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"i promise i wont pose up in the club tonight" mumei 2 monsters deep:

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an evil wizard put a spell on me whilst i was asleep and now i feel like shit For Ever

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shes mad cos u gave her dry food instead of wet

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OKAYU ATTACK !!!

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my hand wont stop slipping

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im on the canvas. makin beautiful anime girl artwork

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im homeeee and drawing kitties !!

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lining and colouring this commission over at twitch.tv/kicksagain

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there is NOT a second version where she isn't wearing a shirt i dont know what you're talking about you sound INSANE

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i feel invisible

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might fuck around and starting doin my post processing in davinci resolve ,,, (tysm to @shanzikull for testing this out for me )

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2 years art improvement will do that to you

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i cant wait to finish this and get two (2) likes on twitter dot com

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people really gotta start thinking a little bit harder before they start posting shit like "all men fucking suck". like maybe consider the trans men in your life before saying things like that. it really reinforces the idea that wanting to be masculine is an inherently bad thing, and wanting to be a man is one of the Worst Things you could possibly do

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i'm gonna be starting hormones in the next couple of months and while i'm really excited for my own personal journey, i feel an intense amount of anxiety about my life going forwards.

i worry about how i'll be perceived if i try to get a job, at interviews or with coworkers - telling my NHS doctor that i need blood tests because i'm transitioning, and a fear that they might try to inhibit me from doing so. i'm scared of going to the airport to visit my partner, and showing security my passport with my deadname and a picture that's 6 years old by now, telling them that, yes, that's me in a voice much deeper than it was 6 months ago. i'm scared of cis men looking at me and knowing that i'm trans. i'm scared of the way people in the UK treat trans people and my trans friends, seeing the pushback against us, painting us as confused and unable to think for ourselves.

but when i think about my life after my transition, i see it more clearly than i ever could've before - a life where i can be happy and i want things, and i want to live. on the other side of fear, there is a much happier version of me, and i'm so excited to meet him.

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losing sleep because of anxiety feeling perpetually anxious during the day having panic attacks for no reason bro i gotta log off