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t3kandson · 2 years ago

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Lost Without You

Wordcount; 6,513

Fandom; The Boyz

Pairing; Reader X Son Youngjae, Reader X Kim Younghoon, Reader X Bae Jacob, Reader X Kim Sunwoo & Reader X Kim Hyunseo aka Bibi

Characters; Son Youngjae, Bae Jacob, Moon Kevin, Kim Younghoon, Kim Sunwoo, Ji Changmin, Choi Chanhee, Lee Sangyeon, Lee Hyunjae, Yoon Keeho aka Stephen & Kim Hyungseo aka Bibi

Warning; Angst, Jealousy, Mild violence, Slight Depression, Oral (receiving) Wanking & full sex

Note; last Chapter in Learning Love, earlier Chapters found here.

Taglist; @ilovechanhee

“What do you mean?” You asked prising yourself from Jacob’s grip. “Look it’s cold, you can’t stay here, we’re go to Stephen’s. He’s home but I know he has mountains of paper work, he won’t bother us I’m sure,” Jacob said softly. Though you was impatient, you wasn’t ready to hear the words of Bibi’s betrayal just yet.

You walked through the door as Stephen was leaving. “I got your text,, sorry I didn’t reply, it’s ok I’m going out anyway so the flats yours,” Stephen said kissing Jacob’s cheeks as he blushed. “Hi You must be Y/N, I’ve heard all about you, sorry I can’t introduce myself more formally,” Stephen smiles bowing before he left the flat. You watched as he left wondering what his relationship status with Jacob was as they seemed very intimate. Did he know what you and Jacob had done?

“Y/N that one’s out of bounds, don’t make your life any more complicated as it is,” Kevin said softly teasing. “I wasn’t checking him out, well yeah he’s good looking obviously, does he know?” you said looking between them both. Jacob looked to the fishes refusing to answer your question. You couldn’t tell if it was guilty for revealing your secrets to his friend or because he had cheated on his own partner.

“Right, Bibi, I need answers,” you said cutting into the awkward silence. Kevin and Jacob sat, which you mirrored as you looked at Kevin who seemed in pain. “Bibi took your lingerie I saw her, I thought nothing of it till Jacob said,” Kevin said looking at his fingers. “But why?” You asked feeling confused to why she would go out her way to bring destruction. “I thought her and Younghoon was having an affair, they’ve been very close, but as I come to think of it, it might actually be Sunwoo,” he said closing his eyes in pain.

“Oh Kevin,” you said making your way between them both as you placed a hand on his thigh. “I think she’s got jealous over you replacing her that she’s doing this thing with Younghoon and Sangyeon to punish you, but made also to make sure your pushed from Sunwoo’s life,” he said trying not to cry. “Have you spoke to her?” You asked letting your own pain slide to comfort his as he shakes his head. “What else could it be Y/N, she’s not been the same for a long time, and extra weird since you and Sunwoo,” he said biting his lips.

“Someone once told me to save accusations just Incase, maybe she has a reason to all this,” you smile looking at Jacob using his words. “Maybe,” Kevin said looking to the floor. “Y/N’s right Kev,” Jacob said placing his hand on your shoulder. “Right I’m going to get your answers,” you said standing as Kevin looked at you blinking. “I need mine and hopefully I can drag some out for you too,” you said standing to smile. “Do you need me to come with you?” Jacob asked as you smiled shaking your head. “He needs you more then I do,” you replied before not realising where she could be. “Where is she?” You asked as Kevin looked up to tears wetting at the corners. “Ours,” he whispered as you dragged your coat, turning to look as Jacob consoled him. It wasn’t just Your heart that was getting hurt by Bibi’s behaviour.

Gently knocking at the door despite wanting to kick it down you waited patiently for her to answer. Jacob’s words running through your mind to avoid accusation, despite knowing that restraint was wearing thin.

