#kinda random but i realized i haven’t posted myself on my main since high school

[yellowmotorola]

My Halloween ୧ ‧₊˚ 🦇⋅ ☆

Happy Halloween 🎃 babies 🦇 i hope U were all safe and had fun! 🩷 October has been a super hard month for me :bb but i’m Still Hawt! /|㇏^•ᵥᵥ•^ノ|\

[kerikaaria]

About Me!

Name: Keri

My real name is Jessica but Keri is a nickname made by friends i had in an MMORPG where I named my character Kerika. I really like it and it just kinda stuck 😁

Birthday: December 7, 1992

Yes, I am indeed 3 days younger than the Worldwide Handsome Kim Seokjin 🙂

Astrology Sign: Sagittarius

Chinese Zodiac: Water monkey

Pronouns: She/her

Country of origin: USA

Ethnicity: White. I'm just pure white lol. Ethnically a mix of mostly western European countries, primarily Ireland and Scotland, according to Ancestry DNA.

BTS stuff

Army since: 2014, Dark & Wild era. I knew of them since debut and kept tabs on them, slowly liking them a bit more over time but wasn't really an army until then

Bias: I'm really OT7 but am Taegi impartial. Tae was my original bias and later Yoongi was the next one to destroy me frequently lol.

Other general stuff

Writing: I started writing fics in December 2019, and started posting here on tumblr around July 2020.

However, I had written stories long before that. Ever since I was 12 years old I started developing an interest in writing. By the time I graduated high school, I had the majority of a 5 book series plotted out and frequently would spend time on my stories for a few years or so still.

But I came to a standstill when I realized I needed to do a lot of research to flesh out huge parts of the stories and because I was lazy, I ended up slowly writing less.

I started reading fan fiction in 2019 and finding great authors and super well- written stories influenced me to give it a shot myself 🙂 and I'm so happy I started writing again! I forgot how much I loved it.

I was a huge music/ band geek in school. My main instrument was the flute/piccolo and I played the piano on my own. But I also played the Steel Drums (Double Tenor), Bagpipes, and mallet instruments (i.e. xylophone, but I primarily played the Vibraphone). I also began to learn the cello and trombone but only for a year.

Other random stuff:

Recently discovered what demisexual is and I 100% identify with that. I find it kind of odd to be considered a part of the community all of a sudden when I never thought I was, but the term is definitely important to me. It came to me during a time when the people around me were making me feel weird for the way i have to approach relationships and intimacy and felt like I can change and they wanted to change it. So it was a comfort to be able to know this was a thing other people felt important enough to give a name.

I dont play anymore. I have a flute but rarely pull it out now, and I wish I could play piano again but I have a problem with my wrists that makes it painful to play for long so I unfortunately can't 😔

I found Kdrama and Kpop around 2010. My first dramas were Mischievous Kiss (the Japanese one is FAR better omg) and Boys Over Flowers. The first Kpop groups I checked out were SS501 and CN Blue.

Some of my favs over the years have been MBLAQ, B1A4, BTOB, VIXX, B.A.P., SHINee, CN Blue, Eric Nam, U-KISS, f(x), and of course BTS.

Since becoming an Army I've slowly entered a bubble of primarily BTS. But I have been meaning to expand into other groups fellow fans have recommended to me. But still haven't gotten around to it lol.

I think that's about all I can think of for now! If you are curious about other things or have questions for me, always feel free to send me an ask!

[lovemesomesurveys]

A How artistic are you? I’m not at all. Do you want to go to Africa? I’d love to stay at Giraffe Manor! AC/DC or Aerosmith? Aerosmith. 
Do you know what Armenia is?
  Yes.

