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Rough ride.. MDNI

Sae Itoshi X Reader fic

Contains breakup and miscommunication

Revenge sex

Iceskater!reader

eventual happy ending </3

teenage love

ALOT of angst

CHP2

CHAPTER 1: Pleasant Surprise

YEAR 2008

You guys meet for the first time at the Itoshi residence. 

“You guys are Rin and Sae Itoshi!” Y/N was always an extreme extrovert unlike the brothers.

“Hey..” Sae greeted as Rin shyly hid behind him looking at Y/N with starry eyes. It’s obvious that Sae was slightly cautious since this was the point where he started getting recognised for his football skills.. So a lot of people only approached him with ulterior motives.

“Sooo wanna go play Mario kart..?“ Y/N pointed at the couch in front of the TV.

They somehow, despite their obvious differences,  became friends.. 

YEAR 2009 

Well they were closer now. That’s for sure. Y/N was part of their daily life, since they were in the same school.

“Move it grinch hair!!” 

“Get the hell away dufus!” 

Y/N and Rin were basically siblings. Sae was still.. Distant? No, more like he was just socially awkward. 

Y/N and Rin played with their dinosaurs while Sae was behind them eating a popsicle on the bench. 

“Oni-Chan! This monkey keeps trying to kill my Dino!” 

“Am not!”

Sae sighed. “Y/N you are the older one you should be nicer.. I think..”

YEAR 2012

 Sae started middle school so he was always away in school or on the field. This was the time when Rin and Sae started sharing a dream to become No.1 and 2 strikers. Y/N always thought it was a little presumptuous but she never discouraged them from their dream. 

Rin and Y/N  were walking to Sae’s game that was happening at the field. 

“So you know that my brother has a crush on you right?” Y/N almost spit out the lollipop that she had in her mouth.

“Okay how did you come up with that conclusion, broccoli boy..” 

“Well.. he always dresses up nice and tries extra hard on the field when he sees you.. Isn’t that enough?”

Well.. He isn’t wrong.. Y/N was young but not dumb. 

“Yeah but maybe you are overthinking it Rin, Sae is basically a blockhead no way he would have thought about me while playing football..”

“I guess..” 

Y/N was almost taken aback by how easily Rin agreed with her.

The game ended and Sae was walking home with them. Tailing behind the two of them. Sae had his eyes on her head as he turned and lazily glanced around. All of sudden, Rin asked a question that set Sae out of his daze.

“So when is Nee-San gonna date Oni-Chan?” He asked so casually that Y/N didn’t even process it completely before exploding with pink and red dusted on her cheeks. Rin turned his head back and looked at Sae for an answer. Y/N also looked at him with a flustered expression. Sae had a blank expression but finally answered after a few seconds. 

“Probably when we are older.” Y/N was now completely red. She was shocked and started running home. Neither of the brothers chased her.�� 

“Woah Oni-Chan, seems like you actually have a chance..”

YEAR 2013

The year that 13 year old Sae was gonna go to Spain for his football career.

Rin was at home with a headache. Y/N and Sae went to the park for some fresh air and to buy some snacks for Rin. 

“Y/N..” She turned to look at Sae who was beside her. Both of them were on the swing as she waited for him to continue his sentence.

“Promise me you won’t get mad?” Y/N got a little scared about what he was gonna say. 

Y/N and Sae started dating when she started junior high. He confessed to her in a traditional yet cheesy way by giving her a letter and going on a vacation with his family the next day. She always had a thing for him.. It’s Sae. It was your normal middle school sweetheart romance and they thought they would last forever. 

“Arggh why do you sound ominous!? Just spit it out..” Y/N said swinging on the same nostalgic swing he confessed to her on.

“I’m going to Spain for a few years.” There. He said it. A few seconds of silence followed before Y/N spoke out.

“You idiot! You scared me! You’ll come back after a few years anyways it’s not a big deal! Just don’t cheat on me and don’t ignore my letters..” Y/N said with a loud voice that got quieter the more she spoke.

Sae suddenly started laughing. Y/N was dumbfounded.. Was him going to Spain for a few years making him insane? “W-what’s so funny?!” 

“Nothing. You have to promise me you will still love me when I come back.” Sae said, with a big grin on his face and staring at her with a soft blush across his face. Y/N groaned and nodded as if it was the obvious.

The day finally arrived. The day of Sae’s departure. Y/N promised not to cry but shiny droplets fell down her face. Rin stood by her side as the both of them waved goodbye to Sae who was smiling at them warmly the whole time. 

YEARS BETWEEN 2013 AND 2018

Y/N sent him letters and of course he replied to them. Not much but he replied at least once every 5 letters. Soon you got your first smartphone. You guys texted often, not much but from time to time due to the difference of time zones. Sometimes your messages would be left on delivered for a whole week. His replies got dryer, being left on seen more.. Both Y/N and Rin brushed it off as him being busy. They had no other reason to think he was being rude or trying to distance himself. Realistically speaking it wasn’t a big deal.. Yet. 

