#just watching people i follow rpying with their mutuals

[polutek]

I just love how silly people on this app are

[gcrminatorarchive]

tbh i don't want to sound mean or anything but the vibe you give me is kind of anxious tbh like at first i was comfortable but when you started rpying coronavirus related stuff i just want to step away. plus it makes me scared when you get angry at people who unfollow you i mean i get being upset but some people unfollow for their comfort zone. i hope this is okay to send in rip

// It’s fine. I apologize for not tagging about the coronavirus, and I’m sorry if it’s made you uncomfortable. But this is a blog about health, the human body, and yes, germs and viruses/current events. So I’m going to talk about it a little bit, and it might pop up ONCE in awhile. I also have MAJOR anxiety because of previous experiences on here that made me very depressed, plus I live in a household where stress is usually found in, every week if not every day. I’m sorry for being anxious, but I just am, and I’m trying to do better. I’m called away by my family every ten minutes of the day (Which makes it hard to keep muse and to actually DO anything productive on here.), I have to watch 3 large labradors by myself and clean up the house most times because my siblings don’t help, and I have Aspergers and ADHD, which goes hand in hand with me being anxious and can cause me to second guess myself and overthink. My parents sometimes discourage me with teasing comments about my weight, my behavior, and my habits. My siblings make messes and don’t contribute to a thing because they think it’s not their home or their responsibility. So it’s usually up to me to step up when things get tough on my parents. If that doesn’t make a person anxious, then I don’t know what the hell does.

And I wasn’t unfollowed; I was blocked. By people who’d followed me and that I’d really come to respect and trust as friends over time. People I really believed in and grew close to and had faith in. People I could turn to and have had amazing connections with. Sometimes they did it for no reason, sometimes after a LONG while after ignoring a friendly message or post about them once every blue moon. I understand blocking someone for their comfort zone and safety, but just leading a mutual on without communicating with them, or not giving any rational reason as to why you’d just ditch them…just doesn’t make sense to me.

Especially if they actually considered you a friend.

I didn’t mean to scare anyone. And now knowing that I did…I’m really, very very sorry. I can’t always help who I am.