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Love on the brain (Part 22)

Hey guys, I'm back!! I'm truly sorry that I disappeared for a while. Life just got in the way and there was nothing I could do about it. Anyway, I hope some of you are still happy to read this. The story continues and I can promise it's not finished yet. Thanks for all of your messages. I'll try to be better again. I hope you're all healthy. Stay safe and take care!

The chapter is also up on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/57760603

“Remember to take your medication.” Alex insists almost breathlessly.

The terminal is packed with people rushing past them to catch their flights. Alex checks their surroundings stressed before she makes eye contact again. Kelley grins at Alex, tilting her head to the side.

“Stop that.” Alex groans.

“Stop what?” Kelley grins.

“You think I’m going insane, don’t you?” Alex exhales.

“I wouldn’t dare.” Kelley laughs.

“Yeah, right.” Alex rolls her eyes.

“Stop stressing. I’ll be okay.” Kelley reassures her.

Alex bites her lip nervously.

“Alex.” Kelley says calmly, looking deep into her eyes and taking her hands into her own.

“I know. It’s just…you’re alone in Utah and-“

“Babe, I’m neither alone, nor fragile.” Kelley chuckles.

“Kel, I worry about you. Especially, after all of this.” Alex pouts, motioning down at Kelley who is still on crutches.

Kelley’s facial expression softens at that. She leans forward, pressing a kiss to Alex’s lips.

“I know, I’m still sorry, but I’ll be fine. I promise.” Kelley says softly, resting her forehead against Alex’s.

“I’m going to miss you so much.” Alex says sadly, pulling Kelley into a hug.

“I’m going to miss you the most.” Kelley replies, closing her eyes and breathing in the scent of Alex’s shampoo before placing a kiss above her ear.

Alex’s grip on Kelley tightens at that. They stay in a tight embrace for quite a while before Kelley pulls away slightly.    

“Don’t forget me.” Kelley winks.

Alex grips onto the nape of her neck and looks at her sadly.

“All I’m ever thinking about is you.” Alex whispers, looking at her insistently, gently stroking her fingers across Kelley’s skin.

They meet halfway for a meaningful kiss and this time Alex is the one to pull away.

“You’re going to miss your flight.”

“You’re right.” Kelley says, leaning down to pick up her bag.

Alex helps securing it across Kelley’s body so she can still walk on the crutches.

“I’ll see you in Orlando in a few weeks.”

Alex bites her lip and smiles, “I can’t wait. Call me when you landed safely.”

They kiss goodbye, but after that Kelley still doesn’t move, looking at Alex expectantly.

“What?” Alex laughs confused.

“You forgot something.” Kelley says, turning her cheek to Alex and pointing at it.

“How could I?” Alex rolls her eyes and leans forward to place a kiss on Kelley’s cheek, but just when she is about to, Kelley kisses her cheek first and starts walking backwards with a sly grin.

“You’re unbelievable, O’Hara.” Alex shakes her head, not able to hide the huge smile on her face.

“I love you.” Kelley calls loudly, heading for her gate.

“I love you too, but please don’t walk backwards on crutches.” Alex stresses.

Kelley waves one more time and then turns around and disappears behind the corner. Alex sighs loudly, instantly feeling the heaviness of Kelley’s absence deep in her heart. She knows one thing for sure: These weeks are going to be really hard.

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Three weeks later

Once they are back to their respective club schedules, talking to each other gets more complicated. Kelley is busy with trying to recover as fast as possible and Alex tries to improve everyday so she peaks at the World Cup. However, they try to squeeze in a FaceTime call every free minute they get.

Kelley stretches and looks at her watch.

“Alright, you have a team meeting in half an hour and I’m holding you up. Time to say goodbye.”

“God, you’re right. I don’t even know what day it is anymore. All this training is putting me into a bubble. I have another session with Dave tonight.” Alex smiles. 

“Didn’t you have one this morning as well?” Kelley frowns.

“Yeah, but I asked for another one. I need to do some more shooting.”

“Alex chill. Do I need to start worrying about you?” Kelley grins.

“Stop exaggerating.” Alex complains.

“I’m just saying. Your work ethic is getting to a point where it scares me.” she chuckles.

Alex sighs, “Am I doing too much?”

Kelley’s expression turns serious.

“Well, how are you feeling physically?”

“I can’t complain. At first it was exhausting, but I think I got past that point.”

“Doesn’t sound too bad. How are you feeling mentally then?”

Alex takes some time to think of her answer and it’s all Kelley needs as a confirmation. However, she waits for Alex to speak on it.

“Stressed to be honest.” she says looking at Kelley with something that tells Kelley that she hasn’t spoken to anybody about this up until now.

“How about slowing down a bit, Al? Doesn’t mean you have to stop all of your individual training. Just adjust so you have some time to yourself.” Kelley says softly, “You know, it will benefit no one if you are burned out by the time the World Cup comes around.”

Alex nods at Kelley in agreement, “Yeah, you’re right. I’ll call Dave.”

“Sounds good.” Kelley smiles softly.

“Thanks.” Alex smiles back.

“You are oh so welcome, beautiful.” Kelley winks.

Alex looks at her for a long moment, eying her closely, comfortable silence between them.

“It gets harder you know?”

“I think you’re doing great, Al. You’re going to be in perfect shape right on time and Dave is doing an amazing-“

“I meant saying goodbye to you.” Alex interrupts Kelley calmly but her eyes are displaying the sadness she is feeling.

Kelley lets out a deep breath, rubbing her hands through her face distressed, “Al.”

“I know, I’m sorry.”

“No! What are you apologizing for? You’re completely right, Al. Don’t you dare apologize.” Kelley insists, “I just- I don’t know what to do about it either and it drives me insane.”

“We’re just miserable, aren’t we?” Alex says with a hint of a smile on her face.

“Ugh, the worst.” Kelley groans.

The smiles appear on their faces again as soon as they make eye contact.

“Alright. Talk to you tonight.”

“Bye babe.”

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2 weeks later

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you. I can call tomorrow.” Alex pouts.

“No no, we had a date.” Kelley yawns frowning, “I just must have fallen asleep.”

“How was your day?” Alex asks softly.

“Absolutely dreadful.” Kelley groans hiding her face in her arm.

“What happened?”

“I just felt like I made so much progress the last few weeks and now I’ve come to a point where everything remains the same. It’s the worst.”

“Kel, I know you don’t want to hear this, but you need to be patient. You’re going to get there, I promise. There are going to be ups and downs, remember? You said so yourself. You need to hang in there. It will be worth it babe.”

“Let’s hope so. It’s just been a very shitty week.” Kelley grimaces.

Alex looks at her uneasily and Kelley can detect the worry in Alex’s eyes.

“But I’ll be as good as new for the Utah vs. Orlando game to kick your ass.” Kelley grins slyly.

“You wish! This is what’s going to happen O’Hara: I’m going to kick YOUR ass in the game and if you’re lucky enough I’ll at least play on the other flank so it won’t be you who gets embarrassed in front of our home crowd.” Alex says cockily, making Kelley laugh out loudly.

“Dream on! I’m known for my talent not my luck. However, I’ll definitely need all my luck after the game that weekend.”

“And why is that?” Alex raises an eyebrow.

“Because it’ll take a whole lot of luck to get laid after I won the game.” Kelley grins.

“Be careful with your words or you’ll really need luck in the bedroom.” Alex rolls her eyes.

“Baby, don’t get things mixed up. I need luck to get there. No luck required once I’m there. As I said I’m know for my talent, especially my after-game talent.” Kelley winks.

“Oh my god.” Alex laughs loudly.

“Just you, me and the bedroom. Or the shower,” Kelley jokes.

“Oh my god, shut up!” Alex laughs.

“or the sofa, or the kitchen counter,”

“Stop it!”

“Coffee table? I’d even be happy with the car, or what about the-“

“Kel!” Alex has tears in her eyes from laughing that hard and Kelley smiles contently.

“You’re an idiot.” Alex shakes her head, recovering from her laughter.

“But I’m your idiot.” Kelley counters as she makes herself comfortable again.

Alex looks at her with a huge smile. She doesn’t answer but her look says it all.

“Tell me about your week.” Kelley smiles serenely, her eyes falling shut for a second.

“Kelley are you sure we shouldn’t reschedule? You look exhausted.”

“No, tell me. Hearing your voice always cheers me up.”

“Alright then. Well, things are going much better. I finally feel like I’ve reached a good balance and it’s starting to show in training.” Alex smiles bashfully, biting her lip.

“Amazing. That’s really great, Al.” Kelley mumbles with a proud smile, her eyes getting smaller and smaller with every passing second, causing Alex to smile at her brightly, shaking her head.

“Babe.” Alex chuckles with a knowing look.

“I’m awake.” she declares weakly.

“Of course you are. Are you free for a quick call at 11 tomorrow?”

“Hmm, I think the staff scheduled a meeting tomorrow at 10:30, I’ll-“  Kelley starts, but her voice starts to fade as her eyes close completely.

Kelley visibly tries fighting the sleep.

“Shhh, just go back to sleep, pretty.” Alex whispers gently and soothingly.

Kelley falls silent and Alex just watches her as she lies there peacefully. The distressed expression she wore earlier is gone.  

“I miss you so much.” Kelley mumbles all of the sudden, not able to reopen her eyes as sleep overcomes her.

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The next day

“Good work, ladies! 2-minute break. Go hydrate!” the coach yells.

Sweat is glistening on Alex’s skin as she makes her way to the sidelines to grab a water bottle. It’s a particular hot day in Orlando and even though Alex loves the heat, she wishes herself back to New York for a moment. She drops down on the bench and grabs a towel from her bag to wipe the sweat. She quickly grabs her phone to take a look at her schedule but gets distracted when she sees her home screen.

4 missed calls from Kel 🐯❤️

Kel 🐯❤️ [11:23 am]: Can you call me back?

Alex quickly texts her back.

Alex ❤️👑 [12:05 pm]: Can’t right now. In the middle of training. Are you okay? xx

Kel 🐯❤️ [12:05 pm]: Right, sorry. Just call me when you’re free.

Alex looks at her phone worried.

“Alex! We don’t have all day.” Ashlyn calls from afar.  

Alex looks up from her phone absentmindedly, “Eh, yeah coming.”

Ashlyn and Ali exchange a concerned look before looking at Alex again.

“What?” Alex asks.

“You okay, boo? You look a bit distraught.”

“Something’s off with Kelley.” Alex mumbles before jogging past her and trying to get her mind back on track.

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Alex hits call the moment she arrives in the locker room. She goes to a corner where it’s a bit quieter because the rest of the team is chatting and laughing loudly.

“Hey.” Kelley says somberly.

“What happened?” Alex asks immediately.

“Are you alone?”

“No, I’m in the locker room.”

Kelley exhales heavily, “I’ll call you later then.”

“Wait. Let me go into the cleat room, it should be empty.”

“No no, let’s talk another time.” Kelley grumbles.

“Kelley, just spit it out.” Alex urges enervated, leaning on the doorframe of the empty cleat room.

There is a short pause but then Kelley speaks up.

“They won’t let me come to Orlando for the game.” she says bitterly.

Alex drops the phone from her ear. She leans her head against her forearm and closes her eyes. There is silence between them for what seems like an eternity.

“Alex? Are you still there?” she hears distantly from the phone in her hand, the loud laughing of her teammates almost drowning it out completely.

She enters the cleat room to create more distance to her teammates. Alex tries to stay composed by breathing in and out as calmly as she can before putting the phone back to her ear.

“Alex?”

“I fucking knew this was going to happen.”

It comes out more bitter than she thought it would and for a moment she is stunned by her own anger.

“I’m sorry.” Kelley says sadly.

“Why does this always happen, Kel?” Alex asks desperately, “It’s like the universe always wants to keep us apart.”

“I know that you’re mad, but-“ Kelley starts.

“Mad?? I’m not mad, Kelley. I’m disappointed. It’s just all taking a fucking toll on me.” Alex exclaims strained.

“Alex I’m sorry. I wanted to come really badly. But at least we’ll still get to see each other for the wedding.”

“What wedding?” Alex irritated.

There is silence on the other end yet again.

“Are you serious right now?” Kelley asks on edge.

“What Kelley?!” Alex snaps.

“You’ve got to be kidding me!” Kelley exclaims and Alex can hear her hitting her hand on something she assumes to be a table.

“My cousins wedding on the 3rd Alex!!” she almost yells.

Suddenly Alex’s eyes go wide in panic, “It is on the 3rd?”

“We talked about this. Several times.” Kelley says irritated.

“Oh God, I’m sorry. I totally forgot.” Alex mumbles weakly, feeling ashamed.

“So what? I’ll book you a flight. Maybe I’m able to get you first class. I’ll talk to my dad.”

“I-“ Alex swallows hard, “I can’t, Kel.” she sighs.

“What do you mean you can’t? Why?” Kelley asks aggravated.

“I have this shoot for Continental’s World Cup commercial in LA.”

“For fuck’s sake.” Kelley mutters to herself.

“I’ll call my PR team. Maybe we can push the shoot to the week after the wedding.” Alex says determined.

“No. We both know that this is going to cost them a lot of money. You have your contract with them and I understand that. I’m the last person who doesn’t. Still, what I don’t understand is how you forgot about this even though we talked about it.” Kelley argues sharply.

“I didn’t plan to forget Kelley! With this whole World Cup approaching I’m just completely overbooked. It’s not that easy to have an overview. I wish it wasn’t like this either but it simply is.” Alex answers just as sharply.

“Well, Alex it just seems to me that you’re starting to mess up your priorities at the moment.”

“What is that supposed to mean?!” Alex exclaims angrily.

“That you should think about your personal life from time to time.” Kelley counters coldly.

“As if I wasn’t trying Kelley! You don’t get it. It isn’t always that easy being me!” Alex snaps and she regrets it the moment the words leave her mouth.

The conceited tone in which she was saying it shocks her and she doesn’t recognize herself as the words replay in her own ears. Is Kelley right? Is she really starting to lose touch to her personal life?

“Oh wow Alex. You’re right, I wouldn’t understand. Being me is just too easy.” Kelley says in a calm bitter manner.

Alex can hear the disappointment in her voice and it makes her feel absolutely awful.

“No, that’s not what I meant!” she tries to justify.

“You know what Alex? Right now, it isn’t that easy being your fiancée as well.” Kelley expresses with a drained voice.

“That’s mean.” Alex says hurt.

“Can you tell me how I am supposed to feel about all of this then?” Kelley asks somberly.

“Alex, stop flirting with your boo and get changed! I want my coffee!” Sydney calls through the locker room, making everybody laugh loudly.

“You and your coffee, let the poor woman speak to her fiancée.” Ashlyn counters jokingly.

“Of course that would come from you Ash.” Sydney laughs.  

“I’m going to have to call you back.” Alex says briskly.

“Alex, come on.” Kelley answers annoyed.

“Kelley, I can’t.”

“You can’t be serious!”

“I said I can’t!” Alex exclaims and she flinches, surprised by the anger deep inside her once again.

There is no answer coming from Kelley and Alex knows she messed up even more.

“I-” Alex starts and she closes her eyes, trying not to cry.

“I just need some time to myself right now.” she says, knowing that if she tries to fix this right now in a loud locker room, she’ll only mess up even more.

“Of course, go have ‘time to yourself’ with your coffee date.” Kelley says sarcastically.

Alex rolls her eyes at that, “You know what? You’re a jerk.” she responds and hangs up.

She assumes Kelley would have done the same any second. Either way, the tears start falling from Alex’s eyes immediately and she realizes that the feeling of anger really just was pent up sadness.

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She tells Sydney that she isn’t feeling too well after being in the sun for that long and Sydney isn’t believing one bit of her story. After a long discussion with Ali, Ashlyn and Sydney who insist on giving her a lift, Alex finds herself in Ashlyn and Ali’s car. As soon as the door closes the tears start falling again and Ali reaches back to hold Alex’s hand all the way to her apartment. Ashlyn and Ali share a concerned look, but they also know Alex doesn’t want to talk about it at the moment and will come around eventually. They drop Alex off and tell her to call them if she needs anything.

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There has been complete silence between Kelley and Alex for the remainder of the day. After a sleepless night Kelley calls her mother in the morning.

“Hey, how are you sweetie?” Karen greets her joyfully when her face pops up on Kelley’s screen.

“Not great mom.” Kelley sighs depressed.

“Why? Do you have problems with your ankle again?” she worries.

“No…well, that’s not it. Alex and I got into a fight.” Kelley grumbles.

“Aww, no. What happened?”

“She can’t come to Katie’s wedding.”

“That’s okay Kelley, she doesn’t have to if she’s too busy. Although I can understand that you’d rather go with her but nobody’s going to be mad. Don’t worry.” her mom reassures her.

“No mom, that’s not the point. We talked about this plenty of times and she just forgot. For the last few weeks all she is thinking about is work. It’s starting to get overboard and it’s not good for her.”

“Hmm, that doesn’t really sound like Alex, does it?”

“No. I don’t know, she’s not herself at the moment.”

“Well, it certainly isn’t great that she forgot. Have you talked to her about it?”

“We did, but I wouldn’t describe our conversation as very productive.”

“You didn’t yell at her, did you?” Karen asks disapproving.

“It got quite heated. I might have said some things.” Kelley grumbles.

“Kelley, you should know better.” Karen says disappointed.

Kelley rolls her eyes, but she knows that her mom is right.

“Of course the whole situation is not ideal and of course you worry about her, but you also told me that Alex is super stressed. I don’t know what happened between you two and I wasn’t there for the fight so I don’t want to justify anything, but maybe it slipped her mind. Maybe the pressure is too much for her right now and she doesn’t admit it.”

“Well, things like this shouldn’t slip her mind.” Kelley grumbles.

Karen looks at her admonishingly.

“She is my fiancée mom! Fiancées usually turn up to family gatherings like this. I really wanted to see her. I just found out I can’t come to Orlando for the game. It would have been our only chance to see each other until the sent off games, if at all! God only knows what will happen to my ankle. I’ll probably sit here, unable to move while my fiancée is in France playing a World Cup. It just sucks!” Kelley rages.

“Kelley.” her mom repeats, but this time softly and Kelley knows it’s a reminder to breathe.

Kelley takes a deep breath and exhales shakily, still fired up by her rant.

“I would have loved for you to have her here as well. I know how hard it is for the two of you. But Kelley, that’s the point. It’s hard for both of you. You can’t tell me you think that Alex is having the time of her life right now. She’s doing all of this media stuff on her own, being in Orlando without you. The way you described it to me she seems to be just as lost as you are. As a matter of fact, I think she is completely overwhelmed. If she is just thinking about work, she probably feels just as much pressure as you are feeling with your ankle. Just in another way. We both know Alex. She has such a good heart and she loves you endlessly. She wouldn’t forget something like this on purpose. Cut her some slack honey.” Karen says softly.

Kelley looks at her reluctantly, but her mom already knows Kelley is convinced.

“As for you, Miss O’Hara, you need to stop sulking in self-pity. I don’t know you like that. The Kelley I know is a fighter and she’ll move mountains to get to that World Cup.”

“Well, I grew up mom.”

“It’s your dream, Kelley! It always was ever since you took this seriously. Don’t tell me you stopped fighting for your dreams just because you turned a bit older. You’ve got to step up now. They all need you to. The whole team.” her mom urges.

Kelley nods at her, deep in thought. When she looks up the fire is back in her eyes.

“You’re right. I love you so much mom. You’re the best.”

“That’s one thing that doesn’t change even if you grow old, remember that.” Karen jokes, making Kelley roll her eyes jokingly, wearing a bright smile.

“And fix this Kelley. Talk to her. The two of you love each other too much to get into a fight like this.”

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It’s 2 am and Kelley lies in her bed staring up at the ceiling. She sighs, knowing that she won’t find sleep anytime soon if she doesn’t do something. Alex has been trying to call her several times throughout the day but Kelley just couldn’t get her thoughts straight so she didn’t pick up.

“What are you doing Kelley?” she mumbles to herself, sitting up.

She grabs her phone and dials Alex’s number. Alex picks up immediately.

“I’m sorry.” Alex gets out quickly in a devastated tone, looking at Kelley with sorrow in her eyes.

“I know.” Kelley mumbles.

“I miss you.”

Kelley closes her eyes, trying to keep herself together. She nods her head. When she opens her eyes again tears are rolling down Alex’s face and a loud sob escapes her lips. Kelley swallows hard.

“Hey, it’s okay.” she says panicked, pushing away her pride.

“No, it’s not.” Alex disagrees.

“It will be.” Kelley says gently.

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1 week later

They haven’t been able to catch up for the past week due to their tight schedules. All they could manage was a few texts and a short call. Even though they had a conversation about their fight on that call, the tension from the week before is still lingering on their minds. This isn’t how Kelley imagined their time apart at all. After a long week of recovery and training she plops onto her couch feeling tired and miserable to say the least. She tries to FaceTime Alex who to her surprise seems to have time to pick up. Kelley means to say ‘Hello’, however the words get stuck in her throat and she eyes Alex warily.

“Heey babe, what’s up?” Alex asks with an untypical unsteady but still cheerful voice.

Kelley eyes her even closer before answering.

“Ehm…hey? Are you okay?” she asks unsure.

“Yeah, of course. I’m fine.” Alex waves her off confidently.

“Are you sure?” Kelley frowns.

“Totally. Why wouldn’t I be?”

“Alex.” Kelley sighs softly.

Tears dwell up in Alex’s eyes for what feels like the 10th time today. However, she rubs her eyes and pretends like nothing is going on.

“How are you? How is your ankle?”

“Alex, I can tell that you’ve been crying, you know that, right?” Kelley says gently, giving her a meaningful, sad look.

That’s the moment Alex breaks down completely. The tears start falling down her face and she hides it in her hands.

“Aww, babe. Please don’t cry.” Kelley comforts her gently.

“I can’t-” Alex starts, but she chokes up.

She takes a deep breath and Kelley looks at her worried.

“It’s all a little too much right now.” she cries.

“Hey, talk to me. Is this still about all of the pressure you’re feeling?” Kelley asks in a soothing voice.

“No, I handled that.” Alex exhales shakily.

“What is going on then, babe?” Kelley pouts.

“I just miss you so much. It gets worse and worse every day. You’re on my mind all the time and we haven’t really talked which is making me go insane, especially after this whole thing last week. I just feel so alone.” Alex sobs.

“Hey, love, look at me.” Kelley says gently.

Alex looks up and Kelley is met with Alex’s eyes. For a second Kelley has to think about the irony of how Alex’s eyes always seem to turn the most beautiful, brightest blue when she is crying. It reminds her of the bittersweet ambiguity of her job. Even though this job has brought Kelley the best things in life and everything she’s ever dreamed of, it also presents her with the harsh reality of having to look at said things and dreams through a phone screen at times.     

“You’re not alone, Al. I promise. I’m right here with you. I know the last few weeks haven’t gone like we planned at all. I definitely played a part in that. You and this relationship are the most important, most valuable things in my life. I could and should have handled things better. I’m truly sorry, Al. At times I’m really overwhelmed by my injury, training and everything around it, but it never should’ve come to this. I miss you so so much and I need you so much it hurts. We can fix this, love. I know a call doesn’t make up for physical presence, but is there anything I can do to make it better?”

Alex has visibly calmed down by now, but a few tears are still making their way down her face.

“I just wish you could hold me right now.” she quietly cries, looking to the ground.

It feels like a blow to Kelley’s chest. She feels like her heart breaks at once. There is nothing she can do to make Alex’s wish come true and she feels completely powerless. Alex looks up at her again and those bright blue eyes look straight into her soul. Kelley feels a shudder running through her. In that moment looking into those eyes sparks a desperate need to make Alex happy again.

“Okay, I have an idea. Do you trust me?”

“More than anything.”

“Can you lie down?” Kelley asks Alex who’s been sitting propped up against her headboard.

Alex looks at her skeptically for a second but does as Kelley asks her without asking questions.

“I know this is probably going to sound cheesy, but let’s just try this. Can you put that blanket over you?”  

Alex nods, her body trembling as she is still crying.

“Now stop the video call and lay your phone down on your ear so you can hear me close to you.”

“Okay.” Alex answers unsteadily.

“Okay, just close your eyes now. Breathe. Imagine I’m lying right behind you, holding you tight.” Kelley whispers softly.

“I know you must have had a terrible day, but I’m right here with you. I’m brushing my hand through your hair. I’m stroking your scalp so you relax while you just focus on the touch. I’m pressing a kiss to your temple. If you listen really closely, you can hear me breathing in your scent. You can feel the warmth of my body pressed against yours. My touch feels gentle and careful, but adoring and heavy at the same time. I hold you until you fall asleep and when you wake up, I’m still there and you are going to feel that familiar comforting security, because you can still feel the same sensation that you felt when you fell asleep. And you’re going to wear a light smile because of the certainty that you’re going to feel it every morning and every night for the rest of your life.” Kelley whispers into Alex’s ear.

The tears stop falling as she listens to Kelley intently and her body feels heavier with every word that leaves Kelley’s mouth. By the time Kelley finishes Alex has fallen asleep, feeling as though Kelley is holding her tight. Kelley hangs up, feeling at peace for the first time in weeks. Before her own eyes fall shut, she quickly sends Alex a text for the next morning. 

Kel 🐯❤️ [11:09 pm]: I know this is hard and I love you.

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One Day (Kellex One Shot)

Summary:

Technically winning a World Cup is the best moment in your life, but why does it feel like everything is going downhill for Kelley and Alex ever since?

Notes:

Hey guys, this is the author of ‘Love on the brain’, I wrote a one shot that isn’t related to that story, I hope you enjoy it. Let me know what you think :)

“Kelley!! Alex!! Shots at the bar!” JJ screams, waving her hand enthusiastically.

“I’ll be right back, babe.” Alex says, freeing herself form Servando’s embrace.

“Would you mind?” Kelley asks Hannah.

“No of course not. Go, have fun.” she encourages, smiling sweetly.

“5 minutes.” Kelley smiles, pressing a sweet kiss to her lips.

“Kel?” Alex calls over her shoulder.

“Coming!” Kelley responds, immediately turning around, putting her hands on Alex’s shoulders. Alex turns her head to look at her, smiling brightly. Kelley eyes are beaming and she smiles back at her even brighter.

“SHOTS, SHOTS, SHOTS, SHOTS, SHOTS, SHOTS, EVERBOOOODY!” Kelley yells loudly, her hands guiding Alex through the crowd to the rhythm of the music, lightly moving her shoulder blades from left to right. Alex laughs loudly, already feeling the effects of the alcohol. She reaches for her shoulder to hold on to one of Kelley’s hands while throwing her other hand into the air, joining in on Kelley’s shenanigans.

“There you are!!! Now let’s down these fucking shots bitches.” Ashlyn slurs, putting her shot in the middle of the group to toast. Ali hands Alex and Kelley their shots and they all bring them to the middle.

“Kel?” Megan asks, raising her eyebrow.

“To being fucking WORLD CHAMPS! OOS- OOS- OOS- AAH!” Kelley yells.

“OOS- OOS- OOS- AAH!!” the whole team yells, clinking shot glasses.

“WOOHOO!” Tobin, Allie and Kelley all yell after taking the shot. Alex laughs loudly, looking at some of her teammates who are scrunching up their faces from the shot. Meanwhile, Kelley feels awesome. Her whole body is more energized than ever, running at full speed. Right in that moment she feels as if she’s on top of the world. Her head is bopping to the beat of the music and her mind is on a high that resembles a trip.

“ANOTHER ROUND!” she exclaims, making some of her teammates roll their eyes and leave while others cheer and stay.

Another shot turns into six other shots and after round three the only ones remaining are Kelley and Alex, their promises to return to Servando and Hannah long forgotten. Hence, ‘5 minutes’ turn into one hour of not coming back and tipsy chuckles turn into drunken laughter while stumbling around, almost falling over each other. If you’d asks either of them, no one could have answered how they ended up outside of the party. Now they are sitting on the curb of the sidewalk, several feet from the back door, sharing a bottle of champagne.

“France, you’ve really been perfect!! Now I understand why everything is about love here.” Kelley slurs into the crystal-clear night sky, looking up at the stars.

It’s a warm summer night, the street completely empty and crickets are chirping along to the muffled bass of the music that is echoing through the streets.

“Imagine spending a night like this in Paris, drinking wine and dancing in the streets with someone you love.” Alex slurs, longingly looking up at the sky as well, handing Kelley the champagne bottle.

Kelley takes a swig of the bottle and sets it down on the ground, standing up.

“What are you doing?” Alex chuckles.

“May I?” Kelley holds out her hand, taking a bow.

“You can’t be serious right now. We’re not dancing here.” Alex giggles.

“Why not?” Kelley laughs.

“Because it was only nonsense.”

“I know you, it wasn’t.” Kelley grins.

Alex rolls her eyes, hating that Kelley indeed does know her so well, “Still.”

“Miss Morgan this may not be Paris and I only got champagne for you, but it’s still a pretty perfect summer night and someone who loves you is standing in front of you, asking you to dance with them in the streets of Lyon.” Kelley announces with a smile, still holding out her hand.

Alex looks at her with uncertainty, but the smile that is born on her face is the brightest Kelley has seen from her all day.

“Huh?” Kelley grins, raising her eyebrows and wiggling her fingers to make Alex take her hand.

“Aaaalright.” Alex says, taking Kelley’s hand and letting her help her up.

Kelley pulls her close, putting her hand on her waist, guiding Alex’s hand to her shoulder and taking her other hand into her own. She looks down at their feet, lining them perfectly and when she looks up at Alex, her eyes are looking back at her with a glow that Kelley would love to see all the time.

“One..two…three.” Kelley says under her breath, before taking the first step forward, making Alex take a step back and immediately matching her step.

“Good anticipation, Miss Morgan.” Kelley winks.

They dance around smoothly, holding eye contact at all time, the drunk smiles never leaving their faces.

“Why did I know you were going for a slow waltz?” Alex asks with an amused smile.

“Because I’m romantic as fuck.” Kelley grins smugly.

“Can’t argue with that.”

Kelley holds her arm up, letting Alex turn under it and smoothly takes her hand again, continuing the dance, pulling her close. A little too close. Much closer than necessary. Their foreheads are almost touching now, their gazes fixed on each other. Bright smiles turn into longing looks. Alex’s breathing starts getting heavier and her heart is beating out of her chest.

“Wanna try something even more romantic?” Kelley whispers.

Alex just nods her head, speechlessly. Kelley releases her hand and places both of Alex’s hands behind her neck while her own hands go around Alex’s waist, turning the slow waltz into a slow dance. Their bodies are pushed together completely now, not one inch space in between them, their foreheads finally touching. When Alex feels a light tingling of Kelley’s breath on her lips, she looks at Kelley’s lips before quickly looking back up into her eyes. The usual mix of green and brown in Kelley’s eyes which Alex always found really pretty is gone. Instead Alex can see almost only black, Kelley’s pupils dilated immensely. Alex starts thinking that it must be the alcohol and why in the world is she thinking about how pretty Kelley’s eyes are. The next moment Alex realizes that they have stopped dancing. They’re just standing there in the middle of the street in Lyon, bodies so close that they feel like one, staring into each other’s eyes for what feels like eternity. There is absolute silence for a minute. Before either one of them can process what is happening, they are both leaning in at the same time, sharing a short kiss that resembles a peck and both pull away again. They end up looking at each other’s lips confused. When they go in for another short peck, their gazes meet simultaneously once they pull away for a second time. That is the last straw it takes. They start kissing again, but this time it’s not a peck. When their lips touch it feels like an explosion of passion. Kelley literally feels her body releasing dopamine that flows through her veins like electricity, her heart racing. Their teeth clash together in urgency. The kiss a desperate attempt to express all of their emotions, turning it messy. Both of their eyebrows are furrowed while holding on to each other’s faces for dear life to kiss forcefully. Their lips move restlessly and needy as if it was their last moment on earth. Alex suddenly feels a sharp pain spreading through her head and she pulls away slightly.

“I-I can’t.” she rasps breathlessly, sounding anything but sure.

Kelley just starts kissing her more passionately, the creases on her forehead starting to intensify. A hasty attempt to stop Alex from thinking and it appears to work. As soon as Kelley’s lips are on Alex’s again, she forgets every thought that started to rush into her brain, the kiss anesthetizing every feeling of pain. Now Kelley is the one to pull away, panic written across her face.

“Fuck, we shouldn’t be doing this.” she gasps, but they still continue to kiss.

“I know.”

“We’re drunk.” Kelley mumbles.

“I know.” Alex breathes, turning her head to deepen the kiss.

There is pain and desperation written across both of their faces, but neither one of them can let go. Mid kiss Kelley starts walking forward until Alex’s back hits the wall of the venue they are celebrating in. She kisses Alex’s neck, making her moan lightly, throwing her head back against the wall. Kelley’s hands start opening Alex’s belt while Alex’s hands disappear under Kelley’s shirt, her nails digging into her back. When Kelley starts unbuttoning and unzipping her pants, Alex grabs Kelley’s chin to redirect her into a kiss again. Kelley’s hand starts making its way into Alex’s pants, teasing Alex by going agonizingly slowly. This only lasts until Alex grabs Kelley’s wrist impatiently and pushes it further down.

“Aaaaalex??” a voice calls, making both of them freeze on the spot.

“Kelley? Are you here???” the approaching voice calls.

They pull away from each other’s lips.

“Fuck.” Alex exhales in panic.

Kelley quickly buttons Alex’s pants, jumping away from her, starting to hectically go through her hair and her face. Meanwhile, Alex tightens her belt just as hectically, also brushing her hands through her hair. Kelley sits down at the curb again, taking the bottle of champagne into her hand and Alex sits down next to her, leaving a suspiciously huge gap between them.

“Are you insane?? Come closer!!” Kelley whisper yells, grabbing Alex’s arm to pull her closer.

“Same goes for you! Who sits like that?!” she snaps at Kelley, who sits so upright that she might as well dine with royals. Kelley relaxes her back just in time when Allie walks around the corner.

“There you are! What were you guys doing without me?” she slurs.

Kelley’s eyes go wide and she quickly starts chugging the rest of the huge bottle of champagne. Alex looks at her in disbelieve.

“We were just talking.” Alex says, standing up.

“Wowza Kel, you’re the life of the party.” Allie laughs, when Kelley sets down the empty bottle which was nearly half full.

“I’ll be right back. I need to go to the bathroom.” Alex excuses herself.

“That I can see.” Allie chuckles.

“What?” Alex exclaims wide eyed while Kelley freezes again.

“Your zipper.” Allie laughs, pointing at Alex’s pants, “It’s already open.”

Alex and Kelley’s eyes dart down to Alex’s zipper which indeed is still and not already open.

“Uh, yeah. I really have to pee badly.” Alex laughs awkwardly, before almost jogging to the back door to enter the venue again.

Allie looks at Kelley observingly.

“Dude, your lips are so swollen from chugging that bottle of champagne right now.” she laughs.

Kelley hesitantly starts joining in with Allie’s laughter, before redirecting the conversation to something else. They talk for about 15 minutes, waiting for Alex to return, but she never does. When they reenter the venue to go search for her, they are told that she already left about 15 minutes ago.

“And man did she leave hastily, I bet Servando is getting lucky tonight.” Ashlyn laughs drunkenly, causing Allie to burst into laughter and Kelley’s heart to ache. As if that wasn’t quite enough, she feels a hand on her shoulder and when she turns around big brown eyes are looking back at her. Her girlfriend.

“Where have you been?” she asks with an annoyed edge to her voice.

“I- uh- I-“ Kelley slurs, feeling the effect of the champagne combining with all the shots. The room starts spinning, her head hurting badly from the mix of the alcohol and the concussion she got in the game. Kelley feels her eyes moving uncontrollably. A dull droning fills her ears, making the conversations around her incomprehensible.

A muffled “What’s up with her?” is all she can hear Allie say, before blacking out.

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“I-uh-I-“ Kelley slurs, making Hannah look away impatiently.

“What’s up with her?” Allie asks alarmed, pointing at Kelley, who looks like she’s about to pass out.

Hannah looks at Kelley, who slumps over in that exact moment.

“Woooah, slowly Kel.” Allie chuckles, stepping forward to help Hannah to prevent Kelley from falling.

“Aaaaand she’s out.” Ashlyn laughs loudly, blindly trying to find the straw of her drink with her tongue without success.

“Something tells me she’s not far from it either.” Allie whispers loudly to Ali, pointing at Ashlyn.

“HEY!” Ashlyn yells while Pinoe arrives with a shitfaced smile.

“Kel bell, what’s up with you?” Pinoe slurs with a baby voice, poking Kelley’s face without getting a response.

“Great. Was she still drinking when you found her?” Hannah groans, ignoring all the drunkards around her.

“Found her whilst chugging half a bottle of champagne.”

“LEGEND.” Pinoe bawls.

“Ugggh. Tomorrow is going to be awesome.”

Allie takes another look at Kelley, who is limply hanging on to their supporting shoulders with her eyes closed, toppling back and forth.

“Definitely.” she laughs.

“Okay, party’s over, babe. Let’s get you to the hotel.”

“I’ll help you.” Allie offers.

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Kelley miraculously survives the night without any incidents. Knocked out like a light, she sleeps through. The miserable part starts in the morning when she wakes up guilt ridden, the memories of the night before flooding in. She wishes the alcohol somehow had made her forget. Instead her body still feels and smells intoxicated, however the real origin of anything poisonous is located in her thoughts that are drowning her like a wave, violently pulling her head underwater every time she tries to breathe. Kelley starts to wonder how she even got to the hotel and her eyes start going wide when she realizes that apparently, she can’t recall as much as she thought. Kelley looks around the room in panic, making her head hurt badly. She is alone. The bed beside her is already made or untouched in the first place. She then looks down her body which is covered in clothes. A good sign. Kelley lets out a deep breath, looking at the ceiling. At least she didn’t do anything worse she thinks before realizing that it really couldn’t get any worse than it already is. She reaches for her phone, squinting at the bright light of her phone which immediately makes her headache even more prominent.

Hannah [8:49]: Call me when you wake up.

Instead Kelley texts her, not ready to face the agony of hearing Hannah’s blameless voice. It already hurts enough to know that she is going to have to lie to her either way. After Kelley motionlessly and numbly stood under the stream of an ice-cold shower, she meets Hannah in the lobby to go for a walk outside since she can’t even think about breakfast. Hannah fills in the blanks in Kelley’s memory and Kelley hasn’t been able to even look at her once since they met.      

“What’s up with you?”

“Huh?” Kelley mumbles absentmindedly.

“Something is off.”

“Eh no I just-“

Kelley stops mid-sentence when she hears Alex’s voice, arguing loudly. Before Kelley is able to process what is about to happen, Alex walks around the corner, looking behind her, not watching where she is going. She is walking so fast that she almost crashes into Kelley who quickly grips her arms to cushion the collision. She barley manages to stop before they knock heads and Servando comes to an abrupt halt, the words he was yelling faltering. Alex looks at Kelley with wide eyes. Kelley notices the tension between her and Servando in a heartbeat. She has been running from him, he was chasing. Kelley feels a feeling of sickness arising in her body.

“-feel sick.” she finishes.

She quickly pushes Alex back forcefully and bends over, starting to throw up.

“Kelley!!” Alex gasps.

“Oh my god, Kelley!” Hannah exclaims.

“Shit.” Servando says worried.

Alex jumps into action faster than lightning. She holds Kelley’s hair and gently strokes her back, while Hannah rushes to her side as well, being left with patting the lower part of her back. When Kelley stops, she slumps down to the ground, leaning against the wall, closing her eyes.

“Water.” she says weakly.

“I’ll get you some!” Hannah quickly says.

“I’ll get some wet towels.” Servando adds, jogging to catch up with Hannah.

Alex sits down next to Kelley, putting her arm around her. Kelley lets her head fall on Alex’s shoulder exhaustedly. She wipes the sweat off Kelley’s forehead with her hand. Even though Alex only sits beside her, she can feel Kelley’s heart racing. So, while her hand is still holding Kelley’s forehead, she lays her free hand on top of her chest, right above her heart to calm her down.

“Hey, shhhh, I’m here.” she soothes with a gentle voice.

Kelley nods lightly, nuzzling her head in the crook of her neck. After a minute or so of just sitting in silence Alex starts to worry.

“Your heart is still racing.”

Kelley doesn’t answer for another solid minute.

“I think you’re only making it worse.” she finally whispers with a weak smile on her face.

Alex heart makes a jump, but she still decides on ignoring the comment and drop her hand.

“Are you okay?”

“Alex…I-“

“Shit, babe, are you okay?” Hannah asks worried, handing her the water bottle while Servando hands Alex a towel.

“Eh-yeah. I drank a lot last night, haven’t been feeling well all morning.” Kelley says with a crack in her voice, still avoiding eye contact, turning her head to Alex so she can place the cold towel on her forehead. Alex looks at Kelley disbelievingly, knowing that Kelley is lying. Meanwhile, Hannah and Servando seem to buy Kelley’s cheap excuse.

“Typical hangover. That’s the worst, man.” Servando grimaces.

“Ugh, Kelley I literally told you not to drink that much. I already had a handful with getting you to the hotel last night. You’re lucky Allie was such an angel. I don’t watch you for like one hour and you’re shit wasted. I should have left you at the venue.” Hannah rants.

Kelley looks at her annoyed, clearly not in the physical condition to argue.

“Alex, I’m so sorry!” Hannah apologizes.

“NO!” Alex exclaims loudly, making everybody look at her.

“Eh, I mean, no everything is fine. Actually, I’m the one who has to be sorry.”

Kelley looks at her with panic struck eyes that scream ‘You can’t be serious!’ while Hannah and Servando look at her questioningly.

“Kelley isn’t to blame. I got her this drunk. We were downing some shots and I kept on ordering more.” Alex defends.

“Well, defending her is really honorable Alex, still I don’t see you throwing up all over the lawn. However, I got to say, you look really pale right now.” Hannah observes.    

“Uh, yeah. I don’t feel quite well either.” Alex answers, now being the one who can’t look at Hannah. Kelley notices immediately, trying to pull the attention away from Alex.

“I think I need some more rest. Would you mind helping me upstairs?” she asks Hannah.

“Yeah, sure.”

Only now does Alex realizes that her other hand is still around Kelley and she quickly drops it. She then jumps to her feet, awkwardly dusting off her pants. Hannah puts her arm around Kelley to stabilize her for the second time in the last 24 hours.

“Do you need any help?” Servando asks.

“We’re good. Who drinks that much has to deal with the consequences, right?”

“…Right.” Alex mumbles quietly, looking at the ground.

Her gaze quickly shoots up when she feels Kelley’s eyes on her. She looks at Alex desperately.

“Thanks again Alex, your reaction was blazing fast. I don’t think I would have acted that quickly when someone almost threw up on me.”

“Of course. I care for Kelley. That goes without saying.” Alex says meaningfully and Kelley looks at her guiltily, catching the insinuation.

“Thanks, Al.” she says quietly, before they leave.

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At lunch, they say goodbye to their friends and family. However, while for most of the players the goodbye is either happy because they are going to see them in a couple of days again or sad because their partners and families go back to their normal working schedules, both cases don’t apply to Kelley or Alex. After Alex said goodbye to her family, untypically prolonging the hugs to avoid facing Servando, she finds herself standing in front of him, still not able to make eye contact.

“Hey.” he says softly, putting his finger under Alex’s chin to make her look up at him.

The moment Alex’s eyes meet his she can’t stop the tears from coming. They are streaming down her face like a waterfall and desperate sobs escape her lips. Servando wraps her in an affectionate hug, gently combing his hand through her hair. The loving hug only makes Alex cry harder and she holds onto him, her face buried in his chest. He kisses her head softly.

“Don’t cry. I’ll meet you in LA in a few days.” he says softly, causing Alex’s body to shake heavily, the tears soaking his shirt.

Meanwhile, Kelley is standing across the room apathetically while her family and her girlfriend have a conversation, she should probably engage in. Still, they don’t bother since nothing seems to grab her attention all morning. Hannah rightly accused her of being distant which Kelley excused with being extremely hungover, downplaying her real emotions. Despite all that, her attention is drawn towards Alex immediately when she hears her crying. She instantly feels a profound urge to walk up to Alex and hold her close, but instead Alex is wrapped in Servando’s embrace. Her husband. ‘Alex has a husband’ Kelley thinks. She watches Servando kiss Alex’s head, whispering something which only makes Alex cry even more and she doesn’t recognize her feet starting to make her way across the room until a hand on her shoulder stops her.

“Are you okay?”

Kelley turns around to look at Hannah. Her girlfriend. ‘I have a girlfriend’ Kelley thinks.

“Do you have to throw up again? You look terrible right now.” Hannah asks worried.

Sam walks by with a cup of beer and Kelley snatches it from her hand, downing it in one go, before putting the cup back into her hand. Sam looks at her with her jaw agape.

“Thanks.” Kelley pats her shoulder, making her walk on confused.

Kelley turns around hastily to look at Alex and Servando before Hannah snaps her finger in front of Kelley’s face angrily, looking at her in disbelief.

“What?!” Kelley says a little too loud when her head snaps back to Hannah.

“Oh my god, I can’t believe this.” Hannah turns around angrily.

“Wait, Hannah! I’m sorry!” Kelley chases her.

She catches up with her in the lobby, gripping her arm.

“Stop!” Hannah warns, freeing her arm from Kelley’s grip.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” Kelley takes a step back, looking around nervously.

Hannah observes her closely, sighing when she sees the dull look in Kelley’s eyes.

“What are you sorry for?” Hannah asks desperately.

“For being in a bad mood.” Kelley mumbles unconvincingly.

“Bullshit.” Hannah counters.

“What are you really sorry for?”

Kelley stares at the ground numbly, chewing on her bottom lip.

“Why are you acting like that?” Hannah goes on.

No response.

“Kelley…I’m not blind. Can’t you just say it?”

Kelley shakes her head, tears starting to fall down her face. She wipes them away quickly.

“You love her.” Hannah says softly.

Kelley’s eyes meet Hannah’s. Now she allows the tears to silently roll down her face.

“I’m so so sorry.” Kelley cries, her voice almost unintelligible because it’s cracking so much.

She looks away ashamed, hiding her face in her hands. Suddenly, she feels her hands being pulled away from her face. Hannah holds her hands, giving them a squeeze.

“It’s okay.” she whispers, making Kelley’s heart break into a thousand pieces.

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The team leaves France behind to continue on riding in the whirlwind that has them under its control ever since the night before. Kelley keeps a straight face for the first two hours of their flight back to the US, partying with her teammates, trying to erase all her pain. After another exhausting round of drinks, nearly everyone has fallen asleep to somewhat stay alive for the next 24 hours. Kelley doesn’t know how many beers she drank within said two hours, but sitting in the now silent plane she knows one thing for sure and that is that she’s feeling like shit and it’s not going to go away that easily. She tries to fall asleep for what feels like an eternity, tossing and turning sleeplessly, but her mind can’t rest for just one second. What she doesn’t know, is that she isn’t the only one. Alex watches Kelley since half an hour, the pain in her chest growing with every minute she sees the distraught expression on her face. Kelley sits up, exhaling deeply and rubs her hands through her face. When she stays put with her hands over her face for a really long time, Alex starts to worry even more and just as she decides to walk over, Kelley stands up determined. Alex quickly closes her eyes, pretending to sleep. She hears the light steps coming closer, feeling Kelley standing over her. That’s where she remains motionless for about 3 minutes. Alex considers if she should just open her eyes and check if Kelley has left, but she senses her presence unquestionably. Kelley squats down, lightly touching Alex’s shoulder.

“Al?” Alex hears her gentle voice.

“Alex...are you awake?” the warmth of her voice makes Alex’s heart combust in the same way Servando’s unknowing and pure tone did earlier.

When she gets not response Kelley sighs heavily. Just when Alex thinks she stands up and leaves, she feels Kelley’s warm breath on her ear.

“I’m so sorry.” she whispers shakily before pressing a featherlight kiss to her cheek. That’s also when Alex feels something else touch her cheek and she senses that Kelley is standing up quickly. The pressure in her chest gets unbearable and Alex contemplates opening her eyes, but what should she say? Does it matter anyway? Shouldn’t they just ignore what happened? The tingling on her cheek pulls her out of her thoughts.

“Wait!” Alex whispers, quickly sitting up, her arm darting forward to reach for any part of Kelley, but her hand reaches into nothingness. Alex catches a short glimpse of Kelley jogging down the aisle, wiping away her tears and disappearing into the bathroom. Alex stares down the now empty aisle heartbroken. The tingling on her cheek starts moving down her face and Alex wipes her cheek, catching Kelley’s tear before it drips down her chin. They don’t talk after that.

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“Alex!! Alex!!! Give us a smile!! Alex to your left!!” the photographers yell deafening loud when Alex walks through a screaming crowd, ducking her head and following her teammates to enter the hotel.

“Alex, can you sign my shirt?”

“Alex what do you say to the criticism of your goal celebration?”

After all the years of standing in the spotlight since a very young age, the screams are only white noise to Alex. Therefore, Alex can’t explain why one particular question somehow forces its way into her ear.

“Alex where has your husband been all tournament??”

Alex’s step falters. She clenches her fists. The screams around her getting louder and louder until they are echoing through her head on maximum volume. She becomes uncomfortably aware of the noise that she tuned out before.

“Are the rumors true that you’re breaking up?” the same reporter yells.

Alex turns around abruptly, quickly striding in the direction of the reporter with sheer anger on her face, determined to take action, when she feels the wind being knocked out of her. She collides with a torso that is pushing her in the direction of the hotel entrance with such force that Alex can’t do anything but swim along the stream of her teammates and the staff, bolting for the entrance to escape the people. However, that doesn’t mean that she doesn’t try to fight back. When they enter the building, the body moves them away from the hustle and only now does Alex escape from the tunnel like state her mind was in that prevented her from perceiving her surroundings. She stops fighting against the force and takes a step back to look who’s been dragging her along. She looks at Kelley perplexed who is standing in front of her barrel-chested.

“What do you think you’re doing?!” Alex barks, trying to push past her.

“I’m obviously saving you from a huge mistake!” Kelley argues, blocking her way.

“I don’t need to be rescued!!” Alex yells, shoving her in the chest.  

“Apparently you do Alex!!!” Kelley yells back.

“And what makes you the great hero to take that responsibility upon your shoulders?” Alex comments with a spiteful chuckle.

“Are you fucking serious right now?! I worry about you!!!” Kelley screams, making everybody look at them.

“Oh, spare yourself the sympathy.” Alex says numbly.

“You’re really campaigning for ‘Asshole of the Year’, huh?” Kelley asks sharply, getting into Alex’s face.

“As the defending champion, are you nervous?” Alex counters arrogantly.

“Guys!!! Stop!!!” Dawn intervenes, trying to pull them apart, but they keep on going.

“Are you insane?! Do you know what could have happened?? Alex, really, do you understand what it would have meant to go at him?!”

“That’s MY problem!!! That’s MY FUCKING problem!!! Not yours!!”

“You know what Alex? Go ruin your life then, but don’t come crawling back to me and make me say ‘I told you so’. All I wanted was to help you.”

“You’re so full of yourself. Don’t act like you care anyway!!!!” Alex yells in anger.

Kelley raises her eyebrow at her, shaking her head and turns around to leave, but Alex walks around her, stopping in front of her.

“Don’t you dare look at me like that!! I don’t need your condescending attitude. I don’t need your pity. And most of all I don’t need your help!” Alex bites, pushing her pointer finger into Kelley’s chest repeatedly.

Kelley takes Alex’s finger into her hand, holding on to it.

“Yeah, right Alex. You made it pretty clear that you don’t need me.” she whispers bitterly, her voice full of pain, looking at her intensely. She then releases her hand, removing it from her chest and walks away without looking back once.

“Kelley!” Allie yells after her, but Kelley just keeps on walking.

Ali, JJ and Becky start running after her.

“What in the world was that?” Allie asks shocked, pulling Alex from her state of rage. That’s also the moment that Alex notices most of the team staring at her, jaw agape. When she does, she looks away ashamed, tears forming in her eyes and she takes off.

“Alex! Wait!” Allie calls after her.

Alex enters the staircase of the hotel. She sprints up the stairs until her lungs are burning and the tears are blocking her sight. Then she slumps down on the ground, pulling her legs to her body, hiding her face behind her legs. The staircase is filled with devastated sobs and it only takes two minutes until it’s also filled with sounds of steps approaching carefully. Someone sits down beside her. Alex feels arms pulling her in an embrace and she leans into the hug, crying even harder.

“It’s going to be okay.” Allie says softly, stroking her hair.

Alex shakes her head, gripping Allie’s shirt and keeps on crying for hours.

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Kelley wakes up with a jolt, a gasp escaping her mouth and she sits up straight.

“Fuck.” she breathes, letting herself fall back in the bed.

She grabs her phone, checking the time. 04:03 AM. She groans loudly. She only managed to fall asleep about one hour ago and is already woken by Alex wandering around in her dreams.

“Fuckin’ awesome.” Kelley whispers, throwing her legs out of bed.

She gets up and still feels the effects of the alcohol in her system, stumbling out of bed, almost falling over. They went out earlier, still celebrating the win. Kelley probably drank a sip for every minute Alex didn’t look at her which was a lot since she didn’t do so even once. She paces around her room, grabbing a small bottle of booze from the minibar, downing it in one go, scrunching up her face and letting the bottle fall to the ground. Kelley then leaves her room, staggering down the hallway, crashing into the walls every few steps until she arrives in front of Alex’s room. Under the door Kelley can see a light and she knocks against the door loudly.

“Aalex?”

Kelley holds onto the door frame to keep from swaying back and forth, waiting for her to open the door. When she doesn’t, she starts raising her voice.

“Alex, we need to talk!”

Kelley puts her ear against the door, listening for any noise.

“Aaalex!” she yells.

“Alex, I know you’re awake.” Kelley slurs, leaning her forehead against her door to support her weight.

“Heeey, open up!!”

She knocks again, but Alex is not responding. Kelley bangs her fist against the door hopelessly.

“I know you’re there. You can’t hide from me forever.” Kelley whispers, as she turns around and slides down the door, sitting down on the ground.

Meanwhile, Alex sits on the other side of the door, mirroring Kelley’s position, covering her mouth to silence the sobs that are escaping her once again.

“You know, I really need you to talk to me…” Kelley slurs, her voice sounding lost and almost childlike which it never does and it breaks Alex’s heart.

Alex closes her eyes, breathing unsteadily, the tears rolling down her face silently.

“I don’t know what to do…” Kelley cries.

“Al, I don’t know what I should do and I need your help. I need you here with me.” she sobs.

That’s where they both fall asleep. Back to back, but still a thousand miles apart.

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Kelley is woken by a kick to her ankle. She squints up, the light in the hallway blinding her and she rubs her hands through her face exhaustedly.

“You look like shit.” Allie comments drily.

“I feel like it.” Kelley rasps.

“Did you really spend the night in front of her door?”

Kelley looks around disoriented, still half asleep, “Looks like it, huh?”

Suddenly her eyes go wide and she jumps up immediately.

“Uuuh, I mean- I- I don’t know!! I must have been sleepwalking or very drunk.” Kelley stutters.

“Kelley?”

“Yeah?”

“Cut the crap.”

Kelley gives her an awkwardly nervous look.

“Uh…did she..uh-“

“Did she tell me?!” Allie chuckles.

“Ehm, yeah?” Kelley asks unsure, her voice high.

Allie bursts into loud laughter, making Kelley look at her insecurely.

“Bitch, please!! First of all, I’m surprised it only happened now-”

Kelley shakes her head shocked, wondering how Allie noticed.

