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killmonk · 1 year ago

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hate the military hate being like the 4th generation of 17 year old kid to be like "I really hope today my friend doesn't lose his leg in the middle east somewhere". like girl he needs to take his ACTs put him back in iowa please for the love of GOD dishonorable discharge for something stupid and then hes home 🙂. but alas things will never be like My Freshman Year Of Highschool Again Because I Am Not 14 Anymore And Nothing Will Go Back To The Way It Was.

#sam joining the military is and was a.. point of contention in our friendship.#unfortunately im still gonna spend the next four years chewing at my nails waiting between calls.#the air force keeps sending me recruitment pamphlets thank god every math grade #on my hs transcript is a D or i would probably. i cant let my best friend go to war alone. my way i to abandoning all my morals and my spine #like jesus h christ i really do despise the military and ive seen ptsd and the va make a monster out of my father but the #whole like. well ur going im going i camt let my brother go to war alone. thing i understand it i really do #keeping my sanity by sending sam videos of me reading chomsky out loud alone in my truck for him to open #and call me a fag over. god.#this is so nonsensical. thinking a lot of things.#if i could change anything i probably would have. not just Watched the stagnating highschooler military recruitment pipeline happen.#maybe i worry so much more than I really should bc if anything happens to him i know ill feel guilty. hes his own person he's 18 but what if #i had been a little meaner when he brought it up gave him that much more shit talked that much more about politics.#delete later

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