B
 What’s your beer of choice (if any)?  Blech, none. Do you know the title of Buffalo Springfield’s one-hit wonder?  Okay, I didn’t recognize the name so I Googled it and yes, I am familiar with their one hit wonder. I actually wasn’t familiar with the song title either, but after reading the lyrics I quickly realized what song it was. Do you have a brother? (Do you like it that way?) I have two brothers, and yes I love them. Which bank do you use?  Not sharing that. C
 Which comedian do you most enjoy?  I think Kevin Hart is funny. Would you ever live in California?  I have all my life. Is it possible/likely that you’ll become a cat lady?  *Dog lady, but yes. How many different countries have visited? Just one. D
 Do you believe there’s a devil? Yes. But demons maybe?  Yes. Does eating dessert often make you feel guilty?  Nope. Can you legally drive?  I’m definitely old enough to have my license, but I don’t.  What have you been diagnosed with (if you don’t mind sharing)? Depression, anxiety, and other physical health stuff. E
 How often do you drink energy drinks?  I like to drink Starbucks Doubleshot energy drinks often. 
Where did you live when you were 11 years old? The house next door to where I live now, ha. We had our big move to the house next door to us haha about 10 years ago because our landlords wanted to install new flooring and stuff to our house, but since they had just finished this one they offered for us to just move in here lol. Do you like the actor who played Edward Scissorhands in that movie?
 Why not just say Johnny Depp? Anyway, yes, I think he’s a very talented actor. Have you ever felt an earthquake?  No, just aftershocks from one. F
 When was the last time you saw your father one-on-one? Yesterday. Do you think French is the most beautiful language?  I don’t know what I’d say is the most beautiful language. Is Friday your favorite day of the week?  No. All the days are the same for me, so meh. Have you listened to Jimi’s song ‘Fire?’  Doesn’t sound familiar. G
 Do you have real gold jewelry?  No. How often do you watch ‘Gossip Girl’?  I never have. Is Google your homepage?  Yeah. 
Do you like Geico’s commercials? Most of them are annoying. The gecko character is cute, though. H
 When did you last feel happy? Uhhh. Do you prefer Hollister, Hot Topic, or H&M?  Hot Topic is the only one I shop at now, but I used to shop at the other 2 as well. Did you dress up last Halloween?  Nope. I stopped doing that a few years ago. Would you voluntarily watch the History Channel?  Yeah and I do if there’s something of interest on. I
 Have you ever been on an island?  No. I live on one in Animal Crossing, though. ha. Would you be able to locate Indonesia on a globe?  I think so. Do you know if Iceland or Greenland has more ice?  Greenland. I remember it’s the opposite of their name for some reason. 
Did you watch the last presidential inauguration?  No. J
 Do you enjoy jogging?  No. On which instrument could you most easily play ‘Jingle Bells’?  I’ve played it on the piano. How much do you know about John Lennon? *shrug* I know some stuff. Do you know how Jell-O is made?  I know how to make Jell-O with the mix, but no I don’t know how the mix itself is made. K
 Have you tried Krispy Kreme doughnuts? (Was it love at first bite?) Yeah, but no they’re definitely not my favorite. They’re not real donuts to me, they’re just pure sugar.  
How many pairs of khaki pants do you own? “Uh, khakis?” ha, if you know, you know. Anyway, I don’t own any. 
Have you ever been a fan of the Killers?  Yeah. L
 Does it bother you when couples are lovey-dovey in public? No, unless they’re having like full on makeout sessions, straddling each other and feeling each other up and whatnot lol. Hand holding/locked arms/arm around each other, hugging, little pecks, and just being playful with each other is cute.  
Do you have your own lighter (why or why not)?  No. I don’t have a need for one. In how many languages (besides English) can you count to 100?  I can in Spanish. What’s your favorite lollipop flavor? Not a lollipop fan. M
 Do you believe in miracles (why or why not)? I do because I'm a woman of faith. What do you think of shows like Maury and Jerry Springer? I used to like watching Maury, Jerry Springer was just for laughs.  
Do you care that Mars (the candy co.) uses deadly animal testing? I haven’t heard that... I’d have to fact check. How did you form your opinion of marijuana? Based off the research supporting that it has a lot of benefits. I was especially swayed when I saw how it helped cancer patients.