“Don’t shake your head like that, I’m not fucking blind-“

“Why does everyone keep saying that?” Kelley frowns.

“-and second of all ‘We were just talking’?!? Who were you guys trying to kid? A three-year-old?”

“What do you mean?”

“Kel, Alex looked like a flustered mess with her zipper open and when it comes to you, no champagne bottle in the world makes your lips look like that.”

Kelley opens her mouth, meaning to defend herself, but she closes it quickly again.

“That’s what I thought.” Allie says knowingly, raising an eyebrow.

Kelley exhales deeply, looking at Allie exhaustedly and slides down the door again, closing her eyes and massaging her forehead.

Allie squats down in front of her, “Does she know you slept here?”

“Maybe…probably…I don’t know. I don’t quite remember last night that well.” Kelley shakes her head, frowning.

“Kel…”

Allie stops and puts her hand on Kelley’s knee to make her look at her.

“You shouldn’t be here.” she whispers pained, giving Kelley a compassionate look.

Kelley lets her hand fall from her forehead, looking at Allie with bloodshot, dull eyes, but somehow her gaze still is intimidatingly piercing. Kelley studies Allie’s eyes closely, looking at her motionless for a long minute. Then she gets up without saying a word. Allie still squats on the ground, now looking up at her questioningly. Kelley nods at Allie emotionlessly, her face gone distant and cold.

“Yeah.” she says before she turns around.

Allie, who remains in her position, watches her walk down the hallway, trying to read what she just witnessed. Kelley stops in front of her room, unlocking her door, taking another look at Allie before entering her hotel room. Allie stares at Alex’s door blankly and then turns her head to Kelley’s door again.

“No.” she whispers, jumping up and running to Kelley’s door, turning the doorknob hectically.

The door is locked and Allie hammers with her flat hand against it repeatedly.

“Kelley! Open the door!”

Kelley doesn’t respond.

“Kelley open the fucking door!!”

The door springs open and Kelley walks out with her suitcase and her bag, pulling the door closed. She has never been gladder that she didn’t unpack her things when they arrived at the hotel the day before.    

“What are you doing?!” Allie exclaims, looking at her shocked.

“I’m leaving.” Kelley says coldly, marching down the hallway.

“What do you mean you’re leaving?! Are you crazy?? You can’t just leave, Kelley!!” Allie shouts, following Kelley frantically.

“I have to, you said it yourself. She doesn’t need me.”

“I was talking about sitting in front of her door you fucking idiot!”

“No, you’re right. I’m no good for her. I’m going to make her life a mess and she is the one who made her decision!”

“Woah, stop right there!! What are you talking about?!”

“I said what I said. She made her fucking decision without any hesitation, she chose this!!” Kelley snaps outraged.

“Kel, that’s really unfair. Why are you making her out to be the one who made that decision?!” Allie scolds her angrily.

“Because she’s with Servando!!!” Kelley yells, stopping and turning around.

“And you’re with Hannah!!” Allie yells reproachful.

Kelley stays silent. Allie is waiting for a verbal response, but instead only gets a look out of Kelley that she wishes she hadn’t seen. Kelley looks at her with such agony in her eyes that Allie nearly has to look away because she can’t take it. Kelley turns around, walking towards the elevator. Allie is left dumbfounded, frozen for a few seconds before she catches up with Kelley, gripping her arm to turn her around harshly.

“No, no, no, no, no! You’re with Hannah!” Allie emphasizes intensely.

“Leave me the fuck alone.” Kelley says icily, trying to free her arm.

Since Allie doesn’t let her go, Kelley just keeps on walking, dragging her towards the elevator, pushing the button. Allie lets Kelley’s arm go, getting in her way.

“Kel, you’re with Hannah. Right?” Allie asks shocked.

“We broke up.”

“HOOOLY FUCK.” Allie exclaims.

“The morning before we left Lyon.”

“Are you kidding me?!”

“I wish I was.”

“That’s insane!!” Allie exclaims.

“I know!” Kelley yells.

“…I know. I wish I could lie, say that it’s okay, that I want her to be happy with him. But the truth is I can’t. I can’t do that. Not when I know what could have been. I can’t just sit and watch. It’s killing me, Allie. When I see them together it causes this excruciating pain in my chest and all I can think about how my hands would touch her more gently than his, how my voice would worship her more than his does, how my heart would love her more than he ever could. I wish that just for one day, I could be enough…but I’m not.”

“And now you’re leaving?!”

“How should I bear seeing her everyday without once daring to look her in the eyes and tell her the truth?? I’m messing up her life.”

Allie looks at her in disbelief. Kelley steps into the elevator.

“She is married.” Kelley breathes, looking at Allie meaningfully, her voice cracking.

Allie holds her arm into the door, stopping the elevator from closing.

“But Kel…you and Hannah…you were-“ Allie whispers with tears in her eyes.

“Engaged. Yes.” Kelley says calmly, her voice carrying enormous pain, “Maybe it was a good decision that we never told anyone.”

“Kelley.” Allie breathes, tears rolling down her face.

Kelley walks up to Allie, taking her face in her hands.

“Allie, you have to let me go.” she says valiantly.

Allie shakes her head.

“You were right. I have to.” Kelley whispers calmly, her eyes glossy.

In Allie’s head the wheels start turning and Kelley can almost watch her thoughts battling between logic and feelings. Suddenly, Allie’s face goes blank and Kelley is pretty sure she finally lets her go.

“No Kel, that’s not going to happen.” Allie says determined, wiping away her tears, taking a step forward and disabling the elevator.

“What did you do??” Kelley asks aghast.

“I’m not going to let this happen.”

“Allie.”

“No, Kel. As your friend it’s my responsibility to stop you from committing what I believe is a huge mistake. You and Alex need to sort things out. If after that you decide to leave, I can’t stop you, but right now you’re not going disappear without saying a word. Plus, Jill would literally kill me, if I’d let you go right now.”

“And what am I supposed to say to her??” Kelley exclaims hopelessly.

“The truth.”

“The truth doesn’t matter anyway. It’s like you said, I shouldn’t be near her, sleeping in front of her door and stuff.” Kelley exclaims.

“I know what I said, but…” Allie rambles.

“But what?” Kelley mumbles discouraged, rolling her eyes and looking away from Allie.

“Kelley, look at me.” Allie commands.

Kelley reluctantly makes eye contact.  

“Alex is an absolute mess right now.” Allie looks at Kelley meaningfully, stressing her words to mark their significance.

Kelley looks at her shocked, the thought of Alex hurting because of her making her even more miserable.

“But she won’t even talk to me.” Kelley reasons stunned.

“Then find a way to make her. Kelley, really, you need to fix this.” Allie urges, gripping Kelley’s shoulders and shaking her lightly.

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Another day goes by without talking to Alex. The whole Tuesday Kelley tries to get a hold of her, but no matter how hard she tries, Alex just keeps on ignoring her. After a long, painful day Kelley is at her wit’s end and lays in bed wide awake and exhausted. She doesn’t get any sleep that night and instead keeps drinking to numb the permanent twinge in her chest. When the first rays of sunlight beam through the window of her hotel room, Kelley already has been up for a while since she was no longer able to lay still and instead took a long shower, trying to make any sense of everything that is happening. After she got dressed, she finds herself in front of Alex’s hotel room once again, sitting adjacent to her door. That’s where she waits rather impatiently. When an hour goes by Kelley starts asking herself why in the world she is sitting in front of Alex’s room since 5:30 am yet again. Kelley continues checking her watch, drawing along the patterns of the hotel’s carpeted floor out of pure boredom. At 8:00 am Kelley hears shuffling in Alex’s room and even though she is glad to hear that Alex is still in her hotel room, she also feels an enormous feeling of anxiety devouring her body. At about 8:40 am Kelley hears Alex’s steps approaching the door and at this point her heart is beating so fast that she considers running away, but instead she takes a deep breath.

“You got this.” she tries to calm herself, but every sense of calmness is thrown out the window once the doorknob turns.

Alex opens the door, meaning to make her way to breakfast after another horrible night with a maximum of 2 hours of sleep. When she spots Kelley sitting in front of her door, she stops dead in her tracks, looking at her stupefied. Kelley freezes in her spot too, looking at Alex overwhelmed. They stay like this for a few seconds, before Alex takes a step back and starts closing the door again. Kelley jumps to her feet, taking a huge leap and gets her foot in the door just before Alex is able to close it. Alex tries pushing the door closed with all her power, but Kelley holds against it relentlessly.

“Go away.” Alex orders bitterly.

“Over my dead body.” Kelley replies determined.

“Leave me the fuck alone!” Alex snaps, leaning against the door.

However, Kelley does so as well, using all her power and bodyweight, knowing that Alex won’t be able to keep the door closed. Within a few seconds Kelley pushes the door open, walks in and locks it behind her quickly. Alex looks at her fumingly and tries reaching around her to get out, but Kelley blocks her way.

“Get out of my way right now!”

“Not gonna happen.”

“Just fuck off already!!” she yells aggravated.

Kelley just shakes her head, making Alex’s blood boil. She turns around on her heel, crossing her arms defensively. Kelley follows her into the room, reaching for her arm to make her turn around, but her hand gets slapped away.

“Don’t touch me!!”

Kelley lets her hand fall, looking at Alex with yearning pain in her eyes.

“Alex…we need to talk.” she says softly.    

“What about?” Alex asks coldly.

“You know what about.” Kelley counters pleadingly.

“I don’t have anything I want to talk to you about.”

“Listen, I can’t take this anymore, we need to talk about what happened between us.” Kelley begs desperately.

“Nothing happened between us.” Alex says blankly.

“HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT?!?!” Kelley explodes in a deafening scream, making Alex flinch.

However, Alex quickly masks her surprise at Kelley’s outburst with an indifferent expression, blankly looking through Kelley as if she wasn’t even there.

“How can you say nothing happened??!!?” Kelley yells.

“HEY!! LOOK AT ME!!!” she roars, but Alex doesn’t do so.

“Alex, I swear to fucking god, I want you to look at me!”

Alex keeps on looking past her icily, not once making eye contact.  

“See, you can’t even look at me because you know what would have happened.” Kelley says pitying.

This makes Alex look at her immediately.

“Nothing. Would. Have. Happened!” Alex bites through gritted teeth, full of anger, for the first time showing any kind of emotion regarding what happened between them since the fight they had in the lobby.

She walks up to Kelley and comes really close to her face threateningly, her eyes burning with fury. Kelley finally sees a way of cracking Alex’s shell and starts provoking her, getting closer to her face.

“You know what Alex? Here is what would have happened, I would have fucked you all night long.” Kelley bites, looking at Alex provocatively.

“Shut the fuck up!” Alex screams, pushing Kelley back, but Kelley walks right up to her again, getting even closer, gripping her chin, their lips almost touching.

“I would have taken you to my hotel room and I would have fucked you so good that all you would have done is scream my name all night long, forgetting he even ever existed.”

The next thing Kelley feels is the burning sensation of Alex’s flat hand connecting with her cheek, slapping her across the face hard, “FUCK YOU!!!”

What follows is absolute silence. Alex’s eyes go wide when she realizes what she has done.

“I-“ Alex starts.

“Don’t you think it’s sad that even after that I feel better?” Kelley whispers, holding her cheek, looking at Alex hurt.

“Kelley, I’m so so-“

“I feel fucking better because you hit me in the face…” she shakes her head, staring off into space.

“Kel, please I’m so sorry!” Alex cries.

“I feel fucking better because I finally got your attention.”

“Kel.” Alex sobs.

“And apparently it doesn’t even matter anymore how I get it.” Kelley says, finally looking at Alex numbly.

“I’m so so sorry.” Alex cries silently, her mouth forming the words, but her voice never uttering them due to her sobs.

Alex looks away ashamed, the tears dropping down her chin. Then Alex feels a gentle hand on her cheek, intensifying her crying even more.

“Hit me, yell at me, hate me, do whatever, but don’t you dare ignore me for one more second, because I can’t bare that anymore. Please…don’t leave me alone.” Kelley whispers, her voice cracking.

Alex dives into Kelley’s arms, burying her face in her chest, wetting her shirt with her tears. Kelley gently strokes Alex’s hair, reminding Alex of the hug she shared with Servando, however in Kelley’s arms she feels safer than she ever felt in his and it’s terrifying her.

“I can’t do it without you.” Kelley whispers in her hair, the tears rolling down her face as well.

Kelley presses a kiss to Alex’s head, closing her eyes, whispering, “I need you.”

Alex hugs Kelley even tighter, clinging onto her desperately.

“I need you, too.” Alex sobs, causing a sting in Kelley’s chest.

“Why don’t you just hate me?” Alex exclaims in a self-loathing tone, pulling away from the embrace.

Kelley shakes her head, “N-no, I- .” Kelley stutters.

“I hurt you!!” Alex yells pained.

“So did I!” Kelley exclaims.

“Kel…I hit you.” Alex whispers, looking at Kelley sadly, reaching out to touch her cheek tenderly.

Kelley closes her eyes, leaning into the touch.

“This can’t be good.” Alex whispers hurt.

“Don’t say that.” Kelley shakes her head, her eyes still closed.

Alex starts pulling her hand away from Kelley’s cheek, but Kelley stops her, holding it in its place. She lightly turns her head and presses a soft kiss to Alex’s hand. When she opens her eyes, the tears on Alex’s face have intensified.

“It’s okay, you were angry. I provoked you. I’m sorry.” Kelley comforts her.

Alex wipes the tears away frantically, but they just keep wetting her face.

“The thing that made me angry is that you were right.” Alex cries, her voice heart-wrenching.

Kelley observes her silently.

“I…I really wanted this. God…what kind of human am I?” Alex exhales.

Kelley just remains silent.

“If we wouldn’t have been interrupted I-”Alex goes on distressed, stopping mid-sentence, not able to find the right words.

“-and how could I do this to…“

“Servando.” Kelley finishes for her.

Alex looks at Kelley sorrowfully, “Yeah. How could we do this to the both of them?”

“Have you told him?”

“I didn’t.” Alex looks to the ground ashamed, not able to look at Kelley.

Kelley nods her head dejectedly, her heart hurting like it’s been shot. She then shakes her head self-mockingly, a loathing laugh escaping her lips. Alex catches a glimpse of the look on Kelley’s face when she looks up again.

“What’s that look supposed to mean?” Alex frowns.

“Nothing.” Kelley breathes.

“Tell me!” Alex insists.

“No.”

“Kelley, are you fucking serious right now?” Alex starts getting aggravated again.

Her voice is getting louder, “Why are you looking at me like that?? Do you really think-”

“You’re still with him, right?” Kelley interrupts her, making Alex look at her perplexed.

“What do you mean ‘am I still with him’?? He’s my-”

“Husband. Yeah, I know! I fucking know!” Kelley exclaims angrily, a single tear rolling down her face.

Alex looks at Kelley dumbfounded.

“What’s that supposed to mean?!?” Alex exclaims confused.

“I care about you!!” Kelley yells.

“So do I!!! Are you telling me that I don’t care about you enough, that I should leave him?!”

Kelley stays silent.

“You’re in a relationship as well, Kelley!! You’re engaged. Do you think it’s easy for me to see the two of you together?! Because it isn’t, it fucking isn’t!!” Alex yells irritated.

“I’m-“ Kelley stares at Alex helplessly, knowing what she was about to say might destroy everything, so she keeps her mouth shut.

“You’re what Kelley?!”

Kelley bites her lip nervously.

“What are you not telling me?! I can’t take this any-”

“I broke up with her.” Kelley bursts out, ultimately no longer able to keep this from Alex. The words are loudly echoing through the room as everything goes completely silent. In that moment, the world seems to stop turning. Alex looks at Kelley speechlessly, the words she was about to utter dying on her lips.

“Alex, I-” Kelley’s voice goes hoarse and she has to take a deep breath to get it back to normal.

“I’m in love with you.” Kelley says, gulping heavily, her hands shaking.

“I’m not telling you that you don’t care about me enough, I’m telling you that I care about you too much.”

Alex is not moving one inch, it’s almost as if she’s stopped breathing.

“And I know this is wrong. I know I can’t be mad at you or him for being with each other. For Christ’s sake, he is your husband, but I am desperately in love with you and I think I’ve been for a while now.”

Alex opens her mouth, but Kelley interrupts her before she can even say anything.

“Don’t.” Kelley holds her hand up to stop her.

“I don’t want you to say anything you don’t mean and first and foremost I don’t want to ruin your life. It’s just that I can’t hide this anymore. I can’t pretend that I’m not feeling this. It’s just too much Alex.” Kelley stresses exhaustedly, her voice straining to get the heaviness and the meaning across.

Kelley pulls at the collar of her shirt, feeling as if the air is sucked from her lungs with every word she utters.    

“Kel.” Alex calls out softly, reaching for Kelley’s hand to keep her from ripping her shirt.

“I guess I just always thought that one day everything would fall in place. I always thought: one day if life is cruel and merciless to her, I’ll be there, I’ll be waiting for her. But this is so wrong Alex. How can I think like that? How can I walk through life, waiting for us to happen? How can I wait for one day?” Kelley cries.

She wipes away her tears, taking a deep breath.

“Still I can’t stop. Alex, I know I’d wait a lifetime for you. Even if it means that we are going to be 99 when it happens.” Kelley shrugs with a self-pitying laugh that breaks Alex’s heart, Kelley’s words bringing her to tears.  

“I shouldn’t be telling you all of this and I know I am messing up our friendship right now, but I just want you to know that there is no one in the world that loves you as much as I love you. This doesn’t mean that I want you to reciprocate my feelings. I know I can’t give you what he gives you and I’d be destroying everything you ever had. You’re happy with him. Happier than I could ever make you. I can’t mess that up. The only thing I need is for you to talk to me again. Just as friends. I need my friend, Alex. I need you. Can you promise me that?”

Alex nods with tears in her eyes. Kelley takes a step towards Alex, making her look at her questioningly. Kelley then leans forward and presses a light kiss to her cheek before staring into Alex’s eyes.

“One day, Alex.” Kelley whispers, her voice shaky.

She then turns around and quickly leaves the room.

The door closes and Kelley rushes down the hallway with tears streaming down her face, her heart set on fire. She knew it would hurt, she knew it was only a matter of time, but making her way to her room, Kelley only now realizes what saying it out loud really entails. She thought telling Alex the truth was going to be deliverance, taking away all the pain she was feeling and putting an end to her suffering, but instead it’s now robbing her of all her freedom. It feels as if somebody put shackles on her feet, pulling at them to keep her from standing up. With every step she takes down the hallway, she knows she is running to find a cure for a poison that has already spread through her whole body, every antidote in vein. This is going to fuck her up badly. It doesn’t help that in her room her packed bags are waiting for her to leave. Her decision one that will change her whole life. However, what makes her hurt even more is that she chose this and now she is paying the prize for exposing what she’s been feeling, ruining their friendship. What happens next is something Kelley didn’t expect one bit. She hears Alex’s hotel door open again.

“Kelley, wait!” Alex cries, jogging down the hallway.

Kelley freezes mid-step, her heart pounding out of her chest while Alex jogs up to her. Alex takes her face into her hands, looking her in the eyes deeply and then leans in to kiss her passionately. Kelley is pretty surprised that Alex came after her, which is why she’s even more caught off guard by the kiss, her back hitting the wall due to the force Alex puts into it. Kelley is furrowing her brows at the intensity of the kiss and all the passion that is put into it. There is no space between them, as the long kiss is taking away all the air to breathe. When they part lips, it’s only because of the lack of oxygen, keeping their foreheads leaned against each other. This is how they remain for quite a while, breathlessly, their eyes closed, holding on to each other.

“Alex…” Kelley breathes, hesitantly.

Alex presses her lips to Kelley’s again. Furrowing her eyebrows in pain and Kelley defenselessly surrenders. After a while Kelley pulls away, looking at Alex questioningly. Alex’s hands still hold Kelley’s face and she strokes her thumb across Kelley’s cheek, eying her closely with a contemplative look.

“I don’t understand.” Kelley whispers lost.

“Kelley O’Hara, I am in love with you too.” Alex whispers in awe.

Kelley looks back at her stunned, her forehead in creases.

“But- I- are you sure?” Kelley asks overwhelmed.

“Sometimes ‘one day’ might mean right now.” Alex whispers, looking into Kelley’s eyes deeply with a soft smile on her face. Kelley gazes at Alex captivated and a smile is born on her face too. She leans forward and kisses her fondly.

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Love on the brain (Part 20)

Hey guys. I finally made it! I hope you're doing fine. So this chapter is...a lot. I hope you enjoy it nonetheless :) There is more to come!

The chapter is also up on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/51019579#main

“Is she okay?” Alex asks impatiently, as she walks towards Steve as soon as the game is over.

Steve looks at Alex apologetically. He takes a second too long to reply, in a way already giving Alex the answer she dreaded. Alex sighs loudly, closing her eyes. She feels a headache building that starts throbbing within just seconds.

“Gosh.” Alex groans.

“She’s not at the moment, but she’ll be okay. It only takes some rest.”  

“Obviously something she should have considered before playing another game.” Alex snaps aggravated.

“Obviously.” Steve agrees, but looks at Alex uneasily.

“Where is she now?” Alex asks while they walk towards the locker room.

“I sent her to the hotel with Angela and Emily so they can treat her ankle.”

“Alright. Does she have her things?” Alex asks displeased.

“Yeah, I gave them to Angela when they left with her.”

“Good, I’ll call her then.”

“Alex just-”

“Just what?” Alex snaps again.

Steve looks at her concerned, before continuing softly, “She’s crushed.”

“I’m sure she is.” she replies coldly, grabbing her phone from her locker and leaving the locker room.  

When she finds an empty room, she calls her number. It only rings once before Kelley picks up.

“Hey.” Kelley mumbles.

“Are you still getting treated?” Alex asks short-spoken.

“No, they did check up’s and some treatment, but then they sent me to the room to rest.”

“Did it help with the pain?”

“Uh, no, not really.”

“Do me a favor then and call them again. Bye.”

“Babe.” Kelley stops her softly.

“No Kel, I’m really not in the mood for this right now.”

“Come on, I-”

“I don’t want to hear some half-ass excuses.”

“I didn’t mean to hurt you.”

“What do you mean you didn’t mean to?! You didn’t tell me!!” Alex yells angered.

“Only because I didn’t want you to worry.” Kelley says sadly.

“I am your fiancée! I have every right to worry about you!”

“I just didn’t want you to be stressed because of me.”

“No, you know what Kel?? This isn’t about me. This is about you. I let this go because I saw in your eyes that you didn’t want to talk about this the other night and I at least would have expected from you to have the balls to talk about it later then if it was still bugging you. Instead, you embarrass me in front of our staff! What are they going to think? That we are not able to talk about stuff like this?!”

“Since when do you care what other people think about us?”

“You’re walking on very thin ice, don’t test me right now.” Alex warns.

“Okay, okay. You’re right. I should have talked to you. I know, trust me, I know.” Kelley reassures her hastily.

“Good to see that at least some parts of your brain are still working.”

Kelley closes her eyes and takes a deep breath, “Okay, I guess I deserved that.”

“I have to go.” Alex says briskly.

“Okay, let’s talk-“

Kelley is interrupted by the line going silent and then her phone starts beeping, signaling that Alex hung up on her.

“-later.” she mumbles to herself, pinching the bridge of her nose, exhaling deeply.

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About an hour later, Alex walks into their hotel room without saying a word. Kelley is sitting in the big chair and the moment the door opens, she jumps up, limping in Alex’s direction, looking at her guiltily.

“Sit your ass down. Steve said no walking around.” Alex sasses, pushing past Kelley without looking at her.

“Babe.” Kelley sighs.

She turns around to see Alex rummaging through her suitcase aggressively to grab her pajamas and before she can even say anything else, Alex disappears in the bathroom, slamming the door. Kelley groans loudly, throwing herself onto the bed. The door to the bathroom doesn’t open for another 30 minutes. Meanwhile, Kelley tries to keep herself together, her fingers drumming on the sheets impatiently. She knows she should be sleeping, especially because her ankle starts feeling worse and worse with every passing minute. Eventually, Alex exits the bathroom in her rose silk pajamas that consist of shorts and a top. Her hair is opened now, her face clean from any make-up. She’s frowning, clearly fighting to look into Kelley’s direction. Kelley can’t help but to stare. She looks beautiful, even when she’s mad. She lays down beside Kelley, grabbing her phone, still ignoring her. Kelley rolls onto her side, eyeing her closely. In response Alex rolls around, turning her back towards her. Kelley carefully lays her hand on Alex’s waist, but her hand is pushed away by Alex’s hand.

“Al.” Kelley says softly.

Alex closes her eyes as if in pain. Hearing Kelley say her name like that makes her heart hurt. Her voice sounds dejected and her tone is asking Alex for forgiveness. Alex contemplates turning around, but she can’t bring herself to do so. Kelley is still watching her closely, seeing Alex breathing in heavily. She knows that she needs some time to cool off, so she decides to just stay silent. After about twenty minutes of just watching Alex like a guard dog, Kelley can feel herself drifting off into sleep while Alex is still scrolling through her phone. She tries to keep her eyes open, but eventually she’s too tired to fight it.

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Even though it just felt like closing her eyes for the blink of an eye, Kelley soon realizes that she must have slept for about an hour when she takes a look at the clock on her nightstand. The light on Alex’s nightstand is still on. Kelley rubs her hand through her face, feeling physically as well as mentally exhausted. Her ankle is aching, but she tries to push it to the back of her mind when she realizes that Alex hasn’t moved one inch. She props herself up on her elbow, leaning over her to check if she’s still awake. She smiles to herself softly and shakes her head when she sees that Alex is already asleep, but still holding onto her phone. Kelley carefully removes it from her grip and places it on her nightstand, before leaning even further over her to switch off the light. She pauses for a second, looking at Alex’s peaceful silhouette in the dark and leans down to press a feather-light kiss to her head. A ritual they’ve been sharing for as long as they have been together. They never go to bed without a kiss, even if it’s just a kiss emoji when they’re on different sides of the country. Just when she lays back down on her side and closes her eyes, she can hear and feel Alex moving. She reopens her eyes and sees Alex blindly reaching behind her to grab her arm, pulling it towards her until it’s wrapped around her body tightly, intertwining their hands. Kelley smiles softly and they both shuffle closer until Alex’s back is pressed to her front closely. Alex immediately lifts her head and Kelley gets the message, putting her other arm under her head to make the embrace even closer. As soon as they are settled, Kelley starts brushing her other hand through Alex’s hair soothingly while Alex caresses Kelley’s hand with her thumb.

“I’m sorry.” Kelley whispers, pressing a kiss to her ear.

Alex pushes into her, to snuggle even closer.

“Me too.” she whispers back, pulling their intertwined hands up her body to press a kiss to Kelley’s knuckles.

There is silence for a moment and Kelley just breathes in Alex’s scent. Her hand softly strokes from Alex’s forehead to the back of her head in a calming manner. The silence is interrupted by Alex turning in her arms slightly to face Kelley. She eyes Kelley closely in the dark, knowing every beautiful detail of her face by heart. She reaches up and lays her hand on Kelley’s cheek, gently stroking her freckles. She makes out the relaxed smile on Kelley’s face and it’s so familiar that she thinks she might have been able to see it if her eyes were still closed.

“How is your ankle?” Alex whispers softly.

Kelley lets out a mix between a laugh and a self-loathing snort.

“Pretty shitty.” she whispers back, squeezing Alex’s hand.

Alex looks at her sadly and pushes her forehead against Kelley’s in an attempt to comfort her. Kelley closes her eyes at that, leaning into Alex further, brushing her nose against Alex’s. She can’t really find the words to describe it, but being close to Alex always soothes her immediately and for a second she just bathes in the warmth that Alex radiates, forgetting about her ankle.

“I’m here for you, always.” Alex whispers affectionately, her tone meaningful.

“I did not doubt that for even a second, love.” Kelley answers, giving Alex a lazy, cute smile.

Alex leans in to kiss Kelley softly. The kiss they share is intimate and says more than words ever could. When she pulls away, Kelley nods at Alex gently in understanding and leans in for another quick peck. Alex turns around again and resumes the position they were in before, pulling Kelley’s arm close to her chest, as if telling her to hold her closer and Kelley does so, if it’s even humanly possible.

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Alex wakes up the next morning, expecting Kelley to be up early like she usually is. Instead she is sound asleep, arm still draped around her, holding onto her tightly. Alex grabs her phone, thinking that she just must have woken up early. However, when she looks at the time it’s already 9:30 am. Normally, Kelley would be up by now. She tries to get out of Kelley’s arms, but her grip is too tight. Alex turns in her arms, kissing her chin softly.

“Babe, wake up.” she sing-songs with her raspy morning voice.

Kelley stirs awake, but instead of loosening her grip it only tightens even more.

“You’re late today sleepyhead, it’s already 9:30.” Alex giggles softly.

“Mhm.” Kelley mumbles.

“Okay, for real. Time to get up.”

“Mhm-mhm.” Kelley whines, frowning.

Her eyes have yet to open and Alex looks at her perplexed, because it’s so untypical for Kelley.  

“Kel, come on what’s wrong?”

Instead of answering Kelley just squeezes her hip tightly.

“At least let me get up then.” Alex says, trying to loosen Kelley’s grip on her hip.

“Nooo, stay!” Kelley grumbles, snuggling closer into Alex.

“I have things to do and you do as well.” Alex laughs, getting up in one quick motion to get out of her reach.

Kelley’s outstretched arm continues to reach for Alex, her face pushed into her pillow, making Alex shake her head with a laugh while making her way into the bathroom. After showering and getting ready for recovery, Alex escapes the bathroom, not believing her eyes.

“Kel, you can’t be serious. Get up!” Alex warns, since Kelley has fallen asleep once again.

She’s still lying on her stomach, her arm still stretched out across Alex’s pillow, reaching in Alex’s direction. Alex climbs on top of her, leaning down to trail kisses from her jaw up to her ear.

“I want to catch some breakfast before recovery, are you getting up?” she asks in between kisses.

“Uh-uh.”

Alex stops the kisses, sits up and looks at her concerned.

“Baby, are you getting sick?”

Kelley just shakes her head, while Alex massages her hands into Kelley’s shoulder blades soothingly.

“Okay, good. I really have to run. Text me if something is wrong, alright?”

Kelley holds up her thumb. Alex climbs off of her back and puts on her shoes.

“You want me to drop off some breakfast for you?”

Kelley shakes her head.

“Alright, weirdo. No breakfast then.” Alex chuckles.

She moves towards the bed again, leaning over Kelley, supporting her weight on the mattress.

“Kiss?” Alex asks while leaning down.

Kelley meets her halfway to press a quick peck to her lips, all without opening her eyes once, making Alex shake her head at her antics. She gets up and walks towards the door.

“Don’t forget your treatment in 30 minutes. I’ll see you tonight.” Alex calls over her shoulder.

“Bye, pretty.” Kelley mumbles.

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After her recovery session, Alex directly makes her way to an event she has to show up to. She’s glad that Megan is there with her, so the focus of the journalists isn’t always just on her. They lunch with the media team and after that drive to another event, followed by a shoot for a World Cup campaign. When they finally get dropped off at the hotel in the evening, they both still have to go to the treatment room to do some after game damage control. Alex laughs loudly about something Megan said when they enter.

“Hi ladies.”

“Hey, Em.” Alex greets the massage therapist with a hug, before she sits down on the massage table.

“So how is the knee doing today?”

“I feel a little sore, but overall it’s great.”

“Of course, let me take a look.”

“God, I’m so tired, I can’t wait to get some sleep.” Alex yawns, causing Megan to yawn as well.

“You tell me. That was exhausting.” Megan rolls her eyes.

They just chat for a little bit with Megan sitting on the table next to Alex.

“I gotta take that, do I still have time?” Megan asks Emily, when her phone starts ringing.

“Go ahead, Alex will at least take up another 15 minutes.”

“Perfect, see you later.”

“I can feel a little tightness right here. Just relax, I’m going to ease that, alright?” Emily asks, while showing Alex the area on her knee.

“Yeah.” Alex nods.

She relaxes her whole body and closes her eyes. A few minutes later she can feel the tightness in her knee starting to ease up. When Emily sets her leg down, it’s gone completely.

“All done, Alex.”  

“Damn, I know Kelley sometimes tends to exaggerate, but she’s totally right about you having magical powers.” Alex jokes with a chuckle.

Instead of getting a laugh in response, Emily stays silent. Alex opens her eyes and looks at her quizzically.

“Actually, Alex I didn’t want to talk about it with Pinoe there, but now that you mention it, did you talk to Kelley today?” Emily asks carefully.

Alex sits up in one swift motion.

“No, why?” she asks taken aback.    

“Well…she didn’t show up to her treatment.”

“I’m going to kill her.” Alex mumbles under her breath.

“I waited for 30 minutes and when she didn’t come I tried calling her.”

“And?”

“She didn’t pick up either.”

“I’m SO going to kill her.” Alex says loud and clear, jumping off the treatment table.

“No no, it’s okay. I just worried, because she never misses an appointment. Just tell her she can give me a call if she still needs treatment, I’m going to be available for another hour.” Emily smiles.

“Sorry, Em. I’m going to talk to her.” Alex apologizes.

“No worries!”

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When Alex exits the elevator on their hotel floor briskly, she crashes into Allie, who was just walking by it.

“Oh my god, what is wrong with-” Allie lets out frustrated.

“Fuck, sorry Al.” Alex interrupts apologetically.

“-your fiancée??�� Allie exclaims, when she realizes that Alex is the person she’s bumped into.

“What?”

“Yes, what’s fucking wrong with her!?”

“Gosh, what did she do now?” Alex exhales desperately.

“This freaking psycho! I had a gym session and guess who was there all by herself, looking like a fucking zombie - no offense- and pressing weights?”

“You’re not serious right now?!”

“That’s the same thing I asked her.”

“Did you-“

“Did I let her continue? Of course not.”

“Wait, where are you going in your pajamas anyway? Your room is the other way.”

“I was just going to check up on her. I forced her to your room two hours ago.”

“Thank god.”

“Uh-uh, really bad idea.”

“Why?”

“Boy, was she in a mood. I thought she was going to punch me in the face right then and there."

“Oh, she is dead.” Alex says as she marches past Allie determined.

“At least she already looks like it.” Allie calls after her, but Alex doesn’t take notice of it.

Alex storms into the hotel room aggravated.

“We have to talk!!” Alex commands as she steps in, closing the door behind her firmly.

“Can you explain to me, why on earth you are behaving like-“ Alex stops abruptly when she sees Kelley lying on top of the bed surrounded by empty wrappers of Advil, creams and packs of ice, one of which is cooling her knee.

She looks pale and has dark circles under her eyes. Now Alex finally understands what Allie meant by Kelley looking like a zombie.  

“Oh my god, Kel!!” Alex gasps.

“What?”

“You look terrible!!”

“Hi to you, too.” Kelley rolls her eyes.

Alex looks at her horrified, walking her way. She sits down next to her, putting her hand on Kelley’s forehead, but not feeling a fever.

“What’s up with you?” Alex asks softly, taking Kelley’s hand into her own.

“I’m not sure, I’m not feeling too well.”

“Why didn’t you call?”

“I thought I could handle it on my own.”

“And so you thought missing your treatment and going to the gym would be the best way to handle it?” Alex asks sharply in a sarcastic tone, “Earth to Kelley, you just suffered an injury yesterday!!”

“I had an appointment?” Kelley asks, frowning even harder.

Alex looks at her shocked, shaking her head bewilderedly.

“Why are you looking at me like that, Alex?” Kelley snaps harshly.

“KELLEY! I told you this morning!” Alex snaps back irritated.

“We didn’t even talk today!” Kelley exclaims.

Alex looks at her in disbelieve, her mouth agape.

“Did you take all of these?” she asks concerned, picking up the empty wrappers.

Kelley nods and Alex looks at her dismayed. Kelley quickly holds up both of her hands in defense.

“I didn’t take all at once!” she defends.

“Kel, still that’s an awful lot of pills for a day. Are you even supposed to take this many? You’re acting strange.”

“I don’t know, I was just in so much pain and it made me feel better.” Kelley frowns, rubbing her temples.

“When did you start taking these?”

“Yesterday after the game. Em told me I could take a couple.”

“A couple?? How many did you take? This is at least 10!”

"I can't remember...but I think I took a few last night as well when I woke up from the pain."

"Kel!! These aren't gummy bears!"

“I’m sorry, I just couldn’t take it anymore.” Kelley mumbles.

“Okay, that’s enough I’m calling Em.”

“I’m fine, babe. I’m sure it’s just exhaustion. Tomorrow it will be gone for sure.”

“First of all, stop that!”

“Stop what?” Kelley asks in a high pitch.

“Playing it down. You always do that. I can see that you’re in pain, I’m not blind.” Alex stresses intently.

“What is going on? You were so patient the last few weeks. Why aren’t you listening to your body now? You’ve been an athlete for all your life. You know that keeping your body healthy is the only way. I don’t understand why you would sacrifice that only because you think you have to proof that you’re strong enough. You’re smarter than that. What’s the result, Kel? The pain isn’t just going to disappear. I want you to take this seriously.” Alex rants insistently.

“Are you done?” Kelley asks softly, putting her hand on Alex’s thigh.

Alex let’s out a deep breath, “Yeah.”

“Good.” Kelley says, looking up at Alex intently with a light smirk on her face.

“Uh-uh, don’t give me that look, O’Hara.” Alex warns, ready to jump up.

Before Alex can do anything, Kelley pulls her on top of her and rolls over so Alex is laying on her back in the middle of their bed with Kelley on top of her instead.

“Damn it, I knew this was going to happen.” Alex mumbles.

“I love seeing you this worked up.” Kelley grins.

Alex lightly slaps her chest in response, “Stop being such a troublemaker.”

“You’re right, baby. I was being really irresponsible.” she says, leaning down to kiss Alex’s cheek ever so gently.

She then pulls away and looks at Alex again, her eyes boring right into her soul.

“Don’t make me angry kiss you.”

“Oh, I’m going to insist.” Kelley smirks, leaning in slowly and stopping right above Alex’s lips, lingering and just lightly brushing her lips against them. Kelley pulls less than an inch away and she notices the change in Alex’s breathing.  

“Fuck you.” Alex says, putting her arms around Kelley’s neck and pulling her in to kiss her. When they pull away, Kelley grins at her brightly.

“Don’t you dare say anything!” Alex sulks.

“I’m going to let it get checked out tomorrow morning, okay?” Kelley says, leaning in again, kissing her repeatedly.

“Next time you’re doing it immediately.” Alex insists, holding onto Kelley’s chin, forcing her to look at her.

“I swear.” Kelley holds up her hand. Alex pulls her in by her chin to kiss her.

“I just worry about you, okay?” Alex lets out vulnerably, making meaningful eye contact.

“Yeah, I know. I’m sorry for being such an idiot for the last days. I really really am going to change it starting tomorrow. I promise.” Kelley says genuinely.

“Thanks.” Alex smiles softly.

Looking at Alex, Kelley can’t help but to smile brightly as well. Her face lights up and for a second Alex can’t see the tiredness on her face  

“I love you, you lunatic.”

“I love you, too, control freak.” Kelley mumbles between kisses.

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In the middle of the night Alex wakes up with a jolt.  She looks around disorientated, but her eyes have to adjust to the darkness. She squints at her alarm clock. It’s 4:17 am. Usually, she doesn’t wake up at this time, but something feels really wrong. Suddenly, she hears Kelley hissing and wincing in pain, rolling from side to side. She then throws her legs out of bed hectically and sits up at the edge of the bed, putting her head in her hands. Alex quickly sits up as well.

“Kel, are you okay? What’s wrong?” she says, moving over to Kelley’s side of the bed, sitting down next to her and putting her hand on her back. Alex gasps when she feels that Kelley’s shirt is completely soaked and she quickly turns on Kelley’s bedside lamp. Alex’s breath hitches, when she sees that the dark circles under her eyes almost turned black. Her gaze is empty and her eyes are bloodshot. Her skin is glistening with sweat, the veins on her body look more prominent than normally and her lips are blueish.

“I don’t know, I’m in so much pain.” Kelley says weakly, grimacing and gritting her teeth. Kelley’s breathing is very odd and Alex quickly kneels down in front of her, placing her hand on her forehead again to check her temperature.

“Oh my god, you’re burning hot. You have a fever, babe.”

Kelley closes her eyes in exhaustion, looking as if she is about to collapse at any second. When Alex sees Kelley closing her eyes, she panics.

“Hey babe, look at me, don’t close your eyes, we need to get you to the hospital.”

“It’s so cold.” Kelley says, shivering. Goosebumps are forming all over her body and Alex quickly grabs her blanket and wraps it around her shoulders.

“Babe, can you stand up?”

Kelley doesn’t even notice that Alex is talking to her, she just winces and holds onto the edge of the mattress desperately. Alex gets more and more anxious with every passing second, looking at Kelley helplessly.

“Alex?” Kelley asks weakly, her voice almost unrecognizable.

“Yeah?” Alex asks stressed out.

“I’m not feeling well.” Kelley says with a fragile voice, completely absent. Alex knows she has to act quickly. All of the sudden, Kelley’s skin is turning deathly pale, all the color draining from it and Alex looks at her shocked.

“I know, baby, I’ll call an ambulance.” Alex says, grabbing Kelley’s phone and calling 911. While Alex, talks to the guy on the phone, she sits down next to her and puts her arm around Kelley, stroking her wet back up and down soothingly. Kelley lays her head on Alex’s shoulder, feeling like it's as heavy as stone. Alex looks down at Kelley alarmed, leaning down and kissing the top of her head. Kelley tries to concentrate on Alex’s voice and only now does she realize that she is talking on the phone and must have been for a while.

“I don’t know, earlier she was in pain because of her ankle so she took a lot of Advil, but now she is burning up and sweating and her skin is covered in goosebumps.” Alex answers quickly and then stops to listen to instructions. Kelley can feel Alex’s hand on her chest.

“Yeah, her heart is racing.”

Suddenly, Kelley feels this tremendous feeling of pain all through her body, but it all gathers at one point and streams to her leg, striking down like lightning. She flinches and lets out a loud scream in pain, grabbing onto her ankle.

“It’s okay, baby. The ambulance will be here any second.” Alex tries desperately. Kelley’s hand moves to Alex’s shirt, gripping onto it, her knuckles turning white.

“Alex, help.” Kelley winces tortured and Alex feels a stab to her heart. Seeing Kelley in so much pain is something she doesn’t ever want to see.

“Shhh, I’m here. It’s going to be okay.” Alex tries pacifyingly, while stroking Kelley’s forehead and her hair. However, at this point Alex would be lying, if she said that it wasn’t a desperate attempt to calm herself down too. To Kelley it doesn’t matter anyway, as at this point all she is aware of is enormous pain. Alex looks at the clock on the nightstand impatiently, the seconds pass like minutes, the minutes feel like hours. When she looks down at Kelley again she thoughtlessly scratches her nose. When she pulls her hand away, everything is dark red. Only then does Alex realize that Kelley’s white shirt is covered with drops of blood and her hand well as her face is smeared with it.

“Holy shit, Kel.” Alex gasps panicked.

The blood is pouring out of her nose and Alex quickly pulls the hem of her own shirt up to stop Kelley from bleeding everywhere. Kelley doesn’t even react to what Alex is saying or doing. Her head feels progressively heavier and she senses that her body is giving in, as another wave of pain shoots through every inch of it.

“Alex.” is all she can utter, before slumping down, her head sliding from Alex’s shoulder, falling into her lap.

“No!! Hey!! Kelley!!” Alex panics, lightly slapping Kelley’s face.

“Wake up!!” she yells at her, tears rolling down her face.

“HELP!” Alex screams loudly, reaching for the wall of their hotel room and banging her fist against it repeatedly, before directing her attention back to Kelley.

“Come on Kelley, please wake up!”

“HELP!!”

“You have to wake up, please.” she cries, her voice hoarse.

The door of their hotel room flies open and Tobin and Christen rush into the room.

“What’s wrong?” Tobin asks, seeing Alex sitting on the edge of the bed with her back to the door, sobbing desperately.

Alex turns her head around quickly, looking at the both of them, “Please, help me!”

That’s when Christen and Tobin see an unconscious Kelley lying in Alex’s arms.

“Oh my god, what happened Alex?” Christen asks, as they quickly jump to help.

“I don’t know, she was in pain and when she woke up, she had a fever and now she passed out.” Alex rambles, the tears falling down and landing on Kelley’s shirt. She rushes her words so much that Christen and Tobin almost can’t understand her. However, while the words leave Alex’s mouth, Christen leans down to check on Kelley’s breathing. She then nods to Alex and Tobin and they help putting Kelley on the ground, raising her legs and kneeling down beside her.

“Did you call an ambulance?”

“Yeah.”

“I’ll go outside, so they know where to go.” Tobin says, sprinting out of the room.

“Where is all of this blood coming from?” Christen asks wide eyed.

“I- the nosebleeds - it just came pouring like a waterfall.” Alex stutters lost.

“Do you feel that? Her temperature.” Alex sobs, touching Kelley’s forehead with shaking, bloody hands.

Meanwhile, Christen notices that Alex starts having a panic attack.

“Hey, Alex look at me. Everything is going to be okay.” she urges, taking Alex’s hand into her own. Alex looks at her and nods her head desperately.

“Breathe with me.” Christen demands and Alex starts syncing her breathing with Christen's, calming down a bit. They both try to get Kelley back to consciousness, talking to her and monitoring if she is still breathing. However, every effort is in vain and just a few seconds later Tobin and the paramedics come jogging in.

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Love on the brain (Part 21)

Hey guys, this time I'm faster! :) I hope you're still alive after the last chapter. Enjoy the next part!

The chapter is also up on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/51380701

First Allie watched Alex nearly going insane while waiting for Kelley to come out of the ER and now she watches her pace back and forth in front of Kelley’s bed like a tiger ever since she was brought back from the ER. It’s 9 o’clock in the morning now. 5 hours since Kelley collapsed in the hotel room and Alex can’t seem to catch a break even though Allie reassured her that Kelley is in good hands for the past hours and the doctor told them that Kelley already was conscious once in the ER.  

“Two times in the span of a few weeks, Allie!! What am I supposed to do with her?!”

“I’ve always said she is insane, but nobody listens to me.” Allie jokes.

“Ugh and you know what’s the worst part about this?”

“That you aren’t even really mad at her?”

“Exactly.” Alex sighs.

“Please Al, do us all a favor and go grab something to eat.”

“I can’t do Kelley any favors since she is unconscious in a hospital bed AGAIN!”

“I think she would disagree. Can you at least do me a favor then?”

“Why?”

“Well, first of all you’re always in a bad mood when you’re hungry anyway, but most of all you’ve always been a disaster when it comes to worrying about this idiot and I can’t take it anymore.”

Alex looks at Allie and then at a sleeping Kelley skeptically.

“Don’t look at me like that. Don’t worry, I’ll keep an eye on her.”

“I’m not sure.” Alex grumbles.

“Good, then I’ll keep both of my eyes on her. Now go.”

“You call me when she wakes up?”

“Yes, I will. Now stop worrying for at least 30 minutes alright?”

“I’ll be back in 20.”

“20 it is.”

“And check if she’s breathing norm-“

“ALEX! I can handle it, okay? I promise.”

“Fine.”

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Kelley stirs awake about 15 minutes later. Allie gets up quickly, eyeing her closely. Kelley slowly opens her eyes, but she seems to struggle to keep them fully open.

“Holy fuck.” she mumbles.

“Welcome back to earth.” Allie smiles.

Kelley squeezes her eyes shut repeatedly, trying to focus on the person in front of her. A few seconds later she seems to realize that it’s Allie.

“Duuude.” Kelley chuckles lazily, sounding like a high surfer dude.

“How are you feeling?” Allie asks concerned.

“Fucking awesome.” Kelley smiles dopily.

“Oh wow, I don’t ever want to see you take drugs.” Allie rolls her eyes.

“Yo, Allie?” Kelley asks with her eyes closed again.

“Yes?”

“Don’t you think my girlfriend looks hella good?”

“Kel, Alex isn’t here.”

“Don’t you dare to say she doesn’t.” Kelley is quick to warn, her eyes flying open for a second, before falling shut in slow motion again.

“She does, Kel.” Allie exhales annoyed.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought.” Kelley remarks with a hint of an aggressive tone.

“My girlfriend is hella sexy.” Kelley brags with a smile on her face.

“Kel?”

“Mhm?” Kelley asks, looking up at Allie with a dazed look in her eyes.

“Alex is your fiancée. You proposed to her, remember?”

“DUDE!” Kelley yells all of the sudden, which startles Allie, “Siiiiiiick.” Kelley smirks proudly.

“Oh man.” Allie exhales and slaps her hand against her forehead.

To Allie’s relieve the door opens and Alex walks in.

“Holy fuck!” Kelley yells, freezing and quickly covering her eyes.

Alex looks at Allie shocked, who shrugs, “Don’t worry, she just woke up.”

“What is she doing?” Alex asks wide eyed.

“She is high on pain killers and by high I mean they apparently shot her in another solar system.” Allie chuckles amused.

“Hey Kel, what’s up?” Allie asks her, trying to get her attention.

Kelley drops her hands from her face, looking at Alex with wide eyes before quickly turning to Allie.

“Duude, I swear, I’m such a bad fiancée!”

“What are you talking about?”

“If Alex knows she’ll kill me man.”

Allie looks to Alex in panic, while Alex is furrowing her brows in concern.

“Eh, Kel-“

“Don’t tell her, but that nurse looks fucking hot.” Kelley says, pointing at Alex. Allie lets out a breath she didn’t know she was holding and Alex’s face relaxes visibly, but her brows quickly furrow again.

“Oh boy, this is too good to be true.” Allie laughs.

“Stop laughing, this isn’t funny.” Alex scolds as she approaches Kelley’s bed to sit down next to her.

“Hey babe, it’s me, Alex.” Alex tries carefully, gently stroking her cheek.

“I know. I was just fucking around.” Kelley slurs, grinning at Alex foolishly.

Alex slaps her arm and rolls her eyes.

“Oh my god, you’re such an asshole. I thought you didn’t recognize me.”

“Baby girl, I would recognize those eyes from anywhere.”

“Drugged up and still a charmer. Why am I surprised?”

“I’ll inform a nurse”. Allie says.

“Thanks, Al.” Alex squeezes her hand.

A few minutes later the door flies open and the gray haired, good looking doctor in his 50’s, Alex already talked to earlier, walks in with two nurses in tow.

“Welcome back Miss O’Hara, I’m Dr. Bright.”

“Sup, Doc.” Kelley nods at him and Alex sends her a warning look, which Kelley clearly doesn’t seem to notice.  

The doctor starts explaining to Kelley that an inflammation in her ankle caused her high fever, which ultimately lead to her unconsciousness and that taking too many pain killers caused the other symptoms, however Alex is sure that Kelley doesn’t have one clue what the man is talking about. After Dr. Bright and the nurses did some checkups on Kelley, he turns to Alex again.

“So Miss Morgan, your fiancée is-“

“Dr. B.? Isn’t my FIANCEE-“ Kelley stops and winks at Allie, who just shakes her head.

“-the most gorgeous woman you have ever seen?”

“Babe.” Alex warns sternly.

“Doc, listen. I know it sounds impossible, but I swear on my life, her smartness outshines her prettiness. Crazy right?”

“Kel, shut up.”

“Come over here and make me.”

“Kelley!” Alex warns her sharply.

Kelley looks at Alex for a second, seemingly considering what to do next, but when she sees Alex staring her down, she quietly mumbles to herself like a child who's been scolded.

“I’m terribly sorry for that.” Alex apologizes to the doctor, who just laughs and waves it off.

“That’s alright. She is going to be like that for a few hours, however you can take her home. When the meds wear off, she might be a little disorientated and very tired, but there’s no reason to worry. Is it possible that someone checks on her like every hour?”

“Yeah, I’ll do that. What about the Advil?”

“Yeah, she certainly took so many, because the dosage wasn’t strong enough and she was in enormous pain. She might be in pain the next few days as well, but I’m prescribing pain killers that are certainly strong enough, so there isn’t going to be another incident like this. Again, they might make her a bit loopy, however if she’s looked after she should be fine.”

“When is she going to be able to train again?” Alex asks tensely, knowing that even though Kelley is not giving a damn about it right now, it is going to be the first question when she is off meds again.

“The good news is that the medications are anti-inflammatory, so the inflammation is going to be gone within a few days. However, the injury is going to last a bit longer, if she’s lucky and has a good recovery process maybe 8 to 10 weeks, if not she’s going to need surgery. She could be out for about 6 months then, we’ll have to see.”

Alex exhales loudly, rubbing her hands through her face, feeling her heart break for Kelley. She knows this is going to be a hard blow after just recovering from her last injury.

“Oh my god.” she shakes her head devastated and Allie puts a supporting hand on her shoulder.

“Miss Morgan, to be frank, in your case I wouldn’t worry too much. You’re working with the best doctors and physiotherapist in the country. It’s going to be crutches in the first weeks to strain her ankle as little as possible and I think she is going to be fine, but as a doctor it is my duty to inform you about the possibilities.”

“Yeah, I understand that.” Alex nods.

“If she is burning up again or there are any signs of side effects please call an ambulance.”

“Of course, thank you so much for everything.” Alex says honestly with a smile which doesn’t reach her eyes.

“That’s what I’m here for. We’ll stay in touch and she has an appointment in a few days.”

Alex smiles at him and turns around to help Allie and the nurse to get Kelley ready to leave.

“And Miss Morgan?”

“Alex is fine.”

“Alex. I have drugged up patients everyday ever since I became a doctor. You can imagine that I’ve seen everything from breakups because of terrible confessions, over crying, to aggressive behavior. But what I rarely see is someone talking about their fiancée in the way yours did when she first woke up.”

“Oh my god. I’m so sorry, what did she say?”

“You have no reason to worry. Take good care of her, you got a good one there. She’s a keeper.” Dr. Bright winks with an honest smile.

“Oh.” Alex blushes, looking at him speechlessly.

“Have a good day, Alex.”

“Bye.” Alex mumbles.

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“Babe?”

“Yeah?”

“I feel so goooooood right now.”

“That’s good, Kel.”

“I can’t feel anything.” Kelley gushes loudly.

“I can see that.” Alex mumbles embarrassed, since Kelley isn’t behaving like one should in a hospital.

Kelley is sitting in a wheelchair, so they can bring her to the car. Alex stops in front of the door to turn around to look at Kelley sternly, before leaving the hospital room.

“Alright, Kel. We are going to leaves this room now and I need you to be quiet for two minutes okay? Just until we’re at the car.”

“Like on what level quiet?”

“Like 'shutting your mouth tightly and not opening it' quiet.”

“Okay, captain.” Kelley winks, saluting Alex.

Alex looks at her unsure, but Allie opens the door nonetheless. To Alex’s surprise, Kelley stays quiet in the hallway and in the elevator. However, when they walk through the entrance area, Kelley is back to her bad behavior.

“Excuse me, Mr.? Have you ever seen such a pretty woman?” Kelley asks a random stranger, pointing at Alex when they pass him.

“Kelley, shhhh! Leave the people alone!” Alex whisper yells.

“I’m doing what I want, woman.” Kelley sasses loudly and Allie has to suppress her loud giggles.

“Kel, could you just shut up for another minute, please.” Alex begs to which Kelley complies.

When they are finally outside, Alex starts searching for her car keys.

“Maaan, it’s so fucking hot in here. I’m dying.”

“We’re outside. You’ll be alright.” Alex mumbles, looking up to answer.

“What are you doing?! Put your shirt back on!!” Alex yells at her.

