#kae is glad to be back in the game again

[chqrryvelvet]

hmmm 58 bc adhd + autism ,, i have a unicycle for a frontal lobe 😁😁😁 they r done now though. cant wait till we go back and my eng lit teacher find out i didnt do any of her work at all ! 😍😍🤩 im glad ur better now <3what was ur paper about ??

the important thing is that sel is keeping herself as a number one priority 😁‼️ be proud of yourself bc they are done now uh huh that’s sexy sexy 😏😟🤍

[iwaasfairy]

for @settersloveletters​ kiri (& kae of course) thank you so much for the super cute icon :(( i still love it so much! i’ll probably make this into a full fic tomorrow afternoon because i’m a kenma simp at heart but! here’s a taste as a mini thank you

.wordc. +1k

The soft shaking of the train is distracting, lulling your body into a sense of safety. Even with your knees pressed to someone’s shins, briefcase only inches from your face, it’s this tremble that makes you relax in your seat. That, and the long fingers tangled between your own. Your head is resting on Kenma’s shoulder, cheek smushed up against him as he plays a game.

You lazily follow the character movements out of the corner of your eye, but right now you’re more than content to watch the bustle of life as it packs into the heated vehicle. People huff and stick to each other in the summer weather, pristine suits and thick-rimmed glasses in contrast with the flush that blooms under their eyes.

A woman squeezes her way between the man-made hurdle to get to a place where she can stand without toppling over, only in your view by the cute, heeled shoes she wears. You’ve been on this train for about twenty minutes now, any life or excitement you had slowly draining out of you by the breath. If it wasn’t for your boyfriend and the beeps of his game, you would’ve fallen asleep already.

The doors close with a loud clang, trapping them and all the collected heat inside. You look up from the two seats you were so lucky to claim to the back of one of the men that stands about a foot away from you. He, much like most people in this overfilled cage, is turned away to tune out every other living being in his proximity.

You don’t blame him. Kenma rolls his shoulders against your squished cheek, before turning to press a kiss on your crown, swiftly returning to his mission. “I’m going to fall asleep,” a croaky call comes from you, a preventive warning.

“Hm?” he asks, pausing his game to run his free hand down the side of your face. It’s soft, cold and so soothing, much like everything about him. “Are you really?”

“I don’t want to,” you respond, pouting as your eyes flutter shut. Though you don’t see it, you hear the familiar sound of his smile. It’s so slight, just the softest huff of air as his lips stretch a tad wider to accommodate his happiness. And he just kisses your lips again in response, before shifting towards you in his plush seat.

This startles you out of your sleepy daze enough to lift your head from his shoulder and will your eyes open, watching the side of his beautiful face. Pressed in a steaming tin can, tired and a bit uncomfortable, he’s still pretty. You reach out so brush a strand of hair behind his ear too, which makes his lips twitch. 

To most people, Kenma’s hardly romantic. Hell, his own team even watched with open mouth when you were first introduced to them, but it’s been almost two years since then and you’ve learned just how attentive he can get. His quiet and shy attitude has never been strong enough to hide that Kenma is a glutton, after all. Constantly aching for more touch and love, more, more, more.

You’re glad to give it. For as touch starved as you can get without him, he never fails to sate your hunger and truly, you’ve never been more independent and horribly dependent at the same time than with him. An aching, feverish mess for him, always. The half-blond unlinks his hand from yours to slip the game into the bag at his feet, before tutting his soft lips and wrapping his hands around your waist.

“Come.”

He leads you from your seat into his lap and despite the lack of space, you oblige immediately. You switch around to face him and the world outside the window to settle on his spread thighs, sighing softly as his golden eyes trail down your body. Wolf-ish and eager, forgoing the white lies he used to give you in the beginning. Then he was more careful about his guilty pleasures. Not so much now.

Still, this is a first, and you glance at the digital screen at the far end of the train to check the amount of stops left. Too many to start winding you up already, right? “You’re not gonna play anymore?” you question, letting your lungs collapse when he bites his lip.

“Oh, we’re going to play, kitten,” he murmurs, pulling you closer by your hips and letting his lips hover just out of reach, “but not that game.” His soft breath trails along your neck, fingers moving to drag shapes up and down the exposed skin of your legs. This way your bodies are pressed just a hair apart, chests brushing with each inhale.

You let your hands come to his shoulders, one of them reaching to tangle in the hair at the base of his neck. He lets out a little hum, much more deep and bassy than you expect. He really is wanting to drive you crazy, right here, right now. At your somewhat astonished expression, he presses a few chaste kisses to your jaw and neck. “You want me to wake you up, baby girl?”

“Yes, please,” you simply mouth, voice refusing to cooperate when his bright gaze is fixed on yours without hesitation. At your easy answer, his one brow lifts a bit, mouth corners tugging upward. It’s such a lovely sight, even though you know the situation is anything but. He presses his face to the soft skin under your ear though, trailing a hand up your spine to tangle into your hair and tugging.

You gasp at the move, tongue moulded to the roof of your mouth to keep your sounds in. “Kenma,” you manage to bring out, letting your lids drop as the train starts moving again.

He trails his lips around the exposed skin for long enough to cause you shivers, when he kisses and brushes his tongue over an already tender spot. “What, my pretty pet? You want some attention?” he mouths into you, clenching his fingers in your locks.

He pulls back for a moment to eye your expression, grinning wider when you already look flushed, eyes half-lidded and going slightly cloudy. You don’t have to respond for him to know the answer. His name could be written all over you. “You look so pretty when you’re trying to catch up with me, all warm and soft. Don’t worry, kitten, I’ll treat you well.”

[sighingsiren-tales]

Shoot Your Shot

GIF IS NOT MINE

Artist: Jungkook of BTS

Genre: Straight smut, okay. Just straight unhoilness 

Length: 2.2k

A/N: Whoo boy, your girl is on a roll. I wrote this this morning and It’s basically porn without plot but, judging by how well does, I’ll make a part 2. Also, the title should serve as motivation. If you like someone, SHOOT YOUR SHOT (Tell them you like them!) You don't know how it can turn out. Enjoy

~Kae

“Rushing back to the hotel already?” Hoseok joked, pushing Jungkook’s shoulder as Jungkook intently waited for one of the cars to swing around.

Jungkook looked over his shoulder at his hyung, giggling before turning his attention back to the the car that was pulling up to the curb. He waved bye to the rest of the members, deciding to forgo getting a drink in favor of him going back to the hotel with you. He bowed to the security guard assigned to guard him, slipping into the backseat and waiting patiently for the car to drive off. Once the car began to move, he let his mind wander, more specifically to you and how he even started to fuck his best friend. It all started from a simple stupid question.

��Kookie” You called to him.

“Yeah!” He answered, fixated on his video games.

“Can I ask you something ?” You spoke quietly, which caused him to put down his controller.

“Yeah, go ahead”.

You shook your head.

“No, come here” You knew that by asking him across a room, it may not give you the answer you want and it may be a bit more awkward so you wanted him to look at you while you ask.

He stood from his place on your couch, standing up and walking over towards you. Standing in front of you, he looked down at you expectantly. You scratched the back of your neck nervously before speaking.

“So, I’ve been thinking about you in ways that are...a bit too sexual to be friendly and I, uh, I really want to put these feelings to rest and I...I wanted to know if you would kiss me” Your eyes shifted as you spoke and your voice wasn’t always level but you said what you had to say.

Now you just needed a response. He paused, seemingly thinking about it for a few moments before he walked over to you, placing both hands on your waist and lifting you to sit on top of the counter. He stepped between your legs and brought your arms up to loop around his neck.

“This okay?” He asked lowly.

You nodded and that was the question he was waiting for. He leaned down, pressing his lips against yours gently. He softly kissed you, his lips and yours meeting again and again as you tighten your grip around his neck. Your tongue swiped against his bottom lip and he groans down, grabbing at the meat of your thighs and pulling you closer.  His hands didn’t leave your thighs, grabbing at them and pulling you closer as you both began the first night of your friends with benefits situation.

He pulled himself from the memory just in time to see them pull up to their hotel. He kept his head down and mask on as he waited for his security guard to check him in. Once he was checked in, he bowed, taking the keycard and heading up to the top floor. All Jungkook could think of was you; You were running rampant through this mind and he wanted nothing more than to make you scream in every way he knew how. Looking down, he could see that he was already hard and he groaned at all the ways he thought you would take care of it for him. Finally, the elevator had stopped at Jungkook’s floor and he walked over to the room over towards the middle of the hall. Scanning his key card, he pushed the door open and was happy to find that it was him and another bed. He had forgotten who he was sharing a room with but boy oh boy was he glad they weren’t here now. He took off his shoes, leaving it by the door just as you emerged from the bathroom, a thick fluffy towel wrapped around your body. He saw the way that the water slid down your legs and he imagined those droplets being your own arousal which, didn’t help his erection. He walked forwards, wrapping his arms around your midsection in a hug. You leaned back into his frame, wet hair and all.

