#kinsational

[ayatoscupid]

confession and valentine!!

i'll answer for c... c........ cain...... i guess.. . , .,. ..,

confession — how’d the confession happen, and looking back on it, what are your (and f/o’s) thoughts abt how you both were back then?

haven't confessed bc just thinking about him makes me wanna whack him /j well.. considering how in denial i love being i think it's pretty obv that he confessed first HJFDHGH and it was really just .. a spontaneous thing!! which is kinda cute for someone who usually has the most elaborate plans and makes sure they go as smoothly as possible... um don't tell him that though lol!! anyway he confessed on impulse right before i had to leave for a while, so we were both basically agonising over it until we could meet again, when i could finally say i like him back (NOT!! jk.. o<_<) but we both definitely laugh on cain's impulsiveness when he confessed, and well, he kinda knows that i thought he was really cute... so..... dies

valentine — gush about your valentine! ^^

UMMM... no thx !! /j well !! fun fact, before i admitted that i have a huge crush on him , cain was my best friend bcs we're very similar ppl :') my irl best friend basically kinsat me him while i had a toe dipped into g//bf (yrs ago) n i was like "how the shit did u read me so well" and well !! bcs of that, reading his development quite touched me, as also someone who has a lot to heal from n is gradually finding better ways to cope ... seeing him grow and seeing the support system he has with the n//alhegrande cast n the crew makes me rly happy, bc he really does deserve all that support !! and i just know that abel is proud of how far he's come, n he's watching over him and leona with nothing but love and warmth.... also he's just . exactly my type too FKHGDFL ive said this before .. men with secrets!! men with secret sides that i can gently pry into, guys who i want to let know that they can feel safe around me ... yeah hfdgklf i l..... * **** ***...........

[cwombw]

so.... somebody i was dating up until about an hour or two ago is abusive and an abuse apologist

i’m gonna keep it short and im going to leave out a lot of things from public view unless somebody asks to see it, mostly for my peace of mind, literally no other reason, rest assured i have chatlogs and screenshots of what happened between us.

edit: the person in question is jeremytheman and runs a few other blogs including a dear even hansen kin aesthetics blog, he also runs kinsational, a kinchat i originally created myself. (it was dumb to give him server owner permissions, i know.) if you are in kinsational i implore you to leave. i will be remaking kinsational myself later.

lets just start off with this copy paste i have here bc it sums up what happened.

nicc-Today at 2:06 PM

hes abusive and an abuse apologist i told him about somebody who hurt me and my girlfriend and he instantly sided with them despite not having any proof that i was lying he called me a liar multiple times within the past hour, accused me of manipulating him and abusing him and abusing this person. even after i gave him all the proof i could he admitted to having lied about loving me and being happy with me and accused me of making him feel suicidal

screenshot of the message so im not accused of faking it. (fixed some typos in the c/p lol)

last night i had a huge breakdown where because of something my girlfriend said to me and has been saying to me for a short while now, i thought that i HAD to dump both this person and my other boyfriend in order to not make my gf jealous or hurt anymore, it literally tore at my heart and after sleeping on it after talking to star about it i realized that i could be with them anyway, it wasn’t my fault nor was it on me because star made me think that and star was the one who needed to change, not me. i apologized to both of them.

i was in the middle of trying to figure things out with jeremy (debated whether or not to name drop him..) when somebody who i already have a callout for joined this kin server we were both in that i had JUST joined moments prior. panicking i pushed him away and left the server and blocked the server owner. immediately upon talking to the person i called out jeremy decided that i was lying and trying to abuse this person with no proof from their side and proceeded to hound me for proof (which i gave all that i had to him but apparently it wasn’t enough. this is ironic considering he believed me about my abuser before despite having the same amount of proof.) panicking, upset, and very hurt i split on him and tried both to convince him that i was telling the truth and cushion the inevitable by saying coping statements (even if unhealthy) such as “you never loved me”, etc.