“But I’m so hot.” Kelley pouts.

“NOW!” Alex orders while Allie can’t breathe from laughing so much.

“Are you jealous babe?” Kelley asks sadly.

“Yeah, very jealous.” Alex groans impatiently.

“Okay.” Kelley says, putting her shirt back on quickly as if she first needed a reason to do so.

Alex looks at Allie annoyed who is wiping her tears.

"I’m going to marry a 2-year-old.” Alex groans.

When they finally managed to get Kelley to sit in the back of the car, they make their way back to the hotel.

“Babe? Do you still think I’m attractive?”

“Unfortunately, yes.” Alex sighs.

“But what if someday you are going to leave me?”

“I will not.” Alex answers annoyed, looking in the rear-view mirror to make eye contact.

“Allie! What am I gonna do if she’s leaving me?” Kelley asks panicked.

“She is not, Kel.” Allie reassures her.

“Babe? If I died, how much would you miss me?”

“Death can’t get you out of this relationship.” Alex deadpans, but drugged up Kelley is completely clueless to any sarcasm since her attention span is like one of a puppy.

“Would you love someone else?”

“No.”

“Good, because whoever is looking at you, I’m going to fuck up.”

“When you’re dead, Kel?” Allie laughs.

“I’ll personally climb out of my grave to royally kick their ass.”

“Kel, enough.” Alex warns.

There is silence for just a moment.

“Babe? Have you ever had sex with someone who was drugged up?”

“No, Kelley I haven’t.” Alex snaps.

“Wanna give it a try?” Kelley raises an eyebrow suggestively.

“Holy shit!” Allie laughs.

“Kelley!! I said that’s enough. I don’t want to hear another word until we’re back at the hotel, understood?” Alex turns around frustratedly when she stops at the traffic light. Kelley nods her head, pretending to lock her mouth and throwing the key away.

“Good.”

Allie looks at Alex with a pitying look.

“It’s official. My two biggest fears in life are failure and Kelley on any kind of drug, including too much sugar.”

The silence lasts exactly three minutes, before Kelley’s voice can be heard again.

“Babe?”

Alex breathes out heavily and decides to ignore her.

“Babe?”

“Babe?”

“Alex?”

“Alexandraaaa!!”

“What Kelley????? What could possibly be so important that you are talking again?” Alex asks, turning around furiously.

“I love you.” Kelley says truthfully, looking at Alex with puppy eyes.

Allie pouts at Alex, after looking at Kelley. Alex groans loudly, turning around again.

“Oh come on, look at her! You can’t be mad at her when she’s that cute.”

Alex shakes her head and looks in the rear-view mirror again, looking at Kelley who looks at her expectantly, not noticing that Alex is watching her in the mirror.

“I love you, too.” Alex says softly, watching her closely.

Kelley’s eyes light up at that. Her expectant expression changes into a bright smile and she leans back relaxed, closing her eyes. She doesn’t talk for the rest of the ride and Alex softly smiles the entire way home.

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The doctor was right. When they arrive at their hotel, Allie is so nice to inform the staff about the news while Alex quickly phones Kelley’s parents, who were waiting for news as well. After a 5-minute catch-up with the promise to call them in the evening again, she reenters their hotel room, only to find Kelley fast asleep on the couch. Lucky enough the couch is big enough so Alex carefully squeezes in behind her, holding her close.

A few hours later Kelley stirs awake again. Alex has been up for a while, just watching Kelley sleep peacefully, not daring to move, afraid that she might wake her up. Kelley turns around in Alex’s arms, yawning cutely. Alex looks at Kelley expectantly with something in her eyes that Kelley can’t read.

“Damn, Al I had the craziest dream.” she frowns.

Before Alex can say anything, she starts to stretch when sitting up and quickly convulses in pain.

“Fuck, it wasn’t a dream, was it?” she lets out pained.

“Unfortunately, not.” Alex counters tensely, sitting up as well.

“Oh no. Al, I- Are you okay?” Kelley asks, quickly looking at Alex again, putting her hand on Alex’s thigh, who is rubbing her hands through her face stressed.

“So much for ‘really really going to change starting tomorrow’, huh?” Alex lashes out, letting her hands fall from her face.

“God…I’m-“ Kelley starts fazed, but Alex interrupts her, jumping to her feet.

“You’re such an asshole.” Alex exhales shakily, standing in front of her aggravated.

“What?”

“You’re so dumb!” Alex complains.

Kelley stops talking and instead just looks at her helplessly, frowning. Alex bites her lip, staring at Kelley without saying a word. Kelley holds eye contact, observing her closely.

“Don’t look at me like that!” Alex yells pained, her lip starts trembling and Kelley closes her eyes in disappointment with herself, when sobs start escaping Alex’s lips.

“How could you do that to me?!” Alex yells, crying loudly, taking a step in her direction and hitting her hand in Kelley’s chest.

Kelley just takes the blow stoically.

“You promised!” Alex yells while Kelley takes another frustrated hit to her chest.

“I thought you were going to die!!” Alex sobs desperately, trying to shove Kelley.

Kelley has never heard Alex this distressed and it absolutely breaks her heart. So, before Alex is able to shove her, she catches her hands, holding onto her wrists.

“Let go of me!” Alex cries, but Kelley just pulls her down into her lap, putting her arms around Alex, who buries her head in Kelley’s neck, holding onto her as if her life depended on it.

“You scared me.” she cries, her body shaking.

“Hey, it’s okay, I’m here, I’m fine.” Kelley soothes softly.

“I need you, okay? You can’t just disappear! I need you so so much.” Alex sobs heart wrenchingly.

Kelley nods her head, kissing the top of her head.

“Please. Please don’t leave me alone, I can’t breathe without you.” Alex begs.

Kelley takes Alex’s face in her hands, pushing her forehead against Alex’s.

“I’m here.” she repeats intently, “I’m not going anywhere, I promise.” Kelley whispers, pressing a kiss to Alex’s lips and hugging her tightly again.

“I love you.” Alex mumbles into her neck, sniffling.

Kelley caresses her back comfortingly and strokes her hand through Alex’s hair, who snuggles into her.

“I love you so much, Alex. More than anything.” Kelley replies, laying her head on top of Alex’s.

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After that day Kelley never misses a treatment again. So while Alex is training every day with the team, Kelley spends every waking second to recover, watch her train and do what’s best for her ankle. Alex smiles brightly every morning when a freshly showered Kelley wakes her with kisses before leaving for an early treatment so that they can have breakfast together afterwards. Something in Kelley switched completely and Alex feels at peace because she can tell that a situation like that isn’t going to happen again. Five days post-accident, Kelley has another appointment at the hospital. She wakes up really energized, confident that her ankle is going to be a lot better than before since she only had light problems with it. When Alex is supposed to go to practice, Kelley also has to make her way to Dr. Bright, who they have been in close contact with.

“Don’t forget to tell him about-“

“The pain in the night. Yes, Alex, I won’t forget.” Kelley chuckles.

“And call me afterwards.” Alex insists nervously.

“Al, you’re going to be training, I’ll see you when you’re back.”

“But-“

“Babe, relax. I got this.” Kelley smiles.

“Right.” Alex nods.

“I have to go, see you at 7.” Kelley leans forward and kisses her goodbye.

“Bye.” Alex waves, watching after her when Kelley takes off, limping to the entrance on her crutches.

Alex flinches when a hand lands on her shoulder.

“Come on you clinger. We’ve got stuff to do.” Allie laughs, pulling Alex with her.

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In the evening they meet up at dinner. When Alex enters the room, their gazes meet immediately like magnets. Alex realizes right away that Kelley isn’t in a great mood. They have a silent conversation just with their eyes and the conversation is over by the time Alex arrives at their table. So instead of starting to interrogate her about her appointment, she just sits down next to her and places her hand on Kelley’s thigh. Kelley reaches down and intertwines their hands, looking at Alex with a small smile when squeezing her hand. The others don’t notice since Kelley hides it perfectly, making jokes and laughing with them. Still, Alex sees that she isn't feeling well.

Alex yawns right after finishing dinner, “Guys, I think we’re going to leave, I’m exhausted.”

Kelley looks at her amused, knowing that Alex was totally faking that yawn.

“Alex, I swear you’ve become so boring! You’re old.” Sonnett complains jokingly.

“If you’d be able to play like Alex, you’d be tired too.” Kelley defends her with a smirk, causing the others to laugh.

“Okay, that was mean, Miss Kelley.”

“Grow up, Sonnett.” Kelley winks teasingly.

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When they are in their hotel room, Alex opens Netflix and starts on one of Kelley’s favorite comedies she likes to watch when she doesn’t feel good. Kelley makes herself comfortable on the couch and Alex sits down between her legs, leaning against her. Kelley hugs her waist from behind and presses a kiss to her shoulder.  

“So, what happened?”

Kelley exhales heavily, pushing her forehead against the side of Alex’s head and closes her eyes. She stays silent for a moment before leaning back again.

“So apparently, I’m not recovering as fast as I’d like to think.”

“What does that mean?” Alex asks, anxiously drawing circles on Kelley’s thigh with her finger.

“As of now, I don’t know. He said he is giving me a few more days, but I thought maybe I should just tell him I want the sur-”  

“Surgery???” Alex akss, turning her head to look at Kelley horrified, “No Kel, you heard it yourself, Dr. Bright said it was too early.”

“Yeah, but-“

“No buts and no rushed decisions, Kel.” Alex insists, “You have to give yourself some time. It’s only been 5 days.”

“I don’t know, Al.” Kelley mumbles.

“Don’t be silly, I’m always right.” Alex smirks.

This puts the sparkle back into Kelley’s eyes, who looks at Alex challengingly, “Oh, are you now?”

“Damn right I am.” Alex winks.

“Good for me, huh?”

“Oh, totally.”

“So what’s your prediction of my chances of getting a kiss?” Kelley smirks.

“On a scale from 1 to 10? 12.”

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Alex is woken once again in the middle of the night. Her breath hitches and she looks around disorientated and panicked. She reaches out for Kelley and realizes that she isn't lying next to her. Alex shoots up in a flash, but relaxes a bit when she sees that the balcony door is open. She can see Kelley’s silhouette looking out into the distance, holding onto the balcony fence. Alex gets up quietly and makes her way up to Kelley. It’s a warm summer night, the sky clear and plastered with stars. Kelley stands on the balcony motionless, watching the waves crush onto the shore. Alex puts her arms around her waist from behind, hugging her around her waist. Kelley starts breaking down immediately, her body vibrating as tears roll down her face, but she’s not making a single sound. Alex holds her even closer, resting her forehead against the back of Kelley’s head.

“It’s okay. You’re going to be okay.” Alex whispers softly, every word full of conviction.

A sob escapes Kelley and she grips onto the fence so hard, Alex thinks she might break it. Alex lets go of her waist and crouches down to quickly slip into the spot between Kelley’s arms so that her back is up to the fence. She then loosens Kelley’s grip on the fence, taking both of her hands in her own, intertwining them. Alex puts Kelley’s hand to her mouth and kisses the back of it affectionately. Kelley looks up at her, a single tear rolling down her eye. Alex throws her a concerned, yet devoted look, that makes Kelley’s heart skip a beat in adoration. She leans forward and rests her forehead against Alex’s, closing her eyes.

“We’re going to get through this. I’m here. You’re not alone in this.”

Kelley nods her head.

“You’re going to be healthy until France.”

“How can you be so sure of that?” Kelley asks with a shaky voice.

“I just am. We’re going to France and we’re going to be on the pitch together. I promise.”

Kelley shakes her head, frowning. Alex grips Kelley’s face, holding it still, their foreheads still pressed together.

“No, listen Kel. Look at me.” Alex whispers intently.

Kelley opens her eyes and is met with her favorite shade of blue. The light that is hovering over the city, illuminates the sky enough to make Kelley see what she needs to see.

“I promise, okay? I promise you.” Alex stresses.

What Kelley sees in Alex’s eyes is safety, calming her like nothing else can, making her believe even though it seems impossible.

“Okay?” Alex whispers.

“Okay.” Kelley breathes.

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The next days everything only goes uphill for Kelley. When her appointment with Dr. Bright rolls around, he ensures her that surgery won’t be needed, but that she certainly should be very careful and consider every factor that will help her to recover. Kelley is over the moon and from then on even more determined to get better as fast as possible. They spend their off days visiting Alex’s family as much as possible and Alex finally feels like she doesn’t have to worry about Kelley. It’s the last day of camp before everyone will fly back to their club teams and Alex is waiting for Kelley, Christen, Tobin and Becky in the Whole Foods parking lot, since they wanted to grab some lunch for all of them. Alex is leaning against the wall a few yards from the entrance, looking at her phone after ending a business call.

“Alex Morgan.” a familiar voice calls her.

Alex looks up immediately, rolling her eyes at who is approaching her.

“Gosh, why??” Alex mumbles to herself, before she greets him with a short nod, “Tom.”

“Never in a million years, would I have thought to see you again. In LA of all places? What the hell are you doing here?” he smiles annoyingly.

“Well, I don’t know if you remember but first of all I’m a professional soccer player, which normally demands going to all sorts of places and second of all my whole family lives here.” Alex sasses, annoyed by his question.

He blushes and looks at her embarrassed, “Right.”

“Anyway, how is life going? Did you and that girl split up? I mean she was pretty rude.”

Alex looks past him and sees Kelley and her friends exit the store, not listening to a word he is saying and the memories from a few years ago come flooding into her mind.

FLASHBACK ON

“Ugh, I don’t want to go there.”

“Why though?” Kelley asks with a chuckle, pulling open her locker.

“Because there’ll be only people I haven’t seen in years and there is a reason for that.” Alex complains.

“But she’s one of your best friends Alex and normally you are never in LA for stuff like this. It’s a wedding, you’ll find someone to talk to.” Kelley smirks.

Alex pushes Kelley’s locker closed in front of her face.

“Hey! I wasn't finished yet.” Kelley frowns.

“You’ll come with me!” Alex exclaims excitedly as if she had a flash of genius.

“What? No.” Kelley laughs.

“Come on, I need somebody to safe me from my stupid ex, who is definitely going to be there.”

“Why do you need protection from your ex?” Kelley chuckles.

“Because he is an arrogant asshole. He’s always bragging with his job and his new girlfriend, just because he is super boring and jealous of me earning more than him.” Alex rolls her eyes.

“ What is his job?” Kelley asks amused.

“He’s an accountant.”

Kelley fake gags, which makes Alex laugh out loud.

“Why don’t you just bring a date?” Kelley asks skeptically.

“Because it’ll be more fun with you."

“Wait, is that also the guy who cheated on you on your birthday?”

“Yup. But I wanted to break up with him later that day anyway.” Alex chuckles.

“Fine, I’ll come with you.” Kelley agrees.

“Yes! You’re the best!” Alex exclaims, pressing a peck to Kelley’s cheek before taking off to shower.

Kelley just stands in the locker room frozen to the spot with a blush creeping on her cheeks.

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By now they’ve been at the party for over two hours, even though Alex told Kelley that they’d be leaving early, because the people were going to be lame. However, Kelley is great company as always and Alex somehow never had more fun at a wedding.

“I’m going to get us some more booze, alright?” Kelley speaks closely to Alex’s ear, due to the volume.

“Yeah, thanks. I’ll wait here.” Alex smiles, which Kelley returns before disappearing in the crowd.

Alex looks around happily, waving at one of her old friends from college when suddenly she sees the person she didn’t want to see. Alex curses under her breath and asks herself why this has to happen of when Kelley is gone. She ducks her head, but he sees her nonetheless and confidently walks up to her with his girlfriend in tow. The look on his face is determined and his intentions are clear, he wants to show off.

“Alex!! How have you been?” he smiles arrogantly, pretending to be nice.

“Uhm, quite good. Everything’s fine, thanks for asking.”

“Actually, I’m doing great myself. Do you still remember my girlfriend?”

‘Great, nobody asked you.’, Alex thinks to herself, but politely smiles at his girlfriend, who is actually quite nice and whom she knows briefly through a friend of hers.

“Hi Emma.” Alex smiles.

“Hey, Alex, how are you?” Emma smiles.

Before Alex can even answer her question, Tom intervenes.

“Yeah, Alex, how come a girl like you is still all alone?” he cocks an eyebrow, clearly meaning to attack her.

Suddenly Alex feels a glass being pushed into her hand and an arm around her waist, which pulls her in so that her body is pressed closely against another. Alex turns her head and is met with Kelley, who is unusually close to her face. She looks at Kelley helpless, who gives her a reassuring look.

“Hey gorgeous, I managed to get us the good champagne.” she smiles at Alex, squeezing her hip and clinking her glass against Alex’s before taking a swig of it.

“By the way, have I already told you that you look stunning in that dress?” Kelley compliments with a lopsided smile, before turning her attention to the couple in front of them.

“Oh hey, sorry. I tend to get too distracted by her beauty. Who are you?” Kelley asks outspoken.

“I’m Tom, Alex must have talked about me.” he says with a cocky grin.

Kelley looks at him with a frown, looking like she is roaming her mind.

“Tim?” she asks as if she didn’t understand him.

“Uh no, Tom.” he laughs uneasily, looking at Alex confused.

“Ahhh sorry, you mumbled a bit. Then no, I’m confident she never talked about you. I’m Kelley.” Kelley smiles confidently, giving him a very firm handshake while having a stare off with him, looking at him challengingly.

He looks more pissed off than Alex has ever seen him and the conversation only started. Kelley raises an eyebrow at him and turns her attention to his girlfriend.

“And who is your pretty friend?” Kelley asks charmingly.

“That’s my girlfr-”

“I’m Emma!” she interrupts him, eagerly holding out her hand for Kelley to shake, looking at her infatuated.

“Nice to meet you Emma, you kind of remind me of Kristen Bell.”

It’s a stretch. They might have the same hair, but that’s about it and Alex looks at Kelley quizzically.

"Thanks.” Emma blushes, “See that’s what I always tell you. Some people see it!” she snaps at Tom, who rolls his eyes.

If Alex wouldn’t have already been gawking at Kelley, she would have been by now. Kelley quickly looks at Alex and winks at her.

“You are Kelley O’Hara, aren’t you?” Emma asks shily.  

“Yeah. Do you like soccer?” Kelley smiles.

“I love soccer, actually I’m a huge fan.”

“Thanks, that's great.” Kelley says politely.

Alex notices a swagger to her, her energy cool and relaxed, giving off vibes that either would want you to be friends with her, or be with her.

“So Tim, what do you do for a living?”

“Tom and I‘m an accountant.” he says through his teeth, clearly aggravated.

“Dude. That sounds awful. I really am sorry for you.” Kelley grimaces, giving him a clap on the shoulder.

Alex almost bursts into loud laughter, but somehow manages to stifle it by hiding her face behind Kelley, however his girlfriend can’t contain it.

“Why would that be awful?” he asks offended.

“Come on Tom, don’t act like that. Your job is pretty boring compared to Alex and Kelley’s.” Emma laughs.

Tom shoots Kelley a malicious look and she just shrugs innocently. Alex eyes Kelley amazed. She has never seen anybody piss Tom off like that and she feels like kissing her for it. Wait. What? Her thoughts are interrupted by Emma.

“How long have you two been together?”

Alex eyes nearly pop out of her head, “Uhhh, we‘re not to-”

“3 years, right babe?” Kelley interrupts, resting her hand on her butt possessively.

Alex looks at her wide eyed and Kelley squeezes her butt, which makes Alex turn her head and nod at her quickly.

“Best 3 years of my life.” Kelley says, pressing a kiss to Alex’s cheek.

“Oh my god, you guys are so cute. I didn’t know that you were a couple. I could immediately sense your love for each other though. Alex your eyes are shining when you look at Kelley.” Emma gushes.

“Thanks.” Kelley grins brightly, turning to Alex, staring deep into her eyes, “She is the love of my life.”

Alex somehow feels mesmerized by the way Kelley is looking at her in that moment and she drifts off, not able to break eye contact. Alex knows that Kelley is just acting right now, but somehow it feels so real and natural.

“Alex what we’re you saying? You’re not together?” Tom interrupts, with an evil glimmer in his eye.

Alex turns to look at him and Kelley’s grip on her tightens.

“Uh yeah, what I wanted to say is actually we’re engaged.” Alex smiles brightly and Kelley looks at her with a smirk, which she then directs at Tom.

“I proposed last year. I mean dude, between us? Look at her. I couldn’t let this chance slip. And don’t get me started on her intelligence. Only a total idiot would miss the opportunity to marry a woman like Alex.”

“Babe, stop it.” Alex smiles, putting her hand on Kelley’s chest, who reaches up to intertwine their hands and presses a kiss to her hand.

“Awww. Tom, why are you never talking about me like this?!” Emma complains.

“Would you excuse us?” Kelley asks charmingly.

“Yeah of course.” she smiles at Kelley.

“Tim.” Kelley nods at him and pulls Alex away from them.

Alex can hear Emma gushing about her ring in the distance and Alex looks down at her hand, thanking god that she put on a ring that looks a lot like an engagement ring and was a gift when winning the Olympics.

“Oh my god.” Alex laughs loudly when they finally are outside, “Kel, you saved me!”

Alex hugs Kelley tightly.

“What a prick.” Kelley rolls her eyes, when they pull apart.

“That was amazing!” Alex gushes, “He was SO pissed off. How do you always do things like that?!”

“You’re exaggerating.” Kelley chuckles.

“Stop playing it down. Emma was totally into you and when you told her she looked like Kristen Bell it was over. What the hell was that about?” Alex laughs.

“I didn’t know that he was your ex, but they stood next to me at the bar earlier and she was complaining that he couldn’t see the alikeness.” Kelley grins.

“You’re amazing.” Alex gasps.

Kelley just waves her off.

“No, Kel, really. You’re unbelievable. I just love you so much. He’s never going to get over that.” Alex grins.  

“Why in the world did you date him?” Kelley asks disgusted.

Suddenly Alex becomes quieter than before. She nervously looks to the ground.

“Uhm, I don’t know. Initially, I just liked that he showed interest.” she admits sort of shyly.

“Alex, are you serious right now?” Kelley asks confused.

“What?”

“You don’t see it don’t you?” Kelley laughs frustratedly.

“Why do you sound so aggravated?”

“Because I am.”

“Why?” Alex frowns.

“Al. You’re- I mean- Have you ever seen yourself? You’re the most amazing person I know and you date that guy because he gives you a little bit attention? There is people falling for you left and -“

“Well, they’re not the right person though!” Alex almost shouts.

“But he was?” Kelley asks, not even phased by her outburst.

“No! That’s not what I wanted-“

“Then who is the right person?”

“I- I don’t know. I always make bad decisions when it comes to that. I just wish I’d meet someone who is even a bit like y-”

“OH MY GOD, ALEXANDRA MORGAN!”

Alex jumps in surprise and gets crushed by a squealing girl that clearly had a bit too much to drink. Alex throws Kelley an apologetic look.

“College.” she mouths, while getting squeezed to death.

Instead of answering Kelley just eyes her pensively. There is something unreadable in her expression and it’s so intense that Alex has to look away, because she starts blushing.

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Later that night and with too many drinks in their systems, they’re finally on their way home. In the taxi Alex lays her head on Kelley’s shoulder exhaustedly, drifting off into sleep slowly. Just before Alex is about to pass out, she speaks up.

“Kel?”

“Mhm?”

“What did you think about earlier?” she mumbles tiredly with closed eyes.

“When?”

“You know when.”

There is silence for a moment as Kelley considers her next words.

“You know, I think you should be with someone who treats you just the way you deserve to be treated. Someone who respects you, who cherishes you, who protects you and most importantly loves you for who you are.” Kelley reflects thoughtfully, her voice soft-spoken.

“I think I know someone like that.” Alex mumbles.

“Oh. Okay.” Kelley tenses, “Then why don’t you just talk to them I guess?” she asks uneasily.

“I don’t think they see me in that kind of way.” Alex shrugs.

“Impossible.” Kelley mumbles.

“Hmm?”

“That’s bullshit, Alex.” Kelley speaks up.

Alex is quite for a minute and Kelley thinks she might have fallen asleep.

“Do you think I deserve to be with someone who is the most amazing person on this planet?”

Kelley exhales deeply.

“I think you deserve the world, Alex. What I don’t think is that they are going to be more amazing than you.” Kelley tries to smile.

There is an unsettling feeling starting to build in her stomach, which she could only describe as some sort of jealousy.

“Well, they are.”

Kelley looks down at the soft smile that is dancing on Alex’s face and the feeling she felt before somehow is erased.

“Well, they aren’t going to be able to say no to such a pretty girl.” Kelley smiles softly, kissing the top of Alex’s head, who is too tired to answer and falls asleep.

FLASHBACK OFF

“Alex? Are you listening?” he asks unsure.

Alex averts her gaze from Kelley and turns to look at him again.

“Thank you so much!” she smiles.

“Uhm what?” he stutters.

“Bye Tom.” Alex waves as she leaves.

“Wait! Alex!” he calls after her perplexed.

“There you are! I brought you vegan chocolate chip cookies.” Kelley smiles excitedly as Alex walks into her direction.

Instead of answering Alex just walks up to Kelley and puts her arms around her neck, kissing her meaningfully. Overwhelmed by the passionate kiss, Kelley drops one of her crutches while reaching up to stop her baseball cap from falling. When Alex pulls away Kelley looks at her stunned, her lips swollen.

“Uh, wow.” Kelley breathes.

“God, you guys didn’t see each other for like 8 minutes! Why are you like this!?” Becky groans.

“Seriously, it’s just cookies Alex.” Christen agrees.

Tobin slowly lifts the bag of food she is carrying, looking at Christen cautiously.

“Don’t even think about it.” Christen rolls her eyes, making Tobin drop her arm instantly.

“So what? I love me some cookies.” Alex grins provocatively and Kelley just shrugs at them, still recovering from the kiss.

They know better than to question Alex and start walking to the car. Alex picks up Kelley’s crutch and they fall behind a few steps.

“What was that for?” Kelley asks with an amused smile.

“For being the most amazing person on this planet.” Alex smiles back.

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Love on the brain (Part 19)

Sooooo, it's been a while guys. I'm really sorry that the update took so long, but at the same time I can't ensure to be much faster for the next few months. However, the story isn't over, so don't worry and as a small compensation the chapter is a bit longer :) Also thanks for all your kind feedback and messages, it keeps me motivated to write. As always, let me know what you think. Hope you enjoy this chapter.

The song is 'Three Little Birds' by Bob Marley & The Wailers

The chapter is also up on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/49460396

Kelley knows the stadium is packed. Their media team told them that the match was sold out within minutes after the tickets went on sale. Normally, it only gets her even more pumped when huge crowds are cheering for them. However, when she hears the deafening roars on her way to the player tunnel, she has to admit that her heartrate starts speeding up a bit. It’s not due to the fact that she doesn’t feel prepared, it’s more so that today something just feels different and Kelley is not so sure if she can remember the last time, she felt like this. She stops in the middle of the tunnel, turning around to look for her teammates. Instead, she sees the German team starting to line up next to her, no one with an US jersey in sight.

“Hab auf jeden Fall die Nummer fünf hier im Auge. Wenn die es einmal schafft dich zu überlaufen, kommt die Flanke definitiv in den Strafraum.“ the blonde player with the captain‘s armband says to another girl, who is nodding before eyeing Kelley closely.

Kelley doesn’t understand much German, however she is proud that she can at least count to ten and maybe say Hello and Thanks. Today she wishes she couldn’t, because it’s enough to realize that they are definitely talking about her. ‘Nummer fünf’ sounds an awful lot like ‘number five’. Kelley turns her head to look at the girls directly and gives them a death stare. They notice quickly and turn around again. Kelley does so as well, trying to get into her zone, but she frowns when she is too distracted to concentrate. That’s also when she realizes that she got even more nervous. She feels like the drums in the stands make the tunnel quake and she is not far from the point of losing her mind. Slowly but surely, she starts to understand why. It’s the first game since the Chapman incident. The last time she stepped on the pitch, she totally lost control over herself and somehow, she is afraid it might happen again if somebody comes on to Alex. It has been lingering in her mind for a few days now, distracting her, making her think that the fans are angry at her and even worse, making her think that she might disappoint Alex. For the next minute, she remains the only US player in the tunnel and all she can hear is loud German chatting. Now, she definitely doesn’t understand a word and being there all alone is starting to have an impact on her. She starts taking deep breaths while zoning out and cracking her neck nervously. After what seems like an eternity, blurry silhouettes of her teammates walk past her. Meanwhile, Kelley just remains rooted to the ground, occasionally feeling a motivational pat on her back or a slap.

“Go get ‘em, tiger.” Alex whispers in her ear while passing her and slapping her butt.

Alex lines up in the spot in front of her and turns around to look at Kelley when she is not responding. This pulls Kelley out of her trance and her head shoots up quickly. When she looks into Alex’s eyes, she realizes that it also slipped her mind to talk to somebody about her concerns. Kelley just pushed it to the back of her mind, because she thought she could handle it on her own. What she didn’t expect is that it would affect her this much when it’s actually time to play the game.

“Are you okay?” Alex asks concerned, eyeing Kelley warily.

“I-“ Kelley starts, the rest of her words stuck in the back of her throat.

Kelley clears her throat, shaking her head and Alex looks even more worried than before.

“I’m kinda nervous.” Kelley admits, looking at Alex wide eyed.

Alex opens her mouth and closes it again, looking at her perplexed, “Are you?”

Kelley nods her head and Alex grabs her hand as discreetly as possible, not wanting to attract any attention to them.

As long as she can remember, Alex has been nervous before games. It started when she was a little girl, playing with her sisters, trying to be as good as them, as fast as them, as strong as them. In high school, Alex always felt like she had to prove herself to someone, prove that she was good enough, prove that she got better, prove that she trained hard. When she finally got into college, she had somehow mastered to prove herself. Now nobody doubted her potential and just when she thought she had managed to overcome her nervousness because she didn’t have to prove herself to anyone anymore, the weight of living up to everybody’s expectations was put on her. ‘Alex will make us win the game’, ‘Alex will be a crowd pleaser’, ‘Alex will be the face of soccer’, ‘Alex will get us to the championship’, ‘Alex will become famous one day’ and Alex did all that, but never without a huge amount of nervousness, due to the pressure that has been put on her. When Alex got called up to the National Team her nervousness was at its peak. The U-20 team was the most competitive team she had ever been a part of and the pressure to stay on the team was brutal. However, Alex proved herself yet again and even after a disastrous ACL injury, she got called up again. In 2008, everything started to change. Alex was invited to yet another camp and that’s where she met a very pretty girl that couldn’t have cared less about being nervous. As long as she can remember, Kelley has never been nervous before games. Of course, there were the ones that seemed to be more exciting, where you could feel that they meant something, something more than just herself. Still, all in all, Kelley was always able to channel that kind of energy into something her teammates liked to call craziness or attitude. To Kelley it always was the desire to win, to be better than anyone else. Ever since she was young, standing on the pitch was freedom to Kelley. It was a place where she could let out all of her energy, where she could be creative, where the line between pressure and peace was so fine that it was almost indistinguishable. Something that felt like it was made for her. Kelley loved pressure, she loved showing what she was able to do, playing against the best, competing, but most of all she loved wining and that’s also why she always was such a great athlete. While the pressure of having to win made other’s crumble, it made Kelley calm and soon Alex learned that if Kelley was calm, she was going to be calm as well. Whenever she was in her proximity, Kelley somehow managed to make Alex feel serene. So one thing Alex knows for sure, if Kelley is nervous it means something else is off. Her mind drifts off to every time Kelley has made her feel at ease before a game and the pictures in her head put a soft smile on her face. She takes a step towards Kelley and pulls her in a tight embrace.

“I want you to only focus on me.” she whispers in her ear.

Kelley can feel Alex’s chest rise and fall against hers slowly.

“Breathe with me.”

Kelley takes a deep breath with her, holding it when Alex does so as well. Alex can feel Kelley’s heart pounding against her chest. That’s when she starts singing softly in her ear and it makes Kelley close her eyes and exhale deeply. It’s very faint, almost inaudible, but Kelley can hear it loud and clear.

"Don't worry about a thing

Cause every little thing is gonna be alright

So baby, don't worry about a thing

Cause every little thing is gonna be alright”

Kelley smiles brightly at the gesture, her mind cleared from any thought that was roaming through it just moments ago.

FLASHBACK ON

October 6th, 2010

“Alex, you’re getting subbed in for A-Rod for the last 20 minutes of the second half.” Pia announces in the locker room, when discussing the substitutions.

Alex’s eyes go wide, a shudder running down her spine. ‘Please don’t get nervous again, you got this.’, she says to herself, trying to calm herself down. Externally, she tries to overplay it as her heartrate is starting to pick up unhealthily and apparently, it’s working since no one seems to notice. That’s until she notices Kelley’s eyes on her, observing her closely. She nervously runs her hand through her hair and Alex is glad when Abby starts talking to her.

“You okay there, baby horse?” Abby asks quietly.

Alex looks past Abby, making eye contact with Kelley, who is not averting her gaze.

“Besides the fact that I feel like throwing up, yes.” Alex attempts a joke to play it down, but it’s clear that Alex is anything but okay, at least to Kelley, who witnesses the conversation.

Abby laughs loudly at Alex’s joke.

“Been there, get it out of your system.” Abby says with a pat on her shoulder, before turning around to hype up the group.  

“Okay guys, listen up. I want to win this damn game, so I need everyone to focus from the first second of the warm up, to the last minute of the additional time, understood? Let’s do this!!” Abby yells a little bit too enthusiastic.

The team joins in on Abby’s enthusiasm and they all start making their way towards the pitch with loud cheers. Kelley starts following them, being the one who leaves the locker room last. After a few strides, her step falters and she comes to a halt. Kelley doesn’t know why, but it just feels like she forgot something. Thinking that it might jog her memory, she turns around and heads back to the empty locker room. She walks straight to her locker to go through it, but doesn’t find anything that could be missing. She turns around cluelessly, meaning to leave again when she sees Alex still sitting in front of her locker, her face buried in her hands. They’ve become good friends, knowing each other for quite some time, forming a bond over their time on the U-team and since they both are rookies on the full-on national team now, they are also rooming together. Kelley holds her breath, considering to let her have some space, but Alex looks miserable and Kelley thinks she might be crying, so she carefully walks up to her. However, Alex doesn’t move or look up. Kelley eyes her closely. Her back is moving frantically as if she was in a panic and Kelley realizes that she hasn’t even noticed that she is standing right in front of her. She squats down next to her and carefully places her hand on Alex’s back. This makes Alex jump and her head shoots up disoriented, her eyes wide in panic.

“Hey, shhh, it’s okay. It’s just me.” Kelley whispers softly.

Alex needs a moment to refocus her eyes and notice that Kelley is the person kneeling next to her, but when she does, she feels the need to explain herself.

“I-“ Alex starts, but that’s all she can utter before gasping for air. Kelley looks at her patiently, waiting for Alex to articulate what she’s trying to say.

“-nervous-“ Alex gets out before her lungs run out of oxygen again.

“Alex, look at me.” Kelley says worriedly, placing her hand on her knee, but she doesn’t make eye contact, instead her breathing is only getting faster and faster.

Kelley looks around for any sign of help, but realizes that she has to handle this on her own and she has to do it fast, because Alex looks like she is about to pass out. Kelley moves to kneel in between her legs. She grabs her face with both hands and forces her to look at her. Alex’s eyes lock with hers. She throws her a desperate look, her eyes boring into Kelley’s, as if she was trying to hold on to something, as if it’s giving her a sense of security. That’s when Kelley knows she got her attention.

“I want you to only focus on me, okay?” Kelley demands gently.

Alex nods her head frantically and Kelley makes her stop by tightening the grip on her face. When Alex stops, she gently strokes her cheekbones, looking into her eyes deeply.

“Breathe with me.” Kelley instructs, taking deep, visible breaths to demonstrate how Alex should breathe. Alex is trying her hardest to keep up, but it’s still nowhere near normal. Kelley starts to panic internally, but tries her hardest not to show it. Roaming her mind for a solution, she suddenly has an idea. She pulls Alex into a hug, pressing her chest against Alex’s tightly.

“Okay, let’s try that again. Breathe with me.” Kelley whispers in her ear, holding her close and taking long and slow breaths.

Alex’s trembling body starts to calm down slowly. She is still shaking, but Kelley can feel the change in her breathing against her chest. She places one hand on the back of Alex’s head and caresses it gently, trying to create a feeling of safety. She doesn’t know why, but she suddenly is overcome by the strong urge of comforting Alex even more.

“Rise up this morning

Smiled with the rising sun

Three little birds

Pitch by my doorstep

Singing sweet songs

Of melodies pure and true

Saying, ‘This is my message to you’

Don't worry about a thing

Cause every little thing is gonna be alright

Don't worry about a thing

Cause every little thing is gonna be alright” Kelley whispers softly against Alex’s ear.

When she stops, Alex’s breathing is slow and tranquil. Her body has stopped shaking and her heartbeat, which Kelley previously felt hammering against her own chest, steadily pumps at a healthy rate. Still, Alex doesn’t let go of Kelley, now holding onto her tightly.

“You know what? Fuck everybody’s opinions. I know how you play. You’re brilliant and you’re always going to be. Don’t get in your head too much, just play. I know for sure that eventually everybody will remember how you showed them what you are able to do, but that doesn’t have to be today or anytime soon, okay?”

“Okay.” Alex says softly, breathing in Kelley’s scent that is oddly calming.

“I promise you, one day everybody will remember Alex Morgan as one of the best forwards in the world.” Kelley whispers, as if it was a secret and it makes Alex’s heart fill with an unfamiliar feeling of warmth.  

They stay in a tight embrace, the room filled with comfortable silence. That’s until they hear approaching footsteps. They break apart quickly and Kelley makes her way to her locker in sonic speed. She pulls her shin guards out of her socks while Alex is still sitting where they parted. The door bursts open and one of the staff members enters, looking quite aggravated.

“Where are-“ he starts, but gets interrupted by Kelley.

“Thanks for walking back with me, I’m so dumb.” Kelley exclaims loudly, looking at Alex, who looks at her questioningly. Before Alex can even process what Kelley is doing, she wiggles her shin guards at the guy.

“I forgot my shin guards. Alex was so nice to walk back with me.” Kelley clarifies.

“Rookies. It’s always the same. Come on now, you need to warm up.” he urges.

They both jump up and follow him. The guy and Kelley are walking so fast that Alex has to jog a little to catch up with Kelley. She reaches for her hand and pulls her back a bit, making Kelley look at her expectantly. Alex squeezes her hand tightly, making Kelley smile.

“Thank you, Kel.” Alex says with as much genuineness as possible.

“Always.” Kelley smiles as if it was nothing.        

They step out on the pitch where all the players have gathered to wait for some instructions.          

“Hey, Alex are you okay now? Or should we better place a bucket at the sidelines?” Abby laughs.

“Stage fright.” Abby clarifies jokingly, while turning around to the group and pointing at Alex, causing everyone to laugh.

Alex looks to the ground ashamed, avoiding the gazes.

“Shut the fuck up, Abby.” Kelley says firmly, taking a step towards Abby, looking like she’s ready to fight.

That’s when the whole group goes silent, looking at Kelley as if she was out of her mind. Alex looks at Kelley wide eyed, gasping along with a few other teammates, her mouth going dry. Abby looks at her surprised and Kelley knows what she just did is something like committing social suicide or could even lead to her having to pack her things and say goodbye to her dream of playing soccer forever. However, in this moment Kelley doesn’t care and it’s etched across her face. She throws Abby a disapproving, defiant look and the eyes of her teammates switch between her and Abby anxiously.

“What was that, O’Hara?” Abby asks taken aback.

Now everybody’s eyes are on Kelley again, waiting for her to back paddle.

“I said, shut the fuck up. I don’t like you making fun of her like that, you should really know better.” Kelley answers stoically, not retreating one bit.

Abby raises her eyebrows at her and everyone is preparing themselves for Kelley getting crushed. Instead, Abby looks past Kelley and directly at Alex. Alex looks at Abby anxiously, thinking that she is going to flip.

“Sorry Alex, that was totally stupid. We all are nervous from game to game and before my first few matches, I nearly wet myself.” Abby admits remorsefully.

If Alex’s mouth hadn’t already dropped from Kelley attacking Abby, now would have been the time for it. The same goes for all of her teammates.

“As for you,“ Abby says, returning her attention to Kelley, “no rookie has ever spoken to a veteran like this. I like you, O’Hara, that was fucking ballsy.” Abby compliments, patting Kelley on the shoulder with a huge smile.

“Look guys, that right here is the spirit we need in this team. Have no merci for the one’s attacking your teammates, even if it’s your own teammate.” Abby appeals, going into a full-on sermon.

Kelley turns around to Alex and is met with Alex gazing at her with something in her eyes, Kelley can’t read. She rolls her eyes at Abby still going on about team spirit behind them and starts jogging in the other direction, warming up for the game. Alex is left looking after her with a disbelieving shake of her head. Even though Alex tries hard, they don’t get the chance to talk for the rest of the game. However, as if by magic, Alex gets subbed in in the second half and scores her first goal ever, equalizing to a 1-1. After the initial shock and her celebration, she can hear Kelley screaming loudly from the sidelines.

“YEEES ALEX!! YOU SHOW EM’!”

So, before China kicks off again, she points at Kelley, as if she scored the goal for her.

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After a long day, Alex is pretty glad that they are rooming together, because she really feels the need to talk to Kelley. When the hotel door closes behind them, Alex can’t hold back any longer.  

“Oh my god, you didn’t really tell Abby fucking Wambach to shut the fuck up!” Alex exclaims.

“I guess I did.” Kelley chuckles.

“Kelley, are you insane?!” Alex gasps.

“She was being an asshole to you.” Kelley shrugs, letting herself flop on the bed.

“Yeah, but we’re rookies, we have to endure that. We can’t just walk around and tell people like Abby to shut the fuck up.” Alex rants, walking back and forth.

“Well, I don’t care. As long as I’m here she won’t treat you like that. She should have payed better attention to your conversation.”

Alex stops and looks at Kelley fascinated, “I just don’t get you sometimes.” she whispers softly.

“Why?” Kelley laughs.

“I don’t know, you sometimes do these things that just leave me speechless, I guess.” Alex says, letting herself fall onto her back next to Kelley.

“Like what?” Kelley asks, watching Alex closely.

“What do you mean like what?” Alex exclaims, turning on her side to face Kelley, “Like protecting me in front of everyone and risking to be thrown off the team or like-“ Alex rants again, but stops herself mid-sentence.

Alex bites her lip unknowingly and Kelley can tell that she’s a little embarrassed or nervous, so she reaches for her hand and gives her a reassuring look.

“-or like holding me through a panic attack and calming me down like it’s no big deal.” she whispers, her voice full of emotion.

Instead of answering, Kelley just stares at her. Alex doesn’t know why, but she somehow loses herself in her eyes. They look at each other a little bit too long and Alex quickly breaks out of her trance, clearing her throat.

“But why am I telling you this, you knew what I meant.”

“Yeah, I guess I just wanted to hear it out of your mouth again.” Kelley smirks.

“You suck.” Alex scoffs, giving her a light push.

“I think you told me otherwise just a few seconds ago.” Kelley grins, teasingly poking Alex in her ribs, who flinches in response.

“Oh my god, stop it!” Alex shrieks, causing Kelley to laugh.

“I’m never being nice to you again if you act like this.” Alex rolls her eyes.

“Impossible, I’m amazing.” Kelley smirks, poking her again.

With that statement Alex has enough, she pins Kelley’s hands to the mattress and climbs on top of her, straddling her waist.

“Stop being so full of yourself.” Alex groans.

“I’m not.” Kelley chuckles, “But do you know who should be?”

Alex shakes her head.

“You.” Kelley says genuinely.

Alex scoffs in response.

“No really, Alex. You scored your first goal today and man, what a stunner. You should be really proud.”

“That was just luck.” Alex refuses.

“Bullshit, Alex. I told you. You’re really really good and everybody is going to see it.”

Alex looks at Kelley rather skeptical, but Kelley shakes her head at that.

“I mean it.” she promises sincerely, patting her hand on her own heart after she freed it from Alex's grip.

“Thanks,” Alex whispers gently, her mouth curving into a soft smile, “for everything.”

Kelley smiles back at her, glad that Alex finally took the compliment.  

“Did you see Abby’s face though when you told her to shut up?” Alex bursts into loud laughter, causing Kelley to have a laughing fit as well.

They laugh for several minutes and at one point Alex can’t hold herself up anymore. Her head falls onto Kelley’s chest, which she can feel vibrating from laughter. At one point, they both calm down again, their breathing getting steady until there is full silence in the room. Alex can feel Kelley’s heart beating against her ear, which kind of sets her back to earlier in the day, calming her down again.

“Hey, Alex?” Kelley asks after a while.

Alex lifts her head to look at her, “Mhm?”

“You’re still on top of me.” Kelley grins.

“Oh my god, sorry.” Alex apologizes, turning bright red and quickly climbing off of Kelley.

“No, no feel free to stay there as long as you like. I don’t mind, but eventually we’ll have to switch, I’m more of a top.” Kelley smirks.

“Don’t make it awkward.” Alex warns.

“Who me? I would never.” Kelley chuckles, causing Alex to laugh as well.

FLASHBACK OFF

Ever since Kelley started it, she always sang this song to Alex when she was super nervous before a game. Over the years, it only happened every once in a while, but when it did it always had a magical effect.

“Kel, I know what this is about, but I promise you, you’ve got nothing to worry about, okay? Nobody is mad at you. The fans love you. It’s like you once told me:’ Don’t get in your head too much, just play.’”

“You’re a smart girl, Miss Morgan. Too smart for me.” Kelley winks cutely.

Alex knows that Kelley is not only referring to her reading her mind, but also to singing the song.

“I had a great teacher.” Alex bites her lip, grinning brightly, “Can I kiss you?” Alex whispers.

“What kind of question is that?”

Alex smiles, before turning around to look if the cameras are already in the tunnel, but they aren’t. The players are still forming into a line and the huge hustle in the tunnel is ensuring that everybody is concentrating on something else. When she turns around Kelley is grinning at her.

“What?” Alex chuckles.

“You’re cute.”

Kelley quickly puts her hands on both sides of Alex’s face to guard the kiss from being seen, before Alex leans in and kisses her lovingly.

“You got this, baby.”

“Score me a goal.”

“Always.” Alex smiles, turning around to move towards the end of the line that is forming, but she is stopped by Kelley still holding her hand, making her turn back around and pulling her in.

“You look perfect.” she smiles, pecking Alex’s lips quickly, but not pulling away fully.

Alex is absolutely surprised by the kiss, because Kelley doesn’t seem to care if anybody sees.

“Thank you.” Kelley continues, pressing another kiss to her lips.

Alex smiles back at her, before finally lining up behind the others.

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It’s a hard-fought game between both teams and you can tell that every single player leaves their all on the pitch. After her initial worries, Kelley finds into the match and soon is in total focus. They have more chances and keep the spaces tight in the back, but their attempts at scoring get blocked ardently by the German team, which on the other hand finds no way through their backline as well. It’s a fair, but very physical game and they know, they’re going to have to keep resilient for the whole 90 minutes. After 45 minutes, both teams make their way to the locker rooms frustratedly. The game is still goalless and both sides can use the break. Jill tries to boost their motivation in her half time speech, warning them to not cave in, followed by some tactical instructions. She tells Kelley and Crystal to move up higher and really pressure the German defense by getting into the final third with a higher number of players. On her way back to the pitch, Kelley exchanges some words with Tobin.

“The space is there. We’ll just have to be quicker. If we try you holding the ball, distracting the midfielder and the outside back, I might be able to overlap with a quick give and go. That should do the work. Their outside back is not going to be fast enough.” Kelley suggests.

“Okay, let’s try that.” Tobin nods.

5 minutes into the second half they lose possession in the final third. What follows is a counter attack by the German team and Kelley finds herself sprinting down the field to catch up with the ongoing attack. Däbritz plays a well-timed pass to Marozsán a few yards outside of the 18 and all Abby has to do, is step up to her to narrow the angle and stop her from shooting, but she doesn’t.

“HEY!! ABBY!!! PRESSURE!!” Kelley yells.

However, Abby doesn’t react and she knows that if she is not going to do it herself, they’re going to be down 0-1. She tries sprinting even faster running into Marozsán’s direction at an angle. The German midfielder takes her time to trick Abby by faking a shot to the right, before quickly changing directions, making Abby move the wrong way and breaking away past her towards goal. Marozsán finds herself in the perfect spot, she swings her leg towards the ball and strikes it firmly. The next thing that can be heard is a bang that is so loud that the whole stadium must have heard it. The ball gets blocked and is sent flying into the stands. Somehow, Kelley managed to throw herself into the shot at the very last second by jumping legs first. Loud cheers erupt in the stadium, still Kelley is anything but happy.

“Abby, you can’t do that!! When I say go for it, you have to step up!! For fuck’s sake!!” she yells aggravated, gesturing heatedly.

In their pre-game meeting, the coaches had explicitly instructed to not let Marozsán shoot anywhere near the box, which is why Abby nods at her apologetically.

“Sorry, Kel.” she mumbles.

“It’s okay, but you gotta stay focused and listen. Next time it’s a goal.” Kelley warns.

For the next minutes, they try to play their attack through the middle, however there is no getting through. At one point, Julie has to stop the attack because the space is just too tight. She plays the ball to Kelley, who starts moving up the flank, using the space that is now on the right side. When the midfielder comes up to her, she passes the ball to Tobin, who tugged in a little bit to give Kelley even more space. The trick works and both the defender and the midfielder try to stop Tobin from dribbling past them while Rose drops into Kelley’s position. When Tobin comes to a full halt, standing in front of the German players, Kelley uses the chance to start sprinting down the pitch, overlapping Tobin, who chips the ball over both players and right into Kelley’s path, causing the crowd to scream loudly. Kelley quickly moves towards the 18-yard box and tugs in a little, looking up to spot Christen or Alex. She is about to send in a cross, when Schweers comes too late into the challenge and tackles Kelley from behind, her timing completely off. From the moment the studs of the cleat hit her ankle, all she can feel is pain. She lets out a horrifying scream, the one that makes the hair stand up on the back of your neck. Kelley rolls around on the field, holding her ankle, hitting her hand on the ground repeatedly to somehow make the pain stop, but it doesn’t help. Meanwhile, everyone is up from their seats, booing and whistling loudly. Schweers is the first to squat down next to Kelley. She is apologizing frantically and patting her back, looking quite shocked that she miscalculated the tackle that badly. Tobin is the next to arrive while Alex is running in her direction as well with nearly the whole team in tow.

“Fuck dude, are you okay???” Tobin asks concerned, but Kelley isn’t able to answer.

“Kel!” Alex gasps out of breath, immediately kneeling down next to Kelley, softly trying to hold her still.

Alex throws Tobin a horrified look that she returns. They both know that if Kelley stays down like that it must be something serious. Kelley hasn’t stopped screaming and Alex rolls her onto her back carefully. Kelley’s face is scrunched up in pain, looking like she’s getting tortured. Alex strokes her arm up and down and tries holding her waist still with her other hand. She looks around helplessly, but sees their medical staff coming towards them.

“Fuck!! Fuck, it hurts so much!!” Kelley wails.

“I know baby, I’m sorry. Steve is going to help you, okay?” Alex tries to calm her down, caressing her arm.

“Okay Kelley, right ankle again?” Steve, their head athletic trainer asks, as he is kneeling down next to her, making Tobin get out of the way and the team to give them some space.

Kelley nods shortly.

“Can you describe the pain? Was it a crushing pain?”

While the medical staff gets to work, the referee pulls a straight red and Schweers doesn’t complain one bit, leaving the pitch with a horrified look on her face, getting a few pats on her back.

“Did you have problems with your ankle the last few days?”

“She didn’t.” Alex answers quickly, while Kelley has her arm laying over her face, struggling to answer Steve’s questions due to her pain.

“I did.” Kelley answers pained.

Alex looks at her quizzical, her mouth agape. Kelley nervously makes eye contact with her, throwing her an apologetic look. She looks absolutely miserable, so Alex decides to have that conversation later, shaking her head disappointedly. Kelley tugs at her hand worriedly, looking at Alex with puppy eyes that are screaming, ‘Please don’t be mad at me’. Alex adverts her eyes quickly, knowing that if she looks at her long enough now, she is going to cry.

“What kind of problems did you have?” Steve asks carefully, having witnessed the silent conversation.

“Mostly exhaustion.” Kelley gets out through her teeth, closing her eyes and throwing her head back, the pain not getting any better.  

“Can you move your foot for me?” Steve asks, making Kelley shake her head violently.

“Alright, that’s okay, Kelley. No worries! Still, I’m going to have to move your foot just a little bit.” Steve announces.

He looks at Alex apologetically, “You might want to hold her hand for this.”

Alex nods at him uneasily and grabs Kelley’s hand with both of hers, leaning down further to whisper in her ear.

“Kel, it’s going to be okay. I’m here, I’m right here.” Alex comforts her with a soothing voice.

Kelley nods lightly, her face distorted with pain.

“Alright Kelley, on the count of three. One, two, three.” Steve says softly, before moving her foot to the right.

When he does, he is stopped by a roaring scream.

“Stop!!! Please, stop!!!!” Kelley begs, hitting her free hand on the ground violently.

Alex looks up at Steve horrified, seeing by the look on his face that this is bad.

“Tell them to get the stretcher.” he says to his assistant, who waves the medics over quickly.

“I’m really sorry, but I’m going to have to try one minor movement again.”

Kelley nods desperately, looking absolutely terrified with her eyes wide in panic and Alex’s heart breaks at the sight of it.

“Steve wait a second.” Alex intervenes.

“Hey babe, look at me, okay? Look me in the eyes.” Alex instructs.

Kelley does as she is told, looking at Alex helplessly, her forehead covered in sweat.

“Do you still remember the first time we met?” Alex whispers.

Kelley nods her head, her pained, panicked expression changing into a somewhat calmer version, her mouth forcing itself into something that at least resembles a smile.

“How could I forget?” Kelley gets out, her voice strained.

“Do you also remember when we talked about our first impressions of each other a few years later?”

Alex nods at Steve to start moving Kelley’s ankle.

Tears start streaming into Kelley’s eyes, rolling down the sides of her face. Her grip on Alex’s hand is almost crushing hers. Alex sees that Kelley is trying so hard to endure the pain just for her.  

“Fuck!” Kelley yells, closing her eyes, her forehead in ceases, Alex didn’t know it could form in.

“Baby, keep looking at me.” Alex begs.

Kelley reopens her eyes, her pupils dilated, looking into Alex’s as if begging her to make it stop. Alex gulps heavily, her throat going dry.

“Come on Kel, tell me the story.”

FLASHBACK ON

January 2008

Kelley walks out of the locker room, pulling her shirt over her head. The heavy fireproof door behind her falls into the lock with a loud bang. They finally have their first U-20 team training of the year. Kelley has been on the team since 2006. The first couple times, coming to camp in January was pretty exciting, nowadays she’s a veteran and the initial excitement turned into a serene calmness. She can’t wait to get the chance to train with the full-on National Team one day. She makes her way down the hallway, heading towards the pitch, when suddenly the door of the equipment room opens and a girl with brown hair and some blonde highlights exits from it, wearing the same jersey as her. Kelley can’t see her face and also doesn’t recognize her silhouette, which is why she guesses that she is one of the rookies. What she can tell from her silhouette though, is that she must be pretty, totally Kelley’s type. She watches the girl in front of her strut through the hallway with confidence, untypical for one of the newbies, who normally wander around the hallways shyly. Kelley is fascinated immediately, knowing that the girl has to be interesting. What captivates her even more is that she doesn’t seem to notice that someone is behind her and she still walks with determined steps, her hips swaying lightly. Kelley’s stride quickens, trying to catch up with her.