“Hey Kookie” You soft sweet voice spoke his name.

“I was thinking about you all concert” Jungkook spoke darkly, leaning in your ear as he

toyed with the hem of the towel.

“Yeah?” You asked grabbing at his thigh, although his jeans made it very difficult.

“Mhm” He sounded.

That was all you needed to turn around, letting your hands trail underneath his shirt, gliding your hands over his abs before guiding the shirt up and over his head. He bit his lip as you opened the button and unzipped his jeans.

“You do the rest for me” You whispered in his ears as you laid back on the bed, facing him.

“What’d you do all day?” He asked softly.

Hitching up your towel and spreading your legs you mumbled “I'll show you”.

Letting your fingers slip up your thighs and towards your core where, you were already wet, was probably for Jungkook but you wanted him to watch you. You teased at yourself for a while, toying with your clit as you felt yourself spill out onto the hotel sheets. When you slipped a finger in you let out a light moan of his name, arching your back ever so slightly. You barely got any further before you saw Jungkook shoving his jeans and briefs down his legs hurriedly. Stroking his cock he watched you with dark eyes.

“Keep going” He commanded which, of course, you did.

You were whining and moaning now with Jungkook watched you intently, his bottom lip caught between his teeth. The second you whined for him to help you, the man sprung into action, pulling your towel straight off your body as he hovered about you. He was obviously eager, barely taking any time before placing his head at your soaking wet core.

“Oh God” He whined as he slipped into you, pushing your legs further apart as he dived into your ocean. He let out a breathy moan, holding onto your thighs as he slowly moved in and out of your heat.

“You’re so wet, fuck, you feel amazing” He moaned before bucking his hips.

“It’s all yours” you whispered against his neck.

Leaning down in your neck, he started moved a bit faster.

“I promise that I’ll make you cum but, fuck you feel too good and I just gotta-” He cut himself off with a groan, spreading your legs further apart and making sure you both were skin to skin.

You were moaning his name like a mantra and he loved it; He loved hearing his name on your lips. He moaned, unabashedly, bucking into your heat.

“It’s so fucking good, god damn, baby” He pulled out quickly, causing you to whine but he slapped your ass to keep you quiet.

“Don’t start. I want you to ride me” He husked, making your eyes widen.

“I was gonna cum” You pouted.

He grabbed your ass, pulling you to him.

“And you will” He husked before leaning in to kiss you deeply.

You moaned against his lips just before he pulled away.

“Do I ever not make you cum?” He asked to which you shook your head.

“Good. Now ride me” He instructed before he leaned back against the pillows as you moved to climb over him.

You hovered over it and he whispered : “C’mon princess, sit on daddy’s dick”.

You felt yourself dripping from just that sentence alone. Maneuvering yourself over him so that you could slowly sat down on his cock, you relished in the stretch as he bit his lip.

“Always so tight” He husked as his hands traced the dips and grooves of your curves before slapping your ass again.

“Bounce on it baby, I’m not in the mood for slow”.

You did at he asked, letting porn star worthy moans fall from your lips as you moved up and down on his cock. He was biting his lip, trying to keep in his moans as he grabbed onto your ass and let you move.

When you began to grind on his dick. the moans became much more high pitched and the sound hit your lower stomach in ways that he knew you loved. He sounded so needy and so sexy. You began to grind faster, wanting to hear more of his moans.

“Baby” you moaned.

“Yeah?” He asked, leaning up to wrap one arm around you while letting the fingers on the other tease your clit.

You threw your head back with a loud moan, grinding faster as you moaned louder and louder.

“Cum baby” Jungkook demanded, bucking his hips up while playing with your clit harshly now.

“D-daddy” You stuttered as Jungkook went harder.

“What is it?” He asked, voice strained and deep.

“I..I can’t take it” you whined as he pounded into you.

”You tapping out on me?” He asked, eyebrows raised.

Looking at his expression you shook your head weakly.

“No, right?” He asked sweetly.

The second you nodded your confirmation, he grabbed both of your hands and began to drill into you from below, causing you to alternating between mewls and whimpers.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought”.

His hips didn’t let up and fuck you felt so good.

“Daddy I-” He shushed you.

“You can and you will” He spoke through gritted teeth.

You kept grinding you on his cock as he commanded and fuck it felt amazing. Jungkook always knew just how much you could take. You were nearly screaming as you continued to ride him. How was he soo good?

“Soak me baby, c’mon I know you‘re close”.

The more he kept bouncing you up and down on his cock, the more you felt your orgasm barreling into you.

“Jungkook, please” you pleaded with him.

“Fuck that’s hot, keep going baby girl” He moaned, throwing his head back as he moved your hips how he liked.

“Jungkook, it’s too much” you whined bracing your hands on his chest and you felt your lower stomach tighten.

“No it’s not baby, c’mon you got it. You got it” He moaned.

You whined and whined as he went harder and faster, each thrust brushing your g-spot.

“Jungkook” you groaned, digging your nails into his shoulders as you dug your teeth into your bottom lip

“Oh~ that means you’re close. Come on baby cum, cum for daddy”.

All it took was another couple of strokes and you felt an explosion. Your screamed his name as you felt your squirt. Jungkook didn’t let up, instead he kept going, loving the wet sounds you made as he drove in deeper.

“Oh god baby that’s so good, fuck it’s so good. Again, you gotta do that again for me”.

And, just like that, he was back into action, pounding away at your sensitive pussy.

“Jungkook” you whined.

“It feels soo good for daddy, let daddy feel good baby” He husked before slipping out of you, amazingly, still hard.

God his lap was soaked and his eyes darkened when he saw that. flipping you over he pushed down on the arch of your back and pushed in which a stuttering moan.

He started a neural pace right away and you could only whine and take it.

“That’s it baby, take daddy’s dick” he husked sexily fucking you deeper and grinding against you.

With a deep groan you moved your hips back against him

“Fuck baby throw it back” he whined as you did just as he asked of you.

“Cum again for me baby,I’m gonna cum with you” he instructed and you let out a loud moan before he spoke again.

“Wait”

He flipped you over quickly, almost shell shocking you.

“I want to see your face when you cum, spread your legs” he commanded darkly and you did as he asked, easily allowing him to slip in.

He  spread them open as far as he could go, diving in as deep as he could. He pushed up against your clit so deliciously as he whined out his please. How was he so fucking good?

“Yes, fuck yes, baby girl yes” He kept moving and moving and moving, brushing against your swollen clot each time and you felt like you were on cloud nine.

“Daddy” you stuttered, gripping onto his back.

“I know baby, Daddy’s gonna come too”.

He moved your legs so that he could keep drilling into you as he liked.

“Fuck, ahh, i’m gonna cum”.

You could only whine his name, bucking your hips as he let out a long, deep moan, giving a few more powerful thrust before you felt his thick seed seep into you. He sighed, obviously exhausted, as he collapsed on top of you.

“You okay?” He asked between breaths.

“Mhm” You sounded, wrapping your arms around him as he drifted off.

Before you could even let your eyes close you heard a clap. Both of you jolted awake towards the door to see Jimin standing there for, god knows how long. He chuckled, slinging his bag over his shoulder before saying:

“I’ll be waiting for my invitation”.

Jungkook shook his head.

“If I wasn’t tired I’d throw something at you”.

It wasn’t until after Jimin went into the shower that Jungkook leaned up and whispered in your ear:

“How about it baby? Wanna let Jimin join next time?”.

Shit, did you?

[beanfic]

New Roommates - Ch.4

Word Count: 1971

Warnings: Language and fluff!

Author’s Note: Here is chapter 4! Enjoy! :))

“Sav!” Josh’s voice called out as he knocked on my door. I slowly opened my eyes as I woke from a deep slumber. 

“What?” I mumbled, closing my eyes once again.

“Time to wake up! Get dressed and come to the kitchen!”

“Why?” I turned over and checked the time on my phone. 

8:27. Way too early for a Saturday morning. 

“Just do it, and don’t ask questions! If you don’t come out in ten minutes then I will go get Tyler and Mark to drag you out.”

“Okay!” I shouted back. I listened as Josh’s footsteps got further away. I stretched my arms and made sure to pop and crack all the necessary joints to start the day. 

I threw on a pair of Adidas sweatpants and a black t-shirt. My hair quickly got thrown into a messy bun and I shuffled out to the kitchen. 

“Happy first week of living with us!” the boys cheered in unison as I turned the corner into the kitchen. I jumped as I was not expecting them all to shout at me this early in the morning.

“I made us waffles!” Mark smiled down at the plate that was piled high with a stack of fluffy waffles. There were bowls of different fruit next to it, along with a bottle of whipped cream.