In her slacks she answered looking surprised to see you standing there as she brushed her hands through her messy hair. “You know he’s gone home right?” She said, expecting that you was there for Youngjae. “I’m actually here to see you,” you said barging through as she stood aside. “What’s up?” She asked nervously as you struggled to contain your raging anger. “Which one is it?” You asked as she looked at you confused. “Which one are you with to be jealous of to fuck my life up?” You asked once more. She turned to the kitchen taking her hair bobble out to reassemble her hair. “Don’t ignore me Bibi, I know you got that lingerie out after I binned it and I want to know why?” You growled. She turned to face you, panic on her face as words seemed to struggle to form.

“Is it Sunwoo, was you jealous because he replaced me with you?” You asked as she bit her lip. “Because you was stupid setting me up to look like I was, now Youngjae’s gone Sunwoo’s going to be all over me,” you scoffed breaking her silence. “Do you really think so highly of yourself?” She laughs. “Ready to step back into those shoes you never really shook off,” she snarls. “So I’m right this is my punishment for Sunwoo?” You cried.

“I’ve not punished you Y/N, you’ve done that all for yourself,” she mocked as your fist balled. “But I love how Sunwoo’s the first person you think of,” she smirks when you sat down. “Don’t be smart with me,” you growl walking towards her as you struggle to keep your emotions in check. “Youngjae was my everything and because of your revenge for Sunwoo, you’ve ruined it,” you cry as her features soften momentarily. “Y/N it’s not revenge,” she said almost sorrowful.

“So it’s Younghoon then? You two seeing each other? Again I’m confused surely me being with Youngjae benefitted you then?” You ask. “How does that benefit me?” She said standing up cockily. “Well explain to me, because all I know is we both know I didn’t sleep with anyone behind Youngjae’s back,” you cry out. “You slept with Jacob,” she snarls with anger confusing you further.

“Yeah after you played your sick sick games,” you growled in her face. “You such a whore that you can’t tell love from lust,” she says shaking you from your shoulders, in anger.

You hear the sound before you acknowledged you’ve striked her watching her fall back to the sofa. “So that’s it you punish me because I was having fun? Your fucking crazy, your no different then me,” you spit out as she chuckles with her hand placed over your slapped hand print. “What you laughing about? This is sick, it’s not just me your hurting it’s Kevin,” you say a little more calmer.

“You don’t get it at all,” she chuckles like a giggling teen that frustrates you further. “You know what, I’m not going to get my answers am I? Because it’s all a game to you, well game over, I’m out,” you say turning before you did more damage then a slap. You headed for the door coming to terms you got no real insight into why she felt the need to ruin you and Youngjae.

“If you knew you’d run even quicker,” Bibi said out a little pained in her voice. Turning to face her she looked as if she was struggling to form words. “Just spit it out Bibi,” you growl walking back towards her till the next sentence froze you to the space. “It’s you Y/N, it’s you I’m in love with,” she says blushing.

Head swarming with confusion, you blink not sure how to take her words. “Y/N it’s you I’m crazy for, you that I wanted away from Younghoon,” she said stepping closer. “None of them deserves you,” she says brushing a finger behind your ear. “Younghoon’s too scared to commit, Sunwoo wanted to use you as a toy. And Youngjae will never ever trust you not collecting you from what he’s watched you do,” she said as your heart hurt at her words. “No one understands you, they throw the whore word around to make you believe you are one, but your not Y/N, I get you,” she says cupping your face. “I can give you what you need,” she says as her hands fall over your cleavage. “I can look after you, love you for your quirks, teach you to be stronger,” she says as her lips pepper up your jawline.

Closing your eyes you see Youngjae, his hurt, his eyes that broke, the pain that this woman pushed onto him. You shoved her away, “You made the only person I truly love leave me,” you cried. “I love you too doesn’t that count for anything?” She cried holding on your arms like a desperate puppy. “Bibi you hurt me just like Sunwoo, just like Younghoon, Youngjae’s the only one that hasn’t hurt me,” you cried that made her close her eyes in pain. “What about Kevin does he also not matter in this?” You add as she looks to the floor. “Looks like your just confused Bibi,” you smiled patting her shoulder. “And if your not we can never be together not now, not when you’ve hurt so many people, one being me,” you said before turning to leave her sob behind you.

You couldn’t help but feel the need to get more answers from Younghoon as you made your way up to the door.