“Hey.” Kelley puts on her megawatt smile, lightly placing her hand on the girl’s back to make her presence known.

“You must be a roo-“

She turns around and Kelley’s smile falters, her voice failing her. Instead of saying something she just stares at her overwhelmed. The girl’s lips are curved into a soft smile, her blue eyes boring into Kelley’s in a way that makes her feel something, she can’t describe.

“I, uhh-“ Kelley gets out.

Just a millisecond later the girl’s expression changes into something different. This pulls Kelley out of her daze and she is met by a judging look. Kelley checks her out pretty blatantly. That’s also when she realizes who the girl must be and her face turns into a smirk again.

“You look good in that jersey.” Kelley grins.

Alex rolls her eyes at that.

“No for real. I swear it never looked better on anyone and I’ve seen countless girls in it.” Kelley says charmingly.

“Yeah, are you talking about your teammates or only girls who wore it the morning after?” the girl sasses.

“Wow. You’re not only pretty, but also feisty.” Kelley smiles at her impressed, “I’m Kelley O’Hara.” she says holding out her hand with a level of confidence that is hard to match.

The girl looks down on her hand and then up at Kelley again without extending her own.

“I know who you are.” she says with a tone that sounds pretty bitchy.

“Do you?” Kelley arches an eyebrow cockily.

“Yeah and they also told me a lot about you. So, don’t waste your time, I know how people like you are.”

Kelley laughs out loud, throwing her head back, “How are people like me?”

“Well, you’re a flirt. Attractive and you know it. Smart, but you radiate this annoying kind of smart that comes with arrogance. You sweet talk everybody, charming them into liking you, making them believe that they mean something to you and when it’s most convenient for you, you cut them off because you found the next great thing. Doesn’t work on me.”

“Okay Miss Morgan, so you think I’m attractive and smart?” Kelley wiggles her eyebrows.

“Oh my god, that’s so typical for someone like you. You only listen to-“ Alex starts aggravated, blushing a little bit.

“-wait. Why do you know my name?”

“Well, you’re not the only one who heard rumors.” Kelley grins.

“Well, rumors are dumb.” Alex sulks, crossing her arms in front of her chest.

“That’s something I would agree with. Yet you still base all your information on the rumors you heard. How come?” Kelley chuckles.

“Well, I know they are true.”

Kelley laughs again, making Alex a kind of nervous, she never felt before and it’s making her really insecure.

“I like you Morgan, I’m glad that the rumors I heard are true as well, but I have to say that they are only true to an extent.” Kelley winks with a smirk and walks past her.

“Wait, what do you mean by that?”

“That’s something I’ll keep to myself, blue eyes.” Kelley calls over her shoulder, leaving Alex standing in the hallway perplexed.

Alex stares after her with a dropped jaw. A loud bang can be heard in the hallway and Kelley rounds the corner, disappearing just as fast as she appeared.

“Judging by the look on your face you already met Kelley, huh?” Tobin chuckles, stopping next to her.

“Apparently.” Alex mumbles.

“You okay?” Tobin chuckles.

“Uh yeah, totally! I just don’t think I ever met anybody like her.” Alex shakes her head, only now looking at Tobin.

“You think she’s hot.” Tobin grins.

“What!?! No!!! I think she’s super annoying.” Alex exclaims.

“And you think she’s hot.” Tobin smirks knowingly.

“I don’t! She’s full of herself and besides that I have a boyfriend, you know that.” Alex defends herself.

“Well, she may come off like this the first time you meet her, but she’s actually really cool and super nice. I played with her for two years now and she’s a really intelligent player, totally somebody I could see you bounce off with on the pitch. I think you’ll like her.”

“We’ll see.” Alex says skeptical.

Tobin smiles at that and walks around her, but stops, laying her hand on Alex’s shoulder, “And Alex?”

“What?”

“Don’t worry, everybody thinks she’s hot.” Tobin winks, before ducking form Alex’s hand coming her way.

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January 29th 2012

Alex and Kelley are making their way to their hotel room. It’s 3 am and they both feel a little bit tipsy from the drinks they had. They did it. They just won the CONCACAF final and on top of that they qualified for the Olympics in London. For the past hours they found no words to describe how it feels to be part of something so big, but right now it doesn’t matter. They are just too happy and too tired.

“Thanks for leaving with me, I don’t think I would have lasted any longer.” Alex yawns, as they enter their room.

“Of course, I feel exhausted too.” Kelley smiles softly.

Alex walks straight into the bathroom, to remove her make-up and brush their teeth, while Kelley first changes into her oversized white shirt and some shorts, she is sleeping in. After that she walks into the bathroom, cleaning her face, while Alex just starts brushing her teeth.

“Quiet the day, huh?” Kelley grins.

Alex shakes her head, wide eyed, “I know, right?” she says with the toothbrush in her mouth.

“I feel like you singlehandedly demolished Canada.” Kelley chuckles.

“I feel like you will become one of the best defenders ever.” Alex smiles.

Kelley scoffs at that, “I don’t think so, Al.” she laughs.

“No really, you were great! You should be really proud of how you played.”

“I could have done better. Proud is a strong word.”

“I am.”

Kelley smiles at that, standing up to grab her toothbrush.

“Well, you should be, you played incredible.” she says, starting to brush her teeth as well.

Alex hits her in the ribs with her elbow lightly, “Nooo, I meant that I am proud of you, you idiot.”

“Oh.”

“Yeah, I don’t think anybody else could have done what you did, at least not that good.”

“Come on Al, that’s nonsense.” Kelley brushes off.

“Kel, you normally play as a forward and with Ali being out on such short notice, you really did fucking amazing. That was impressive.”

Kelley smiles at her, her expression still a little bit doubtful, “Thanks.”

Alex spits out the toothpaste and rinses.

“You’re too humble for the way you played.” she empathizes, her tone just as warm as the look she is giving Kelley before exiting the bathroom.

Kelley’s smile goes wider when she leaves the room. She looks into the mirror, catching the expression on her face as if she was watching somebody else. She pushes the thought that she only smiles like that when she is with Alex to the back of her mind quickly. Luckily, her thoughts are interrupted anyway.

“Damn it!” Alex groans.

“Keeel??” she calls, dragging out Kelley’s name.

“Yeah?”

“Can you help me?”

Kelley quickly finishes up and leaves the bathroom as well. When she enters the room, Alex is sitting on top of the bed in only her bra and her jeans, looking at her fed up.

“What’s wrong?” Kelley laughs cluelessly.

“My zipper is stuck.” she groans.

Kelley laughs even louder now.

“Shut up and help me!”, she throws a pillow at her.

Kelley dugs from the pillow and holds her hands up shieldingly, “Alright, calm down.”

She tries to refrain from laughing and makes her way the bed. Alex lets her upper body fall back onto the mattress with a sigh and Kelley starts trying to open her jeans.

“I never guessed the night would end with me trying to rip your clothes off.”

“Admit it, you always dreamed of that.” Alex jokes.

Kelley looks at the zipper closely, seeing that some of the fabric of Alex’s jeans got stuck in it.

“Yeah, but that’s not how I imagined taking your pants off.” she mumbles distractedly.

“Sounds like something you would have said to hit on me when we were younger.” Alex rolls her eyes, chuckling.

“I never hit on you.”

“Uhhh, yeah you did.” Alex exclaims disbelievingly.

“When?” Kelley says, looking up at Alex, who is now holding herself up on her elbows to look at Kelley.

“Excuuuse me? Are you serious right now? When did you not?” Alex gasps offended.

“Okay, okay, I did.”

“I was just going to say. Just remember the first time we met.” Alex lays down again.

“Yeah, well I hate to admit it, but I really tried to make an impression.”

“That you made.” Alex chuckles.

“Do you like those jeans?” Kelley asks, looking up at Alex concerned.

“I LOVE those jeans.” Alex empathizes, making intense eye contact.

“Got it.” Kelley nods, leaning down again.

There is a moment of silence, but Kelley speaks up again, “In the good kind of way?” Kelley asks.

“Huh?”

“Did I make an impression in the good kind of way?” Kelley smirks.

“Wouldn’t you like to know.” Alex teases, her tone flirty.

Kelley smiles confused.

“I mean it must have worked, because right now my face is in your crotch.” Kelley jokes.

“You really are as blunt as they come.” Alex shakes her head with a grin.

“It’s a specialty.” Kelley mumbles distracted again, as she feels the zipper move slightly, “Okay, hold on.”

She firmly tugs at the fabric that is stuck in the zipper and it comes unstuck. Kelley pulls down Alex’s zipper easily.

“There you go.” she smiles.

“Oh my god, you did it, thanks!” Alex exclaims happily and Kelley lets herself fall onto the bed, while she gets up to kick off her pants and change into an oversized shirt as well.

Kelley silently watches her from where she is laying. Alex lays down next to Kelley again, turning towards her as she realizes that she is staring at her.

“What?”

“So, what was your first impression of me?” Kelley grins, turning towards Alex, popping her head up on her elbow.

“You mean, besides all the things the girls from my college told me?” Alex smirks.

“Ugh, annoying fans.” Kelley rolls her eyes jokingly, making Alex shake her head with a laugh.

“But yeah,” Kelley mumbles, suddenly looking at Alex pretty seriously, “what did you think?”

“Well, looks wise my first impression of you was that you were the most attractive person I had ever seen, which by the way was pretty intimidating, BUT you also were a little shit.”

This makes Kelley laugh out loud, making Alex join in.

“Sounds fair. So, the rumors were true, huh?”

“Oh no, not all of them, but some were spot on.” Alex smiles.

“Were they? What did your amazing teammates from college say?” Kelley says with an ironic tone, raising an eyebrow.

“As I said to you, I heard that you were a flirt, breaking hearts all around, which honestly I can still picture you doing back then. Allegedly, your whole college had a crush on you, or at least thought that you were attractive and judging by the talk on my team, you didn’t only charm Stanford students.” Alex chuckles, making Kelley laugh out loudly.

“Damn, I guess I really was the topic in your locker room.” Kelley lets out drily.

“Yeah girl, they also said that you could make people fall in love with you, just by looking at them and I’m pretty sure that’s exactly what you were trying to do that day, when you pulled that specific look, which by the way you totally still do quite often.”

“What look?” Kelley chuckles.

“That one!!! That’s the look right there!” Alex exclaims, pointing at Kelley’s face.

“I’m not doing anything.” she laughs.

“Yes, you so are! Your eyes look totally innocent, as if you don’t know that you are looking the way you do, but if I look closely, your eyes are staring right into my soul and you’re combining that with that light smile that is almost a smirk, but it is too friendly to be your full on asshole smirk.”

“Wow Alex, apparently you spend a lot of time analyzing my face.” Kelley grins.

“Just for your information, now you’re wearing the asshole smirk.” Alex rolls her eyes, “But anyway, that’s not my point. Funny enough, some people said you were cold-hearted and arrogant and I really have to say-“ Alex starts, but is interrupted by Kelley.

“Alright, alright enough of that. Yes, the rumors are true. That’s something I’ve heard a thousand times. Apparently, I am a giant asshole, Miss Morgan. Thanks for still rooming with me.” Kelley chuckles and Alex shakes her head.

“No…”Alex whisper, looking deep into her eyes.

“No, that’s the point. You’re not.” Alex says seriously.

The smile on Kelley’s face disappears and she just stares at Alex cluelessly.

“It’s just a mystery to me. Why do you always try to come off as this heartless person? You know, I always ask myself who made you believe that. Maybe it’s because all the rumors that I heard about you, are based off your physical appearance or your fitness. That has always been the thing when people, who didn’t know you, talked about you. These people are only judging you by the way you look and I don’t know why, but you listen to them. But Kel, did you ever think of listening to the people who know you? Who value you? You’re so much more than the way you look. You’re so intelligent and compassionate. I have never met anyone who is so protective of the things and people she values and loves. You always keep your word and you go all the way to make your family and friends proud and happy. And most of all, you have this huge, wonderful heart. Why do you always try to hide that beautiful heart of yours?” Alex asks disbelievingly.

Kelley looks at Alex speechlessly, her throat dry. Her mind is full of a thousand thoughts and things she wants to say, but she isn’t able to. Alex can see that Kelley is struggling to process what she just said, so she puts her out of her misery and asks her a question.

“So, what were the rumors you heard about me?” Alex smiles.

Kelley clears her throat, shaking out of her trance of looking in Alex’s eyes.

“Eh I, I heard that you were pretty and that you were an ‘A’ student, but to not get fooled by your looks because you were a mean player on the pitch.”

“Oh okay, but why did you say that the rumors were only true to an extent back then?” Alex mumbles quietly.

“Because first of all, by the way you spoke to me you were more than just an ‘A’ student. The moment you opened your mouth I knew you were amazing. You were really smart and you made me wonder what you were thinking of me. To be honest, something I never wondered about when talking to a girl. Normally, I could see right through, this time I couldn’t.” Kelley says deep in thought, as if she was reliving the moment.

Alex smiles softly at that statement.

“Are you telling me that you were nervous? If you’re telling me that you were nervous, you didn’t seem like it one bit.” Alex smiles brightly.

“Oh believe me, I was.” Kelley lets out a laugh, that sounds more like a nervous exhale.

Kelley plays with the watch that she is still wearing and her eyes are fixed on it.

“Mostly, because of all the rumors, one rumor wasn’t true at all.” Kelley says, now looking up into Alex’s eyes.

“Which one?” Alex whispers, hypnotized by the way Kelley is looking at her. That’s also the moment when she sees something flicker in Kelley’s eyes, but she doesn’t know what to make out of it.

“Alex, you weren’t pretty. You were the most beautiful girl I had ever seen and it would have been the understatement of the century to just call you pretty. You were breathtakingly gorgeous.” Kelley says honestly, making Alex blush furiously.

She looks away nervously, since she isn’t able to maintain the intense eye contact. It almost feels like Kelley’s eyes are burning a hole into hers and just when Alex thinks Kelley won’t say anything more, she speaks up again.

“You still are.” Kelley whispers, making Alex look at her again.

“See. You have a heart.” Alex whispers softly, visibly moved by Kelley’s words.

“Yeah, maybe it’s because of you.” Kelley whispers back.

They gaze in each other’s eyes silently. Now Alex is the one who is left speechless. She doesn’t know how to react to that, but somehow, she can feel herself getting closer to Kelley. She gets drawn to her impulsively, like a magnet, totally powerless. They are getting closer and closer by the second, nobody in control of the situation. Just when their lips are about to touch there is a knock on the door. Alex leans forward quickly, pressing a kiss to Kelley’s cheek like she never had the intention to place it anywhere else and jumps up to answer the door.

“Coooming!” she calls, leaving Kelley staring at the ceiling, mouthing a frustrated ‘Fuck!’, before putting her hands on her face and letting out a deep breath.

Her head starts spinning.

“You’re so stupid Kelley, what are you doing?!” she whispers to herself angrily.

Meanwhile, Alex’s thoughts are running wild. ‘I didn’t just almost kiss my best friend, did I?’ she asks herself before opening the door.  

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“And then Tobin was standing at the door, because she lost her key and wanted to crash on the couch.” Kelley finishes pained, but still attempts a smile and a light chuckle.

Alex nods at her, smiling with tears in her eyes. Even though they talked about this story a hundred times, Alex’s desperate attempt of trying to distract Kelley worked. Steve gives Alex a soft smile and squeezes her shoulder as the medical team hoist Kelley on the stretcher. Alex looks at her worried and she can see the wheels in Kelley’s head turning, as she is examining her closely.

“Don’t forget to score me that goal.”

Alex knows exactly what she is doing. That’s the thing about being in a relationship with your teammate, you still have to do your job, even if things like this happen. This is Kelley’s way of telling her to concentrate on the game again and stop worrying. Alex squeezes Kelley’s hand one more time, nodding at her.

“I would never.”

The paramedics lift the stretcher up and start carrying her off the field. Steve hands Alex a water bottle.

“Good job, Alex. I’ll update you after the game.”

“Thanks.” Alex nods and turns around, only to be met with worried looks by her teammates.  

“You okay?” Tobin asks concerned, as everybody is getting to their positions for the freekick.

“Yeah.” Alex nods, stopping next to Tobin, who is taking the freekick.

“Good.” she counters a little bit relieved.

“Hey Tobin?”

“Yeah?”

“Kick it to the far post, I need to score a goal.” Alex says seriously and Tobin nods determined.  

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Love on the brain (Part 17)

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Three days later it’s finally game day and the whole team is hyped as can be, blasting loud music in the locker room. They know this is more than a friendly. The matches against Canada are always about bragging rights and there is no way this game is going to be friendly. When the referee blows the whistle the game starts at a fast and aggressive pace. The players don’t recoil for one second and the tackles are getting more and more brutal every passing minute. After about 20 minutes into the game, Kelley has already been fouled at least 7 times and took most of the rather harsh hits very patiently. However, Alex notices her attitude starting to shift when she attempts to make a run past Tobin just in front of the 18-yard box to overlap her and both of her legs are pulled away from behind.

“Hey!!” Alex yells.

“What the fuck?” Kelley exclaims, who immediately jumps to her feet hot-temperedly and starts a discussion with the ref. Alex’s breath hitches and she jogs towards the discussion with an irritated look on her face. When she arrives, she opens her mouth meaning to complain heavily, but is stopped by Kelley’s hand on her chest, pushing her backwards as she walks away herself. Alex frowns at Kelley uneasily.

“It’s okay.” Kelley reassures her calmly and Alex is quite surprised at how well Kelley is containing herself after seeing the look on her face when she jumped up. When Alex looks past Kelley, she sees the referee showing a yellow card to Fleming and motioning for a freekick. That’s when she nods at Kelley and turns around, positioning herself in the 6-yard box. Pinoe sends a perfect ball in for Alex to head and it ends up in the top left corner, putting them up 1-0 in the 22nd minute. At halftime they are leading 2-1, but the team is absolutely aggravated and frustrated by the dirty fouls the Canadians are committing. Especially, Chapman seems to be particularly frustrated with defending Alex and tries to foul her whenever she can. They also seem to take a liking in pushing Kelley and JJ over, whenever they try to build up from the back and Kelley’s tranquility is long gone. The mind-games continue in the second half, when Chapman pushes her elbow into Alex’s ribcage on a corner for the US and tries to slow down the game by fighting over a throw-in with Kelley. At this point Kelley is already shooting daggers at her, hearing Alex’s voice in her head over and over again.

“Don’t let them provoke you, that’s what they want.” she said to her in the locker room. Apparently, they really try hard to provoke Kelley and at one point it’s the final straw. Chapman comes absolutely too late into a challenge, kicking Alex’s legs away and shoving her down brutally and hostile. It’s clear to see that she’s not even trying to hit the ball one bit.

“HEY! REF!!” Kelley screams, making her way towards the scene quickly, the referee on the opposite side of the pitch.

“Referee that’s a red!!” the coaching staff yells, while the whole bench is jumping to their feet, yelling loudly as well.

“REF!! That was the hundredth time!” Crystal screams.

“What the hell?!” Tobin exclaims.

Alex miraculously hasn’t been injured in the process and instead stands up, walking in her direction furiously.

“Are you fucking insane?!” Alex yells at her.

“Fuck off, Morgan.” Chapman exclaims as she takes a step towards Alex, giving her a push.

Kelley immediately sprints towards Chapman, pushing herself in between Alex and the Canadian. Kelley puffs her chest out and the way she shields Alex it seems as if she’s a lot taller than she actually is.

“DON’T-” Kelley first yells and then remembers where she is so she tries to stay calm.

“-touch her.” Kelley spits intimidatingly, saying the words slowly and clearly, looking into Chapman’s eyes menacingly. Chapman takes a step towards Kelley, pushing her forehead against Kelley’s hot-headedly.

“Kel.” Alex tries nervously, tugging at Kelley’s arm, but Kelley just looks at the Canadian fearlessly, staring her down, not moving one inch.

“What are you gonna do about it, O’Hara?” Chapman provokes with an evil smile, her tone arrogant.

“I’m going to fucking kill you if you dare to shove her one more time.” Kelley threatens, walking forward and forcing Chapman to take a few steps backwards in the process, who suddenly looks intimidated. Kelley really uses every bit of willpower in her body to try to stay calm, however Chapman doesn’t seem as if she is trying at all. She puts her hands against Kelley’s chest, shoving her hard, thinking it’s the only way out. Kelley on the other hand doesn’t back down. She’s standing in front of Alex immovable as a mountain. She holds out her arms, challenging Chapman to shove her.

“Yeah, come on. Push me again.” Kelley provokes with a chuckle, hitting her hands against her own chest. Chapman gets absolutely furious, her face turning bright red, letting Kelley get to her. She starts shoving Kelley repeatedly, blind with rage. The whole rumble since the initial foul happens so fast and the crowd is so loud that Kelley doesn’t even hear the referee aggressively blowing her whistle repeatedly, making a full sprint over the field.

“Try pushing harder, Chapman.” Kelley laughs, making the Canadian’s blood boil. What happens next makes everyone in the stadium hold their breath for a millisecond.

“Look out!” Alex barley gets out and the referee is not fast enough when Chapman swings her fist towards Kelley’s head. However, what no one expected is Kelley dodging the swing and catching Chapman off-balance by pushing her to the ground. Chapman jumps up, charging for Kelley, but the referee puts her hands between both players who try to go at it again.

“Back down, immediately!” the ref instructs.    

“Come at me O’Hara, try defending your pathetic girlfriend.”

Meanwhile, both teams have gathered around the fight. Everybody is arguing, yelling, negotiating and pulling each other in opposing directions. JJ, Becky and Alex all try to hold Kelley back at this point, who is trying to make her way around them, while Megan, Tobin, Lindsey and Crystal walk towards the referee, starting to complain loudly. At the sidelines both coaches are arguing and yelling at the 3rd official, while the coaching staff is trying to hold the subs back from storming the field. The Canadians try holding Chapman back as well, who’s still provoking Kelley. There is total chaos on the pitch and in the whole stadium.

“Enough, Kel. Come on, be smart, walk away from it.” Becky warns strictly and Kelley starts turning around to do so when Chapman raises her voice again.

“Next time I’m going for your girlfriend’s left foot, O’Hara.” Chapman provokes, her teammates shoving her away, while the referee immediately shows Chapman the red card, making the crowd erupt in loud cheers. Kelley spins on her heel and goes absolutely berserk. She tries escaping her teammates grips, who are holding her back with all their power.

“You fucking bi-“ Kelley yells, but Alex covers her mouth with her hand. Luckily, the referee is in a full-on argument with Megan, Crystal and Tobin who demanded the red card furiously.

“Kelley, calm down! Hey guys, help us here.” JJ yells.

Lindsey, as well as Rose and Abby jog towards them, helping to keep Kelley away, who is full of adrenaline.

“Kel, stop!”

Becky and JJ shove Kelley away at the same time, creating a bit of space between them and Kelley. When Kelley takes a step forward again, Alex steps in her way.

“Kel, calm down.”

But Kelley just looks past Alex, now also blind with rage. Alex takes Kelley’s face in her hands, forcing her to look at her.

“Hey!!! Look me in the eyes and calm down!” Alex yells. Kelley’s eyes lock with Alex’s and she immediately breaks out of her tunnel vision, nodding at Alex.

“Turn around and walk away. Right. Now.” Alex commands and so Kelley does, followed by Crystal, Megan and Tobin, who Alex and Becky pulled away from the referee, who was just moments away from carding them as well. Kelley walks towards the sideline, grabbing a water bottle while Alex, Becky and Sinclair talk to the referee. Alex is absolutely livid while vehemently discussing the whole incident with the referee. Meanwhile, the team and the staff gather around Kelley to check if she’s hurt. Kelley doesn’t speak a word, knowing she is too angry right now. After a lot of complaining Chapman is forced off the field by the 3rd official and the referee gestures for Kelley to come to her. Kelley avoids eye-contact with anyone, already expecting the worst.

“Miss O’Hara, I have to be clear here, I don’t condone this kind of behavior, neither from Miss Chapman nor from you.” the referee says strictly.

“I absolutely understand, but I saw my teammate being threatened and I was simply defending her.” Kelley answers respectfully, but still a little bit defensive due to not being able to calm down. The referee eyes her closely, searching for any sign of a lie. Kelley looks back at her stoically. The referee takes a deep breath and makes her decision.

“Look, you’re fortunate I count the shoving as self-defense. I don’t want to see or hear anything from you for the rest of the game. If I spot the slightest act of aggression you are out. Understood?” the ref says strictly. Kelley nods and starts running to her position while the referee shows her a yellow card, causing loud bows from the crowd.

"This is a very dark yellow, O'Hara." the ref underlines.

“It’s okay, Kel! Full concentration and clever defending.” Jill calls from the sideline, trying to build up Kelley’s confidence again.

“Don’t worry, you got this.” Becky encourages her, patting her back as she jogs past her. She gets a back pat from Abby and Rose on her way back to her position as well.

“Go, Kel!” Crystal yells from the other side of the field, clapping her hands. The rest of the game is still a hard-fought battle, but Kelley defends clever enough to avoid a red card. They’re up 3-1 thanks to a goal by Megan in the 80th minute and when the referee blows the final whistle Kelley is relieved, but nevertheless still angry. She walks across the field to shake everybody’s hand, earning encouragements by her teammates as well as a few apologies or  evil eyes from the Canadians. However, when Kelley sees Jill coming her way at a steady pace, she lowers her head, looking to the ground in fear and a bit of embarrassment. Jill puts one arm on Kelley’s back, grabbing her by the neck and patting her shoulder with the other while changing their course. She pulls her away from the other players to walk in the direction of the player’s tunnel.

“Kel, why do you let your head hang like that?”

“That was so stupid.” Kelley growls, shaking her head.

“It was. You shouldn’t have shoved her and most of all you should have walked away without hesitation when the ref arrived. You’re very lucky the referee saw your intentions and as your coach I need to tell you that.”

Kelley nods at what Jill is telling her.

“But I also know that you were defending yourself at that point. And to be quite frank I was rather impressed by your amount of self-control throughout the game. I bet younger Kelley would have gotten the red card for sure and I think most of your teammates were on the brink of it as well while yelling at the referee. As for Chapman, that was a clear red from the moment she tackled Alex.”

“That’s the point, she tackled Alex, not me.”

“It’s okay to protect your teammates if they get pushed around, as long as you don’t do what Chapman did or repeat your mistakes.”

“She isn’t just my teammate though.” Kelley grumbles.

“Oh Kelley come on, now you’re just searching for a reason to be mad at yourself. I think I know you pretty well by now. You would have helped any teammate in that situation. We are a team, we care about each other, we help each other. We need somebody who brings that fire to the team, it makes the team passionate and brings us together.”

“Maybe, but still. I should have been smarter.”

“Do you regret what you did?” Jill asks knowingly.

Kelley looks at Jill, considering her answer, but stays with the truth.

“No.”

“That’s what I thought.” Jill laughs, causing Kelley to chuckle as well.

“Of course, be smarter, learn from it, but what’s done cannot be undone. I don’t want you to think you’re undeserving of playing for us because of this.” Jill insists, eyeing Kelley closely. Kelley looks up at her surprised, feeling caught red-handed.  

“Thanks Jill.” Kelley smiles tightly, feeling massively relieved.  

“I told you, it’s okay. Now go cool off in the shower, I know you’re still fuming.” Jill says, letting go of Kelley’s neck and shoving her lightly past the line of media, who are yelling her name loudly, trying to get a statement. Kelley starts walking to the locker room, throwing her shin guards against her locker. Since she isn’t really in the mood to talk, she quickly heads for the shower, knowing her teammates will fill up the pleasant silence with loud chatting soon. When she reenters the locker room, her body feels a whole lot better, but her mind doesn’t seem to catch a break. Her gaze wanders to Alex’s locker, however she’s not there, her belongings still untouched. Kelley stops in the doorway, scanning the room. Everybody is there, except for her fiancée. She is pulled out of her thoughts when she hears her name.

“Kel? Are you okay?” Mal asks carefully.

“Huh?”

“You’re blocking the way.” Mal smiles unsure, gesturing to the door. Only now does Kelley really look at Mal, who is standing in front of her in a towel, her bottle of shampoo in hand, a line already forming behind her.

“O’Hara are you sure Chapman didn’t hit your head?” Sonnett jokes.

Kelley steps aside quickly, looking at the ground.

“It’s about damn time, some people are trying to shower here.” Crystal chuckles, as they all walk past Kelley. Julie is the last to walk past her and Kelley stops her by her arm.

“JJ, have you seen Alex?”

“Press conference.” Julie smiles empathically.

“God.” Kelley exhales.

“She’ll be okay, she’s a pro.” Julie squeezes Kelley’s shoulder, before disappearing behind the door.

On her way to her locker, Dawn holds out a bottle with her post match drink. Kelley grabs the bottle and forcefully throws it against her locker.

“Fuck!” she exclaims, causing the few people who are still in the locker room to go dead silent and look at her worriedly. Kelley bangs her fists against the locker and lets herself flop down, crossing her arms irately. She then jumps up, quickly putting on her clothes and charges for the door.

“Hey, Kelley, where are you going?” Dawn calls after her, but gets no response. Kelley jogs down the hallway, following the signage until she stands behind Jill, who is leaning against a doorframe, watching the press conference closely.

“Get her out of there.”

Jill turns around, looking at Kelley perplexed.

“Kelley, what are you doing here?”

“Jill, I want you to get her out of there, right now.” Kelley says impatiently.

“Alex, what can you tell us about the general mood of the game?” a reporter asks.

“Well…it was an intense game. Canada is always a tough opponent and they did a good job at defending our attack, but ultimately we managed to put the ball in the back of the net.”

“What can you say regarding the attitude of the players on both teams? There clearly was some tension.”

“Uhm, just like I said, Canada is one of our oldest rivalries. The games are always about glory and that naturally shapes the game.”

Kelley looks at Jill intensely.

“Kel, somebody has to do this.”

“Yeah and that’s me, not her.”

“But Miss Morgan, you clearly were involved in an incident with Canada’s number 2 Allysha Chapman, which ended in a fight between Kelley O’Hara and Chapman. How did it come to that and had your personal relationship with Miss O’Hara something to do with the fight?”

Kelley looks at Alex concerned, making a mental note to demolish that reporter. She then gazes at Jill demandingly. Alex feels her heart starting to beat faster, the color draining from her face. She pauses, taking her time to think about an appropriate answer. That’s when Jill nods at Kelley.

“Pull her out.” Jill instructs Aaron, their spokesman, who acts immediately.

“I-“ Alex starts.

“Okay, thank you ladies and gentlemen. Alex won’t be available for further questions.”

A roar goes through the press room and Alex looks at Aaron confused.

“Instead you’ll be able to talk to Kelley O’Hara about the incident.” he proceeds and Alex’s eyes nearly pop out of her head. When she is urged to leave the room, Kelley walks past her and Alex throws her a look saying: “Are you out of your mind?”, but Kelley looks away quickly.

“What the hell is she doing?” Alex whisper yells, when she stops next to Jill.

“She is setting things straight and to be quite frank, she’s also saving your ass.” Jill chuckles.

“Kelley, why did you interfere when Allysha Chapman tackled Alex?”

“The atmosphere of the game was boiling over at that moment and I was in close proximity to the situation.”

“Is it true that Chapman threatened you or Alex?”

“Both Chapman and I may not have behaved appropriately, however there was no malicious intention on my side, it was self-defense. Regarding Miss Chapman, you’ll have to ask her, I can only speak on my behalf.”

“Why didn’t you just wait until the referee arrived?”

“To my knowledge the referee was on the other side of the field at the time of the incident and I saw a necessity in stepping in before somebody got hurt.”

“Is the fight between you and Miss Chapman based on personal matters?”

“Absolutely not. As Alex said before, the Canada games are always very competitive and situations like those happen in the heat of the moment.”

“Kelley you probably could have gotten a red card, would that have influenced the dynamics of the game?”

“Yeah, probably.” Kelley shrugs.

“What are the consequences for the team regarding a send off?”

“That we play with 10 from then on.” Kelley answers with an irritated chuckle, causing the other journalist to laugh loudly. Alex senses Kelley starting to get impatient about the senseless questions and closes her eyes, afraid Kelley will make things worse. However, Kelley seems to realize that she probably should elaborate and give a proper answer.

“Look, we are talking about what-if’s here. Those are all speculations. What I know is that I didn’t get a red. But if you really insist, I think this team is very experienced and they would have dealt with it professionally. We have each other’s backs and I know I would give my all if one of my teammates was sent off. That’s the game. If the referee makes her decision that’s what it is and you take it and you move on. However, in this case the referee decided against it and saw that I was simply protecting a teammate of mine. As for the shove, that was pretty unnecessary and I’m aware of that, that’s what I got my yellow card for.”

“But Miss O’Hara, isn’t it true that you and Miss Morgan are involved with each other off the field?” the same journalist asks, who had already asked Alex the same obtrusive question.

“What the hell is this, a cross-examination?! Aaron, we have to stop that!” Alex exclaims appalled and Aaron turns on his microphone to help Kelley. However, Alex sees something flicker in Kelley’s eyes and she watches as Kelley’s demeanor changes completely. She stares at the man steely-eyed, radiating a fierce and ruthless attitude, outstaring the man, who looks away insecurely, before starting to answer the question.

“Yes, I think it’s common knowledge that we are in a relationship.” Kelley answers indifferently, with an edge to her voice.

“So, does your relationship with Miss Morgan affect your game and specifically did that affect the incident on the field toni-”

“What’s your name?” Kelley interrupts the reporter.

“Oh, shit.” Alex whispers to herself.

“Eh…I-I’m M-Mason Newman.” the reporter replies with a stutter.

“Are you in a relationship?”

“Ehh...”

“Does your relationship affect your ability to ask me questions tonight?”

“Ehm, why does that matter? That’s quite personal.” he answers shakily.

“Yeah, exactly. Yet, you’re asking me the same question.” Kelley reasons calmly, totally in control of the situation. The reporter looks at Kelley speechlessly, white as a sheet, not able to even bring out one word.

“Well, Mr. Newman, I know what you want me to say, but let me break it down for you one more time, so there’s no miscommunication.”

She pulls up the sleeves of her shirt and Alex watches her fascinated.

“Again, I stepped in because a teammate of mine was in a precarious situation. That’s what we do on this team. That’s what makes us a team. Our bond on and off the field fosters our success and our performance on the field. We all care about each other deeply and that is what makes us strong. So no, I can’t see why MY particular relationship with Alex would play a role in that and yes, at the same time it is the only reason I stepped in. With that being said, I would have stepped in for any of those 22 women and I would do it again.” Kelley says eloquently. She then leans back in her chair and looks at Aaron.

“Any further questions?” Aaron asks through the microphone, however there is silence in the room, Kelley’s answer having muzzled the reporters.

“Alright, if that isn’t the case, we’ll end the conference with Kelley here.”

“Thank you for your time.” Kelley smiles charmingly, before standing up to leave the room. A typical smile Kelley wears when she absolutely smashed something. It seems charming, but Alex knows it’s triumphant, defiant and a whole lot of cocky.

“Alex, you still have to give an interview since you’re named player of the match. Follow me.” Aaron urges, rushing Alex to another room.

“Smashed it out of the park, Kelley.” Jill high fives Kelley.

Kelley nods absentmindedly, watching Alex disappear down the hallway.

“Ladies and gentlemen, the press conference with Jill Ellis is starting in 3 minutes.” another member of the press team announces through a microphone.

“Talk to you later, Kel.”

Kelley doesn’t bother to answer and trots down the hallway, making her way back to the locker room, where she immediately is called by the physiotherapists for some post game treatment. She lays down on the treatment table, closes her eyes and puts her headphones on, tuning out her surroundings. Meanwhile, Alex makes her way through the hallways, doing interview after interview. She’s pretty glad that no one seems to dare to talk about the fight again, since Kelley shut them all up at the press conference. Her mood is continuing to switch between being really mad at Kelley and being very proud of her for taking responsibility as well as defending her. It’s a struggle she seems to face more often than she would like these days, but who is she kidding, that’s just Kelley and how is she supposed to be mad at that. Alex’s thoughts are interrupted by a familiar voice, she can’t really match to a person.

“Hey, Morgan! Wait up.”

Alex turns around only to be met with none other than Allysha Chapman. Alex considers for a split second to just walk away, but she ultimately decides against it. Instead she stops and looks at her judgingly, crossing her arms. Chapman who first looked determined, now seems to be a little intimidated and lets out a breath to calm herself.

“Look Morgan, I’m sorry. That was totally over the top and just dumb. I never would mean to seriously harm you. I was just so frustrated by the game and it really brought out the worst in me. I hope you can forgive me.”

Alex looks at her closely, seeing only pure intentions and pulls herself together.

“I understand that. It was an intense game and I know Kelley provoked you, which wasn’t okay at all. You know, I’m not one for holding grudges, that was never my thing. I don’t know about Kelley, but as for me, we are good.”

Chapman smiles at Alex, meaning to say something but Alex is talking again before she has the chance.

“Still, there is one thing I want you to know and I hope you understand me loud and clear when I say that if I see you come at my fiancée like that again, you’re dead. And Chapman, I ensure you, if you didn’t like Kelley getting mad at you, then you don’t want to see me.” Alex clarifies, her icy blue eyes boring right into her soul.

Chapman looks at Alex a little bit surprised and wide eyed. If Alex wouldn’t have watched her so closely, she would have missed Chapmans small gasp for air without question, but Alex takes note of it and therefore is sure her message came across. Chapman nods quickly.

“Yeah, won’t happen again.” she mumbles intimidated.    

“Good. Truce?” Alex replies with a smile on her face, holding out her hand.

“Truce.” Chapman smiles.

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When the team announces that it’s time to leave the stadium, Kelley is the first to quietly jump up to make her way to the bus. However, she is stopped by Allie holding onto her arm. Kelley turns around short-tempered, looking at Allie’s hand on her arm warningly.

“Kel, are you okay?”

Instead of answering Kelley just looks at Allie numbly and frees herself from her grip, walking out of the room. When she arrives at the bus, she sits down in her designated spot and once again closes her eyes, leaning against the window. When the other players enter the bus, they know better than to talk to her, her body posture clearly showing she is not in the mood for a conversation. Alex, Pinoe, Carli, Jill and the press team are the last to arrive. Alex enters the bus and stops at her typical spot next to Allie, remaining standing, looking at Allie questioningly, who is also still standing and looking at Alex worriedly.

“She hasn’t talked to anyone since the incident on the field, except for when she asked JJ where you were and the staff told me she had an outburst in the locker room.” Allie informs Alex quietly so no one can hear.

Alex cranes her head, trying to find Kelley in her typical spot. She sighs deeply when she’s able to see a very miserable looking Kelley. Her body tense, forehead creased, jaw clenched and her eyes straining to stay closed.

“I tried talking to her, but she didn’t respond.”

“Thanks, Al.” Alex says softly, giving her a tight-lipped smile and squeezes her shoulder.

Alex places her bag on the seat next to Allie and makes her way to Kelley’s row. She sits down in the spot next to Kelley and watches her face closely. Alex then lays her head on Kelley’s shoulder and reaches for her hand. She intertwines them and starts stroking the back of her hand. Alex looks up at Kelley, waiting for any kind of reaction and she doesn’t have to wait long. Kelley lays her head on top of Alex’s gently without opening her eyes. Alex lets out a breath of relief and kisses Kelley’s shoulder softly, before laying her head on her shoulder again, closing her eyes as well. A few seconds later, Alex feels a tender kiss being pressed to her head, followed by the weight of Kelley’s head on her head again, mimicking Alex’s action. That’s how they remain for the rest of the drive.

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The team exits the bus and immediately is scurried to the dining room. Amidst the chaos that is caused due to the players and staff all rushing into the hotel, Alex’s step falters when she realizes that Kelley, who was right behind her has disappeared. Thinking that she may have passed her, she walks into the dining room where she puts her bag down in her usual spot. She turns around and searches her, but she’s nowhere to be found.

“Has somebody seen Kel?” Alex asks into the round.

“Hmm, no maybe she went to the bathroom.” Adrianna shrugs.

“Come on you clinger, she’ll be back, let’s get some food.” Allie says trying to cheer Alex up.

Alex gives Allie a meaningful look, silently telling her not to play it down.

“I know Al, but maybe she really only went to the bathroom.” Allie comforts her.

With a sigh Alex follows Allie to the buffet. When Alex returns to the table with her plate and Kelley still isn’t there her impatience rises, but she starts to eat nevertheless, thinking she may just overreact. After a while her leg bounces up and down and she stares at the door every two seconds. Eventually, someone elbows her in the ribs. Alex turns to look at Allie.

“Jesus, would you calm down? Go search her then.” Allie says meaningfully.

Alex is up on her feet immediately and exits the room. Alex considers looking in their room, but decides against it and heads directly to the gym. She hears loud noises when she comes closer and it doesn’t surprise her to see Kelley angrily doing weight training at a fast pace while her music is blasting loudly. Alex presses the mute button on the control which is laying by the door, leaving the room silent apart from Kelley’s heavy pants and the noise of the weights clinking together slightly. Alex approaches Kelley, who is doing bench presses and halts in front of the bench. However, she still doesn’t stop.

“Kel, stop.” Alex says laying her hand on her stomach gently. Kelley sets the weights down and sits up, looking at the ground and brushing her hands through her face.

“Are you mad?” she asks with a small voice and then looks up at Alex like a kicked puppy.

“No. I’m not.” Alex shakes her head.

“Maybe you should be.”

“Would that make you feel better?”

Kelley looks down again, “At least then I wouldn’t have to be so angry at myself.”

“Babe.” Alex says softly, pushing her hand through Kelley’s hair, who remains silent.

“You can’t always punish yourself with silence or a workout. Talk to me instead.” Alex tries gently. There is a long pause before Kelley speaks again.

“I couldn’t.” Kelley exhales, pushing the top of her head against Alex’s stomach.

Alex senses that Kelley isn’t talking about punishing herself, but about what happened on the field before.

“It’s okay.” Alex says softly, her hand stroking Kelley’s neck.

“I can’t just stand and watch, Alex.” Kelley says, her right hand turning into a fist, lightly hitting the bench.

“I know you can’t.”

“I’m sorry.”

“I know you are and I know you just wanted to protect me, but you wanted her to lose control and that’s not okay. That was dangerous, Kel.”

Kelley’s head whips up and she looks at Alex seriously.

“Alex, she had no intention of even coming anywhere near the ball. She wanted to hurt you.” she makes her case.

“Yeah and that was nasty, as well as her going for you. Still, you shouldn’t have provoked her.”

“Of course I shouldn’t have, but she was being a bitch and I won’t let her touch you or talk to you like that.”

“And I love how you care for me, but Kel just put yourself in her shoes. You intimidated her and she didn’t know what to do next. I think it was poor judgement.”

“Well, she should be intimidated and if intimidating her gets my point across then that’s what it’s going to be. At least she is not going to touch you as long as I am on this planet. I’ll talk to some people tomorrow.”

“Don’t…she won’t be a problem anymore.”

Kelley eyes Alex suspiciously, “Why are you so sure of that?”

“Do you seriously think I’m letting her off the hook after she swung at you?? Mhm-mhm, you’re not the only one who doesn’t like when somebody is trying to offend their fiancée, O’Hara.” Alex says disapprovingly.

“What did you do??” Kelley asks astonished.

“Not much. I just had a little chat with her and I think she understood me loud and clear.”

Kelley whistles at Alex, “Damn, baby. Poor Chapman is crying herself to sleep tonight.”

“She has no reason to. We called a truce.”

“Wow, a truce?” Kelley asks unconvinced.

“Yes, and you’ll abide by that too, right?” Alex rather demands than asks.

“If it brings you joy.” Kelley grumbles.

“Thanks, tiger.” Alex winks, with a kissy face.

“Alex, I really tried to stay calm though.” Kelley says quietly, who feels that it is important to get this off her chest.

“I know you did babe and I think everyone struggled to stay calm in that game. So, don’t think I didn’t appreciate you helping me, I was just worried about you.” Alex says gently, stroking Kelley’s cheek, who gives her a soft smile.

“However, don’t even get me started on the press conference.” Alex sighs, letting her hand fall.

Kelley looks at Alex with a pained expression.

“You shouldn’t have been there in the first place.”

“Kel, that’s not the point. YOU shouldn’t have been there in the first place. What the hell were you thinking?!”

“If it wouldn’t have been for me, they wouldn’t have asked those questions. That was my fault and I’m not letting you pay for that. Especially if some douche is asking those stupid questions.”

“Just one more reason to be mad at you.” Alex rolls her eyes and Kelley looks at her defeatedly.

“Every damn time I want to be mad at you, you do those crazy attractive, intelligent, cute things and that just makes everything worse.” Alex grumbles annoyed and a light smile is born on Kelley’s face.

“Aw babe, I’m sorry.” Kelley grins, standing up and starting to kiss Alex’s jaw.

“No, I’m not accepting that.” Alex responds, while Kelley peppers light kisses along her jawline.

“You’re literally the worst person to be mad at.” she rambles on. Kelley goes for her ear, kissing her earlobe.

“Don’t think I’m giving in to those awesome kisses.” Alex breathes heavily, clearly distracted by Kelley pressing kisses to the corner of her mouth.

Alex pulls away, looking at Kelley warningly, “If you think I’m falling for that, you’re wro-“

“-ng” Alex mutters against Kelley’s lips, who just goes straight for a kiss.

“Oh, sorry I interrupted you, did you want me to stop?” Kelley smirks, pulling away.

“Don’t be ridiculous.” Alex says, pulling Kelley in by her shirt, continuing the kiss.

“I swear you couldn’t live a day without kissing me.” Kelley smirks in between kisses.

“Of course, I could!” Alex protests, pulling away completely.

“No way, hun.”

“Challenge accepted!” Alex frowns.

“What? Babe, that wasn’t a challenge.” Kelley says confused.

“Oh, now you backpedal?” Alex grins triumphantly.

“Not everything is a competition, Miss Morgan.” Kelley shakes her head with a chuckle.

“You’re one to talk.”

“Okay, try it then, but let’s make it a real challenge for you.”

“How?”

“I’m allowed to initiate a kiss whenever I want, but if it is initiated by you, you lose.”

“Try me.”

“You’re so gonna lose, babe.” Kelley chuckles.

“No I’m not, want to know why?”

“Tell me.”

“Because I’m Alex Morgan.” Alex says cockily and Kelley locks at her skeptically.

“What?” Alex snaps.

“Nothing.”

“Nothing is never nothing!”

“I just think you’re going to lose.”

“Why?”

“Because you’re Alex Morgan.”

“What’s that’s supposed to mean?”

“A very reliable source told me that Alex Morgan has one weakness.”

“And that would be what?”

“Her irresistible fiancée, duuuh.”

“You’re so dumb.”

“You’re out of your mind.”

They stare at each other intensely, silence lingering.

“Doesn’t start till tomorrow, right?”

“Definitely.”

“Perfect.” Alex breathes before kissing Kelley flamingly. She pushes Kelley backwards, her back hitting the wall hard, causing a loud thud.

“Ow.” Kelley chuckles.

“Shit, I’m sorry! Are you okay?” Alex asks worried.

“I’m okay. So much anger today.” Kelley teases with a grin.

“Sorry.” Alex mumbles quietly. Kelley takes hold of Alex’s chin, making her look at her, their gazes connecting.

“I like it.” Kelley winks, pressing a swift kiss to her lips, causing Alex to smile at her.

“How did you even find me in the first place?” Kelley asks astonished.

“Babe, I know you better than I know myself and torturing yourself with a workout after something bad happened, even after you played a 90-minute game, is the most Kelley thing ever.”

Kelley lays her arm around Alex, starting to walk out of the gym, “Yeah, that might be true. Wanna know what’s the most Alex thing?”

“What?”

“Losing the bet.”

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Love on the brain (Part 18)

Hey guys, enjoy the new chapter! :) 

The chapter is also up on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/47472769

I also posted a one shot about Kellex after the World Cup that isn't related to this story, so check that out if you like. (On Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/20046619 / on Tumblr: https://uswntpoet.tumblr.com/post/186664113849/one-day-kellex-one-shot)

The next morning Alex wakes up to light kisses being pressed to her jaw.

“Mhm, can I get woken up like this every morning, please?” Alex rasps tiredly.

“Impossible.” Kelley says, wandering to Alex’s cheek.

“Why not though?”

“Because we don’t life together during the season and if somebody other than me would dare to wake you like this, I would punch all of their teeth out.” Kelley reasons in between kisses.

Alex opens her eyes to look at Kelley amused, who is leaning over her.

“Oh boy, a sentence I never imagined to hear at-“ Alex starts turning her head to look at the clock on the nightstand.

“It’s 8 am.” Kelley grins.

“At 8 am then.”

“What can I say, I always know what to say to keep things spicy.” Kelley rasps, leaning down to bite Alex’s earlobe lightly.

“Well, good morning to you too.” Alex laughs, putting her hand in Kelley’s hair.

“I can make your morning even better, baby.” Kelley purrs into Alex’s ear.

Alex turns her head to look at Kelley with an entertained, yet bemused smile. Kelley raises her eyebrow suggestively in return. She then leans down and starts leaving open mouthed kisses on Alex’s neck.

“What has gotten into you?” Alex breathes with a chuckle.

“What does it look like?”

“Like you’ve had a dirty dream.”

Kelley stops and pulls away.

“Or maybe I didn’t, but instead woke up, looked to my right, saw this bombshell woman lying in my bed and then had some dirty thoughts.” she grins at Alex irresistibly.

“It’s too early for this, O’Hara. Would you mind being sexy later in the day?” Alex groans, closing her eyes again to block out Kelley looking unbelievably attractive.

“And? I’m living with the fact that you’re the most gorgeous woman on the planet 24/7 and it’s not like I’m complaining.”

Alex opens her eyes again, “You’re cute,-”

“-but you’re also a sweet talker.”  

Kelley thinks about it for a moment and then shrugs in response, giving Alex an agreeing nod, making her laugh.

“Good morning, gorgeous.” Kelley smiles softly, leaning in for a kiss.

Alex grips Kelley’s nape, prolonging the kiss subtly.

“Morning, love.” Alex smiles back when they part.

Kelley lingers over Alex’s lips, breathing hot air against them, switching her gaze between her eyes and her lips. Alex watches Kelley closely, feeling herself fall into the ban that are Kelley’s eyes and she quickly shakes out of it.

“Uh-uh. I know what you’re doing and it’s not working.” Alex says, pushing Kelley’s face away from her with her flat hand.

Kelley falls flat on her back, landing on the mattress and starts laughing, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“‘I can make your morning even better, baby’?! Yeah, right.” Alex mocks Kelley’s voice, followed by a snort, her voice having a knowing tone.

“Is that supposed to be my voice?” Kelley chuckles.

“What did you think? That I was going to rip off my clothes and kiss you?”

Kelley bursts out into even louder laughter.

“I mean, it looked like it a lot for a second.” Kelley smirks cockily.

Alex flicks Kelley against her arm.

“Ow.” Kelley laughs.

“You wish! Don’t think I forgot about our bet. I’m not giving in to your cheap tricks today.”

“Cheap??” Kelley exclaims, mocking offense, “That’s rude. They are anything but cheap.” she laughs.

“Cheap or not, I’m not going to fall for them and at the end of the day, you’re going to have to beg for me to kiss you.”

“If I were you, I wouldn’t be so sure about that.” Kelley says, standing up to grab her phone.

There is silence in the room while Kelley stands in front of the bed, checking her phone. Something about her calmness is agitating Alex and she can’t help but to inquire.

“Why shouldn’t I be?” Alex asks hesitant.

Kelley slowly takes her eyes off her phone and lays it back down on the nightstand. She then crawls on the bed again, leaning over Alex until she can whisper in her ear.

“Don’t forget that you once fell for every single of my ‘cheap’ tricks to make you kiss me. Every. Single. One.” she rasps.

She then pulls away, winking at Alex and pecks her lips swiftly before standing up and leaving the room.

“Dibs on the shower!” Kelley calls over her shoulder, already closing the door to the bathroom.

Alex just lies on the bed speechlessly, listening to Kelley happily whistling along to the music she started playing.  

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To Alex’s luck Kelley takes off to a treatment when Alex enters the bathroom to get ready. At least there won’t be any tricks for the next hour or so Alex thinks when she steps under the hot stream of the shower. She closes her eyes and the water starts relaxing her tired muscles from the rough game the night before. What Alex doesn’t expect is somebody opening the shower door.

“Forgot to ask-“

Alex lets out an earsplittingly loud scream.

“Babe stop screaming, it’s just me. See that’s why I always knock. Anyway, what’s the price for winning the bet?” Kelley rambles unfazed.

“OH MY GOD! KELLEY!!!!” Alex yells startled.

“Sorry.”

“Well, fuck me.” Alex breathes out, trying to calm down.

“Sure, sounds fair.” Kelley shrugs.

“Wha-“

“And if I win, you’ll have to grant me one wish.”  

“Wait, that wasn’t what I meant, I-“

“Shit, I’m late! I have to run, I’ll text you later, bye babe.” Kelley rambles, slamming the door closed and leaving the room.

Milliseconds later the bathroom door opens once more and Kelley walks towards the shower, opening the glass door again. Alex looks at her confused and Kelley leans in, gently placing a tender kiss on Alex’s lips. Even though she rushed out before, now it seems as if she has all the time in the world, the kiss lasting quite a few seconds. When Kelley pulls away, Alex opens her eyes and looks at her surprised. Water is dripping down Kelley’s face, some parts of her hair wet. She smiles at Alex softly, her eyes radiating tranquility and love.

“I love you.” she finally whispers.

Alex desperately fights the urge to go in for another kiss because of the way Kelley looks at her, the whole situation making her heart jump. Ultimately, she can’t help but to lean in out of utter awe. However, instead of taking the victory, Kelley pulls her head back, leaving Alex looking at her astonished and questioningly yet again. Kelley stares at Alex for a few seconds without saying a word, but her eyes are telling what Alex already knew by the way Kelley kissed her. This wasn’t a trick to win the bet, it was simply saying ‘I love you’.

“You’re crazy, O’Hara.” Alex says, shaking her head.

She reaches for her towel that is hanging over the shower door and softly dries off Kelley’s face while she’s stroking the thumb of her other hand across her cheek.

“I love you more.” Alex then whispers.

Kelley smiles contently and pulls her head out of the shower, rushing out of the bathroom.    

“This woman will be the death of me.” Alex says to herself, staring into space.

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When Alex finishes getting ready, she makes her way to the breakfast room. The room is filled with loud chatting and laughter, everybody happy about the win and the relaxing morning. After filling her plate, Alex takes a seat next to Kelley who is goofing off with Allie, Tobin, Ashlyn and Crystal about some dance Sonnett showed them.

“Morning, guys.” Alex says.

“Hey, Al.” they chuckle, recovering from something Kelley said.

“You want water?” Kelley asks, holding up a bottle.

“Yeah, thanks.”

Kelley pours some water into a glass and holds it out to Alex. However, when she reaches to take it, Kelley pulls it away slightly, looking at her with a grin.

“What?”

“Can I get a kiss?”

“Absolutely not.” Alex rolls her eyes, making Kelley laugh.

“It was worth a try.” Kelley grins, handing the glass to Alex.

“That was your worst attempt yet.”

Kelley leans over and kisses Alex on the cheek gently. She then leans back in her chair, spreading her legs to put one foot on her knee and puts her arm around the back of Alex’s chair.