“What is this all for?” I nervously laughed.

“To celebrate that you have been living with us for officially a week now!” Tyler explained. 

“This is kind of odd, but I will never pass up waffles!” I sat down on a stool and plopped a waffle down on a plate. They were still warm. “Thank you, guys!”

“Of course! Nothing but the best for the best roomie!” Mark teased. I let out an exasperated sigh. 

“I’m surprised you’re actually awake,” Josh noted. I glared over at him and crinkled my nose as I took a bite out of my waffle. 

“I didn’t feel like being dragged out of bed this morning.”

“Fair enough.”

“So, Sav, now that you have been living here for a week, what are some of your favorite memories?” Tyler asked with a mouthful of strawberries.

“My favorite memories?” I pondered for a second while the boys shoveled waffles down their throats. “The first one that comes to mind is when we all played rage cage a few days ago.”

“Rage cage?” Josh asked and I nodded.

“I never really played drinking games with my friend back at home and it was really fun! Especially seeing you guys tipsy! Plus Kae was a good supervisor.”

“We need to get Kae to play, but I can drink for them!” Mark said.

Tyler shook his head, “Have you seen them throw a ping pong ball? You would get drunk so fast.”

“Hey! Don’t roast Kae when they aren’t even here to stand up for themselves.” I balled up my napkin and threw it at Tyler’s chest. 

“I’m just speaking the truth!” he giggled. 

“Another one of my favorite things about living here is having almost every meal cooked for me! Thank you chef mark.”

“My pleasure!” He pretended to curtsey. 

“How does your head feel?” Tyler asked Josh as he tossed some Tylenol in his mouth and washed it down with orange juice.

“I’m not as hungover as I thought I would be, and to be honest, I am surprised I was able to wake up this early.”

“You woke up with a hangover just to surprise me?” I asked, putting my hands on my heart and sarcastically acting flattered.

“It was because I wanted the waffles, obviously.”

“Sure,” I teased back. Josh gave my shoulder a little shove as he walked past me and went to sit on the couch. I smiled to myself and looked up at Tyler and Mark who were exchanging glances. 

Once I ended up finishing my plate of waffles and cleaned up, I headed back into my room to edit the photos I had taken at the football games from Friday night. I was really excited with how my photos turned out, and I was hoping to send some to the local newspapers and news sources for them to use. 

I continued to edit my photos, occasionally getting distracted by Pinterest and Tumblr, while I waited for Kae to come over. We were going to go thrift shopping in downtown Columbus this afternoon. Kae said that they knew of the best thrift shops with the best finds, and they mentioned there is this really chill coffee shop that we could stop at as well which sounded perfect since today was such an overcast day. 

“You ready!” My door flew open as Kae came rushing in and shouting at the top of their lungs.

“Holy shit!” I jumped out of my chair as they scared me. “You scared me!” 

“Ha!” they cackled. I turned around and grabbed a pillow and chucked it at them. It landed right into their stomach. “Ouch!”

“That’s what you get!”

“It’s not my fault you get scared easily!”

“Just give me one second to put my shoes on and then I’ll be ready to head out!” I said and Kae nodded. They left my room, probably to go talk to Tyler, and I quickly tied my vans and grabbed my coat.

“Welcome to my crib!” Kae joked as they opened the door to their Red Kia Forte. It smelled like fresh laundry. They plugged their phone into the aux cord and started to play a playlist which consisted of Panic!, Queen, Paramore, and the occasional Fall Out Boy song. 

“You have such a good music taste!” I complimented.

“Oh my gosh, really? I’m so self-conscious about it.”

“Why?”

“Having a boyfriend who is a musician makes you more aware of how others can be judgmental! But I am glad you like it!” They reached over and turned up the sound as Nicotine by Panic! blasted.

“Downtown Columbus is so pretty,” I said in awe as Kae found parking on the street.

“Have you been down here before?”

“LIke three or four times when I was younger and was visiting my grandma and aunt!”

“I love it down here!” Kae locked their car and started walking down the street. I followed close behind. We exchanged conversation about different movies we like, and hobbies that we both enjoyed while we looked in different thrift shops.

“I love this shirt!” I whispered to myself as I pulled out an old Death Cab for Cutie concert shirt. It was a little large but it was perfect because I enjoy oversized shirts.

“That’s awesome!” Kae said as they looked through jackets. “What do you think of this?” I turned around to see them holding up a vintage Levi’s denim jacket.

“Try it on!”

“Okay!” They slipped their arms through it and shrugged it on. It was a perfect fit. 

“It looks so good, you have to get it.”

“It’s so comfortable! I can also put some pins on the pocket right here,” they pointed to the pockets on the chest. It looked really good on them. 

“You get a jacket and I get a t-shirt!!”

“Sounds like a plan!” Kae and I headed over to the register to pay. My t-shirt ended up only being six dollars which was a huge steal. Kae’s denim jacket was thirty bucks, which is super good for a vintage Levi’s jacket.

We both ended up ordering the same exact thing at the coffee shop, and that was a mocha with whipped cream. We sat next to a window so we could look out and admire all the doggies that would pass by us. 

“Hey, Sav, can I ask you a question?” Kae took a sip of their drink and set it down in front of them.

“Sure!” I shifted in my chair as I anxiously awaited their question.

“Do you like Josh? Like, like like?” They whispered.

“What?” I nearly spat out the mocha that I had in my mouth. “Who told you? I mean, yes, i mean, no, what?”

“Sav! It’s okay! You don’t need to get flustered.” Kae giggled as they handed me a napkin to clean up the mocha.

“Yes, I might have a little crush on Josh, but why are you asking? Is it obvious? Did the boys mention something?”

“Yes, Tyler mentioned that he might have thought you and Josh were flirting so I decided to get to the bottom of things!”

“Josh and I flirting? Like he was flirting with me too? I never noticed that.”

“I don’t really notice it but I guess Mark and Tyler do! Nothing is wrong if you like him, Sav.”

“Yes, there is! He is my roommate. I can’t fall for my roommate, haven’t you seen those movies?”

“This is real life, unfortunately, but I don’t think there is anything bad about it. You can’t control your emotions!”

“That’s exactly what my other friend said to me,” I sighed. “I just don’t know if I even want to pursue these feelings because what if he doesn’t feel the same about me? He has so many girls over all the time anyways.”

“I suggest just continue living your life, and just become closer to him! Friends, roommates, or even more. Don’t force it and let it come naturally!” Kae wrapped their arms around my shoulder and gave me a reassuring squeeze. 

“Thank you, Kae. It’s actually really nice to talk about it with someone who knows him, I feel a lot better now.”

The car ride back to the apartment was longer because of traffic so Kae decided to show me different car games they like to play. One was the original slug bug, but then they also showed me popeye and happy slappy. Popeye is when you punch the top of the roof anytime you see a car with only one headlight, and happy slappy is when you slap the other person when they spot a yellow car. 

“Ow!” I squealed as Kae’s fist came into contact with my shoulder.

“Happy slappy, yellow one!” they shouted. A yellow slug bug came passing us on the left side.

“You’re too good at this game,” I mumbled. I made sure to keep an eye out for any yellow car or slug bug the entire way home, but I ended up losing that time very badly. 

Once we got into the house we were welcomed by Tyler and Mark who were in the middle of an intense Mario kart race while Josh was busy reading a book on the couch. 

“We’re home!” Kae announced. “You like my jacket?” They did a 360 turn for the boys to see. 

“That’s sick!” Tyler said. “Dang it! You distracted me, Kae!”

“Sorry, but sometimes I am more important a game,” they snickered and headed over to sit next to Tyler. 

“Did you get anything?” Mark asked me and I nodded. 

“I found this old Death Cab for Cutie concert tee!” I pulled it out of the bag to show everybody.

“Did you buy that because you know it’s my favorite band?” Josh teased as he looked up from his book.

“Not everything is about you, Josh.” I crossed my arms and glared at him. “Do you even know how to read?”

“Yes, in fact, I do! This book is about-”

“I don’t really care.”

“Well, in that case,” Josh closed the book and chucked it at me, barely missing my shoulder.

“Joshua! What if that hit me?”

“Then I guess would have needed to call an ambulance, huh?”

“You’re so annoying!” I rolled my eyes and turned to Kae who was raising their eyebrows at me. They definitely had a point that Josh was flirting with me, but I knew better than to get my hopes up.

********

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[raiswanson]

The Loving Seal shorts #3: Swells (Kaelan PoV)

(Halfway through the months and the shorts now!! I’m so glad people seem to be enjoying the selkie babies ❤️❤️❤️  It means a lot to me that you all love Kae and Nyv too)

This short is three of six, and actually the second one I wrote last March! I think it shows but ah, it’s for fun This time our selkie pups are a little older but there’s still a few things to work out ;)

(This short is a little over 3k words long)

I waited in my hiding place as another squeal rang through the water. That was one more down. How many were still hiding? Me and...two others? I tried to remember how many of us were swimming around in the kelp-ridden cove, and how many times I’d heard someone else get discovered.

