#kaxpha lost lance au

[bleusarcellewrites]

Don't Repeat History

I couldn’t help myself ;u;

Important stuff:

This small scene is BASED on this beautiful comic of @kaxpha Lost Lance Au.  (Art: http://kaxpha.tumblr.com/post/159880198382/kaxpha-part-22-hell-go-back-and-apologize)

Credit to my amazing amazing talented funny wonderful @kaxpha who just keep making cry.

This is not cannon in her Au. This is just my take on it, so yeah, keep that in mind!!

Ok, I’m done. I did this like, in half and hour and stuff so it’s pretty simple but yeah. *Shrugs* 

Disclaimer: Voltron doesn’t belong to me and neither does the AU.

The words leave him before he could stop himself.

“This is the Blue Lion?” He asks, voice small as he stares up at the big lion in front of him, something inside him urging him to come closer but he pushes it back stubbornly.

Allura nods besides him, a pleased smile on her face. “Yes, you used to be her paladin. The Blue Lion is known to be one of the friendliest of Lions; your bond with her has been so strong since the beginning, never wavering in the least. It is said that –”

Lance tunes Allura’s voice down, leaving behind a faint ringing noise in his ears as he stares wide eyed at Blue’s motionless eyes.

He feels a tug inside him one more time and this time he winces, feeling it more physically than mental.

The ringing turns into purrs and soft growling and Lance breathing come out short as he watches Blue’s dim eyes lighten up with life.

One, two, three ticks and then it’s like Blue’s eyes snap open and images fill his head.

He can’t make sense of anything. The faces are blurred, the noises that start as laughter turn into painful screams and sobs. Every feeling overwhelms him: there’s anxiety, excitement, stubbornness, determination, pride, love.

There’s relief. There’s a soft comfort feeling in the back of his head but it’s not enough to calm his breathing, to ease his tense shoulder and beating heart.

Lance vaguely notices that he started shaking, barely hearing the muffled drowned voice of Allura near him, calling to him, asking for him.

He doesn’t understand the words, but he doesn’t bothers to. He just needs to go, there’s too much around him and inside him. He can’t be here, he can’t deal with this, he needs to leave.

He needs to leave.

“I...uh…” Lance blurts out, licking his lips nervously before he clears his throat and tries again, “I...I need to leave...I’m….I’m sorry.”

He doesn’t wait for an answer. He turns around and heads towards Blue haggar’s exit, footsteps quick and hurried.

He faintly acknowledges Allura running behind him, once again calling for him, asking him not to go but the purring inside his head is getting louder until it they become sad panicked cries and they make his heart ache painfully.

“Please, just stay for a little while longer, I still have so much to tell you.” Allura pleads, eyebrows furrowed in concern as she watches him shake,“Lance, please –”

“That’s not my name!” He snaps, turning his head to the side to glare at her and Allura stops short at the intensity in his misty blue eyes, “That’s….that’s not my name.” He repeats weakly, scowl disappearing as he catches Allura’s shocked face.

“I-I’m sorry.” He stutters, biting his lower lip guiltily before he gives her his back and starts walking away. “Please, just…leave me alone.”

She does. Allura lets him leave sadly before she turns around to look at Blue and tries her best to comfort the crying Lion in silence.

Keith doesn’t hesitate to step into the brunet’s way when he turns the corner.

He knew something like this would happen. Keith had known from the moment Lance stepped into the Castle that the brunet will be a ticking bomb and something will set him off, forcing him to leave again.

Keith couldn’t let that happen.

“Hey!” He shouts, making his presence known behind the corner he has been hiding in, “Lance, wait up! You can’t just –!”

“Don’t start with me, Keith.” Lance says, exasperated and annoyed, “Just –Just leave me alone. I didn’t ask for this. I told you back then when we first met: I don’t belong here. This is not me. I’m not the guy you guys need or miss. I’m not –”

“But you are!” Keith shouts, small angry tears gathering in the corner of his eye, “You’re Lance! We need you, we have always need you –!”

“Just stop, okay¡?” Lance snaps, not bothering to wipe away the tears streaming down his face, “Just...stop, Keith. I need to go. I can’t –” Lance sighs, dropping his shoulders in defeat as he looks away from the black haired man and turns around, “Goodbye, Keith.”

As if Keith would let this happen.

He promised. Keith promised himself.

He wasn't going to lose Lance again. He can’t, he can’t, he can’t –

“No!” Keith snaps furious, “No! Goodbye? That’s all I get? A goodbye after everything –! You can’t go, you just can't, Lance!” The brunet doesn’t stop his walking and Keith’s breathing just grows more panicked, hand already raised to reach the brunet, “You really are going to go, just like that?” He snarls, hand grabbing the Lance’s shirt and Keith sees the way Lance stops short and clenches his hands into a tight fist.

“And what if I do?” Lance challenges and Keith stays silent.

Lance scoffs, his eyes narrowed angrily as he looks over his shoulder to meet Keith’s eyes, ready to fight his way out and –

Lance’s breath leaves him when he sees the tears running down Keith’s face.

“Do you really not get it?” Keith asks quietly, voice cracking with emotion, not caring in the least when more tears fall from his eyes, “We all fell apart last time.”

Lance frowns and purses his lips in concern when he feels the faint shake of Keith’s hand on his arm and turns around to face him.

“I-I don’t think I could –” Keith takes a sharp breath, dropping his head and watching as some of his tears make their way to the floor, “I-I couldn’t survive it again, Lance. I...I can’t.” Keith confesses, realization hitting him hard in the stomach as he looks up at the brunet, his eyes wide and frighten.

