#just venting stuff. argentina stuff

[r-truth]

mirá mi país se está yendo al mismísimo carajo pero todo sea por san martín y manuel belgrano, yo voy a seguir peleando

[the-acid-pear]

Thinking of my mother again. Thinking of how usually one would think that speaking up and confronting someone would be the solution to a problem. The way that that wasnt true for me is, inch resting. I can remember 3 different occasions where i had a full blow on mental breakdown-panic attack at a public cafe because of this woman (again idk how our asses didnt get kicked out i was full on crying and screaming and violently shaking and no one even tried to approach to LIKE OFFER FUCKING HELP. A bit offended won't lie). It was a loop with that woman. It was confronting her time and time again thinking this time... this time it will be different. This time she will listen to me, this time she'll change. And in that copium, in that false hope, one just starts thinking THEY are the problem. What if she's not changing because of me? what if i have to change? But the thing is, i tried. I tried to do things right. Even in my anger in my hate in my desperation i kept trying to. I wanted to have a good relationship with her, i wanted to have a mother. Hell, i can even remember the times at school, near the end, where i openly berated her, saying how done i fucking was of her yelling at me every morning, which now that i say it after 4 years have passed i can see just how awful that is. Every morning, without fail. Waking up just to experience that; screams complaints you are the problem your father is the problem passive aggressiveness you didnt do this you didnt do that im the victim here you are the problem. But back to the point, when i started talking to my friends about that; and i have this very vivid memory of sitting backwards on my chair, my best friend to my side, the girl i had a crush on behind me, sitting next to her best friend, and telling her just how done i was in a joking manner, hearing her laugh, i miss spending time with my classmates, i miss pretty girls saying im funny; i remember how deep down i still got offended when people insulted my mother. It's wild how even despite everything there was this, very strong need to help her. When my step father got a little too abusive i was the one standing there, ready to kill him because i was never taught to rely on adults to help me, so i was plotting self defense murder of a man who was also terrible but i still loved too. That's the issue. I loved my mother. I wonder if deep down you could say i still do. Perhaps that's why i struggle so hard with feelings, the person i bled to love and who kept telling me she loved me, well...

Anyway it's just interesting how it's not a case of i didnt try, its a case of i desperately tried until the last second, and at the last second i was kicked out of my house. It's wild how i would've stayed there, suffering, trying so fucking hard to have a mother. Just very inch resting.

[sawtastic-sideblog]

I'm at work and I just saw where Geoff Payne is in Argentina and he's reading letters from fans and thanking them and the fans are holding stuff up in front of the cameras to block him from view of the paparazzi. It made me tear up.

Bless Geoff for being strong when we know he's hurting.

Bless the fans for being kind souls and leaving sweet words and blocking Geoff from view.

Bless @twopoppies for taking on a sort of venting outlet for people sorting through their feelings during this very surreal and confusing time. I found her while looking through the Liam tag and honestly she's a pure heart. I'm sobbing reading her posts. I'm refreshing her page every few hours to see what's going on now and that's where I learned about Geoff. Sending thoughts and good vibes to her. ♥

Stay strong yall.

[shappyshag]

Welcome to my blog!!

Hello!!!!! Im shappy!! I don't really know how to use this app at its fullest yet, but I'm getting into it 👏👏

I mostly repost or use this to read fan fiction butttt im trying to be more active bc this is fun to use!!!!!!!!!!

he/they/it , argentina , MINOR , christian , sometimes do art

⮞ cardd & pronouns.page

Twitter 1 I'm the most chronically online on Twitter all day on there you should follow if you love annoyingness

Spacehey I just vent and talk about my life on here but my profile is cool asf so yeah

Tiktok I have some cool shit here 💯💯

Spotify im always listening to music so yeahhh follow me on there im so cool

Twitter 2 selfship acc Im very cringe idc not that active but sometimes I remember I have it and don't stop for 3 days jeje

Letterboxd i dont watch a lot of movies but when i do i put them here!! ignore my horrible taste and please recommend movies here or here

I make a lot of typos and idc!!!11!!1!!!1

Idc about a lot of things

but one thing I do care about is europe, I hate Europe, I'm the most Europe hating person

I believe i am KAITO's boyfriend and that anyone who says otherwise is wrong (mentally ill stuff yes!!! Idc!!! ͡°Ĺ̯ ͡° )

you can interact if you're in this list, just don't follow me, please...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!KAITO FANS THAT SAY HE IS THEIR BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KAITO ROLPLAY PAGES YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM!!! THAT'S NOT HOW HE WOULD ACT

DONT EVEN FUCKING INTERCT IF YOU ARE THOSE

basic dni criteria

dream stan

taylor swift fan

sh

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zionist

you send people death threats (i don't think its okey in any situation !!!!!! there's no excuse!!)

you might see me interact with some of the people on this list :333 yes what can I say I'm a hypocrite!!!! 🥳🥳

main interests atm: vocaloid , sherlock holmes , house md on season 8, the walking dead , kaito , 12rods , the beatles , miranda!