The kelp swishing past the tiny alcove I’d wedged into moved sharply, and I froze. The last squeal had been close. Did that mean—

“GOT YOU!”

Nyvina’s shout was my only warning before she rocketed through the floating green and crashed right into me, sending us both spinning through the current as I added my own cry of alarm to the tally.

“Stop picking the same spot, Kae! You’re so bad at this!” she chided as she barreled away toward Aksel as he bolted from his place and tried to flee.

I answered with a disgruntled series of bubbles as her tail vanished into the kelp, then surfaced to catch my breath. The game wouldn’t last much longer now. Aksel would never outpace Nyvina, and she’d sniff out the last of us in no time. Bobbing in the waves, I peered over at the others around me and as I was ticking off who’d been found Aksel joined us with a whining croak.

It wasn’t long before Nyvina joined us too, preening gleefully as we turned scowls her way.

“It isn’t my fault none of you know how to hide. Pick better places if you don’t want me to catch you,” she scoffed, splashing water at our faces.

“There’s only so many places to choose in this cove, seaweed-breath,” Aksel answered, earning a hard headbutt for speaking up.

“We could try the West cove instead? The currents aren’t too bad today, so the rocks won’t be a problem,” I offered, making all but Nyvina look to me in horror.

“What, no! That’s too far!”

“Geez, Kae, do you want to be shark food?”

“I’m not allowed to go over there...”

“Sure. That’s a great idea.” Everyone looked to Nyvina like she’d lost her mind, but I chirped happily at the praise. I’d expected her to shoot the idea down as stupid, but she looked genuinely interested.

My mood dampened slightly when the others continued to resist it though.

“If you two want to go get smashed up on the rocks do ahead I guess. I’m going back to the pod.”

“Yeah, you two are crazy. I’m gonna see what my ma is doing.”

“I’m tired anyway. Gonna take a nap.”

Excuses were filed out as each head popped back below the water and everyone swam back for the pod’s beach, until the only ones left were me, Nyvina, and Laicy. Laicy had been the last one caught, so I supposed she was feeling rather brave, and the three of us bid good riddance to our fellow selkie pups and made our way for the West cove brimming with confidence.

As I’d thought, the cove was calmer than usual and riddled with hiding spots, and I proudly darted from place to place as the others voiced their surprise over it. Once we’d done a quick sweep to find choice nooks and crannies to burrow into Nyvina was chosen to play seeker again, and Laicy flipped past me as our friend swam for the surface to count down.

“Don’t let her catch you so easy this time, Kae. There’s not enough of us this time for her to pretend she doesn’t know where you are,” she called with a giggle, shaking her head when I gave her a bewildered look. She thought I was losing on purpose? It wasn’t my fault Nyvina was so good at hide and seek! I was doing my best!

Outraged, I darted to the sandy floor and burrowed under a bed of coral, determined to be discovered last this time.

I wasn’t.

Nyvina found me first for the next four rounds, and when it was Laicy’s turn to seek I didn’t fare much better. I’d given up at being good at the game and was “hiding” in a large cluster of kelp when it occurred to me I hadn’t been found in a while. Certain it wasn’t because I’d suddenly become harder to find, I poked my head into the open water and peered around to see what the hold up was just in time to see Laicy whipping by.

“Go! We need to go!” she said urgently before darting off and around to the edge of the cove.

Puzzled, I poked out further and watched her bubbles disperse, then looked back the way she’d come in time to see a large, familiar black and white shape coasting through the kelp deeper in the water.

I froze.

Orca.

Much, much too close to be outrun.

The half a lung of air I had left suddenly felt like it wouldn’t last another three seconds, and I remained frozen in place as the black and white flickers shifted, revealing two shapes gliding through the green. They hadn’t seen me yet, somehow, but it wouldn’t be long before they broke the kelp wall and saw me poking into plain sight.

I would have remained there until the giant creatures were upon me if I hadn’t been moved by a solid impact to my chest sending me careening toward the rock wall. Nyvina headbutted me again as I struggled to right myself, and before I knew it I’d been slammed into the bottom of a shallow crevice in the jagged rock, tucked behind a few thin strands of waving seaweed. She followed behind me as I was jammed into place, squishing herself over me to wedge into the hiding spot with me. Her claws gripped tight into my fur, and I stared wide-eyed past the swishing seaweed.

The orcas were in open water now. Drifting right by where I’d been seconds ago. One turned as it passed the spot, veering in Nyvina and I’s direction, and I hunkered lower with a tremor shaking through me. As it drew closer Nyvina set her head on mine, and we watched as it meandered by the rock wall.

It knew we were here. It had to. It had seen us, and was looking for where we’d gone.

It loomed closer, and as it floated by its body blocked out the light, filling our hiding spot with darkness. I could see into its eyes as the seaweed shifted, and in a heart-stopping instant saw the moment it sighted the seals tucked away in the rock.

“Stay here,” Nyvina hissed before darting out into the water right past the behemoth’s nose. My claws dug into the rock as the orca pumped its tail and gave chase. They vanished into the kelp, and I shivered as I found myself alone in the water, held frozen by bubbling memories.

“Stay hidden, sweet one. We’ll keep you safe,” Mama’s voice echoed, making me dig my claws into the rock with a whimper. I missed that voice. So soft and caring and beautiful. Right until the end.

Until she’d screamed, and screamed, and finally gone quiet forever.

The sea around me took on a red haze as horrible visions blurred in my mind, and I buried my face in my fins, telling myself it was all over. Mama and Papa were gone. Everyone was gone. But I was here. Nyvina was—no. Nyvina was still here, but she’d...

She’d told me to stay. Nyvina always knew best, like Mama had. She was smart. I would stay. I would do what she’d said. I would.

But as seconds ticked by all I wanted to do was help her. How though? What could I possibly do? She was faster than me. Cleverer. Smaller and more maneuverable. If anything I’d be in the way, and I’d get us both killed. But still…

More seconds passed, and with a timid bubble of air I forced my flippers to release the rocks and pushed out into the open water. These were orcas. Nyvina was amazing, but she was still just a selkie. And she was only here because of my idea. I’d never be able to bear it if she got hurt, especially not if it would be all my fault. I had to make sure she was alright. I had to. I’d keep my distance and move carefully, but I was going to make sure she’d made it to safety. I couldn’t hide away again. I didn’t ever want to hear Nyvina scream like Mama had.

Just a short distance from the kelp forest I came across a scene that made me glad I’d disobeyed. I peeked out from the green to see the orcas circling in the water beneath a small iceberg, heads popping up every few seconds to peer at something on top of it. I didn’t need to think hard to imagine what that something was.

Still, I drifted backward and raised myself to the surface anyway, taking a cautious gasp of air and raising my head just enough to see the above world. Sure enough, Nyvina’s spotted body was sprawled out in the center of the ice, splayed to hold her position as the orcas kicked up waves to try shaking her off. She was trapped.

I dipped back below and tried to think of a way to help. Nyvina hadn’t meant to go there. She was too smart for that. She’d had a plan. It hadn’t worked out, but she’d had one. What had it been? Trying to think through a plan like hers made my head hurt, but I tried anyway and slowly poked my head back up to look around again. She wouldn’t have tried to outrun them. She must have had a goal. What?

Casting my gaze around, I sighted a shore on a nearby island, long and sandy and full of inlets. Perfect shallow pools no orca could feasibly launch out at you from. Not quickly. They’d have to beach themselves, and on human legs escaping would be a joke. Was that what she’d been planning? It was close enough to be reasonable.

It was the best I had, and I knew I didn’t have time to find anything better before one of the circling orcas manged to shake Nyvina from her perch and tear her apart in front me. Shaking at the thought, I braced myself and took a few deep breaths to steady myself, then waited for one of the black and white heads to breach before loosing a loud howl.

I saw Nyvina’s head shoot up before I splashed beneath the water, but couldn’t take the time to look back at her as both orcas vocalized and gave chase. I shot straight for the shore I’d seen, aiming for the nearest inlet and praying I’d given myself enough space to make it there in time. Kelp and seaweed slapped my face on my bolting swim, but I welcomed it as opposed to sharp teeth digging into my flippers or sides.

Just a little farther. It hadn’t been far. The shore was right there…

A pitched cry right on my back put an extra burst of speed into me right as I hit the slope of the sand, and in a desperate dive I shot for the surface. I ripped out of my skin while still in midair, tumbling to the ground in a clumsy human heap, but clawed and scrabbled to keep moving forward as I heard loud splashes behind me.

