#kiillmeromantically; billie 3

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ezra knew that they said that it was safer against robberies and invasions to have your outside lights turned on all night, just like he knew it would be easy to change the light by his door to something motion sensing or even add something to it to make it turn on at dusk and go back off at dawn. he knew how easy it was because he used to have one of those set up on the evenings he went right from work to the bar and didn't make it home until into the night when everything was cast into shadow, but he'd gotten rid of it for things just like this. easier to sneak around between one house and the next when there wasn't a bright light shining down on you, and ezra knew that maybe that was paranoid of him, but he liked that extra little bit of stealth. "don't worry, baby, you're still getting your bath. how about i go ahead and put you in the tub, then i'll just bring the water and ibuprofen to you?" that would require leaving her alone for a couple minutes, but they were in his house and ezra was hoping that she'd realize he would be right back and it would be find to leave her for a little bit. instead of going to the kitchen, ezra turned and make his way up the stairs, taking them slowly as he went. "i'm a big believer in epsom salts. and hot baths. but you know, i read something that says ice is actually more helpful when you've hurt yourself? apparently some people use heating pads to the point they give themselves inflammation and make the problem worse." at least, that's what he'd heard from some med student he'd slept with at some point before billie came into his life. "but don't worry, i'm not dunking you in an ice bath."

the feeling that was overwhelming her was one that she had never felt before. it felt like there had been some kind of release. all that she knew was that she felt incredibly different. she nodded as soon as he told her that they'd get her blanket and then go to his place. a small gasp escaped as he scooped her up into his arms and off her bed. her gaze went towards the blanket as he moved so it was within reach," thank you daddy." her words were barely above a whisper and she reached for it. she managed to wrap it around herself before she pressed her face into his neck. a few tears were still falling but she knew they would eventually stop. part of her might have been worried about him carrying her outside covered with just the blanket. however she knew that in their neighborhood everyone kept to themselves. that meant that no nosey old crone would be peering out at them. instead she found herself just curled up and clinging to him. he had carried her out and made sure the door was locked. after that they were crossing over to his house. he was fumbling with the keys and she reached to help him. the door managed to open and he was carrying her inside. she instantly felt like a weight had been lifted. it seemed to happen whenever she was in his house. it had become her safe haven ever since they had become more serious. she glanced towards the stairs before glancing back up towards his face," water, ibuprofen and then a hot bath? with tho-those epsom salts i bought?" it was only because of ezra that she had even started to spend a little bit of her money on herself.

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"something about… fuck, don't hold me to this because i don't really remember, but heat relieves tension while ice reduces swelling, but too much heat irritates you? not sure how much is too much, but you fall asleep on a heating pad and not only do you risk burning yourself, you get your muscles inflamed and then you're dealing with pain from that." ezra had heard before that a hot bath was only effective for the first twenty (he thought it was twenty, but maybe it was thirty) minutes you were in it and he'd always just assumed that the effectiveness just sort of… stopped at that point, that there was only so much that muscles could relax before they stopped relaxing in one go, but it was only after that particular little hook up that ezra started to wonder if it didn't stop being effective as much as it started to be a detriment. of course, he never saw the woman again to ask her, and it wasn't like it was a topic that came up in conversation frequently, so ezra had never bothered to look into it, instead filing it away as another resource in case jeopardy ever had a 'random facts learned from one night stands' column. "just know that if you ever get hurt, chances are that i'm giving you an ice pack instead of a heating pad." when the blanket fell to the floor, ezra wasn't sure at first if that was an accident or intentional and he paused for a moment before continuing on. "i'm getting in, i don't want to risk you falling asleep." and he also wanted her to have the support and comfort of skin to skin contact. it was strange how, with his focus on taking care of her, ezra almost felt like they hadn't fought at all, like the fact they'd agreed to her being punished helped resolve things for him. once inside the bathroom, ezra was careful as he lowered her into the tub, one of his knees making a cracking sound as he knelt down. chances were that billie wasn't the only one that needed an ibuprofen, and that was another thing that he'd deal with in a moment. putting in the stopper, ezra turned on the hot water and let it warm up before turning on the cold, trying to get the flow to a good temperature before turning away to search for the epsom salts.

there had been a number of changes between the both of them. billie had noticed how he had stopped with the motion light at his place. she hadn't asked but she had the feeling she knew why. she was unsure what to think but she knew that she wasn't going to question it. things weren't easy for them so they had to do whatever it took to make things a little less stressful. she nodded slowly, letting out a small yawn," that sounds good." normally she wouldn't want him to leave her alone but in his own home it was different. she knew that he would be right there when she wanted him. otherwise she might have said no but she knew that he wasn't going anywhere. she glanced around as she realized he was carrying her up the stairs. of course he seemed to be moving slowly. she was taken by surprise when he began to talk about how ice was more helpful," i didn't know that." she laughed a little as he quickly told her that he wasn't going to dunk her into an ice bath. that thought hadn't crossed her mind until he brought it up. she shrugged as she realized they had reached the landing," i wasn't even worried about that until now." she was shocked she wasn't dozing off given how exhausted she felt. her weight shifted somewhat in his arms before she allowed the blanket to drop. she didn't want to leave it in the bathroom and since they were inside it wasn't a big deal," are you going to get in with me? after you grab everything?" his tub was big enough but it was her first time in it for a bath. usually if she was over she had to take a fast shower but they had the rest of the night and hopefully a good chunk of the morning.