he started accusing me of guilt tripping him and being abusive, explicitly stating that he thought i was abusing him. he then admitted that he has been lying and hiding how he’s really felt towards me since day one (which is essentially summed up to “i never loved you”)

he said that ive made him miserable and suicidal and says that him betraying me isn’t an excuse for me “abusing” him

he said that me leaving chats he was in to avoid people i didn’t want to be around or me leaving group chats he’s in because i want some alone time and i feel like i’m not good enough to be included in his dating circle is abusive and manipulative. this is straight up a tactic that my abuser has used against me in order to control me, which he would know about, considering that i have shown him what my abuser has done to me before.

he said that me saying i wanted to kms is abusive and manipulative, further fueled by the fact that i am genuinely suicidal, according to him. he knows that i am off my anti depressants, having vented about it before where he could see it, he also knows that i have attempted before, so i have a complicated relationship with suicidal ideation.

he says that me saying nobody cares about me is manipulative and guilt tripping, except that i don’t say it to do that or even think about it like that, its just me venting, because i genuinely believe that it is true unless im having a good day, which is rare now due to me being off my meds and not being able to see a therapist for some time now, another thing he is blatantly aware of.

i tried begging him to talk to me about things, i offered to drop my stance about defending myself and my girlfriend against the person i had called out and listen to him which he then called another guilt tripping/manipulation tactic, which, while i was desperate to just.. make him believe i was telling the truth and to not leave me, again, i never thought of it that way, nor did i intend for it to be that way, if anything i was hoping that he would at least talk things out with me properly if i stopped being so headstrong and brash.

i have no idea if he plans to turn people against me or make a callout for me, i hope not.

i myself have been telling people what hes done to me and how hes made me feel (more than one occasion has made me feel worthless and made me want to die, among other things) not to turn others against him but to warn him about the kind of person he is, if they side with him, that’s their decision, but i really don’t want to be around the people who would side with him about what went down, considering the context.

if you know him or have met him and you believe him and the person i called out please go ahead and let me know i will remove you from my life. i don’t do devils advocate and i dont do spies.

[armandyke]

river, if you take up smoking I will PERSONALLY fly to the other side of the world to smack the cigarette away from you

hakjdhsakdhaskda I’m not going to I’d literally rather die than go near a cigarette

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

my wife is too uncomfortable with zombies and necromancy to read the source but i kinsat them right from the start and theyre so sweet about it,, sometimes they call me wei ying just to fluster me eheheheh, i know theyre my lan zhan even if they can never properly kin him ! 🥰🥰

[muabandatdongnai]

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[beelzeebot]

cool small inclusive server!  we’re all a family in kinsational. we accept doubles and all kinds of kin within reason we got a lot of channels for any thing you want. we also have spaces for divination  we got some cool bots, including one for music and a starboard. we accept any kin that’s 13 and up if youre interested then check us out at  [REDACTED] open to suggestions on how to improve also~

kinsational is currently being run by an abuser, i will be remaking the entire server without him involved.

[m-asami]

倫理ツイート

@kinsate: 外国人犯罪者と倫理観崩壊している集団の言うことを信じる連中って傍から���たらとんでもない集団だよな from http://twitter.com/kinsate

[vrson]

The mystery is , whether that was a memory of being a creature who breathed underwater, and swimming and feeling the water rushing around me, or if I was just feeling like thatd be cool,

[m-asami]

倫理ツイート

@kinsate: 外国人犯罪者とその集団に躍らされた秘守義務違反おじさんと倫理観が崩壊している連中に躍らされてる癖に信用できないってお前すげえ倫理観してるなクソども from http://twitter.com/kinsate

[vrson]

Last night I randomly remembered calling gaster "goots" when I was too young to pronounce his name right. I think he was like a parent figure to us? Or something I dunno

[vrson]

Sometimes I'm like, nice I'm someone's fav character but then I remember I wouldn't be their fav if they had the misfortune of actually meeting me

[vrson]

I want to go back.

[vrson]

Me @ someone cosplaying Me™: you don't look like me sorry Me (looking @mirror): it's okay though I don't look like me either

[vrson]

WHEN THEY CALL ME KID I

[vrson]

Also: me: time to look up really sad death note stuff Me: ok but no? U started crying and had awful kin feels for the rest of the night last time you even ACCIDENTALLY saw ONE SAD PICTURE me: yeah but. I love to suffer???

[vrson]

Seeing something about me and liz: points excitedly Realizing its a shipping thing: retracts hand awkwardly and walks away slowly