#l.o.v.e. machine

[doyourememberrocknrollradio]

W.A.S.P - L.O.V.E. Machine

[transfemme-shelterdog]

since you do that queer metal archive thing, maybe you recommend some kinda romantic songs from the genre? i have a hard time finding songs like that.

Oh lord, romance isn't really common in metal lol. Usually it involves rape or mutulation, but it does exist! Here's 100 songs off the top of my head, in no real order

Life Eternal - Ghost (not technically metal, but it's close enough, and is actually myself and my husband's song)

Umbra - Ghost (again, not metal, but it's sexy as fuck)

Mary on a Cross - Ghost

Walk With me in Hell - Lamb of God

Valentine - Xandria

Love You to Death - Type O Negative

Girl in the Slayer Jacket - Pig Destroyer

A Gothic Romance - Cradle of Filth

Face of Melinda - Opeth

Black Goddess Rises - Cradle of Filth

In My Dreams - Dark Funeral

Anesthesia - Type O Negative

In Love - Grave

Day Tripper (Beatles cover) - Type O Negative

Lavatory Love Machine - Edguy

Blood & Fire - Type O Negative

Kemisk kärlek - Apati

Ruptured Heart Theory - Eyehategod

Requiem Aeternum - Dødheimsgard

Bloody Kisses (A Death In The Family) - Type O Negative

Suffer in Silence - So Much for Nothing

My Sweet Mystery - The Dark Element

You're in Love - Ratt

Christian Woman - Type O Negative

For the God Below - Shining

House of Sleep - Amorphis

Cinnamon Girl - Type O Negative

Libertine Dissolves - Deafhaven

L.O.V.E. Machine - W.A.S.P

I Will Build You A Rome - Cain's Offering

These Nights Were Ours - Lantlôs

My Girlfriend's Girlfriend - Type O Negative

Falling in Love - Scorpions

I Love (To Hurt You) - Lifelover

You Feel Like Memories - Lantlôs

You dance like the June sky - Sadness

Glint - Deafhaven

Nettie - Type O Negative - Type O Negative

Love Zone - Iron Maiden

Dream House - Deafhaven

September Sun - Type O Negative

All Nights Belong to You - Constellatia

Limitless - Amaranthe

Forever Night Castle of Love - Këkht Aräkh

Where the Wild Wind Blows - Iron Maiden

The Plunderer - Ved Buens Ende

Unsuccessfully Coping With The Natural Beauty Of Infidelity - Type O Negative

Right Here in My Arms - HIM

How Could She? - Type O Negative

Lovegaze - Violet Cold

N.I.B - Black Sabbath

September Bloom - Sadness

Set Me On Fire - Type O Negative

Always - Killswitch Engage

Summer Breeze - Type O Negative

Mama I'm Coming Home - Ozzy Osborne

White Angels - At the Lake

Die With Me - Type O Negative

Abigail - Happy Days

Together as One - Death

Manchmal Wenn Sie Schläft - Nargaroth

Das Tränenmeer - Brocken Moon

A Dead Poem - Rotting Christ

Haunted - Type O Negative

She Loves You - Left Alone

Rasluka - Nargaroth

Symphony of Life - Avantasia

House of God - King Diamond

Somewhere - Sadness

Wolf Moon (Including Zoanthropic Paranoia) - Type O Negative

Magic - King Diamond

Pyretta Blaze - Type O Negative

Triarchy of the Lost Lovers - Rotting Christ

Tillsammans Är Vi Allt - Shining

Blomman af mitt hjärta, blomman på din grav - Sorhin

I Want to Be With You - Sadness

Love Me Like You’d Love the Death - Forgotten Tomb

ily (I love you) - Sadness

Sommer - Nargaroth

En fägrad kärlek; en vissnad begivenhet - Livsnekad

The most beautiful girl in the world - Sadness

From Now (Till The Time Were Still) - So Hideous

The Scarlet Mask - Stream of Passion

Nothing Stands in Our Way - Lacuna Coil

Seven Tears Are Flowing To The River - Nargaroth

After Dark I Feel - Rotting Christ

Bitch in Black - Solstafir

The Wolf and the Raven - Firienholt

Let Me Love You - Kobra and the Lotus

You Are the Scars - Harakiri for the Sky

We Met During the Revolution - Violet Cold