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it was reassuring that billie seemed to believe him so readily, like she'd already accepted it as a fact inside her wolf that she could count on him to be a pillar to hold her up. maybe ezra seemed like a broken record with all of his reassurances, but he didn't want to take any risks when he knew that this was new to billie, that he'd never punished her before and she'd likely never experienced such an intense and emotional round of sex. better to be too careful with her than not careful enough, in ezra's opinion. "yeah, let's get your blanket and get out of here, baby," scooping her up and holding her tight, ezra tried not to jostle her too much as he stood up from the bed and carried her over to the blanket so that it was within reach. "go on and grab the blanket, you can cover up with that." honestly, it was fucking lucky that everyone was too lazy and self absorbed in their own business to have some kind of neighborhood watch, otherwise someone would spot them and then they'd be in trouble. ezra didn't have a lot of memories about his grandma on his dad's side, but he knew the woman used to sit in a chair facing her front door and she'd watch through the screen everything that happened in the world outside her house. ezra didn't need anyone to tell him she was likely the kind of woman that also peered through blinds when she was younger, and that she was exactly the sort that would have busted their asses if she caught sight of an affair. but they hadn't been caught yet, and ezra would lie, lie, lie to keep billie out of trouble if that's what it came down to as he carried her out of the house. maybe he'd lie, say billie mixed up chemicals that shouldn't be mixed, and he found her passed out on the floor. maybe she'd thrown up on herself and that explained the blanket, while fumes explained why he took her home with him. making sure the door was locked behind them, ezra carried billie the short distance to his own home and fumbled with his keys as he said, "i'm going to get you some water and ibuprofen when we're inside, okay?"

"lets just hope he passes out," she mumbled, knowing already that ezra was likely going to handle it. there were a select number of people her father listened to and ezra was one of them. billie just knew that she wanted to spend the rest of her night in ezra's arms. that was why she didn't care what kind of lie would have to be told. she was slowly beginning to calm down. tears continued to fall down her face but she was no longer sobbing. she nodded slowly, knowing that he was keeping his promise with taking care of her," i kno-i know you are going to be here." even before things had changed so drastically he had been a constant. she wanted to remain right there but she knew they would need to move. she found herself glancing around her bedroom at his question. her eyes landed on the fleece blanket she had made for herself that had a sugar skull pattern on it," can-can we grab that?" she motioned towards it with a nod of her head before she felt him peppering her face in kisses. the touch made her smile as she let out a deep breath," just want the blanket and you." she wasn't even sure she could move if she wanted to. instead she kept herself right in his arms, feeling her body still trembling slightly. the sting had faded to an ache but she knew she was going to feel it the next day. yet she didn't mind it as she pressed her face into his neck again.

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she was doing so damn well, taking her punishment even though it had to sting and not even arguing about deserving it. it was one of those moments where ezra didn't know if he praised billie often enough for how good of a pet she was and how well she took to it. sure, he liked to point out when he was pleased with a partner, but was it enough validation for billie was the question, and ezra wasn't sure of the answer, but she would certainly need the support and security after this. he'd never been so rough with her, but he'd also never been so angry, so disappointed, and that was going to take a toll on her in more ways than just one. there were certain rules that ezra was aware of, like the fact that he shouldn't lash out and use sex as a punishment when he was angry, and that after doing something so rough with a girl, he needed to take care of them afterwards and make sure their head was screwed on right. he couldn't claim to be the best at following those rules, one of the many reasons why ezra knew he didn't make the cut as a decent person, but ezra wasn't going to let billie fall apart without him and he was going to make sure she knew that she was still valued to him and that he wasn't going anywhere - not with the woman from the bar and not with anyone else. billie was his, but ezra was also hers, he didn't want anyone else and he wasn't letting billie slip through his fingers just because he had to hold onto her in the shadows. maybe billie hadn't been keeping track of how many slaps ezra delivered to her poor abused pussy, but ezra had and knew that he shouldn't push her too far during her first time being punished in such a way. "just one more, billie," he promised, rubbing at the inside of her thigh as if to soothe her, his fingertips leaving a wet trail along her skin. "ask me to punish you and i'll give you that final slap and it will all be over, baby. be a good girl and do that for me."

her mind was all over the place due to everything that had happened within a matter of hours. she found herself attempting to take deep breaths to try to calm her mind. yet it felt impossible for her to do it when she realized that he was staring down at her pussy. her thighs were shaking as she felt his fingers drag along her pussy. she found herself nodding," oka-okay daddy." already she knew that she could trust him because he had always taken care of her in his own way. a small sob escaped from her due to her feeling so worked up. she was gasping as she felt him grasp at her chin and she found herself looking at him," i can't help it!" her chest heaved as she tried to blink them away. her hips shifted as she realized that he was staring at her. a sharp cry fell from her as she felt his hand come down against her. her hips sunk into the bed as she groaned. her face flushed as she realized that even that was staring to get to her. she nearly didn't hear what he was saying and she gasped. her teeth sunk into her lip and she groaned," i can't help it!" she knew that whatever he had in mind was going to be ten times worse. she forced herself to nod, whimpering," daddy," she breathed," oh god!" what what helping her was the fact that he was telling her that she was still his pet. otherwise she knew that she couldn't handle it. her fingers curled into the pillow beneath her head and she was sniffling. only to cry out as he continued to slap her. her hips bucking up as she felt the pain. she was doing her best to embrace it and she knew that she needed it. she was gasping as she felt her legs try to clamp closed. if he wasn't holding her leg she knew that she would have been able to. she was trying to just listen to him as he spoke," i know you-you are doing this for me," she breathed," oh please!"