N
 How often do you sleep naked?  Never. I wouldn’t find that comfortable at all, I very much like being clothed.  Do you actually check the Nutrition Facts before eating something?  Not usually, but I sometimes will just out of curiosity. 
Who is your favorite musical artist/band beginning with ‘N’? Nirvana. 
How nerdy are you (in what ways)? I’m socially awkward, for one. I also cared about school and did well, which is often considered nerdy. Also, a book nerd, Star Wars nerd, Marvel and DC movies nerd...  I enjoy those things so I don’t care, but they’re deemed “nerdy.” What do you think about olives?  Black olives are good, green olives are gross. Are you much of an outdoorsy person? Not at all. The only time I enjoy being outside is when I’m sitting out at the beach. How big of an Oprah fan are you?  I don’t really consider myself a fan. How often do you shop online?
  Quite often. P
 Are you looking forward to your prom? If you already went, how was it? My prom was over a decade ago D: Anyway,  I danced with the guy I had a huge crush on at the time, so hey it wasn’t too bad. How are your local policemen? I think they do a pretty good job overall.  What is your ideal PB&J sandwich like? Just peanut butter and grape jelly, pretty simple. What do you think of the movie ‘Pineapple Express’? I could not get into that movie at all.  Q
 How true is the saying, ‘quitters never win and winners never quit’?  I mean, can’t say “never”, but the main point from the saying makes sense. Do you prefer Quiznos or Subway and why?  I’ve gone to Subway many times, but I think I’ve only been to a Quiznos once or twice. Have you learned the quadratic formula yet? (Do you remember it?) I think I actually remember it. What is the one question you most want to ask someone and who?
  I don’t know. R
 How many rooms are in your home?  2 bedrooms. 
Do you like raspberries?
  Nah. What’s one of your best memories from during a rain storm? Hmm. I don’t know, but I just really love that kind of weather. 
Have you actually read Shakespeare’s ‘Romeo & Juliet’?  Yeah, my freshman year in high school. S
 Do you know any Sign Language?  I know the alphabet and a few sayings. What is your sleeping schedule generally like?  Oh, my sleeping schedule is an absolute joke. How well do you sing? I can’t sing well at all. How often do you listen to 60-70’s music? Now and then. I actually have several songs on my main Spotify playlist from those decades. T What do you think of Twitter?  I like being able to post my random thoughts and following certain celebrities and just interesting people for funny and interesting stuff. How much do you value the Ten Commandments?  I value them a lot. Are there many trees where you live?  Not really. 
How much taller/shorter do you wish to be? “I wish I was a little bit taller.” 🎶

U
 Where do you usually buy your underwear?  Various places. How do you define ‘ugly’?  It goes a lot deeper than just the outer appearance. Do you like to shop at Urban Outfitters?  I’ve only been to an actual store a couple times and I’ve checked out their website a few times, but I just think they’re ridiculously overpriced. V
 Would you like being described as ‘voluptuous’? No one would use that word to describe me. 
For listening to music, do you like to crank up the volume or keep it calm? I like it at a reasonable level, I don’t need it blaring.  Do you ever watch the annual Victoria’s Secret fashion show? They cancelled that a few years ago, but I never had any interest in watching that. 
Would you agree that ‘variety is the spice of life’?  Yeah. W
 Are you currently on wireless Internet?  Yeah, that’s all I have. I haven’t had to connect to a wifi router or whatever with a cord in a very long time. Can you recall memories of learning how to whistle? I still can’t do it. Do you go to White Castle or just vicariously through ‘Harold & Kumar'? I’ve never actually been to one cause they don’t have one anywhere near me (they’re on the east coast, I’m a west coast gal). I’ve only had the the White Castle burgers from the store that you cook in the microwave. I actually like them, but I’m sure the real deal is even better. X
 Why did you need your most recent x-ray and what were the results? I had to get a CT Scan a couple years ago. When it comes to ‘xoxo’, do you interpret ‘x’ as the hug or the kiss?  It’s hugs and kisses, so the X’s are hugs. What does X stand for in Roman numerals? Can you write the previous number?  X is 10, IX is 9. Why do you think xylophones are only popular with young children? That’s true, that is a pretty common baby toy. At least it was when I was little. Also, I played the xylophone in music class in elementary school. I don’t know why that’s a thing with kids. Y
 Can you explain the meaning of the yin-yang symbol? Opposite, but complimentary principles. Like, you can’t have good without bad, lightness without darkness, etc. It’s about balance. Do people more often mistake you as being younger or older than you are? Younger. Did you know that yawning is contagious?  Yeah.  Would you like a bottle of Yoo-Hoo or it’s not really your thing?  I actually like Yoo-Hoo, but I prefer it in the little carton or whatever with the straw (kinda like a Capri Sun, but it’s a box carton). It’s the perfect size, not too much. The strawberry one is my favorite. I haven’t had one in a long time, though. Z
 How many places’ zip codes do you know by heart?  Uhh, not many. What comes to mind when I say ‘Zero to Hero’? Disney’s Hercules movie.