My Love - Saahrg

Love - Cellar Darling

Blood is Thicker Than Water - Impaled Nazarene

Her Ghost Haunts These Walls - Nocturnal Depression 

Jag älskar Dig - Apati

Scathanna Wept - Bleak Existence

Lumiere Enfermée - Angel of Suicide

Lovesick for Mina - Cradle of Filth

Ring of Gold - Bathory

[mmyaas-psychoword]

I LOVE this song!!

[ghostradiodylan]

It's karaoke night. What songs do you think each of the hacketteers would sing?

I love this ask and I spent entirely too long thinking about it! Thank you!

Nick: “American Girl” - Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers. He’ll dedicate this one to Abi and play a whole lot of clumsy but enthusiastic air guitar during the instrumental breaks. He’ll also do really on-the-nose inside joke choices like “Werewolves of London” by Warren Zevon (he'll change 'London' to 'Melbourne' because he's really lame) or “Once Bitten, Twice Shy” by Great White.

Emma: “Style” - Taylor Swift. She just reads as a Taylor girlie to me and this one’s a classic. She could do "We Are Never Getting Back Together" but Jacob might cry. So, "Style" it is. Not too tough in range and it doesn’t require her to do the cringey rap-talking part she’d have to do if she picked “Shake It Off” (although that one would also be fun and maybe if Abi gets drunk enough she’ll join Emma onstage and do that part for her).

Jacob: he wants to pick “Don’t Stop Believin’” by Journey but it has been banned because basic bitches like him just keep singing it. If he’s still moping about Emma, he might choose “Somebody to Love” by Queen. If someone else gets to it first, then it’s The Killers' “Mr. Brightside” all the way until the bar bans that one too.

Kaitlyn: she almost always picks a song you can scream-sing to. She has some rage to get out, okay? Her go-to is either "I Love Rock 'n' Roll" by Joan Jett or "You Oughta Know" by Alanis Morissette. If you get enough alcohol in her for her to get in her feelings though, she might do Bonnie Tyler's "Total Eclipse of the Heart," as a treat.

Laura: "Dog Days are Over" - Florence + The Machine. Is that another werewolf joke? Yes, yes it is. She can't help being overjoyed to say goodbye to the (meat)dog days. She'd probably also absolutely crush "Help I'm Alive" by Metric.

Max: I will never recover from the post that said Max and Dylan would know every step from the JustDance version of “Rasputin” by Boney M (which I think is completely correct) so I’m picking that one for Max. However, if he gets a second song or he’s feeling extremely sentimental, he might do the Michael Bublé version of “L.O.V.E.” for Laura.

Abi: I think Abi's actual musical listening tastes might be a little moodier than this, but for karaoke she wants it light and easy, and it doesn't get much lighter or easier than ABBA. "Dancing Queen" or "Mamma Mia." She'd really like it if Emma would come sing backup for her so she doesn't have to go up by herself.

Dylan: He never does the same song twice; he wants everyone to be surprised every time. He's done Lady Gaga's "Poker Face. He's done "I Write Sins Not Tragedies" by Panic! At the Disco." He's done Katy Perry's "Teenage Dream." Tonight, it's "Still Into You" by Paramore.

Ryan: He can't believe he got talked into this. Ryan hates attention and doesn't really love the sound of his own voice. He would prefer to sit quietly and watch everyone else perform. Beer won't be enough, Ryan will have to drink an entire pitcher of LITs to be drunk enough to sing. Then he will sing "Love You Madly" by CAKE and absolutely slay. Dylan will be facedown on their table pretending to have fainted when he gets back.