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even when he was supposed to be punishing her and felt frustrated because he hadn't managed to get off yet, ezra was incapable of not noticing just how pretty her pussy was, all flushed and soaked from her pleasure. he loved how wet she could get, how sometimes she squirted when he did a good enough job for her and part of ezra wanted to taste her, so he did, drawing his fingertips to his mouth and licking them clean. "i know you're sorry, baby. don't worry, we're going to work on it. we're going to punish you and then it will be over." he promised, his anger from the start of the night and even halfway through sex having faded to something manageable as he reached out to catch her by the chin. "don't do that. let daddy see your pretty face and your tears." it would be so easy to get up and thrust his cock inside billie's mouth and fuck her face while slapping her pussy at the same time, but that was just his own sense of need talking and ezra knew it, ignoring it instead to focus on the spread of billie's legs and the shine of her drenched cunt as he brought his hand down hard against her. "maybe if you touch yourself this week and don't get to cum, you'll get better at controlling this slutty hole of yours." another slap, the sound wet from her juice and ezra dragged his fingers through her dripping slit before slapping her again. "this is your punishment for cumming when i told you not to, we still have to punish you for everything else you did tonight, but that's going to be in a few days, okay? but you're not getting out of this." slap. "you're still my pet, billie." one hand squeezing at her thigh as an added measure to make sure she couldn't close her legs, ezra kept slapping. "listen to daddy, okay? you're still my precious baby. that's why i'm doing this, so you can be better." even though ezra knew she had to be sensitive, his slaps were getting harder. "even though i'm punishing you, i still care about you. this is for your own good, baby." slap.

truly she wanted to be good for him. she wanted to be able to do what he wanted of her. yet her body was not on the same page as her brain. a few more tears sprouted from the corners of her eyes. yet the pleasure was undeniable as she whimpered helplessly. a cry that was a mixture of both surprise and disappointment escaped when he pulled himself from her. her thighs were trembling as she realized that she felt so utterly empty. she was struggling to process what was going on. her face turning bright red at his words," i didn't-i didn't mean to." her movement was slow at first as she went to roll onto her back. yet his hand on her hip was helping with that as she groaned. her orgasm had been cut short and she couldn't help but pout. only for him to yank her thighs apart, spreading her open. he slotted himself between her thighs but she had no idea what he was thinking. her pussy was on display for him and she knew she was an utter mess. her slick dripping out of her and she couldn't help but glance down towards his cock. it was clear to her that he was punishing himself in a sense by pulling out of her. her hands reached above her to grasp at the pillow," i'm-i'm sorry daddy," she breathed, whimpering as his fingers dragged along her slit. yet his words were almost like ice water washing over her. he wasn't going to allow her to cum for a week? even if she wanted to protest, she knew that she deserved to be punished. that was why she inhaled sharply before nodding to show she had heard him," i understand." she felt like she was going to likely go insane within the next week but that wasn't what was important. instead she turned her head to try to wipe at the tears using her arm," please daddy," she breathed," please show me how to be better for you."

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he hadn't intentionally set billie up to fail, but it seemed inevitable that she would and ezra wasn't that surprised when he felt her pussy squeezing around him, her juices slick and dripping so that each roll of his hips brought a wet smacking noise to the air. she might have failed at what he told her to do, but it didn't make him angry - if anything, it may have calmed him down, reminding him just how little experience billie truly had with things, and how she tried to listen and do good if only given the chance. sometimes she messed up, that didn't mean she wasn't still his good girl. "goddamnit," he swore under his breath, pulling himself free of billie and hating the loss of her pussy as his cock twitched and throbbed. wrapping a hand around himself and squeezing tightly, ezra sucked in a heavy breath and let it out through his nose as he spent a moment trying to get the sound of blood rushing out of his ears. "seems you had an accident, billie. roll over for daddy," he prompted, sounding out of breath as he let go of his cock and reached to grab billie's hip, making sure she flipped over. had he pulled out of her quickly enough that her orgasm felt empty and short, or was her mind still going to be floating from it? he didn't know, but ezra wasn't gentle about it as he pried her legs apart and made sure they were still spread on either side of him so her pussy was on display. "i told you not to cum and you did, so that's another thing i have to punish you for." ezra warned as he reached out to drag his fingers along her drenched slit, feeling as though he was being punished himself by no longer being buried inside of her heat. "i know you didn't mean to, you tried to be good and listen, but we need to work on that. you don't get to cum for the next week, do you understand? just edging. and i'm going to spank your pussy for this."

a whimper of disappointment escaped from her at one single word. of course billie had been expecting it to an extent. yet she had hoped that maybe he would be willing to allow her to hit that point of release. instead he seemed to still want to teach her a lesson. her entire body was practically aching by that point. yet she knew that he would not be deterred given the circumstances. she was crying out helplessly with every single bruising thrust. a gasp of surprise escaped as he allowed more of his weight to come down against her. the move caused her legs to spread even more to allow his body more room. she felt utterly small as she tried her hardest to think about literally anything else," da-daddy," she choked out," please, i'm-i'm sorry!" she wasn't entirely sure how long she could hold it back. after all it wasn't like she had a ton of experience. her eyes nearly watered at the denial but he never seemed to stop moving. her walls were clenching around him tightly. she couldn't deny anything that he was telling her because he was right. he knew that she truly did desire to be totally and utterly owned. she cried out helplessly into the mattress, relieved that it muffled the sound. she was going to be an utter mess by the end of it but she was trying to be good," i re-i remember," she promised," i belong to you, i on-i only do what you allow me to!" she inhaled sharply the moment she felt spasms actually hitting. her hips bucking helplessly beneath him as she realized she was losing her battle," please-i can't hold-i can't it! please-oh-please-please-fuck!" a sense of dread hit even as her orgasm was ripped from her. more tears fell as she realized her pussy was clenching, her slick pouring out around him.

