#krockat krockat

[krockat]

gosh, , I'm so brave.

i really badly want to get up out of bed to play the sims, but i am instead being soooooo so brave by staying in bed.

gosh I am so cool..... for staying in bed and trying to relax.... even tho I am very hornily (w/out the sex) hungry (w/out the eat) for playing the sims.

gosh. am so unable to sleep and got a headache and am soooooo so warm but instead I just lay here. being brave. for me and my mates of the shared head's sake

😔

[krockat]

absolutely gorge.

for a person who's been kind of drifted off from cool movies their whole life and is like, learning how to find things to watch that isn't centered at youths

(two of my most fave shows are steven universe and shera spop (and also russian doll, good omens and the boys but i haven't finished those yet so they don't count),

and has the task of recommending cool-fish whimsical weirdo movies and creations to a newly formed norm critical film group that me and a buncha disabled nerds are watching at our non-work-cause-we-cant-work-cause-we-v-disabled-workplace... :

does anyone have any recommendations on where to find films like this, or films to discuss, in such a group? or recommendations for specific films or media

(especially the watchable kind - one one can put on an old projector that's kinda shitty because we have not gotten the funding from our workplace (that's not actually a workplace, the corpos and govvies just want us to call it that. a lot of us going there call it dagis tho (informal slang for kindergarten)) to really gust this shit up yet)!

we are a bunch of funky polyminority queers and blooming cis+ers who all are into weird shit. but they (and me aswell, to a certain level, its just i know more than many of them on things like these) have not yet unlocked our potential for weird and norm critical/aware fully.

i think if this group goes well, we can motherfucker unlimited a Whole lot of people, honestly.

so yes, i am looking to make these all fuckers bloom out even more.

here are some movies i am going to suggest to our viewing, so you may know what we already got ahead:

- but i'm a cheerleader!

- everything everywhere at the end of time

- John waters movies and medias, esp those with divine (but i have not seen any yet, so if any of you have specific recs i would Love them)

- epsilon (i think?) - this one swedish short film that was a part of the yearly swedish film festival sometime between 2015-2020 that i can Not for the life of me find any even trace of online.

pretty sure it was called epsilon and it was about a brain that was being used in science experiments, that didn't realize it was just a brain, and a psychic one at that -

and the owner of the brain had donated it to science and had written away the right to have the ability to take away consent after they (the swedish scientist institute) had acquired the brain.

so they (the scientists) keep deleting its memory every time it gets 'too feisty' (tries to escape or attack the people abusing it for science).

it had one kind of notable swedish white older woman actor in it, but i can Not find her through imdb searches as i do not remember her or any works she has done. i tried searching through old women actors there but could Not.

- liv strömquist tänker på dig!

i am having hard time finding it online.

there was a recording made by SVT (Sveriges Television) of this Swedish theatre divising production, which is based on Liv Strömquist's feminist tragicomedy comic book also called Liv Strömquist Tänker På Dig! (Liv Strömquist Is Thinking About You!) - and i went to it live aswell Two times - and it was amazing, and i even got a script from (i think it was, retroactively) the director herself as i showed my huge nerdiness about it - and i foolishly never saved my own RIP of the recording of it!!)

- clue (tim curry etc version)

- derry girls (a few eps?)

we have watched, so far:

- dating amber (nice, we watched it in two parts. the first 3 meetings we had to setup the tech thing and the weird room we borrowed from the nearby building, dirty dusty room that was part of some old nearly empty office buildings, that was like a time capsule from the 70s. really funny to explore, super abandoned vibes and like it was left in a hurry with crap thrown places and sensitive documents, and broken and Untaken care of.