Frustrated clicking followed me up the beach as I stumbled and crawled, but when I didn’t feel teeth catching my feet to flip and slam me into the ground I laughed hysterically and wheeled around to look back. The larger of the two was only a few lengths away, glaring at me as it seemed to consider trying to wiggle toward me out of spite, but when I took a few more steps backward it whistled and began wriggling back for the water as the other sprayed and watched from the shallows.

Safe but still terrified, I staggered further back and collapsed, letting my gaze go to the water to seek out the iceberg. It was empty. Good. With both orcas in sight I knew she’d made it to safety, wherever she’d gotten off to.

About ten seconds later, “wherever” turned out to be the very beach I sat on. I was still catching my breath and working shakes out of my system when Nyvina burst from the water and rushed toward me in human form. Her dark gray eyes were stormy and angry, and I knew I was in for it, but I couldn’t help admire her as she approached. She walked so smoothly, like she’d done it her whole life. Sure-footed and steady.

I beamed up at her heavily spotted form as she stood in front of me with her fists clenched at her sides. She flipped her wild curtain of black hair aside to ensure I witnessed the full—admittedly terrifying, but still lovely—expression of rage on her face, then stood at full height and kicked sand in my eyes.

“What were you thinking?! Do you know how close you were to being lunch, you idiot?! Why did you come out of hiding?!” she shouted, scuffing more sand until I coughed and rolled to my feet to squint down at her.

“I was worried about you. I didn’t want you to get hurt,” I replied, making her jerk back.

“I didn’t want you hurt either, stupid! That was dangerous! You aren’t fast enough to outswim an orca! Or good enough at hiding to avoid them! I thought I was going to have to watch them— I thought you were going to—” Snapping her mouth shut, Nyvina swallowed and calmed herself, giving me a gentle punch in the arm. “I wanted to protect you, Kae. I was scared. I don’t want to see anything happen to you. I don’t even want to see anything almost happen.”

“Why?” I blurted, blinking in surprise at the soft tone. That was a sound I didn’t usually hear from the feisty selkie—I knew she was kind, but she rarely let that part out these days.

Heart hammering, I waited expectantly as she wrinkled her spotty nose and gave my arm another punch, saying, “Because I like you.” Her face exploded with color as the words left her mouth, and I grinned widely back at her.

She scowled back, and her face darkened even more when I replied, “I like you too, Nivvie.”

“You like everybody, Kae,” she scoffed, arms crossing.

I shook my head and continued to grin, filling with a thrill even better than finding the perfect current to ride into a huge school of fish. “Not the way I like you,” I answered, feeling my breathing quicken when she stared back and words began bubbling out of my mouth. “It’s different with you. You make everything warm, and I look forward to seeing you every day, and I love watching you hunt, and you’re just so amazing to be around and talk to and—”

I stopped, seeing she was still staring at me, and lowered my gaze to fiddle with my fingers as I realized I’d gotten carried away. “Sorry, it’s just...I’ve...been thinking about it for a while. And I just wanted to tell you, I really…really like you, Vina. A lot. A whole lot. I think I want—”

Nyvina stopped me by stepping forward and catching my face in her hands, pulling me down into a kiss that turned my already-clumsy legs into jellyfish. I froze in place trying to keep myself upright, staring forward as Nyvina closed her eyes and held me close, and my mouth hung open when she stepped away.

“Oh.”

The wonder in my voice made Nyvina catch a few curls of her hair and twirl them, and she gazed into the eyes of my sealskin with her face still red. “...I like you a lot too Kae. I always have,” she mumbled, looking up with a jump when I loosed a relieved sigh and slumped further.

“Oh, thank goodness. I wasn’t sure if you did! I kind of worried that I annoyed you because you’re usually so cool and confident and amazing and I know I talk a lot and get excited and—oh. Sorry. Um. Anyway, I wasn’t sure if I should say anything or...I wasn’t sure if you actually wanted me around or if you were just putting up with me because you’re nice...”

Nyvina’s brow creased, and she nodded sternly. “Of course I do. You’re wonderful, Kae. How could I not? I’ve liked you since you joined the pod. You’ve always been my favorite,” she said, eyes widening when I beamed back with my heart leaping up into my throat.

I watched her with my stomach flopping as her face darkened, blinking when she reached a shaky hand to touch my cheek. It was a softer touch than the last, and very comfortable, and she gulped when I leaned into it with a soft purr. Her hand steadied as she stroked the side of my face, fingers tracing the scars there, and I reveled in the pleasant contact as she coughed to clear her throat.

“You never annoy me, Kae. I like hearing your voice. And you’re cute when you’re excited. You don’t need to apologize for that,” she told me gruffly, letting out a quiet “eep” when I stepped forward to bundle her in my arms and croon into her sea of hair.

“That’s because my great-grandfather was a siren. Nice voices run in the family, I told you,” I teased, laughing when she thumped my arm.

“Kae,” she warned, even as her hand slid to touch my back instead, more tenderly. “I mean it though. You’ve never annoyed me.” She paused, sighing, and added, “Not for being excited at least. Maybe when you do something dumb. Like try to make yourself into orca bait.”

I grinned into her hair and held her tighter, peeking over her head to look out at the water. “Speaking of, you think they’re gone yet?”

Nyvina snorted. “Doubtful. We should probably wait here a while until they get bored and find something else to chase.”

“So what should we do while we wait?” I asked.

Humming, Nyvina raised her head to look up at me, resting her chin on my chest as she blinked slow. “I don’t know. What do you feel like doing, Kae?” she asked, hands slipping under my sealskin to curl around my waist.

We stood there holding each other in silence, gazes locked, until I let go to touch her chin and croon out, “I wouldn’t mind more kissing.”

Nyvina’s mouth split into a wonderful smile and she caught my hand in hers to weave our fingers together. She pressed her lips to my palm and peeled away to swing our joined arms.

“Hmm. I think I could go for something like that. Okay siren boy, how about you sing for us on the way over to those rocks, and we’ll see how we’re feeling when we get there?” she suggested, beaming back at me when I laughed and launched into the first song to come to mind as she gave my hand a tug and led us along the sandy shore.

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[ENG TL] 201709 HIM Interview

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7 girls who bring sweet dreams, Dreamcatcher

Girls who sing rock have appeared. Refusing to fall into the dichotomy between pure and sexy that has taken over the music scene, the combination of rock and girl group summons a peculiar charm. We met Dreamcatcher, the seven girls who will present sweet dreams in the place of the nightmares they chase out.

Written by Kim Hee-eun  Photography Park Geun-wan

JiU

Kim Minji/1994.5.17/Leader/Sub vocal

"Dreamcatchers have the meaning that they'll give you good dreams. We want to give people a good feeling every time they listen to our music."

Dreamcatcher made its debut early this year with 'Chase Me', choosing a genre rarely seen in girl groups. The basis of their concept is rock. The strong melodic tones, the precise group dance where the seven members move as though they are one person, and the mystic, fantastical atmosphere around them left a clear impression. The recent mini album <Prequel>, which includes the lead track 'Fly High', catches one’s eyes as it is filled with songs that brings the musical quality and popular appeal of their music up a notch. Showing off a beautiful yet dark charm, they attracted much attention domestically as well as overseas as soon as they made their debut. Maybe it is because of their name which means 'girls who will chase away nightmares and give you good dreams', but listening to their music makes one feel like slipping into an eternal sweet dream.

Please introduce yourselves individually.

JiU: I'm Dreamcatcher's leader, JiU. I'm the redhead for our current promotion. (Laugh)

Yoohyeon: I'm the lead vocal Yoohyeon.

Siyeon: I'm the main vocal of Dreamcatcher, Siyeon.

Sua: I'm the main dancer, Sua.

Dami: I'm the rapper within the team, Dami.

Handong: I'm Handong from China. I'm a vocal within the team.

Gahyeon: I'm the sub vocal and the cutie maknae Gahyeon.

How was today's photoshoot? Wasn't it hard?

Sua: I've been really looking forward to the photoshoot. I was actually sad that it was over so quickly. I wanted to show off our cool image more. But it was still so so fun. It was the first photoshoot of this promotion, and I felt that the great synergy was worth the wait. Thanks to the photoshoot being done in two concepts, we had even more fun.

We're curious about the meaning behind the team's name, 'Dreamcatcher'.

JiU: ‘Dreamcatcher’ is originally the name of an accessory made by native Americans. It has a sacred meaning that they'll filter nightmares and give you good dreams if you hang them on windows or doors. We want to give people the feeling of good dreams when they listen to our music. Our team is telling a story that revolves around the 'nightmare'. Three parts of the story have been released so far, with 'Chase Me', 'GOOD NIGHT', and 'Fly High'. It'll probably be easier to understand once you see the music videos.

Sua: To add a little, we are a girl group of a new concept that makes music of the rock genre, so listening to our albums will probably be very exciting.

There probably were many stories behind your debut.