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"no." as much as it pleased him that billie was nearing her edge even from his rough treatment and that she was still well trained enough to ask for it, that didn't mean ezra felt inclined to make it easy for her. instead he brought his hand down on her ass hard to punctuate his words before pressing all the way in, grinding against her ass before draping himself along her back. his skin felt like it was burning, the heat between the two of them making his skin prickle with sweat and ezra slowly let more of his weight press down onto billie, shifting his own legs and forcing her to spread hers wider. "if you want to cum, you have to convince me why i should let you." nothing about what he'd done to billie in bed that night had really been about her pleasure as much as it had been about reminding her of her place and ordinarily ezra's body would be singing with pleasure that being used was such a turn on for her, that she really did want to just be a little pet to fuck, and he was impressed and pleased with her, but it was secondary. "you're a little pet to be used, remember? you're here for me to fuck and you don't get more unless i say you do. someone to have complete control, that's what you said you wanted." he remembered her fantasy, and now she had to deal with part of the reality of it and fuck, why hadn't he gotten her a collar yet?

"i-i know," she choked out," i want you to!" after all she had told him more than once how tired she was of taking care of everything. he knew what her ultimate fantasy was and to a point he provided it. however she knew that she couldn't fully surrender everything when she was living how she was. maybe she needed to realize that in order for whatever it was they were doing to work, she needed to tell ezra what she was feeling. that would be something she had never done. yet it was clear that if she didn't such incidents would keep occurring. she hated that she had behaved like an utter brat but she hadn't been able to stop herself. though she knew that after that night she was going to try to behave differently or react better. she had the feeling that he was going to make sure that she didn't do such a thing again. she groaned as he declared she was his and repeated she didn't get to hide from him. her fingers were on the verge of turning white due to how tightly she was grasping at the sheet. her eyes were watering as she felt how harshly he was thrusting," please daddy," she choked out," i'm-i'm so close! please!" she knew she needed his permission but she had the feeling that she wasn't going to get it. at the very least not right then considering how he couldn't seem to let go of what she had done. she had no clue in the slightest if she would be able to hold it back.

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"i'll set an alarm to make sure we're awake in the morning. if he isn't out all night, i'll come up with some excuse." ezra would say he ended up with food poisoning, went next door to get medicine and vomited all over billie, prompting her to stay over and look after him if that's what it took. ezra would swallow his pride and make himself into a messy joke for the night if that was what it took to distract billie's father enough for him to get away with looking out for billie. "i know sometimes it's hard being a good girl, but i'm still going to look out for you. just because you mess up doesn't i don't care. if you need to cry, you can cry. if you need to be punished, i'll punish you. i'm not going anywhere for any of it." ezra swore, wanting to make sure she remembered the words through her tears. "we'll take that bath, it will be the first thing we do when we get there. is there anything you want to bring?" billie had things at his place, but there was always the chance that there was something special she needed for comfort. a specific shirt, a certain blanket, he wouldn't even judge billie if there was some stuffed toy hidden on a shelf that she needed to hold onto. "i can pack you a bag if i need to." and if she didn't, then ezra would just pack her. pulling away enough to wipe at the tears on billie's face, ezra dropped light kisses against her forehead and her cheeks, showering her with gentle affection as he waited for her to gather herself enough to answer.

of course she had known that he could punish her. yet for some reason she wasn't angry about it. she felt like to a certain point she understood why he had done it. not only that but he had made sure to give her reassurances during it. that was why she had no issue just climbing into his arms. she was attempting to take deep breaths to calm herself even as he rocked her. tears continued to cascade down her cheeks as she realized something inside of her was letting go. she gasped helplessly as a sob came up her throat, nodding," thank-thank you." she wasn't too sure why she was thanking him. yet for some reason she felt like she needed to. billie couldn't help but cling to him for dear life. the night had been a whirlwind in so many different ways. that was why she seemed to have no qualms in letting out the tears. she wanted to just fall against her mattress but she knew she wasn't staying there. her eyes drifted shut as she just nuzzled into him," all night?" she was surprised that he was telling her that since normally she could only stay a few hours at most. of course she wasn't going to say no to it. it dawned on her that he hadn't even gotten to finish. yet he didn't seem to be worrying about that. instead she was letting out a yawn as she tried to wipe at her face," just want to take a bath with you," she admitted as she finally seemed to get her tears under control," and hot chocolate sounds amazing." she knew the night had not gone how either of them had wanted. yet for some reason it felt like things had fallen into place. something that she had not actually imagined happening at the beginning of the night.