an old drink-yoghurt bottle that they stopped making like nearly 10 years ago stood in the projection hall that with old ass dusty ass tech sat. we nerded out REAL HARD y'all. also seems haunted by the past. also one time we heard a weird sound, and one of the friends there gathered it was an elevator alarm, cause she knows the sound as she lived in places with bad elavtors. and i was like. we should probably look to see if anyvody needs our help, but where tf is that elevator even, because it wasn't the regular elevators we use? so we find the elevator (in a room we didn't realize was there because we had explored it before and not seen that whole part.) and we pressed the button to see if it would help. and after a pretty long time (for an elevator, but not too long if it was a broken elevator) the elevator moved to our floor and there was a man there looking really confused. the door was bolted so we would have to unbolt it to open it. He didn't really say anything at first even after I said hey, so I asked 'are you okay? do you need help' and he was like 'no i am not okay, i am stuck in here, but there's people down there who are saying they can help me' so he went down and after he started going I was like. okay we'll press it again and if he's still in there we have unbolted the door so he can get out. but when we pressed it back he was gone.

anyway one of the friends got real scared and spooked out by that whole ordeal and honestly the place to begin with haha. but she was the one who showed up the next time to watch the second part of dating amber, and me (apart from our coach) , cause the other two were sickomoding.)

and are gonna watch:

- rocky horror picture show, next monday!

we are going eat snacks and dress extra camp for it, cause we wanted to also have it more like a viewing of the original cult movie watchings, and like some places still do?

yanno with the singing along and the throwing popcorn and that kinda hullabaloo?

but we just didn't have time to prepare all that for this one (we are all burnt out/are recovering, even our coach/leader is lol). so this is our pre!

oh yea this is a huge long comment where i just kinda had time to write down all this for the first time! longer than i anticipated, but i am gonna let myself be long for this one.

Woman of the Seventies

[atsvensson]

Dödsskjutning i Botkyrka

Dödsskjutning i Botkyrka. Strax efter klockan åtta på tisdagskvällen fick polisen larm om skottlossning mot en bil i rörelse i nära Kärsby IP i Norsborg. Mannen i 20-årsåldern som körde bilen och hans bil kan som det verkar ha träffats av skott, tappat kontrollen över fordonet och därför krockat med ett träd. Det kan också vara så att bilen först kan ha exploderat. Det förekommer också uppgifter…

[cebozcom]

Cyklist till sjukhus efter krock med bil | CeBoz.com

En kvinnlig cyklist i 30-årsåldern har förts till sjukhuset Ryhov efter ha krockat med en bil i Ekhagsringen i Jönköping.

[kompasskurs]

Ytterligare en vecka i arbetslöshetens tecken kan läggas till handlingarna. Det låter som en ganska tråkig vecka egentligen, eller hur?! Men jag har haft fullt upp, så fullt upp att jag fått tacka nej till saker eftersom de krockat med varandra. Jag har betat av två filminspelningar, ett möte med min chef på extrajobbet och sedan faktiskt varit bortrest torsdag till fredag. Eller bortrest och bortrest, vi har testat en natt på Grand hotell i Saltsjöbaden – så vi lämnade aldrig ens Stockholmsområdet och jag kunde med gott samvete räkna mig som tillgänglig för arbetsmarknaden medan jag fick en lyxig hotellvistelse. Lite lyx i vardagen måste man ju ha, även som arbetssökande. Enligt reglerna får jag inte resa utomlands hur som helst, men jag har inte hittat något i reglerna om säger att jag inte får röra mig inom Stockholms län. Och skulle en intervju dykt upp med kort varsel, så hade jag med lätthet kunna åtagit mig den eftersom avståndet var så litet.

Jag har helt enkelt fullt upp och kommande vecka är nästintill lika fullbokad, men anställningsintervju, filminspelning och barnvakteri. Givetvis vid sidan av att fortsätta söka jobb och vara aktiv på Arbetsförmedlingen.

[ubercharge]

mx Dave ubercharge - perhaps old question but, considering your longstanding name, do you still play tf2 after all these years? i don't. but sometimes i still long after what has been.