“What’s up with you two again?” Allie asks.

“Kelley is being a little shit.”, “Alex is losing a bet.” they say at the same time.

“I’m not losing.”

“Sure.”

“What kind of bet?” Ashlyn asks.

“Miss Morgan thinks she can last a day without kissing me.”

“I can.”

“We’ll see.”

Ashlyn, Tobin and Crystal start laughing.

“I swear, one day you’ll win some sort of award for the most competitive couple, Jesus…” Allie chuckles.

“Don’t give her bad ideas.” Kelley warns Allie, pointing to Alex.

“Babe?” Alex asks sweetly, rubbing Kelley’s neck.

“Yeah?” she smiles.

“Shut up.” Alex deadpans, pinching her in the neck, causing the others to burst into laughter.

“Hey!” Kelley pouts and Alex shrugs.

“I’ll get some fruit, does anybody want some as well?” Kelley asks, standing up.

“Banana!” Crystal exclaims, raising her hand.

“Me, too.” Ashlyn agrees.

“Can you get me an apple?” Tobin asks.

“Sure.”

“Thanks, bro.”

Kelley looks at Allie who shakes her head.

“Babe?”

“Thanks, I’m good.” Alex smiles.

When Kelley returns to the table, she passes everyone their fruit, but remains standing. She leans down to whisper into Alex’s ear.

“My mom tried calling. I think she’s worried because of the Chapman situation. I’ll call her back and wait for you upstairs, okay?”

Alex turns around and gives Kelley an empathic look, running her hand up and down Kelley’s arm supportively.

“Yeah, of course. Tell her I said Hi.”

“I will.” Kelley smiles tightly.

Alex takes Kelley’s hand into her own, squeezing it.

“Don’t overthink it.”

“I won’t.”

“Okay.” Alex smiles softly, her smile immediately making Kelley feel at ease.

Kelley furrows her brows, coming closer to her face, “You don’t smell like you usually do.”

“Oh, yeah. I accidentally bought this strawberry Chapstick instead of the classic one.” Alex chuckles.

“Can I try it?”

“Sure.” Alex says, pulling it out of her pocket.

Kelley takes the stick from Alex, but instead of applying it to her lips, she kisses Alex shamelessly. When she pulls away, she throws the stick up so that it flips in the air and catches it, only to put it back into Alex’s hand.

“Thanks.” she winks, wiping the corner of her mouth with her thumb and leaves.

Alex looks after Kelley, her jaw agape. She turns to look at the others who mirror her facial expression while Tobin whistles impressed.

“Did you see that or am I hallucinating?” Alex asks.

“No, I’m afraid this really happened.” Allie laughs in disbelieve.

“What a freaking show-off!” Sonnett leans into the conversation, laughing loudly.

“God, Kelley is just on top of the mother fucking game. We’re all amateurs.” Ashlyn says admiring.

“Meow, KO is bad.” Crystal jokes.

“For real though, that was fucking smooth. I’m impressed by Wormy.” Allie says.

“How can you even deal with that?” Crystal asks.

“I can’t.”

“You stand no chance.” Allie laughs.

“Yeah, sis you’re so gonna lose.” Ashlyn chuckles.

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When breakfast is over, Alex opens the door to their shared room quietly, checking if Kelley is still talking to her mother. Instead Kelley is already shifting through their room to get ready for a lifting session. Alex sits down on their bed, watching Kelley pack her stuff.

“What did she say?” Alex asks tensely, biting her lip.  

“She yelled at me.”

“Oh baby, I’m sorry.” Alex sympathizes, looking at Kelley worriedly.

Kelley stops packing her bag to look at Alex.

“Yeah, she yelled at me, because she thought I should have knocked her out after she fouled you like that.”

“She what????” Alex exclaims, her eyes going wide.

“I mean I told her I meant to. But you guys had to spoil the fun part.” Kelley says seriously, a little bit of annoyance to her tone.

“Kel…” Alex warns, shaking her head.

“Yeah, no really. I would have punched her into another century.”

“Yeah, no and you REALLY wouldn’t have been allowed to play soccer for the rest of the century.” Alex counters.

“Would have been worth it.” Kelley grumbles, starting to pack her bag again.

“You really mean that, don’t you?” Alex asks, eying Kelley intently.

“Of course, I do. Even my own mom wanted me to take her out and she has a point. I think I’ll have to reconsider the truce.” Kelley says honestly with her back turned to Alex.

Alex walks over to her and hugs her from behind, nuzzling her face in Kelley’s neck. Kelley blindly reaches behind her, putting her hands in the back pockets of Alex’s jeans.

“Could you do something really immoral for me and not listen to your mom?” Alex asks with a cute voice that works on Kelley every time.

“Not listen to my mom?! Alex Morgan, are you asking me to commit a sin?” Kelley gasps, feigning a shocked voice.

Alex grins to herself, knowing that her trick worked immediately.

“I mean, it’s not like that concept is new to you.” Alex mumbles into her neck suggestively.

“I’m the most well-behaved person ever, princess.” Kelley says innocently.

“Yeah, I know honey, that’s also why your hands are grabbing my ass right now.” Alex deadpans.

“Nobody is perfect.” Kelley cheeses.

“Behave yourself a little bit more, tiger, no matter what your mom says and pretty, pretty please just forget what happened yesterday.” Alex suggests sweetly, pouting just the slightest bit.

When Alex looks up at Kelley, she has to hide her grin, knowing just by looking at her facial expression that she has won and it was a piece of cake. While Kelley often is rather tough on the outside, it is true that Alex can crack her shell with just a snap of her fingers. She just always had a soft spot for Alex and now Alex watches her walls crumble in pure bliss.

“Well, alright. I’ll just leave it.” Kelley exhales.

“You���re the best.” Alex smiles sweetly, patting Kelley’s abs.

“Yeah, yeah I know.” Kelley plays it down, pretending to not want that kind of compliment, but Alex knows for a matter of fact that Kelley loves when Alex says something like this to her.

“If I was allowed to kiss you, I’d do that right now.”

“You’re allowed to, I give you the permission. In fact, it is strongly suggested and highly recommended.” Kelley flirts, turning her head to look at Alex and puckering her lips.

Alex comes really close to Kelley, leaning in. Her eyes are fixated on Kelley’s lips, breathing hot air against them. Alex’s eyes dart up, giving Kelley bedroom eyes and all Kelley can think about is how hot Alex looks right now. She is fighting a smirk, thinking that Alex can’t resist anymore.

“Nope. Nice try.” Alex winks, letting go of Kelley.

“Did you really just do that?” Kelley asks annoyed.

“Eat your heart out, baby.” Alex smirks.

Kelley rolls her eyes at that.

“This bet is so stupid.”

“You were the one who insinuated it.” Alex calls over her shoulder when she walks into the bathroom.

“The lies.”

Alex pops her head out from the bathroom.

“‘I swear you couldn’t live a day without kissing me.’” Alex mocks with a dumb voice.

“Oh my god.” Kelley shakes her head, chuckling at Alex’s impersonation.

“Now you’re going to lose O’Hara.” Alex grins confidently.

“What is it with you and impersonations today?”

“Can’t wait to impersonate the look on your face when you lose.”

Because she is quickly disappearing into the bathroom again, she doesn’t catch the smirk on Kelley’s face.

“Oh, you wanna play? So be it.” Kelley whispers to herself.

“Al, meeting up before training?”

“Yes, I’ll be waiting.”

Kelley grabs her bag, texts Tobin and leaves for her gym session.

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For the rest of the morning and noon, Kelley isn’t anywhere to be found and Alex also doesn’t hear a word from her. Usually Kelley sends her a quick text if she’s not returning to the hotel room and instead just heads directly to a meeting or training. However, today Alex never gets the usual text before their training session in the afternoon. So instead she just texts Kelley.

Alex ❤️ 👑 [15:32 pm]: Are you still coming?

Alex ❤️ 👑 [15:47 pm]: I’m leaving in 3. Should I wait for you?

Missed call from Alex ❤️ 👑 [15:50 pm]

Missed call from Alex ❤️ 👑 [15:52 pm]

Alex ❤️ 👑 [15:53 pm]: Are you okay? :(

Missed call from Alex ❤️ 👑 [15:55 pm]

Alex ❤️ 👑 [15:56 pm]: Kel? I’m still waiting!

Standing in front of the hotel, Alex turns around one more time, looking for Kelley before climbing into one of the vans that will take them to training. Alex impatiently types another text, looking at the time.

Alex ❤️ 👑 [16:03 pm]: Where are you???

Kel 🐯❤️: Read [16:04 pm]

Alex ❤️ 👑 [16:07 pm]: Did you just leave me on read?!

Alex ❤️ 👑 [16:07 pm]: I swear, you are in so much trouble.

When she still gets no response, she wonders if something may have happened since it’s very unlike Kelley to read the text and not text back and it’s even more unlike her to forget that they wanted to meet up. When her van arrives at the pitch, Alex spots a very happy and unscathed Kelley, who is already passing balls with Tobin and Lindsey, laughing loudly. Alex walks up to her, blocking her way.

“Hey, babe.” Kelley smiles brightly.

“Why didn’t you text me?” Alex asks irritated.

“What?”

“I texted you several times.”

“Oh, right the texts!! I guess I forgot.” Kelley shrugs with a smile.

Something about Kelley’s smile is rubbing her the wrong way and she can’t help but to feel her temper starting to show.

“What do you mean you forgot? Kelley, I waited for you. I even called you.” Alex snaps.

“Calm down, I just forgot.” Kelley says distractedly, still wearing this damn smile while walking past her, calling Lindsey for the ball.

“What the actual fuck?” Alex asks herself perplexed, looking after Kelley.

She then walks towards the bench, sitting down next to Allie who is tying her cleats. She watches Kelley closely, who isn’t looking back at her once, even though she normally always sneaks glances.

“Kelley is acting weird.”

“When is she not?”

Alex rolls her eyes at Allie.

“Just kidding! Don’t kill me. What did she do?”

“She made me wait and didn’t respond to my texts and now when I confronted her, she didn’t really show any reaction.”

“Aren’t you overreacting a little bit?” Allie asks carefully.

“You should have seen her stupid smile. Kelley is a lot of things, but she not forgetful, not when it comes to things like this.”

“Don’t worry, Al. I bet she’s back to normal after training at the very latest.”

“Yeah, probably.” Alex smiles tightly.

As it turns out Kelley is not back to normal after training. In fact, she completely ignored Alex during the whole session while every single player on the team seemed to take a particular liking in Kelley today. Allie is the only one sticking to Alex’s side all training, trying to keep her calm. Meanwhile, everyone wants to be Kelley’s training partner, everyone is cheering for her, touching her and everyone gets to laugh with her, except for Alex. To top it all, Kelley leaves immediately after training, walking to a van with Sonnett, Sam, Mal, Abby, Lindsey and Rose, doing some stupid dance moves. Alex starts getting really worked up about Kelley’s untypical behavior and apparently she can’t hide it.

“Woah, Alex what’s the matter with you?” Tobin chuckles.

“What?” Alex snaps.

“Uhm…you look angry.” Tobin laughs uneasily.

“I’m not!” Alex answers defensively.

Tobin looks at her skeptically, “Ehh…okay?”

“Don’t mind her Harry. Trouble in paradise.” Allie excuses Alex.

“Wait. You and Kelley have beef?” Tobin asks surprised.

Alex lets out a deep breath, “Yeah…I mean no. I don’t know, she’s acting out of character.”

“Weird…” Tobin mumbles.

“Why?”

“Earlier we had gym session together and she acted totally normal. Actually, I haven’t seen her in such a great mood for a long time.” Tobin smiles before grabbing her phone.

“See Al, maybe you’re just misinterpreting, right Harry?”

Tobin nods lightly, preoccupied with texting and Alex rolls her eyes, knowing that she didn’t even listen to a word Allie said.

“Maybe.” Alex says absentmindedly, being even more concerned now.

“Chop-chop ladies, dinner isn’t waiting forever.” a staff member calls them from the exit.

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At the ‘team-only’ dinner at their hotel the drama takes its course. Kelley is not sitting with Allie and Alex, but instead has dinner with Megan, Christen, Alyssa, Becky and Julie. Tobin seemed to be right, Kelley is in a fantastic mood, but while Kelley’s laugh fills the dining room, Alex’s mood is weighting her down as her jealousy grows with every second Kelley is having fun with anyone else. Alex’s patience only lasts until dessert. That’s when she stands up and walks towards Kelley. When Kelley notices somebody standing right behind her, she turns around to see a very pissed off Alex, staring her down.

“Hallway. Now.”

That’s all that Alex says, before turning around and marching out of the door. Kelley follows Alex, but not before she grabs an apple from the buffet on her way. She then stops behind Alex who halts in front of a conference room, opening the door and holding it open for Kelley to walk in.

“Why are we going in there?” Kelley asks without moving.

“Because I’m not arguing with you in a hotel hallway.”

“I didn’t know we were arguing.”

“Well, we are.” Alex answers pissed off and Kelley saunters into the room, casually sitting down on top of a desk, biting into her apple. Alex watches her relaxed, cocky attitude and gets even more aggravated, the sound of Kelley eating the apple driving her up the wall.

“Could you explain to me why you’re being such an asshole today?”

“Wow, straight to the point.”

“I’ve got no reason to beat around the bush.”

“Yeah, no clearly.”  

“Excuse me?”

“Somebody woke up on the wrong side of the planet.”

“Yeah, somebody did and it certainly isn’t me.”

“What did I do?”

“We were supposed to meet in the hotel, Kelley! I was late to training because of you and since you apparently read all my texts, you could have at least sent a short answer, like always. Then you ignore me on the pitch and leave without saying a word, laughing loudly with other people, being in ‘a great mood’ according to Tobin and then you continue to ignore me at dinner, again sitting with other people.”

“You’re jealous.” Kelley grins.

“What the hell is wrong with you today? Did you even listen to a word I said?” Alex exclaims, getting really close to Kelley’s face.

“Frankly, I listened to all of them. That’s why I drew the conclusion that in fact you aren’t even mad because I didn’t text you back, but instead a series of situations triggered your anger, because I was consecutively giving my attention to somebody other than you. That combined with not texting you back is the reason why I’m sitting here in front of you.” Kelley smiles smugly, leaning back a bit to bite into her apple again and raise her eyebrows at Alex in a matter that asks ‘Am I right?’.

Alex shakes her head at Kelley angrily.

“What is it Alex?” Kelley grins provocatively, coming close to Alex’s face again.

“Your arrogance is pissing me off.” Alex bites, their face only inches apart, the tension thick.

“What are you going to do about it?” Kelley whispers with a sexy smirk.

They watch each other closely. Alex’s gaze bores into Kelley’s eyes flamingly while Kelley’s gaze is radiating ice cold poise. Alex doesn’t even notice that she’s leaning in until her lips are on Kelley’s kissing her vigorously. There is a loud thud when Kelley lets the apple fall out of her hand to grab her by her waist to pull her closer. Kelley then locks Alex between her legs by interlocking them behind her butt. Alex grabs Kelley’s face to deepen the kiss, making out with her greedily while Kelley’s hands push into Alex’s spine, making her arch her back.

“Oh, no I’m having war flashbacks to 2015.”

Alex snaps her head around in a flash, spotting a very disturbed looking Tobin. That’s also the moment Alex is pulled out of her trance and she feels Kelley’s body vibrating with laughter.

“Gotcha.” Kelley smirks.

Tobin joins in on Kelley’s laughter and Alex hides her face in her hands, groaning loudly.

“Goddamn it!”

“Aw, no worries baby, I know you just can’t resist.” Kelley chuckles, putting her hand in Alex’s hair to pull her head to her chest and place a kiss on top.

Alex pulls away, throwing her a chiding look and hits Kelley in the chest lightly, “You’re so stupid!”

“I’m a genius. I pulled all the strings and you took the bait.”

“Who was in on this?”

“Absolutely everyone, I even told Tobin what to say to you and she kept me updated if everything worked according to plan.” Kelley chuckles.

“God, I can’t believe I bought this. I knew something was off with how everybody was so touchy with you.” Alex shakes her head while Kelley rubs her hands up and down Alex’s torso comfortingly.

“You! You’re stupid as well!” Alex points at Tobin.

“Me??” Tobin exclaims with a high voice.

“Yeah you!!” Alex exclaims annoyed, “Was Allie in on this too?” Alex asks when she turns back to Kelley.

Kelley and Tobin look at each other for a moment before both start having a laughing fit.

“What’s so funny about that?!” Alex looks at them questioningly.

Kelley wipes a tear from her eye before giving Alex a ‘Are you serious’ look. Meanwhile, Tobin is still trying to calm down.

“Babe, Allie can’t even keep to herself what color of socks she’s wearing, not even to mention keeping a secret from her best friend.” Kelley chuckles, making Tobin snort loudly.

Alex pinches Kelley in the arm.

“Ow! What was that for?!” Kelley exclaims.

“Don’t be mean! I don’t like when you’re mean.” Alex crosses her arms and pouts.

“Sorry.” Kelley pouts at Alex pouting and gives her a quick peck, “Do you forgive me?”

“Maybe after another kiss.”

Kelley leans in, kissing Alex’s lips again.

“Ooooookay and I’m leaving.” Tobin says awkwardly.

“Thanks, Tobs!” Kelley gives her a thumbs up while looking at Alex’s lips, meaning to continue, but Alex shoves her away.

“Wait up, I’m leaving with you. This one will sleep in the lobby tonight for sure.” Alex jokes, trying to follow Tobin.

However, Kelley is able to pull her back towards her with her legs forcefully because they are still wrapped around her. Alex crashes into Kelley with momentum, which is why Kelley falls backwards and lands with her back on the table while Alex falls on top of her. Alex looks at her baffled for a moment, but when Kelley starts giggling, Alex immediately joins in. Tobin is long gone when their laughter dies down and Alex leans down to press a soft kiss to Kelley’s lips. She then pushes herself up and holds out her hand to pull Kelley up as well.

“How did you know this would work?” Alex asks, intertwining her hand with Kelley’s, as they leave the room.

“Okay first of all, I just knew you would get mad at me for not showing up and ignoring you. When I knew you were late to training, I asked everyone to be super touchy, which you hate. At the gym session I already told Tobin to tell you that I was in a fantastic mood to make you think that I was just not talking to you and not in a general bad mood. Tobin then texted me that you talked to Allie about the situation, which you always do when you are really mad. So, that was kind of my indicator. After that I asked the others to sit with me at dinner and act as if everything was overly funny and then I knew it was just a matter of time that you would confront me, because we never treat each other like this and always talk things out.” Kelley shrugs.

“God, why did I choose a Stanford grad?” Alex mumbles under her breath.

“Huh?”

“I said: But why were you so sure that I would kiss you if I’m mad?”

Kelley gives Alex a deadpan look.

“Come on, Al, I know you. I just needed to act arrogant, because boy do you love when I act arrogant.”

“What? I don’t!” Alex exclaims defensively, stopping in the middle of the hallway.

“It totally turns you on.” Kelley turns to look at Alex with a knowing grin.

“I-“ Alex starts, but Kelley raises her eyebrow at her judgingly and she closes her mouth again.

“Yeah, okay, maybe it does.” Alex mumbles quietly.

Alex starts walking again, pulling Kelley with her, who chuckles at Alex’s demeanor. They are about to return to the dining room when Alex stops again, looking as if she had a flash of genius.

Kelley looks at her questioningly, “What is it?”

“Should we prank them?”

“What do you have in mind?” Kelley chuckles, raising an eyebrow.

“Let’s just pretend pranking me was a bad idea…like a really bad idea.” Alex smirks.

Kelley smirks back at Alex, “Damn, I can’t believe you just broke up with me.”

“Such a shocker.” Alex laughs.

“Okay, let’s do this.” Kelley grins before moving her free hand over her face, changing her facial expression. Kelley looks at Alex devastated, her eyes looking dull and empty.

“Oh my god, don’t look at me like that, that breaks my heart.” Alex pouts.

“Yeah, well you just broke up with me.” Kelley says, blinking her eyes rapidly

“I don’t think I’m able to pull this through if you look like that. What are you even doing?” Alex giggles.

“Shh, I’m concentrating.”

“Why?” Alex laughs.

“Okay, how about you storm in there absolutely enraged and I’ll be coming after you in just a minute.” Kelley says, stopping the blinking.

“Sounds like a plan. Oh my god, that is perfect payback. They will lose their minds and they’re all going to have such a bad conscience.” Alex laughs cutely.

Kelley watches Alex’s excitement adoringly, not getting over the fact that Alex is so happy about such a banal thing. She smiles at her softly, somewhat spacing out, not hearing a word Alex is saying for a few moments, but eventually she snaps back to reality.

“-and if they ask Tobin, we just try to-“

Alex is interrupted mid-sentence by Kelley pressing a swift kiss to her lips. Alex looks at her amused, but still a little bit surprised.

“Man, I just love you.” Kelley grins, changing the look on Alex’s face into a dazzling smile.

They stare at each other infatuated and Alex’s gaze switches to Kelley’s lips. She then leans in slowly, resting her flat hand on Kelley’s chest while the other is still intertwined with Kelley’s hand. She softly puts her lips on Kelley’s, moving them tenderly but still purposeful. The kiss is the epitome of a non-verbal declaration of love and Kelley hears it loud and clear.

“Hey, Alex?” Kelley asks, making eye contact when they pull apart.

“Mhm?” Alex hums, switching her gaze from Kelley’s lips to her eyes.

“I won.” she says with a shit-eating grin.

Alex rolls her eyes at her, turning around to walk into the dining room.

“One wish, tiger. Just one wish!” Alex calls over her shoulder before entering the room.

Alex opens the door and marshes in furiously, trying to fake her anger the best she can. She slams the door closed, causing a loud bang that makes everyone look at her. That’s when the room falls completely silent and the last thing that can be heard is some silverware dropping on a plate. Tobin was about to return to her table and stops in front of Alex with her plate in hand.

“Are you okay?” she whispers discretely, looking at Alex concerned.

All eyes are on Alex, as everyone is waiting for her to answer.

“Why would anything be okay?!” Alex snaps loudly, making everyone’s eyes go wide.

“Alex, what happened?” Tobin asks confused, grabbing Alex’s elbow.

“Why don’t you ask Kelley??” Alex bites maliciously, shoving past her as her teammates start whispering to one another worriedly.

She sits down at her table, where Ashlyn, Crystal and Allie are looking at her concerned.

“Alex, is this about the prank?” Ashlyn asks carefully.

“What prank??” Allie frowns confused.

Alex shakes her head, not making eye-contact with anybody, not able to lie to them and afraid to start laughing. The silence is lingering in the room and Alex can feel everybody watching her every move while Tobin is still standing in front of the door bewildered. Luckily, Kelley has perfect timing and the door opens as she trots in, wiping her hand through her face. Alex looks up and her jaw drops when she sees Kelley crying her eyes out. If it’s even possible the room goes even quieter than before and when Alex looks around everybody’s jaw is dropped as well, however for another reason than Alex’s.

“Kel.” Tobin gets out, her mouth dry.

Kelley looks as if she’s about to pass out and Alex starts feeling sick, fighting the urge to stand up and hug her. She takes a deep breath and reminds herself that it’s all just a prank, but Kelley makes it seem so real that she is starting to feel as if they really broke up.

“What happened?” Tobin stutters.

If you dropped a needle everybody would have been able to hear it, which is why everyone hears Kelley’s next words clearly.

“Alex broke up with me.”

All of the girls gasp at Kelley, their eyes popping out of their heads while Tobin freezes as she looks at Kelley shocked. Everybody’s heads turn into Alex’s direction and Alex quickly looks down, hiding her facial expression. Alex feels Allie’s hand grabbing her arm with such force that it will probably cause bruising.

“YOU DID WHAT?!?!?!?” Allie yells loudly, her words echoing through the room.

Alex’s heart starts pounding in her chest when she doesn’t quite know what to do next. She decides to just get up and walk towards the door. As she passes Kelley, she knows better than to look up, but Kelley has something else in mind.

“Alex…it really was just a prank.” Kelley sobs.

Alex looks at Kelley amazed, fascinated with how good Kelley is selling this. Then she remembers that she has to play her part too and quickly thinks of a somewhat plausible reaction.

“I don’t believe you!!! This wasn’t a prank, you acted like a fucking asshole!” Alex yells loudly and she sees a quick expression of pride cross Kelley’s face before she refocuses.  

“Look, everybody was in on it, they all can confirm that.” Kelley exclaims, throwing her arms out in desperation and Alex can spot some of her teammates nodding wide eyed while others just remain frozen.

“That only makes it worse!! Are you trying to tell me that I should hate all my friends too?!”

“No that’s not what I meant, I-” Kelley defends insecurely.

“Well congratulations, I already do!!” Alex yells exaggerated, making everybody look at her panicked.

Kelley gives her a short nod and Alex knows it’s time to put an end to the torture.

“I do!! I hate all of them, because they fucking ganged up with my fiancée to prank the shit out of me and you can all choke!” Alex says, turning around to flip them off while Kelley laughs loudly.

For a second they look at them absolutely horrified, their mouths wide open. When realization dawns on them they all heave a sigh of relief.

“You dirty bitches didn’t!!” Ashlyn yells.

“Oh, wow, that was more exhausting than bearing the burden of having to be funny every day.” Sonnett comments exhaustedly.

“Holy shit!” Mal groans.

“My heartbeat feels like after a rollercoaster ride.” Rose exhales, her hands on her chest.

“I think I’m gonna cry.” Sam hyperventilates, making everyone laugh.

“I am already crying! I hate the both of you.” Allie says, wiping a tear.

“I have to admit, you got me there for a second.” Megan chuckles.

“I couldn’t quite believe it though, that was so surreal.” Christen says wide-eyed.

“So you guys didn’t..like break up?” Abby asks carefully, her voice loaded with guilt.

Alex looks at Kelley like she is considering it.

“I don’t know, did you?” Kelley shrugs jokingly.

“Hmm, naaaah.” Alex says, hugging Kelley from the side, hanging on to her.

“Uff, damn and I thought we were responsible for you guys breaking up.” Becky laughs.

“I wouldn’t have been able to sleep ever again.” Lindsey shakes her head.

“Too bad Kel, too bad. Zach wouldn’t have minded if I told him I’m leaving him for you.” JJ winks.

“I’ll always love you, JJ. This is something special.” Kelley points between the both of them, making a heart out of her hands.

It’s an inside joke between both couples that started a few years ago when a tabloid wrote an article about Kelley and Julie potentially dating, because JJ lifted her up during her 100th cap celebration. Alex found the article and sent it to Zach asking him if the both of them should worry about Kelley and JJ’s affair. Ever since, Kelley and JJ take a piss out of pretending that they are the couple that never was.

“You’ll never get her, she’s mine.” Alex joins in, pulling Kelley closer possessively, putting a finger to her throat, gesturing that Julie will be dead if she comes closer.

They all laugh loudly and Kelley kisses the top of Alex’s head, putting her arm around her and stroking her other hand up and down Alex’s arm.

“That wasn’t funny at all, I was so confused!” Tobin scolds with a light grin on her face.

“You deserved it.” Alex giggles.

“Kel you owe us! But duuude, what was that acting skill though?!” Tobin exclaims.

“Yeah, right babe! I didn’t know you could do that. I felt like throwing up.” Alex gasps confused.

“Alex you should be really worried, maybe she’s just acting.” Megan laughs.

“Fuck off.” Kelley chuckles.

“I mean, she was good, but she’s not THAT good.” Alex giggles, kissing Kelley’s cheek.

“But you might as well be, that yelling was excellent. Sounded just like when you yell at me in real life.” Kelley grins.

“I don’t yell at you!” Alex scoffs, looking at her disapprovingly.

“I’m just joking babe.” Kelley laughs.

“Yeah now you laugh, but I’ll get you back eventually, O’Hara.” Alex says slyly.

Kelley’s laughing dies down as she looks at her wide-eyed, holding her hands up innocently.

“Too late, prankster.” Alex winks.

“Aww man.” Kelley grumbles.

“Uh guys, is Sam still breathing?” Lindsey chuckles, making everybody laugh and turn to look at Sam, who is still looking terrified.

“It’s okay Sammy, relax!” Kelley chuckles.

“I think I have to seek professional help after this.” Sam gasps while the whole team is having a laughing fit.

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Love on the brain (Part 16)

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Later that day when the sun already set most of the veterans agreed to meet on the patio after they took a shower. Luckily, they almost got the entire hotel to themselves and when Kelley is the first one to get to the patio, it’s completely empty. She lies down on one of the sun loungers and pulls out her phone, checking her texts. Kelley choose a corner with some sofas and some loungers where a small fire pit table is creating a tranquil atmosphere.

“Excuse me Ms.? Can I get you anything?”

The waiter pulls Kelley out of her thoughts and she quickly looks up from her phone.

“Eh-“

“You can bring her a huge glass of whiskey. She is going to sleep in the lobby tonight.” Megan calls as she, Ashlyn, Julie, Becky and Crystal approach the table.

“She is kidding.” Kelley quickly clarifies, looking at the waiter with an apologetic look. The waiter smiles back at her, nodding his head.

“Could you bring me an oat milk latte and an espresso?”

“Of course.”

“Thanks.”

After the waiter took the other orders as well, the group settles around the table.

“You’re a dick Pinoe.” Kelley grins at Megan.

“I do what I can.” Megan winks. Meanwhile, Allie, Christen and Alex also join them.

“Where is Tobin?” Julie asks Christen when they sit down.

“Fell asleep in the armchair while I showered. She’ll be down in a few minutes.”

“Typical Tobey.” Kelley laughs, pulling a standing Alex down into her lap.

“It’s always the same with her.” Christen rolls her eyes, laughing as well.

“Alright, the Espresso was for you, right?” the waiter checks, looking at Kelley.

“Yeah, thanks.” Kelley nods, as he sets the tiny cup down on the table.

“The Cappuccino?” the waiter asks, holding up the cup.

“Yes, thank you.” Becky answers, taking the cup out of his hands. The waiter hands out the rest of the beverages until there is only one left.  

“Uhm, an oat milk latte?”

Alex looks around, wondering who has the same coffee order as her when Kelley’s hand flies up, pointing to her.

“For her. Sorry, I already ordered for you. Do you want something else?”

“No, I would have ordered that anyway. Thanks babe.” Alex says, leaning in and giving Kelley a quick peck. When she pulls back, she winks at Kelley, who smiles at her with a megawatt smile in response.

“Perfect.”

“You guys are so disgusting.” Megan deadpans.

“Exactly my words.” Allie exclaims.

“Then better close your eyes.” Alex says, before kissing Kelley one more time.

“Touché.” Ashlyn laughs. Kelley grabs her espresso, slides back on the sun lounger and pulls Alex with her, so that she is sitting between her legs. Alex leans back into Kelley, resting her head against her chest, cuddling into her with her coffee in hand. Her free hand rests on Kelley’s bend knee, stroking it tenderly. Kelley’s free hand stays around Alex’s waist, resting on her stomach, while her chin rests on top of Alex’s head.

“Okay Kel, now that the kids are gone, what the fuck did you do to a grown man?”

Alex snorts, rolling her eyes.

“Oh, I see, all of the sudden you find that funny, but a few weeks ago I was treated like a war criminal.” Kelley says, leaning forward to look at Alex from the side.

“That’s not true, babe.”

“Anyway, let’s just say I had a strong disagreement with someone.”

“Yeah right, a DiSaGrEeMeNt.” Allie mocks, letting out a laugh.

“What did you do, Kel?” Crystal cracks up.

“Well…I was drunk and somebody came on to Alex and I-“ Kelley starts hesitantly.

“Oh no.” Julie scrunches up her face, to which Alex just nods with a pained expression.

“What?” Megan asks.

“Do you guys remember when that journalist once tried flirting with Alex and Kelley almost ripped out his vocal cords?” Julie laughs and everybody nods, laughing as well.

“Oh right.” Megan exclaims.

“Or, oh my god, when Alex got the black eye in the game against France and Kelley nearly killed one of the players with her tackle, because they wouldn’t play the ball out of bounds?” Becky goes on.

“Daaaamn right, or that other time when-“

“Alright we get it.” Kelley interrupts annoyed.

“So, what did you do?” Christen asks.

“Ehh I…let’s just say I…I may or may not have-“

“She broke his nose.” Alex lets out dryly.

“What???” Megan, Crystal, Ashlyn, Becky, Christen and Julie all exclaim at the same time.

“Thanks.” Kelley says to Alex just as dryly.

“Guys, she didn’t just break his nose! She nearly killed him after almost getting killed herself and that was the second time that evening.”

“Kel!” everyone exclaims again.

“Pfff. As if I’d let anybody touch my fiancée.” Kelley grumbles.  

“Come on Kel, are you serious? That was really irresponsible.” Becky says.

“THANK YOU, BECKY! Finally someone who agrees with me.” Alex exclaims frustratedly.

“Yeah, no that’s really dangerous Kel.” Julie agrees and Christen nods her head.

“He called her a slut.” Kelley says aggravatedly, the memories making her angry again.

“Oh-oh.” Ashlyn says.

“That guy was in for a treat.” Megan laughs.  

“Such a short temper.” Ashlyn chuckles.

“When it comes to people coming on to Alex yes.” Kelley says matter of factly, which earns her a head shake from Alex.

“Did I miss anything?” Tobin asks when she stops in front of the group, remaining standing and leaning against a table.

“Kel broke some guy’s nose because he called Alex a slut.” Christen informs her with a pained expression.

“Duuuuude, savage.” Tobin chuckles, walking over to Kelley giving her a fist bump.

“Awesome.” Alex huffs.

“What’s the matter with you?” Tobin laughs.

“Don’t encourage her. That was reckless.” Alex frowns.

“Alex, I would have done the same if somebody said that to Christen. It’s pretty badass of her to try to win a fist fight with a dude just for you.” Tobin shrugs.

“You hear that? BADASS.” Kelley wiggles her eyebrows, which makes Alex scoff.

“Dude, did you at least look like you put up a fight or did you look like a pus-” Tobin asks.

“Tobin!” Christen interrupts her and throws her a warning look.

“Dude, I swear it was bad. I looked like I got hit by a car.” Kelley laughs and Alex shifts tensely between Kelley’s legs, clearing her throat and picking up a single strand of her hair that has landed on Kelley’s pants.

“Al, how did YOU think she looked?” Allie teases with an evil grin and Alex looks at her annoyed, blushing hardly.

“Oh come on Allie, shut up.” Kelley defends.

“Worms, I’m doing you a favor here.” Allie says, holding up her pointer finger, shortly looking at Kelley before switching her gaze to Alex again, waiting for an answer. Everybody’s attention is drawn towards Alex and she looks away quickly, muttering something under her breath.

“Huh? What did you say? Sorry, Alexandra I can’t understand you.” Allie provokes, seeking revenge for the morning after Kelley’s fist fight when she got woken up unpleasantly to say the least.

“Pretty sexy. She did look pretty damn hot, okay! Is that what you want me to say?” Alex snaps, while Allie starts bursting into loud laughter, the interaction causing the rest of the group to laugh as well. Alex rolls her eyes and lets out a heavy breath.

“I sometimes hate you.”

“You see I am confused. Do you want me to rip people apart for you or not?” Kelley teases, leaning forward to gauge Alex’s reaction. When Kelley’s head pops up in Alex’s sightline, she pushes Kelley back into the backrest by pushing her flat hand against her forehead.

“Watch your mouth, O’Hara.” Alex huffs. Kelley leans forward again, resting her face in Alex’s neck to kiss it softly while enclosing her in a tight embrace around her hips.

“Aw babe, I’m just kidding.” Kelley mutters into her neck. She leans back in the chair, pulling Alex with her and starts kissing Alex’s ticklish spot repeatedly which puts a smile back onto her face. Alex cuddles back into Kelley, laying her head on her chest again after giving her a quick kiss.

“You guys are so mean. Why me?” Alex pouts.

“We bully Tobin and the kids every day, what if it ever gets boring? We need options.” Allie says dramatically.

“You guys suck.” Tobin says, who is still standing with her hands stuffed in her pockets. When she finally sits down next to Christen, she puts her arm around her shoulder and smiles at her brightly.

“How is the most beautiful person doing?” she grins and Christen smiles at her, meaning to respond, but she is interrupted.

“Alex is doing great, thanks for asking.”

“Fuck you, Kel.” Tobin says annoyed.

Kelley snorts, while everyone is laughing loudly. Only Alex is turning around looking at Kelley sternly, her jaw agape. Unfortunately, Kelley doesn’t notice the look Alex is throwing her.  

“Allie, I can reassure you this is definitely never going to be boring.” Kelley grins and Allie laughs while stretching her arm to high five Kelley.

“Good one, O’Hara.” Pinoe laughs.

“Would you stop acting like a dick?” Alex scolds, hitting Kelley’s shoulder lightly. Alex’s tone catches Kelley’s attention immediately and she looks at her wide eyed, holding up her hands innocently.

“Don’t give me that look. Apologize.” Alex warns.

“Alex it’s okay, it was funny.” Christen giggles.

“No, it wasn’t.” Tobin whines.

Alex looks at Kelley with a steely gaze and Kelley musters her expression closely, contemplating her next move. They look at each other for a few more seconds before Kelley breaks the stare-off to look at Tobin.

“I’m sorry Tobs, that was unnecessary and douchy.” Kelley apologizes.

“It’s okay.” Tobin chuckles.  

“Wow guys, we are all witnesses of the power struggle™.” Allie gasps jokingly.

“We don’t have a power struggle.” Alex and Kelley exclaim at the same time.

“Okay, who is the big spoon and would assemble Ikea furniture?”

“Kelley.” the group answers monotone and in unison.

“But who has the power to change their partners mind about everything and is bossing the other one around while she is assembling the furniture?”

“Alex.” The group answers the same way.

“Power struggle.” Allie whisper yells.

“But-“ Alex tries to defend.

“However, it works, because admit it Alex: Kelley is whipped as fuck and-“

“She is not.” Alex argues.

“I am.” Kelley mumbles, which leaves Alex speechless.

“-and you’re bossy.”

Alex turns around, throwing Kelley a helpless look that tells her Alex is starting to get insecure.

“Bossy as hell.” Allie underlines.

“Hey! I like her bossy.” Kelley defends, kissing Alex’s temple.

“Is there anything you don’t like about her?” Allie deadpans. Kelley looks deeply into Alex’s eyes.

“Nope.” Kelley answers casually, not averting her eyes from Alex. She is glad to see that the answer seems to take away the poignant insecurity that Alex’s eyes displayed just seconds ago. Instead Alex smiles at her brightly now.

“Exactly.” Allie rolls her eyes.

“Thanks professor, are you finished with analyzing my relationship?” Kelley asks sharply, her temper starting to show slightly.  

“I could go on for hours. Who is next?” Allie jokes, not taking note of the change in Kelley’s attitude.

“You’re unbelievable.” Alex laughs, trying to lighten up the mood before Kelley will go for Allie’s throat. However, Kelley isn’t quite finished yet.

“Allie if you’d spend half as much of the time you spend on thinking about our relationship and invest it in analyzing Canada for gameday, you maybe could figure out how get us a win. Or better, if you’d stop analyzing at all, you maybe would sleep at night and perform better.” Kelley teases and loud laughter as well as roaring goes through the group while Allie tries to pick up her jaw from the ground.

“UUUUUHH!” Tobin exclaims.

“Ow, that must hurt Allie.” Becky comments.

“GAMEOVER.” Crystal laughs.

“Shazam!” Pinoe yells.

“Fair enough Wormy, I deserved that.” Allie admits with a chuckle. Alex cuddles back into Kelley and takes her hand into her own, squeezing it twice. She then cranes her neck to look up at her and Kelley winks at her serenely, apparently having cooled down. After that all the teasing quiets down and they spend a calm evening together, knowing that the friendly against Canada is coming up in a few days. Little by little, they start making their way back to their hotel rooms, until only Allie, Crystal, Alex, Julie and Kelley remain. When they exit the elevator, Alex interrupts Allie and Kelley’s conversation.

“Hey babe, I’m quickly going to pick up a body lotion at Crystal and JJ’s, okay?”

“Sure, we’ll wait here. “

“Give me 2 minutes.” Alex says, as she follows Julie and Crystal to their room, which is in another hallway on the same floor.

“So…exhibit A, huh?” Allie smirks.

“What do you mean?”

“Don’t play dumb now, you know exactly what I mean.”

“It’s like you said yourself, you better don’t mess with her if I’m around.”

“Even if it means embarrassing her best friend in front of a huge group of friends?” Allie pouts.

“Especially, if it means that.”

“That’s evil.”

“No Allie, to be quite honest, you making her insecure was evil.” Kelley counters pissed off.

“Woah, hey. That wasn’t my intention.” Allie answers baffled.

“Sorry, that was harsh. Man, I just-“ Kelley groans, stopping midsentence to get her thoughts straight.

“-I just didn’t like the look she gave me. It bothered her and she was too polite to say so in front of everyone.” Kelley says calmly.

“Kel, If I had seen that, I would have stopped. I was just joking, you know that.” Allie says, clearly worried and rueful.

“Yeah, I know we were joking around and who am I to complain, right? I’m always teasing and joking around and we both know normally Alex is totally fine with it either, but apparently it was too much, or you struck a chord. I really didn’t mean to interfere, but you left me no choice.”

“I’m really sorry, I didn’t mean to.” Allie apologizes.

“I know, but you definitely deserved that.”

“What kind of best friend am I?” Allie groans and Kelley puts her hand on her shoulder.

“The best a best friend can be. Come on, don’t worry, knowing Alex she’ll talk to either you or me in the next 24 hours and everything will be just fine. I’m really sorry I lashed out at you.”

“You know Wormy, don’t be sorry. You always defend her and I think that’s a good thing, she’s lucky.”

“No…I am.” Kelley smiles at Alex who is walking down the hallway with the body lotion and two candy bars in hand.

“Look, Crys and JJ also had candy they didn’t want and knowing you guys this is going to be annihilated in the next 30 seconds.” Alex smiles brightly from afar.

“You’re right, you definitely are lucky. I mean look at you, she’s the best thing that could have ever happened to you.” Allie says to Kelley, referring to what they were talking about before while smiling at an approaching Alex.

“There she is. I thought you hit your head for a second, Allie.” Kelley responds through gritted teeth, also still smiling at Alex.

“Here.” Alex says, stopping in front of them and handing them the bars.

“You’re the best.” Kelley and Allie say at the same time before frowning at each other.

“And you’re weird. What were you guys talking about?” Alex asks suspiciously.

“You.” Kelley cheeses at her. Alex chuckles in response as if Kelley was joking, which makes Kelley and Allie let out a sigh of relieve.

“Of course. Hopefully only good things.” she responds, linking arms with Kelley as they start walking down the hallway.

“Only the best.” Kelley mumbles with her mouth full, while Allie is devouring the bar silently.

“See you tomorrow guys.” Allie waves.

“Night, Al.” Alex waves back.

“Try sleeping for once.” Kelley smirks.

“Don’t push it, Wormy.”

“Love you, Allie.” Kelley says ironically, while winking at her and Allie disappears in her room with a dramatic eyeroll. When Kelley turns around, Alex eyes her warily. Kelley quickly starts walking down the hallway towards their room.

“Hey. Stop!” Alex calls after her.

“Kel.”

Alex catches up with her while Kelley unlocks the door and Alex puts her body between her and the door, stopping her from entering. It always amazed Alex how well she can read Kelley’s eyes. For Alex it is like reading a manual that contains every detail you need to know and if you look really closely it will tell you even more than just the necessities. However, the answer her favorite pair of eyes tell her in this moment also makes Alex realize that Kelley can read hers as well and if she didn’t already know before, now would be the time she would have found out.

“You gave her a piece of mind, didn’t you?” Alex asks softly.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Kelley says calmly, pushing past Alex to enter the room. Kelley walks towards her nightstand, starting to take off her jewelry, standing with her back to Alex.

“You were worried, so you tried to wreck her confidence in front of everyone and then you talked to her in the hallway.” Alex assumes correctly, walking up behind Kelley, who is taking off her watch. Alex hugs her from behind and presses her forehead between Kelley’s shoulder blades.

“Kelley.” Alex sighs out softly.

Kelley stops with the watch in hand, observing it, letting out a deep breath.

“It bothered you.” Kelley says quietly.

“You know, I’m a big girl. I’ll talk to her.” Alex whispers against Kelley’s back, pressing a kiss to it. Kelley turns around at that, looking at Alex.

“Why didn’t you tell her right away?”

“I didn’t want to cause a scene. It was a nice evening.” Alex smiles softly. Kelley only smiles back at her for a split second before she starts to frown.

“What is it?”

“It wasn’t her intention, she told me she didn’t know it bothered you.” Kelley says hastily. Alex heart melts at the cute look on her face. Kelley’s forehead is furrowed and her eyes express worry as she gauges Alex’s reaction. She clearly doesn’t want Alex to be upset about the situation as well as with Allie.

“Yeah Kel, I know.” Alex smiles, lifting her hand to stroke Kelley’s cheek, not able to resist the urge to do so.

“Maybe you should talk to her.” Kelley offers carefully.

“I will.”

“Eh, okay? That was easier than I thought.” Kelley breathes out confused. Alex leans in to kiss Kelley softly.

“As cute as you are when you worry about me, you still worry way too much.”

“I don’t want anyone to make you feel insecure.”

“And I love you for that, but poor Allie probably has a hard time sleeping tonight.”

“Pfff, that was self-inflicted.” Kelley rolls her eyes.

“Probably, but there is no need to go overboard, okay tiger?”

“Got it.”

“Good.” Alex smiles, pecking Kelley’s lips before walking into the bathroom to get ready for bed. After a few minutes Kelley joins her just as Alex starts brushing her teeth, standing at the sink. Kelley reaches for her toothbrush and the toothpaste as well, sitting down on the rim of the bathtub behind Alex. Their gazes meet through the huge bathroom mirror and Kelley winks at Alex cutely, making her smile before Alex redirects her attention to her teeth. For a few seconds the only sound that can be heard is the noise of the toothbrushes, however Kelley being Kelley has something else in mind. Kelley observes Alex’s face closely and when she sees that she is totally preoccupied with brushing her teeth she reaches for Alex’s butt to give it a pinch. Alex shrieks loudly, jumping in surprise and turning around quickly to look at Kelley wide-eyed.

“Mhhh!” Alex warns, slapping Kelley’s hand away, not being able to speak due to the toothbrush in her mouth. Kelley just raises her eyebrows innocently and chuckles when Alex throws her a deadpan look. Kelley resumes brushing her teeth as if nothing happened, grinning at Alex which earns her a headshake. They start pulling faces at each other through the mirror but stop when they laugh too much to continue, both proceeding to focus on the task at hand. A few seconds later Alex looks at Kelley through the bathroom mirror again, catching Kelley shamelessly checking her out.

“Oh my god! Stahp lookin at my butt, perv.” Alex gasps with the toothbrush still in her mouth. Kelley starts bursting into laughter, almost spitting a bit of the foaming toothpaste out. Alex turns around, trying to look at Kelley warningly, but having to laugh as well. Kelley pulls Alex closer by the back of her thighs, resting her hands just under Alex’s butt, looking up at her with a dopey smile.

“You look hot.”

“Straight to the point, babe.”

“No need to beat around the bush, I’m talkin phacts.”

“Kel, you need to chill.”

“What I need is sex.”

Alex pulls the toothbrush out of her mouth, chuckling, “You’re so romantic.”

“Pfuck camp, I feel like a teenager in my parents’ house again and-“ Kelley starts but is interrupted by Alex leaning down to give her a kiss on the cheek, spreading toothpaste all over her cheek. Alex starts giggling, struggling to keep the foam in her mouth, while Kelley just looks at her unbothered.  

“You know what’s quite alarming?”

Alex shakes her head, still giggling.

“That actually that wasn’t bad at all.” Kelley mumbles.

“Why?”

“Because basically I’m pretty confident that at least 50% of my body consist of your spit.”

“Sounds plausible.” Alex chuckles.

“No seriously, I think we’ve come to a point where you could spit in my food and I still wouldn’t mind it if the food was good in the first place.”

“Phat’s disgusting!” Alex grimaces.

“Of course, but is it though?” Kelley raises an eyebrow, causing Alex to think about it.

“I can’t believe that I’m saying this, but you’re right, I wouldn’t mind either.”

“That’s alarming, isn’t it? I think that’s quite alarming.”

“God, we are disgusting.”

“Totally, but I kiss you anyway, so why would that change anything? Plus, I feel like on a regular my tongue is between your legs far more often than it’s not.” Kelley reasons drily, causing Alex to choke on the toothpaste, rushing to the sink to spit it out.

“Kelley!” Alex exclaims when she has come down from a light coughing fit.

“What? It’s true.” Kelley chuckles.

“It’s not!”

Kelley gives Alex an unconvinced look, “It kinda is.”

“Shut up and brush your teeth.” Alex says, looking as if she has been caught. She turns around on her heel, meaning to leave the bathroom.

“Hey babe?”

“Mhm?”

“Please don’t spit in my food anyway.” Kelley laughs, making Alex shake her head with a smile. Alex sits down on the bed, leaning against the headboard. She checks her phone and starts retweeting some things on Twitter. After a few minutes Kelley enters the room. First Alex is too engrossed in her phone, but she quickly starts to wonder why Kelley’s silhouette isn’t moving anymore and when she looks up Kelley is standing at the edge of the bed. She is looking at Alex with a sly grin.

“Am I allowed in bed tonight or do I have to test the couches in the lobby?”

“You’re always allowed if it involves a bed.” Alex smirks, winking at Kelley.

“Oh boy, I’m so lucky.” Kelley grins, letting herself fall into the bed and laying down on her back. She looks up at the ceiling and exhales deeply. Alex, who has been watching her the whole time, climbs on top of her. She straddles Kelley’s hips and holds herself up with her hands placed on either side of Kelley’s head. She leans down to connect their lips for a long and loving kiss which takes Kelley by surprise. During the long-lasting kiss Kelley’s hands move to Alex’s face, holding it gently. When Alex pulls away and sits up slightly, Kelley just lays there with her eyes still closed, Alex’s face still in her hands.

“What was that for?” Kelley whispers with a soft smile on her face.

“It was cute how you didn’t want me to hit the ground when you tackled me earlier.”

Kelley opens her eyes only to be met with Alex’s strikingly beautiful eyes.

“You didn’t think I was going to let you hit the ground, did you?”

“You would let anybody hit the ground.”

“Yeah, but not you.” Kelley cheeses.

“I have marks to proof you wrong.”

“Hey, that was before you became my girlfriend though.”

“Sorry, I didn’t know the trick was to date that crazy brunette rowdy who tackles you every chance she gets.” Alex says sarcastically.

“Beginner’s mistake.” Kelley says with a lopsided smirk.

“Ugh, stop with that smirk.” Alex groans, hitting Kelley in the chest lightly.

“I’m not doing anything.” Kelley chuckles, still wearing the smirk.

“Stop it.”

“Why?”

“Because I can’t bear it.”

Kelley grabs Alex’s chin, pulling her down for a swift kiss.

“At least we’re even then, because I can’t bear you in these shorts either.” Kelley murmurs against Alex’s lips. Alex pulls away an inch so their gazes can meet.

“Sooo…power struggle, huh?” Alex asks, staring deep into Kelley’s eyes with a familiar fire.

“Apparently.” Kelley answers. Her voice sounds relaxed and cool, but her eyes are far from it as they switch between Alex’s eyes and her lips.

“There is one thing they don’t know though.”

“And what is that?”

The tension between them could be cut with a knife and their stare-off resembles the one they had on the patio earlier, however this time the mood has switched.

“There is one occasion where I frequently let you do whatever you want to me.” Alex whispers sultrily.

Kelley holds Alex’s gaze, staying still like a tiger who is waiting for their prey to move just the slightest bit. However, the patience is over when Alex bites her lip.

Like every morning at camp Alex sets down her plate and her smoothie on their designated breakfast table opposite of Allie who is already eating.

“Good morning.” Alex says enthusiastically, wearing a bright smile.

“…Good morning.” Allie answers confused, almost sounding like she is asking.

“You’re late today.” Allie observes slowly. Normally Allie is always the one to arrive after the couple.

“Morning Worms.” Kelley smiles when she also arrives at the table, sitting down next to Allie. Allie turns to look at Kelley, eyeing her up and down, frowning at her when she just smiles at her and takes a sip of her coffee.

“Didn’t hear the alarm.” Alex waves off, taking a bite of her croissant.

“Ah.” Allie says, looking at her plate, picking up a piece of melon. Suddenly, she lifts her head to look at Alex again, laying the piece of melon back down on the plate. Allie eyes Alex closely, who is still wearing a bright smile.

“Babe, could you pass me the salt?” Kelley asks and Alex hands it to her happily. Allie observes the interaction quietly.

“Why are you glowing like that? You look like you got laid.” Allie jokes, looking at Alex while laughing loudly and picking up the piece of melon to put it in her mouth. However, suddenly her laughter quiets down and realization dawns on her.

“Oh my god!” Allie chokes and Kelley starts patting her back while Alex blushes.

“Of course, you totally got banged.” Allie gasps at Alex when she is able to talk again.

“Would you shout your big ass mouth!” Alex says through gritted teeth. Allie turns to look at Kelley again.

“I did get you laid? In camp??? Wow, dude you really have to thank me.”

“God Al, would you stop?!” Alex buries her face in her hands.

“Sorry.” Allie chuckles.

“See, that’s why we don’t do this.” Alex mumbles to Kelley, still hiding behind her hands.

“Chill, nobody heard, at least not from me. However, I’m not rooming next to you.” Allie grins.

“I forgot a fork.” Alex says, quickly standing up and walking over to the buffet.

Kelley and Allie’s gazes meet. Kelley grins at her brightly, pumping her fist, making Allie wiggle her eyebrows.

“Thank you SO much!!” Kelley mouths exaggeratedly, while closing her eyes in pleasure, doing praying hands and throwing her head back.

“I’m glad I could help.” Allie giggles. Kelley holds out her hand for Allie to shake.

“Was it the power struggle comment or the fight?”

“Power struggle. Do you think this was a one-time thing or would you be able to this deliberately? I’ll pay you.” Kelley whispers.

“You know me Wormy, if I knew I was able to do that I would have already made a business out of it.”

“You got lucky Allie, yesterday I wanted to rip your head off, however now I think you’ve redeemed yourself.”

“I think you’re the one who got lucky.” Allie deadpans. Allie and Kelley look at each other for a split second, before they both burst into laughter.

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Love on the brain (Part 15)

Hey guys, I'm sorry that this took so long. Enjoy the chapter! :)

The chapter is also up on Ao3: 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/44210656

Their time in New York ends faster than they thought, mostly because the days are packed with preparations and people to meet before leaving for January Camp. They try to cherish every moment with just the two of them, however it seems as if there is never enough time. Now that they are on their way to the hotel in which the team meets up in LA, they know things are getting pretty serious. They share a knowing look when the driver pulls up the driveway. It’s time to focus on just one goal, which is winning the World Cup. Kelley takes Alex’s hand in her own, squeezing it tightly.

“Let’s do this.” Alex says, looking in her eyes deeply to which Kelley responds with a determined nod before getting out of the car. When they enter the lobby, they are greeted by some of the staff members and coaching staff, who happily congratulate them on their engagement and catch up with them for a bit. Just as they are handed their room keys and the schedule for the next week, a loud whistling is heard throughout the lobby.

“Well, well, if that isn’t WoSo’s hottest power couple.” Megan hollers with a huge grin as she walks towards them with her arms stretched out.