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he'd explain to her later that it was good of her to ask for what she needed, like the kiss before her punishment was finished. just because she was being punished didn't mean he needed to be cruel to her, she could have a break, a little reminder that she was still cherished and that there was a reason that she was letting him hurt her without complaint, that there was a purpose and it didn't supersede her well-being. that would come after she was more clear headed, for the time ezra just bundled billie into his arms, pulling her into his lap and kissing her hair. he rocked slightly from side to side in what was meant to be a soothing motion, whispering praise to her. "you took that so well, i'm proud of you. just let go now, okay? daddy's got you, it's okay if you cry." he was a firm believer that crying was a good way for women to process their emotions and that it was healthy for them and he knew that billie had an upsetting night. hopefully now that she'd been punished, she'd be able to process and move past it, lesson learned so that if there was ever a next time (god, ezra hoped not), she'd behave better. "i'm going to take care of you now, sweetheart. take your time, then we'll get you cleaned up. i want you to stay with me tonight, we can curl up with the softest blanket and i'll make you hot chocolate, or you can enjoy a nice bath and a snack there. you can have whatever you want, okay?" even though ezra hadn't cum before, his own completion wasn't even a thought anymore, billie's punishment and following aftercare ranking as more important to him. his anger had dulled as well, temper soothed by billie's own compliance and submission so that he remembered that she was his good girl and didn't deserve pointless rage.

it was a strange feeling for billie. after all most of her life she had always been the one in control. yet she knew that ezra was giving her something she needed. that was one of the many reasons she was even willing to give into him in such a way. it was an utter relief that he was still telling her that he wasn't going anywhere, that she was still his. a small whimper fell from her since she just had been hoping she was pleasing him," thank you." her words were just barely above a whisper but she hoped that he had heard her. she tried to get her body to relax, gasping as he pulled her legs even further apart. he seemed to almost be poised to deliver that final slap but then she broke the silence. it was clear that she had taken him by surprise which she knew usually he was the one surprising her. she found herself smiling even with the tears trailing down her face. the kiss was soft and sweet, almost over too quick for her liking. yet she relished in the tenderness of the moment and a blush formed over her face. she nodded slowly, her breath hitching at his words," i did?" her eyes fluttered shut at the kiss he pressed to her forehead. it took a few moments but then his hand was coming back up. she tried to brace herself but she cried out as the slap came. her eyes watered even more as she whimpered helplessly. the sting was something else and she was in shock. it took her a few moments to realize he was speaking, trying to coax her into his arms. her movement was slow but she was clambering into his arms. her face pressing into his neck as she attempted to catch her breath," oh my god," she breathed, blinking a few times before lifting her head," thank you for punish-punishing me." for some reason it felt like she had needed it.

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"that's right, but i can't take care of you if you don't let me." what happened to her little fantasy of not wanting to think, of just wanting to be naked and knowing that her owner would take care of everything and she just needed to be ready to be used? it wasn't fair to think like that because they were hardly in a position where she could let go like that and let ezra take care of things, so until he could do that, it wasn't fair to expect that kind of obedience and compliance from her. billie was well within her rights to be stressed and maybe acting out was understandable, but that didn't make it helpful for either of them. if she needed to let her emotions go, then she still needed to tell him. if she was hurt or unhappy or anything like that, she still needed to tell him. maybe they couldn't talk about it that moment, and maybe ezra wouldn't always be able to deal with it immediately, but they still had to work to communicate with each other and that was why he wasn't going to hide it from billie that she was going to be properly punished later on, and he was going to make damn sure she understood why. he could always fuck her until her brain shut down and she felt limp and like nothing more than an owed fuck doll, that didn't mean she was in trouble, just that she needed a reminder, but billie had turned it into something else. "you're mine and you don't… fucking… hide from me." that was the part that he truly couldn't get over and even though ezra could feel his orgasm building, he wasn't convinced that billie had earned a reprieve yet.

of course she hadn't thought about the problems they would have. mostly because she had never dated or did whatever it was they were doing. she wasn't even too sure what it was but she didn't care. at least not at that moment and she knew that there was a lot that she didn't know. yet she trusted ezra and knew that they would have to decide if whatever they were was worth it. it seemed that they had both decided that it was. at least that was the impression that she was getting. it was clear that she was going to end up remembering everything about that night. especially the part where she realized that she couldn't ignore him. not when she knew how big of a deal it was to him that she had shut him out. she groaned, whimpering as he pushed her into a new position," you-you're going to take care of me, daddy!" he was moving so much faster than he had ever before. something told her that he was teaching her a lesson that she could have learned sooner or later. what made things worse? she could feel how her body was reacting to him. her pussy was practically weeping as he continued to drill away at her. her body jolted with every single thrust as she held onto the sheets that decorated her bed,"fucking-oh god!" she wasn't even sure she was going to be able to talk but she did know that she would do whatever she had to in order to make him happy again. her hold in the sheets was tight as she prayed she could handle what he was doing to her," i'm-i'm yours," she choked out," oh my god, i'm all fucking you-yours!"

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"that's my girl." telling her to ask for it wasn't just reinforcing a behavior, it was giving her a break without taking her out of the moment, although ezra had the feeling that the sting between her legs was too sharp and throbbing of a sensation to be soothed by such a brief interlude. "i'm right here, okay? even when you need to be punished, i'm not going anywhere. i'm not abandoning my girl. i can tell you're trying so hard for me and i'm proud of you." there was a brief moment where he wondered why she couldn't have tried so hard at the bar when he first showed up with her dad and those women, but ezra quickly pushed that voice away because it didn't matter anymore. billie was going to be punished for that and even though they hadn't gotten to that yet, she'd apologized so much that it was clear she knew that she'd done something wrong. there wasn't any point in dwelling on it when he knew it would be dealt with in the future. one issue at a time. prying billie's legs further apart, he was about to give her the final smack against her abused pussy when her voice caught his attention and ezra glanced up at her, something inside him softening at her sweet request. "yeah, baby." hands dropping, ezra leaned over her and kissed billie soft and slow, letting her have a prolonged moment of sweetness since she seemed shaken. ezra didn't know how big of a risk she was for dropping, but he wasn't going to deny billie her kiss. "you did good asking for that." he praised, moving up to press another kiss to her forehead before moving back and giving her a smile before smacking her before the legs a final time, the slap the hardest one yet. "there, it's all over. you did it, billie, okay, come here." ezra coaxed, reaching out for billie to pull her into his arms.