NOT actively but i’ve given it two separate tries after quitting. did not have any fun the first time (about a year ago?). tf2 in comparison to ow felt too slow, my movements felt sluggish, and even doing my best to align my sens to my ow sens/dpi setup, i just couldn’t get to a point where my aim movements felt normal. granted my scout aim doesn’t really have a good counterpart in ow so that doesn’t help. i didn’t stick around long

i tried again some months ago and had a much better time!! didn’t have that same issue of gameplay feeling weirdly slow. it was different compared to ow instead of bad. i dicked around in pub with my friend mostly playing scout again and it was chill. i couldn’t get INTO it to take it seriously, but that would be like taking ow qp seriously i.e., no point. i had fun and afterwards i’d bring up playing tf2 few times but we’ve yet to play since

tl;dr: imo game is not as fun as it was before meet your match, but still can be fun with friends. i wouldn’t play it alone. i don’t intend on actively playing it again in the foreseeable future, though it’ll stay installed.

[oswednesday]

uhhhv what is going on with the white van.????? and did somebody actually rob someone???? dude if you're safe to you should then call the cops, and/or write down their registration plate if you can (but don't walk out there beside it cause No) and are you ok?????

omg okay like someone broke into that house a while ago so the door was just flopping in the wind, like just yesterday people in a white van were busted taking things out of the house and today i recognize a car that was driving all slow and sketchy, shining a light up on the houses all parked with the Same white van cause it was the same dude at that house today, no one lives there anymore? i cant imagine whats so important about that place that it has so much activity, like, im fine no ones getting hurt so its really none of my business, like what do i care if some mafia wannabes in ohio wanna strip down a junky sorta house for scarps past tenents left fgh, they blew out of that place so fast and there was always like weird city officiallys eyeballing the house like sdfghj?? and specally since like if it serious and i live across the street unless i notice any like women or really obvious body dumping, you know? i dont want the attention

[krockat]

just got home from the airport a few hours ago, and it was lovely in london, but damn its so fkn nice to be in my disabled friendly home and bed. it's wonderful.

it's weird how lovely london was. i feel like.. i can now easily see myself living there..?

and like. idk i thought sweden (where ive lived my whole life) kind of maybe was my only choice, W my disabilities and queernesses.

but like. i had a long talk w a taxi driver we took a fare W, who was disabled too, and we just opened up and talked about or disabilities and exp W it in our countries.

and he just began telling me about all these new disability aids that were put into law this year there. and it's like. i even said at one point (after saying it seems so unreal because it sounded too good to be true) that at some point it had to be a practical joke, right?.

because England, or at least London? is so... Way Miles Miles Miles ahead of Any disability rights I've ever heard of being put into existence in a country ever before.

like it's miles ahead of swedens, esp the disability laws I live with in my part.

and like.

it's just. those things would be life changing.

if they are real and true, i am so, so so so so so happy such huge wonderful progress has happened in England! i really sincerely hope it stays and gets even better and all people in need can have those things, and spreads accross our whole world!

though, with a few caveats.

1. the sidewalks in central london, are very hard to navigate - because they tilt like, Everywhere.

my friend pushed me in a manual wheelchair we borrowed from the hotel and it was Tough!!!! (and scary)

2. and most importantly, for me, you still have to work a hundred percent to get those rights and live there.

and i am not able to work in my country, and haven't been my whole life, due to my very strong disabilities. (that i have been working to rehabilitate - cause alto I don't dream of labour, i believe in my work of loves/passion projects, and also having more money than the v little I get from my disability aid in sweden) but more disabilities popping up and life and world crisises has several times slowed progress)

but i think, considering there are so many others rights there (that the taxi driver talked of, anyway) that i think there - i could have a great shot in actually being able to work?

because like Sooooo many of my stressors and things that disable me I would get strong aid for?

And it's just.

I am wondering if i am insane if i believe it is real, and could be something for me. and I kinda just want to cry.

I don't even know what to do.

