#kirihara nozomu

[michi-chelle-draws]

inktober 2024 - day 8

[night-willows]

Standees of Asakura and Kirihara my wonderful sister @thelavenderpossum made for me!! The art is hers btw. I love them look at them those are my boys. They are so cute and little!! Omg!! My favorite Christmas present ever despite them not arriving until today 10/10 will cherish them forever

[coz-for-concern]

Bones And All

Nozomu Kirihara X GN! Reader (Use of They/Them prns!). || Pre-established relationship.

Warnings? Slow Damage itself is an 18+ media. This writing briefly mentions blood as the reader has Hematophagia. Beyond that, there's a mention of Near Death at one point. Certain parts of the writing are suggestive with the wording, but nothing explicit happens. Don't like it? Then don't read!

Another night, today, was just another night where his sorrows became drowned in the sensation of pain and agony caused by the people at his workplace. Really, it was only one of his coworkers who assumed Nozomu Kirihara was someone pathetic by the [Name] of Mizuno. 

He had come to revel in the anguish, allowing it to sweep over him like a numbing tide, drowning out the echoes of his darker thoughts. It was as if the agony had woven itself into the fabric of his being, granting him a perverse sense of bliss as he surrendered fully to the suffering. 

The day's indignities mingled with dark satisfaction in those moments, transforming his anguish into something he could almost control. The night was a sanctuary for him, a time to wallow in his bitterness and find a twisted form of peace amidst the chaos of his emotional turmoil.

Kirihara’s legs flared in pain with every step he took, but it didn’t matter to him. The only thing on his mind was getting to his partner's home to envelope them in a haphazard attempt at affection deemed ‘normal’ by the rest of society.

Would [Name] even be home? Were they in Shinkoumi tonight? Or were they perhaps over the water? Back on the mainland to handle whatever they had to do there. Kirihara didn’t know for sure, and their schedule was too erratic for him to keep track of when they were in Shinkoumi.

As Kirihara limped up the stairs to their apartment, each step sending jolts of pain through his battered legs, he couldn't help but smile wryly. The throbbing ache was a small price to pay for the twisted comfort it brought him.

He reached the door and fumbled with his key, hands shaking slightly from exhaustion and anticipation. Finally, he managed to unlock it and stepped inside the dimly lit room. 

“[Name]?” Kirihara called out, his voice hoarse. “Are you here?” his voice carried through the apartment hall, raising his brow. Looking down at his feet…no, they were home, their shoes were thrown lazily on the mat, and they were somewhere in the apartment. “[Name]?” Kirihara called out again, removing his boots and placing them neatly beside [Name]'s. 

His feet struck the weathered wooden floor with a rhythmic thump, echoing in the nearly silent space as he ventured deeper into the dimly lit apartment.

Shadows danced along the walls, creating fleeting shapes that seemed to mock his search. Peering into the sparse rooms, he scanned every corner with growing urgency, his heart pounding with a mixture of anxiety and hope. 

Each vacant space he encountered only deepened his sense of dread. Where could [Name] possibly be hiding? They’d never go out this late; they knew better than to do that; even if they knew the streets well enough, they weren’t that moronic to attempt walking the streets alone this late. 

As Nozomu approached [Name]'s bedroom, he noticed faint trickles of light from the crack in the door, allowing him to relax slightly. He pushed the door open and stared at [Name], who sat on their chair, knees pulled tightly against their chest, staring at the computer monitor in front of them. 

Kirihara walked closer, staring at the wadded-up pieces of toilet paper, each stained with blood as [Name]'s fingers sat buried in their mouth, teeth sinking into the soft flesh, lips smeared that beautiful crimson as they gnawed at flesh. In front of them sat something that Kirihara presumed to be something related to schooling.

Honestly, this was just another day in [Name]'s apartment; Kirihara remembered when they first told him about their woes, the insatiable need and desire to consume blood, whether it be their own or that of someone else. [Name] didn’t care as long as they got to taste the iron-laced liquid. 

A particular step creaked the floor in [Name]'s bedroom. [Name]'s eyes flickered to meet Kirihara's gaze, a manic glint dancing within their striking irises.