Closing your eyes you knocked, Sunwoo’s eyes widening when he answered to you. “Y/N what you doing here?” He asks trying not to open the door enough to let you in. “Is Younghoon there? I need to talk with him,” you say abruptly. “Do you think that’s wise Y/N, if he won’t change his story for me, he won’t do it for you,” he says sliding out the door to the apartment corridor. “Sunwoo I know who’s stitching us up and I know why, I just need to know what they did to make Younghoon lie,” you say almost pleading that Sunwoo holds your hands with concern. “Y/N who ever made him lie, me and you both know it didn’t take much persuasion. You need to have this conversation with Sangyeon,” he says in the softest tone you’ve ever witnessed.

“You won’t let me see him will you?” You cry feeling Sunwoo avoiding you entering. “Y/N I have to live with him, and I can’t take the bitterness he’s carrying right now, I don’t want you to,” he says stroking his thumb across your lips. His gentle caring side squeezed your heart never witnessing this side of him before. “It’s not like he will be sad for you that you and Youngjae split up,” he smiled warmly. “For the record, I am, I know I’ve been nothing but a brat, but he loved you more then anyone could ever offer. I also know you loved him more then you liked to admit,” he said pained. Your heart fell seeing the defeat in his eyes as he accepted Youngjae as more of your future then him. “Thank you Sunwoo I know how painful that must have been to admit that,” you smile lacing your hands with his. “Kitten, pains my thing you know,” he smirked clenching your hands with his before dropping them. “Go before he realises your here and makes you spill more tears then needed,” he says panicking a little before pressing a kiss to your cheek.

Before you can turn to leave, Younghoon opens the door, his eyes smalling in anger seeing you two talking. “What she doing here? Youngjae’s been gone less then five minutes and you want Sunwoo’s cock already,” he growls. Sunwoo stands between you both, his eyes matching Younghoon’s. “Hyung stop with this crazy talk, stop hurting her, isn’t she going through enough as it is?” Sunwoo pleaded. “She should have thought of that before she made the bottom of the Pitt this way,” he growled. “Are you for real Younghoon, I am at the bottom of the Pitt because your lies threw me there,” you bit out.

Laughing he pushed his hands through his hair letting his bangs flop into his eyes. “Your there because you couldn’t get enough, and because I knew you would hurt Youngjae in the end, I helped to save him,” he spat out. “Hyung please don’t,” Sunwoo said placing his hands on Younghoon’s angry shaking chest. “I fucking hate you,” you cried tears falling down your eyes. “Feelings mutual, you made it out to be all me, yet your the one that ran to Jacob, remember that,” your eyes widened. “What did you not think me and Youngjae didn’t talk, he apologised for taking you from me after he found that out,” he chuckled. “Hyung stop,” Sunwoo said with more anger behind him. “Who do you think you think drove him to the airport,” Younghoon chuckled enjoying your pain as Sunwoo balled one of his fists. “We are all better off without you Y/N,” he snarled. Tears streaming down your face you couldn’t hear any more as you made your way on your heel.

Heart broken as eyes sodden you rang Chanhee. His phone continued unanswered, you realised he was still angry. You knew he was fond of Youngjae and now you forced him to leave. You knew Changmin would come to the same conclusion. Feeling you had no where to go to, you checked in to your local motel.

You walk in to work weary having already missed a week from work, but at-least you look the part. “You look like shit,” Channa smiles, “feel like shit,” you say smiling as you place your work jacket on. “Did Changmin find you?” She smiles as she throws some items in a trolley. You nod lying not wanting to encourage her to contact him. “Good he looked really worried when he came in, he’s been popping in all week,” she said before checking the stock she was about to place on the shelves. “You know what he’s like, panics over nothing,” you smiled as she chuckled. “Yeah how could I forget,” she sniggered as she made her way into the shop floor.

You was avoiding the shop floor taking any task behind in fear of finding Changmin again, when Channa came to disturb your coffee break. “There’s a cute guy asking for you,” she smirks. “That’s good for him, I ain’t got time for any shit today Channa, I’m still not feeling 100%. Tell who ever it is I will call them later,” you said tossing your ear pods in to listen to Channa’s borrowed MP3 player, while resting your eyes.