Sua: We first debuted as a 5-member girl group called 'Minx', and there were many twists and turns until we were reborn as Dreamcatcher. It took a long time for the new members, Handong and Gahyeon, to join us, too. When we first practiced with the new members, it was difficult to coordinate with them, but thanks to the members being compliant, it's become a lot better. Beyond everything, I want to praise ourselves for the great teamwork between the seven members.

How does 'Dreamcatcher' of today differ from 'Minx' of the past?

Siyeon: First off, our visible concept has been completely changed. When we were promoting as 'Minx', our concept felt like younger girls next door. Now we're able to display a more mature, unexpected charm. Back then, our concept was cute and tomboyish. You'll notice differences in in every aspect such as the team concept, the atmosphere, and the music.

It sounds like a fresh start and challenge. You are probably very determined.

JiU: We're restarting as a new girl group, so we want to do better, more so than anyone else. We were ambitious in the past, but now even our mindset changed for the better.  We're practicing hard and putting in a lot of effort to get ourselves seen. We can't expect to achieve much at once, but if we keep walking forward step by step, I'm sure we'll see good results. Also, we're glad that more and more people are recognizing our efforts.

What kind of song is your lead track, 'Fly High'?

JiU: Our new track 'Fly High' starts with a beautiful piano melody and leaves a deep impression with powerful guitar sounds. Incorporating Dreamcatcher’s unique story into the lyrics made the song a more dramatic number. The concept may feel less intense than before as it presents two sides, the girl and nightmare. But once you know the whole storyline, you'll understand.

Is there something that you are focusing on the most for this promotion?

Sua: There's a lot of new makeup points, like putting shiny stickers under our eyes.

Siyeon: Personally, I worked hard on the expression. This time, our concept required us to express both the girl and the nightmare, so I had to embody both the purity of the girl and the evil of the nightmare in me, which was difficult.

Dami: I focused the most on the gestures. I'm always studying to do different gestures every stage.

It probably isn’t easy to do oversea promotions along with the domestic ones. How have the fans overseas been responding?

Yoohyeon: We went to a restaurant in France, and it was a place owned by Korean people. We didn't think they would recognize us, and were focused on eating without thinking about our image. Then, our song began to play in the place. We realized 'ah, they recognized us'. We were all surprised. They even requested autographs before we left so we gave it to them. I felt really proud.

JiU: When we visited Japan for promotions, we saw fans singing along to us and even crying. Seeing that made me realize again how love for music is without borders, and made me thankful towards our fans.

Sua: We're going to do a long promotion in Japan this time. Seeing the love they showed us last time, we've prepared a larger promotion. (Laugh)

Let's change the mood. Have you been to military units?

Gahyeon: I've done a show in a military unit when I was in middle school. Back then, I did the show without really knowing anything. Recently, when I went to do a show as a Dreamcatcher member, it was surprising how much they cheered for us. It felt different from back then.

JiU: Because of our dark concept, I thought that men wouldn't like us very much. But they shouted 'Deu! Rim! Kae! Cheo!', cheered, blew whistles and clapped for us. I was really surprised. Someone even prepared a placard, which was surprising. It was touching how passionately they cheered for us.

Is there anyone who has a serviceperson in her family?

Sua: My older brother is serving as a gunnery sergeant in the marines. Maybe it's because I've visited the military to see him before, but visiting military units felt familiar. Having seen how they train, I thought it looked very hard. Then I got to experience it firsthand, and it was very hard. We recently got to experience the training for K2 tanks, you see.

It was your first time on a tank, right? How did it feel?

JiU: It felt so hot and humid in the tank. It made me really appreciate how they protect our country. I want to give them energy through our shows.

???: That's right. After being told we were going to experience training, I was very worried. But thanks to the soldiers who kindly explained it and looked after us, we got back safely. I want to go again if I'm given the chance.

Siyeon: It was a bit hard for me too, but it was fun. If programs like 'Real Man' return and I'm given the chance, I want to participate in them. I'm sure I can do well! (Laugh)

What do you usually do when you get free time?

Yoohyeon: I've gotten really into escape room games recently. I've been going with Gahyeon too. I managed to escape in just 20 minutes. I did well, right? There are places that have 'dreamcatcher' themed rooms as well.

JiU: I generally like playing mafia with the members or games like red light green light.

Sua: When fans give us board games, we play them at least once with all the members.

Gahyeon: We even have beyblades in our dorm. Do you know 'Go shoot'? (Laugh)

With there being 7 members, funny things must happen frequently. Are there moments that stick out in your memory?

Siyeon: We all tend to talk a lot in our sleep. We even have conversations in our sleep sometimes.

JiU: There are times when I realize I've become very used to the members. I can't wake up to the sound of my phone alarm, but I wake up to Siyeon or Dami's voice saying 'Unnie, get up.' It's really interesting. It means that us members are that close to each other, right? Living together, there's a lot of episodes and funny happenings. It's to the point that I can't choose just one.

Going forward, as a team, how do you want to be remembered by fans?

JiU: I want us to be remembered as singers that fans can be proud of, and as the best group to our fans. They often tell us that watching us perform is thrilling. I don't want to lose that. I want to keep showing them performances like that. We want to be singers that can give confidence to our fan's shoulders!

Your goal for the year was to release 3 albums. Now that you've achieved that, do you have other goals?

Sua: Luckily, we've been able to achieve our first goal. While we have many goals,above anything else, I want us to continue on with our musical style while giving people songs of a higher musical quality. I also really want to perform in the year-end award ceremonies this year. I also want to win the Rookie of the year award if we get the chance. Lastly, I'd like all the members to be healthy and happy.

JiU: I'd like to make it into the top 100 in the charts, and I really want us to win first place with the new song. I want us to become the best as singers. Do I have too many goals? They're big goals, but I think we can do them if we work hard.

Lastly, is there a message you’d like to give to servicepersons?

Siyeon: People call our songs 'work songs'. Once you listen to our songs, you can't stop working and have to continue. Please listen to our songs lots. (Laugh)

JiU: Servicepersons, thank you for your service for the country. We'll work hard on our promotions, so I hope you’ll be able cheer yourselves up listening to our songs. Because of our dark concept, we've generally only shown you our charismatic side. Don't be scared, approach us a bit and you'll see our brighter side. Please look us up!

[praesidiumsystem-blog]

30 & 31 aug. 2019

👾 30th -- I woke up from really bad nightmares again on the 30th except they were really personal to me and way worse than before, I was panicking really hard. I felt bad because Strom was fronting and I know he wanted to help but I couldn’t process tone good at all so Koda had to come to front to help me calm down. It took a long time but I eventually got there. We had a small misunderstanding towards the end because I feel like I front too much and he sounded hurt that Strom wasn’t going to get to spend time with me like everyone else but we worked it out and I stayed and Hannah came back with me for a bit. 

We watched a few episodes of re:stage and it’s SO cute and so fun and we’re loving it, it’s a shame the game looks like an otome game even though they’re like 10 years old, ffs... One of the characters, Kae, is like a big tech nerd and I throttled to the front so hard that I booted Hannah out altogether by accident... but we had a good time.

Mason and I went to Walmart and I was frustrated about the phone situation and not being able to call our family but I calmed down eventually.and we had a good time getting groceries and stayed within our budget. Came home and had some important conversations with Strom about communication. It really means a lot to us that they try to work together to help each other out and leave when they’re not safe anymore or are too tired or stressed to go on. Everyone gets worn out when communicating isn’t going well and it’s so harsh to imagine not being able to ask your own system members to help you when you’re struggling... That just made me really sad. I hope they feel more confident asking for help soon because they really do deserve help when they need it.

The other day I’d gotten the passing thought that I hope cam can change his emoji one day from the swords to the handwriting emoji or something similar because, he had such a violent past and picking up oda really just made me feel like, he really has the potential to heal in a calm and safe environment now and nothing would make me happier than him being able to rest and relax and enjoy the peaceful life we have together now. Strom thought it was a great idea and that made me really happy, I almost cried. cam eventually responded that he loved me and he was glad about it and i almost cried Again. cam means the world to me and i want him to be happy and safe so much, even when i have really bad dreams that make reality hard to believe sometimes. I drew this while I was thinking about it.