it was unlike anything that she had ever felt before and she knew that she was going to lose her mind. yet she knew that she wanted to please him if she was able to. even if that meant that she needed to deal with the pain. it was the first time that he was being rough with her. she had known that it was coming but she was doing her best. her body felt like it was incredibly overwhelmed in more than one way. her heart was racing and she felt beads of sweat sliding down her neck. her eyes were shutting as she hoped that it was going to be over soon. she wasn't sure how much more she could take. the whole night had been out of control for her but she felt oddly centered. she groaned as she realized that he was talking again. she whimpered as she realized that he was telling her that it was one more and then they would be done. she forced herself to nod, feeling his fingers dragging along her thigh. she found her eyes fluttering open as she realized what he wanted. she groaned as she looked up at his face," please,' she breathed, gasping. she wasn't sure that she could do it but she was trying," daddy, will you please punish me? please?" she was trying so hard to not reach out for him but she knew that she had to wait," please-please show me how to be good for you!" her thighs were shaking as she pushed her hips up from the bed. she was gasping as she stared up at him," daddy," she breathed," befo-before you do it," she breathed," will you please kiss-kiss me?" she knew that he likely was going to take care of her after. yet she wanted a small act of tenderness before he gave her the final slap. she knew already that she was going to be sore the next day.

[darkwants]

"i know, baby, i know. i've got you." fuck, it hurt. how had he so quickly gone from being enraged at billie to this, to feeling his chest ache at her distress? every little plea to drip from her lips soothed the ache he felt over her ignoring him until it shattered like a pane of glass at her confession that she missed him. people acted out when they felt ignored or neglected, bad attention was better than no attention, those were things that ezra had heard of and not put much thought into, but would happily cling to if it would explain just why billie thought that she should ignore him. he hadn't intentionally been neglecting her and he would have wanted to spend time with her that evening if he could have, but things ended up fucked and he understood what billie meant about it all being ruined. he had full plans on punishing her for the way she acted, but in that moment, billie clinging to him and bouncing on his cock like she needed it to prove he was still her daddy, he could have sympathy. his baby was in distress and the fact he wanted to make sure she was okay instead of making it worse to teach her a lesson showed just how much ezra was coming to care for her - something that would have been worth worrying about if he could stop to think clearly. "you haven't been getting the attention you need, have you? that's why you had to act out tonight." slapping at her ass as she bounced on his cock, ezra squeezed at her skin before slapping it again. "but you've got me. i'm right here and i'm not letting you go. come on, billie, take what you need." he encouraged as he thrust upwards and used his hold on her neck to keep her pressed tightly against him as his other hand ran up her back, feeling the bumps of her spine.

all that she was thinking was that she wanted to make it up to him. she didn't know how but she knew that she didn't want to make it worse. billie knew that she had always been good for him. she had never not listened and that night? she had managed to screw everything up. at the very least by ignoring him the way that she had. now she was under him and all she wanted was to make everything better. even if that meant letting him bruise her. she wasn't thinking about how he wanted to hold her down still. she was going to wrap her arms around him because she wanted to be close to him. she needed him so badly and she whimpered at his words. the kiss was filled with emotion and she gasped. it took her by surprise when he seemed to slow down. only to freeze when she realized he was going to shift in order to sit up. he was pulling her with him and she willing went with him. her arms went to lock around his neck the moment she began to sink back down onto his cock. his arms were wrapping around her and she groaned. only to began to bounce up and down as his length. she whimpered as she struggled to kiss him back. she was gasping as she felt him brush her hair back and then settle on the back of her neck," please," she breathed," please, please, please." she had no clue what she was begging for but she knew that she wanted all of him. the tears were finally slowing down as she shifted in order to press her face into his neck again," daddy, oh my god." she felt like she was losing her mind all over again," i missed you so much." it had been awhile since she was able to even feel his touch. that was why she had made the extra effort with her outfit since she had hoped to sneak away with him.

[darkwants]

guilt was the first emotion he processed, regret that billie had to miss him so much even if he knew it wasn't really his fault. wasn't her fault, either. it wasn't some wife or boyfriend they were hiding from, but billie's own father and as a consequence of that, most of ezra's own 'friends' because they were more likely to rat out ezra and billie's affair than to keep it quiet. he didn't like to think of it that way, as an affair, but they were hiding what they were doing and it was likely the most accurate term even if it did make their relationship seem dirty. "i'm sorry, baby. i'm so fucking sorry." he was still disappointed in her, still going to punish her for what she did, but it didn't mean that ezra couldn't wish that things were different for them, better. "you need more? then you tell me and i'll give you more." maybe they couldn't hold hands on a crowded street, maybe he couldn't wrap his arm around her at a party, and maybe he couldn't kiss her every time he saw her, but he could text her good morning and goodnight, could call her more when she had a moment alone. it would be effort, but effort that was worth it because no matter how upset and disappointed he was, he wanted to make it work - that was why he was upset and disappointed because if ezra didn't care about being with billie, then he wouldn't give a damn about her not answering or about how she felt. the mattress bounced below them as billie continued working herself down his cock and he didn't doubt that the continuous motion was getting to her. "i want you to think about me every single time your thighs ache. i want you to remember this, remember that i have you." he murmured as he pulled her into a kiss. "every fucking time your body aches, you can remember that you're mine." pushing forward to spill them back over onto the bed, ezra grabbed at billie, manhandling her to push her face down into the sheets. with one hand in her hair and the other holding onto billie's hip, ezra slid back inside of her in a single smooth thrust.