You feel the table knock causing your weary eyes to open as your shocked to find Jacob sat there. “Jacob,” you squeal as you sit up taking the ear pods from your ears.

“Do you know how worried you’ve had everyone?” He asks, “me included,” he adds with an unfamiliar annoyance. “You couldn’t even phone Chanhee, who’s going out his mind with worry,” he lectured. “He can’t have been worrying that much I rang him, he ignored my calls,” you replied. “Plus my phone died, I couldn’t get a charger,” you muttered looking at the table. “Where you been?” He asked once more, “not in someone’s bed if that’s what your thinking,” you shoot out as his face looks shocked. “Do you think that’s really what I thought?” He asked, as you nodded. “You would be the only one who wouldn’t have thought that,” you replied as his face told you, you was correct. “I went to a motel, I had nowhere to go,” you said hugging the now luke warm coffee.

“Home, Y/N home, or fail that mine, Changmin’s. I know Younghoon’s out but even Stephen or pushing it Sangyeon’s ,” he scoffed.

“I didn’t fancy round two of lectures and accusations at home, Changmin also felt the same, Bibi was at yours and I’m not ready for a Sangyeon confrontation,” you said looking at your cup. “And Stephens? where you knew me and Kevin was waiting for you,” he asked, his tone still not returned back to normal. “Jacob I wanted to be alone, somewhere I could cry in peace,” you said as tears threatened once more.

Jacob moved his seat next to you placing his hand on your shoulder. “Y/N do you think you can’t cry with me? That I would care that your a sobbing mess? Do you really think I’m scared of a crying woman?” He asks much more softer. “Jacob you are all better off without me,” you said as the tears began to escape. “Says who Younghoon?” He questions with annoyance. “Sunwoo told us his harsh words, you know he didn’t mean then right? He’s been out all day & night looking for you,” Jacob said as you looked up to him. “As for me you know, I’ve told you a thousand times I care so much for you,” he said cupping your tear stained face. “I will be who ever you need me to be,” he smiles as a couple tears slide from your eyes. “Friend, companion, lover,” he says the last word with desperation. “You choosing now to throw the L word?” You sniffle. “No not now, when your ready, when your healed, that’s if you want,” he smiles. “Right now I just want to be your rock,” he says brushing your hair out your face.

“I want Youngjae, I want him back so badly,” you cry. “Then I help you fight for him,” he smiles despite hurt behind his eyes. “How,” you whimpered, as he warmly smiles at you. “Let me fix this,” he says as he presses a kiss to your nose before standing. “Where you going?” You ask. “To help you get Youngjae back, but first to ring everyone to tell them your not dead,” he frowns as he says the latter. “So get back to work and go home to Chanhee so he can kick your ass,” he chuckles before he leaves.

Like Jacob said Chanhee was seconds from kicking your ass when you walked through the door. “What the hell Y/N, I could really fight you right now,” he scorns you as you look to the floor. “Do you know what a hell of a couple nights we’ve all had looking for you,” he lectured as you risk a glance at his angry features.

He silence’s as he takes in your dishelved appearance, walking to you to hug you tightly. “I’ve imagined all sorts, you really worried me Y/N,” he said kissing his lips harshly to your forehead. “I’m sorry,” you whimpered as floods of tears began to pool. “Oh Y/N why didn’t you come home,” he said sorrowfully. “Because I thought you hated me because you believed I could have done that to Youngjae,” you sobbed making his T-shirt drenched in your tears. “I could never hate you, you should know that hate isn’t a thing we share, annoyance, irritation, playful hate, even momentarily false hate, but never real hate,” he said holding you tight.

“I’m sorry I didn’t believe you about Sunwoo, but we still have to discuss Jacob,” he says with a little more lecturing tone. Tears sobbed even harder, if only you hadn’t fallen into bed with Jacob, Youngjae would have seen eventually, you wouldn’t be standing there with a gaping hole. “But for now you need a bath you stink like a homeless person, you sure you slept in a motel not a park bench?” He scoffed. You nodded sniffling as you silently made your way to the bathroom.