[haljathefangirlcat]

still thinking about that “we Have To Talk about how quips are ruining fandom by destroying meta and turning all fic into shitposts” post @ms-demeanor wrote a great rebuttal to, and about the other posts she wrote about it and about the You’re Doing Fandom Wrong attitude in it, and about the notes on those posts. not gonna reblog or reply to any of those because my thoughts are admittedly kind of random and jumping from place to place and probably OT to the point of the discussion, but you know. still thinking.

so, uh. not trying to start wank or anything but enjoy the ranting that got way out of hand under the cut.

so, like... that one “we can’t just block everyone who quips and shitposts because some of these people also write actual meta but then they unfortunately go back to Not Engaging With Canon by writing quippy shitpost-y stuff” line, or however it was actually phrased? besides the blatant entitlement with the “you have to fandom ONLY in ways I like, I can’t just engage with the part of the content you create that I’m interested in and scroll past the rest” thing (which kinda reminds me of the whole “you can’t CNTW on some of your fics, I should be able to read ALL of your fics” thing, in a way) and the ”I refuse to curate my fandom experience and I’ll make it some stranger’s problem” thing (which... reminds me of a few other things, but tbf it has probably been around since the very first days of fandom), what if someone doesn’t even see meta and quips/shitposts as fundamentally different and mutually exclusive approaches to fandom? what if they see them as just two ways to be interested in a specific fandom and interact with it, and maybe even closely linked together, so going from one to another is actually very, very easy for them? hell, what if they (gasp!) even mix quips and meta together sometimes?

I have a few posts about what I think Baran bo Odar and Jantje Friese might have been doing with mythological references and themes in Dark, and about what I got from the series finale. some are meme-like, phrased in a joking tone, probably even shitpost-y? another one is literally just a gifset plus me having intense Feels in the tags, and the last one is an edit of the kind I’ve seen people complain about as “those cringey unoriginal tumblr aesthetics that all look the same” in at least a couple of occasions. does that automatically mean I only wanted to “win” at fandom (with my hard-earned prize being... a handful of notes in a fandom that’s not even that big compared to others) and that I haven’t actually spent probably way too much time thinking about the significance of Martha’s Ariadne play as a commentary on character interactions/plot/narrative themes (and honestly still do from time to time), or that I don’t occasionally read the captions under other people’s gifsets and suddenly feel very much enlightened about why the Ariadne play mentions the myth of the Flood of all things? that I didn’t start reading posts and comments and reviews and theories about the series finale as soon as I finished watching it? that, just because I didn’t write 10K+ words of Perfectly Serious Seriousness about all that stuff, I simply refused to Engage With The Text? 

... and if I said that I feel a little irrationally self-conscious at the idea of writing down all of my (often rambling, sometimes jumbled) thoughts about a series that to me actually does feel very deep and complex, so adding memes and humor to that or finding different means to put my ideas out there makes me feel more comfortable expressing myself while also taking off the (admittedly made-up) pressure of having to write a whole coherent essay where I have to find a clear and explicit way to explain where every single thought comes from and how it leads to the next like I’m gonna get graded on it? or that a lot of those thoughts stem from memories of spending five years of high school translating and analysing ancient Greek poetry and reading and watching and discussing every available interpretation and reinterpretation of it from Nietzsche to Vernant to Dürrenmatt to Christa Wolf to Pasolini to a lot of others and from certain things in Dark violently hurtling me back to those times without even asking for permission, so a part of my self-consciousness is actually “I probably don’t actually know/remember enough about this to base a whole in-depth analysis on it even though I do think there’s something there” and another part is “shit I’m too lazy to dig through all of my old textbooks and homework and additional readings to hunt for the thing I feel the desperate need to reference or figure out who might have said it, so no extended explanation here either”? I guess in the end it would all boil down to “there’s an amount of effort and physical and mental energy I’m willing to put into fandom but I also have limits to stop something that makes me feel happy from becoming a chore”, which. considering the whole “you have to put all your resources into constantly pouring out 100% serious meta and nothing else because that’s what I like, no deviations allowed” thing? yeah, I can see saying stuff like that would still make me a blight upon fandom. and/or Not Engaging.

which, I realize, it’s a thing I keep coming back to. but that’s because I really, really, really hate it? seriously, what even counts as Engaging With The Text correctly? not shitposts, and not quips either, apparently. Regardless of the fact that humor and crack have existed in fandom since forever and that it’s actually not uncommon AT ALL for them to be born out of looking at canon from different angles, pointing out whatever the fan in question finds surreal/strange/implausible/convoluted/awkward/just kinda funny about it. 