Bonus: Duets!

Laura and Max have perfected their version of “Don’t Go Breaking My Heart” by Elton John and Kiki Dee. You should really see it. There’s choreo and everything.

Jacob and Kaitlyn will sing "I Believe in A Thing Called Love" by The Darkness. Nobody knows why. Neither of them has the upper range to pull it off and they know it. It's awful. They're just screeching. Ryan has to go outside until they're finished. His nerves can't take it. They have fun though.

Dylan would really like Ryan to duet with him on Peter Bjorn and John's "Young Folks," he'll even do the girl parts and the whistling! But Ryan's one and done at karaoke, and even that is asking a lot. Instead, Dylan and Nick duet The Proclaimers' "I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)" in absurd and potentially offensive Scottish accents.

Emma and Abi end up duetting half the time when they're supposed to be doing their own songs anyway, especially when it's Abi's turn! Somehow Emma just ends up there too. But they do "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun" by Cyndi Lauper together with some frequency and they're great at it.

Bonus 2: Group Number!

You already know what it is. You know what's coming. You get it stuck in your head every time you play the damn game (don't you? I know it's not just me.) How could they not all sing Kelly Clarkson's "Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You)" together? Of course they do.

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              HANNIGER'S PLAYLIST!                      ↳   a 5 song playlist character study

blood stained valentine by MURDERDOLLS.

the demons were screaming you && me were meant to be / you're like a car crash that i can't look away / cheers to the dead with some cheap champagne / put an arrow through my heart / i swear i'll feel no pain / L.O.V.E / i love the way you possess me / the bloody evidence is left at the crime scene / i could have bought you roses or a diamond ring / that's just material things / this day i want you to be mine / i'm your blood stained valentine.

derrick is a strange machine by ASHBURY HEIGHTS.

derrick is a man of whim / he will surely see you cry / i don't want to come between / i don't want to ruin your love / but derrick is a strange machine / i don't want to be obscene / i don't want to tell what he's done / but derrick is a loaded gun / he can be so very cruel / he has but a single rule / a cold && heartless point of view / you should have a better care && put an end to this affair / derrick's always been bad news.

control by HALSEY.

"they're coming for me" / && i tried to hold these secrets inside me / my mind's like a deadly disease / i'm bigger than my body / i'm colder than this home / i'm meaner than my demons / i'm bigger than these bones / && all the kids cried out "please, stop, you're scaring me" / i can't help this awful energy / goddamn right, you should be scared of me / who is in control? / i paced around for hours on empty / i jumped at the slightest of sounds / && i couldn't stand the person inside me / i turned all the mirrors around.

hass und liebe by MISS CONSTRUCTION. ( translated )

i hate you / i love you / i prefer to suppress you / i love you / i hate you / i'd rather suppress you / you && i / i hate you / i love you / my darling, the time has come / our love is over / i cannot leave you / two feelings remain / love && hate are totally close / i want you to leave me / please stay here.

i (heart) you by KMFDM.

i don't know right from wrong / decide wisely but don't take too long / don't try to run / there's nowhere to hide / everything && all for you / my blood runs wild / no limit to how far i'll go / you need to comprehend who's in control / i (heart) YOU / i (heart) YOU not / put you on a pedestal or bury you in lies / i (heart) YOU / i (heart) YOU not / if there's no body / there's been no crime.

[dave-ivanov]