Keith gulps, his shaky hand dropping its grip on Lance’s shirt as they stare at each other in silence, both of their features monotone, neither of them knowing what's going through the other’s head but then –

Then Keith’s being wrapped up in a warm embrace and he feels the sharp flip his heart does when Lance’s hands curls around his waist and the other one holds his head tenderly, stroking the back of his neck in soothing motions.

Keith’s frozen. He can’t think or even make a coherent sentence, but he pushes himself and asks what it’s on his mind. He asks what scares him to know the answer of.

He asks anyways.

“Why are you hugging me?” His voice is small and unsure, because maybe if he spoke too loudly Lance would disappear along with the warm feeling inside him.

“I’m...I’m not sure.” Lance replies, equally as quiet, against Keith’s ear, “I just… really hate seeing you cry for some reason.” He confesses, nose brushing the side of Keith’s temple as he nuzzles deeper into the hug and Keith melts.

“Oh.” Keith breaths out in surprise, his hands slowly raising until they are firmly placed against Lance’s back, “Okay.”

One question. Just one more and this could become a reality, this could be Keith’s hope, it could be his future.

“Does...Does this means –?”

There’s not point of finishing the question when Lance’s lips are being pressed against his temple.

“I’m not going anywhere.” Lance promises, voice cracking with unknown emotions but strong enough to ease Keith’s heart.

Keith lets himself go at the words before he’s sobbing on Lance’s shoulder freely.

They don’t move in a long time.

[bleusarcelle]

Coming Back

I’M SO FUCKING HYPE CKSDJFHSDKJ

Okayokay! Important stuff you guys: 

This small scene is BASED on this beautiful fanart of @kaxpha Lost Lance Au. Bc the art was so BEAUTIFUL FOR NOT TO WRITE SOMETHING OK. (Art: http://kaxpha.tumblr.com/post/158751897306/lost-lance-au)

Credit to my amazing amazing talented funny wonderful @kaxpha who just keep making cry bc of her Aus. 

This is not cannon in her Au. The Kiss could go REAL different. This is just my take on it, so yeah, keep that in mind!! 

That’s it! All the credit goes to her. I love you, dude, this is amazing, I love it with all my heart and damn, I’m so fucking hyPE. 

*Coughs* Excuse any typos/mistakes on it...I was really really hype. 

Disclaimer: Voltron and the Lost Lance Au doesn’t belong to me. 

It was so long ago since he tasted the ocean in Lance’s lips and Keith could almost cry when he feels Lance’s cracked lips moving against his own.

It’s all coming back, every: smell, taste, feeling, touch is coming back to them in a second and Keith only has a split of a second before Lance’s pressing himself closer to him, lips moving slowly and gently on his mouth.

It’s amazing how Lance thinks this is new for him and yet his lips move on their own command. It’s like they remember every corner of Keith’s mouth and every small scar on them. They know the right places to bite on to get Keith moaning and gasping against him. They know every trick, every move and Lance let himself go. He let his lips take over and claim Keith’s mouth as he deepens the kiss.

His mind is running wild. He can’t control himself. Not his hands that place themselves on Keith’s hips and brings him closer to him. Not his lips that keep on biting and moving against Keith’s lips. Not his wild beating heart that is racing against his ribcage.

He’s losing control and that’s how all comes back to him.

The empty hollow feeling inside him starts to fade. It starts getting smaller and smaller as Keith’s hands finds their way to his cheeks, as Keith’s breaths him entirely, as Keith’s body press itself against his own, searching and longing for skin contact.

The haunting feeling that has been with him for years now disappears and Lance could sob out in relief.

“K-Keith.” The brunet whimpers against his lips, “Oh my g-god, K-Keith.”

There are no memories. There are no flashes of late nights with whispered words of affection. There are no splits of seconds that showed him their adventures in all the planets they saved.

There’s nothing at all except for the feeling of belonging and love.

“And that’s enough.” Keith says quietly, caressing Lance’s cheek as the brunet spurts out his thoughts, “That’s enough for me. You being here with me is enough. It will always be enough, ae-in.”

Lance’s heart skips a beat at the pet name and then he feels his cheeks getting warm. He laughs wetly as he nuzzled his face against Kerith and hums in appreciation when Keith starts leaving butterflies kisses all over his face.

[spazzcat]

Fanart of @kaxpha‘s Lost Lance AU, a quick sketch of Keith right after Lotor ruined his life.

[smiles4voltron]

I drew some fanart for two of my favorite Au’s! And the best part is that they are both made by the same person! I adore their Au’s and their art style and if you guys have a chance you should definitely go check it out~ 

We got the Lost Lance Au vThis idea is so sad and is about Lance getting lost from the team with amnesia and Keith is just- ughhhhhh this Au makes me want to cry all the time!  Older Lance with scars and a bit of a buzz cut just slays me. And the fact that he still falls in love with Keith and cares for him even without his memories.... He’s like, he is still Lance deep down and that just breaks my heart but also makes me smile at the same time.  ;-; Kaxpha you evil genius. 

And the Healing Pod Au This Au is one of the coolest ideas! The notion of Lance after stepping out of the healing pod and being able to heal people is just- it is spectacular. And I love when his eyes glow, and Kaxpha mentioned lines growing on his chest and arms the longer he uses the ability and that is super cool! I kind of hope they glow with him whenever he heals someone. 

This Au also terrifies me though, because Lance is such a caring person and is willing to take a bullet for a stranger sometimes- so him now being able to heal any injury is just bound to make him push himself farther than his body can take and Keith is just so worried and AHHH! KAXPHA! YOU KILL ME WITH YOUR IDEAS! 