she was struggling to process all of her emotions that were practically at war with each other. billie had never been forced to deal with such feelings. then again ezra was a first for her in so many different ways. yet she never thought that she would end up having such an outburst. one that would result in her doing what she was, pleading with ezra. he was giving her exactly what she needed as he reassured her," thank-thank you." she didn't dare stop as she kept bouncing up and down on his cock. her movements were nearly clumsy, desperate but she didn't care. instead she groaned as he basically called her out for her behavior. yet she knew that he would figure it out. moans ripped from her and she cried out as he slapped at her ass. the sound echoing throughout the room," always-always need you," she confessed," i always miss you!" a squeal escaped from her as he squeezed before he slapped it again. she whimpered, pressing kisses to his neck. her hold on him tightened if that was even possible as her pussy spasmed, clenching and contracting around him. yet she didn't dare stop moving as she rode him, her thighs shaking. the sound of skin slapping against skin was going to echo in her head. she whimpered as he thrust upward to meet her, breaking her pace. yet she quickly went right back to it as she felt this hand sliding down along her spine. they were pressed completely against each other. her hold on him was tight as her head lifted up and she found herself cupping his face," ne-need more," she pleaded," please-please daddy." she wasn't sure how much longer she could keep up her pace.

[darkwants]

he was so used to billie being his good girl and listening that ezra was thrown into a new and unfamiliar place in the face of her disobedience, a place that he didn't like and making in the future, he'd realize that he overreacting in an effort to make sure that it never happened again, an unrealistic thing when dealing with an entire human being with their own wants and needs, their own emotions and insecurity. later, after ezra's own issues were addressed and his own nerves soothed, it would be easier to think of her, and that was true even as he stayed pressing her weight into her sheets, rutting inside her forcefully. instinct was to chastise her in some way for pulling out of his hold instead of letting him restrain her hands, the closest to an act of defiance billie had made since they fell on the mattress, but the way she clung to him and begged betrayed that it wasn't her acting out at all - it was her needing him and that was far easier for ezra to stomach. "i've got you." he murmured, a promise to her and a reassure to himself before he lost himself in billie's kiss, giving her the affection they both craved. his aching pace slowed finally, stopping long enough for ezra to shift back, straightening up to sit on the bed and pulling billie with him. his cock slid out of her abused hole in the shift, but billie was so slight compared to him that it was easy for ezra to guide her back into sinking down on his cock, his arms wrapping around her in a tight embrace as his hips rolled upwards. "come on, baby, show me how sorry you are," he murmured between kisses, reaching up to brush her hair from her face before moving to squeeze at the back of her neck, wanting to touch her everywhere and leave his mark on her so that she wouldn't be able to ignore him again without her very bones rebelling at the idea.

billie had known that she would be in trouble. she truly didn't know how to handle it. she just knew that she didn't get any time to think about it. instead she was being forced to deal with her emotions right then. it was also the first time that ezra was being more brutal with her. normally since everything had started up he tended to ease her in. yet at that moment he was bruising her and she knew she would be staring at her reflection and likely see bruises. yet she didn't try to stop him or protest. instead she merely stared up at him through her tears. however she was taken for another loop when she realized that she actually worried him. it wasn't something that she had considered. mostly because she wasn't used to it. she bit down on her lip," i didn't-i didn't mean to." yet she had and the guilt felt even more heavy than it had. truly she had wanted it be a good night but it wasn't anymore. she was frozen as she realized that he was speaking again. her eyes drifted shut the moment his face pressed against her own. all the while his thrusts hadn't stopped and she whimpered. she nodded, realizing that he was letting her wrists go. she knew he was going for her hands but without thinking she went to wrap her arms around him again," i won't," she whispered," i'm sorry." her head turned so she could bury her face into his neck," please, please forgive me." she knew that they both had done things but she was only thinking about her side of things. the only thing that she could think was that she wanted to be as close to him as possible. she tried to blink away the tears as she turned her head to pull him into a kiss.

[darkwants]

poor baby. despite everything else going on, that one thought managed to cut through ezra's mind. billie wasn't stupid, she knew exactly why she was in trouble and to hear her acknowledging it was a balm to ezra because she wasn't pretending it didn't happen, wasn't pretending that she didn't know better. sure, she shouldn't have done it in the first place, but she was admitting to it and the more that ezra paid attention to the situation, the more he realized that billie wasn't fighting him to try to get out of the situation she was in. for as careful as ezra could be sometimes to keep from scaring hr, he wasn't being careful or gentle, his touch bruising and his thrusts brutal without any time for billie to warm up and adjust to what they were doing. still, she wasn't struggling, hadn't once said no or stop and the sight of her crying face as her arms remained limp in his hold and her legs tightly around him was soothing. he was still angry about what she'd done, but billie's misery as she begged forgiveness and took whatever he gave her was intoxicating. "you worried me." he finally got out, and wasn't that the worst fucking part? he was concerned about it and billie had stomped that concern beneath her heel and ignored his texts. still, she'd wanted the night to be good, they both did, and the way she whined about it being ruined evoked some sympathy, reminded ezra that she was new to what they were doing. maybe he wouldn't have been sympathetic about it and would have called her a spoiled brat if not for the way she still clung to him, crying without fighting and submitting to his rage. it was intoxicating and ezra's thumb brushed along her wrist as he pressed his face against the side of her own. "don't fucking do that, baby," he gasped, loosening his hold on her wrists to try holding her by the hands instead. "don't lock me out."