Rock Hard Festival@Amphitheater Gelsenkirchen, 08.06.2025

Der dritte Tag schlaucht schon standardmäßig und die Füße tun weh. Außerdem werden meine Blogeinträge zu lang, sodass ich schon splitten musste. Wir konnten uns an dem Tag erst zu Deserted Fear aufraffen, um mit ein wenig Death Metal in die Gänge zu kommen. Voll sympathische Ossis, bei denen sich der Gitarrist auch nicht für Gags zu schade war, wie seine Mutti von der Bühne aus zu grüßen, denn schließlich läuft das Festival seit Jahren live im Rockpalast, oder dann auch mal zu fragen, ob er die Kamera anheben dürfe, denn er wolle schon immer mal wissen, wie schwer so ein Teil sei. Sehr witzig, aber dennoch auch eine geile Show mit guter Musik. Dann ging es weiter mit einer deutschen Legende. Gitarrist Herman Frank ist wieder mit Victory am Start, die im letzten Jahr ein großartiges, neues Album herausbrachten. Der einzige Schwachpunkt bei diesem Auftritt war, dass auf dem Backdrop groß "Rock'n'Roll Kids Forever" zu lesen war, aber der Song leider - im Gegensatz zur Tournee - nicht gespielt wurde. Trotzdem einfach eine geile Metal-Band und ich wartete auch schon gespannt auf Blackie und seine Mannen. Aber da gab es ja noch einiges an großartigen Bands davor. Auf den letzten Touren der Tunesier Myrath war ich regelmäßig, seit mein verstorbener Gitarrist Jörn mir diese Combo empfohlen hat. Hier sagte dann auch mal Rock-Hard-Begründer Holger selbst die Band an, die danach ein Potpourri ihres progressiven Könnens mit Power Metal und Melodien aus 1000 und einer Nacht zum Besten gaben. Dazu noch eine bezaubernde Tänzerin, die in verschiedenen Gewändern eine gute Performance zur Musik beisteuerte. Dazu noch einige auf Deutsch gerichtete Worte von Sänger Zaher und er schaffte es, die komplette Arena zum Mitsingen zu bewegen. Immer wieder ein stimmliches, akustisches und optisches Highlight. Onkel Udo zelebrierte dann unter dem Banner "Dirkschneider" 40 Jahre "Balls To The Wall" und spielte das komplette Album durch. Hier war die Menge natürlich in Ekstase. Schon mit dem Opener und Titeltrack waren die Dämme gebrochen und mag sich Udo auch ein wenig technische Unterstützung geholt haben (wie Vermutungen beim Weitersingen ohne Mikrofon zuließen), war die Performance des alten Mannes und seiner Kapelle genial. Hatte schon ein leichtes Unwohlsein, als es dann zum Headliner W.A.S.P. ging, aber das hat sich schnell gelegt. Zwar wurde ein riesiges Tohuwabohu gemacht, denn der Rockstar ließ sich direkt hin und zurück von der Bühne von einem Van kutschieren, aber als dann direkt "I Wanna Be Somebody" erklang, war jeglicher Zweifel behoben. Klar, die Jahre zeichnen sich auch in seinem Gesicht ab, aber er hat noch toll gesungen und sich super auf der Bühne bewegt. "L.O.V.E. Machine" kam dann direkt als zweites, aber es blieb noch Luft nach oben für weitere Klassiker. Das Bühnenbild fand ich etwas komisch und auch Blackie verzichtete auf viel Verkleidung wie in den alten Tagen, aber die Zugabe begann direkt mit Intro und "Inside The Electric Circus", was dann doch noch zum Bild passte. Auch bei W.A.S.P. flogen wieder sonderbar leuchtende Dinger durch die Luft im Publikum. Vielleicht nicht so toll, wenn das jemand an den Schädel bekommt. Aber schließlich sind wir hier beim Heavy Metal und es muss auch nicht immer jeder in Zuckerwatte eingeschnürt werden. Sieht gut aus. Geiler und würdiger Headliner! Ich soll ja nicht immer so negativ schreiben, weshalb ich dann mal meine Meinung über Preispolitik an Ständen und für Bier außen vor lasse, aber insgesamt können wir im Ruhrpott froh sein, ein solches Festival zu haben. Ausführlichere Meinungen gibt es dann in dem kommenden Film, den ich gerade mit Pierre Schröder mache. Dazu haben wir uns u.a. mit Rock-Hard-Gründer Holger Stratmann mal auf deren Couch gefläzt.