These are both made by the talented and amazing kaxpha

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@kaxpha for the Lost Lance!AU

I have a whole shit ton of headcannons about Blue and Lance for this AU and I honestly don’t know how much will match with what you already have so I’m going to put it under a cut.

So when Lance is hit with the magic to the side of his head his Quintessence is knocked out of him in an out of body experience and Blue tries to regain it and accidentally sling shots her way out of the machine and is floating trying to fit the pieces together. All of his memories and her bond. (Allura can still feel the Blue Lion, but can’t feel the bond, but doesn’t notice that the part of the Lion that forms bonds to begin with is gone as well)

Now while Blue itself is still functional it no longer has the ability to bond with a new Paladin, I like to think Coran takes over but doesn’t question why Blue is so accepting of him and he finds it odd that he can’t quite feel Blue but everyone is still super distraught at this point to care. They can still form Voltron so long as the pilot of Blue is in connection to the other Paladins (But I don’t know how often they even try, and even if they did Shiro would be the one to notice BUT having a prosthetic his mind already has the adaption to feel a limb that’s not quite right)

So I figure it takes a year for Blue to really fit all the pieces together. At this point, she is still fairly close to Lance and her Quintessence never leaves his side. But she makes a decision, with all of the previous Lance memories in order she can leave it like it is. A Paladin lost in battle and return and find a new one. But her Bond with Lance is with her, but he is not physically dead. So she stays by his side til he returns to the physical form of her.

Lance never sees her, but when he’s near water he can swear he sees a lion in the rain but like it’s reflecting off the raindrops, or catch a glimpse of her in ice.

So flash forward. This is where honestly it could go any which way, but the one I liked most is that at some point after meeting Keith again and the other Paladins Lance asks to see the Lions, and of course Keith facepalms thinking “Oh yeah why didn’t I of that, he’ll jump in Blue and feel the bond then he’ll have to believe us!” 

So when Lance enters the hanger Blue’s Quintessence legit jumps back into her body and in a reboot setting throws up the particle barrier. 

Now Blue hasn’t put off the particle Barrier ever in the hanger and hasn’t since Lance “Died” 

So the tiny part of Lance that was getting more and more hopeful that maybe this was him, maybe they were telling the truth and this was the thing he was missing is CRUSHED. So he runs.

Keith immediate response is to go after Lance but he’s so furious with the Blue lion he instead goes to the Barrier and slams his fist and starts screaming at Blue. 

The Barrier goes down and Kieth is left speechless and marches up to the lion. just because. (Now since Blue is still in possession of all that Lance was and in itself merged their Quintessence it reaches out to comfort Keith)

So Keith gets in the cockpit for maybe the first time ever. (or maybe he hung out just to be there who knows)

Lance is part of the Blue lion and tries to comfort Keith. And Keith sits in the Blue lion and has a mental breakdown cause he can swear up and down that he can hear Lance saying “I’m sorry I’m sorry, I Love you, I’m sorry”

[movedtocrystallineklance]

Lance and Keith from @kaxpha ‘s “lost Lance” AU! I hope you like it! Also I really love this AU!!! Art by @galaxiesandfairies

[mun-jiji-blog]

so i had asked stuff over anon since this is a side blog ah... aahaha uwu 

But hey i diddly dang sketched it all up and stuff and like haven’t done homework but what ever hope you like it?? ;; @kaxpha

i love the AU so much it like gives me all the angst i need tbh uwu 

[ao3feed-klance]

Your Lost Light

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/2X0inYR

by purpleiris97

Based off of Kaxpha's Lost Lance AU. A man is found on the beach on a planet unfamiliar to him surrounded but people that don't look like him or even know him. With the help of a Doctor and her daughter they try to help him remember who he is and were he came from. When a Voltron paladin lands on the planet this missing man, is identified as the Blue Paladin, Lance. Keith, Lance, and rest of the Voltron team have to learn how to help and Lance remember who he is for his sake and Keith's. In case you didn't know I'm bad at summaries.

Words: 1085, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Voltron: Legendary Defender

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: F/F, M/M, F/M, Gen

Characters: Lance (Voltron), Keith (Voltron), Pidge | Katie Holt, Shiro (Voltron), Ofella(OC), Allura (Voltron), Coran (Voltron), Reuq(OC), unnamed OC

Relationships: Keith/Lance (Voltron), Keith & Shiro (Voltron), Keith & Pidge | Katie Holt, Allura & Shiro (Voltron), Lance & Blue Lion (Voltron), ofella/her wife

Additional Tags: by kaxpha, I'd link her if her tumblr wasn't gone, were are you Kaxpha, Angst with a Happy Ending, Amnesia, Lance (Voltron) is Missing, brooding keith, Heavy Canon Divergence, Like AU heavy diverangce, Like AU Heavy Divergence, Jealous Keith (Voltron), Previous Relationship, Pining Keith (Voltron), Slow Burn, Lance (Voltron) Has PTSD - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, everyone just wants to help, Friends to Lovers, Lost Lance AU

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/2X0inYR

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Your Lost Light

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2X0inYR

by purpleiris97

Based off of Kaxpha's Lost Lance AU. A man is found on the beach on a planet unfamiliar to him surrounded but people that don't look like him or even know him. With the help of a Doctor and her daughter they try to help him remember who he is and were he came from. When a Voltron paladin lands on the planet this missing man, is identified as the Blue Paladin, Lance. Keith, Lance, and rest of the Voltron team have to learn how to help and Lance remember who he is for his sake and Keith's. In case you didn't know I'm bad at summaries.