also, not canon divergence/what if fics motivated not by a desire to “fix” something that made us feel bad when it happened in canon but by a desire to actually fix what we felt was objectively a poor writing choice from the author, because we shouldn’t Engage by analysing the text to criticize it or to think over how and why certain aspects of it don’t work for us or how we think the structure of the text itself could be modified or even improved, we should Engage by... writing meta and/or writing canon-compliant fics with perhaps a little allowance for slightly-to-the-left-of-canon-compliant missing moments fics, I guess? 

from what I’ve gathered from reading other fandom discussion some time ago, AUs are also out, especially Modern/No Powers AUs, because those are always just an excuse to slap your fave’s name on your OC/disguise your original fiction as fanfic to get comments/ignore all that’s interesting about canon to write yet another dumb syrupy high school or coffee shop AU, even if I’m honestly not sure what kind of AUs people are even reading to never get to the “there’s no supernatural threat so let’s focus entirely on the fucked-up family dynamics and blatant mental issues in a world where you can’t just ignore them by marrying off your daughter or sending your son to be someone’s squire” AUs or the “this is pretty much what happens in canon but adding new dimensions and different outlooks on the themes by moving everything to a new context” AUs. seriously, I could rec you a pretty great “this guy would be a horrible father and treat his children horribly in any world, it’s not just the feudal society around him, it’s him as a person” AU and that’s literally just the first thing that came to my mind. but, hey, maybe Engaging is only engaging with the canon plot and setting and nothing else, what do I know.

... fuck, thinking about it, I’m not even sure if by “not shitpost and not quips” I should even mean humor/crack? because it’s not like the OP was clear about it in any way? maybe it’s just all that’s weird and tropey and not-canon-compliant? I can see the “everybody gathers in the main character’s stuff to smoke weed and weird shit happens” fic I got a chuckle out of some time ago being one of the dreaded tumblr-born shitpost fics that are supposedly ruining fandom by ensuring that fans stop thinking (?), but what about the “everything is the same but this one character is a catboy, not for any particular reason but just because” fic I’m currently following and loving? people have been joking and shitposting about catboys a lot on tumblr lately (I distinctly remember that the last catboy joke to pop up on my dash was the “I’m your catboy gf and I’m stuck in a wall” one...) and finding an always-a-catboy!AU initially got an amused smile out of me, so is the mere premise enough to make the fic just a joke/just taking a trope and running off with it/just part of a shallow trend? even when the author literally goes “oh shit just realized this is all a metaphor for neuodivergence and masking” in the story notes? unless writing a character who’s never explicitly stated to be neurodivergent in canon as a being literally or metaphorically neurodivergent in your fic is always shallow projecting or posturing issuefic... instead of, y’know, looking closely at the text and Engaging with it by interpreting it that way....

I feel all this ranting/venting might end up plunging into Why We Slash discussion territory now, so I better stop here.

anyway, in short, good to know I’ve been in fandom for years yet I’ve always been just a Fake Fan who Can’t Think and is constantly Doing It Wrong (by Not Being Transformative Enough, possibly). gonna do my best to stay exactly like that in the future <3

[daniellebettes]

Random Ranting

You know I honestly feel like I'm dragging people down with my problems. I'm shocked I still have friends because of all the bullshit I put them through. I don't even deserve them, and they deserve a much better friend than me.

It's been about 2 years since I started self harming. 2. And rarely did I stop to kick the habit, I only stopped because if I didn't someone would've noticed. (At least with my shoulders.) No one gave a shit when I cut on my wrists. It was pretty much in plain sight because it was spring uniforms at my high school. After I got myself into therapy, which I regret with every fiber of my being, I started cutting on my shoulders where my sleeves cover. The only time they didn't was sleeveless dresses and my bathing suit. No one noticed them because they were somewhat faded if anyone saw.

I wonder how many people noticed my wrist and didn't say a damn word. I wonder how many of them went by without a second thought. I wonder if any of them actually wanted to say something, but didn't know what to say. I wonder if any of them even cared. My own friends didn't give two shits. They all claimed they wanted to say something but just didn't know how, or thought I'd be mad at them. Would they rather see me dead? Honestly.