A thin trail of blood trickled from the corner of their mouth, stark against their skin. They made no move to wipe it away, made no bother to remove their bleeding fingers from their mouth as they watched Kirihara. 

With deliberate movements, they uncurled themselves from the chair with fluid grace, rising to their feet. The movement caused more blood to drip from their chins, splattering onto the already-stained carpet. [Name] paid it no mind, taking a step towards Kirihara.

“Is this what you did all day?” Kirihara questioned, looking at [Name], watching how their throat bobbed with every swallow of their blood. He knew the answer; no doubt they’d spent the hours when Kirihara was at work doing this, gnawing at their fingers, hands, and any flesh on their body they could access, chewing at it until it bled, then drinking up the remains. 

[Name] slowly removed their fingers from their mouth, a string of saliva mixed with blood connecting their lips to their digits briefly before breaking.

They tilted their head toward Kirihara with an unsettling intensity. After a few moments, [Name]'s lips curled into a twisted smirk at Kirihara's question, revealing teeth stained pink with blood before [Name]’s mouth opened to speak.

“I missed you, that was all…” If it were any other situation, Kirihara would be enthralled to hear the words; anyone would be hearing that their partner missed them while they were away at work. But Kirihara and [Name] didn’t have a normal relationship. 

No, after Kirihara mentioned that he accepted [Name]’s odd desire to consume blood, he’d become a walking blood bag for them. Too many times had he been beaten bloody just for them to drink up his blood and tears. It was just how the two of them showed love and adoration for one another, drowning in blood and agonizing pain. 

“That was all? Do you really expect me to believe that was it?” Kirihara questioned, crossing his arms over his chest as he stared down [Name]. Kirihara knew better than to trust [Name]’s words. No matter how sickeningly sweet they spoke, something was always hidden just below the surface. 

Like veins of gold concealed beneath countless layers of sediment, [Name]’s words often concealed a shadowy significance waiting to be uncovered. It was never a matter of intellect to grasp this; Kirihara, with his straightforward yet perceptive nature, understood that depth was beneath [Name]’s seemingly casual remarks.

[Name] shrugged, walking closer to Kirihara, placing one of his bloodied hands on Kirihara’s work shirt, staining the fabric rouge as they balled up the fabric, wrinkling the once pristine shirt.

[Name]'s eyes gleamed with sadistic delight as they watched the crimson stain spread across Kirihara's previously spotless shirt. Their grip tightened, twisting the fabric until it was bunched up tightly in their fist, pulling Kirihara closer.

“You're right, of course. There's always more to the story with me, right?” Their voice was a husky murmur, voice gravelly from lack of use. “What I missed most was how your body yields so beautifully under my touch, even after you beg me to stop.” [Name]'s other hand came up to caress Kirihara's cheek almost tenderly, a stark contrast to the brutal hold on his shirt. “I yearned to paint canvases with your blood again. Tasting your anguish on my tongue as I push you to your limits and beyond.” 

The words sent shivers up and down Kirihara’s aching spine. [Name]'s eyes flashed with predatory hunger as they drank in Kirihara's reaction, relishing every shudder and goosebumps rippled across their skin.

Slowly, deliberately, they licked a smear of blood from the corner of their mouth, the crimson glistening obscenely against the pale pink of their tongue.

Kirihara knew better than to deny [Name] the thing they so desperately craved from him; the fear of what [Name] could do in a rage wasn’t something he wanted to witness firsthand.

But then again, Kirihara craved this type of intimacy, the same kind of agony his brother put him through while they were growing up, that abuse-riddled love that he’d adapted to accept in his adult life now. 

Pulling aside the fabric of his work clothes, revealing already bruised skin riddled with small scarring left behind by [Name]’s slightly sharpened teeth.

[Name]'s gaze raked hungrily over the revealed marred flesh, drinking in every discolored bruise and raised scar like a man starved. 

They leaned in, dragging the flat of their tongue along a particularly vicious set of teeth marks, ones that led to intense bleeding at one point. Kirihara remembered the sensation of his consciousness fading while [Name] scrambled to patch up the wound. But feeling [Name]’s tongue against the old scars made him shudder.