“How is she in herself?” You heard the voice ask, “Well what do you think? Hyung I won’t lie I’m really not happy with what you involved yourself with, we tend to take your word as gospel truth, that was what left her scared to come home,” you heard Chanhee lecture. “But I understand why, and I’m sure once you tell her she will understand,” you heard Chanhee add as you realised the voice was Sangyeon’s.

Emerging into the livingroom, wet hair in a bun, Sangyeon’s eyes couldn’t reach you. “I’m so glad your home,” he smiled looking up when he got the courage. “I’m sorry Y/N, truly I really am,” he said walking towards you as you stepped back. “Sorry,” he said looking to the floor. “Look I’m not going to give any excuses here what I did was unforgivable, but I should at least give you an explanation,” he said looking back up to you as you felt your eyes water. “Can we sit?” he asked as you nodded following him to sit opposite on the table, Chanhee making his seat by your side for support. “Bibi blackmailed me, but not just me, Younghoon, not that he needed much persuasion,” he said falling into silence as you sat listening.

“She got her hands on my collection, threatened to put them online,” he said as your eyes widened. “Including ours,” he added as you closed your eyes imagining the fear of finding it on a porn site. “Me and Younghoon both didn’t want that, I know the thought of ending your relationship was also a bonus for him, but for me as well as saving my neck,” he paused closing his eyes momentarily. “I couldn’t risk you having yourself exposed, or the other girls,” he added.

“Why didn’t you just tell me?” You asked. “Y/N she’s jealous of you I couldn’t take any risk, this was pure jealous rage over Sunwoo,” he adds pursing. “It wasn’t,” you replied as he furrowed his eyebrows. “This goes no further then us three, but it wasn’t revenge, or them, it was me,” you said brushing your hand down your face.

“Apparently she’s in love with me and has been since the beginning,” you said watching them both look at each other. “You don’t believe me do you?” You said shaking your head to look at the table. “No it’s the opposite,” Sangyeon said, “She use to talk about you in a certain way that was almost very jealous or others around you,” he added. “Plus she use to visit here all the time and get frustrated when you was Absent,” Chanhee said.

“We can’t tell Kevin,” you said feeling sorry for the lovable sweet younger Canadian. “We can’t lie to him Y/N, you and me know honesty’s the way to be,” Chanhee said placing his hand over yours. “I’ll sort it,” Chanhee said as you nodded. “And I’ll sort Youngjae out,” he smiled standing up as the door went.

Chanhee went to answer, Jacob and Younghoon walked in moments later. “Your suitcase is ready,” Younghoon said looking to Sangyeon as Jacob walked around to you. “Were going to get your boyfriend back,” Jacob said pulling you in smiling to sooth your confusion. “And me,” Sunwoo said walking into the apartment. “It should have been you and Youngjae at the start,” Sunwoo smiled warmly. “I promise you I’ll fix this,” Jacob smiles kissing your cheek.

Jacobs words had kept you strong for the whole time they was away. 10 days where you heard nothing and felt you was going out your mind. “You could pretend your having fun,” Kevin smiled as he thrashed you at air hockey in the arcade you previously went to with Youngjae. You plastered a fake smile that made him raise an eyebrow. “Your not the only one dumped you know,” he scoffed as he skittled in a win. “You left her you wasn’t dumped,” you replied. “Jacob,” he hit back as you shook your head. “Ouch put your claws back in or we’re have to neuter you,” you teased. “You couldn’t neuter me if you tried,” he sniggered pouting his lips. “You seriously not going to try and work it out with Bibi,” you said as you managed to bag an extra score.

“Second best to you, erm no thanks,” he said as he hit the puck with force to continue his win. “I don’t think that’s really it Kevin, I really believe she’s confused. Sometimes it takes losing someone you love to make you see the world much different,” you said as you let him officially beat you as the game ended. “So sleeping with Jacob and losing Youngjae made you realise,” he said walking towards you. “Yes, I loved every second with Jacob but yes, he made me realise that, that life wasn’t for me and how much I love and need Youngjae,” you smiled despite the pain. “And if they can’t get him to come back,” Kevin asked placing his hand on your shoulder. “I have every faith that Jacob will bring him home,” you smile refusing to accept the chances of his attempt failing. “You need to start taking delulu pills,” Kevin scoffs as he looks to his phone. While he’s lost into his mobile you walk towards the claw machine. The same one that Youngjae won the iron man Teddy from. Your hands placing on the perspex screen you smiled as you remembered his smiling features.