For the studio I got my senior pictures done at, they uploaded one of my photos to their senior gallery on their site. (They had my permission to use my photos in their store and on the site. I do not know if any of my photos are in the store.) As I browsed the site the other day, I was the first one. I noticed my wrist and it had a single cut. That was way before I started doing multiple, or they were too bunched together to notice multiple. But either way I saw it. I wonder how many of this year's seniors are looking at that photo, and not realizing it was self inflicted.

I wasn't disgusted at it. I thought to myself, "huh I looked better off back then, than I do now." Those were taken in October if I remember correctly. That was before I got forced into therapy. (Sounds like I'm contradicting myself, not the case.) Technically because of my actions I was forced into it in order to return to school. I almost actually wasn't allowed back for quite sometime if my dad didn't talk to the vice principal. (Yea I actually almost got suspended for being suicidal, welcome to catholic school.)

Like seriously, I almost got suspended because I spoke up about how suicidal I was. I spoke up about how I cut myself. Did he really think it was a smart idea to try and suspend me? Like I did that shit at my house. (I did try at school, but I had nothing on me tbh.) The only person getting hurt was me, so I wasn't a danger to the other students. That's the last time I speak up about my problems. Fuck catholic school.

I was sent somewhere nearby to get some help. (6 months later and I'm still a fuck up, what a shock.) I should've taken the option to use pills when I had the chance. I'm kinda used to it by now. Huh who knew after trying to overdose, I wouldn't mind taking pills. Oh well.

I'm honestly just biding my time in therapy until I get discharged. By my therapist he's seen a 'vast improvement' and said I'd be discharged after I start college because he wanted to see how I settle in. He only thinks I'm improving because I haven't told him all the bullshit that went on in my life. Sure I've told him some things so he doesn't think my life is perfect, but not the main shit. If I wasn't going to college I would've been discharged months ago.

He sure as hell doesn't know I've been self harming after since the first session I had with him. Hell I'm pretty sure in one of our sessions he had Facebook open because I could hear the beeps. He seemed like he wanted to do something else other than listen to me talk. A few times he even got some stuff I've said wrong, and I didn't want to correct him. I get I'm not the only one he sees, but you shouldn't say misinformation about your patient. Or ask them if you're unsure, not say it as fact.

I wonder if any of my friends, the few I actually have left, care. I wonder how many of them want to leave me as well. Why would they want to be friends with a girl like me? I've said this before, I'm the extra piece in the puzzle. I'm the extra button you only use when a button falls off, but you don't need. Would anyone even miss me when I'm gone?

The group I'm in doesn't need me. A is only 6 months younger than me, but he acts more like a leader than I ever did. One of the boys thought I was 16 instead of 18. Doesn't seem like a big deal, but I'm the oldest in the group. You wouldn't think that by the way I act. Most of them think A's the oldest, but it's actually me. Guess it's because I went to a different high school than most of them.

It's been about 4 years since I've been in that group, and yet I still feel like an outsider. I feel like I don't belong. Sure there is another girl in the group, and we do get along, but she's way younger than me so I can't talk to her about stuff. I used to talk to A about stuff since we are in the same grade and pretty much the same age, but I feel like our friendship changed when he got a girlfriend.

I don't feel right talking to him about stuff going on in my life anymore. I mean we do talk, but never about personal issues anymore. We talk about college and stuff like that. He makes me laugh when we're with the group. And even after cutting him off of social media, I don't think he hates me. (Altho I haven't seen him since I did that.) I did it because I needed a break from his stuff. He didn't post much, but when he did it would always be at the top of my feed. It got annoying. Sure I didn't have to cut him off, but I did. I hope he doesn't hate me.

It just sucks. People think I'm this bright girl who smiles a lot, but it's been a lie. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy. Okay, slightly a lie. When I was in Vermont with the group, I was happy for a short while. I was also happy when I was at a friend's graduation pool party. Other than those two events, I don't remember a time where I was happy. Even with my other friends' grad parties, I wasn't ever truly happy. Before one of them, I starved myself that day. When the party came I ate because I had to.

This got pretty long. If anyone is reading, thanks? Idk. I just made this blog so no one I know in real life can read them. I just wanted to rant without someone getting triggered and saying, "Omg Dani is going to kill herself!" (PS: As far as y'all are aware of, my name is Dani.)

"Omg Dani stop being so depressed, other people have it worse." If you ever use that line, just shut the fuck up right now. This isn't a fucking competition on who has the most fucked up life. People have fucked up lives, it's not the fucking Olympics.