Baring their teeth, strings of saliva snapped as their mouth parted, and low rumbles came from the back of [Name]’s throat as their breathing grew ragged, hands shaking as they gripped the thin, delicate fabric of Kirihara’s shirt. 

[Name]'s breath came hot and heavy against Kirihara's neck as they inhaled deeply, savoring the musk of fear and arousal emanating from their lover's skin. Their grip on the shirt tightened, knuckles turning white as they fought the urge to simply tear the flimsy barrier away and ravage the vulnerable flesh beneath.

Teeth lingered closer to Kirihara’s shoulder, drips of spit slipping past their lips, cascading down Kirihara’s shoulder, staining his shirt. [Name] was like a wild animal, staring down its wounded prey. Kirihara’s scent intoxicated [Name] as if they could smell his blood beneath his skin. 

It made their mind hazy as he lurched forward, sinking their teeth into his flesh, feeling it squish under the pressure of their jaws before popping, allowing the crimson elixir they so eagerly craved, drowning them in the slight sweetness they couldn’t get from their blood. 

The first taste of blood on [Name]'s tongue sent a jolt of pure ecstasy racing through their veins, igniting every nerve ending with searing pleasure.

They groaned around the mouthful of flesh, the sound muffled but no less intense. Kirihara's blood was ambrosia, the nectar of the gods, and [Name] couldn't get enough.

They sucked hard, drawing more of the precious liquid into their mouth, letting it pool on their tongue before swallowing greedily. Until they pulled away, running their tongue desperately along the wound, lapping up whatever attempted to waterfall its way down Kirihara’s body. 

[Name]'s eyes were glazed with bloodlust and unbridled desire as they drank their fill, Kirihara's essence fueling the inferno. When they finally released their bite, a string of bloody saliva connected their lips to the gaping wound. They took a moment to admire their handiwork - the perfect circle of torn flesh, already starting to bruise around the edges.

After admiring the work, [Name]’s head leaned into Kirihara’s chest, nuzzling against it, letting him lean and place his head into their delicate hair. Kirihara’s heart raced, trying to ignore the throbbing pain in his shoulder from the new wound. 

It’d been years since Kirihara felt this way, felt this type of adoration, not since his elder brother went missing. Now, Kirihara had the same love he received in his childhood from someone who cared so deeply about him. 

If the price to keep this person in his life meant they had to consume Kirihara, he’d let them drink as much of his blood as they so craved and devour as much as they so pleased. They could eat every part of him if it meant they stayed in his life…They could consume him, Bones And All. 

[carna-tia]

Part 2!

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Junko - Joanna

Honami - Honorata

Arata Fusa - Agata Fus

Toru Igarashi - Tobiasz Ignaszak

Hideyasu Sakaki - Henryk Sadowski

Masami Toono - Mieszko Tetmajer

Nozomu Kirihara - Nikodem Kiszka

Haruto Sakuragi - Hiacynt Sierakowski

[kiriharafan]

ARUGHRHRGHR AUGRHHRHRHR AUGHRHRHRFFFFF FFFFFFRFFF HHH HHHHHHHHHHH!!!! N !!!!!

Kirihara Nozomu 💕💕💕💕 AUGHRHRHRHD

[suikyounamegami]

Kirihara Megumu

Y pues esta vez le toca el turno a Kirihara Megumu

el hermanito loquito de su hermanito también loquito

y lo que voy a comentar sobre Megumu es acerca de esto ↓

su foto

seguramente fue tomada cuando fue a la tienda euphoria

la foto de Ikuina tiene un color distinto, pero la suya y la de Asakura tienen un fondo del mismo color, así que supongo que tal vez el color dependía de la edad, o de que tanto se ajustaba a la persona, o tal vez simplemente la tuvo que presentar para poder ingresar

¡COMO SEA!

lo que me llama la atención es......

sí sí, ya sé que veo demasiado y le doy mucha vuelta a pequeños detalles que podrían hasta ser irrelevantes 🙄 pero me gusta pensar en todo tipo de teorías 😁

para eso son los misterios, no? 🕵️‍♀️ para estar debatiendo

bueno la cuestión es

¿por qué la foto de Megumu estaba quemada/ensangrentada?