You saw your reflection bounce off it and you bit your lips at how exhausted you looked despite full of hope. You imagined Youngjae standing next to you, his eyes watching in the reflection. He looked slightly worn and tired but his eyes happy to view you. You smiled as you got lost into your imagination.

You began to wonder if Kevin’s delulu pills was on offer when you heard him call your name. Smiling as you breathed in deeply, your anguishing Agony drove through you at the way your mind played tricks. Seeing Jacob standing next to him, you shook your head. What was your mind up to? Maybe you needed more then delulu pills. “I promised you I would fix it,” Jacob smiled as his hands touched your shoulder.

Instead of a mirage disappearing, your mind came to as you spun feeling the grip to find them both standing there. Younghoon, Sunwoo & Sangyeon in the distance with Kevin told you that this possibly could be real. “Youngjae,” you choked stepping towards him touching his chest to check he was real. “You are real right, I’m not having a mental breakdown am i?” you asked as he lightly chuckled.

“Yes Y/N I’m real,” he said sounding a little worn as he brushed your hand from his chest, showing that he still wasn’t happy with you.

“You came back,” you cried letting your eyes water. “I don’t know, but I’m here for now,” he said refusing to smile. “You still hate me,” you said looking to the floor. “Y/N I could never hate you,” he said with pain in his tone. “I love you more then you can ever imagine,” he croaked, his voice breaking as he spoke. “I’m so sorry,” you whine feeling the tears threaten as he pulled you into his chest.

Chin resting on your head you quietly sobbed into him, feeling safe in his hold once more. “I’m sorry,” you repeated over and over. “Ok I get it,” he said in attempt to stop your words repeating. Your stomach rumbled as he breathed in deeply pushing you away, hands resting on your shoulder. “You hungry?” He asked, “because I think your stomachs voting food,” he smirked as you couldn’t help but smile back nodding. Hands gripping yours he dragged you out and took you back to the diner. The feeling of his hand warmed you as if he was your energy.

“Our usual” he smiled as the waitress nodded. “This is our third visit and she knows our usual?” You question intrigued. “Apparently so I was just testing the waters, didn’t think she would happily remember,” he chuckled as his hands reached for yours. “I’ve missed you so much,” you said making him close his eyes. “Y/N I’m sorry for not believing you,” he said as you blinked surprised. “After Jacob you have no reason to apologise, I fucked up,” you said looking to your hands. “You was right you would have seen eventually I was telling the truth, I shouldn’t have jumped on to Jacob,” you said closing your eyes. “You make it sound like he was awful,” he chuckled despite being in pain. “No, he was well yeah, I don’t regret sleeping with him, I regret sleeping with him when we was still, well yeah in the middle zone,” you said looking up to see his eyes heavily focused on you. “Middle zone?” he asked tilting his head. “Over but not officially over,” you whispered. “Is that even a thing,” he tried to smile.

“Look Y/N I won’t pretend I’m not hurt, nor will I pretend I’m ok or ever promise I will be. But I understand when you’ve had a different view on love and life how greed can change you,” he said nodding to the waitress who brought over your food. “I know how Hard it’s been without you, I also know that you haven’t coped well neither,” he added as he placed your food in your path. “Sometimes you have to realise what you lost till you realise how much you need it,” he said dipping his Fries into his milkshake. “I know we both have scars, my trust, your love issues. This so called teaching, teaching that was based on sexual gratification and not partnership,” he said placing the food near your lips which you took. “But I think if we work at it, and go very slow we can maybe find ourselves back,” he says Tossing his own milkshake covered fry to his mouth.