she had stared at her phone every single time ezra had shot her a text. she wanted to answer him but at the same time she didn't know what to tell him. mostly because the night had been an utter trainwreck. she had thought that he would take the hint but it was clear that she wasn't going to get that. she never thought that ezra would storm into her house. of course he was one of the few that knew where the spare key was. any other night she knew they both would have been just happy they were able to be together without worrying about her dad. instead it was clear that she had made him angry as well the second he burst into the room. that was how she found herself sprawled on her back with ezra between her legs. she couldn't remember if she had ever seen him angry like he was right then. his movements were absolutely bruising as he thrust his hips forward. the bedframe creaked from the rapid movements and she whimpered," ign-ignoring you!" a groan came from her as she felt him grab her hands only to pin them down. her fingers flexed but she didn't try to pull herself free. his hold on her wrists was tight but she trusted him. even when he was as angry as he clearly was with her. she was unable to stop the moans from bubbling up as her legs locked together around him," i wan-i wanted tonight to be good and it was-it was ruined! because of e-everything!" she couldn't bring herself to say another word as she felt tears trailing down her face. she had no idea why she was crying but she hated the fact that she had clearly disappointed him. it didn't help how overwhelmed her body was becoming due to what ezra was doing to her. sure she had hoped for the same outcome for the night but with him not being angry at her. she groaned, trying to clear her head," please," she pleaded," daddy! i'm-i'm sorry!"

[darkwants]

"i don't understand why i remember it." ezra was pretty sure he'd only ever referenced that random little detail on one other occasion in his life, when a girl complained about her weekend plans being ruined because of her period and how she stayed on a heating pad for two days straight and burned her skin. interjecting his opinion on how someone should handle their time of the month was ordinarily something that even ezra would consider suicidal, but the massage he gave her helped soothe any feathers he might have ruffled, if memory served. "fingers crossed for that." somehow the idea of billie getting hurt didn't work out in his head. maybe she might try to repair that one creaky step and accidentally hit her finger with a hammer or something, or maybe she'd slip on a spilled drink at work, those were the kind of dumb risks that could happen to anyone, but some part of ezra said that billie was too precious to get hurt that way, as if her being a sweet and shining star in his life meant that harm wasn't allowed to befall her. with billie carefully situated in the tub and messing with her hair, ezra used the plastic scoop inside the epsom salts bag to dump a liberal amount of the crystals around billie, counting on it to help soothe her muscles and ease her to sleep, although ezra was confident she'd drop right off after what she'd been put through. "that should be good. i'll be right back, okay?" he reminded her, giving bilile a swift kiss to the forehead before leaving the bathroom and heading back downstairs, making his way to grab a bottle of water from the fridge and ibuprofen from the kitchen. there were certain things that he kept in the bathroom, like creams, bandaids, and peroxide, but most pills were kept in the kitchen, which he thought was another place you weren't supposed to keep medicine, but oh well. the benefit of having to go into the kitchen to select the pills was that, after popping an ibuprofen of his own and getting some for billie, he also managed to grab one of those cupcakes with the cream center out of a torn hostess box before going back to the bathroom, pausing just long enough on the way to pick up billie's blanket. "okay, i got your water, the ibuprofen, and a snack for you," he announced as he stepped back into the room.

her eye brows arched up a bit as he continued to explain. billie honestly doubted she would remember anything he was telling her. even if she knew it was a bit interesting given it was clearly not common knowledge. she nodded slowly to make sure that he saw she had heard him," i never would have found that out, i don't think." she couldn't help but feel a bit amused. however she was still mostly focused on how worn out she was feeling. it wasn't exactly a bad feeling but it was different. she was obviously used to feeling exhaustion given how much she worked. however, what she was feeling right then, was vastly different to her. her body had been put through something that it never had before. her teeth caught onto her lip but she laughed a bit," lets hope i don't get hurt either way." he seemed to pause when she dropped the blanket. part of her wasn't sure if she should explain herself but he was already moving. she couldn't help but feel a bit of relief when he explained he was going to join her. it was clear that he truly was planning on taking care of her. that he wanted to make sure that she was safe and comforted. it seemed that their fight was forgotten for the time being. that was not something that she had ever imagined. he was moving to place her into the tub and she reached to grasp at the edges to keep her balance," thank you daddy." a slightly gasp fell from her as he was going to turn on the water. her eyes followed his movement as he put the stopper in the drain. the water was warm the moment he turned it on and he seemed to wait before he turned on the cold. she found herself still sitting up as he moved about to get the epsom salt. she reached to begin to brush her hair up and away from her neck. only to blindly reach for the elastic band that she still had on her wrist. she was pulling her hair up and away from her neck to avoid it getting wet for the time being," this is nice," she breathed, glancing around before looking back at him," being here like this without having to worry about leaving fast."