Then we talked about about system landscapes and that was fun, and went to sleep soon after. strom was really safe to be with really quickly, i feel really grateful that everyone has always been so kind and patient with me that its much easier for me to open up these days, i’ve really changed a lot, and i kind of feel like it really is for the better...

grateful for

cam being so understanding and handsome and good and wonderful and amazing all the time forever, i love him so much

koda is an angel from god for also being so patient with me and so willing to help all the time

i didn’t know strom before today but he’s really good and i had a really good time with him, he was fun to talk to and good to be with and i enjoyed our time together a lot, he was really wanting to help me too and im really grateful that he’d want to help me so much even though we just met

we’ve been drinking a lot of unsweetened iced tea the past few days and we missed iced tea SO much so that’s been really good

grateful that mason lets us process frustration at our own pace and doesn’t take it too personally

re:stage is SO fucking cute and good and we love the tiny lesbians so much

mason ended up being able to get some phone money at walmart after all and was able to set it up so we’d be able to call family the next day and i was really relieved

knowing we have enough good food to eat at home feels really domestic and comfy and good

👾 31st -- Spent like all of the livelong day talking with Strom about edits to our system sheets, there’s just so much information and its hard to be concise but I think we made a lot of really really good progress! We love talking about sheet stuff and our systems and all that Good Stuff. We’re having some trouble figuring out how guardianships and ccs and relationships and such work, but... I think we made some progress there too, kind of. Then we spent a thousand years doing height comparisons for lots of our system members, theirs and ours, and that was really fun too.

Then I made stir fry dinner for me and Mason and it was trouble on the wrists but it turned out really delicious and au enjoyed it and it was really worth it! Realized I had more medication than I thought I did so we definitely have enough to last until Griffin can bring us our next set. I stayed up way too late for the 29343489th time but, it happens... and that’s about it!

grateful for

was able to get in touch with our mom and unfortunately one of our aunts passed away (mary), but grandpa has some appointments to get his hernia fixed and that’s relieving

talking about system stuff with husband is SO MUCH FUN all the time, i had a great time even though they made way more progress on their sheet than i did the whole day sdlfkj

making dinner was really satisfying for our worthiness brains even though it hurt physically

happy that mason ended up liking it even though we’ve never made stir fry that way before now

extremely happy that we won’t have to go without meds at all (as long as griffin is able to get them up here this coming weekend)

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Spirit- Chapter 6

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Kaeolynn sat alone in her house, music playing and a breeze passing through. She was growing tired of sitting around. She’d barely seen anyone since her “date” with Jacob four days ago. She was beyond over what’s happened.

She hated being left alone to her thoughts. The more she thought about Jacob and Bella, the angrier she was. She was worth so much more than how she’d been treated. She was glad she’d had Leah with her, though.

Shaking her head, she stood and walked out her front door. Kaeolynn made her way to Emily’s house, knowing someone would be there. When she walked through the door, she was greeted with Sam, Emily, Embry,Paul, Leah and Jake. If no one had noticed her, she would’ve walked right back out.

“Hey, I haven’t seen you for a few days Kae! How are you?” Emily asked, hugging her.

“I’m alright,” she answered, sitting between Leah and Paul.

“You left our date pretty early the other day. Is everything okay?”

Kaeolynn could have laughed. Did he really have the audacity to call it a date still? She looked at him for a moment, picking words in her mind carefully.

“This isn’t a conversation you want to have in front of everyone,” she said, shaking her head slightly.

“Yes it is.”

Jacob was asking for trouble. Kaeolynn had tried to warn him. Hell, Paul had tried to warn him by making a slight flailing motion. Even Embry knew that he should’ve quit while he was ahead. If he wanted to know so badly, boy, was she going to tell him.

She waited a moment, to again choose her words. She wasn’t going to allow emotion to control her. She needed to think carefully, as if she hadn’t been thinking the last four days.

“It really wasn’t a date Jacob. Not for us, anyways. The second we got in the car, it was all about Bella. She sat in the front seat, and next to you at the beach, and she held your hand.”

“You didn’t want to hold my hand.”

“Which has nothing to do with Bella, or even with you. You ignored me the whole time I was there. I deserve better than that. I’m not going to play games with you, or with her. The world doesn’t revolve around you. Especially not my world. I have a reason for being here and it certainly isn’t to sit around on the sidelines while you mentally undress Bella Swan. If you want to hang around and wait for a girl who is already committed to someone else, that’s fine. I’m not gonna wait with or for you, though. If you want to trip over yourself for her, go do it. But you’re not dragging me to the ground with you. I’ve got too many issues of my own to worry about you two. I’m not competing and I truthfully shouldn’t have to.”

It was a lot. She could have said more. In fact, she really wanted to. However, she didn’t need to; if he didn’t get it, it was his problem.

It forced him to think. It also confirmed what everyone had been telling him. He’d acted like a jerk, and he couldn’t take it back.

Leah nodded, ready to back her friend up in any confrontation. However, it didn’t come. After a few tense moments, Jake finally spoke.

“You’re right,” he said, “and I’m sorry. For a long time, she was my ideal. She gave me hope, just to rip it way over and over again. I got so used to giving her everything and getting nothing in return. For some reason, that day, she wasn’t giving me nothing. I shouldn’t have treated you like that. I want her in my life, but I want you to become my life. If you’d give me another shot, I won’t ever treat you like that again.”

Emily was nearly crying at the sight before her. They’d never seen this side of Jacob. They’d never seen him care so much. Kaeolynn nodded slightly.

“Okay.”

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French Vanilla

iKON

Donghyuk x Reader

Fluff

Word Count: 1,346

Scenario

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A coffee shop opened up downtown a few months ago, and you and your friends finally decided to check it out. It was a nice Saturday morning; you were happy that today was chosen to hang out at the shop.

You met up with your other friends at the entrance of the shop and said your hellos before heading inside to stand in line. Your friends ordered first as you looked around the cozy cafe and got lost in thought for a while.

“And what would you like?” Your thoughts were broken by a smooth, soft voice. You looked up in the direction of the voice and saw a handsome blonde guy about your age. You looked down at his nametag--Donghyuk.

“Ah, sorry. I think I'll have… a French vanilla iced coffee,” You did an attempt to send him a soft smile. He started punching in the order when you remembered something.

“Oh! The name is _____.” You were personally proud of remembering such a crucial point by yourself. Apparently, Donghyuk didn't seem to be as proud. He looked kinda lost at what you said. Maybe he doesn't know to spell it.

All of a sudden, a smirk replaced his lost look. “Ugh, this isn't Starbucks,” he said with a small laugh. Now it was your turn to be lost. “We don't take names here,” he explained.

“Oh my gosh, I'm sorry. I don't go to cafes often. I usually just order a frappe from McDonald’s,” you pleaded your excuse so hopefully, he wouldn't think you were that much of an idiot. Donghyuk smiled warmly at you, although it looked like he still had a few laughs in him.

You finally stepped aside and let others order. You probably held up the line with your idiocy.

After a few minutes, you and your friends grabbed your coffees. You all walked outside to the park across the street and sat down on one of the benches. One friend pointed to your coffee and you pulled it closer to yourself thinking they wanted some. “No, what's that on your cup?” Everyone else drew their attention to your coffee.

You swiveled the cup around and found your name written on it. A small smile crossed your lips. “I thought they didn't do names here?!” one of your friends blurted out. They all started talking in a whisper. “Looks like someone is pretty special,” one of them said. Your cheeks heated up at their words.

The rest of the time you guys were together was spent chatting all about you and the cute barista. You and your friends decided to visit the cafe again. Almost every Saturday morning, you were there. The coffee was pretty good, and your friends were eager to play matchmaker every weekend. Cute little chats with Donghyuk welcomed you at every visit, and your name was always present on your cup. Visits to the cafe were happy times that you started to get used to and expected. On the inside, you were pretty sure the other customers started expecting your visit as well.

Today it was once again Saturday. You were eager to go to the cafe, but all your friends happened to have dates of their own, so your single self was all alone. After wallowing around all morning thinking of what to do, your body naturally began to crave coffee; you were a few hours due. “Looks like I'll be going to the cafe myself,” you said aloud.

It was around 2 p.m. when you arrived at the cafe. You entered cautiously, now feeling conscious of yourself since you're alone. You saw the familiar blonde hair and walked up to the counter.

“_____~ We were expecting you earlier,” instead of the expected Donghyuk, Yunhyeong, one of the other baristas, was in front of you showing off his sunshine smile. “Iced French vanilla as always?”

“Yep.” You unconsciously looked around for Donghyuk as you let Yunhyeong type in the order.

“Donghyuk will be back soon, don't worry,” Yunhyeong reassured you with yet another smile on his face. “_____, we're busy with an office catering right now, so how about you go ahead a sit down; we'll bring your coffee out to you.” As you walked away you noticed Yunhyeong’s smile turned more into a smirk. Is something going on?

You sat down at one of the two-seaters and whipped out your phone. You were so lost in the game you were playing that you didn't notice someone heading towards you with your coffee. It wasn't until you heard the thud of your coffee hitting the table that you broke out of your concentration.

“One iced French vanilla for a certain someone,” Donghyuk smiled sweetly at you as he pushed the coffee closer to you. He invited himself to join you and sat down across from you.

“Don't you have to get back to work?” you asked. Donghyuk merely shook his head in a slow and cute manner.