“I’m confused what do you mean,” you said as you chewed his food while he smirks shaking his head. Dipping a long fry into the milkshake he looks at you smiling. “In Y/N’s confused terms, I want you, I need you, but we have to go slow, build my trust issues, build your self respect and love belief,” he said smiling “do…. You….. understand,” he sniggers gently slapping the milkshake covered fry against your face with a belly deep laugh. Hearing that sound was music to your ear that you didn’t care you looked a mess, that you laughed back at him before grabbing a napkin.

“Oh no you don’t, last time you did that you got it in your eye,” he said snatching the napkin to gently wipe the mess from your face. “You sound like your scared I’ll kiss you again,” you said playfully. “Like I said slow steps,” he added a little more serious. “Even a simple kiss?” You scoffed. “Well obviously we can kiss, you know like this,” he said as he blew you a kiss as you raised an eyebrow. “Really Son Youngjae,” you scoffed shaking your head. “It’s for you just as much as me,” he said taking a bite into his burger. “No you just like to torture me,” you whined as he smirked. “Well that too, but seriously, I want to go really slowly,” he smiles.

“Like let’s go on a real date,” he said putting his burger down to lace his fingers with yours. “Is this not a date,” you said smiling as you looked at your fingers entwined. “This is dinner, I want a date where I collect you and we do something like movies, bowling, skate board lessons even,” he pauses winking followed by a chuckle when he witnesses your scowl. “One where I drop you to the door, without ravishing each other to your bed,” he smiles looking peaceful as he imagined his words. “Ok then,” you smiled. “Good, eat your food then and were date plan,” he said looking pleased as he dropped your hands to dig into his food.

You had been dating for three months, it had been slow as he had suggested. Though there was a no sex rule, he thoroughly enjoyed teasing you till you felt you was going crazy. Regularly kissing and losing yourself to each other in your bed, rolls against you that had you hungry for more body contact. Clothed hardening bulges rolling into your throbbing nub, moans spewing into the air. The second you begged, had him know his task was done as he made his excuses to leave.

Your friendship with the others returned, though Youngjae was very jealous of Jacob, Sunwoo and Younghoon at first. He soon relaxed around them when he knew how your eyes never left him. Jacob had become a good friend to you, resurrecting his close friendship with Youngjae too. Kevin had forgiven Bibi and though it had been a little awkward at first you had regrown your trust and friendship in her, even though Youngjae and Sunwoo didn’t trust her in any way. Sunwoo had introduced his girlfriend to the group and you was stunned when he brought Jvcki to meet you all, Yours and Bibi blush’s being very much to Sunwoo’s amusement. Haknyeon however, had become her little puppy, you couldn’t help but smile as she had become your replacement. Of course there was still heavy flirting, Hyunjae loved nothing but to encourage your blushes, but he often did it infront of Youngjae to wind you both up. Thankfully Youngjae adored his elder and often shrugged it off with a light hearted eye roll, his trust in you being even more stronger then before.

Plus it helped that he knew Hyunjae was crazy for Younghoon, them and Juyeon never really away from each other for Long.

During one of the nights you stayed in Youngjae’s room, you snuggled up to his back, Bibi and Kevin’s noises hitting the room next door. “Well suppose atleast someone’s getting it,” you scoffed kissing into the exposed neck as he sniggered. “You have fingers don’t you,” he teases as your hands wrap around to his chest. “So do you, help a girl out,” you whine into his ear as you feel him shiver. Your hands rub around his chest as he brushes them away. “Can a man not get any sleep without being manhandled,” he teased.

“Manhandled, I’ll give you manhandled,” you scoffed as your hands made there way down his body to his joggers. Rubbing your hand around the fabric you palm at his hardening shaft. Pulling away your fingers, you find the elastic band of his bottoms as your hands slip under. Feeling his pubic hair in your touch, you reached to his throbbing Cock as you slowly pumped him within his clothing. “How’s this for Manhandling,” you tease expecting him to fight you away. You set a rhythm against him, as he fists the sheets while moaning into the air. “You use to mock me looking weak, but Youngjae look at you,” you teased as he growled flipping you onto your back.

