#kyo rants – 🥀

[kyokiiro]

It sucks and my perfectionism doesnt help either😭 Like ik im allowed to make mistakes with writing, but i can't handle it- I feel like im to hard on myself sometimes:') (i also don't mind critism, but im so sensitive at the same time?? it does depend on how you say it, like if its a nice way, yeah then ill be able to handle it better but if its harsh, yeah im here overthinking to do better next time🙃)

[kyokiiro]

TW: talking about su*c*de, sh, mentions of depression, mentions about panic attacks, alot of sensitive topics. Do not read if these topics trigger you!!

I so fucking done with life rn that i don't even have to energy to sleep or do anything. I already have a pretty low energy capacity-

Im pulling my 4th all nighter this week and my suicidal thoughts are kicking in:) the urge to just end it all

I almost had a panic attack at school bc it was way to loud in my class

I haven't properly taken care of myself. I barely eat, i hurt myself whenever it gets to much, i can't sleep bc i keep having those voices in my head

Depression absolutely sucks. I do not look forward to seeing a therapist once a week. I really fucking hate myself rn for being like this

I want to accept help from people, but theres just something stopping me from allowing to let people in.

Im not used to be open about my feelings, I just dont even understand most of the what im feeling

Its so frustrating that i just wanna die to make it go away

Ive been struggling with depression for like 4 years. The first & second year wasn't as bad, but i already had thoughts of me wanting to die

Ive kept this to myself for 3 years. And i still struggle to be open about it. Its confirmed my depression is caused through trauma and i just feel so fucking pathetic and useless. I really dont know how much longer i can handle this

[thechaoticplayer]

Masterlist

Fav fic of all time! Celestia's bday gift to me :D Code: 🔞 = porn w/o plot 🔞 + 💟 = porn w/ plot 💟 + anything = just plot; sfw 💘 = character x character ❤ = x reader 💞 = fluff 🖤 = angst 🖤+💞 = hurt/comfort ❣ + anything = request 🌹 + anything = rant, ramble, drabble, shes obsessing again

happy reading darlings!

masterlist ❤🥀 VTubers

Alban Knox Whimpering 🔞🌹

Psyborg Being Psyborg 🔞💟❣💘

Hex Haywire: Breeding Kink! 🔞🌹❤

Grinding Up On Shu Yamino 🔞❤

Uki Violeta x Shxtou Basically 🔞💟❣💘

Krisis having fun on the minecraft bed 🔞🌹❣

Predator Ike Devouring You Whole 🔞💟❤

Dom! Pomu Rainpuff Headcanons!🔞❤❣🌹

Brat Tamer Luca🔞❤❣🌹

Ike/Vox × Uki/Fulgar Smashing in the living room🔞❣💘💟

Fulgar Ovid Hate Sex🔞❣❤

Submissive ahh Kyo Kaneko🔞❤❣🌹

The Confident Student Council President🔞💟❤

Subby Vox Akuma🔞❤🌹❣

Relaxing Hex Haywire🔞❤❣🌹

Dommy Scarle Yonaguni🔞❤🌹❣

Sub Yu Q. Wilson & Claude Clawmark🔞🌹❤

Yu Q. Wilson Edging Ya🔞❤❣

Puppy reader x Vox Akuma 🔞❤🌹

Oliver Evans Railing You 🔞❤🌹❣

Claude & Shu Cockwarming🔞❤🌹❣

Soft Nsfw Doppio Dropscythe x reader 🔞❤🌹❣💞

Hex Haywire Going Down on You🔞❤🌹❣

Pussy drunk Doppio Dropscythe🔞❤🌹❣

Academic Rivals W/ Ver Vermillion🔞❤🌹❣

Stressed Out! Reader x Shu Yamino🔞❤❣🌹

Hex Haywire x reader x Meloco Kyoran🔞❤❣

Misc.

Angst Drabble🖤🌹💟

Dating chaotic headcanons 💟🌹💞❤

Genshin Impact

Nothing here yet....

Honkai Star Rail

Mutual pining and first time w Gepard 💟🔞❤️🌹

[kyokiiro]

I dont really do many vents abt my own life, but i just wanna get this of my chest.

TW: SUICIDAL MENTIONS, SENSITIVE TOPICS, MENTIONS OF DEATH, SELF HARM, DEPRESSION, PANIC ATTACKS, ETC. IF ANY OF THESE TOPICS TRIGGER YOU. PLEASE DO NOT READ!!

Sometimes i wish in another universe my grandpa was still alive and didnt die bc he fell of a roof trying to help fix the air conditioning for my uncle in spain. They told us he was going to survive. Guess what? He dies on the day hes supposed to go back to my country. Ive never cried so hard in my entire life. I was sobbing having a panic attack. I wasn't eating, sleeping, drinking. I completely ignored my own health bc i couldn't stop thinking about him. I blamed myself for his death even knowing it wasn't my fault in the slightest since i wasn't there. I still cry at night thinking about him. It makes it worse when i don't even remember how his voice sounds. I just wanna hug him just one more time.. its been a year since he passed and im still not over his death. Im just scared by grandma can't take it any longer and kill herself. I was struggling with depression for quite a while. But it got worse after i got the news. I never tried extreme self harm. But i couldn't hold back this time, so i actually cut myself. My parents found out about my situation and im currently getting professional help. But honestly i don't know how much longer i can take before i snap. Im really trying my best, but it just doesn't feel enough. I only wish to see my grandpa one last time. Im gonna stop here since i dont wanna get to much into it.

[kyokiiro]

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