“Where were you this morning? So many customers asked about you.” You both laughed at the last sentence. You explained what happened to him, and he nodded, understanding your situation. “Well I'm glad you still came,” he said as he looked straight into your eyes earnestly. You couldn't tell if your imagination or not, but it looked like there was a slight tint of red on Donghyuk’s cheeks. And for some reason, the way he said those words made your cheeks heat up as well.

You looked down at your cup and saw your name was still written there. “How did you know this was my cup? You weren't there to take my order.”

“You get the same drink all the time,” he stated bluntly.

“Well, my drink is a pretty basic drink. Anyone could order the same thing,” you deadpanned.

“Mmm… I have my ways,” he said like it was some major secret. You just laughed and rolled your eyes at his answer.

“Maybe I should switch my orders around just to mess you up,” you smirked. “Ahh.. but I wouldn't know what to try..”

“Oh! I have an idea,” Donghyuk said without a delay. “How about one day you and I spend the day here, and we'll try all sorts of drinks,” he was eagerly awaiting your answer.

“...Like a… date?” you said slowly.

“Uh..y-..mmm..n-..um..,” Donghyuk’s cheeks started to become red as he stumbled on what he wanted to answer. Finally, he looked down and kept his eyes on the table as he shook his head up and down.

“Good,” you agreed, “I would've been sad if it wasn't.”

Donghyuk slowly lifted his head up to look up at you. All you could do was smile cheekily at him. A faint smile formed on his lips and slowly grew. Now both of you were sharing the same cheeky smile.

“So, looks like it worked out,” Yunhyeong popped out of nowhere surprising both of you. “So are you guys dating now, or… I mean, everyone here wants to know.” You and Donghyuk saw all the customers and the other baristas looking at you guys expectantly. Both of you guys were burning red with embarrassment. “Looks like we got our answer,” Yunhyeong said pointing to your faces.

“Welp Donghyuk, I'm sorry to say, but Jinhwan needs you back behind the counter. Don't worry: you'll be able to get her number later,” Yunhyeong said the last part in a teasing whisper.

You sipped on your coffee and played on your phone for about 30 minutes as you waited for Donghyuk. You both exchanged numbers and decided to have the date next week around the same time.

It was now later in the day, and you remembered about some errands you still needed to do. As you walked out the cafe, all of Donghyuk’s coworkers yelled out to you, “WE'LL SEE YOU NEXT WEEK, _____!” You smiled to yourself as a blush crept on your face for the thousandth time. You knew very well that there will be no sense of privacy on your date next week.

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Manga the Week of 4/19

SEAN: It’s another one of those weeks next week. Hunker down.

We start off with J-Novel Club, which has the 3rd volume of Grimgar of Fantasy and Ash. This is the first book that wasn’t adapted to the anime (which stopped with Book 2), and is apparently even more grim than Grimgar normally is.

Kodansha has its usual plethora of digital-only license rescues next week. Alive 13, Gakuen Prince 11, Pumpkin Scissors 10, and Yozakura Quartet 9.

ANNA: I liked some of these when they were coming out, but probably not enough to snag them as digital only. Still, this is so nice for fans of these series who were left in limbo before!

SEAN: If you enjoy Attack on Titan’s anime adaptation, which has just started up again, Kodansha has Attack on Titan: The Anime Guide.

And Attack on Titan: Before the Fall has now reached double-digits, and still has more plot to go.

ASH: Overall, I do like the Before the Fall manga more than I like the original light novel; it seems more well-developed to me.

SEAN: Kodansha had some digital-only debuts THIS week, which I didn’t mention last week as Kodansha didn’t announce them till the day they came out, much to my frustration. The first is Domestic Girlfriend, a shonen romantic drama from the creator of fan-favorite GE Good Ending. It’s the shonen equivalent to those “shoujo potboilers” I talk about.

The second is a more familiar face: GTO: Paradise Lost has its first volume out. This has been running on Crunchyroll’s manga list for some time. It features Onizuka… in jail?

MELINDA: Hmmmm, I’m always a fan of GTO, so I may check this out.

SEAN: Back to next week: Kiss Him Not Me! has also reached double digits, and will likely go longer now that Kae has been reassured she doesn’t have to worry about stringing her guys along.

Maga-Tsuki has 13 volumes, and this is the 7th, so it’s the halfway point.

And there’s a 4th Welcome to the Ballroom, which I expect features our lead collapsing in exhaustion.

MICHELLE: Heh.

ANNA: Already behind on this series!

SEAN: One Peace has more than one title out this week! The first is the 4th volume of heartwarming, oddball, and sort of creepy Kuma Miko.

And there’s a 7th volume of Rise of the Shield Hero, for those who like isekai-style male power fantasies.

Seven Seas has an 11th Dragonar Academy.

Ghost Diary is the debut from Seven Seas, a supernatural fantasy from Dengeki Daioh that, at 3 volumes, is at least short. That said, it looks more on the Ancient Magus’ Bride end of the spectrum.

ASH: I’m really curious about this one! (Also, I didn’t realize it was only three volumes.)

ANNA: Huh, that sounds manageable.

SEAN: I missed a SuBLime title last week; they also have a 2nd volume of Spiritual Police.

MELINDA: Somehow I must have missed this first volume. But based on the title alone, I’m inclined to check it out.

SEAN: Vertical Comics gives us a 4th volume of Immortal Hounds.

Viz has a double dose of Tokyo Ghoul. Not only do we get the 12th volume, but we also get another novel based off the series, called Past.

And now let’s jump into Yen, starting with the light novels from Yen On. The Asterisk War has a 3rd volume of magical school battles.

Baccano! has a 4th volume the last one to be adapted to the anime. That said, the anime cut about half the novel from its adaptation, so there’s lots of new content for fans to get into here.

Black Bullet’s 6th volume wraps up another two-volume arc. Will it be depressing? Bet on it.

The Devil Is a Part-Timer! has a 7th volume that is composed of short stories set towards the start of the series.

Goblin Slayer’s 2nd volume promises a lot more… well, goblin slaying.

The Irregular at Magic High School’s 4th volume will wrap up its tournament arc, and is a very long book. It would be the longest out this month except…

Is It Wrong To Try To Pick Up Girls In A Dungeon? tops it, with this 8th volume (ALSO composed of short stories) hitting 400 pages or so.

KonoSuba rolls out its 2nd volume only two months after its first (I think the first was meant to be December), and hopefully will be as hilarious as that first volume was.

The debut novel is much anticipated. Rokka: Braves of the Six Flowers, a fantasy with heroes and stuff that… OK, I know extremely little about, but I look forward to finding out.

Sword Art Online has a 10th volume, and Kirito is still stuck in Alice-land. Will he and Eugeo be able to rescue her? And will our other regulars get mentioned at all?

MELINDA: i have fallen way behind in my SAO reading… going to have to fix that.

SEAN: As for Yen’s manga titles, there’s a 10th Akame Ga KILL!.

Alice in Murderland has a 6th volume of very very pretty looking murder.

Aoharu x Machinegun has a 4th print volume.

ASH: So far I’ve only read the first volume of Aoharu x Machinegun, but I found it entertaining and so plan on reading at least a few more volumes.

SEAN: And A Certain Magical Index’s 9th manga volume is adapting the 7th light novel.

Fruits Basket’s Collector’s Edition comes to an end with the 12th and final omnibus. Given the series only had 23 volumes, I expect there will be a lot of extra content at the end to fill it out.

ASH: I’m really glad that Fruits Basket is back in print again. I’ve been meaning to give it a re-read; looks like the time is right for that.

MICHELLE: There was at least one fan book, and maybe two. So I guess a bunch of that stuff will be at the end.

MELINDA: So much love for this. So much.

ANNA: Looking forward to fan books!

SEAN: Horimiya’s 7th volume will have great romantic comedy and hopefully not have the binding fall apart on me like the 6th volume did.

ASH: Oh, no!

MICHELLE: Yay, Horimiya!

SEAN: KonoSuba also has a 3rd volume of its manga adaptation.

Liselotte & Witch’s Forest has a 4th volume, for a double shot of Takaya.

And everyone’s favorite guilty pleasure, Scum’s Wish, has volume 3.

ASH: I was surprised by how much I enjoyed the first two volumes.

MICHELLE: Me, too.

SEAN: Taboo Tattoo has a 6th volume, and I’m sorry this is starting to sound like a broken record, but I have little to say about these titles.

And I believe this is the 3rd and final volume of survival game manga Tohyo Game.

Finally, Yowamushi Pedal gives us a 5th omnibus or this cycling manga and its desperately earnest hero.

ASH: Woo-hoo! I enjoy Yowamushi Pedal so much! I wish there wasn’t such a wait between omnibuses.

MICHELLE: Same! For a series so long, even the omnibus treatment is going to take forever.

SEAN: That’s a ridiculous amount of manga. Are you getting any?

By: Sean Gaffney