After 4 years the messages which were being sent turned into once every 2 or 3 months. Y/N was getting busy with her school and friends. Rin still trained every single day for the pair's shared goal. Suddenly one cold evening, Y/N sent a message.. It turned.. Green?

“What the?? What’s going on?” Y/N texted Rin telling him what happened. He said he hasn’t texted him in awhile so he doesn’t know. 

“Okay let’s calm down.. Maybe it was a misclick? I don’t know.. ugh.. whatever. I’ll see him soon enough I’ll just.. tolerate it until then?” Y/N knew she shouldn’t think too much about it after seeing Rin’s reply.

YEAR 2018

Y/N heard the news he arrived.. But how did she hear it? Rin knocked on her house door. Eyes rimmed in red and hopelessness. He asked if he could stay there for the night. Y/N forced Rin to tell her what the hell had happened earlier that night..

She was.. shocked? No.. Disappointed? Not that. Maybe taken aback? She silently left the guest bedroom where Rin was in and went to the living room. Would he be there if she went knocking right now? Y/N got up and told her parents she was gonna go next door to greet them. The two families knew about Y/N and Sae’s relationship and thought it was just a cute reunion about to unfold. Sae’s parents weren’t home since they went to a small get together and would be back after midnight probably. 

Y/N nervously knocked on the door.. 

“Yes?-“ piercing mint teal eyes shot through her as it stared at her with no emotion.. She couldn’t think at all for a second. Sae was different. Yes much more handsome as he is 18 now but.. different emotionally too. The half lidded her eyes widened a little as it looked at her, in the dark with snow falling around her. Why did he look so.. pale and almost like a child abandoned..?

“Sae?” This small word was followed by silence. The only sounds that surrounded them were the leaves rustling and wind howling. Y/N swore it felt like time had just stopped. Sae looked at her with exasperated and drained eyes. 

The silence finally broke when Sae said something. “What do you want?” 

Oh.

Oh. 

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[kettleinusefornow]

Rough ride.. MDNI

CHAPTER 2

Sae Itoshi X Reader fic

Contains breakup and miscommunication

Revenge sex

Iceskater!reader

eventual happy ending </3

teenage love

ALOT of angst

CHP1 CHP3

CHAPTER 2: Something deeper

Snowflakes fell on her as she stood in the cold atmosphere. She didn’t know what to say. The same warm and loving look he gave her wasn’t there anymore. She prepared for him to lose the feelings they shared since 5 years is a long time to maintain them. But.. Something just made her sorrowful. 

“Can I come in…?” Which was again followed by silence.

Sae sighed. “Okay.” He made way for her to come in, closing the door behind her as she stepped in. Y/N was cold. She came in without thinking much. In only her tank top and pajama shorts. She was almost shivering. If it was the old Sae he would hug her and scold her for not covering up properly. But he’s unsimilar to his past self.  She walked into the living room of the Japanese style house. Memories of their childhood were embedded everywhere. She sat on the couch. The place where they had their first kiss. Cute. 

Sae followed in behind her and sat across the couch on another sofa chair.

“What did you want?” Y/N could feel the cold emitting from his words. 

“Well isn’t it obvious? I’m here to see my boyfriend.” Y/N tried to act herself which only got a frown from Sae. “Hah.. Boyfriend? Don’t get me wrong. Sure we were childhood sweethearts but we grew up. No way you thought this love would still go on right?” His words stabbed her chest like icicles. She didn’t dare to look at him after that frown. She looked at the floor. The same floor where she, Rin and Sae would do their homework while watching football matches.

“Can you.. leave already? You are wasting my time.” Y/N shot up. She didn’t say a word and neither did Sae. He looked at her face which was blocked by her hair since she was facing down. She looked up. 

Her nose slightly red and eyes that slowly formed tears that were about to fall. A face she hasn’t made since her grandparents died in an accident. “Sorry.” She somehow sounded out before turning to leave. As soon as she turned, small droplets of tears fell down onto the bamboo flooring like raisin drizzle. She came to a halt, Sae raised his eyebrows. 

“As soon as I leave that door.. We are never going back to our old selves again.” She spit out through her cries. Sae sat there. Just looking at her. “Leave already.” Y/N turned her head to see him. 

“Thanks for the memories, Sae.” A small parting gift that she fumbled over saying, paired with a broken smile that hid the despair that she felt. She walked slowly, A small part of her hoping he would grab her wrist to stop her and tell her it’s just a stupid prank or he was just messing with her. Yet nothing happened. She walked out the door, looking up at the dark sky as it somehow gave her comfort. She paced to her house, stopping a few times trying to deny what just happened without breaking down on the way.. 

