were able to get pregnant. At least one of my thyroid medications I could not take while pregnant and my heart medication I would not be able to take while pregnant. I simply would not survive without the medication and therefore I can not have kids.

The final reason is a lot to do with my mental health and how that effects my relationships. To put it simply I struggle with relationships of any kind. I struggle with showing and expressing affection of any kind. This is at least in part because of my struggle with reactive attachment disorder and post traumatic stress disorder. I am better in relationships with my parents, brothers, my aunt and 2 cousins than I use to be and that was after a lot of work and treatment and family therapy and home visits and all kinds of things. I do not want to bring an innocent child in to the world and potentially mentally and emotionally harm them because I don't connect well and I don't show affection. A child deserves parents who nurture and hug and love and adore them. I am not the kind of person that could consistently give those things to a child...it sounds horrible and I work and receive therapy and support to continue to improve these issues but that is where I am at. I'm NOT saying that everyone with reactive attachment disorder or PTSD is unfit to be a mother or parent. I am only saying that for me and me alone I don't think I would be the mother a child deserves.

So there you have it...

Those are, in short, my reasons for not having kids but again I feel like I don't want kids should be reason enough. It really gets under my skin when I tell people I am not having kids because I don't want them and they say "oh you'll regret not having kids when you're older." Or "Don't you want to give grand babies to your parents?" And "Oh but don't you want to be a mom?" As if my gender and being female means I simply can't be happy or live a full filling life if I don't have kids. What if I went around telling pregnant women "you'll regret having kids when you're older" simply because I personally don't want them? That would be terrible, rude and insensitive right? So why should the opposite be acceptable? Guess what? My parents are totally fine with the fact that I won't be giving them any grand children... it's fine.

Anyway I am sorry if this is a little bit more like me ranting because I don't believe people have any bad intentions in asking me and making some comments. My heart goes out to anyone who does want children and struggles with infertility...I so wish I could take that for you. I hope this post didn't cross the line...I am not trying to upset anyone at all!

Thanks for hearing me out.