“I prefer soccer’s hottest power couple.” Kelley grins, walking into Megan’s arms, who hugs her tightly.

“Congrats man, what a move O’Hara. Good job.” Megan whispers in her ear happily and proudly while patting her back.

“Thanks, Pinoe. It means a lot.” Kelley smiles brightly, pulling back and holding onto her shoulders, looking at her just as proudly.

“Giiiirl, show me the ring though!” Megan whoops, walking towards Alex, pulling her in a tight hug as well.

“I missed you, Pinoe.” Alex laughs, rocking from side to side while hugging her. Little by little, the whole team arrives at the hotel and everyone is super happy for Alex and Kelley. Some cheer, some yell, some cry and some make lame jokes, but to be honest, that’s still a typical start to January Camp. After all the emotions, Alex and Kelley are happy when the first day of camp comes to an end after a welcome speech by Jill and collective dinner. The next morning starts pretty busy. After breakfast, the first training and gym sessions start, followed by some press obligations and lunch. After lunch, they have a meeting, another training session and recovery before heading to dinner. When they finish dinner, Jill wants to exchange some words with Kelley and check up on how she has been doing after her injury, so Alex already makes her way to their room. She goes to the bathroom, removes her make-up and brushes her teeth before she lays down on the bed and grabs her book. A few minutes later the door opens and Kelley walks in, making her way to the bed and crawling on top of Alex. She lays her head on her stomach exhaustedly, the rest of her body somewhat lays between Alex’s legs while her own legs dangle off the bed. Alex reaches for Kelley’s head, putting her hand through her hair, stroking it and slowly disregarding her book, laying it on her nightstand. Kelley runs her hands up and down Alex’s sides, pushing her top up in the process and exposing her tanned skin. She softly starts trailing kisses from Alex’s hipbone up to her ribcage.

“How are you?” Alex asks softly, still stroking her hair lovingly. Kelley stops, letting out a stream of hot air against the skin just underneath Alex’s ribcage. She then nuzzles her head against Alex’s stomach, groans and lays her head down with her ear pressed to Alex’s stomach. She sneaks her arms between the mattress and Alex’s back, hugging her tightly around the waist, which causes Alex’s back to arch slightly so Kelley’s arms fit underneath her.

“Aww, somebody is tired.” Alex says softly, smiling down at Kelley, watching her closely, who just lays there with her eyes closed.

“I barely saw you today.” Kelley pouts, nuzzling her nose against Alex and pressing another kiss to her skin.

“You are so cute when you’re sleepy.” she says, moving one of her hands to Kelley’s neck and slowly running it down her spine as far as she can reach, lightly massaging her back muscles under her shirt. Kelley let’s out a moan of relief as she feels the soreness in her back being eased.

“God, please never stop.” Kelley mumbles, now pressing her forehead against Alex’s stomach.

“I’ll have to stop eventually, or you’ll fall asleep with half of your body on the floor.”

“That’s fine, as long as you keep doing that.”

“Come here.”

Kelley slowly let’s go of Alex’s waist to crawl up her body until they are face to face. Kelley’s eyes lock with Alex’s while she is hovering over her.

“Hey.”

“Hey.”

Kelley’s eyes start wandering, studying Alex’s face closely.

“You look pretty.” Kelley finally says after a few seconds, her mouth curved into a cute smile. Alex reaches up and puts a strand of hair behind Kelley’s ear.

“As do you.”

Kelley’s soft smile, turns into a bright beaming smile, which causes Alex to smile even brighter as well. She grabs the collar of Kelley’s shirt and pulls her down for a kiss. Kelley carefully lowers the lower part of her body on top of Alex again while holding herself up with her hands on either side of Alex’s head. She turns her head slightly, deepening the kiss and Alex’s hands move to her face, holding on to it. Their tongues clash lovingly and Kelley starts sucking on Alex’s bottom lip, biting it lightly, which causes Alex to let out a little moan. Kelley smirks slightly and then breaks the kiss, moving to a spot on Alex’s neck, which is extremely sensitive. Alex starts giggling and twitching immediately.

“Not that spot, that tickles.” she giggles loudly. Kelley gives her a lopsided grin and starts kissing and teasing the spot again just to hear Alex laugh like that.

“Kel, stop! That’s unfair, you know that spot is sensitive!” Alex full on laughs, squirming, trying to push Kelley away by her chest.

“Kel-ley!” she giggles, trying to breath. Alex grabs Kelley’s head and pushes her onto her back with all her strength. Alex straddles Kelley’s hips and pins her arms to the mattress. Kelley grins, looking at Alex’s ribcage rising and falling quickly as she’s trying to catch her breathe.

“You little cheat, that was naughty.” Alex pants.

“That’s how you like it.” Kelley smirks, thrusting her hips into Alex, which makes Alex’s jaw drop.

“Ooookay tiger, stop it before I rip your shirt off.”

“In that case, why would I?”

“Because we have rules.” Alex says, looking at Kelley warningly, leaning down to peck her lips before lying down next to her.

“I hate camp rules.” Kelley whines, rolling over and putting her head in Alex’s cleavage. She cups Alex’s boobs, “I know you guys hate camp rules too, we’re going to break them eventually.”

Alex looks down at Kelley and gives her an are you serious look.

“Are you really talking to my boobs right now?”

“That’s for them and me to know!” Kelley defends, kissing her cleavage.

“I mostly can’t believe it, but I’m so in love with you.” Alex mumbles under her breath, shaking her head.

“Huh? What did you say?” Kelley asks, lifting her head.

“I said I’m donating you to the zoo.”

“Hey! That’s rude.” Kelley exclaims with a frown. Alex leans down to kiss her head and the frown is replaced by a smile again. Kelley looks at Alex intently, leaning up to peck her chin.

“How was your day?”

Alex smiles at her, “Really good, I missed you though.”

Kelley reaches for Alex’s hand and intertwines them while Alex goes back to stroking Kelley’s head with her other hand.

“How is your ankle holding up?” Alex asks and Kelley starts playing with her hand, watching their interlocked hands for a while, not answering the question.

“Kel.” Alex lets out with a worried voice.

“This whole thing is taking a toll on me. Honestly? I feel exhausted.” Kelley mumbles defeatedly.

When it’s Alex’s turn not to answer, Kelley looks up at her quickly. When she sees that Alex looks at her concerned Kelley tries to back paddle.

“Exhausted in a sense of tired.”

“Are you sure?”

“Have I ever been wrong about something like this?”

Kelley looks at Alex confidently, who gives her a deadpan look in return.

“Actually, yeah, quite a lot.”

“Okaaay, I may have been wrong once or twice, but-” Kelley rambles.

“More like countless times.” Alex interrupts.

“Buuut I’m feeling a lot better since being with you.” Kelley cheeses with a huge grin. When Alex looks into Kelley’s eyes, she sees a mix of pleading to just let it go and Kelley really meaning that she is making her feel better, which is why Alex decides to roll her eyes and let it go. She smiles at Kelley, who visibly relaxes at the change of mood.    

“You better tell the physicians about that then.”

“So they prescribe me to lie in bed with you?”

“Whatever helps.” Alex grins.

“I mean, you mentioned the rules.” Kelley wiggles her eyebrows. She starts kissing along Alex’s collarbone and now both of Alex’s hands tangle in Kelley’s hair. Kelley slowly makes her way to Alex’s pulse point, lightly and almost teasingly sucking the skin. Alex’s breathing speeds up immediately, her nails lightly scratching Kelley’s scalp. She looks up at the ceiling scrunching up her face, desperately trying to convince herself that she should make Kelley stop, but it feels too good. She closes her eyes and while Kelley kisses her neck, one of Alex’s hands moves to her back, digging her nails in to silently tell her to keep going. Kelley smirks against her skin and leaves open mouthed kisses on her jaw, which makes Alex throw her head back to give her better access. Kelley’s hand moves down to disappear in Alex’s shorts, applying pressure to her center through her panties. Alex’s jaw falls open slightly and a soft breathless moan escapes her, “Kel.”

Kelley’s hand moves to the hem of Alex’s underwear, disappearing under one more layer of clothing while she kisses Alex’s throat. Alex pulls Kelley up for a sloppy kiss and when Kelley’s fingers finally touch Alex’s center, Kelley’s lips are on her neck again. Alex’s jaw goes slack, when suddenly her eyes dart open and she freezes at a muffled voice that doesn’t belong to Kelley.

“Kel, stop.” Alex panics and Kelley pulls away immediately, sitting up fully. She looks at a flustered Alex worriedly.

“I’m sorry. Did I do something wrong?” she asks caringly and respectfully. Alex can spot a bit of panic in her eyes when she looks up at her and her heart skips a beat. She is meaning to answer, but before Alex can say anything the voice is talking again, this time louder.

“I swear Kellex, don’t you dare have sex while I’m next door! I’m not sure if that was a moan I heard, but if so you better stop right fucking now.” Crystal’s voice announces from the door and Kelley looks at Alex wide eyed before putting her finger to her lips, gesturing for Alex to stay quiet.

“What are you doing?” Alex whisper yells when Kelley stands up and walks to the door. She hears Kelley opening the door, which she can’t see from the bed.

“Sorry Crys, Alex is already asleep and the air conditioner made too much noise, so I kind of tried to jump to hit the off button. This damn thing hangs too high to reach, but I didn’t want to wake Alex up again.” Kelley whispers, pretending to be out of breath from jumping.

“Oh my god, girl I feel you. I had the same problem last night. These things seem to be mounted extra high whenever it’s most inconvenient.” Crystal whispers back.

“So annoying.” Kelley scoffs.

“And here I am thinking you two are getting it on. Sorry for that.” Crystal laughs.

“That’s alright. I’d be thinking the same.” Kelley chuckles.

“Okay, I hope I didn’t wake up Alex.”

“Nah, I think if she slept through my groaning a knock on the door won’t wake her.”

“Let’s hope so. Good night, Kel.”

“Night Crys.” Kelley says and she closes the door. When she walks around the corner Alex looks at her in shock, her jaw agape for other reasons than just a minute ago.

“What?”

“Are you a Russian spy or something like that?”

Kelley lays down next to Alex again, propping her head up on her elbow.

“If I tell you, I might have to kill you.” Kelley smirks.

“That was insane! She totally bought it. How did you come up with that story this quickly?” Alex gasps.

“I overheard her complaining about not being able to reach the air conditioner at lunch.” Kelley shrugs.

“You’re too smart.” Alex whispers dumbfounded, shaking her head.

“You’re too loud.” Kelley chuckles, earning a hit in the chest by Alex.

“Shut up.” Alex says, hiding her face by pressing it to Kelley’s chest. Kelley smiles down at her, kissing the crown of her head.

“It’s okay, I feel like screaming when I look at you too.” Kelley teases.

“Stop it.” Alex blushes. Kelley leans down again, kissing Alex’s cheek repeatedly.

“You’re cute when you blush.”

Alex grabs Kelley’s chin and holds her still. She looks up at her, due to Kelley still leaning slightly over her while laying propped up on her elbow.

“You’re cute when you worry about my consent.” Alex smiles softly, referring to Kelley asking if she did something wrong. Alex leans up to press a kiss to her lips.

“I just want you to feel save.” Kelley says matter of factly.

“I do. Always.” Alex smiles, pulling her down for a few more kisses.    

“As much as I hate it, it seems as if you were right though…about that camp rule.”

“I can’t believe I hear Kelley O’Hara say I’m right about camp rule.” Alex fake gasps.

“I don’t mean in general, I mean in this particular hotel. Maybe the next one will have soundproof walls.” Kelley remarks.

“That’s more like you.”

“I’ll talk to the coaching staff about it.”

“As long as you behave for now, you can do whatever you want. No funny business!” Alex warns.

“I’ll do my best.” Kelley says, holding up her hands in innocence.

“Good.” Alex smiles, pecking her lips.

“I wouldn’t mind some of that back massaging though.”

“Of course you wouldn’t. Come here.” Alex chuckles. Kelley lays down on top of Alex again, her head resting against her neck as Alex reaches for Kelley’s back. After a few minutes, Alex’s train of thought goes back to Kelley’s health once more even though she wanted to let it go.

“But Kel?” she asks quietly, stroking underneath her shirt comfortingly.

“Mhhm?” Kelley purrs, her eyes closed.

“You need to tell them if you are in pain or have problems.” Alex says, not quite able to drop the topic without a plea yet.

“Yeah.” Kelley mumbles against her neck, lightly pressing a kiss to it.

“Okay.” Alex says softly.

Just minutes after Alex started again, Kelley falls asleep on top of her and Alex reaches for the bedside lamp to turn off the lights.

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The next day the coaching staff introduces a mini tournament. They split the team up into groups of 7 and the teams are divided into defenders and attackers. As a little incentive the coaching staff promises that the winning team is going to get a surprise. Originally, the tournament was intended as a fun idea to lighten up the training session, however as it progresses it is getting more and more intense with every game and every group wants to win the prize. As chance would have it, Kelley’s and Alex’s teams make it to the final. Therefore, Alex, Alyssa, Tobin, Mal, Rose, Christen and Megan are up against Kelley, Becky, JJ, Crystal, Tierna, Abby and Ashlyn. The game is almost over and Alex’s team needs at least a tie to win the tournament, however Kelley’s team is up 1:0, because of a brilliant cross by Kelley that lead to a ridiculous header by JJ. The last minute is running and Alex’s team finds itself with their last chance of a counter attack. Christen plays a perfect pass over the last line of defense and which falls directly into Alex’s run. Alex sprints towards the ball, outpacing all the defenders, realizing that no one is going to be able to catch up with her now. She runs towards goal, knowing that if she shoots at the right point, a goal will be unpreventable. She focuses on the top right corner, because from the angle Ashlyn won’t be able to make a save. She takes her last step and starts to swing her leg towards the ball, when suddenly she sees a shadow and someone slide tackles the ball away from her feet, causing her to fall towards the ground. In this moment, Alex knows once she is going to hit the ground, the fall is going to hurt badly. However, the person holds out their hands, catching her at her hips and cushioning her fall with their body so that Alex doesn’t even touch the ground. They slide across the field until the endline and everything happens so fast that Alex only recognizes that she lays on top of Kelley when they stop sliding.

Alex looks at her dumbfounded, her jaw agape, “You didn’t!”  

“Oh, I did.” Kelley winks and pushes Alex off of her, standing up and brushing off the dirt that is covering her entire back. Jill blows the whistle and Kelley’s team celebrates their win like a real tournament win. Alex looks at JJ and Ashlyn lifting Kelley up while still sitting on the ground next to the slide marks that almost look like someone plowed up the field. Her team walks towards her with looks of compassion and all pat Alex on the back encouragingly.

“How the fuck did she catch up to me? I outran them all.” Alex asks baffled.

“Dude, her pace was insane, no chance.” Tobin shrugs and Alex groans loudly, banging her fist on the ground. Pinoe high fives Kelley, pulling her to her chest.

“If there would be couches in your hotel room, you would be sleeping on one.” Pinoe laughs loudly.

“Shut up.” Kelley chuckles.

“Oh, wait maybe it’s the lobby for you then.” Pinoe goes on, causing Tobin to laugh loudly.

“At least those couches are comfortable man.” Tobin joins in.

“You must have some experiences with that Tobin.” Kelley smirks, causing Tobin to shut up.

“Uhh, savage.” Ashlyn laughs, while Tobin pushes Kelley’s shoulder lightly. Kelley walks towards Alex, who is taking off her shin guards on the ground. She bends down and hugs Alex from behind, pulling her up in one swift motion by hooking her arms under Alex’s. She then leans to whisper in her ear.

“Come on pretty girl, stop sulking. I’ll let you score next time.” she says, pressing a kiss to her ear and slapping her butt, before quickly ducking from the shin guard that is aimed at her. The first one is a miss, but the second one hits Kelley right in the back while she’s running towards the locker room. Kelley lets out a mix of a laugh and a pained groan. She then picks up Alex’s shin guards and stuffs them inside her waistband.  

“Watch it O’Hara!” Alex yells after her and Kelley blows her a kiss from the other side of the field, before disappearing in the tunnel.

“I sometimes hate her.” Alex rolls her eyes walking towards Allie, who waited up for her.

“That doesn’t stop you from sleeping with her.” Allie says, handing Alex a water bottle.

“We all have our habits.”

Allie snorts and they both make their way to the locker room as well. Kelley is standing at her locker, pulling her shirt over her head, when Alex approaches her, hugging her from the side. Kelley smiles at Alex immediately, looking at her expectantly.

“Do that again and you are sleeping in the lobby indeed.” she whispers, pulling back and smiling brightly, as if she just told her the most awesome news. She then leans in to kiss Kelley’s ear just like Kelley did kiss hers. When she pulls back, she winks at a puzzled Kelley, slaps her butt and walks towards her locker happily. Kelley looks after her speechlessly and before she can do anything she is interrupted by Dawn.

“Alright guys, hurry up! Recovery at the pool in 10.” she yells from outside the locker room, causing everyone to speed up.

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“Oh my god, that’s so cold!” Mal exclaims.

“What is this?! Did you put the iceberg the titanic crashed into in here? I’d rather die than going in there right now.” Kelley groans, making the group laugh.

“Do we really have to Dawn?” Sam whines.

“Absolutely. I’m back in 15 minutes and I want everyone in there by then.”

“Oh, come on.” Kelley turns around, looking at Dawn in disbelieve, who walks away with a smile.

“Okay guys, who is going in first? Because I am not.” Crystal says, after touching the water. Everybody looks at each other cluelessly, not wanting to be the first. Lindsey and Sonnett start joking around pretending to jump in to see if Rose and Sam will jump for real, but everyone is smart enough to refrain from doing it. While all the attention is drawn to the younger players antics, Alex stands in front of Kelley and playfully pushes her in the chest, smirking at her, causing Kelley to almost fall into the water. Kelley quickly grabs Alex’s waist and brings her in close. She stands at the edge of the pool with her back to it, holding onto Alex tightly so that if she pushes her, Alex will fall into the pool too.

“Try that again.” Kelley smirks cockily. Alex gets in her face, wearing a sexy smile, mustering her up and down, causing Kelley to look at her confused. Alex puts one of her hands in-between them, resting it on Kelley’s chest, letting it glide down her body excruciatingly slow. Her hand is wet and cold from feeling the temperature of the water, causing some drops of water to make their path down Kelley’s body, predicting the destination of Alex’s hand as they pool at the seam of her bikini bottoms. Alex’s other hand is playing with the hair at the nape of her neck and Kelley is looking down between them nervously.

“Alex, what are you doing?” Kelley asks quietly through gritted teeth, turning her head to check if anybody is watching. Alex leans forward to whisper in Kelley’s ear, but instead breathes hot air against her ear, making Kelley blush furiously. Alex smirks, knowing what effect she has on Kelley. Alex pulls away, biting her lip seductively and looking into Kelley’s eyes deeply. Kelley gulps heavily when Alex looks at her with her typical fuck me look. She asks herself what has gotten into Alex, doing all of this in front of their teammates and risking to be seen. However, that thought is forgotten when Alex moves her lips to Kelley’s ear again, making her take in a deep breath. Just when Kelley expects her to say something, Alex let’s out a low sexy moan that makes Kelley freeze and sends shivers down her spine. Alex pulls away, getting out of Kelley’s grip easily and looking at her as if nothing happened.

“Fuck my life.” Kelley whispers, looking at Alex pained, feeling extremely turned on. She then pushes herself off the edge and jumps into the pool with a backflip.

“HOOOLY SHIT!” she yells when she comes up again and everybody looks at her wide eyed, except for Alex, who is trying to hide her laughter. Kelley then pushes herself out of the pool and charges towards Alex, who takes off squealing.

“Duck for cover!!” Allie yells, pushing her way through the group, trying to hide. Everybody starts laughing and they all run away, not wanting to get dragged into the pool as well. After a few steps, Kelley catches Alex and grabs her waist, picking her up easily.

“Kelley, stop!! I’m serious, stop!” Alex screeches.

Kelley turns around and carries Alex to the pool, who laughs loudly and tries to escape from Kelley’s grip yet again. However, Kelley jumps straight into the water, making Alex scream loudly. When they hit the water, it splashes on most of their teammates, which causes a huge battle. Now, everybody starts to push each other into the water as well. Alex comes up gasping for air.

“OH MY GOD!!” she exclaims, pushing her hair out of her face and reaching for Kelley, clinging onto her shoulders to push her upper body out of the ice-cold water. She hooks her legs around Kelley’s ribcage and steadies herself by holding onto the back of Kelley’s head so that only her legs touch a little bit of the water. Kelley hooks one arm under her butt and one around her spine to stabilize her. She then cranes her neck to look up at Alex with a huge grin.

“You dirty motherfucker.” Alex says, looking down at Kelley. Kelley’s jaw drops and she looks at Alex in disbelief, laughing loudly.

“I can’t believe you just said that.”

“What are you going to do about it?” Alex smirks provocatively.

“Actually, nothing.” Kelley responds with a lopsided grin.

“No clever comeback and you’re letting me use you as a life belt while you are in that water? Babe, did you hit your head?” Alex smiles at her, pushing Kelley’s hair back.

“No, but I got no reason to complain.”

“Actually, you got plenty.”

“Nope.” Kelley says, popping the p.

“Why is that?”

“Cause my face is between your boobs.” Kelley cheeses.

“Why do I even like you perv?” Alex rolls her eyes.

“You love me-” Kelley grins.

“-And I love those.” she jokes, mustering Alex’s cleavage.

“Gosh, keep it in your pants, O’Hara!” Megan calls.

“Shut up, Pinoe.” Alex defends, flipping her off. Kelley gives Alex a look to which Alex replies with a nod. Kelley then dives under water and comes up again with Alex sitting on her shoulders.

“Come at us, Pinoe!” Kelley challenges, holding up her fists, throwing some air punches.

“I got you, Pinoe.” Allie says, diving under water as well to pick Megan up.

“Are you sure this is gonna work babe?” Alex asks, looking down at Kelley unsurely.

“Of course, why wouldn’t it?”

“Because you’re like 2 inches smaller than me.”

“But I’m also reeeeally strong.” Kelley grins, wiggling her eyebrows. Alex rolls her eyes and slaps her forehead, while shaking her head.

“I think I changed my mind. Will somebody please help me fight against this showoff?” she asks Megan and Allie, pointing down at Kelley.

“Too late Al, you made your decisions years ago.” Allie says empathically, which causes Megan to laugh loudly.

“I’m right here.” Kelley exclaims irritated.

“Hush, I’m talking to Allie.”

“I think you forgot that I could throw you in that water in one motion.”

“Don’t you dare, it’s cold!” Alex whines.

“Sounds like a personal problem.”

“You’re bickering like an old married couple and you aren’t even married, where is this going to end?” Megan shakes her head.

“Stop interrupting them Pinoe, I’m enjoying this way too much.” Allie says excitedly.

“Okay that’s enough.” Kelley says as she holds onto Alex’s thighs tightly and charges towards them. Megan and Alex immediately start trying to push each other into the water. First it seems as if Megan and Allie indeed have an advantage due to Kelley not only being shorter than Alex, but also being even shorter than Allie. However, that advantage doesn’t work out like they thought it would. Even Alex is kind of surprised at how well Kelley is managing to simultaneously hold their balance and wrestle Allie. When Allie looks at Kelley, she is wearing a huge smirk and Allie furrows her eyebrows.

“What are you smirking at Worms?” Allie complains, visibly struggling when Kelley takes another step closer to give Alex the opportunity to push Megan. Kelley looks up at the determined look on Alex’s face and looks right at Allie.

“This.” she says, just before she and Alex both shove them at the same time. Megan and Allie fall backwards, which causes the water to splash and them to scream. When they come up from the water, they are met with loud laughter by their teammates and winning poses by Alex and Kelley.

“They’re never going to let us live that down.” Allie says to Megan.

“Come on guys, what were you thinking?” Julie chuckles.

“Seriously, have you forgotten who was sitting on my shoulders? As if Alex Morgan was going to let you win at any kind of game. Allie, you should have known better. You know Alex is crazy competitive.” Kelley snorts.

“So are you!” Alex protest.

“Personally, I wouldn’t mess with Kelley.” Becky laughs.

“Okay I have to say, that was kind of stupid Pinoe.” Allie admits.

“I think she could easily take out a grown man.” Becky jokes, while Megan scoffs and the team laughs.

“Yeah no shit and I still help Pinoe even though I witnessed that.” Allie chuckles, slapping her hand to her forehead.

“What do you mean you witnessed that?!” Megan exclaims, as all eyes fly to Kelley. Kelley looks at Allie wide eyed, who slapped her hand over her mouth immediately and looks at her wide eyed as well. Kelley’s head quickly cranes so she can look up at Alex, who still sits on her shoulders.

“Let’s see how you get out of this one, killer.” Alex chuckles and leans down to press a kiss to Kelley’s cheek.

“Alex, get in the water!” Dawn yells as she makes her way to the edge of the pool.

“But it’s too cold.” Alex pouts. Dawn laughs and gives Kelley a look.

“Wait, what was that look? Kelley, I swear-“ but she is interrupted by Kelley letting herself fall backwards, immerging them both in the water.

“Traitor.” Alex pouts at Kelley as she comes up again.

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Love on the brain (Part 1)

Sorry if there are any mistakes. Let me know, if you want to read more, it’s only Part 1 :) 

“Babe, I’m leaving for the gym!” Kelley shouts up the stairs of their shared apartment, where they spend the holidays together in off-season. Just as Kelley moves to grab her key she hears Alex rushing down the stairs.

“Wait, don’t you dare leave without kissing me goodbye!” Alex pouts approaching her and tugging at Kelley’s jacket to pull her closer. They smile into the kiss, which is loving and gentle.

“How could I?” Kelley says with a smile on her face and her eyes closed taking in the moment and moving in for another kiss, deepening it. After a few seconds Alex pulls away.

“If we keep doing this, I’m not gonna let you leave.”

“Maybe that was your intention.” Kelley smirks, going in for another kiss, but she is pushed away gently, by Alex’s hand on her chest.

“Kel, no.” Alex laughs at a now pouting Kelley.

“Catch you later for dinner?” Alex asks as she pulls Kelley in one more time for a quick peck.

“Italian?” Kelley asks, smiling again.

“You know me so well. Bye baby!” Alex states as she playfully pushes Kelley away from her.

“Later!” Kelley says as she turns around leaving the apartment. Walking to the elevator, she has a huge smile on her face, while shaking her head.

After her usual workout for the off-season, Kelley leaves the gym to grab dinner at her and Alex’s favorite Italian restaurant, which they went to on their first date. Well, actually Alex doesn’t like the restaurant that much anymore since they hired a waitress, who is constantly hitting on Kelley. However, Alex also knows it’s the best Italian restaurant in town, so she has to make some sacrifices. As usually, the waitress immediately hits on Kelley, as soon as she sees her waiting for her take home food. The thing is, while Alex knew exactly what the waitress was doing the moment she first saw Kelley, Kelley at first didn’t notice at all and insisted that she was just a nice person. But after a few more visits at the restaurant, Kelley finally caught on to the waitress’s intentions and since then gets a kick out of provoking Alex. For Alex it doesn’t even help that Kelley actually doesn’t really answer the waitress and has no interest in her at all, since she only got eyes for Alex.

So it is clear that when Kelley enters their apartment again Alex first question is: “Was the annoying waitress there again?”

“Uhh yes, she was and we had sex in the restaurant’s kitchen.” Kelley says nonchalantly while putting down the containers of pasta onto the kitchen counter to serve the pasta on nicer plates.

Alex rolls her eyes in annoyance and walks over to pinch Kelley’s arm.

“Ow! Help! I got shot!” Kelley shouts pretending she got hit by a bullet and throwing head back in laughter.

“It’s going to hurt even more, when I’m going to ban you to the couch for a month!” Alex says annoyed by Kelley’s antics.  

“Stop being jealous baby, we only did it once” Kelley says grinning at Alex.

At that point Alex has had enough, as she leaps to slap Kelley. However, Kelley takes off hiding behind the other side of the counter, anticipating Alex’s attack, still laughing.

Now they stand at each end of the square counter, waiting for the other to make the next move. Kelley playfully raises her eyebrows at Alex, wearing a big smirk on her face. Alex makes the first move and fakes to run to the left, but turns right, while Kelley runs away quickly, heading to hide behind the couch in the living room. However, before she can get behind it Alex catches her and they both fall onto the couch. Alex lands on top of Kelley, while they are both laughing now. As the laughing quiets down, Kelley moves to tuck a strand of hair behind Alex’s ear, looking at her lovingly. They stare deep into each other’s eyes, while Alex’s hands rest on the couch holding herself up on either side of Kelley’s head and Kelley’s hands move to the small of her back to pull her even closer.

“You drive me crazy, you know that?” Alex says breathlessly.

“Just kiss me already.” Kelley says leaning up just a bit to connect their lips. They both immediately open their mouths and their tongues start fighting for dominance, which Kelley ultimately wins. Pulling away, Alex teasingly brushes her lips against Kelley’s without actually kissing her. As Kelley goes in for more, Alex moves her hand to the center of Kelley’s chest to push her down and sits up so she is straddling her. Kelley looks at her with adoration in her eyes, still you can see just a slight bit of her mischievous grin. They are both breathing heavily and Alex is biting her lip, looking down at her.

“Come on, dinner is getting cold.” Alex says as she stands up, leaving Kelley lying on her back.

“Hey! Al, come on, don’t leave me like that! Just one more kiss!” she calls after her, but Alex doesn’t turn around.

“God you’re killing me.” Kelley groans as she lies still for another 3 seconds staring at the ceiling. Eventually, she hesitantly follows Alex into the kitchen again, where Alex picks up the plates and sits down at the kitchen table, while Kelley grabs two wine glasses and a bottle of red wine that suits the pasta. When they start eating. Alex can’t resist to ask Kelley about the waitress one more time.

“Was she really hitting on you again?” she asks nonchalantly, looking at the pasta on her plate.

“Babe, you don’t need to be jealous. All I want is you. You know that.” Kelley insists reaching for Alex’s hand and giving it a tight squeeze.

“Jealous? What? Me? Pfft, I’m not jealous!!” Alex says defensively.

Kelley looks at her with a disbelieving look, dropping her fork to gain Alex’s attention.

“You totally are.”

“Am not!”

“Are too.”

“AM NOT!”

Kelley has a deadpan expression on her face.

“Okay, maaaaaybe I am a little tiny bit. But it’s actually not fair! You can’t go there looking all sexy after you’ve been to the gym!” Alex exclaims.

“Al, are you really banning me from going there after I’ve been to the gym?” Kelley says amused.

“Do I look like I’m joking?”

They both look at each other seriously for a moment, until they can’t restrain from laughing. They then proceed eating their dinner and talking about their plans for the next few days. They have been together for over 3 years now. Even though there always was a spark or something standing between them since their youth in the US National Team, they only realized what they were feeling during the World Cup in 2015. They were rooming together for the whole tournament and the final step it took was the After Party. Alex had been touchy all night and when they were dancing Kelley really had to concentrate, so that she wouldn’t grab Alex and make out with her right on the dancefloor. On their way back to their shared hotel room a slightly drunk Alex dared to kiss an also slightly drunk Kelley just outside their hotel room door. To the both of them it felt like fireworks exploding or the moment of hoisting up the World Cup all over again. From that moment on sparks were flying like Kelley had never experienced it before and she kept on asking herself if it all just was a dream.

“I told him I would beat him. So please, you have to help me. We really have to go train togeth… Stop smiling at me, I can’t concentrate when you look at me like that.” Alex states looking up from her plate to see Kelley wearing a huge smile.

“Sorry I just find it so funny that your competition with Dave is getting to a point where you want to slide in some extra training sessions with me.” Kelley chuckles.

“The stakes are high, Kel.” Alex counters with conviction.

“You’re cute.”

“You’re cuter.” Alex responds, leaning over the table to give Kelley a quick peck.

“Ah I just remembered, Allie texted me. Is it okay if she’s taking an earlier flight tomorrow?” Alex asks, while standing up and carrying their empty plates to the dish washer.

“Yeah of course, maybe we could do some Christmas shopping together.”

“Sounds good! Could you pick her up from the airport in the morning then? I think she must be landing at 9:00.”

“Will do.”

“Okay I’ll send you the details before I leave for training. Thanks babe, you’re the best.”

“Anything for you.” Kelley whispers, hugging her from behind.

Alex closes her eyes and intertwines her hands with Kelley’s, which rest on her belly. She takes in the moment as they sway from left to right. Kelley moves to brush her lips against Alex’s ear and kisses it.

“That tickles.” Alex giggles, twisting her head back to kiss her on the cheek.

“Wanna watch a movie?” Alex asks, as they part.

“Are you asking me to Netflix & Chill?” Kelley counters mischievously, wiggling her eyebrows.

“Are you ever not thinking about that?” Alex says, playfully rolling her eyes.

“Barely, when I’m around you. Either way, I have to shower first.” Kelley answers, slapping Alex’s butt as she walks past her, heading for the bathroom upstairs. Just before she reaches the stairs Alex jumps on her back. So Kelley gives her a piggyback ride upstairs to drop her off in their bedroom, where Alex changes into comfy clothes. While Kelley still showers, Alex makes her way to the living room to make herself comfortable. When Kelley comes down the stairs, Alex is once again struck by the permanently reoccurring thought, how attracted she is to her girlfriend. Kelley just feels the same seeing Alex cuddled up in a blanket.

“Ughh, why do you always look so hot?! Like it’s not okay anymore!” Alex groans out jokingly.

“Are you hitting on me?” Kelley asks pretending to be shocked, to which Alex responds with one of Kelley’s favorite laughs.

“Come here.” Alex says holding up the blanket she is laying under to let Kelley sneak under it too.

Kelley cuddles up beside Alex, taking her in her arms. Out of habit Alex rests her head on Kelley’s chest and puts one of her legs between her girlfriends. When they lay together like this they both know everything is alright. However, since they are very competitive there have also been days, where Kelley got banned to the armchair, because she beat Alex in a very serious match of FIFA. As a matter of fact, all their friends know that they should never let the both of them team up on their monthly game night, because there is no chance anybody will beat them at a game of ‘Heads up!’ or ‘Pictionary’, if they are in a team.

“Babe, are you wearing my shirt? I’ve been searching that for months.” Kelley asks looking at Alex’s outfit before wrapping the blanket around the both of them.

“Well, now it’s mine. But maybe you’re lucky and get to wear it once a month, so it smells like you again.”

“The perks of a long distance relationship.” Kelley chuckles, but there is a hint of sadness in her words.

Alex looks up quickly and barely catches the sad look in her eyes. Alex reaches for the side of Kelley’s face and soothingly strokes her cheek.

“Hey. I’m here now.” Alex whispers comfortingly. Still, Kelley stoical stares at the still black screen of the TV.

“Kel? Hey. Babe.”

Just then Kelley detaches her gaze from the turned off TV. “Hmm?” Kelley says absent-mindedly.

“You never told me that this is so hard on you. I mean I know it’s not easy, but you always said it was fine for you.” Alex says worried.

“No no, everything is fine.” Kelley says quickly, avoiding Alex’s glance.

“This is clearly bothering you.” Alex reasons, but there is no reaction from Kelley.

“Kelley, look at me. It’s not fine.” Alex says firmly, which forces Kelley to look at her immediately.

“Well, for the most of the past years we were apart. I really thought it was okay for me, but when we are here… together… in our shared apartment, on those breaks, I realize how fucking stupid it is that we are living apart, even though we miss each other that much. I mean, I know I’m always the one to tell you that it is okay and it really was, but I’m starting to realize that it actually never was as much as I thought and I only wanted to be strong for you.” Kelley reflects.    

Alex listens attentively, still stroking Kelley’s cheek. She always dreaded this conversation. It already was hard enough to be so far away from their families. Alex moved to Orlando just before Lyon and barely sees her family in California, while Kelley got signed to Utah in 2018. Still, the biggest burden is to be so far away from each other and Alex truly always wanted this long distance to end as well. All those nights she craved for Kelley to be with her, all those tears she shed, and all those goodbyes. The only things keeping them close were a phone screen, a soccer game every now and then and the National Team, which was great considering the horror scenario when Alex played for Olympic Lyon. However, Kelley had been injured for almost all of 2018 and so there even wasn’t the National Team anymore. Either way, now it just wasn’t enough for neither of them. The problem is, her career always was the most important thing in Alex’s life. She knew it was her destiny to become the best and her will was the only thing standing in their way. They both had their jobs and they also knew it wasn’t easy to get traded to the exact team you wanted to get traded to.

“So maybe it would be best, if I moved to Utah. I could talk to your coach and even if it doesn’t work out, I’ll find something else for the time in between.” Alex says pretending to be confident about everything she utters, but they both knew that this was far from the truth.  

“Alex…” Kelley runs her hands through her hair a few times frustrated. A nervous habit. Alex knows Kelley long enough to interpret every little detail. Kelley was nervous, and it shocked Alex how they could have let this discussion slip by the last few weeks.

“I know you love your team. You love Orlando! This is absolute bullshit.” Kelley intervenes.

“Well, I love you a whole lot more than all of those things.” Alex answers trying to stay calm.

“But we said we wouldn’t let our relationship get in between our careers, Al. What do you think? I’m not letting you give up your dreams for me! I swore that to myself! ” Kelley exclaims devastated.

“At the beginning of this relationship, we said it wouldn’t change anything. Alex, you said so yourself.” Kelley tries, her voice wavering.

“Kel… I want this. I don’t need Orlando, I’ll find something else. All I need is y…” Alex starts quietly, as tears start to form in her eyes, but Kelley interrupts her.

“No!” she says as she stands up, shaking her head. Her eyes are closed and her head hangs down. She guards herself from the sight of Alex’s tear-filled eyes. She knows the tears are already rolling down her lovers face and it’s all because of her. Her hands are shaking as she moves them up to her hair, where she grasps it tightly. A sight, which breaks Alex’s heart. The room is silent for a moment. Kelley takes a deep breath and lets go of her hair, to run her still shaking hands across her face.

“I love you Alex. I love you more than anything in the world, which is why I need you to be happy. I can’t let you do this.” Kelley says as she walks towards the door.

“Please…” Alex cries.

The moment the door closes behind Kelley Alex breaks down, as does Kelley, while walking towards the elevator. If one could see the both of them, the only fitting word would be heart-wrenching.

A crying Alex knows the problem won’t be solved by sitting alone in their now empty apartment, worried sick, while Kelley knows that it won’t help to walk through empty streets all alone, buying herself a beer. Additionally, it also doesn’t help at all, that she forgot her jacket and now is roaming the streets of New York in December, wearing only sweatpants and a hoddie. So after a good hour of self-torture Kelley is sitting on a park bench. As she’s looking up at the stars, which are crystal clear in this crisp winter air, it hits her what she has just done and in this exact moment her phone starts to ring.

“I hate myself.” Kelley answers the phone.

“You have every reason to do so.” Allie says coldly.

“I’m such a fucking idiot!”

“I couldn’t have said it any better. So what are you waiting for?!” Allie says firmly.

“Thanks Allie, I have to go!” Kelley says as she hangs up and sprints towards their apartment in full speed. As she enters the living room she is met with the sight she wanted to avoid all her life. There lies Alex, curled up in a ball, with silent tears running down her face. Kelley approaches Alex, carefully sitting down a few inches apart from her.

“Is it okay if I hold you?” Kelley asks softly.

To which Alex replies with a relieved “Please.”

So Kelley spoons Alex from behind and holds her as tight as she can.

“I’m so sorry.” Kelley sadly whispers into Alex’s ear.

Alex turns around in Kelley’s arms, coming face to face with her. Kelley’s heart breaks a little bit more as she looks into Alex’s eyes. In fact, it hurts her so much that she flinches in shame.

“I’m an idiot.” she states watching Alex’s facial expression closely.

“Yes, you are.” Alex whispers back. “I’m really angry at you.” she continues.

“I know, Alex, I’m really sorry, I-I ju-” Kelley starts, but Alex interrupts her.

“First of all how could you leave without a jacket?” Alex says angrily.

“H-huh?” Kelley stutters surprised.

“Are you trying to freeze to death?”

“Eh, I-” Kelley tries, but Alex interrupts her yet again.

“I swear you’re so dumb sometimes.”

“Babe.”

“I can’t believe you went to Stanford.” Alex rants on.

“AL!” Kelley says loudly. This finally shuts Alex up.

“I’m really sorry and I shouldn’t have left you. I should have stayed, so we could talk. That wasn’t mature of me.”

“My suggestion wasn’t either.” Alex admits.

“Maybe, but I hurt you, while you only tried to come up with a solution and that’s not okay.” Kelley says honestly.

“Can you forgive me?”

“How couldn’t I, Kelley?” Alex says lovingly, which makes Kelley let out a deep breath in relief.

“Okay, now let me fix this.” she says as she starts to wipe Alex’s tears away with her hands. She then proceeds to kiss the spots that were touched by Alex’s tears, starting under her eyes, moving on to her cheeks, her nose, her chin and finally her lips. As she starts to pull away, Alex doesn’t let her go and pulls her in for another kiss, tangling her hand in Kelley’s hair to softly stroke the spots, where Kelley pulled at them. It’s their way of saying sorry one more time. As they finally part, their lips are lingering only an inch apart from each other. They are looking deep into each other’s eyes, their breath fusing into one.

“Let’s talk about it tomorrow.” Alex says pressing her forehead against Kelley’s.

“Okay.” Kelley responds softly.

“I love you.” Kelley says.

“I love you, too.”

“Doesn’t change that you’re an idiot. Let’s get you warmed up.” Alex says as she stands up, to which Kelley rolls her eyes.

“O’Hara, don’t you dare roll your eyes at me! Come on.” Alex comments sharply, extending her hand to pull Kelley up from the couch.

“Yes mom!” Kelley answers like an annoyed teenager, letting Alex pull her up, who then walks towards the stairs immediately.

“I’m not your mom. However, if you come upstairs you could show me again why they call you frat daddy.” Alex says suggestively, disappearing upstairs.

Kelley throws her head back desperately.

“God this woman will be my death.” she whispers to herself as she follows her upstairs as quickly as she can.

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Love on the brain (Part 14)

Hey guys, hope you're doing well. The song in the chapter is 'Without you' by David Guetta and Usher. Sorry for any mistakes, have fun :)

The chapter is also up on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/43395533

After a turbulent start to the evening, Kelley and Alex are waiting for the clock to strike 12. They’re standing on their balcony, knowing they’re going to have a pretty great view of the fireworks that are going off a few blocks away at midnight. On the rooftop of the house on the other side of the street, which is a few floors smaller than the one they’re living in, a huge party is going on. The music can be heard up to their balcony, so even though they did not make it to the party they wanted to go to, it at least feels a little bit like they’re celebrating.

“Yo, this is DJ Toxxic, only about half an hour till midnight. Let’s turn up.” the voice of the DJ echoes through the street.

“No way, Kel! That’s the DJ from the World Cup After Party!” Alex laughs.

“Oh my god, you’re right! What are the odds? That’s so funny.” Kelley laughs amazed.

“Must be karma.” Alex smiles, shivering from the cold.

“Feeling cold?”

“I’m freezing.”

“Yeah, it’s pretty chilly, I’ll get us a blanket.” Kelley says, disappearing inside. When she rejoins Alex on the balcony, Alex smiles at her thankfully.

“Thank you.” she shivers.

“Let’s get you warmed up again.” Kelley says, standing behind her and putting the blanket around them, rubbing her hands over Alex’s arms to warm her. For the next 30 minutes they’re standing at the balcony railing, talking and watching the skyline for something to happen. Kelley is standing behind Alex, holding onto the railing, the blanket wrapped around them, keeping them warm.

“Okay guys, a little over a minute until the new year. Let’s start it with a bang! This one is for Alex.” the DJ’s voice says into a microphone and starts playing ‘Without you’ by David Guetta, which is their song from the night they won the World Cup. The crowd on the rooftop starts cheering loudly. Alex turns her head to look at Kelley in disbelief, who grins at her and shrugs.

“Oh, what a coincidence. Somebody must have texted the DJ.” she says, feigning surprise.

“Why in the world do you still know the DJ?” Alex laughs.

“For occasions like this.” Kelley winks at Alex.

“I can't win, I can't reign

I will never win this game

Without you, without you”

Alex leans back into Kelley, turning her head to kiss her jaw. She whispers the next line against her jaw.

“I am lost, I am vain

I will never be the same

Without you, without you”

Kelley smiles at her, losing herself in Alex’s eyes.

“I won't run, I won't fly

I will never make it by

Without you, without you

I can't rest, I can't fight

All I need is you and I”

“10!” the crowd starts counting down.

“Without you”

“7!”

“Withoooooooooooout”

“2!”

“youuuuuu”

“1!”

“Happy new year!!!” everybody on the rooftop screams. However, Kelley and Alex are in another world. They both lean in for a kiss simultaneously, as the fireworks start exploding in the night sky and the beat drops. Their lips clash lovingly. The kiss feels like a promise and is full of passion. The whole moment is magical and everything falls into place like in a cheesy romantic movie.  

“Can't erase, so I'll take blame

But I can't accept that we're estranged

Without you, without you”

When they pull away, they smile at each other brightly.

“Happy New Year, Kelley.” Alex whispers.

“Happy New Year, Alex.” Kelley whispers back.

“I can't quit now, this can't be right

I can't take one more sleepless night

Without you, without you”

They both turn towards the fireworks. Kelley puts her arms around Alex’s waist from behind, singing next to Alex’s ear.

“I won't soar, I won't climb

If you're not here, I'm paralyzed

Without you, without you”

Alex puts her hand on Kelley’s cheek, caressing it tenderly, while looking out over the city and singing the next line.

“I can't look, I'm so blind

I lost my heart, I lost my mind

Without you, without you”

They remain standing there, watching the fireworks, until they’re over, occasionally stealing a kiss.

“Of course, you would pick our song from the night of the World Cup.” Alex says, turning around in Kelley’s arms.

“It was just too fitting.” Kelley smiles and Alex puts a strand of her hair behind her ear.

“I love you.”

“I love you, even more.” Kelley says honestly.

“That’s not possible, because I love you the most.”

“Well, I love you the mostest then.” Kelley says, causing Alex to laugh loudly. Kelley watches her with adoration in her eyes and a huge smile on her face, having to laugh as well. She loves the way Alex’s face scrunches up and how her eyes almost disappear. She loves the way she throws her head back and leans on her, if she’s standing close.  

“What is it?” Alex asks, as she calms down and sees Kelley watching her.

“I missed that laugh.”

“I missed you. So much.” Alex says shakily.

Kelley leans in and kisses Alex softly.

“By the way, it’s true what they say.” Kelley says, grinning at Alex.

“What?” Alex smiles back.

“When Allie says something about us acting like 16-year-olds. The things I say, the things I do are sometimes so foolishly juvenile and I guess that’s how you make me feel. You make me feel like a love drunk teenager and that’s something I never want to end.”

“I never want it to end either. It’s hard to describe how you make me feel, Kelley.”

“Trust me, I know.” Kelley smiles.

“Just for your information, if 16-year-old Kelley O’Hara would have been at my high school, I would have totally had a crush on you.” Alex smirks and winks.

“Girl, if you would have been at my high school, I would have never passed classes.” Kelley laughs.

“Why? You’re smart, babe.” Alex laughs.

“Because instead of learning I would have stared at you all day long, duh.” Kelley states, feigning to be offended.

“And you’re adoreable.” Alex says, pecking her lips.

“You know, I like to think so.” Kelley flips her hair arrogantly, smirking at Alex.

“Don’t get cocky.”

“I have every right to be.”

“Yeah? And why is that?” Alex chuckles.

“Because I made Alex Morgan my fiancée.” Kelley wiggles her eyebrows cockily.

Alex rolls her eyes at her, shoving her lightly, “Are you calling me a trophy wife?”

“Heck yeah, greatest trophy there ever was!” Kelley jokes, making Alex laugh loudly.

“Thanks, but I prefer to be noticed for my intellectual capacity.” Alex jokes back flirtatiously.

“Baby, you're the most stunning woman I’ve ever seen, but that's still the least interesting thing about you.”

“Oh wow, that would get you all the ladies, tiger.” Alex states playfully.

“Hmm nah, I’m good. I only care about this one girl, she’s pretty awesome.” Kelley says, continuing the playful banter.

“Good answer.” Alex whispers, leaning in for a kiss. Suddenly, rain starts pouring heavily, but they continue to kiss. When they pull away, they both look at each other and start bursting into laughter, because their clothes and hair are already soaked after just a few seconds.

“Shit.” Alex laughs, looking up at the night sky. Meanwhile, Kelley bends down and picks Alex up bridal style.

“Kelley!” Alex squeals, “What are you doing?”

“I’m carrying my trophy wife inside.” Kelley winks and starts walking inside. Alex laughs and kisses Kelley’s cheek. With her right hand she wipes the raindrops that are running down Kelley’s face away and pushes her wet hair from her face.  

“You’re mad cute, kiss me.” Alex says after kissing the corner of her mouth. She puts her finger under Kelley’s chin to turn her head and pull her in for a kiss. They continue kissing, while Kelley carries Alex into the living room and sits her down on the couch carefully. However, the kiss still doesn’t end. Kelley is standing in front of Alex and leans down to keep on going.

“I’ll get us some towels and fresh clothes.” Kelley says in between kisses and starts pulling away reluctantly.

“Later.” Alex mumbles and stops her by grabbing onto her shirt and pulling her back in. After a minute, Kelley pulls away again, smiling at Alex.

“No, no, no.” Alex says, following her with her head, wanting to keep on kissing.

“Babe, we’ll get sick.” Kelley says, standing up fully.

“I don’t care if I’m wet, come back.” Alex pouts.

“That’s what she said.” Kelley calls over her shoulder, making her way upstairs.

“Veeery funny.” Alex rolls her eyes.

“I don’t even see you and I know you just rolled your eyes so hard.” Kelley yells from upstairs.

“Ugggh, how do you even know that?!”

“I study you for a living.” Kelley calls from the bedroom.

Alex mouth curves into a huge smile that doesn’t leave her face.

“Hey babe, do you want coffee?” Alex asks loudly.

“Uhh, yeah sounds awesome! Co-”

“I know! Cortado with whole milk.”

“Do you want to marry me?”

“You already asked that.”

“Damn right I did!” Kelley yells proudly.

Alex just chuckles and makes her way to the kitchen. While she prepares the coffee, all she has to think about is how she loves Kelley’s habit of always keeping the conversation going even though she is already upstairs for minutes. Most people would just wait until they’re downstairs again, so they could talk properly, but Kelley never leaves Alex hanging without an answer.

“Chocolate ice cream, huh?” Kelley asks, entering the kitchen.

Alex turns around and looks towards the kitchen island, where she left the empty tub, because she didn’t have the energy to clean it up. She nods her head guiltily. Kelley hands her a towel and lays the clothes down on the counter. Alex starts drying her hair and her face with the towel. While Kelley starts getting out of the wet clothes.

“Damn it must have really been bad then.” Kelley says just as guiltily, knowing that Alex only eats chocolate ice cream, when she is really sad or upset.

“It was. It was a whole tub kind of bad.”

“A whole tub? Aww, babe I’m sorry.” Kelley stops and grimaces. Alex takes a step towards her and puts the towel on Kelley’s head, drying her hair for her.

“Kel, it’s okay. I’m fine, stop worrying.” she says softly, but meaningfully, leaning in to peck Kelley’s lips tenderly.

“Alright.” Kelley says, starting to dry her body and putting her pants on. She reaches for her hoodie, she was pretty sure she brought downstairs, but it’s gone. She turns her head towards Alex, who is in the process of pulling it over her head. When her head pops out, Kelley smirks at her knowingly.

“What? I just want to be cozy.”

“Why don’t you put your own hoodie on then, hoodie thief?” Kelley grins.

Alex looks at her with puppy-eyes, “Yours are cozier and they smell like you.”

“You know that you don’t need to look at me like that, you look hot in my stuff.”

“Well, you look hot in your stuff.” Alex says, biting her lip.

“How in the world can you go from looking like a cute puppy to looking like a fucking supermodel, that’s so unfair. You’re making me go insane.” Kelley groans.

“You’re one to talk.” Alex says with a deadpan look, as she hands Kelley her coffee.

“Oh my god, you’re amazing, thanks babe.” Kelley says, looking at the coffee excited and pecking Alex’s cheek.

“You’re welcome, love.”

“Cuddling?”

“Cuddling.”

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After an hour of cuddling on the couch together, Kelley looks at her watch hesitantly.

“Do you already have to go?” Alex pouts, noticing Kelley’s change of mood.

“I should get going in 10 minutes or so.”

“I’ll miss you.” Alex says, nuzzling her head against Kelley’s neck.

“I’ll miss you, too.” Kelley says, closing her eyes and breathing in Alex’s scent.

“Okay, let’s get you to the airport then, before I never let you leave.” Alex says.

When they get in the car, Alex immediately rests her hand on the inside of Kelley’s thigh. Kelley intertwines their hands and lift them up to press a kiss to Alex’s hand. Alex smiles at her and never lets her hand go for the whole ride. As they get closer to the airport, Alex grows increasingly more silent. Their goodbyes are never easy, but Kelley knows that it must be very hard for Alex to let her leave after learning about what happened in LA. She strokes her thumb over Alex’s hand reassuringly and Alex squeezes it in response, as if to say thank you. When they stop in front of the gate, Kelley turns to stand in front of Alex, who is still holding onto her hand. Kelley gives her a sad smile, which causes Alex’s eyes to tear up.

“Nooo, hey don’t cry, I’ll be home in 3 days.” Kelley says, pulling Alex into a hug, cradling her head and stroking it softly. A sob escapes Alex’s mouth.

“Hey, Al, look at me. I know I fucked up. It will not happen again, I swear.” Kelley promises.

“I don’t want you to think that you’re alone again.” Alex cries.

“No, I know now, I promise.”

“I sound pathetic, it’s only three days.” Alex says, wiping her tears.

“No, you don’t babe. I understand, okay?”

“Okay.” Alex breathes out shakily, calming down.

“If anything’s wrong, promise to call me!” Alex says urgently.

“I promise. Same goes for you. I’ll call you when I landed and we’ll Facetime in the evening, okay?”

Alex nods her head, “But don’t stress yourself, I know that you’re working all day.”

“I won’t, we’ll figure it out.”

“I love you.”

“I love you, too.” Kelley says softly. They both lean in and share an affectionate and prolonged kiss, followed by a bone crushing hug. When they part, they gaze into each other’s eyes longingly. Kelley presses her forehead against Alex’s, taking her hand into her own again.

“Thank you.” Kelley whispers gratefully, letting out a deep breath, as if it was a huge relief to get those words off her chest. Alex reaches for Kelley’s neck with her free hand, stroking her hand over her skin in a calming matter.

“Forever.” she promises, making Kelley’s heart jump.

Kelley leans in again, pecking Alex’s lips a few times, before separating.

“Bye, gorgeous, don’t talk to strangers.” Kelley jokes, as she starts walking away.

“Behave yourself, tiger.” Alex jokes back, waving at her. Kelley waves back and blows her a kiss, before disappearing behind the gate.