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One of my top metal songs of all time

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[erigold13261]

Heyo Eri :3

I see you've taken an interest of my NSR fan kiddies aka Burning Constellation and the OFA Rockstars becoming villians aka L.O.V.E. So I've come to ask on what you think the reactions of everyone such as the main NSR Cast, Nueva York, Vandelay, and even the Psychonauts would be when L.O.V.E forms and starts causing havoc everywhere. It's mainly Burning Constellation who starts causing mayhem by launching an attack that destroys the NSR Tower aka Orion doing what her dad Kliff did and drops a satellite on it only this time the satellite hits the Tower and causes a lot of damage, plus they also steal the Grand Qwasa- (I'm sure Kliff would be proud of his daughter LOL-)

Then all the OFA Artists join L.O.V.E after becoming villains themselves so now it's getting out of control to where Titanium has to call in help so she would call in the 4 main groups mentioned. How would they go about to defeat the L.O.V.E villains? Would they try to take them out one by one in order of the OFA Rockstars (Henrick being the first, Rosie second, Prince Astral third, CAL forth, Jodie fifth, and Burning Constellation last?) Or would they lure them into a trap and them battle them all at once?

I apologize for this ask being quite lengthy, I'm really down the rabbit hole of my silly group of villains-

For the NSR characters, it depends on if the tower was empty or not (also I don't know all about your AU, I keep forgetting with my terrible memory, so I don't know who's still alive or still working for NSR at this point in time so I'll keep it vague lol).

If it's empty, like they were able to evacuate in time, the destruction of NSR tower would be devastating but not too bad. If it was full, then L.O.V.E. would be seen as absolute monsters and murderers. They would be hated by a large majority of Vinyl City and probably the NSR cast as well (imagine if Titanium was IN the tower when the satellite hit, we'd need a new leader of Vinyl City then, but since she's the one who calls for help she most likely survives).

Stealing the Grand Qwasa (which sounds so funny to me lol) would be devastating as well since most, if not all, of the power in Vinyl City is now gone. People would die from hospitals not being powered and flooding as machines to keep flooding down are now not being powered at all. Not to mention the whole structure of the city is being thrown all over the place because of the chaos. L.O.V.E. would be despised by the citizens of Vinyl City.

As for the retaliation itself, I don't think NSR would have means of fighting L.O.V.E.. I don't know about your version of NSR, but mine wouldn't have the security to go against a whole villainous organization, which is probably why Titanium tries asking for help.

I doubt Vandelay Tech would do anything. They are just a tech company, not really out there looking to save the world. I'm sure they could offer some security robots, but honestly I doubt they would actually even have any more of those at this point since those types of robots were more Kale's doing and not something Roxanne or Peppermint would have kept going. I can see them sending robots that specialize in care and help to Vinyl City during this time though.

Psychonauts and Nueva York. Those are two organizations that would help Titanium (if they are still around. I definitely think Psychonauts would still be around, but not so sure if Nueva York would have been able to stand the test of time).

With the Psychonauts, they usually only deal with psychic battles, however, they would absolutely be willing to help stop this organization considering they've HAD to have killed some people. I don't know how much of the OG adult cast from Psychonauts would be around (the Psychic 7 are long dead by this point, as are people like Milla and Sasha being very old or dead by this point), I think Raz would be around still, but I don't know if she would still be an active member of the Psychonauts (since she'd be like... idk 50+ at this point, but she could definitely still be kicking ass lol).

Either way, whatever Psychonauts are around would be willing and ready to help try and stop L.O.V.E. at all costs. Using their psychic powers and advanced tech at this point would definitely help them as they track down and get ready to fight L.O.V.E.

Nuvea York is a tricky one. Because, if the Power Revolution worked and stuck true to the core of Nueva York, then that organization wouldn't really be used in this situation. Nueva York at this point is about helping people learn to control their powers, nothing more and nothing less.