Empiezo con mis teorías

a Maya parecía "gustarle" este chico, seguramente por su naturaleza vi0lenta (y tal vez por su pelo rojo que era un color que a ella le gustaba 😅)

pero no creo que lo quisiera tanto como para andar su foto con ella 24/7

de donde sacó Sakaki esta foto?

y por qué estaba en ese estado?

aquí me voy a salir un poco del tema pero lo voy a mencionar

por qué Sakaki le envió precisamente las fotos de estos tres a Towa? si se supone que hubieron muchos otros "clientes" que también le hicieron heridas a Towa

debería haber mandado más fotos, no?

ellos tenían poco tiempo de haberse mudado a Shinkōmi pero... tampoco es como si Maya/Sakaki hubieran profetizado que estos 3 en específico iban a entrar en contacto con Towa de nuevo 🤨

la tienda euphoria no se quemó, quedó en estado de abandono como todo el resto de la zona especial A después del conflicto interno del grupo

que la foto se haya desteñido debido a humedad? puede ser

pero entonces porque las otras fotos están en mejor estado?

si estaba entre los documentos que se pudieron rescatar, debería estar en un mejor estado, no?

Nozomu estaba obsesionado buscando a su hermano

una posibilidad es que esta foto la tuviera él, y que Sakaki la recuperara cuando se deshizo de él en la ruta de Fujieda

y la otra sería que la recuperara del propio Megumu cuando se "suicidó"

si es que era una mancha de sangre

las páginas del diario de Maya también estaban manchadas

pero como dije, no creo que Maya lo quisiera tanto como para que anduviese la foto de él hasta cuando cayó por las escaleras

no creo que llevara las fotos de los clientes metidas en su diario a todas partes 一一;

o que anduviese el diario al momento de caer

en ese momento lo que menos le podía importar era su diario, ya que iba como loca poseída persiguiendo al pobre Towa 😑

Si nos vamos hasta el principio del juego, el capítulo 0, que es desde donde empieza la ruta común y la ruta de Fujieda

el paquete que le llegó a Towa

Sakaki ya tenía esa foto

eso significa que para este punto todavía no se había "encargado" de Nozomu ⚰

no podría haberla tomado de él 🙅���♀️

por lo que lo más probable entonces sería que la haya tomado de Megumu

pienso que Megumu como la bestia que era, en algún momento volvió a Shinkōmi por más 🔪, y no regresó

de ahí su "desaparición"

algo tiene que haber sucedido, porque, seamos honestos, Megumu nunca se habría suicid@d0 por "sentimientos de culpa"

era un tipo extremadamente vi0lent0

algo tiene que haber hecho haber pasado para que terminara muert0, ¿pero qué hizo?

no se sabe ┑(￣Д ￣)┍

es uno más de "los misterios de SD"

[im-gunna-change-the-world]

Tagged by @perennial-pluvia, thanks bby ily <3 

RULES : Post your top 10 husbandos in no particular order, fictional or real (no real boys near me plz). Ten tag friends to do the same. I’m only going to do fictional husbandos because otherwise my whole list would consist of BTS and then some BTS members again ;) XD  1. Prompto Argentum

2. Yoosung Kim

3. Nozomu Nanase

4. Atom Kirihara

5. Tamura 

6. Noctis Lucis Caelum

7. Makoto Tachibana

8. Arata Uduki/Shun Shimotsuki (They are both so equal on this list I couldn’t decide which one to put and which one to not so they can share number 8)

9. Leorio Paladiknight (he’d treat you right)

10. Delsin Rowe

This took me so long and I have legit no tumblr friends except the person who tagged me so like if you wanna do it then this is your unofficial tag to do it :3 (and if you do tag me so I can see your best bois)  This was one of the hardest choices ever because my list past number 4 changes so much XD

[sweetdarkselfishness]