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The next three days things are sailing smoothly. Ever since they made up, their communication goes back to normal and their usual long-distance routine kicks in. When they play for their clubs in the NWSL they spent the majority of their time apart either way. Over the last years, they have become experts in mastering this situation. When their relationship started, they decided that if there was no way in being together permanently, they at least had to rock the hell out of this long-distance relationship, but they still really hate that they have to. However, that’s also why their phone calls and Facetime calls always work like a Swiss clockwork and all their teammates envy them for the cute surprises they set up for each other every once in a while. So, when Kelley is on the plane back to New York, she’s really happy to say that the time spent apart was a piece of cake. Nevertheless, one thing never changes and that’s missing Alex like crazy. Even though they are a well-coordinated team, they both know that being together is always better than being apart and Kelley is happy to catch an earlier flight to surprise Alex. On her way home from the airport, she makes a detour to a flower shop, which apparently has very rare and beautiful flowers. Kelley did some research on the plane and found out that they sometimes sell lavender roses, which Alex gushed about a few weeks ago when she saw them on Instagram. When she gets there, she is lucky that they are in stock and buys a huge bouquet. Half an hour later, she enters their apartment as quietly as she can. It smells absolutely amazing and she hears Alex’s humming from the kitchen. Kelley tip toes through the hallway and stops in the doorframe of their kitchen. Alex is standing at the counter, cleaning up the kitchen. She looks breathtakingly beautiful, her hair pushed to one side and it is falling down her shoulder in slight waves, due to letting it air dry. The tone of her humming sounds content and happy and when Kelley catches a glimpse of the side of her face, she can spot a soft smile on her face. Kelley stands in the doorframe for a while, not able to stop watching Alex, as if she put a spell on her. Alex radiates a peacefulness that calms Kelley down immediately and lifts all the weight off her shoulders, making her feel at ease. Looking at Alex, a strong feeling of love overcomes her. It has always been like that for Kelley. Alex holds some type of power over her and it never stops. She shakes out of her trance, realizing that she has been standing there for a while and thinking ‘Stop staring, you weirdo.’

“I didn’t know you could get even prettier in three days.” Kelley flirts, making Alex jump. She turns around and looks at Kelley wide eyed, letting out a happy scream. She immediately runs towards Kelley and jumps into her arms, wrapping her legs around her waist. Kelley catches her and Alex holds onto her face, going in for a bruising kiss.

“You’re here!” Alex lets out relieved, as Kelley lets her down.

“I’m here.” Kelley smiles brightly.

“Hey.” Alex whispers, biting her lip, wearing a huge smile.

“Hey.” Kelley whispers softly, shifting her gaze to Alex’s lips and pecking them.

“I brought you flowers.” Kelley says, holding out the bouquet.

“Oh my god, Kelley. Lavender roses?? They’re so rare, where did you get them??” Alex gasps.

“I did some research. Do you like them?”

“Kel…They’re so beautiful. I love them, I love you, thank you.” Alex says softly, giving Kelley an affectionate look and a kiss.

“Do I smell caramel apple pie?” Kelley asks excited.

“Yeah, I’ve been meaning to pick you up and let it cool in the meantime, but you beat me to it.”

Kelley throws her head back and pumps her fists, “Man, you are just perfect.”

“I hope so is your favorite pie.” Alex laughs.

“Of course it is, it’s my favorite pie, made by my favorite person.”

“Funny that you say that, because I made that pie for my favorite person.”

Kelley holds her hand up for a high five, which Alex accepts happily. They sit down next to each other at the kitchen table and start talking about Kelley’s trip and her new partnership with BMW for a while.

“I’m so proud of you, that’s so exciting, Kel.” Alex says, running her hand up and down Kelley’s thigh and squeezing it. She smiles at Kelley fondly, hanging on to every word that leaves Kelley’s mouth.

“Thanks.” Kelley grins at her proudly, who has been leaning her head on her elbow and now leans forward to press a kiss to Alex’s lips.

“Hey, you wanna see some photos of the upcoming campaign?”

“Is that even a question?”

“Okay, are you aware that you are about to witness top secret material, Miss Morgan?” Kelley asks, channeling her best secret agent voice.

“I am.”

“So, we don’t need to ensure that your lips are sealed regarding this exclusive preview?”

“If you keep talking to me like that, I can’t ensure anything.”

“It’s better to play it safe then.”

Kelley smirks at Alex, observing her surroundings, before quickly kissing her as if they can’t be caught. Alex laughs at her antics when she pulls away.

“Your lips have been sealed, Miss Morgan.” Kelley winks, pulling out her phone. Alex chuckles, shaking her head, waiting for Kelley to show her the first picture.

“You’re so- HOT!” Alex interrupts herself with a loud exclaim mid-chuckle, when she looks at the picture in Kelley’s camera roll. Alex’s jaw drops to the ground and she snaps the phone out of Kelley’s hands, holding it closer to her face to look at the picture in detail.

“Oh. My. God.”

“You can call me Kelley.”

“Uh-uh, shut your perfect face, baby.” Alex holds up her pointer finger, while still going through the photos.

“Okay.” Kelley obeys quickly.

“You have to stop that campaign from launching.” Alex says absorbed in looking at the screen.

“Why?” Kelley laughs.

“Because.” Alex grumbles, looking up.

“Good one, are you three years old?”

“I have my reasons, smartass.”

“Babe, I mean you have the original and not just a photo. No reason to become all jealous again.” Kelley laughs.

“I’m not!” Alex exclaims defensively, making it clear that she is. She looks at Kelley wide-eyed, startled by her own outburst.  

“Okay, can I have my phone back then?” Kelley grins, holding out her hand.

“No!” Alex says, quickly pulling the phone to her chest, turning a bit so Kelley can’t reach it.  

“You are aware that BMW has copies of those, right?” Kelley smirks.

“Tell them, they have to delete them.”

“Okay, I’ll call them and tell them they have to delete every single one.” Kelley teases.

“Except for those on your phone, we’ll keep them. What even are you? A fucking supermodel?” Alex mumbles, taking another glimpse at the pictures.

“You’re crazy.”

“Wait till those photos lunch and all the girls and boys are going crazy.” Alex finally smiles at her, stopping the jokes.

“I choose crazy you, over all of them.” Kelley grins cheekily.

“I know you do.” Alex says, pulling Kelley in by her chin for a tender kiss.

“Babe, those photos are perfect. You’re stunning. This campaign is going to be huge, I know it. Again, I’m really really proud of you.” Alex says honestly, making Kelley smile brightly.

“Thanks, gorgeous.”

“You’re welcome, model.”

Kelley scoffs, while Alex makes her way to the oven, to pull out the pie.

“And Kel?”

“Yeah?”

“It’s not Miss Morgan, it’s future Mrs. Morgan-O’Hara.” Alex mentions nonchalantly over her shoulder. Kelley watches her with adoration, smiling to herself like a fool.

“Thank god, it is.”  

After the pie cooled a bit, they plan their last few days in New York, before January Camp with the National Team begins, all while eating the best caramel apple pie Kelley has ever had, sitting at a table with a bouquet of the most beautiful flowers Alex has ever seen.

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Love on the brain (Part 5)

Hey everybody, I hope you like this chapter :) let me know your thoughts. Sorry for any mistakes. The song in the chapter is 'Love on the brain' by Rihanna, as the title of the fic takes away :)

It’s also up on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/41622050

Later that day when Alex is on her way home from buying some top secret Christmas gifts, her phone vibrates in her pocket.

Hey gorgeous,

I have to talk to you.

I’ll be home at 7.

xxx

Alex doesn’t like Kelley’s message at all. The only time Kelley writes that she has to talk to her, is when something bad happens. She can’t remember one occasion with a happy ending if Kelley’s previous message was ‘I have to talk to you’. However, Alex knows there is nothing she can do about that right now, which is why she decides to stay happy and make her way home. After an hour or so, the door opens and Kelley walks in, looking really cute with her olive parka and her beanie. She greets Alex with a peck.

“Are you hungry, princess?”

“Yes, but not that much.” Alex says.

“Perfect, I’ll make a salad.”

“I said not that much! Your salads are epically huge.” Alex argues.

“I’ll make you a tiny baby salad.” Kelley laughs, kissing Alex and walking into the kitchen. Alex smiles and shakes her head at her girlfriend. Kelley spends the next few minutes trying to arrange the salad as perfectly as she can. Alex watches her antics from the kitchen table.

“Babe, it’s okay, it’s only me.”

“Yeah and that’s exactly why. Only the best for my girl.” she says concentrated.

“You’re crazy.”

“So I’ve been told, but if that’s what it takes.” she laughs, winking at Alex adorably. After they ate dinner, they sit at the kitchen table talking casually. At one point Alex gets really quiet, the message from earlier weighing heavy on her heart and just as Kelley is about to ask her what’s wrong, Alex speaks up herself.

“Babe?”

“Mhm?” Kelley answers taking a sip from her water.

“You wanted to talk?” Alex asks worried.

“Yes.”

“Okay, what is it? Is this still about the fight we had? Since you wrote that message I’m really worried and if I did anything wrong, please just tell me. You always-” Alex rents on, but gets interrupted.

“Al?”

“Yeah?”

“Do you remember how you felt during the time you lived in Lyon?”

Of course Alex remembered. It was the most miserable time in their relationship and the memories come flooding in like it was yesterday.

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“Why don’t you want to talk to me, Alex? Why are you so cold?” a very upset Kelley asks. She follows Alex, who is trying to hide her emotions, as she paces through her house in Orlando. They come to a halt in her living room and Alex turns around. Outside a storm rages. The rain hits the window, causing loud pattering. The room is filled with heavy silence. Kelley is searching for Alex’s gaze, but she avoids it like it’s torture. Alex bites her lip and Kelley sees that she doesn’t even notice it herself. With a raspy voice she starts to tell Kelley the truth.

“They’ll loan me to Olympic Lyon.” Alex sobs hoarse, her tears starting to fall down, mirroring the pouring rain outside.

“Olympic Lyon? As in Europe Lyon?” Kelley asks even though she already knows the answer. Alex gives Kelley a devastated nod, the tears dripping on her shirt.  

“And I don’t know for how long yet.”

Kelley just gazes at her, showing no reaction for a solid two minutes, her thoughts running wild.  

“Babe, please say something.” Alex begs desperately.

“To be totally honest, I really don’t know what to make of that.” Kelley says absently, her face now showing hurt, a single tear rolling down her face.

Alex draws blood on her lip from biting down too hard. Her hands and her shoulders are shaking. Her whole body is trembling as she loses herself in tears. She just stands in the middle of the living room with her hands covering her face. Right in this moment, Alex expects Kelley to grab her jacket and disappear for forever. Instead, she feels arms wrapping around her, which makes Alex break down even more. They stand there in the middle of the living room, motionless, except for the trembling of their bodies. Alex has a death grip on Kelley, as if she would vanish into thin air at any moment. Kelley holds on just as tight, her other hand stroking the back of Alex’s head.

“Shh, I’m here.” Kelley whispers. She unwraps her arms from Alex and holds her face, kissing her forehead. Alex lets her head hang down, leaning her forehead against Kelley’s chin, sobbing.

“Don’t leave me.” Alex whimpers broken. Hammering her closed fists against Kelley’s chest lightly.  

“Hey no, I’m never going to leave you. We will work it out, I promise.” Kelley says, taking Alex’s fist into her hands, pulling her in again to hold her as tight as she can.

“Please…” Alex barely brings over her lips, as she melts into her embrace. They remain like that for what feels like hours, crying and holding on to each other. It is as if they both wanted to say ‘I’m not going anywhere and I don’t want you to either’. And if one would listen closely, the patting of the rain almost sounds like applause.

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The next few months are rough. Alex often fails to distract herself from missing Kelley. Everything in her head revolves around seeing her again. The both of them often lie on their beds, counting the days. Still, the truth is that they don’t know how many more are there to come.

“What did you do to me O’Hara?” Alex says to herself staring at the ceiling.

“It always comes back to you.” Kelley sighs eating her breakfast alone.

Alex often fights her way through the night, waking up in tears. She can’t erase Kelley from her mind, even though she really has to. She knows that she has to focus on playing a good season in Lyon and missing Kelley that much is really weighting her down. However, it’s all in vain. She is close to going crazy, because she’s afraid of losing Kelley due to the long distance. The only thing calming her is Kelley herself, who always tries to be strong when they are on FaceTime and who writes her those cute love letters. She constantly reassures her that there is nothing to worry about, that they love each other and they will make it. Kelley promises Alex again and again that she is waiting for her as long as it takes and she keeps her promise. Meanwhile, when the FaceTime calls are over she can’t stop the tears herself. Life without Alex simply is something she isn’t quiet able to handle anymore.

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“Of course I remember.” Alex says with a pained look on her face.

“You know-“ Kelley pauses, looking as if she really tries to structure the thing she is about to say.

“I swore to myself I don’t ever want to feel such pain again. I don’t ever want to feel this lonely and empty again. I don’t ever want to suffer this much one more time. And now-“ Kelley stops again, swallowing hard.

“-now we still live that far apart.” Kelley continues.

“I thought about this. I thought about us. I thought- ‘Kelley how can you do this to yourself?’” she says lost in thought. Alex looks at her worried.

“But above all, how can I do this to you? You know, so I thought maybe it would be better to-“ she says, but she gets interrupted by a shocked Alex.

“Kel, what are you saying?” Alex questions startled.

“No, please. Just let me say this. It will all make sense, trust me.”  

“So I thought maybe it would be better to just end this-” Kelley says. Alex looks at Kelley in shock, she shakes her head heavily, not believing her ears.

“-and find anyone, just someone, who lives close to us, who doesn’t have this job, who will fill this hole.” Alex feels the tears forming in her eyes and just as she is about to tell Kelley to stop this nonsense, she continues.

“But Alex,-“ she says, halting mid-sentence to stand up. She steps forward and squats down in front of Alex, who is still sitting at the kitchen table. She takes Alex’s hands in her own and stares into her eyes deeply.

“-nobody is like you. There is no one in this universe comparing to you and I can’t live my life without you anymore. Alex, I either want you to be with someone who can make you happy or be that someone, but I don’t think there is anybody in this whole wide world that will ever make me happy, except for you. Nobody, who will fill this hole, except for you.” Kelley says, as Alex breathes out in relieve. However, Alex is clueless to what Kelley intends to tell her next.

“They are forming a new club in LA.” Kelley says. Alex looks at Kelley confused, furrowing her eyebrows.

“They want to sign us. The both of us.”

“Are you joking!? LA???” Alex exclaims, her jaw dropping to the floor.

“No, I’m not. In the last few days I spoke to them and I told them that I of course had to ask you first. And I totally understand, if you can’t leave Orlan-“ Kelley rents, but this time gets interrupted by Alex.

“Just shut up and kiss me.”

Alex pulls Kelley in for a passionate kiss, carefully holding her still bruised face in her hands.  

“I consider that as a yes.” Kelley chuckles happily, as they pull away.

“YES, YES, YES! A hundred times yes!” Alex squeals, smiling brightly and jumping around in bliss. Kelley watches her, grinning like a fool, feeling her heart combust just looking at Alex. Suddenly, Alex comes to an abrupt halt.

“You asshole!”

“Eh- what?” Kelley asks, her eyes widening.

“I thought you were about to break up with me!” Alex exclaims in disbelieve.

“I would never.” Kelley says honestly, holding her fingers up to swear.

“You better not.” Alex sasses, which makes Kelley laugh.

“I love you, babe.” Alex says looking at Kelley affectionately. Kelley gives her a smile.  

“How did you even do that? Oh my god. Kelley, LA? My family.” Alex voice wavers. Tears starting to form in her eyes and she feels like she couldn’t love Kelley more than in this moment.

“Just a little magic.” Kelley grins. Alex shakes her head at her.

“Come here you lunatic, kiss me again.” Alex says lovingly.

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Later that night Kelley and Alex lie snuggled up on the couch. First they watched Home Alone, one of their favorite holiday movies and then proceeded to just lay there and talk. Kelley lays in between Alex’s legs and her head rests on her stomach. Alex strokes Kelley’s hair and forehead gently, running her fingertips over the dark blue bruises soothingly. Kelley’s eyes are closed in relaxation, while her hands caress Alex’s thighs. Alex watches Kelley fondly with a soft smile on her lips, her eyes revealing how smitten she is by her. Alex leans down to kiss her forehead lightly. Kelley wears a closed lipped smile on her face, not opening her eyes, which makes Alex’s heart melt.

“You’re cute.” Alex says.        

“You’re picture-perfect.” Kelley exhales. Alex moves to kiss her nose and peck her on the mouth upside down, but Kelley doesn’t let her go and deepens the kiss.

“Spidey kiss.” Kelley giggles triumphantly. In this moment Kelley’s carefreeness reminds Alex of the one of a child and it makes her happy that their worries seem to dissipate with the snap of a finger. Alex leans back again and continues to stroke Kelley’s hair.

“You know Kel…” Alex says, as Kelley rolls over and now rests her chin on Alex’s stomach, their gazes meeting. One of Kelley’s hands moves under Alex’s shirt to lightly stroke her stomach, meanwhile Alex caresses her cheek.  

“I really love you. So so much. Sometimes it hurts how much I love you. You never cease to amaze me.”

Kelley tries to say something, but is interrupted by Alex speaking up again.

“There is nothing about you that isn’t what I want. I love your light, the light you bring into my life. You’re the most beautiful person I know. Inside and out. And I know that I can confide in you forever and that you will confide in me. Really Kel, I thank god that he made you like that and introduced you to me. You’re so addicting to me. You’re like my drug and I could easily drown in your fragrance. When I look at you I come to asking myself: ‘How can you be so selfless and so caring?’ I sometimes can’t believe you entrusted me with the key to your heart.” Alex whispers.

“Alex…I love you, too. Al, I-” Kelley starts again, something important on her mind. She lets out a shaky, heavily breath, when she is interrupted yet again.  

“No, you don’t have to say anything back. I just wanted you to know.”

“Thanks, pretty girl.” Kelley whispers cutely, looking at Alex as if she hung the stars. She leans forward, kissing Alex’s stomach lightly where the shirt has ridden up and her skin is exposed.

“I love when you do that.” Alex exhales, closing her eyes. Kelley smiles and kisses her stomach continuously.  

They lie there for hours and talk about everything and nothing, just enjoying each other’s company and the intimacy of the moment. At about 2 am Alex has fallen asleep. Kelley lifts her from the couch and carries her upstairs bridal style. She lays her down on their bed carefully and covers the both of them with the blanket. She cuddles up from behind her, holding her close and buries her face in her neck, inhaling Alex’s scent. A feeling of indescribable tranquility takes over her senses, feeling just the way Alex confessed earlier that night. She places a feather light kiss behind Alex’s ear and falls asleep holding her tight.

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The next morning Kelley wakes up in an empty bed. By the loud singing coming from downstairs, she assumes that Alex is already up, making breakfast. If you ask Kelley, that is one hell of a way to wake up on a Tuesday morning. She happily saunters down the stairs and towards the kitchen. When she arrives at the kitchen door, she stops dead in the doorframe. In the kitchen she sees a dancing Alex, who is indeed preparing breakfast. The beat of the song that just started, booms heavily through the whole apartment. It is in fact so loud, that Alex doesn’t notice Kelley leaning against the frame, watching her with nothing but devotion in her eyes. When the lyrics start Alex starts singing them, engrossed in the song and in making pancakes.

“And you got me like, ‘Oh, what you want from me?’ And I tried to buy your pretty heart, but the price too high Baby you got me like ‘Oh’ You love when I fall apart So you can put me together and throw me against the wall Baby you got me like i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-hiii, woo i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-hiii Don't you stop loving me Don't quit loving me Just start loving me Ohhhhhhhhh.”

Alex sings passionately. To Kelley it not only looks, but also sounds as if Alex is an angel. Alex sways from left to right in front of the stove as Kelley slowly approaches her.  

“And babe I’m fist-fighting with fire Just to get close to you Can we burn something babe.” Alex continues and just as she is about to sing the next line Kelley puts her arms around her waist, hugging her from behind. Alex melts into her arms and leans her head against Kelley’s.

“And I run for miles just to get a taste” Kelley murmurs against her temple, giving it a quick kiss.

“Must be love on the brain That’s got me feeling this way.” Alex turns around in her arms, singing it with her.

“It beats me black and blue but it fucks me so good.” Kelley says as she pushes Alex up against the kitchen counter, jokingly thrusting her pelvis against Alex’s. In response Alex laughs out loudly, throwing her head back. Kelley steps back and holds out her hand for Alex to take, which she does. They start waltzing through the kitchen, giggling, while singing the next lines together. Kelley’s hand rests on the small of Alex’s back and Alex’s hand on her shoulder.  

“And I can’t get enough Must be love on the brain yeah And it keeps cursing my name No matter what I do I’m no good without you And I can’t get enough.” Kelley holds up their intertwined hands, so Alex can spin around once. She then pulls her in again, so there is no space between them.

“Must be love on the…brain.” Kelley whispers, gazing into Alex’s eyes deeply. Alex pulls away and looks at Kelley seductively, biting her lip, which never fails to drive Kelley crazy. She slowly pushes Kelley up against the fridge. She then pushes both hands up her shirt, trailing them down the middle of Kelley’s body. She rests one of them on her abs, while the other slowly disappears in Kelley’s pants. She scratches her nails over her skin and breathes against Kelley’s lips, while her other hand gives her a provocative squeeze.    

“Baby keep loving me Just love me Yeah, just love me” Kelley stands there exhaling heavily, absolutely captivated by the show Alex is putting on. Alex pulls her hand out of Kelley’s pants and grabs Kelley’s hand.

“All you need to do is love me, yeah.” Alex then guides both of their hands inside her own pants. She pushes Kelley’s hand against her core, which causes pressure. Kelley pushes her hand inside Alex’s underwear and slowly drags two fingers up Alex’s folds

“Got me like, ah-ha-ha-owww.” she moans, closing her eyes and throwing her head back in pleasure. Just as Kelley is about to make another move, Alex jerks their hands out of her pants and takes a step back. She shakes her pointer finger at Kelley, looking at her provocatively. She then grins mischievously at Kelley’s disappointed face and says: “Nah, just kidding, tiger.”

She winks at her and heads for the stove, leaving Kelley high and dry.

“You dirty little minx!” Kelley smirks, coming up behind Alex, biting her pulse point. Kelley, reaches for the flour that is still standing on the counter and flings a hand full into Alex’s face, laughing adorably.

“Why are we together again?” Alex asks, her eyes closed and her face scrunched up cutely. She carefully opens her eyes, trying to avoid the flour from getting into them and reaches for the package as well.

“Wait till I get’cha you jerk.” Alex squeals as she aims for Kelley’s face and giggles loudly as it hits her in the middle of her face. The next few minutes the kitchen is filled with loud screaming and laughter, while a flour battle is going on. It ultimately ends in them sitting on the kitchen floor, shoulder to shoulder, feeding each other Alex’s pancakes. Alex never loses the smile on her face, grinning from ear to ear. Kelley holds the fork, loaded with the last piece of pancake and a strawberry covered in chocolate sauce close to Alex’s mouth. She takes a bite and closes her eyes in bliss. Kelley watches her closely, Alex is covered in flour from head to toe, her hair thrown up in a messy bun. Kelley is not able to detach her eyes from her. Alex looks at her, trying to meet her gaze, but Kelley seems to be in a trance.

“What?” Alex chuckles.

“You look beautiful.” she says still in a trance, enchanted by Alex.

“That’s nonsense, I must look terrible right now.” Alex laughs, but her laughter dies down when she looks at Kelley again, who is dead serious. Alex looks at her touched, full of adoration. She reaches for Kelley’s hand and intertwines them. She guides Kelley’s hand to her cheek, leaning into it and plants kisses on the back of it. She then leans her head on Kelley’s shoulder, kissing it as well. Kelley lays her head on top of Alex’s, putting her arm around her, while Alex’s arms sneak around her waist. There is a huge mess in the whole kitchen and on their clothes, but they couldn’t care less as long as they are together.

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Love on the brain (Part 2)

This one is a bit longer. Don’t worry, I still got a lot coming. Thanks for the positive feedback, enjoy guys :)

Like Alex promised Kelley got warmed up again. Indeed, for the rest of the night it got rather hot than warm, so hot that Kelley doesn’t even remember ever feeling cold in her entire life. After a, what both would call, pretty perfect and long night, waking up early is the least thing Kelley wants to do.

“Good morning beautiful, time to get up.” Alex breathes, kissing her way up Kelley’s neck, where she left some tiny marks the night before.

“Ugh, no. Please, just 5 more minutes.” Kelley mumbles, her eyes still closed. Alex continues kissing Kelley’s throat, to wake her up. Just when she thinks Kelley has fallen asleep again, Alex bites down on her neck. This startles Kelley, but instead of getting up, Kelley grabs Alex by the neck and rolls her over, getting on top of her. Alex, who squeals in surprise, knows she is now trapped beneath Kelley and can’t go anywhere. Even though Kelley is a little bit smaller than Alex, she is really strong.

“You are a very naughty girl.” the now very awake Kelley says, pinning Alex’s arms down to the bed, looking directly in her eyes.

Alex swallows hard. Without breaking eye contact and without letting go of Alex’s hands, Kelley moves down her still bare body. She leaves light kisses from her throat, down to her stomach. Alex finds it harder and harder to breath with every kiss and just when Kelley is about to move to the point, she wants her to reach, the phone rings. Both Alex and Kelley groan out in frustration. Alex reaches for her phone, while Kelley lays face down on Alex stomach, sulking over the lost moment.

“Yes?” Alex answers breathlessly, reaching down to stroke Kelley’s hair.

“Am I interrupting something?” Allie asks suspiciously.

“No!” Alex says firmly, while Kelley yells a loud “YES!”, which gains her a light pull of hair.

“Oh, I see. So it seems you two made up again.” Allie says knowingly.

“Yeah, we did.” Alex answers, while Kelley now kisses her belly lovingly.

“Thank god. Al, I’m really sorry to interrupt, but I just wanted to let you know that my flight is right on time, if not 10 minutes early.”

“Okay thanks for letting me know, I will send Kel to pick you up then.”

“Tell her to lighten up until then, or I will make her day even worse.” Allie says amused.

“No chance.” Alex laughs, looking down at her very annoyed girlfriend, who is pouting.

“Ugh, see you later!” Allie groans.

“Bye, Allie!”

Alex puts down the phone and watches Kelley amused.

“Of course. Only Allie could ruin a moment like this.” Kelley rolls her eyes.

“Come on get up.” Alex says encouragingly.

“I don’t wanna get up– you’re comfy.” Kelley says hugging Alex’s torso tightly, while nuzzling her face against her stomach.

“She may be 10 minutes early.” Alex urges.

“So? If she would have been 10 minutes later with her call, I still would have been 10 minutes early at the airport and all of us were happy.”

“10 minutes? Really, Kel?!” Alex deadpans.

“I got skills. Don’t think you would have lasted any longer, princess.” Kelley says mischievously, giving Alex a peck on the lips and jumping up as fast as she can, because now she is in trouble.

“Ugh, I hate you sometimes.” Alex yells after her.

“You love me!” Kelley yells back, making her way to the shower.

“More than anything.” Alex sighs to herself, as she hears Kelley first turn on her shower playlist and then the shower itself. Alex thinks about the discussion they had last night and makes a mental note to talk to her manager, when Allie leaves in a few days. She gets up and changes into her training outfit. She and Dave arranged an extra session on finishing for today, so she will meet up with Allie and her girlfriend after. Before she leaves she makes a stop in the bathroom, where she brushes her teeth.

“I texted you the details of Allie’s flight.” Alex says after rinsing.

“Thanks!” Kelley calls over the loud sound of the music playing and the running shower.

“See you later.” Alex says walking toward the shower door, which opens immediately and Kelley’s head pops out.

“Later, baby.” Kelley says leaning in for a kiss, which deepens for a moment.

“Mhhmm.” Alex hums into the kiss. When they part Alex bites her lip, while Kelley eyes Alex’s outfit.

“What? Stop it, you fool.” Alex says, turning red.

“You look beautiful.” Kelley says softly. Alex knows she means it, even though she is wearing no make-up, hasn’t showered yet and wears running tights combined with her USWNT warm up tee.

“As you do.” she answers smiling sweetly. They kiss one more time and after that Kelley’s head disappears in the shower again, so Alex leaves for training.

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“Heartbreaker.” Allie nods towards Kelley as she approaches her at the arrival hall.

“Cockblocker.” Kelley acknowledges moody.

They look at each other seriously for a few seconds, until they can’t hide their smiles anymore and they hug each other tightly.

“I’ve missed you, my Wormy.” Allie says squeezing Kelley’s shoulder, not letting her go.

“I’ve missed you too, Worms.” Kelley says, lightly patting Allie’s back.

“Are you up for breakfast?” Kelley asks, letting go of Allie to help her with her luggage.

“Am I ever not up for breakfast?” Allie jokes, as they walk towards Kelley’s car.

“True.”  Kelley says as she opens the trunk of her white BMW X5.

“So how is your ankle?” Allie asks as they are on the road.

“Getting there. Had my first few sessions with the ball two weeks ago and now the fine tuning begins.”

“Yaaay, sounds like everything is going according to plan, Worms.” Allie smiles.

On their way to pick Alex up, they talk about all sorts of things and fight about where to go for breakfast. Kelley wants to go to a place that has the best coffee in town, while Allie thinks every coffee is good, as long as she gets something to eat. When Kelley pulls up in front of the training soccer hall, Allie is out of the car before she even has stopped the vehicle and the only thing that can be heard are loud squeals escaping Alex and Allie. A few minutes later, the squealing and laughing has ended and they both reenter the car where Kelley, who is greeted with a kiss to the cheek, is waiting patiently.

“Have you guys figured out where we are going?” Alex asks putting on her seatbelt, while Kelley starts to drive towards the coffee shop.

“Since Kelley apparently has become the self-declared coffee guru, we’ll go to some hipster coffee shop.” Allie answers rolling her eyes. Alex laughs loudly and takes Kelley’s hand that is laying on the center console, stroking her thumb across her hand.

“So much for making my day worse.” Kelley says side-eying Allie through the rear mirror, who just sticks out her tongue at her. For the next 10 minutes they are catching up on everything that has happened since they’ve last seen each other.

“Also, Alex this sucker really must be in love with you. I mean I love you too, but it definitely is annoying how much she talks about you. Alex here, Alex there and I only landed 30 minutes ago.” Allie provokes. As a response Kelley lets go of Alex’s hand and reaches back to try to hit Allie, who is ducking from Kelley’s punches. Alex puts her face in her hands and lets out a deep breath.

“Am I surrounded by children?!” she says to herself.

“Worms, you’re gonna get us killed!” Allie screams.

“Wrong, I’m just gonna kill you!” Kelley says as she switches between looking for the red light to turn green and throwing punches at Allie. As Kelley finally lands a hard hit, Allie whines like a 4 year old and Kelley is grinning proudly, satisfied with the outcome.      

When they arrive at the coffee shop, Kelley lets Allie out to save a table for the three of them, while they park the car. As they walk towards the coffee shop, Alex intertwines their hands.

“Babe, you do know that she is just trying to drive you up the wall for fun, right?” Alex says grinning at her girlfriend.

“Of course I know that and she’s going to pay for it.” Kelley laughs. They stop right in front of the coffee shop. Kelley leans in for a sweet kiss, however is interrupted by the sight of Allie sitting at a table, looking out of the coffee shop window and pretending to gag. So instead of proceeding to kiss Alex, Kelley pulls her closer to whisper in her ear.

“Let’s put on a show for that nag.”

That’s just one of the million things Kelley loves about Alex, she is always in for a little bit of fun. Hence, just like Kelley suspected, she plays along. Kelley grabs Alex’s face and takes her in for a very passionate kiss. It is the kind of kiss you spare for the bedroom. Alex’s lips part, as Kelley tries to deepen the kiss by licking along the line where Alex’s lips meet. As soon as the kiss is getting rather wild, Alex’s hands move to rest in the back pockets of Kelley’s jeans. She squeezes tightly, while Kelley lightly dips Alex down as if they were in a romantic movie. It takes Alex by surprise, how the kiss is getting more and more intense every second, which causes her to moan into Kelley’s mouth. Kelley’s tongue snakes over Alex’s skillfully, gaining total dominance over the kiss. She slowly lets go of Alex’s face with one of her hands to flip Allie off, who is rolling her eyes so hard, they might as well fall out. After a long minute the kiss comes to an end and Kelley pulls Alex’s bottom lip between her teeth, biting it playfully. As they pull away, both of their pupils are dilated, their lips are swollen and their breathing is heavy.

“That was fucking hot.” Alex says out of breath, not shifting her gaze from Kelley’s. She is feeling a whole lot of muzzy and most of all pretty turned on.

“Well, I just can’t control myself when I’m around you.” Kelley answers smoothly, hiding the fact that she is definitely feeling hot and bothered, too. She shakes her head to break out of the trance and takes Alex’s hand into her own again, pulling her inside the coffee shop.

“Did you have to do that? Now half of the coffee shop is horny and the other half has thrown up their breakfast.” Allie says disgusted.

“And where do you consider yourself on the spectrum?” Alex says messing with Allie.

“Ouch! That’s my girl!” Kelley says proudly, grinning like a child on Christmas Day and holding her hand up to high five Alex.

“First of all, ew! Second of all, if I would have eaten by now, I would be puking my gut out.” Allie says annoyed.

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After they had breakfast, they move on to do some Christmas shopping. At one point, Alex remembers that she wanted to buy her mom a bag at Macy’s, which they had seen together last weekend, when her parents visited Kelley and her in New York. Since the store is really full around Christmas, Alex suggests that she just quickly buys the bag, while Kelley and Allie wait outside, which they happily accept.

“What are you getting Alex for Christmas?” Allie asks curiously.

“Do you remember the watch Alex talks about since years?”

“The one she saw at Tiffany’s and that wasn’t available, because it was only made once?” Allie asks puzzled. Kelley nods.

“Kel…you did not…” Allie says slowly.

“Yeah, actually I did.”

“Kel, that watch costs a fortune! No fucking way, how?” Allie says bewildered.

“Well, I was looking for engagement rings and when I contacted the staff at Tiffa–“ Kelley starts, but gets interrupted by Allie’s fist grabbing her by the collar of her shirt, pushing her up against the wall.

“YOU DID WHAT?” Allie yells, causing some pedestrians to halt, who Kelley just nervously smiles at and signs that everything is fine.

“Kelley Maureen O’- fucking-Hara!!”

“A–A–Allie I can’t br–eath.” Kelley rasps, gripping Allie’s hand to try to loosen it a little bit, but Allie has a death grip on her.

“Are you serious?!” Allie screams at her disbelievingly. Kelley just nods at her, sweat forming on her forehead.

“That’s not how this goes, you dumbass! All casual and cool. ‘Oh, by the way Allie I’m proposing to your best friend, but let me talk about my Christmas gift instead.’” Allie says aggravated, mocking Kelley with a dumb voice.

Kelley winces and swallows hard, while Allie still holds her up against the wall. Actually, she starts to wonder where all of this strength is coming from, since Allie lets Bati carry her bag after 15 minutes of holding it, because it is “too heavy”.

“No I–I wasn’t planning on doing that anymore. Eh I–I mean I want to, b–but not right now, not after yesterday. I’m not what she deserves…" Kelley lets her head hang, frustrated with herself.

“Listen up, you stupid bastard! You two are perfect for each other! You’ve always been. There is no one for Alex except you and I know that all you see is her, too.” Allie yells at her, shaking her a bit.

“How can you beat yourself up that much after one stupid discussion?! You love each other. Usually, you’re not like that. What is going on?” Allie asks getting softer spoken with every sentence, letting Kelley down slowly, who gasps for air.

“I–I don’t know Allie… I just–yesterday she was ready to give up everything for me and I know that’s not what makes her happy in the long run. I don’t want to chain her to me. She deserves so much more and I couldn’t stand to take all that away from her. I can’t stand in the way of that. It would all be so much easier, if we at least would live together, but that’s not possible.”

“Kelley, just what you said now shows exactly why you are the only one who is right for Alex. And don’t tell me you think she is going to be any happier without you. How about you forget what you think she needs and actually ask her what she wants?” Allie urges.

“Allie, I know what she wants, she is happy in Orlando. The club is treating her right and it reminds her of home. It always was her dream to play at a surrounding that is a tiny bit like California since she already misses it so much. I’m just her girlfriend and this can’t happen just because of me.” Kelley says hopelessly.

“Kelley, trust me, I think you two should really talk about what you want and maybe she doesn’t feel this way about Orlando anymore…” Allie suggests urgently.

“Do you know something I don’t?” Kelley asks confused.

“Maybe…” Allie says nervously, looking behind her. Kelley narrows her eyes at Allie.

“Okay, I see what you are doing here. Stop distracting from the fact that you fucking shopped for engagement rings.” Allie says getting angry again, poking Kelley in the chest. “You should ask her! I mean it! And don’t you dare suggest for someone else to be the maid of honor than me! So stop sulking in self-pity and grow some balls! And Kelley?” Allie says warningly.

“Y–yeah?” Kelley answers intimidated.

“If you mess this up one more time I will rip out your throat and eat–“ Allie says angrily, pushing Kelley up against the wall one more time, as Alex suddenly stands behind them.

“ – it” Allie finishes, losing her grip and dropping a disheveled looking Kelley back onto her own feet. They both stare at Alex with wide eyes.

“What the fuck are you guys doing?” Alex asks angrily. Her eyes dart back and forth between the both of them. When she looks at Kelley her gaze looks worried, which switches into anger when she looks at Allie. At this point Kelley jumps in, while straightening her shirt.

“Nothing babe! We were just talking, right Allie?” Kelley says nervously.

Allie nods quickly and steps in to help Kelley.

“Yeah, eh – actually we were just making fun of your stupid fight yesterday and I – I showed Kelley how I would have reacted, if she wouldn’t already have been on her way back to you when I called her last night, correct Kel?” Allie stammers.

“Exactly!” Kelley says as quickly as the words can leave her mouth. Alex musters them closely, looking at them as if they were completely insane, which isn’t far from how the both of them are feeling right now.

“You’re acting really weird…” Alex says slowly.

“Babe, did you tell Allie about how I surprised you two weeks ago?” Kelley asks and she feels as if she had a supernatural epiphany. Her flash of genius is rewarded with silent cheers and a fist pump dance by Allie. The both of them know that when Alex is really proud of something and especially if it is something Kelley did, she will happily talk about it for hours. A trait, which Kelley usually finds really endearing, but right now she takes advantage of it like Allie takes advantage of an All-you-can-eat when she’s hungry.

“Aww, babe! Oh my god, Allie I wish you would have been there. Actually, Kelley is just the sweetest person ever. I didn’t know she would already be in New York and then she stood there at the airport and when I saw her…” Alex starts and after that everything in front of Kelley turns into a silent movie. Kelley puts her arm around Alex’s shoulder, who instantly reaches up to intertwine their hands. As Alex keeps on talking, she plays with Kelley’s fingers. Kelley’s attention is drawn towards Alex’s ring finger, which is still bare. As Kelley looks up again, Alex wears the most gorgeous smile she has ever seen, her beautiful eyes sparkling. Ranting on about how much she loves Kelley and her ability to surprise her like that, she looks at Kelley repeatedly with a look that displays nothing but pure love and adoration. This whole moment makes Kelley come to a realization. They start walking back to their apartment and Kelley thanks god that Allie and her got out of that number.

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After Kelley and Alex helped Allie getting settled in their guest room, Kelley announces that she has to solve some scheduling problems with her manager and excuses herself to do some “boring paperwork”, which leaves Alex and Allie on their own. They decide to get their nails done in the salon down the street and start to coordinate their plans for the evening. On their way home they buy some groceries for dinner. Waiting at the cash register, Alex turns to look at Allie uneasily.

“What?” Allie asks alarmed.

“What was going on between you and Kel outside of Macy’s?” Alex interrogates.

“Eh–“ Allie nervously looks around, searching for any kind of distraction.

“Allie!” Alex calls sternly, crossing her arms in front of her chest.

“Is she breaking up with me?” Alex asks with a small voice and in a tone that sounds heartbreaking to Allie.

“WHAT? NO, Al! Why would you think that?” Allie asks shocked, uncrossing Alex’s arms to hold her hands.

“Because first of all, you were about to kill her when I got outside. Second of all, I don’t know what’s going on anymore. Since yesterday I have this feeling that I don’t really know everything I thought I did. How could I not have seen that she suffers that much?” Alex says bewildered.

“Alex, come on you can’t see everything.”

“Yeah, but usually I do. How could I let this slip, out of all things?”

“Al, you are thousands of miles away, you-“

“Since months Allie! This must be going on since fucking months!!!” Alex interrupts Allie aggravated.

“Don’t act like you don’t know that Kelley always tries to put your well-being over everything. She would lose a leg for you. Which is probably why, she did everything in her power to hide that she is suffering this much. Ever thought about that?” Allie reasons.

“But exactly this scares me Allie. Yesterday when she left she said that she needs me to be happy and can’t stand in the way of that. I swear the way she said it, it sounded like she broke up with me.”

“Do you love her?” Allie asks seriously.

“What? Are you joking? Of course I love her! More than anything.” Alex says offended and irritated by the question.

“Do you love her more than your career?” Allie goes on carefully. Alex looks at Allie confused, but as the seconds go by realization dawns on her.

“I do…” Alex says quietly, shocked by the new won insight. Alex always thought her career was the most important factor in her life, but it wasn’t. It wasn’t at all and to be honest she had realized it a long time before, but saying it out loud changed everything.  

“Then maybe you should tell her that.” Allie says quietly, watching Alex’s emotions going from shock to realization.  

“Al, I really love you, but with all due to respect, is this club really the only club exhausting your potential as much as you need it to be? What does Orlando really mean to you? Isn’t there a possibility that another club will make you just as happy, if not even happier? Kelley thinks she is standing in your way, because she knows what your career means to you. She thinks it’s either her or your career and dreams, which is why she walked out on you last night.” Allie says honestly. Alex looks at Allie speechlessly, paralyzed by the conversation.

“Sorry, I…that wasn’t my place to say th–“Allie starts, but gets interrupted by a bone crushing hug.

“I love you Allie, you’re the best friend anyone could ask for.” Alex says a tear rolling down her face.

“I love you, too. I hope you do realize that I’m the perfect and only candidate for the maid of honor, should you ever get married.”

“Without a doubt, but don’t you dare kill my wife before that day.” Alex laughs.

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Back in the apartment Alex and Allie cook lunch for the three of them. A few minutes before the food is ready, Alex heads for Kelley’s home office, where she is standing over her table reading some kind of paper, talking to someone on the phone. Her tone is very serious and her body language shows that she is in control of the conversation, which Alex finds extremely sexy. Everything about Kelley screams power in that moment and Alex loves it. She approaches Kelley and sneaks her arms around her, hugging her from behind and brushing her lips along her neck, inhaling her scent. Kelley, who hadn’t realized they were home again, tenses up, startled by someone being home, but relaxes right away when she realizes that it is Alex.

“Yes, sir. Thank you for your time. I will discuss the issue as soon as possible. If everything is working out, I will send you the contract and talk to the department again for the documents.” Kelley says eloquently, kissing Alex’s temple as she switches her phone form one ear to the other. There is a deep voice on the other side of the phone call, but Alex can’t make out what they are saying.

“No really, it is my pleasure. Thank you, have a nice day.” Kelley ends the call, putting her phone in her back pocket. Just for a few seconds they stay put, until Kelley takes one of Alex’s hands and kisses her knuckles, while turning around and pulling her closer, so there is no space between them. Alex’s arms now rest on Kelley’s shoulders, her hands dangling in the air behind her head, while Kelley grips her by the waist, brushing her thumps up and down her rib cage.

“Do you have to work much longer?” Alex whispers, staring deep into Kelley’s eyes.

“How am I supposed to work when such a breathtakingly beautiful woman is distracting me?” Kelley whispers back.

“What were you working on anyway?” Alex says leaning in for a kiss, which Kelley happily accepts.

“Just some paperwork for a commercial and stuff.” Kelley responds turning around to put away the documents laying on her desk.

“You talked about a contract?”                                        

“You, my lady, are much too curious.” Kelley says turning towards Alex giving her multiple quick kisses. Kelley goes silent for a moment, looking at Alex as if she was trying to ask her a question. Alex encourages her by giving her a look that says, ‘you can tell me everything’.

“Al, I have to ask you something.”

“What is it?”

“What do you want?” she blurts out, immediately shaking her head. Alex looks at her questioningly.

“Eh- I mean- okay let me rephrase this. What about the future? Where do you see yourself? Eh- I’m not really good at that.” Kelley says unsure of herself, looking anywhere but Alex’s eyes.

“Listen Kelley, I want to be with you. No matter where this is.”

“But, you love Orlando.”

“I do. But Orlando is not the only place in the world with a good team. There are so many opportunities and so many great clubs, you know that yourself.”

“Still, a club has to be able to enhance your game. It has to bring out the best in you.”

“We still have a choice. We are in control of that and maybe there will be an opportunity, where our clubs are only 1-2 hours away and everything will be easier. Also, this is not about me. This is about us. You love Utah as well.”

“I do. But I have to know if you are sure of that. I don’t think I could stand seeing you unhappy, just because of me.”

“I know I always said I wanted to be at my best, and I also know that I thought the club had a huge roll in that.”

“It has.”

“Yes, it has, but so have I. And to be totally honest, I came to the realization that I’m only at my best when I’m with you. That’s the only thing I’m sure of and it is never going to change. Are you sure as well?”

“I am.” Kelley says confidently.

“Okay.” Alex says softly, a smile on her face.

“Okay.” Kelley says smiling at her brightly.

“Why did you come in again?” Kelley asks.

“Lunch’s ready in 5.”

“Mhm, I already have plans for lunch.” Kelley says picking Alex up and throwing her over her shoulder, which causes Alex to scream.

“Let me down you maniac!” Alex laughs loudly. Kelley walks out of the office, a giggling Alex in tow. Alex hits Kelley’s butt, but she isn’t bothered by it.

“Help! Allie! Help me!” Alex shrieks loudly.

“Not my problem.” Allie sing songs, stirring the chicken. Arriving in the kitchen, Kelley puts Alex down, who leans in for a kiss once again.

“I could kiss you all day long.” Alex mumbles, her eyes closed.

“You two are disgusting.” Allie groans focusing on the frying pan, meanwhile Alex gives Kelley a look and signals towards Allie. They come up on either side of her and give her a kiss on either cheek, which makes Allie jump in surprise.

“I hate you guys.” Allie says defeated.

“You love us.” Kelley says smugly, grinning at her.

“To be honest I love Alex, but I hate you Worms.” Allie corrects her.

“Whatever floats your boat, Long.” Kelley says winking at her.  

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After lunch Kelley and Allie went to an indoor soccer pitch to train for a bit. Meanwhile, Alex had a meeting with a sponsor and after that went to watch the rest of the match they arranged with some other guys playing there for fun.

“What did you guys agree on for tonight?” Kelley asks stretching her sore muscles, her hair still wet from showering. Alex is already waiting for them, when they are coming out of the locker room.

“Do you know someone who throws a party tonight?” Allie asks excitedly. Everybody in the US Women’s National Team knows, if you want to be invited to a good party, you just need to know Kelley. Even though there is a huge discussion going on, if Kelley herself is the key to a good party, or if she just knows the right people. However, there is a reason her former team mates started to call her frat daddy.

“Do I know someone who throws a party? Allie, is that even a question?” Kelley laughs ironically.

“I was hoping for that answer.” Allie cheers.                    

“So you’re in babe?” Alex asks Kelley expectantly.

“Why is everybody doubting me today? I’m always in for a party.” Kelley comments, pretending to be offended.

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Love on the brain (Part 11)

Hey guys, I hope you enjoy the chapter. Sorry for any mistakes :)) To the person, who requested drama, here you go! :D

The chapter is also up on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/42764963

When Alex wakes up the next morning, she feels a stinging pain in her head. The light is too bright, even with closed eyes. She blindly reaches for Kelley, but she’s not there. Waking up a bit more, she realizes that the shower is running. After a solid minute of slowly coming back to life, Alex opens her eyes carefully.

“God, I’m never drinking that much again.” she moans to herself. She pops up on her elbows and looks to her nightstand to find that Kelley has left her a glass of water and Advil, as well as one of those vitamin smoothies she makes, that somehow make Alex feel better every time. She thankfully reaches for the water and the Advil and after that, starts drinking the smoothie. She leans against the headboard of their bed and closes her eyes again. A minute later Kelley walks in, her hair still wet from showering.

“Oh, you’re up.” she smiles. Alex is happy to hear the voice, knowing that at least one thing can make her feel better this morning. She opens her eyes and is met with Kelley smiling at her from the other end of the room, pulling a pair of jeans out of the closet and putting them on. And just like she thought, she already feels better. To be honest, she feels better every morning seeing that smile and hearing that voice.

Kelley grimaces, while buttoning her jeans, “Oh-oh. Hungover?”

“Yeah.” Alex nods, massaging her temples. Kelley gets in bed again and leans over Alex to give her a kiss.  

“Good morning, pretty girl.”

“Hey, perfect fiancée.” Alex smiles softly, stroking Kelley’s cheek.

“Thanks for the cures.” she says, nodding towards the nightstand.

“I already guessed you’d be in need of that. You were pretty drunk.” Kelley chuckles, making a face.

“Come here, kiss me.” Alex says, pulling Kelley closer again and closing the distance. Kelley is surprised when Alex doesn’t just press a short kiss to her lips, but the kiss turns into a long full open-mouthed kiss, that expresses nothing but love and thankfulness.

“Woah, what was that for?” Kelley asks taken aback and a little out of breath, leaning her head on her elbow.

“You carried me up 12 floors, Kelley. 12 fucking floors, at 4 am. And then you make me this smoothie and leave Advil and water on my nightstand, just because you know it will make me feel better. And yet you ask me what I kiss you for. You just leave me speechless.” Alex breathes, shaking her head, staring into Kelley’s eyes deeply.

“You’re worth every step.”

“I love you.” Alex says, giving her a peck.

“I love you, too.”

“How about I make breakfast and you go take a shower? That will make you feel better for sure.” Kelley offers.

“No, no. I should be the one making you breakfast after all of that.”

“Al, you’re hungover, let me make you breakfast.”

“But I want to make you feel good.” Alex pouts at her.

“Pay me back with another favor then.”

“Like?”

“You know, I feel like I’m in a desperate need of a massage.” Kelley grins.

“Of course, you are.” Alex smiles, rolling her eyes.

“It’s your own fault, you gave me a choice.” Kelley laughs.

“It’s always the same with you.”

“Yeah, that’s because of you.”

“Flattery won’t get you anywhere, honey.”

“Oh, I think it got me quite far.”

“You’re lucky, I guess.”

“Pretty lucky.”

Alex presses a quick peck to Kelley’s lips and pushes her onto her back, climbing on top of her. Since Kelley is only in jeans and a bra, Alex has easy access when she starts leaving a trail of kisses down her body. Kelley folds her arms behind her head and closes her eyes in relaxation. However, Kelley opens her eyes abruptly, when Alex stops dead in her tracks and lets out a gasp.

“Oh my god, babe, what happened to your hip?”

Kelley looks down at Alex, who inspects her hipbone, lightly touching the huge black bruise.

“I think I hit my hip and my back during the bathroom stall sex, or at least on the way into the stall.” Kelley chuckles.

“What the hell, your back too?”

Alex urges Kelley to roll over and when she does, Alex inhales sharply.

“Jeez, Kel I’m sorry.” she pouts at Kelley, who turns around again, smirking at Alex.

“I’m not.”

Alex lets out a loud laugh, throwing her head back, “We actually broke that bathroom stall.”

“Excuuuse me, what actually happened was that I banged you through that wall.” Kelley says, holding up her pointer finger, winking at Alex.      

“That sounds so bad.”

“I think that sounds fucking hot.”

“It was fucking hot.”

“I might add that skill to my CV.”

“You’re so humble.”

“Or my gravestone!!”

“Okay, cool down.”

“Just imagine people talking about me when I’m dead like: ‘Did you hear? Once she banged her fiancée through a wall!’”

“Oh my god.”

“Yo, babe, babe! Does that mean I banged you into another dimension?!” Kelley exclaims excitedly.

“Kel?”

“Yeah?”

“Shut up.”

“Okay.”

Alex leans down and gives her a loving kiss, before standing up and heading into the bathroom.

“Hey, what about my massage??” Kelley calls after her.

“Patience is a virtue, tiger.”

“Says the girl that got banged through a bathroom stall.” Kelley chuckles to herself.

“I heard that!” Alex’s head pops into the room again. Kelley blows her a kiss, causing Alex shake her head and laugh, disappearing into the bathroom again.

“Hey Alex? Since our families are leaving today we’ll have to bring yours to the airport at about 1pm and mine at 2pm, is that okay?”

“Sure, babe.” Alex calls from the bathroom.

“Perfect.”

Kelley stands up and makes her way downstairs to prepare breakfast.

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After they said their goodbyes to their families, they head home again and Alex takes a nap, due to her still not feeling too good. At about 4 pm Alex is woken up by Kelley’s voice. She seems to be talking to someone downstairs and it’s getting very loud. She starts walking down the stairs and sees Kelley pacing through the living room in an aggravated manner.

“Oh, come on are you serious??!”

She runs her hand through her hair aggressively. Alex stops walking down the stairs halfway down and listens closely, furrowing her eyebrows.

“No man, you know we only have those few days with each other, does this really have to be right now?”

Kelley stops dead in her tracks when the person on the other side of the call answers and Alex can see the fury in her eyes.

“Are you fucking kidding me?! That’s the only time we really have to our own all year!!! Don’t give me that ‘You’re in National Camp together’ bullshit!!!” Kelley yells into her cellphone angrily. Alex sits down on the stairs quietly, really not meaning to eavesdrop, but what she just heard makes catches her attention.

“I know that I have a contract, Ken, I’m not stupid!!!”

She is silent for a while, when Ken, who is one of her agents, seems to argue with her. Her mouth is set in a tight line and her jaw is clenched.

“I guess, you made it clear that I don’t have a choice.” she says, leaning her arm against the wall and resting her head against it.

“See you, Ken.” she says quietly, hanging up and rubbing her eyes. She stands in the living room, releasing a deep breath. Alex’s heart sinks at the look on Kelley’s face.

“FUUCKING HELL!!!” Kelley screams loudly, causing Alex to flinch at the sudden outburst. She throws her phone through the room furiously and punches her fist against the wall hard. Alex quickly gets up and storms towards her. Kelley stands in front of the wall, her body shaking violently. She is looking at her fist in disbelieve, which is covered in blood and she has problems holding it still.

“Kel-“ Alex starts, trying to put her arms around her, but Kelley flinches away.

“Don’t touch me!” she yells, which makes Alex flinch again and then she stiffens. Kelley’s head shoots up to look at Alex startled. Alex’s mouth is opened slightly and she looks at her hurt, her lower lip trembling. However, with one deep breath she pulls herself together, which is this thing she only does during a huge argument to close somebody off and hide her emotions. Kelley hates when she does it and Alex knows it.

“Babe I-“

“Don’t ‘babe’ me right now.” Alex says sharply, her face not portraying any emotion, except for a single tear rolling down her cheek, which she wipes away quickly.

“Alex, please I-” Kelley says panicked.

“Shut up and stay here.” Alex says numbly. Kelley does as she’s told and watches Alex leave the room. A few seconds later she comes down the stairs with the first aid kit, which Kelley seems to see too much these days. She looks at Alex intently, who once again patches up her wounds, but this time it’s not as lovingly as the last time. It’s almost as if she’s not in the same room.

“I’m sorry, Alex I-” she says desperately.

“Kelley, I swear, if you say one more word.” Alex says bitterly. Her tone makes Kelley shut up for good and from then on it’s radio silence between them.  