Other organizations would have been made to help rehabilitate people using their powers for evil, or to hold people with powers who would have been able to escape captivity after committing a crime, but Nueva York would not be one of them. So whatever other organization is used to help detain and stop people from using their powers purposefully for evil would be called instead (the people of Nueva York would probably not like L.O.V.E. though, considering what they have already done to Vinyl City).

As for HOW L.O.V.E. would be captured, I think the Psychonauts and Power Organization (don't know what else to call it) wouldn't really work together right off the bat. They each have their own methods for dealing and capturing enemies, so they would rather work alone. They'd both also wait until L.O.V.E. commits some kind of crime, maybe try to set up a situation that would attract L.O.V.E., but for the first few tries they would rather try and get L.O.V.E. to commit their own crimes at first and try and stop them at the scene.

I can see it being kinda comical if you want to go that way, where Power Organization and Psychonauts make each other fail a few times and they have a little rivalry going on until something super serious happens and that's when the two groups start to work together and actually coordinate instead of almost actively sabotaging each other.

The order of capture would also depend on how L.O.V.E. operates itself. Do they usually attack in groups or by themselves with only some attacks being group/partner work. If it's single work with sometime having group/partner work, then Psychonauts and PO would do their best to get crimes that are committed by more than one person. But if they only capture one then that's fine as then they can use methods like going into the person's brain (or I guess code for CAL if I remember correctly) to look for the location of L.O.V.E.'s headquarters or base of operations.

If it's group work, then the Psychonauts and PO would do their best to try and capture everyone at once. I can see something going wrong and one person from L.O.V.E. escaping, and now the two organizations have to worry about them breaking out the rest of L.O.V.E. or something.

It could also be that L.O.V.E. ends up never getting caught because of reasons like they are too good at evading capture or are too ruthless that even if they were almost caught, the casualties were too great for their pursuers that they were able to escape each time.

I don't know how serious or dark you want to take this villainous version of characters, but depending on the intensity you could get really dark with it or make it really comical!

[doyourememberrocknrollradio]

W.A.S.P - L.O.V.E. Machine

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     spell out your url using song titles.   then,   tag as many people as there are letters in your url:

short king anthem by black bear , tiny meat gang.

kickstart my heart by motley crue.

unskinny bop by poison.

livin' on a prayer by bon jovi.

l.o.v.e machine by w.a.s.p

father time by shark island

nothin' but a good time by poison

girls , girls , girls by motley crue.

eat me alive by judas priest

dr. feelgood by motley crue.

tagged by: @sammyemerson

tagging: @silntfangs , @pierprincess , @godpyre , anyone that wants to do this! :D

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I think it's fair to credit @trashmouth-richie because I would have never done this if I hadn't seen that someone also had this headcanon. I went for relatively standard 12 songs per one side, so 1 mixtape is 24 songs in total. All links should work and redirect to YouTube Music. Also below there is a link to YouTube Music playlist. If anyone would like to see Vol. 2, let me know.

: : : : : : : EDDIE MUNSON'S MIXTAPE : : : : : : :

"songs i masturbated to before you agreed to go out with me"

📼 SIDE A 📼 1 Kiss - War Machine (1982) 2 Kiss - Heaven's On Fire (1984) 3 Kiss - I Was Made For Lovin' You (1979) 4 Kiss - I Want It Loud (1982) 5 W.A.S.P. - L.O.V.E. Machine (1984) 6 Iron Maiden - Run to the Hills (1982) 7 Black Sabbath - Paranoid (1970) 8 AC/DC - Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap (1976) 9 AC/DC - Touch Too Much (1979) 10 AC/DC - It's a Long Way to the Top (If You Wanna Rock 'N' Roll)(1976) 11 Dio - Holy Diver (1983) 12 Accept - Balls to the Wall (1983)