LIST IDOLS/ Rhythm games

Part1 Part2

UTA NO PRINCE SAMA:

http://utapri.com/cd/

STARISH: Takuma Terashima as Otoya Ittoki Kenichi Suzumura as Masato Hijirikawa Kishô Taniyama as Natsuki Shinomiya Mamoru Miyano as Tokiya Ichinose Junichi Suwabe as Ren Jingūji Hiro Shimono as Shō Kurusu Kousuke Toriumi as Aijima Cecil

QUARTET NIGHT:

Showtaro Morikubo as Reiji Kotobuki Tatsuhisa Suzuki as Ranmaru Kurosaki Shouta Aoi as Ai Mikaze Tomoaki Maeno as Camus

HEAVENS:

Otori Eiichi (CV. Midorikawa Hikaru) Mikado Nagi (CV. Yonaga Tsubasa) Sumeragi Kira (CV. Ono Daisuke) Eiji Otori (CV. Yuma Uchida) Kiryuin Van (CV. Takahashi Hidenori) Hyuga Yamato (CV. Ryōhei Kimura) Amakusa Shion (CV. Daiki Yamashita)

Tsukino talent production:

http://tsukino-pro.com/talent_artist/

Six Gravity Kaji Yuki as Shiwasu Kakeru Toriumi Kousuke as Mutsuki Hajime Masuda Toshiki as Kisaragi Koi Maeno Tomoaki as Yayoi Haru Hosoya Yoshimasa as Uduki Arata KENN as Satsuki Aoi

Procellarum

Aoi Shouta as Minaduki Rui Hatano Wataru as Fuduki Kai Kakihara Tetsuya as Haduki You Kondo Takashi as Nagatsuki Yoru Ono Kensho as Kannaduki Iku Kimura Ryouhei as Shimotsuki Shun

Soara:

Chiharu Sawashiro as Nozomu Nanase Makoto Furukawa as Sōshi Kagurazaka Taishi Murata as Ren Munakata Toshiyuki Toyonaga as Sora Ōhara Yuuki Ono as Morihito Arihara

SolidS:

Natsuki Hanae as Rikka Sera Sōma Saitō as Tsubasa Okui Takuya Eguchi as Shiki Takamura Yuichiro Umehara as Dai Murase

QUELL:

Kōtarō Nishiyama as Eichi Horimiya Sho Nogami as Ichiru Kuga Shugo Nakamura as Issei Kuga Shunsuke Takeuchi as Shu Izumi

Growth:

oshitaka Yamaya as Kensuke Yaegashi Daiki Yamashita as Ryōta Sakuraba Junta Terashima as Mamoru Fujimura Shun'ichi Toki as Kōki Etō

The Wizard Of Twins (Futago no Mahoutsukai ) Lico & Gli

Hirakawa Daisuke as Bisu Jr. Shimazaki Nobunaga as Gli Hidenori Takahashi as Dia Kaito Ishikawa as Lise Atsushi Tamaru as Stein Minase Inori as Lico

Tsukicro’s /Tsukikura (ALTAIR THEATER) : Rigel Regulus Sargas

Dynamic Chord:

http://www.honeybee-cd.com/dynamic/artist/index.html

KYOSHO: Showtaro Morikubo como Yorito Kisaka (voz) Shinnosuke Tachibana como Tokiharu Hanabusa (guitarra) Kaito Ishikawa como Yuu Kuroya (bajo) Taku Yashiro como Shinomune Sumiya (batería)

LIAR-S: Takuma Terashima como Sakura Hinoyama (guitarra y voz) Nobuhiko Okamoto como Chiya Suzuno (guitarra) Tetsuya Kakihara como Seri Yuisaki (batería) Souma Saitou como Soutarou Haruna (bajo)

Apple-polisher: Shouta Aoi como Narumi “NaL” Amagi (voz) Takahiro Sakurai como Yuusei “Toi” Atoishi (batería) Yoshiki Nakajima como Yuki “UK” Aoi (guitarra) Yuichiro Umehara como Shinobi “Kuro” Kurosawa (bajo)

Rēve parfait: Takuya Eguchi como Reon “King” Kashii (voz) Ryohei Kimura como Tsumugi “Bishop” Momose (bajo) Kousuke Toriumi como Kuon “Rook” Tsukinohara (guitarra) Yuuya Hirose como Aki “Knight” Kashii (batería)