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Later that day Kelley tries to talk to Alex one more time, knowing that she has to tell her that she will leave for LA in the night, but it’s in vain. Alex just holds up her pointer finger to stop her from talking. Kelley let’s her head hang low in sorrow and walks up the stairs defeatedly to pack her bag. At 8 pm Kelley comes down the stairs again to grab something to eat, placing her packed bag in the hallway and sitting down in the kitchen to have dinner. However, her appetite is gone just looking at her meal and instead she just picks at her food apathetically. She puts it away and carefully approaches the couch in the living room where Alex is sitting, reading a book. Kelley sits down at the other end of the couch and as soon as she’s seated, Alex looks up from her book and stares at her warningly. Alex picks up her book and her blanket and stands up, walking towards the stairs.

“Oh, come on that’s ridiculous!” Kelley yells after her.

“Just doing you a favor, believe me!” Alex’s voice yells from upstairs, before slamming the door of their bedroom. Kelley puts her head in her hands and shakes it. She then walks into her office and writes Alex a letter, because she will definitely not disappear without any trace. At 10 pm she walks up the stairs and towards their bedroom. She carefully opens the door and all the lights are off. She approaches Alex’s side of the bed and sees that she is sleeping, so she places the letter on her nightstand and starts tip toeing out of the room. However, she stops after just one step, letting out a deep breath. She turns around and walks towards Alex, leaning down and placing a tender kiss on her head. After that she makes her way out of the room with a heavy heart. Downstairs, she checks her pockets for her phone, which is not there and she remembers throwing it across the room. The phone lays cover down nearby the big window. Kelley picks it up just to see that the screen is shattered.

“Good job, you idiot.” she mumbles to herself, pushing it in her pocket. She then turns off the lights and locks the door behind her, leaving for the airport.

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Alex feels like something is wrong when she wakes up, but she doesn’t question it, because she knows that something is wrong indeed. Kelley’s reaction shocked her to say the least and she can’t let something like this go that easily, even though Kelley looked miserable last night. Alex turns around in bed to carefully peek if Kelley is lying next to her. Contradicting to her actions, her heart sinks when she sees that the bed is empty and untouched. On the other hand, this only fuels the fire and she angrily makes her way to the bathroom to take a shower. 30 minutes later, she walks down the stairs, thinking she’ll find Kelley sleeping on the couch. It’s only 7:30 am and they sometimes like to sleep in on the Holidays. Alex furrows her brows when Kelley is also not sleeping on the couch.

“KEL?” she yells loudly, but nobody responds.

“KELLEY?”

She shrugs, thinking that Kelley must be in the gym or going for a run, since she sometimes does that very early in the morning, especially when they are fighting. Alex makes herself breakfast and sits down on the couch, putting on the TV and eating a bowl of fruit. When she finishes, she makes her way upstairs again, reading some business inquiries in her office. After two hours or so, she starts getting worried again. She throws a nervous look at her watch. 10:30 am and still no sign of Kelley. She walks down the stairs again and into the hallway. Kelley’s favorite sneakers and her parka are gone, which is why she really must be out. Alex pushes down the door handle, wanting to take a peek outside, but the door is locked.

“Typical.” Alex smiles to herself, knowing that it is a protective habit of Kelley to lock the door from outside when she leaves Alex home alone. Alex turns the lock and looks down the hallway, but Kelley is nowhere to be seen. She closes the door again and walks down their hallway, when suddenly an image from earlier hits her. Alex sprints up the stairs and into their bathroom. She opens the cabinet where they store their toothbrushes and sees that Kelley’s toothbrush is gone. Thoughts are rushing through her head, a thousand scenarios coming to mind and yet none of them make sense. Alex leaves the bathroom, grabbing her phone that’s laying on her nightstand to see if Kelley left a message, but there is no call or message from her fiancée. Therefore, Alex dials her number, tapping her foot on the ground impatiently and running her hand through her hair in stress.

“Come on, pick up.” she says nervously.

“Hey, you have reached the voicemail of Kelley O’Hara. If you-“

Alex hangs up and immediately calls her number again.

“Hey, you have reach-“

“Damn it!” Alex says, slumping down on their bed. When she rolls over to put her phone on the nightstand, a folded piece of paper with her name on it catches her eye. She hastily garbs it, unfolding it.

“Hey babe,

I’m really sorry to do this through a letter. However, since you won’t talk to me I thought I might be lucky and knowing you, you’re too nosy to not open this. Point proven.”

Alex rolls her eyes, imagining Kelley writing this part with a smirk on her face. She just knows her too well.

“As I said, I wish this could have been differently, but I really had no choice. Ken called me yesterday and told me I have some obligations in LA with some new sponsor, which is why I have to leave tonight, well had to leave yesterday, if you are reading this tomorrow. They told me I have to stay until 3rd January and yes I know…”

“What?!” Alex breathes out.

“I’ll be missing New Year’s Eve and I don’t know how to make this up to you. Believe me, if I could I would have stayed. I know that the circumstances are really unfortunate at the moment and I’m only making it harder, but I’ll be home in 5 days and I’ll try to do anything to make it better. I know you’re angry. You’re even more angry now and even though you don’t want to hear it, I’m really sorry. I love you forever, no matter what.

Kelley”

“I hate you so much, Kelley O’Hara.” Alex cries, knowing that this is far from the truth. The tears are streaming down her face, the façade from yesterday finally breaking into pieces. She throws the letter to the side and grabs Kelley’s pillow, crying into it for what feels like hours.

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Meanwhile, Kelley already arrived in LA. Last night, when she boarded the plane, she wanted to take a look at her phone for the very unlikely event that Alex woke up and decided to call her. However, when she pulled the shattered phone out of her pocket and pushed the home button, the screen remained black. Kelley groaned loudly, only then realizing that she not only shattered the display, but completely wrecked her entire phone by throwing it. Luckily, Ken sent someone to pick her up from LAX. The guy was holding up a sign with her name and at least she was brought to the first meeting without any complications. However, the meeting is lasting till late in the night and when she finally arrives at her hotel, she still had no chance to organize a new phone. Rushing into her room, she immediately grabs the hotel’s phone on her nightstand, typing in Alex’s number, but quickly throwing a look at her watch before dialing. It’s midnight in LA, which means it’s 3 am in New York. Kelley slams the receiver down again.

“Stupid shit.”

Kelley rubs her temples tiredly and gets ready to sleep, knowing that she has to be up early the next morning, but sleep never comes to her .

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“Allie, I just don’t understand, why is she not calling??”

“This is so unlike Kelley.”

Alex waited all day for any sign of Kelley, but it never came. No call, no text, nothing. In the evening she called Allie over, the situation leaving her restless.

“Exactly!”

“You must have really let out the beast, huh?” Allie mumbles under her breath.

“I must have what?!” Alex asks irritated.

“Ehh, nothing.”

“Allie, I heard you!” Alex sasses.

Allie looks at her meaningfully.

“You think I shouldn’t have reacted that way, don’t you?”

“You want my honest opinion or the soft version?”

“I think that answer says it all.” Alex remarks sarcastically, causing Allie to exhale deeply.

“I’m sorry Allie! I know I sometimes am a little bit stubborn. But-”

“Sometimes, a little bit.”

Alex rolls her eyes at Allie, “-but you should have been there. It’s just how she reacted. It shocked me and then she has the audacity to leave me here, vanishing into thin air??”

“Alex, first of all, it all would have went down differently, if you just would have talked to her and second of all, you know how Kelley is. She sometimes looses her temper and lashes out at random people.”

“Yeah, but you see, I am no random person, I am her fiancée. Her fiancée, Allie. I’m not going to tolerate behavior like that!”

“I know, Alex. I’m not saying that it makes it any better, but- you know what, forget it. I already am getting involved too much.”

“But what?? Come on say it.” Alex urges Allie on. Allie looks at her, pondering if she really should say this. Alex looks at her pleadingly.

“You sound like her mother.”

This shuts Alex up and she looks anywhere but Allie’s eyes.

“Still, I also think she should call you.” Allie says carefully.

“You call her! Maybe she just blocked me and she’ll pick up when she sees it’s you.”

“Al…I don’t think th-”

“Pleeease.” Alex whines.

“Alright, but only once.”

Allie pulls out her phone and dials Kelley’s number, while Alex looks at her excitedly. However, the phone goes straight to voicemail, just like the hundred times when Alex called it. The excitement on Alex’s face dissolves quickly.

“What if something happened to her?” Alex asks alarmed.

“Alex, if something happened to her they would call you or it would be on the news. She’s still famous.”

“I can’t take this anymore.” Alex says, dialing a number in her phone.

“What are you doing?”

“Shh, I’m calling Ken.”

“Yes?”

“Hey Ken, this is Alex.”

“Alex! How are you?”

“Ken, is Kelley somewhere around you? I really need to talk to her.”  

“Ehhh, didn’t she tell you? I’m not with her yet, my flight got cancelled and I’ve just boarded a plane to Miami.”

“No…she didn’t. Miami?”

“Yeah, it’s a stopover. I’ll be in LA tomorrow evening at the earliest.”

“Oh, okay. Hey Ken, is there something wrong with her pho-”

“Alex, I’m sorry to interrupt you, but I’ll have to call you back. The plane is about to take off. Bye!” he hastily says, hanging up the phone and all Alex hears is the beeping on the other end of the line.

“…Bye.”

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Love on the brain (Part 10)

Hey guys, enjoy the chapter :) the song in the chapter is "Sexy Back" by Justin Timberlake. Sorry for any mistakes.

The chapter is also up on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/42671246

“Okay who is ready to paaaaartyyyy?” Erin hollers intoxicated. As the evening got by there was lots of time to fill up their tanks with the cocktails, which were so good that Bati claimed they must have been ‘straight from heaven’. So, it’s no surprise that everybody is slightly or some definitely tipsy when they leave the restaurant.

“I think this is our cue to go home.” Kelley’s dad says, looking at Alex’s parents and his wife. The look on his face and the way he is shoving his hands in his pockets causes Alex to smile. If Kelley is in a situation, she doesn’t want to be in, she does it the same way. They all say their goodbyes to the parents and decide to go to a club right across the street that looks pretty fancy. There is a huge line of people waiting in front of the entrance and the group is stopping to wait in line as well. Apparently, the club is pretty popular and also packed because of the holidays. After a minute or so of standing in line, Alex ends her conversation with her sister and turns around, facing the others. The group is now standing in a circle and Alex is surprised to discover that her fiancée is gone.

“Hey, has anybody seen Kelley?” Alex asks furrowing her eyebrows.

“No, I thought she was with you.” Allie says, while everybody starts turning their heads, searching for Kelley. However, just a moment later Kelley, walks up to them with a huge grin on her face.

“Ah, there she is.” Jerry says, pointing in her direction.

“What did you do? Why are you smirking again?” Erin rolls her eyes.

“Come on guys, we don’t have all night.” Kelley says motioning for the group to follow her.

“Babe, I thought we wanted to go in?” Alex asks, pointing to the line in front of them.

“Yeah, we are, what are you guys waiting for?” Kelley grins.

“Kel, that’s one of the most popular clubs in New York, you can’t just walk in there.” Bati points out.

“Uhh, Bati? I think she’s not.” Alex says slowly, the meaning of the look on Kelley’s face beginning to dawn on her.

“Yeah, no, I’m not. So, I once knew this guy and apparently, he now owns this club and long story short, we don’t have to wait in line.” Kelley says, holding up a bunch of wristbands for the VIP area. All heads turn to look at Alex questioningly, who holds her hands up cluelessly.

“Don’t look at me guys, life with her is still a surprise every day.”

“We know that feeling.” Erin reassures Alex, motioning between Jerry and her.

“Yeah, and we share the same DNA.” Jerry says concerned.

“Actually, we don’t. Biologically seen we only share the same DNA to some extent, let’s say about 50%. The other chromosomes-”

“OH MY GOD, SHUT UP WORMS.” Allie groans loudly, interrupting Kelley and knocking her elbow into her ribcage.

“Aaaalright, who’s up to party?” Kelley asks excitedly.

“Hell yes!” Jen’s husband exclaims.

“Man, Kelley that’s just fucking dope.” Jeri says.

“You, my friend, are a legend.” Bati says, grabbing Kelley’s shoulder impressed. After everybody expressed their appreciation and excitement they start to walk towards the entrance. Kelley waits to go in last, so everybody gets past the bouncer. Alex waits for Kelley in the entrance area, smiling at her, shaking her head.

“What?” Kelley grins.

“You are an enigma.”

“I hope in a good kinda way.”

“You’re all the things in a good kinda way.” Alex grins, leaning closer, biting her lip.

“Oh, am I?” Kelley says, looking at Alex’s lips. Alex looks at Kelley’s lips as well, nodding while closing the distance. When they pull away their gazes meet and their smiles get brighter.

“By the way, that’s such a Kelley thing to say.” Alex says.

“What is?”

“That thing about chromosomes and the DNA.”

“It’s true, tough. They are just dumb.” Kelley says seriously.

“Such a Kelley thing to say, again.”

“Sorry.” Kelley chuckles.

“Don’t apologize, I love it when you say stuff like that. You’re smart, it’s sexy.”

“In that case, that dress you’re wearing would look even hotter accelerating towards my bedroom floor at 9.8 m/s2” Kelley says with a sexy voice.

“Oh yeah, talk dirty to me.” Alex says going in for another kiss. Kelley winks at her, while Alex takes Kelley’s hand in her own, pulling her towards the group, which is already walking down the hallway. When they enter the club it’s just as packed as it looks from outside. The club is lit in light neon blue and the furniture is all white, making everything look rather expensive. If you’d asks Alex the atmosphere somehow is pretty sexy, people are dancing close to each other and the music the DJ is playing underlines that. However, she’s not sure if that’s just the drinks talking. Somehow, Kelley’s acquaintance managed to clear a table for them and now they gather around it. Jen and her husband, as well as Erin, Kristy, Jerry and Allie sit down on the white leather sofa, that is lit at the bottom with blue light as well. Around the table boxes of some kind of very expensive champagne were converted into bar stools. Alex sits down next to Allie on the white sofa, while Jeri and Bati sit down on the boxes. Kelley stands in front of the table, waiting for everyone to settle down. Alex looks up at her pouting, holding out her hand for Kelley to take and motioning to come sit with her. Kelley takes her hand, but remains standing nonetheless, wanting to go to the bar first. Looking at Alex she knows that her drunkenness has reached the needy stage.

“Guys, drinks?” Kelley smirks, wiggling her eyebrows.

“Yeah, let me help you.” Bati says, getting up.

“Babe, you want anything specific?” Kelley asks leaning down, so she can hear her over the music.

“I’m fine with whatever you’re getting, but thanks.” she says, giving her a peck.

“Oh, so Alex can choose something specific and we have to drink whatever?” Allie smirks teasingly.

“All it takes is a kiss.” Kelley says, puckering her lips and moving towards Allie, who pushes her away.

“You’re so annoying.”

“Karma is a bitch, Long.”

“You’re a bitch.” Allie counters and her laughter is interrupted by the look on Alex’s face, her mouth agape and her eyes giving her a look of ‘You did not seriously say that.’. Kelley watches Allie freeze mid-laughter, looking at Alex guiltily. Kelley laughs loudly at the interaction.

“And you say I’m whipped.” she chuckles.

“You guys are such a shit show. I swear one day, I’ll kill the both of you.” Alex rolls her eyes. Kelley and Bati make their way to the bar inside the VIP section and order a huge bottle of rum and some drinks to mix it with, as well as a round of shots. Alex can’t seem to keep her eyes off of Kelley, who walks through the VIP area confidently. To Alex Kelley always looks amazing, so much even that she sometimes thinks it becomes a serious problem when she needs to get work done or when they are fighting about something and a look at Kelley makes her forget why she way angry. However, tonight is one of those nights, where something about her just screams extra sexy with a big exclamation mark. Apparently, she isn’t the only one thinking that her fiancée looks stunning. Kelley is attracting the attention of both men and women all around the club. The gazes are following her everywhere and to be honest Alex can’t stand it, but she lets it go for the moment. Kelley and Bati carry the ice bucket with the drinks over to the table and Jeri gets up to help them with the shots.

“To the best year that’s yet to come.” Alex says, raising her shot to the middle of the table, looking at Kelley intently. Everybody grabs a shot and moves it to the middle so all the glasses are clinking together.

“To 2019!” Jeri shouts, while everyone hollers.

“To the best that’s yet to come.” Kelley whispers, looking at Alex, their gazes holding, while everybody already chugs down the shot. They both clink their glasses again and chug it down as well. Alex grimaces at the taste.

“Wooo.” Kelley exclaims, shaking at the taste. This attracts the attention of one particular girl from the table right next to them again, who tries to make eye-contact with Kelley, smiling flirtatiously. The girl immediately was a thorn in Alex’s flesh, because she has been shamelessly checking Kelley out ever since they stepped foot in the club. Alex leans forward slightly, giving her some serious side-eye, but she’s so focused on Kelley that she doesn’t see Alex’s warning looks. The girl tries to get her attention by playing around with straw in her drink, moving it in her mouth, while eyeing Kelley intensely. Like always, Kelley is totally unaware of the looks she’s receiving. She is distracted by Allie urging her to tell the story about how one time at camp she shattered a window, trying to proof that she could do handstand push-ups. After Kelley finally told the story and everybody laughed loudly, she is looking over to Alex, who has gotten rather impassive over the last 10 minutes.

“What’s up with that look on your face, pretty girl?” Kelley yells over the bass, pulling her stool closer to Alex, putting her hand on her knee.

“That girl at the table next to us, and don’t look, is undressing you with her eyes.”

“Bullshit, she’s probably only watching my gorgeous fiancée, in which case I can’t blame her.”

Alex rolls her eyes at Kelley.

“What? Or maybe she likes my shoes.”

“Kel, you’re fucking hot.” Alex states with a hint of aggressiveness.

“Ehm? Thanks?”

“I think you tend to forget, that you are really sexy. There are thousands, if not millions of people, who would bang you without any question or even a hello, 350 of which are in this club right now and there are only about 400 in here. Don’t act as if this girl is only eying you constantly since we step in, because she likes your damn shoes. And now give me a kiss, before I go over there and cause a scene.”

While Alex talks Kelley watches her face closely, looking for any sign of a joke, but she doesn’t find it. Therefore, she knows not to question what Alex is requesting, not that she would either way, but whatever. Kelley leans in and starts kissing Alex sensually, not only giving her a kiss, but fully making out with her, to which Alex complies happily. The kiss is lasting quiet a while and turns pretty steamy.

“Gosh, get a room Kellex. What are you? Horny 16-year olds?” Allie jokes. However, with getting harassed by their teammates constantly, they don’t even bother acknowledging a word that is leaving Allie’s mouth, but instead keep on kissing, until it’s getting too excessive. By the time they pull away, everyone is already minding their own business again.

“You’re mine.” Alex claims in the close proximity of Kelley’s lips.

“Possessive much, huh?”

“Only a tiny bit.”

“I see.”

Alex leans in for a short, sweet kiss, smiling into it. Kelley grins at her brightly, the smile making Alex forget, why they were kissing in the first place. Their attention is drawn towards the rest of the group, when Jerry starts pouring them a new round of drinks. For the next hour or so, they all fuel their bodies with plenty more drinks and after a while there is no denying that everybody is not only tipsy, but definitely drunk now. They left the table a while ago and are dancing on the dancefloor ecstatically, the mood getting more and more exuberant by the minute.

“I’ll be right back, you need anything?” Kelley yells in Alex’s ear. Alex shakes her head in response.

“No, thank you.”

Kelley makes her way to the bar. The DJ plays some throwback songs and Alex and Allie scream the lyrics to David Guetta’s ‘Memories’ loudly, while jumping around with all the others. Arriving at the bar, Kelley orders another Rum and Coke. The bartender, gives her a nod and starts making the drink. Kelley turns around and leans against the bar, smiling, watching her fiancée having a blast with her friends and family. A hand on her shoulder pulls her out of thoughts.

“Hey, can I buy you a drink?”

Kelley turns towards the voice and is met with a girl, looking like some kind of model, who is eyeing her up and down.

“Thanks, I’m good.” Kelley says shaking her head, turning back around, watching Alex.

“You sure? You look thirsty.” the girl says into Kelley’s ear, lowering her voice. Kelley turns around yet another time.

“Look, you probably are a nice person, but I got a fiancée.”

“So?”

“Okay, you aren’t a nice person. That’s okay.” Kelley says in an indifferent tone, turning away again. Her gaze is meeting Alex’s, who is looking at her questioningly. Kelley, rolls her eyes at the girl next to her and waves it off, gesturing for Alex not to worry about it.

“I live right around the corner, we could just go there. Your fiancée doesn’t have to know.”

Kelley doesn’t really listen to a word the girl is saying, she just looks in Alex’s direction, seeing something she doesn’t like.

“Dude, what’s taking so long?” Kelley says to the bartender. The bartender looks at her apologetically.

“I know you want to.” the girl insists.

“Rum and Coke!” the bartender calls. Kelley grabs her drink and when she takes a step in Alex’s direction the girl is blocking her way.

“Or maybe you could just bring your fiancée.” the girl says biting her lip. Kelley watches her attempt to look sexy emotionlessly. When Alex does something like that, it’s driving her nuts, but looking at this girl, who is doubtlessly very pretty, she feels nothing at all.

“Okay listen, I appreciate the compliment, but I’m really not interested. See, I asked the most amazing girl in the whole wide world to marry me and she said yes. So, you may understand that all I ‘want’ is to get back to her. And if you don’t, that’s not my problem.”

Kelley walks past her determined, shaking her head. She makes her way through the crowd, but Alex is nowhere to be seen. She doesn’t come far until a hand is grabbing her shoulder yet again. Kelley turns her head to see Alex, who is looking at her concerned.

“Everything okay?”

“Yeah, just a very persistent girl making an offer.”

“What kind of offer?”

“First it was a drink, then sex and after that she even offered for you to come.”

“Oh my god, I can’t even let you walk to a bar alone?! Where is she???” Alex asks fumingly.      

“Babe, ignore it, I told her off.”

“Ugh, going to a club with you is exhausting.”

“Look who’s talking.” Kelley says raising an eyebrow.

“You’re exaggerating.” Alex says innocently, looking anywhere but Kelley’s eyes, knowing damn well that she is right.

“Alex, we are here for a little over an hour and I told 5 people to leave you alone. I don’t call that exaggerating. And don’t think I didn’t see you holding up your engagement ring to number 6, while I was at the bar.”

“How the fuck did you see that? You were talking to that girl.”

“Concerning you I see everything.”

“Is that a threat or a promise?” Alex smirks.

“That’s for you to decide.” Kelley winks at her, which makes Alex laugh.

“Let’s get back to the others, you creep.” Alex teases, pulling Kelley deeper into the crowd. The beat the DJ was playing, changes into the beat of ‘Sexy Back’ by Justin Timberlake and Kelley stops in the middle of the crowd, making Alex come to a halt as well, due to them holding hands. Alex turns around to see what’s stopping Kelley, but there is no sight of a distraction. Kelley just raises her eyebrows at Alex challengingly, which causes a smirk on her face in response. Kelley intertwines both of her hands with Alex’s, walking a few steps backwards to the beat of the bass, pulling Alex along. Alex laughs at the flirty look on Kelley’s face, but follows her lead nonetheless. Kelley comes to a stop and pulls Alex closer, guiding Alex’s arms around her neck. She closes the space between them, pulling Alex as close as possible in one swift, rough motion. It’s the good kind of rough though, the one that you use while dancing to manifest that you are the lead. Nevertheless, it surprises Alex, who squeals shortly. Their faces are just inches apart and Kelley’s hands are holding on to Alex’s hips, pressing their bodies together.

“I’m bringing sexy back” Kelley breathes against Alex’s lips, who finds it harder to breathe, each passing second.

“Them other boys don't know how to act (Yeah) I think it's special, what's behind your back? (Yeah)”

Alex’s hands are dangling off of Kelley’s shoulders and their foreheads are pressed against each other.

“So turn around and I'll pick up the slack” Kelley sings, while turning Alex around in another smooth motion. Alex’s breath hitches in her throat. Kelley places her hands on Alex’s stomach, hugging her from behind, her head resting in the space between her shoulder and her neck. One of Alex’s hands moves to Kelley’s nape, holding onto her hair. Kelley starts grinding into Alex from behind, to the rhythm of the song, their bodies synchronizing as if they are one.

“Dirty baaaabe, you see these shackles, baby, I’m your slaaave” Kelley whispers into Alex’s ear, the hot stream of air, causing goosebumps on Alex’s skin.

“I'll let you whip me if I misbehave (Uh-huh)”

Kelley leaves open mouthed kisses along Alex’s neck, who rolls her neck to the side, so Kelley has better access.

“It's just that no one makes me feel this way” Kelley says sexily, through gritted teeth, her lips brushing against Alex’s neck.

“Come here, girl (Go 'head, be gone with it) Come to the back (Go 'head, be gone with it) VIP (Go 'head, be gone with it) Drinks on me (Go 'head, be gone with it) Let me see what you're twerking with (Go 'head, be gone with it)”

Kelley continues to grind into Alex, the temperature in the club feeling like a hundred degrees. Alex feels extremely turned on and she is glad that she is no man, because otherwise her excitement would be visible by now. The alcohol in her system is making her feel everything even more intense and every touch on her skin makes her yearn for more.

“Look at those hips” Kelley sings grabbing onto Alex’s hips.

“You make me smile” she grins in Alex’s neck, while singing, which causes Alex to smile sexily, leaning even more of her weight into Kelley.

“Go 'head, child (Go 'head, be gone with it) And, get your sexy on (Go 'head, be gone with it) Get your sexy on (Go 'head, be gone with it) Get your sexy on (Go 'head, be gone with it) Get your sexy on (Go 'head, be gone with it)”

Alex can’t really take it anymore, she turns around in Kelley’s arms, grabbing a piece of her shirt with her fist and pulls Kelley through the crowd and towards the restroom. Everything feels like it happens in slow motion and that may also be because of the alcohol. Luckily, the music is also booming loudly in there and no one is waiting in line. As soon as they enter the room, Alex turns around and starts kissing her roughly. The kiss tastes like rum and Coke, mixed with coconut and fruit, due to the drinks they had before and they can’t seem to get enough of the mind-blowing taste. Kelley walks further into the room backwards, not breaking the kiss. She hits her body against several doorframes and door handles on the way, but has no reason to complain at all. Alex pushes Kelley into an empty stall and presses her against the wall roughly. The kisses are turning messy and Alex grabs onto Kelley’s belt to open up her pants. She unzips them and her hand disappears inside without hesitation. To Alex there isn’t even time to pull Kelley’s pants down properly, but instead she comes straight to the point. The both of them know, that at this point no foreplay is needed, the intoxication pushing them to another level, which is why Alex simply goes for it.

“Alex!” Kelley breathes almost voicelessly, when two of Alex’s fingers enter her. She starts moving them at a fast pace, while kissing Kelley’s neck, sucking hard on her pulse point.

“Yes! Keep going!” Kelley moans. Alex moves up to kiss her needy. Their breathes are matching into one, putting everything in perfect sync. Mid-kiss a huge smile is growing on Kelley’s face, causing Alex to also laugh into the kiss. Alex snakes her tongue over Kelley’s slowly and teasingly. They are both fully aware, just how crazy the situation is right now. The cute moment is interrupted by Kelley throwing her head back and moaning loudly, when Alex’s other hand springs to action, alternating between rubbing her clit and stroking her folds. Kelley’s hands tangle in Alex’s hair and Alex bites Kelley’s neck. Alex starts working her hands faster, knowing that Kelley wants her to go faster by the way she’s pulling her hair lightly. The whole situation is turning Kelley on in a way that quickly lets her feel strong pleasure and everything Alex touches feels like she sets it on fire. Her chest falls and rises at a quick pace and Alex knows Kelley is close, due to her closing her eyes and her mouth being slightly opened, causing this incredibly sexy face she makes right before she’s coming. She tries to hit the spot, that will bring Kelley over the edge for sure, repeatedly. Alex can see Kelley’s neck veins pop out and it turns her on immensely, leaving her even wetter than she already is. She tries to go faster and keeps on going in and out of her with a strong, incessant, steady rhythm, while rubbing her clit in circular movements. A few seconds later, Kelley reaches her climax with a loud: “Fuck, yeees, Aleeex!”

Before even properly coming down from her high, Kelley switches the positions they are standing in and pushes Alex up against the wall. With her pants still open she grabs onto Alex’s right thigh, pulling it up to her hip, causing Alex’s dress to ride up in the process. Alex watches Kelley pushing the seam of the dress higher teasingly, while sliding her hand up her leg. Their gazes meet and Alex’s pupils have dilated so much, that Kelley almost can’t see the pretty blue she loves. Kelley’s right hand moves to the middle of Alex’s legs and she can feel the wetness through her underwear, which is completely soaked. Kelley starts applying pressure, rubbing her through her string.

“Ooooh.” Alex moans loudly, pushing into Kelley’s hand, her eyes closing in bliss. Kelley pushes the garment to the side and starts sliding her fingers up and down. Right now, Alex swears this feels like dying and ascending to heaven, since she also feels like she would have exploded with just one more passing minute of Kelley not touching her. Kelley hooks her left arm under her butt and lifts her up quickly. Alex’s legs tangle behind Kelley’s back to hold onto her and she leans down to kiss her hungrily. Kelley’s fingers move further south and she enters her. Alex’s mouth forms a perfect ‘O’ and her nails dig into Kelley’s back, spurring her on to keep going. She feels the pressure in her whole body, her back arching, so that her body is pushing into Kelley even more. Kelley starts going in and out very fast and Alex loses every control over her body.

“Oh my god, yes! Faster!!”

The stall feels like a sauna and Alex feels her mind fogging up as well. She rocks into Kelley’s pushes and the walls of the stall are shaking. Over the music you can hear a thumping of Alex’s body being pushed against the wooden stall every time Kelley pushes inside her. Alex feels the orgasm building in the pit of her stomach and she shuts her eyes tightly. That’s when Kelley hits a spot that almost makes her come right away.

“Fuck yes, Kelley, right there!!!” she moans loudly.

Kelley pushes into her even harder now and Alex feels the pressure becoming an unbearably tight feeling that is just waiting to be released. Alex hears a loud crack, but doesn’t give it any attention and she’s not sure she is even able to at this point. The feeling that’s taking over her body too overpowering to be aware of her surroundings. It feels like electricity causing through her veins and she knows that this orgasm is going to be intense. Kelley kisses Alex’s lips sensually and hits the spot over and over, making Alex feel like she’s not on this planet anymore. Kelley’s voice brings her back to reality.

“Babe, look at me.” Kelley orders, brushing their lips together. Alex obliges and as soon as their eyes meet, Alex comes hard. Hot pleasure is flowing through her body and she gasps for air.

“Keeeelleeeey!” Alex moans loudly against Kelley’s lips. In fact, she moans so loudly, that Kelley has to muffle it with a kiss. Alex doesn’t know what has gotten into her, but the orgasm leaves her shameless even though they are in a public place, the feeling just too amazing to possibly stay quiet. Her walls are crushing against Kelley’s fingers hard and her body is trembling, the orgasm lasting for some time. They share some kisses, while Alex needs a while to come down from the high. Kelley lets Alex down slowly, who’s arms still rest around Kelley’s neck, while Kelley strokes her waist up and down.

“Holy shit.” Alex chuckles, in between kisses.

“Mhhm, I agree. That was some wild sex.” Kelley grins. Suddenly, Kelley furrows her forehead.

“Uhh, babe?”

“Yeah?”

“Did you also hear that cracking sound?”

“Oh, that really happened?”

They both start looking around and Kelley starts laughing loudly.

“What?” Alex asks confused. Kelley pulls Alex towards her, turning her around in the process.

“Oh my god, shit!” Alex says, her jaw dropping. The wall she just leaned against has a huge tear in the middle. She looks at Kelley in disbelieve, who is still laughing.

“Did I just fuck you so hard that the wall broke?” Kelley smirks.

“Oh no, will this be something you take pride in?” Alex groans.

“You can bet your ass I will.”

“Uuuuugh, no.” Alex says hitting her head against Kelley’s chest.  

“Come on babe, it’s just another performance to be impressed by.” Kelley winks at her.

“That actually was quite the performance.”  

“Top 3 of wildest public restroom sex?”

“Definitely top 3, but do you remember that time after the game against-“

“-Canada? Yeah, that was definitely number 1.” Kelley interrupts. They high five, followed by a kiss and fix each other’s clothes, before exiting the stall. On their way out they wash their hands and check themselves in the mirror. When they rejoin the group, Alex immediately starts dancing with Allie again, who pushes another drink into her hand. Kelley and the others make their way to the table again to also fill up on drinks. After an hour, Kelley and Bati make their way back to the dancefloor, to check up on Alex and Allie. Meanwhile, the rest of the group already wanted to head home. When they approach them Kelley and Bati share a knowing look.

“Baaaaby, wwhere were youu? I misssed you.” Alex slurs, running towards Kelley, throwing her arms around her.

“Babe, how about a round of water?” Kelley laughs.

“Noooo! How abou’…annother roun’ of drinkss?” Alex asks, pushing her pointer finger in Kelley’s chest.

“Alright, you wanna go sit?”

“Ohmygo’, yes, my feet hur-t ssso much.”

Kelley hooks her arm around Alex and guides her to the table, where Alex sits down exhaustedly.

“Just stay put for a minute okay?”

“I ain’t goin’ nowhere, Officer.” Alex says holding her hands up innocently. Kelley makes her way to the bar and orders a huge glass of water. When she returns, Bati has also managed to convince Allie to sit down for a minute.

“One special drink, for my special girl.” Kelley says, sitting down next to Alex and handing the water to her, who immediately starts drinking it thirstily until the glass is empty. She then leans her head on Kelley’s chest, cuddling up to her.

“Baabe?”

“Mhm?”

“I’m not ssstupid, that was water fo’ ssure.”

“Thank me later.”

Kelley looks at Bati and gestures for them to leave. After 15 minutes of convincing the girls that it’s time to go home, Kelley and Bati are happy to stand outside, waiting for the Uber. He first stops at Allie and Bati’s hotel and after long goodbyes and a few more minutes in the car, Kelley and Alex finally arrive in front of their apartment building. Kelley wakes Alex up, who fell asleep just moments ago and tips the Uber driver. She helps Alex out of the car and hooks her arm around her again, since she definitely needs some stabilization. They walk into the building and towards the elevator wanting to get up, however Alex gives Kelley a look of horror, due to a sign sticking on the door.

‘Out of order. Will be fixed first thing in the morning.’

“Damn it.” Kelley rolls her eyes.

“I’ll sssleep in the lobby then.” Alex slurs, leaning against the wall next to the elevator, closing her eyes. Kelley is totally aware that there is no way Alex’s is going to make it up all 12 floors using the stairs. Actually, she isn’t so sure that Alex would even make one floor, without breaking her neck, considering her state of drunkenness. Therefore, she walks up to Alex and squats down in front of her.

“Jump on.”

“Baaabe, wha’ are you doin’?”

“I’ll carry you.” Kelley says matter of factly, turning around to look at Alex.

“Are’ya craazy? I miight be drunk...BUT there’ss nnno way I’m gonna let’cha carry me 12 floorss.” Alex slurs.

“And I’m sure there is no way you are going to walk them. So, it’s either sleeping in the lobby or me carrying you. And since my fiancée isn’t sleeping in any lobbies, as long as I’m around, you’re going to have to hold on tight, babe.”

“But-“

“End of the discussion.” Kelley says squatting down again. Alex does as she’s told and holds on tight, as Kelley makes her way up the stairs with an unfaltering pace. On the way up, Alex starts very typical drunk conversations and Kelley really has to focus, so that she doesn’t have to laugh.

“Baby?”

“What is it Alex?”

“Baby, yur ssso perfect. Nooo, like reeeally reeeally perfect. Like I don’ deserv’ you.”

“That’s nonsense, princess. You’re even more perfect.”

“Sssee! You always ssay sstuff like tha’, with’cha perfect voice and cha perfect ssmile and- I jus’ love you sso much.“

“Babe, you’re drunk.”

“M’not druunk.”

Kelley stops in the middle of the staircase and turns her head to throw Alex a look of disbelief.

“Oookay, I migh’ be druunk.”

“That’s what I thought.” she says, starting to walk again.

“I loove you, though.” Alex says, pressing a kiss to Kelley’s neck.

“Duuuh.” Kelley says with a Valley girl accent, which causes Alex to laugh. When they finally arrive in their apartment, Kelley carries Alex up the last set of stairs and let’s herself fall on their bed backwards with Alex still on her back.

“Oh my god.” she breathes out exhaustedly, laying on Alex and staring up at the ceiling. Alex’s legs are still wrapped around Kelley’s hips and she softly caresses her collarbone with the one hand and her rib cage with the other. Meanwhile, Kelley strokes the back of Alex’s thighs, which she still holds on to. Alex moves to kiss Kelley’s temple and Kelley turns her head to give her a soft smile, their faces just inches apart.

“You…are my her-o.” Alex whispers, looking deep into Kelley’s eyes. Kelley can see the beautiful blue again, which seems to be even more intense, due to Alex’s eyes being glassy and a little red, which always happens when she’s drunk.

“Wanna know a secret?”

“Yah, what is it?” Alex asks lost in Kelley’s eyes. Kelley leans in and kisses her tenderly.

“Don’t tell anyone.” she whispers when she pulls away. Alex looks at Kelley infatuatedly, releasing a deep breath.

“You drive me craazy.”

“Ditto, but now it’s time to go to bed.” Kelley says pushing herself up and sitting between Alex’s legs at the edge of the bed.

“Nooo, I don’t wanna though.” Alex complains. Alex musters Kelley closely, who’s stretching her arms.  

“Your arms look ssso goo’.” Alex says, sitting up as well to kiss her back, while running her hands over Kelley’s arms. She then snakes them around Kelley’s waist and under her shirt, stroking her abs. The horny type of drunk coming out again.

“Alex.” Kelley says warningly.

“I know you wan’it, tiger.”

“I really do, but I also already had ‘it’ tonight.”

“Your sexiness is fffucking me.” Alex whispers against Kelley’s ear sultrily, causing goosebumps all over her body and heat shooting through her body. Kelley knows exactly what Alex is trying right now. Over the years, Alex has mastered to push her buttons and it demands a shit ton of self-control not to give in right now.

“Alex, stop.” Kelley says weakly.

“Look at me.” Alex says, kissing Kelley’s ear.

“I can't look, because then I see your face and it will be over.”

“Babe, I want’cha to fu-“

Kelley stands up quickly, groaning loudly, running her hands through her face in frustration.

“Uh-uh, you’re not getting in my head right now, Alex. I see you’re getting horny again and as much as I want to, we’re not doing this right now.”

“Damn, I almos’ gotcha, right?” Alex slurs.

“You always got me.” Kelley winks, starting to undress and helping Alex out of her dress as well. Kelley chuckles, when Alex immediately falls asleep as soon as she’s undressed. She makes her way downstairs again, getting another glass of water and places it on Alex’s nightstand. When Kelley’s back hits the mattress, Alex seems to sense it and rolls around, laying her head on her chest and clinging onto her as always. Kelley puts her arms around her, holding her tight and falling asleep just seconds later.  

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Love on the brain (Part 7)

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“Oh my god.”

“Okay babe, I need you to calm down. Everything is going to be alright.”

“What do you mean ‘Everything is going to be alright’?! I’m married!”

“Actually, we’re just engaged.”

“Oh shut up, smartass.” Alex bites back. Kelley just chuckles, raising an eyebrow at her and presses a kiss to her cheek.

“Ugh, I’m sorry, baby. I just- I’m so nervous. What is my dad going to say?” Alex apologizes, pouting at Kelley.

“Alex-“ Kelley starts, but right in that moment the doorbell rings loudly. Alex looks at Kelley with wide eyes.

“Relax!” Kelley says looking at Alex warningly on her way to the door. It turns out, that Kelley was right and everything went smoothly. Alex’s parents were absolutely excited and ecstatic about the news and apparently, they were only waiting for Kelley to pop the question.

“What do you mean you kind of already knew?” Alex asks, her jaw dropping slightly.

“Well, Kelley asked me 3 years ago.” Alex’s dad laughs. Alex’s head immediately shoots to the right to look at Kelley perplexedly.

“You did what!? What do you mean ‘she asked’?”

Kelley turns bright red and scratches the back of her head, whistling and avoiding eye-contact.

“Kel!”

“Hmm?”

“Don’t ‘hmm’ me, O’Hara.”

“Okay, fine.” Kelley sighs, the mentioning of her last name the only warning sign she needs.

“Eh, so remember that time after the World Cup, when we went to your parents BBQ party?” Kelley grins softly. Alex parents both let out a lighthearted laugh.

“Yeah, sure. What about it?” Alex urges. It was the first time Alex officially introduced Kelley as her girlfriend to her family. Clearly, they had been friends before and knew each other’s parents really well, however it still was a big step being introduced as a girlfriend. The evening went really well, but that was no surprise to Alex. Her parents always loved Kelley and welcomed her to the family instantly.  

“Later that night Kelley sat on the porch with your father, when you and your sisters went to buy ice cream at the store.” Alex’s mom says. Alex remembers the trip to the store very well. After dinner, everybody was in the mood for some ice cream, however the freezer was empty, which is why her and her sisters tried to find a store that was still open.

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FLASHBACK:

“Mr. Morgan?”

“Kelley, I told you, it’s Michael.” he chuckles.

“Yeah, sorry.” Kelley smiles.

“So, I know this may seem totally inappropriate and it probably is, no it definitely is. But I don’t know how to say this without sounding like a total idiot.” Kelley shakes her head.

“Come on, spit it out.” Michael says.

“I’m going to marry your daughter.” Kelley says abruptly. Michael raises his eyebrows at Kelley questioningly.

“I mean- not now!! I haven’t asked! And I’m not going to… for now. But someday, I’ll ask…I’m sure. And I wanted to ask you, if you’d be okay with that? Of course only, if she ever would want me. She may not... I’m not sure. She may find som-“

“Okay stop right there, Kelley.” Michael interrupts sternly. Kelley looks at him with wide eyes, gulping in fear.

“Which daughter are we talking about?” he says with a blank expression. Kelley looks at him in panic, her mouth opening to answer, then closing again.

“What?” she ultimately brings out. Michael starts laughing loudly, to which Kelley lets out a relieved sigh.

“You should have seen your face.” he laughs.

“Hey, that wasn’t funny at all.” Kelley says stressed out, but ultimately also has to laugh.

“So what do you say?” Kelley asks thoughtfully, when the laughter dies down. The both of them lean their elbows on the fence and stare into the distance, beer in hand.  

“What did you think I would say?”

“Well, I hoped for a yes, but I’d also be okay with a ‘you first have to kill a beast’.”

Michael chuckles and shakes his head, he then turns his head to look at Kelley.

“Kelley, you already were like family to us and we always knew you had a special place in Alex’s life. We really like you and as long as you treat her right, you have our blessings. So of course you can marry her and I can assure you that there is no beast killing involved.” Michael holds up his beer to clink it with Kelley’s. Kelley happily clinks her beer with Michaels.

“I think killing a beast would have been an easier quest than finding the right words to explain what she means to me.” Kelley breathes out.

“See that’s why I’d let you marry her in an instant. Still, I’m sure you’ll find a way.” Michael reassures her with a smile on his face.

“Thanks Michael. For everything.” Kelley says, looking at him sincerely.

“Oh no, I’ll have to thank you. You are good for her.”

“If she’ll have me.”

Alex’s sister pulls up the driveway and they exit the car. Alex walks towards the porch, holding up the two boxes of ice cream triumphantly. She only has eyes for Kelley, giving her a bright smile when she spots her.

“I think she might.” Michael says.

“Babe, we got the ice cream.” she cheers happily. Kelley watches Alex with a huge smile, which Michael watches closely. Alex walks up to Kelley and gives her a kiss.

“Your favorite.” Alex smiles, handing one of the boxes to Kelley.

“You’re amazing. Thank you pretty girl.” Kelley smiles back and kisses her cheek. Michael pats Kelley’s back and leaves the porch to go inside.

“What were the two of you talking about?”

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“Just soccer.” Alex whispers, a tear rolling down her face, as she remembers what Kelley’s answer was that evening. She puts her arms around Kelley, who enfolds her in a tight embrace. Alex kisses Kelley lovingly.

“You’re just- . I love you, so much.” Alex shakes her head. Alex’s parents watch them in awe and Alex’s mom presses a kiss to Michael’s cheek.

Soon enough Kelley’s family arrives and they are just as, if not even more excited. Everything is going perfectly fine and their apartment is filled with the people they love. They all prepare dinner together and plan the next day. At 1 am everybody has left for their hotels, since the next days are packed and everybody needs a good night of sleep before Christmas Day.

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When the next morning arrives, both Kelley and Alex are excited like little children. They spend the whole morning preparing, decorating and singing Christmas songs. When their families arrive, the house is stacked with people. Both of their families aren’t exactly small, which is why the huge apartment suddenly feels relatively cramped.  All that can be heard is loud, happy chatting and laughing, as well as Kelley’s Christmas playlist. Alex is definitely stressed, which isn’t difficult to see since she orders everybody around and paces back and forth between the living room and the dining room, disappearing from time to time to take a look at the turkey in the kitchen. Kelley leans against the doorframe of the kitchen, smirking, as she watches her give orders with the same attitude she has when a soccer game isn’t turning out like she wants it to.

“Dad, stop talking, I need help. And I won’t take no for an answer.”

“Later, honey.”

“No not later, right now.”

At one point, Alex stops dead in her tracks, becoming aware that somebody is watching her. She looks at Kelley, who’s still standing there with her arms crossed and this darn smirk Alex loves. Alex walks towards and then past her, entering the kitchen. Kelley’s gaze follows her in amusement.

“Stop smirking and help me, O’Hara.” she sasses over her shoulder. Kelley looks behind her and sees that everybody is engrossed in conversation. She closes the door of the kitchen and approaches Alex from behind, turning her around in one swift motion and hoisting her up onto the kitchen counter, so she is standing in between Alex’s legs      

“No need to be stressed, princess. Everything is going smoothly.” Kelley says pulling Alex close and putting her hands under her shirt, stroking her waist up and down. Alex exhales loudly, as her arms wrap around Kelley’s neck and she melts into her, pulling her close with her legs.

“Is it?”

“Yeah, stop pacing around and start enjoying the evening. Everything is ready and I’ll look after the turkey, deal?”

“How are you always so perfect? I’m a mess.”

“You’re flawless.”

“I feel bad for ordering everyone around.” Alex sighs.

“That you did.” Kelley chuckles.

“Look, a mess.”

“You’re sexy when you’re bossy.” Kelley whispers into Alex’s ear, kissing her earlobe.

“Oh you like that, don’t you?” Alex breathes.

“I like everything about you.”

Alex pulls her head back a bit and starts kissing Kelley. However, just when things start to heat up, the door bursts open.

“Damn, in the kitchen? Really sis?” Kelley’s sister Erin whoops amused. Alex pulls away quickly, trying to regain her composure, meanwhile Kelley puts her arms around her back, lifting her up from the counter, which causes her to squeal in surprise.

“My kitchen, my fiancée, none of your business.” Kelley counters, laying Alex down on the square counter in the middle of the kitchen, starting to kiss her neck, who is laughing at Kelley’s antics.

“Cut it out you maniac.” Alex laughs. Kelley smiles at her and also burst into laughter when she sees the look on her sister’s face.

“You two are so cute, it’s disgusting.” she sighs, rolling her eyes.

After Kelley overtook turkey duty, Christmas Day is a full on success. Kelley is standing at the Christmas tree, chatting with her brother, watching the scenario in front of her. She is happy to see that Alex is finally fully relaxing. She is sitting on the couch, leaning her head against her mom’s shoulder and watching the children unpack their presents. When Kelley feels her phone buzzing in her pocket, she quickly takes a look at the message. She puts down her glass and excuses herself. She walks up to Alex and holds out her hand for her to take.

“I got a surprise for you.”

“Kel, we said we would wait until later with the presents.”

“I know, but this one can’t wait.”

Alex looks at her disapprovingly, but Kelley just motions for her to take her hand, which she does. She leads her out of the apartment and into the hallway.

“Babe, tell me why do we make those rules, if you never stick to them?” Alex laughs, as Kelley leads her to the elevator without saying a word.

“The elevator? Are we leaving? It’s cold! I got no jacket.”

Kelley just stops in front of it, looking at Alex silently.

“What? Are you a mime all of the sudden? What’s going on?” Alex looks at her confused, while the elevator dings and the doors open. Kelley nods towards the door and Alex follows her gaze.

“Surprise!!!!” a loud voice yells.

“Oh my god!! ALLIE!!!” Alex yells back, jumping into her arms. Kelley laughs loudly, as Bati covers his ears, grimacing. She walks up to him and hugs him tightly, which Alex does just seconds after. After everybody hugged everybody tightly and they wished each other Merry Christmas, Alex starts asking questions.

“What are you guys doing here?”

“Well, I wouldn’t want to miss celebrating my best friends’ engagement, right?”

Alex looks at her with wide eyes.

“I-oh my god, I’ve been wanting to tell you, but it-“

“It’s all been a blur? Yes, believe me I know. It’s totally fine, Al. It’s only been a few hours.” Allie laughs. Alex looks at her relieved.

“Besides, your fiancée got me covered.” Allie smiles at Kelley. Alex turns around to look at Kelley completely baffled, who grins at her.

“When did you tell her?”

“Uhm, about two weeks ago, on the first day she visited us.” Kelley says.

“YOU KNEW?” Alex asks absolutely taken aback.

“Oh I’ve been knew sister.” Allie answers cheekily.

“I can’t believe the two of you.” Alex says dumbfounded, her jaw dropping.

“Did everyone know? Bati, you too?” Alex laughs.

“Not until Allie told me.” he smiles.

“Okay, so clearly immediately.” Kelley jokes.

“Shut up, Worms.”

"Al, let me see that rock." Allie continues excitedly, paying her full attention to Alex. Alex holds up her hand with the breathtakingly beautiful ring and smiles brightly.

"Wow! Worms, you've outdone yourself. I think I'm blind." Allie shrieks.

"That ring is great, Kel." Bati contributes.

"That's because of the woman wearing it." Kelley argues, winking at Alex, who blows her a kiss.

"How come you never say something like this about me?" Allie sasses, looking at Bati reproachfully.

"I do, you're just always talking, start listening." Bati jokes, which causes them all to laugh.

“Okay let’s go inside again, are you staying until New Year’s?” Alex asks Bati, hooking her arm with his as they walk towards the apartment door. Kelley grins at Allie brightly, which is reciprocated with a just as bright smile. Allie puts her arm around Kelley’s shoulder, squeezing it tightly as they follow Alex and Bati.

“You did great, Kel.”

“I know.” she says, as she looks at Alex tenderly.

“You’re such a little sap.” Allie smiles, which makes Kelley laugh.

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After dinner, Kelley disappeared upstairs to entertain Molly, Alex’s little nice, who is six and really obsessed with Kelley. So it was no surprise that she wouldn’t quiet down, until Kelley promised to play with her for a bit. Now they are lying on their stomachs in Alex’s office, drawing in one of Molly’s coloring books.

“Kelley?”

“Are you in love with Aunt Alex?”

Kelley looks at her surprised.

“I am.”

Molly giggles and Kelley smiles at her.

“You’ve got a pretty great aunt, haven’t you?”

“Yeah, the best!”

“See, that’s why I love her.” Kelley says, thinking that the conversation is over. However, she’s stunned when Molly addresses the topic again.

“When did you know you were in love with Alex?” she asks interested.

“Hmm, that’s quite a good question, Mol. It’s not that easy to answer.” Kelley says, pretending to think about it really hard, which makes Molly giggle loudly.

“But, I can remember one particular moment pretty clearly.”

“You can?” Molly asks excited.

“Yeah.”

“What happened?”

“Well, one day, when we had a day off in soccer camp, I asked Alex to go to the beach with me to watch the stars. So, we lay down on a blanket we brought and watched the stars for some time. However, all of the sudden a huge firework started somewhere down the beach.”

“Wooah.”

“Yeah, amazing right? So, the firework lit up the night sky in bright, beautiful colors and your aunt turned around to look at me just for a few seconds and you know what Mol?”

“What?”

“That was the moment. The way she looked at me.”

“How did she look at you?”

“She looked at me as if I did it all for her, as if it was all planned, the entire firework.”

Molly’s eyes light up, as she listens mesmerized.

“You know Mol, Alex looked at me, as if I was really strong and knew what I was doing. She thought I had everything under control.” Kelley smiles softly.

“Did you?”

“No, because in the moment she looked at me, I lost all the control and strength I had. But what is quiet funny about that, is that at the same time she made me feel like I did.”

“How is that possible?” Molly wonders astonished.

“I don’t know, but it might be a miracle, like in those fairytales you like to read.”

“Wow.”      

“Wanna know a secret?”

Molly nods keenly, getting even more excited. Kelley lowers her voice, as if to tell a very important secret.

“Believe it or not, but even though the firework was really really pretty, all I could look at was your aunt.”

“Really? Why? Fireworks are so beautiful.” Molly gasps.

“Yeah, they are, aren’t they? But for me, no firework in the entiiiire world will ever be as beautiful as her.”

Somebody clears their throat behind them, which makes both Molly and Kelley turn around quickly. Both look at Alex with wide eyes and Molly covers her mouth with both of her small hands and runs straight towards the door and out of the room, leaving Kelley and Alex alone. Kelley jumps to her feet, straightening her clothes. Alex walks towards her, coming to a halt right in front of her. She lightly brushes her fingers over Kelley’s cheek and places her other hand on Kelley’s chest, right above her heart, caressing it softly. Kelley lifts her head to look at Alex, who looks at her just the way she looked at her on the beach. Kelley closes her eyes and intertwines her hand with the hand that is stroking her cheek, leaning into it.

“You’re so perfect.” Alex whispers, mustering her intently, tracing her fingertips over Kelley’s freckles.

“Do you want to know how it felt to me?”

Kelley just nods, reopening her eyes.  

“Right in that moment it seemed as if there was neither space nor time. And all heaviness I ever felt, was drained away by weightlessness. You made me feel so save. That’s how I still feel. Every single time I’m with you, every time I look at you. When it comes to you, I am at a loss of words. I can’t fathom how beautiful you are, what you do to me, how sweet you are to me, how gentle you are with me. You take care of me, even if it means to forget yourself. There is no one in this world, who makes me feel like you do. I love you more and more each second and I feel like it must be impossible to love someone that much. But I do. I’m so into you, it’s unreal. And you are taking my breath away, again and again, Kel.”

Kelley goes in for a tender kiss, putting her arms around Alex’s waist.

“I can’t wait for you to be my wife.” Kelley whispers. They share a few sweet kisses and then decide to join their families again, walking down the stairs hand in hand and never leaving each other’s side for the rest of the night. Later that night, everybody left except for both of their parents. They banned Alex and Kelley from the kitchen, insisting on cleaning it up, since Alex and Kelley did everything else. When everything is cleaned up, they head for the living room to say goodbye.

“Shhhh.” Kelley’s mom quietly shushes the chuckling dads as they enter the living room. They are met with the sight of Alex and Kelley laying on the couch, fast asleep and cuddled up to each other. Alex is laying in Kelley’s arms, resting her head in her neck, their legs tangled and Kelley’s head resting against Alex’s, while they are holding hands.

“Aww, look at them, they must have been exhausted.” Kelley’s mom says, looking at them lovingly. Alex’s mom walks up to them, to cover them with a blanket that is laying on the armchair.

“They are perfect for each other, aren’t they?” she smiles.

“That they are.” Kelley’s mom smiles back, as they leave the apartment on tip toes, turning off the lights.