Words: 1085, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Voltron: Legendary Defender

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: F/F, M/M, F/M, Gen

Characters: Lance (Voltron), Keith (Voltron), Pidge | Katie Holt, Shiro (Voltron), Ofella(OC), Allura (Voltron), Coran (Voltron), Reuq(OC), unnamed OC

Relationships: Keith/Lance (Voltron), Keith & Shiro (Voltron), Keith & Pidge | Katie Holt, Allura & Shiro (Voltron), Lance & Blue Lion (Voltron), ofella/her wife

Additional Tags: by kaxpha, I'd link her if her tumblr wasn't gone, were are you Kaxpha, Angst with a Happy Ending, Amnesia, Lance (Voltron) is Missing, brooding keith, Heavy Canon Divergence, Like AU heavy diverangce, Like AU Heavy Divergence, Jealous Keith (Voltron), Previous Relationship, Pining Keith (Voltron), Slow Burn, Lance (Voltron) Has PTSD - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, everyone just wants to help, Friends to Lovers, Lost Lance AU

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2X0inYR

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Remember Me

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2CrxxP6

by usukimpala

"We had a bonding moment, I cradled you in my arms!?"

"Nope. Don't remember, didn't happen."

Aka a fic based on @kaxpha's (tumblr) Lost Lance au where in the final battle Lance goes missing, loses all his memories, and is found later with his new turtle family

Words: 985, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Voltron - Fandom

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M, Multi

Characters: Keith (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron), Pidge (Voltron), Hunk (Voltron), Lance (Voltron), Matt Holt

Relationships: Keith/Lance (Voltron), Allura/Shiro (Voltron)

Additional Tags: Lost Lance AU

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2CrxxP6

[starryeyed-char]

Erased

This is a story BASED ON the Lost Lance AU which BELONGS TO @kaxpha which is AMAZING and everyone should check it out. This particular one-shot which is longer than I thought it’d be is based on this post and this animatic.

This is one of my favorite klance AUs ever, because you can just tell the sheer amount of thought and effort that went into it. I hope I was able to do it justice.

aNYWAY here it is. Sorry, I’m posting this later than I originally planned.

Lance’s leg was bent at an awkward angle, and every time he got the nerve to look at it just made him feel worse than before. 

Hunk had suffered a few bruised ribs at the very least, and it was likely Pidge received a minor concussion. One of Shiro’s legs had been grazed by a laser, and Keith seemed to be the only one of the five of them who could still stand on two feet.

But Lance couldn’t remember a time when he’d ever felt happier. Because they’d finally done it.

They’d taken down Prince Lotor, heir to the all-powerful Galra empire. He kneeled on the ground, hands clutching his stomach. Lance couldn’t help but feel a bit smug at that— he was the one to land a shot there.

Keith stumbled forward, one hand clutched to his still bleeding eye, the other holding his activated bayard firmly. He glanced back at the blue paladin, looking somewhere between concerned and overjoyed.

Lance, who could care less about the pain in his leg at this point, offered his best smile of encouragement. Keith nodded, and took a staggering step towards the Galra Prince.

They’d discussed it beforehand. Keeping him conscious while they took him back to Coran and Allura was too dangerous. Lotor was in no condition to keep fighting, and so Keith had naturally stepped up to deliver the final blow, so they could confine him and put him in space jail, or wherever criminals of the known universe went to do time. Lance had no idea.

He could barely contain his joy. Against all odds, they’d made it. The seven of them, from the beginning. The Voltron team had finally finished what they’d started what now seemed like so long ago.

Thoughts of Earth plagued his mind, of the rain, the ocean, the clouds. Finally getting to see his family again, telling them all he’d been through, returning as a hero, introducing them to his team.

Introducing them to Keith.

The happy images fizzled out when Lance realized that Lotor was smiling. Keith was giving some elaborate speech about right and wrong, and the prince just grinned eerily, as if he were in on some secret joke.

A chill ran down Lance’s spine, but he saw nothing wrong with the situation. Keith had his bayard raised, ready to strike. Lotor hadn’t even lifted a finger to defend himself, probably knowing that it was hopeless—

Lance’s gaze snapped to Lotor’s hands, still firmly pressed against his stomach. He immediately saw the purple glow, gradually glowing brighter. A quick glance around the room was enough to tell him no one else had noticed it.

Lance’s brain started going a mile a minute.

Keith was standing nearby, but Lotor’s hand was already moving with Keith completely oblivious. Any warning Lance gave would be too late for the red paladin to move, if his voice even worked after that fight. What would happen if that blast hit Keith?

Lance wasn’t about to wait around to find out.

He made a split-second decision, adrenaline numbing the pain in his leg enough to allow him to stand and rush forward. Lance used all his energy in that one burst of speed. He didn’t push Keith out of the way so much as collapse against him, but it was enough.

When Lotor raised his hand to expel the purple light that’d been quickly building up, Lance was the one standing in its path.

Keith fell unceremoniously to the ground, and turned around to look at Lance with that frustrated yet amused glare the blue paladin loved so much, before his purple eyes widened in fear. “Lance, what—”

That was as far as he got before a scream ripped through the air.

Lance had no idea who was screaming, but he guessed it was probably him due to the rawness of his throat. The voices of his teammates just sounded like white noise through the blood rushing in his ears, his entire field of vision consumed by the blinding light. 

Everything he saw, heard, and felt was just pain, pain, pain. Lance thought the explosion from Sendak was bad, but this was as if every cell in his body had been lit on fire.