Her parents were about to ask her how it went before they paused, not getting anything out. Their daughter was a mess. Face wet with tears, breaking out in cold sweat, barely even conscious enough to be aware that her parents were looking at her wistful eyes.

Y/N stayed in her room for 3 days straight.. A bit too much, she cried, and cried until she couldn’t make out if she was crying in her dream or in real life. She felt a tugging pain in her chest. Lumps forming her throat making her unable to breathe. The tears that ran down her face felt hot and almost like her eyes and cheeks were burning from the continuous crying. Her hands were soaked in wet as she wiped her tears again and again. She felt as if she was being ripped apart.. All for what? Just a random boy that was part of her life for a short while. Maybe it was the weather mimicking her, there were snowstorms that went on for the days she spent inside her room. Her cries echoed in the emptiness that she felt inside her.

Different people knocked on her door. Sae’s parents, her parents.. None of them were him. She was more disappointed in herself than she was heartbroken over him.. Y/N decided it’s best to just.. cry as much as possible let out everything so that she doesn’t fall apart outside..

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[kettleinusefornow]

Rough ride..MDNI

CHAPTER 3

Sae Itoshi X Reader fic

Contains breakup and miscommunication

Revenge sex

Iceskater!reader

eventual happy ending </3

teenage love

ALOT of angst

CHP1 CHP2

CHAPTER 3: Different Fonts, same insides

Sae’s POV 

“Why is she here..? I can’t meet her right now.. Not after I just met Rin.” He thought to himself as she stood in front of him. The moonlight only did her good as it radiated the glow of her aura. Her gaze was sharp like the edges of glass shards.. The calculating coldness in her eyes drew him in. She showed a tinge of betrayal as she looked into his eyes. He felt as if there was swirling darkness in her that he couldn’t ignore, but the only thing that came out his mouth were razor sharp words. 

“What do you want?” 

Why did he say that? He asked himself that question. His time in Spain made him turn into a cold and miserable being. He didn’t find joy in having happy relationships with people when he found out how the world doesn’t care about who you are and only what you are. 

She was visibly taken aback by his bitter tone. He isn’t.. He couldn’t have such a bright star in his dark world. It would only diminish her brightness. She was a princess and he was an ogre, that's something no amount of luck or power could change. She was an unattainable flower at the end of the cliff and was limbless farmer that could only dream of climbing the cliff. She still had that shine in her eyes that still had the ability to dream and stay unaware of the real world. Sae on the other hand.. He knew how it was to be confident in yourself only for it to be easily outshone by someone better than you.. He shouldn’t bring her down with him. He almost didn’t catch her calling out his name.

“Ca-can I come in?” God.. Her voice was like honey that was freshly harvested in the middle of spring, it was almost the same as it was 5 years ago.. She had the voice of a thousand sirens.. If you get too attached you would only end up getting drowned..

“Okay.” He wanted to push her away but he couldn’t.. He just had to let her in. She came in, clearly cold. He had no right to touch her and warm her up or scold her to wear more layers. He lost it a long time ago when he saw the real worth that he had. 

She went into the living room and sat down on the couch where they had their sweet memories attached to it.. He wondered if she recalled them too.  He sat across from her. 

Seeing her could only bring the blissful memories of the past. 

“Sae, why do you keep acting like you owe me something?“ Y/N suddenly asked him while laying on the patch of grass, freely basking in the sunlight of Sae’s backyard. 

“Do you really have to make my kindness into some twisted meaning?” Y/N looked straight ahead at the sky while he looked at her as if she was an extraordinary beauty while replying to her in a calm tone. 

“Well I don’t know! It just feels weird..” She grumbled while closing her eyes. Sae didn’t take his eyes off her. What felt weird? The way he looked at her as if she was the only one for him or the way he couldn’t keep his eyes off her even though she looked like a mess after playing in the mud all day? Young love is just so pure.

”The only thing that’s weird is the fact that you are wearing mismatched socks on grass! Weirdo..” Y/N sprung up looking at him with  fire in her eyes. “You-!” She grabbed his collar but he swept her wrist and pulled her down onto him, right in front of his face.

“My fashion is just too complex for someone like you to understand!” She declared, clearly being offended. It was followed by silence after that, before erupting into laughter while Y/N fell back onto the grass grasping her stomach and laughing. Sae laughed too.. Of course he laughed. He was still a kid that was joyful in the past…

That laughter soon turned into silence again, Y/N spoke up. “Sae.. Do you think you’ll be different after you come back from Spain?” Sae pondered for a while before, “The only thing that’ll be different is the fact that I’ll be taller than you! And maybe you are meaner.” Well.. Sure their height difference was larger now but.. She wasn’t the one turned sour.

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