📼 SIDE B 📼 1 The Jimmy Hendrix Experience - All Along the Watchtower (1967) 2 The Jimmy Hendrix Experience - Foxey Lady (1967) 3 The Jimmy Hendrix Experience - Little Wing (1967) 4 Lynyrd Skynyrd - Free Bird (1974) 5 Led Zeppelin - Whole Lotta Love (1969) 6 Led Zeppelin - Since I've Been Loving You (1970) 7 The Stooges - I Wanna Be Your Dog (1969) 8 Queen - Get Down, Make Love (1977) 9 Queen - Fat Bottomed Girls (1978) 10 The Temptations - Shakey Ground (1975) 11 Harold Melvin & The Blue Notes feat. Teddy Pendergrass - Don't Leave Me This Way (1975) 12 Jefferson Airplane - Somebody to Love (1967)

eddie makes you a mix tape labeled:

“songs i masturbated to before you agreed to go out with me”

…

“Vol. 1”

[jaybe11]

W.A.S.P. - L.O.V.E. Machine - Watch In High Quality

[lattewritings]

V is vindictive to my heart

“You did what?” Ha-Min looked at me in shock. Though I wasn’t sure how to feel. I wasn’t going to necessarily defend this decision but I knew this might happen when I was making it. I didn’t know if I should tell him or not but I ultimately did. 

“I wanted to make sure, you know, I wasn’t talking with a serial killer.” I could feel my shoulders drop and I was ready for whatever kind of yelling I’d receive. But I was being honest. Maybe saying, “Oh hey, I did a background check on you” wasn’t the best way to go about it. 

For a moment the statue breaks and cracks so much I literally take a step back. I wasn’t scared of physical altercations but the sudden shift in demeanour chilled the air. 

“Did you find what you were looking for?” Ha-Min sneered as we stood in the middle of my dingy apartment hallway. “Are you happy?” 

I wince in pain as if I was actually stabbed. Like he knew anything about happiness. He acted like he’d tell me if I asked. I wondered for a split second if I really trusted him or if I still thought of him as a stranger. Someone I kind of spent my time with. If I could ever see him as anything else. 

“You’re funny. So reluctant to share. Not that I expect that. You’re funny.” That’s all. I couldn’t come up with anything else. Was I happy, Ha-Min? I don’t know. I think I was trying to exist without thinking about that concept. 

“You’re not the only one who did research. Ida Lenn is a millionaire. Rich beyond her dreams, I doubt her ‘charity’ event is even that.” 

I stared at him in shock. I never yelled at anyone. I haven’t yelled since I screamed and begged horrible men not to kill me. I didn’t yell because there was no point. Begged to keep my arms. He’s accusing my aunt of being dirty? 

“And you’re not-!? Ida is a good person. I would know because I’m not.” If my aunt was a bad person there would be no way I’d go to these events. “You’ve never even fucking met her!” His words broke my soul. He would never understand. The greed, the world I used to live in until I left. Ida was an activist and a business woman. My family had the money they did because of how hard they worked for it. 

“Rich people are cruel, Melanie. Exploitative and will do anything to stay in power.” I’d never seen someone so pretty be so angry. Ha-Min didn’t believe me when I said she was a good person. “They all are.” 

“You think I’m cruel?” I asked genuinely. “I might be an awful person but I wouldn’t go as far as to say that, Ha-Min Lee.” While I was certainly seething with anger I didn’t know he thought that way about me. When I looked at him all I was impressed, he was smart, pretty and maybe even kind. But when he looks at me Ha-Min sees a cruel rich woman. Isn’t it ironic that we’re having this argument in the hallway of my sad apartment. And, isn’t it ironic that we met at a local laundry mat because I didn’t want to buy a whole new machine. Oh how blind you are. 

“Why even be my fake husband then. If I’m so cruel.” Ha-Min laughed at me. Callous laughter in agreement. Did he really hate me? I couldn’t help but feel hurt— it didn’t make much sense that I was hurt. I didn’t have much of a reason. Yet his words ached. “I don’t need you. Go without me. Find your perfect clientele for your perfect job without me.” This was me stepping out of his life. Underneath all of my bones, deep beneath my ribs I hold my heart as it pumps blood to what’s left of my body. It’s small and holds contrast to the silver metal. The pinkish red. 