I do really like and love my current life here....

but i am just thinking about all the good that could be to live there?

how i could actually live such a fucking easier and fulfilling life where I don't have to work so hard to deal W my disabilities and not have to basically pay nearly all of my high aid needs myself, and burn myself out so repeatedly just by existing and living W this and trying to take care of myself and.... Then instead there having so much help for my disabilities - some i had not even imagined? atl not in this current sociopolitical climate?

and it's just.

how could I uproot myself to go there?

here's where I have my roots.

i do want to try, but it's so scary.

i am scared to even research it haha... i do want this, genuinely, now, but I. I don't know...

[krockat]

wow... i feel like i should do a Krockat-makes-an-arts and like. commerate this occasion in an art piece. this occasion being me being bestowed such a tittle and thanks...

master ally.... 😔✊

anyway, back to being a good masterful ally:

that is very fucking funny and it indeed DID become so much more of a banger of a post just with that added tidbit.

you've just taught me the most I know about the master.

and wow, i did not know he could do that!! what the fuck. but it makes a lot of sense tho cause like, he Is called The Master.

i actually didn't know what he was master of until now, hah. so, now he makes more sense!

frankly, i just accepted him as a dramatic and gay-ass subtext w The Doctor(s?) good villain man. and he needed not be specialer than he was.

he proved enough of an amusing and seducing menace and foil as he was!

of course he should get to name himself and be known as the master, you know. why not?

ever since last of the time lords the master needs a trigger warning every time people use the power of friendship

[laslustrinkeby]

15 APRIL - DAGEN DÅ TITANIC SJÖNK

Den 15 april 1912 sjunker det stora skeppet RMS Titanic när den för första gången åker ut på havet. 

Skeppet var på väg från Southhampton i England till New York i USA och sjönk utanför Kanada efter att ha krockat med ett isberg.

Isberget som Titanic krockade med var lömskt, eftersom bara en liten del utav berget syntes ovanför vatten. 

Befälet på Titanic trodde att berget var litet och att båten kunde köra runt det, men istället krockade båten med den del utav berget som var under vatten.

Väldigt många människor omkom, kanske uppemot 1500 personer, eftersom båten inte hade livbåtar för alla. Efter att Titanic sjönk kom det lagar som sa att båtar måste ha livbåtar för alla.

Det har skrivits många böcker om det som hände Titanic och också gjorts många filmer. 

Idag finns vraket efter Titanic fortfarande på havsbotten, men det börjar sakta försvinna.

 Hälsningar! /Märta och Balsam

Svåra ord i texten

lömsk = någon eller någonting som inte går att lita på och som är falsk  

befäl = de som bestämde på Titanic, exempelvis kaptenen

omkom = dog

vrak = det som är kvar av någonting när det har gått sönder eller i det här fallet sjunkit

[gdkpraktik]

Tina | vecka fyra

Jag har planerat och strukturerat, suttit och diskuterat storslagna visioner. Fotat och redigerat. Grämt mig åt missade samarbeten och glatt mig åt andra kommande. Jag har varit insnöad, lyssnat på ljudfiler från workshop och haft telefonmöte. Gjort research och börjat skapa ett antal olika personas, både till Tapetfabriken och tillsammans med Maria i ett spännande projekt. Jag har haft en halvdag, fått mail från Leif, kört fast med en text och nästan krockat med ett rådjur. Och idag åt vi semla. 

Nästa vecka kommer jag kanske att vara ledig några dagar, men det är ju på tok för kul att vara på praktik för att vara ledig hela veckan. Eller hur!?

[krockat]

OUGH THOSE LYRICS ARE FUCKING AMAZING. ARE YA KIDDING ME

my gosh. it's the thing of like. ya nah there r just billion tons of people on this planet who have lived here some time on this planet and made like. fkn great fucking cool fucking WOWIE art and sometimes not even a single kotte (one a these)

has heard or seen their art.

and that's not a bad thing, if one never shares much, but it's just like. yallllll please know that the world would love to heart it, and would be good for the world.

there is DEF an audience out there for you, heck, here's one of them!! me!!

aswell as fucking all alters in my system who share the same music taste (which like nah yah we'd all like this) so IMAGINE. imagine.

anyway no pressure ofc, just know yall got a lot of people I'd know want to exp your creations. WHAT a bop of song. wow.

hey sorry for the lack of album today. a couple of really horrible things happened to me lately so i kind of turned into a beast. like the bad kind. you know what i mean.

anyway. here's a condolence song. it isn't on spotify or anything because it's a crappy recording but you know. someday it will be.

maybe an update will appear soon?