And then… nothingness.

The purple glow receded just as abruptly as it had come, but it still took Keith’s eyes a second to focus.

When they did, the first thing he caught sight of was Lotor. Unable to summon the energy to remain upright any longer, the prince had collapsed onto the floor. And he was laughing.

Panicked, Keith surveyed the room. While the other Paladins seemed unharmed, Lance was nowhere in sight. His bayard and helmet lay discarded on the floor where he’d been sitting before he…

“LANCE?” Hunk’s broken voice called across the room, confusion and fear evident in his voice.

“What… what the fuck just happened?” Pidge asked, trying to push herself into a standing position.

Keith wasted no time in diving towards Lotor. He yanked him up by the collar, forcing him to meet Keith’s eyes.

“Where is he?” Keith demanded, voice dangerous. “What did you do to him?”

It was with another laugh that Lotor responded. “He’s dead.”

A collective gasp was the only noise, everyone too stunned to say anything for a moment.

Keith steeled himself, refusing to believe it even as the words caused his heart to drop. “You’re lying,” he shook his head. “Tell us where he is, now.”

Lotor couldn’t seem to stop laughing. “That spell I used? It erases the target from the universe. No blood, no remains, no mess. Just gone. You’ll never see your precious blue paladin again,” he smiled at Keith. “It’s a shame, really. You loved each other so much. To think you were so close to your happy ending.”

Keith was unable to stop the scream of outrage from escaping, but he didn’t care. He threw himself at Lotor, for once not holding back. He tossed his bayard aside, going in with his fists and hitting him again, and again, and again.

“YOU’RE WRONG!” he found himself screaming. “YOU’RE WRONG, HE CAN’T BE DEAD, HE CAN'T—”

Arms wrapped around him, pulling him backwards. Keith kicked and thrashed, but his protests were ignored by Shiro. Lotor had long since fallen unconscious, and his blood covered Keith’s hands.

“KEITH!” Shiro was yelling over Keith’s own enraged cries. “Keith, this is Lotor we’re talking about! He’s got to be lying. If Lance had died, there would be a body. He’s not just gone, that’s impossible, but he could be very injured. We need to get Lotor back to Allura so we can find Lance through the bond.”

Keith nodded, though his entire body felt numb. But of course Shiro was right. He ignored the small part of him that whispered Lotor was telling the truth, and scooped up Lance’s bayard and helmet, resolving to return them if— when they found Lance. So they all returned to the castle, carrying Lotor with them.

The second they saw Allura and Coran, however, Keith knew something was wrong.

Allura’s hands covered her mouth, tears streaming down her face. Coran’s head rested on the front control panel, shoulders shaking with silent cries. They both looked up to see the four remaining paladins, and Allura let out a broken sob.

“It’s fine,” Pidge said quickly. “Lotor hit Lance with some blast that teleported him or something, but we just need to find him.”

“Find him?” Allura asked, confusion evident in her voice. “He’s… Lance is dead.”

Weeks.

Weeks, and weeks of scouring the universe, searching for any sign of Lance, even trying in vain to communicate with the blue lion.

Weeks and weeks of nothing.

Allura had explained to them that she felt the bond sever, that Lance’s connection with the blue lion had been destroyed. The only way that would happen was if the paladin died.

But Keith still hadn’t wanted to believe it. They’d looked anyway, but every time they came up empty-handed. Slowly but surely, they’d been forced to accept that Lance was truly gone.

Keith had been forced to shove down and ignore the small part of him that insisted on Lance being alive, somehow. Somewhere.

It all just felt so wrong. They’d finally defeated the Galra empire. The galaxies finally freed of Lotor’s corrupt regime. Everyone in the universe was celebrating. Everyone, except four humans and two Alteans living in a castle that felt much too quiet.

The team went to party after party on the newly liberated planets, all in mourning black.

There had even been a funeral.

The team sent all Lance’s photographs, his helmet, his bayard, and his clothes from Earth off in a pod. Even if his body was gone, they needed some sort of closure.

Keith caught Hunk and Pidge installing a tracker in the pod, just in case Lance returned and wanted his blue lion slippers back. He promised he wouldn’t tell the others, if he was allowed to keep Lance’s jacket. In truth, he wouldn’t have told them anyway.  Keith was glad that it wasn’t just him who still held hope for Lance’s return.

But Allura insisted they stop looking, assuring them that if Lance were still alive, she’d be able to feel it.

Keith wore Lance’s hoodie as he stared up at the stars, and he drew it tighter around himself.

The last time he’d been here on the observation deck, Lance accompanied him. The blue paladin talked happily about how great it would be to introduce his family to the love of his life, how Keith would love all of them, the possibility of a future together on Earth far away from that miserable little shack in the desert.

Now Keith was alone, wondering what he would say when they made the inevitable return trip.

Your grandson piloted the blue lion. Your nephew saved the universe. Your brother was a hero.

Your son is dead.

And Keith loved him.

His mind was plagued with everything he could’ve done differently. If Keith could go back and change it, he’d kill Lotor on the spot. The prince was locked away with the Blade of Marmora, no doubt enduring interrogation after interrogation.

To Keith, it wasn’t anywhere near enough for what he’d done. Not when his actions had cost Keith the best part of his life.

A voice startled him out of his thoughts.

“Do you ever realize how far we’ve come?” Hunk asked, coming to stand beside Keith on the deck.

Keith didn’t turn around, he couldn’t. A tear slipped down his cheek from his good eye, uninvited.