IDOLISH:

http://idolish7.com/unit/

Idolish7

Toshiki Masuda as Iori Izumi Yusuke Shirai as Yamato Nikaidō Tsubasa Yonaga as Mitsuki Izumi KENN as Tamaki Yotsuba Atsushi Abe as Sōgo Ōsaka Takuya Eguchi as Nagi Rokuya Kensho Ono as Riku Nanase

Trigger:

Wataru Hatano as Gaku Yaotome Sōma Saitō as Ten Kujō Takuya Satō as Ryūnosuke Tsunashi

ZOOL:

Hirose Yuuya as Haruka Isumi Kimura Subaru as Touma Inumaru Nishiyama koutarou as Minami Natsume Kondo Takashi as Torao Mido

RE:VALE

Tachibana Shinnosuke as Yuki Hoshi Soichiro as Momo

Starevo:

http://starevo.jp/unit/

Pura net Ootori Kei: Okuyama Keito Kushiro Jun: Yano Shougo Kozuka Rin: Nagatsuka Takuma Suzume Chiaki: Ichikawa Taichi

4+U Shirokita Noel: Nakada Yuuya Saotome Seia: Tamaru Atsushi Tenma Kaito: Yashiro Taku Tsurugi Mio: Furukawa Makoto

Judgement Sumishiro Yuki: Terashima Junta Yagasaki Akira: Uchida Yuma Tendou Nozomi: Shirai Yusuke Asahina Senya: Nishiyama Kotaro

Niko*Ichi Namiki Tera: Tokutake Tatsuya Namiki Giga: Fukamachi Toshinari

Luna Lore Kanno Takuto: Ikuta Youji Harima Rito: Chiba Shoya Mikekado Shiita: Yamaya Yoshitaka

Glorious Hanabusa Mizuki: Sasa Tsubasa Hashizume Rudolf: Ookawa Genki Shidou Hayate: Zaima Kenta

Petit March Uomi Ai: Abe Daiki Ooguma Hitoshi: Yonai Yuuki Yagi Kanata: Fudemura Eishin

Mobius: (cast:unknow)

7colors:

https://dream.voltage.co.jp/anidol/character/

Yuto Suzuki Taku Yashiro Junta Terashima Yamaya Yoshitaka Yusuke Shirai Shunichi Toki Junya Enoki

Clarity: Tasuku Hatanaka Shunsuke Takeuchi Masatomo Nakazawa Shuuta Morishima

Bproject:

http://bpro-official.com/music/

Killer King‎: Koutaro Nishiyama:  Terami Tsu Taku Yashiro: Terami Haruhi Shouya Chiba:  Fudo Akane Takuya Eguchi:  Shingaris Miroku

Kitakore‎: Ashuu Yuuta:Hanae Natsuki Kaneshiro Goushi :Toyonaga Toshiyuki Aizome Kento:Kato Kazuki

Moons‎:   Yuuto Uemura as Masunaga Kazuna Tetsuya Kakihara as Onzai Momotaro Genki Okawa as Nome Tatsuhiro Toshiki Masuda as Sakimura Mikado

Thrive‎: Korekuni Ryuuji:Kishio Daisuke Kitakado Tomohisa:Ono Daisuke

I-CHUU:

https://www.i-chu.jp/unit/

F∞F: KENN Toyonaga Toshiyuki Iguchi Yūichi  

Twinkle Bell: Morikubo Showtaro Kondō Takashi

I♥B: Hanae Natsuki Masuda Toshiki   Yuuichirou Umehara Nakanishi Naoya Junya Enoki

POP'N STAR: Murase Ayumu   Amasaki Kouhei   Yamamoto Kazutomi

Lancelot: Maeno Tomoaki Shirai Yuusuke Uchida Yuuma

RE:BERSERK: Shimono Hiro Shimozuma Yoshiyuki Kakihara Tetsuya

Tenjyou Tenge: Saito Soma Kimura Ryouhei Ono Yuuki Minegishi Kei

ArS: Hirakawa Daisuke Matsuoka Yoshitsugu Kagura Hiroyuki Atsushi Tamaru Yachi Katsufumi Roa Kenji