“This is one bobbin you don’t want to wind up babe,” he growls nipping at your bottom lip. Pressing himself into you that he hits your hungry starved throbbing nub. “Why, what do I get, a Jack in the box?” you teased making him frown as you unlocked his hidden devil instead. “Babe, Im going to fuck you up, do you want that, huh?” He threatens. “Well if that gets you to fuck me finally then let’s wind this bobbin up,” you say biting your lip as your fingers swirl around his chest above his top. “Remember you asked for it,” he says as his lips attack your neck. Deep suckles against the skin let’s you know he’s reached his teasing quota, finally he’s going to give in to you and your sexual needs.

Removing his clothes as you follow, your in a mad rush to feel your skin slot together. “Y/N I love you,” Youngjae says between kisses over your chest as he drags them to your breast. “Youngjae, I love you more,” you moan as his kisses continue his suckle to print you with purple blemishes. “Impossible,” he growls dragging his lips to your stomach. “Says who,” you moan into the air as his lips find your clit.

Swirls against you, his tongue slips to your core, thumb on your nub rolling to have cry’s leave your lips. You close your eyes to his tongue tease why he gently hums. Bringing your hips to meet the tongue that he’s fucking into you, you feel like your losing yourself to him. The tip sliding against your walls, you feel your thighs shake, how can his tongue feel as it’s breaking you. Feeling so sex starved you know you won’t last long.

Before your core can spring he leaves you feeling empty as he slides back up to you.

Lips falling to yours he kisses you passionately. “Can I make love to you?” He asks softening his features. “What happened to the demon and threats?” you chuckle, looking at how he’s like he’s in heaven touching your body. “That will happen, but I want to make love to my girlfriend,” he whispers so deeply your core tightens. “The girl that one day I will marry and have kids with,” he said smiling before his lips return to your jawline. “Son Youngjae, make love to me,” you whisper, as he lifts his head looking at you as if your the most precious person in the world.

Thrusting he slips himself in you at ease, moaning as he closes his eyes. “I’m home,” he cry’s as he slows his pace while his fingers lace with yours. You close your eyes as you feel his hot member brushing against your sweet spot immediately. “Look at me I want to look at your eyes when we lose each other,” he says all doe eyed.

Despite the slow and torturous pace, the way his cock is angled is springing your core tight around him. You feel his body shake with excitement as he shows his vulnerability to you and in this moment you work with it. Pulling his chest closer so his chest pushes into your breast with each thrust, his lips return to yours. Kisses and tongues slowly unraveling as if you was slowly becoming one. You feel his thighs shake as he struggles to hold back this romantic pace. Fingers dragging down the top of his spine as far as you can reach, you suckle down his moans.

“Y/N don’t leave me,” he cry’s between kisses. “Never, it’s just me and you forever,” you promise between breaks of his lips.

Your orgasm soon climbs its high, walls clenching around him has his thrust heavier as he chases his too. “Almost,” he warns as you let your own go. Cry’s of “love you,” , “your mine,” and “babe,” gets sucked down alongside your, “Jae,” , “baby,” & “forever.” Like the world has wrapped you up for eternity together, you both cum. Mixing your essence deep inside as you continue to kiss through your high while your body shakes through your orgasm.

After it feels like forever, his lips leave you as he winks devilishly. “I think all your lessons are complete now babe,” he grins as you gently swat him. “Now I’m going to fuck you so hard and long, I’m going to have you beg to stop again,” he winks.

That was one threat he managed to keep.

The end

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Thanks for sticking with me through this series. I hoped you enjoyed this 5th anniversary & Eric’s Birthday series. ❤️

If you enjoyed it, you might enjoy the many other Fanfics I’ve written for The Boyz in the master list below. Not forgetting the Boyz Vampire Younghoon and Eric Series, Immortal Betrayal. It was one of the first series I ever wrote so I apologise it may be poorly written. (Learning as I write, I should have taken English seriously at school 😂)

Masterlist

#kpopidol #fiction #kpop smut #the boyz smut #son youngjae smut #lee sangyeon #bae jacob #kim younghoon #lee hyunjae #lee juyeon #moon kevin #choi chanhee #ji changmin #ju haknyeon #kim sunwoo #jvcki wai #kim hyungseo #yoon keeho

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