IT WON'T LET ME ADD AUDIO...sorry.for the vidoe

[orsakullan]

Det var nära ögat.

Det var nära ögat.

Jag kör en bloggutmaning i oktober. Vill du delta? Skriv en kommentar, och blogga om ämnet för dagen. Klickar du på länken, så kommer du till samtliga ämnen att skriva om. Det är många gånger man upplevt sådant där “nära” ögat situationer. Men när jag funderar på det så har det nog varit tillfällen när jag sett djur efter vägen. Nära ögat att man krockat eller kört på dem, skrämmande tanke.

[carinawj]

Tvärstopp och tacksam

Tvärstopp och tacksam för att det inte är vi som krockat. Hoppas att det inte blivit allvarliga personskador.

[mattiaslindgren]

White Mountains, rör oss över delstatsgränsen in i New Hampshire, sitter i en bilkö, här rör sig bilköerna mer. I slutet av kön ser vi en gul skolbuss som har krockat. Ingen verkar ha blivit skadad. Vi stannar vid en utkiksplats.

[louiseeklund]

22 April 2019 Måndag

00:22

Avundsjuka är den värsta känslan. Fyfarao. Hur kan jag vara så avundsjuk på vissa personer? En person i synerlighet. Det är anledningen till att jag bara klarar av att kolla på mina egna kanaler, på det jag själv gör. För det jag ser där, det har jag i alla fall varit med om.

00:23

Jag blir avundsjuk, så otroligt avundsjuk på helt orimliga företeelser. Det finns ingen logik bakom det. Det handlar bara och enbart om att jag önskar att jag var i en annans kropp. Mitt liv känns meningslöst. Trots att det har mer mening än någonsin. Hur undkommer man avundsjukan? Jag ska berätta det för er när jag kommer fram med ett svar.

01:16

Nu saknar jag Kip. Hoppas han mår bra, eller helt okej iallafall.

10:18

Fuuuck!! En man har krockat in i en stolpe vid korsningen Odengatan/Sveavägen. Det såg ut som att han kört åt fel håll och fått panik när en annan bil med ett par som höll hårt om varandra, åkt i motsatt riktning. Det låg glassplitter på gatan. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Mina ögon vattnas. Fyfan. Fyfan. Det verkade inte vara någon dödsolycka eller stort lidande men det hade kunnat hända. Tänk om det var eller skulle vara ett barn med i bilen. Fyfan. Det är så jävla farligt att köra bil fast ingen riktigt tänker på det.

10:32

Ivan sa att jag har en behaglig röst. Det kan vara en av de bästa komplimanger jag vet. Röstkomplimanger. Eftersom att jag haft så stora röstkomplex.

11:29

Fyfan för Kip.

12:29

Nu fick jag iallafall reda på något som jag undrat under en längre tid.

12:32

Hur kunde jag vara med honom så länge?

17:12

"Jag får en bra känsla. Du kommer att gå långt".

17:35

Det gör så ont att vänner mår dåligt. Man får absolut perspektiv och är man den starka så finns det ändå en skyldighet att vägleda. Komma med sina åsikter och tankar.

20:29

Jag är så arg på Kip.

20:30

Jag mår illa. Får ingen luft.

20:38

Jag gråter inte men känner mig som en av mina teckningar där tårarna forsas över kinderna.

23:17

Godnatt! Jag vill bli vän med Ivan och skriva en film om selektiv mutism ihop med honom. Imorgon kanske jag skulle kunna skriva ett utkast till en manusidé.

23:19

Det finns så bra och inspirerande människor överallt.