Alchemist: Nishiyama Kōtarō Takumi Yasuaki Kobayashi Yuusuke

Dream Festival:

http://www.dream-fes.com/cd/

Ace: Asuma Ogasawara: Tatsuhisa Suzuki Eiji Katsuragi: Junji Majima Chikage Saotome: Atsushi Abe

Sankishi: Haruto Mikami: Toshiyuki Morikawa Makoto Susa: Fumihiko Tachiki Ikka Saotome: Hikaru Midorikawa

Dear Dream: Takuya Mizoguchi   Soma Ishihara   Kentaro Tomita   Masaki Ōta Kaoru Masaki

KUROFUNE: Kimito Totani Hideaki Kabumoto

Pitagoras Production:

http://marginal4.net/artist/

Marginal 4: L Nomura  by KENN Atom Kirihara  by Toshiki Masuda Rui Aiba  by Naozumi Takahashi R Nomura  by Yuuto Suzuki

Unicorn jr: Shouta Aoi as Tsubasa Shindō Chiharu Sawashiro as Alto TakimaruToshiyuki Someya as Teruma Nakama

Lagrange point: Toshiyuki Toyonaga as Shy Makishima   Genki Okawa as Kira Himuro

[night-willows]

Hi hello I’m thinking about Kirihara today so I’m subjecting you all to another infodump

TW: everything in Kirihara’s chapter (abuse, violence, etc.)

Interrupting my regularly scheduled Asakura hyperfixation with a Kirihara hyperfixation! This man is very in my brain today. I love him he’s so very fucked up. His absolute obsession with his brother is just so… sad honestly. But god I love the angst so. He has based his ENTIRE identity around someone who has only ever hurt and abused him, because that’s all he’s ever known. We don’t know much about his parents but I doubt they were great if they just let his brother abuse him. His brother was likely the only person paying much attention to him at all. He was his whole world. Sure he was treating him horribly, but Kirihara didn’t even know what being treated kindly felt like. All he knew was his brother’s violence and how it made him happy. All he wanted was to make him happy, because he was his everything. He was all the attention he’d ever received. And then suddenly he just doesn’t have that anymore because his brother abandons him. He’s not better off without the abuse because it’s all he’s ever known and he doesn’t know how to exist without it. He gets terrible abandonment issues from this, he feels so deeply insecure, like he’s not good enough to satisfy his brother anymore. The role he’s played his whole life was his brother’s victim, all he’s been good for is bringing him a sadistic sense of pleasure. He’s very jealous when it comes to his brother too, he needs to be his one and only victim or else he loses his sense of purpose. Who is he without that? Kirihara’s world is his brother, being his brother’s punching bag, without that there’s nothing. At its core I think it’s that sense of nothingness that his brother leaves him with that drives him. He goes on to do everything in his power to get him back. Both literally looking for him and molding his own personality into his memories of him. He has become the exact same kind of violent abusive person that his brother was, desperately trying to hold onto his image. He’s trying to capture his brother’s attention, maybe he’d notice what he’s doing and be proud of the violent person he’s become. Of course, he’d adopt the role of his victim again the second he found him. Actually Kirihara IS still playing the victim role, with his Mizuno persona. Mizuno is the victim, Kirihara is the abuser, and with that he keeps his and his brother’s relationship alive within himself. EVERYTHING he does is some sort of desperate attempt to get his brother back. He’s become him so he won’t have to be left alone and purposeless. Acting like his brother brings him comfort, getting beat up brings him comfort. All because it helps him feel connected to him. And what’s really sad is we know his brother is dead. He never even had a chance at ever finding him again anyway. And Kirihara will never know what he’s missing out on, he’s so focused on trying to become his brother’s victim again that he’ll never know what it’s like to genuinely be loved and cared for. Even if anyone tried he wouldn’t be able to enjoy it, he’s so used to what he considers “love” being abuse. His world is still only his brother. Even though he’s free from the abuse now, he doesn’t see that there’s so much else in life to experience. He doesn’t see his brother’s disappearance as freedom to explore what the rest of the world has to offer, but as the one thing in his world, the one person who needed him, being lost. He doesn’t want anyone else, he doesn’t want anyone who will treat him kindly. To him they’re nothing, all he’s ever known is violence so that’s all that matters.