“I mean, look at where we are,” Hunk continued, voice breaking. “It’s been so long since we started out, but it feels like just yesterday Lance was flying us all out into space in the blue lion.”

Hearing his name sent a renewed jolt of pain through Keith, and he whirled around to leave. But Hunk caught his arm.

“Hear me out?” Hunk’s voice was barely a whisper now. “That’s… that’s all I ask.”

Keith simply stood still, as the tears continued to fall.

“If I could go back and change what happened that day, I’d make sure his life was spared,” Hunk sounded on the verge of crying himself now, and a sob escaped Keith’s lips before he could stop it.

He turned to see that tears streamed down the yellow paladin’s face as well.

“If… if I could trade his life for mine,” Hunk pressed a hand to his chest, a sad smile making its way onto his face. “Then he’d be standing here with you, right now. And you’d… you’d both be smiling. He always knew how to make you smile, no matter what.”

Keith saw it in his mind’s eye for a minute. The war over, Lance looking at the stars with him. Laughing to themselves as they talked about their future. Together.

“If you guys got your happy ending,” Hunk said softly, as if he could see it, too. “Then that’d be enough.”

He held open his arms, and Keith collapsed into them with sobs wracking his body. They stayed there like that, just the two of them on the balcony, mourning the boy from Cuba who shined the brightest in both of their lives. Whose light was extinguished too soon.

Galaxies away, someone woke up. A boy, scared, injured, and alone with only one word that seemed to have any connection to the past he couldn’t remember.

Blue.

[bleusarcelle]

Everything Fades But Love

Alright alright! 

Important stuff: 

This small scene is BASED on this beautiful fanart of @kaxpha Lost Lance Au. Bc the art was so BEAUTIFUL FOR NOT TO WRITE SOMETHING OK. (Art: http://kaxpha.tumblr.com/post/158758221496/good-and-bad-times-lost-lance-au-sketches)

Credit to my amazing amazing talented funny wonderful @kaxpha who just keep making cry bc of her Aus. 

This is not cannon in her Au. This is just my take on it, so yeah, keep that in mind!! 

You can find the first part of the art in this link: http://ciuucalata.tumblr.com/post/159123180344/this-fic-has-been-on-my-chest-for-days-and-im-so made by my beautiful talented mutal @ciuucalata​ who made the part of Shallura Wedding based on the same art. 

So basically: Ellie wrote the Shallura and I wrote the Sad Keithy Boy angst. <333

Ok, I’m done. 

Disclaimer: Voltron doesn’t belong to me and neither does the AU. 

Keith smile drops as soon as the elevator door closes.

He allows himself to sigh and let his shoulder loose, as if the mere action of smiling physically exhausted him.

He can still hear the jovial music behind the door from the Royal Wedding and Keith can’t help but hum pleased, his mouth twitching upward for a second as his mind flashes him the scene of Allura beaming brightly at Shiro as the leader of Voltron holds her close to him, smiling down at her softly and lovingly.

Keith’s stomach drops as he remembers their bright livid eyes, thinking that they have everything they could ever ask for.

They are happy. They are in love.

They are lucky.

Keith wishes he could have some of their luck.

The hotel’s elevator opens with a sound and then he steps out. Keith drags his feet down the unfamiliar hallway as he walks towards their designated room –

His room. He corrects in his mind, feeling the familiar pain inside him as he remembers.

With every step, the music from the wedding starts to fade and it’s not until the door of the room closes behind him that Keith can hear the strong pounding beat of his heart.

He leans back on the door, closing his eyes and tries to calm himself down. He’s not successful in the least because there are not quiet words to guide him through or soft touches of hands in his cheeks or the feel of lips on his face that whisper quiet ‘I love you’s.

There’s only silence.

“Oh, L-Lance.” Keith whimpers, as if the mere action of calling him out hurt him physically, “P-please, please, come b-back.”

Silence answers him in the only way it can: with emptiness and realization. It makes Keith choke with his own breath and then he’s sliding down until he’s on the ground.

His hands move in automatic. He reaches and grabs the lonely worn out jacket that hangs from the corner of the bed next to him and pulls it towards him, hugging it tight against his chest for a few minutes, burying his face on it and breathing it in.

Sobs shakes his body and he’s glad that they are muffled by the jacket. He takes his time. he allows himself to break and curse because there’ nothing left for him to do.

He tries to fill in the silence with a broken lullaby. It’s an old song Lance had taught him so long ago but the words were impregnated in his brain for some reason.

Keith sings. He hums and his voice breaks in every other line but he sings quietly to himself. The words of the song echoes around him and Keith takes comfort on them because it almost feels like there’s someone else with him singing with him.

If he tries hard enough he can even feel a body pressed against him. If he tries hard enough he can feel the touch of soft lips pressing themselves against his temple.

But it can never be enough.

Suppressing a sob, Keith pulls away from the jacket and puts it around him, letting it hug him as best as it can as it hangs loose on his thin slender frame.

Keith takes a deep breath as he pressed the long sleeve to his nose and he can feel new tears falling as soon as the smell of Lance hits him.

He chokes out a sob, tightening his hold on the jacket around him in a poor attempt to keep the smell of earth and ocean close. The smell of Lance on it it’s already fading.

It’s fading so fast and it scares him to death.

He doesn’t remember what the sky back on earth looks like because he can no longer see Lance’s eyes that always reminded him of it. He can no longer remember the sound of crashing waves because Lance’s no longer shouting in victory after every mission.

He can’t remember feel of the soft breeze it always came with the sunset back when he lived in the shack because Lance’s no longer here with him whispering comforting words in his ear late at night.