“I didn’t even want to be your husband to begin with.” 

“You’re vindictive and manipulative. I know your dirty tricks— I bet you kept me around to play with my feelings,” Narrowing my eyes, I had more where that came from. “I was honest with my inventions. You can’t even tell me something that’s remotely true.” 

[my-chaos-radio-2020-list]

I Adore You - HUGEL, Topic, Arash feat. Daecolm

I Ain't Worried - OneRepublic

I Am - IVE

I Can Do It With A Broken Heart - Taylor Swift

I Can See You - Taylor Swift

I Don't Wanna Wait - David Guetta, OneRepublic

i like the way you kiss me - Artemas

I Like You (A Happier Song) - Post Malone, Doja Cat

I Love You, I'm Sorry - Gracie Abrams

I Need You To Hate Me - JC Stewart

I Wish - Joey Corry feat. Mabel

I'M HIS, HE'S MINE - Katy Perry feat. Doechii

I’ll Be Here - Colbie Caillat, Sheryl Crow

I’ll Be there - Robin Schulz,Rita Ora, Tiago PZK

I'll Wait - Kygo, Sasha Sloan

Ice Cream - BLACKPINK, Selena Gomez

If I Ever - Conor Maynard

If You Really Love Me - David Guetta, MistaJam, John Newman

Illella - MAMAMOO

Illusion - Dua Lipa

In The Dark - Purple Disco Machine, Sophie and The Giants

In Your Eyes - Robin Schulz feat. Alida

(It Goes Like) Nanana - Peggy Gou

It's ok I'm ok - Tate McRae

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Josh - Peach PRC

JUSTICE - Dreamcatcher

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Karma - Taylor Swift, Ice Spice

Karma's A Bitch - Brit Smith

Kids - New Kids On The Block

Kill Bill - SZA

Kings & Queens - Ava Max

Kiss Me - Dermot Kennedy

Kiss My (Uh Oh) - Anne-Marie & Little Mix

Kiss Somebody - Julie Bergan, Seeb

Kissing In The Cold - Florrie

Klaxon - (G)I-DLE

Kleptocrazy - Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark

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L.O.V.E - Hur Young Ji

Land Of The Heroes - Alan Walker & Hernandz

Lasting Lover - Sigala, James Arthur

Late Night Talking - Harry Styles

Leave Before You Love Me - Marshmello, Jonas Brothers

Leave The Door Open - Bruno MarsAnderson, .PaakSilk Sonic

Left And Right - Charlie Puth feat. Jung Kook of BTS

Legs (Keep Dancing) - Vanessa Williams

Let It Rain Down - Alle Farben feat. PollyAnna

Let Them Know - Mabel

Let’s Go Home Together - Ella Henderson, Tom Grennan

Let’s Love - David Guetta & Sia

Level Of Concern - Twenty One Pilots

Levitating - Dua Lipa

Liar Liar - Dylan feat. Bastille

LIFETIMES - Katy Perry

Lighter - Galantis, David Guetta, 5 Seconds Of Summer

Lighthouse - Calum Scott

Lights Camera Action - Kylie Minogue

Like A Saviour - Ellie Goulding

Lil Boo Thang - Paul Russell

Lionheart (Fearless) - Joel Corry & Tom Grennan

Little Bit Of Love - Tom Grennan

Living In A Haze - Milky Chance

Living In A Haze - Milky Chance feat. The Beaches

Lonely Dancers - Conan Grey

Lonely In Tokyo - MIREI

Lonely Road - mgk, Jelly Roll

Look Who's Laughing Now - Benjamin Ingrosso

Lost - Linkin Park

Lost In Space - Foster The People

Lottery - Latto feat. LU KALA

Love Not War - Jason Derulo, Nuka

Love Of Your Life - RAYE

Love On - Selena Gomez

Love You Better - Echosmith

Loving You - Cannons