I hope that made sense?? Sorry I’m just rambling but. Kirihara <33 love him <33 it WOULD be cool to see him get character development and learn to let himself be loved and move on from his brother but. Unfortunately I’m pretty sure he dies in canon- as I said I am an angst enjoyer though so I am throughly entertained by his story even without a happy ending

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Kirihara my favorite little freak <3

(I would like to let you know that this previously had the tag “love it when men are bleeding and crying” but tumblr wouldn’t let it appear in the tags or be searched until I removed it. They’re trying to silence me)

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Slow Damage plushie interest checks!

A website called plushwonderland is interested in making slow damage plushies! They just need enough people to invest money into them to know people are interested in buying them! How it works is you give them 5$ per plushie you’re interested in, plus another 5$ if you want them to make their clothes. If they make the plushies you get a discount and if they don’t you get your money back!

There’s Towa!

Ikuina!

Asakura! (My wife pls pls invest in him I need him desperately- willing to bribe people with art lmao)

And Megumu Kirihara for some reason! Did they get the wrong Kirihara? Who knows! But for the one person out there who is a fan of him (that would be Nozomu Kirihara) now is your chance!

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Learning how to use Tumblr exclusively to post Slow Damage fanart because I’m currently hyperfixated on it. Hello. Have a Kirihara

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Kirihara button/Discord emoji! Like the others, this is free to use as an emoji for your server and for you to make into your own button. Might eventually sell these on Etsy too! That’s a far future thing, but if anyone is interested let me know.

Character requests for these are still open!

You can request anyone from Slow Damage or Clean Dishes. Requests get higher priority so they will be made sooner! Feel free to comment or dm any requests!

Current work order:

My favorites/my friend's favorites:

Ikuina, Eiji (order not definite, I'm working on these in whatever order I feel like)

Requests:

Rei

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Kirihara brainworms have requested brother art. Most of being hyperfixated on Kirihara involves thinking about him thinking about his brother so. Unfortunately he is blorbo by proxy now

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Seeing someone talk about Kirihara made me so happy! I love that sicko so much. His chapter is my second favorite so far... actually obsessed with him. Thank you so much!

Yayy this makes me so happy too!! I love providing content for my underrated faves, I’m so glad other Kirihara fans can appreciate it. But yeah I love him too!! My favorite little freak!! I am right there with you the obsession is strong… he will not leave my brain <33

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@mukuberry (@ ing you to respond to your tags but this post as a whole is not aimed at you specifically lol) I don’t normally respond to tags but! First I wanted to say yes absolutely I am right there with you. I am devastated I want the other Kirihara too. I’ve been hyperfixated on him for weeks- Give us our freaky little guy please!!

But also! The reason I am actually making this post is because I’ve thought about it and I have a theory as to why they are making Megumu and not Nozomu!

So, iirc how this website works is that people email them suggesting characters to make into plushies, then they put out these interest checks based on suggestions. My theory is that someone emailed them saying they should do plushies for Ikuina, Asakura, and Kirihara from slow damage. I doubt whoever is in charge of going through emails to put up interest checks played slow damage, so they had to look up the characters.

If you look up “slow damage Kirihara” Megumu’s page comes up first!

This is because the first results are from the slow damage wiki. On the wiki, Megumu Kirihara’s page actually says Kirihara in the title. Nozomu Kirihara’s page, however, is just titled Mizuno. Someone who hasn’t played the game would just assume that Megumu is the character who is being requested!! Because it says his name is Kirihara and Nozomu’s doesn’t!

Best course of action to get a plushie of the correct Kirihara is to email them for a suggestion of him, and explain the mix up! Maybe link to a picture of Kirihara too unless we want them to make a Mizuno plushie instead. Tbh I might do this but I’m scared of confrontation so- if anyone else ends up doing this let me know and if no one has in a few days I’ll do it myself lol