He can’t remember what it feels like to touch Lance’s skin. He can’t remember Lance’s laughter or his smile.

Everything blurry and there are only small specks of blue and Keith can’t reach them. He can’t grab them. He can't, he can’t, he can’t -

Everything is fading and Keith’s in agony.

So he holds on tight. He holds on and keeps a death grip on the memories on the feelings. He keeps the confession of love and affection close to his soul and locks them inside.

Lance’s jacket is his only things he has left. It’s the only thing that ground him and pushes him forward. There’s nothing more.

There’s no more butterflies kisses in the morning. There are no longer playful banter that turns into messy makeout session. There are no more late nights star gazing in silence with their hands interlocked.

Keith has nothing left except for a jacket and emptiness inside him.

That will have to do.

[dreamworksworddump]

Voltron fics, listed by ship

The fics are listed by ship, and my personal favorites are italicized. Updated as of 9/13/17

Pallura:

Rubyfruit in June                                                                                                  -Pidge and Allura attempt to track down the remaining Altean colonies while figuring out their own relationship. Fluff, romance, angst

Captured:                                                                                                              -Pidge and Allura get captured. angst, romance

Girls like girls:                                                                                                        -Pidge and Allura try to figure out how to ask each other on a date, while fumbling with their cultural differences. fluff, romance

Lanlura:

How did you sleep?                                                                                              -Lance asks Allura how she slept after her first day as the Blue Paladin.   

Lost to memory:                                                                                                   -   Allura is trying her best to move on from the destruction of her planet. Lance is there to help her heal.

Hallura:                                                     

Beginnings:                                                                                                          -Hunk and Allura grow close, and it comes as no surprise when they finally kiss.

Kidge:

Say it                                                                                                                    -Keith hasn’t told Pidge he loves her yet. Romance, fluff, slight angst

Where they both get captured ask:                                                                       -Could you do some Kidge where they both get captured? A sentence starter could be "No! I won't leave you behind!" (You decide who says it) angst

Smut/angst ask:                                                                                                    -Keith fucks up on a mission, ricking his life, and Pidge doesn’t like that.

Smut/angst ask #2:                                                                                               -Keith is impulsive, and Pidge is sick of it. 

Kidge fluff: Middle of the night                                                                               -Pidge can’t sleep, and ends up in Keith’s bed.

Klance:

Hands                                                                                                                  -Lance thinks about Keiths hands, amongst other things. Fluff, romance

Movie night                                                                                                          -It’s movie night and Keith’s stolen Lance’s usb. Why? Fluff, humor

Beach day                                                                                                             -Keith and Lance have fun at the beach. Fluff          

Healing pod au:                                                                                                     -Based on Kaxpha’s healing pod au, Lance has healing abilities and uses them even when he hurts himself in the process. Keith does not approve. angst

On a lonely beach:                                                                                                -Lance thinks, as he dies alone. angst

Keith and Lance, like a sun:                                                                                   -Keith dies just like he lives, shining as bright as the sun. angst

Keith and Lance:                                                                                                   -Keith sends Lance off. angst

Beach buddies:                                                                                                     -Keith and Lance have their vacation day at the beach, during which Lance realizes his feelings for Keith. fluff, happy

Stay with me:                                                                                                        -Lance helps Keith through his first Galran heat. Angst, smut

An exceprt from a fic I’ll never write:                                                                     -Keith never thought he’d be so angry to see Lance in red.  angst

Four times they talked and one time they didn’t:                                                  -Like fire and water, Keith and Lance balance each other out. angst, smut

Klance Galra/altean au:                                                                                          -Keith is a prince of the galran empire, and Lance is an altean prince. A clusterfuck ends with them getting engaged.  angst       

Lance and Keith are forced to work in the caslte gardens ask:                             -Keith and Lance work in the castle garden as a punishment to their constant bickering.

Lance and Keith get captured and tortured ask:                                                   -Lance and Keith get captured by the Galra and tortured for information.  angst, slight romance

Bad boy Keith asks out Nerd Lance:                                                                     -At a school stargazing event, Keith asks out astronomy nerd Lance. 

Klance, captured and tortured:                                                                             -Keith and Lance are captured, and Lance sacrifices himself to help save Keith. 

Keith and Lance after a close call ask:                                                                  -After a close call, Keith and Lance cope. 

Lie to me:                                                                                                               - Keith is dying, and asks Lance to lie to him.    

You’re not being very helpful:                                                                                -Lance is bleeding out, and Keith has a dislocated shoulder. How will they ever get out of this one? A three part story, each post links to the next.                  

Hance:

Angst ask:                                                                                                             - Yo for that angst list, could you combine "you cheated on me, you don't get another chance" and "Im not blind, I see the way you look at them." Using Hance ;) angst                 

Sheith:

How they met:                                                                                                       -How Keith and Shiro met, pre relationship and pre Garrison. Originally written for Sheith month, but posted earlier instead.  Fluff, slight angst.

Hurt/comfort ask:                                                                                                    -Keith comforts Shiro on one of his bad days. angst, romance         

Royalty/Knight au:                                                                                                 -Keith is the powerless prince, and Shiro is the noble knight who fights for him. 

Summer nights:                                                                                                     -On that final Summer night before Kerberos, the silence of the night becomes too much to bear. 

I really did love you once:                                                                                     -Keith confronts the clone.

Shance: 

Gladiator ring:                                                                                                      -Lance and Shiro are forced to fight against each other in the gladitorial ring, or else their friends will be sentenced to death. Angst      

Garrison/Voltron:                                                                                                   -As they form Voltron, Lance gets a glimpse inside Shiro’s head. Angst    

Anger/depression:                                                                                                 -Shiro has insomnia and Lance helps him through it. angst

Illness:                                                                                                                   -Lance gets sick and Shiro helps him through it. fluff, romance

Fake dating Shance ask:                                                                                      -fake dating shance? pretty please fluff, romance

Farewell:                                                                                                               -After their break-up, Lance tries to get over Shiro, but ends up sleeping with him one last time. 

Lance dyes Shiro’s hair:                                                                                        -  After the events of s6, Lance helps Shiro feel better by surprising him with a new look.                                     

Pidgance:

The story where Lance is trans and straight and doesn’t like Keith:                    -Keith confesses to Lance, not knowing that he’s dating Pidge, and that he is trans. slight angst, fluff, romance             

  a/b/o:                                                                                                                   -Pidge realizes that she is an alpha, and tries to figure out how it affects both her relationship with Lance and with the team. Lance ends up going into heat, and she helps him through it. slight angst, romance, smut       

Biking:                                                                                                                   -Lance rides his bike into a pole and meets a really cute girl.  Fluff  

Boys only school au ask:                                                                                      -Lance walks in on Pidge getting dressed, not knowing that she is really a girl, and not a boy.

Fluff ask:                                                                                                               -Pidge and Lance build a pillow fort. fluff

Beach day:                                                                                                            -Pidge and Lance spend a day at the beach. fluff

Fake flirting ask:                                                                                                    -In order to win against Lance, Pidge starts fake flirting, which turns real all too soon. 

Pidge takes care of sick Lance ask:                                                                      -Lance gets sick, and  Pidge takes care of him. 

Vampire hunter au asks:                                                                                       -Pidge and Lance are vampire hunters, and end up running into each other one night. 

Height differences:                                                                                                -Pidge has a tall boyfriend and takes advantage of that.

Plance: scars:                                                                                                       -Pidge feels Lance’s scars.

Cheap beer and fumbling hands:                                                                          -They never have time to be teenagers anymore, so during a diplomatic ball, Lance and Pidge sneak off to do rebellious teenager things.

Marriage proposal:                                                                                                -   Lance proposes to Pidge. 

Confession:                                                                                                           -   Pidge confesses to Lance. Lance flounders.

Shidge:

Dancing:                                                                                                                -Shiro and Pidge enjoy a moment at a diplomatic ball, and have a dance. romance, fluff

Her first kill:                                                                                                           -Pidge kills someone for the first time, and Shiro helps to calm her down. angst, fluff

Taking forever to get together ask:                                                                       -Shidge, taking for fucking ever to get together. angst, romance, slow burn

Shallura:

Cowboy/fancy party au ask:                                                                                  -In the cowboy au universe, Allura and Shiro end up at a fancy party,. romance, smut

Allura is pregnant and has some worries ask:                                                       -Allura is pregnant with Shiro’s child and wonders how they will turn out. 

Loturra:      

Love:                                                                                                                     -   Allura and Lotor talk, before and after the betrayal.

Gen/other:

Summer au:                                                                                                          -A modern summer au, in which the Garrison crew hangs out, and becomes friends with the mysterious new kid, Keith. fluff, fun, gen

Starlight:                                                                                                                -Pidge thinks of home and the stars outside her window. slight angst

Collection of death fics:                                                                                         -A collection of fics, both shippy and gen, in which someone dies. angst

Altean Lance pt 1:                                                                                                 -An Altean Lance AU. angst

Altean Lance pt 2:                                                                                                  -The second part, in which Lance thinks of his fiance, Lotor and his feeling for the new red paladin, Keith. angst

Pidge’s birthday:                                                                                                   -It’s Pidge’s birthday, and the paladins celebrate. fluff

An excerpt from fanfiction x:                                                                                 -The paladins are captured by none other than Prince Lotor, and Pidge sacrifices herself to save her friends.  angst, horror, gore         

Keith: Phobia                                                                                                         -Keith is afraid of bugs. slight angst

Lance: Phobia                                                                                                       -Lance is claustrophobic. slight angst

The healing pod:                                                                                                   -If there was barely anything left to put in the healing pod, does that mean that the person it rebuilds is really the same as the one before? angst

Three things she was never good at:                                                                    -Pidge gets hurt on a mission, and trains too hard to make sure it doesn’t happen again. angst

Selfless:                                                                                                                 -Lance has an issue with self sacrifice. angst      

Betryal hurts ask (zarkon/haggar):                                                                       -Haggar feels betrayed by King Alfor, and hurts him more than he could ever imagine.         

Cowboy au ask:                                                                                                     -They’re all cowboys for some reason.      

 Lotor/Lance with a zuko-esque redemption arc:                                                  -Lotor and Lance get along well as they try to take down the galra empire.

Keith is special:                                                                                                    -Lance feels like Voltron doesn’t need him anymore, and leaves.        

In the code: Kidgance:                                                                                         -   Pidge writes messages in her codes to her crushes, and hopes they never find out. 

[spazzcat]

Everyone please admire this gorgeous commission @kaxpha did for me of Matt Holt from @squirenonny‘s Duality series. You should go give both of them all the love because Nonny writes absolutely incredible stories and Kaxpha has some of the most amazing AUs (Catch me crying in the club over Wavelength and Lost Lance, man)

[klancefucker69]

DOODLES BASED OFF @kaxpha's LOST LANCE AU COS I AM MCWRECKED BY IT

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911 theres an emergency. This artist called @kaxpha is continuously breaking my heart with their lost lance AU