music: 12 rods , vocaloid , miranda! , the beatles, , gustavo cerati , charly garcía , luis alberto spinetta

movies: dead poets society , the truman show , any sherlock holmes adapt , the fnaf movie , trolls , the beatles movies

tv shows: house md on season 8 , sherlock hound , sherlock bbc , granada sherlock holmes , any sherlock holmes adaptation tbh!! , little witch academia , scott pilgrim also the comics , bluey , vita carnis , madoka magica , the walking dead also the comics x2 , criminal minds

books: the metamorphosis , all sherlock holmes books , socios del club de pescadores , some mangas , i am a cat , fanfics , scott pilgrim , classic literature , the walking dead haven't finished

others: detroit: become human , astronomy , dinosaurs

yes i did just c&p my spacehey

yesss let's fucking goo most fun part!!111!!!!1!!!!!!!

top kins: sherlock holmes , gregory house , bingo heleer , neil perry , will garham not very happy to admit that , mike wheeler , spencer reid

THANKS FOR READING ALL THIS!!!! or maybe you didnt read but just came to the end!! still thanks ig!!! consider following me if you like being silly and fooling around :PP :333

[the-house-of-beauty]

TRIGGER WARNING:

Proship, Venting, Swearing. Please don't read if you're sensitive (i didn't did this before to no one of my post. This is the first time cause im gonna be wild as ever. Also READ the tag please)

proshippers are losers lol. Cry about it! Since i remembered when PIECE OF SHIT PROSHIPPERS CAME TO ANNOY ME...i will say it AGAIN

PROSHIPPERS AREN'T WELCOME IN MY ACCOUNT. People like you destroyed me serioulsy and if i see, i see ONE OF YOU AGAIN, IN MY BLOG, READING MY VENTINGS OR POST OR WHATEVER, REBLOGGING MY STUFF OR ANY SHIT GET OUT.

If you support them, GET OUT TOO. I DON'T WANT THOSE PEOPLE ON MY SPACE, IF YOU COOOME GET CLOSER EVEN A TINY BIT I WILL KNOW YOU SHIT, TU PEDAZO DE MIERDA, to the bastard that mocked my english ADIVINA GRINGUITO SOY ARGENTINA, IM ARGENTINIAN, don't try to correct me when i'm sure you don't know a shit of my language. Sincerelly FUCK OFF and respect me because I DIDN'T COME TO YOU TO ANNOY YOU IN MY BLOG LIKE YOU DID WITH ME, yes, it wasn't harrasing, just mocking like those bastards. I won't forget any of you bitches. I will expulse everyone AND EVERYONE AND EVERYONE THAT COMES WITH A PROSHIP STUFF. I didn't want conflict, just vent and mock to all of you since we both hate us in the same way (you know, you also do too, idiot).

Don't come to me, because i have no respect to one of you. This is like my house, this is my account and i dump every little shit that annoys me now. Don't dare me, don't tease me, DON'T DO ANYTHING TO ME. I don't even see your shit, reblog any other bullshit of you. LEAVE ME ALONE!

[sherlock-is-ace]

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[queen-susans-revenge]

I truly didn't think the media campaign against the Duchess of Sussex could get more unhinged and yet here we are! With supposed news outlets running long long pieces that just say "We hate her! We hate everything about her! She was probably the WORST child! She kicks puppies and makes white women cry! She is the bride of Satan and we HATE her!"

Like literally, that's all this is. Just a huge long howl of hatred that bears zero resemblance to the woman herself as revealed in her own direct words and actions, or the reports of those who actually know her firsthand⁠—her Suits coworkers have nothing but warm words for her, as do those who have joined with her in charity efforts, but all that is ignored in favor of more smears.

The piece is also riddled with outright lies of course, easily disprovable stuff, like the way they twist Serena Williams' refusal to give a quote into a denial of their friendship. But that it exists at all is the baffling thing; I honestly cannot think of any other public figure who provokes this kind of deranged hatred. Even Donald Trump who certainly inspired his share of unflattering press; I can't think of an analogous article to this one against him. I can't think of a piece about anyone else in any major publication that simply sets out to insult and denigrate every aspect of the subject's humanity.

And these come out every single day. For years.

Stuff like: "Lacking talent, charm, intelligence or class, her only way up through marriage, Meghan lashes out at the very people paid to make her life easier, better, happier." This is just full on, mask-off hatred, it's so uncomfortably personal and spiteful! Never mind that it obviously isn't true: Meghan had a very successful career before marriage, and as for her intelligence there's that degree from Northwestern where she dual-majored in theater and international relations, and her internship at the American embassy in Argentina, where she became fluent in Spanish. She's clearly no dimwit!

But again it's less the substance of the smears than the personal, hateful nature of them, and the ubiquity, the relentlessness of it. Every single day these tabloids attack her at great length. Every. Single. Day. they devote column inches to fanning up hatred against her. It's so personal! It's so all-encompassing! It never stops!

I think it must tie into one of their recurring obsessions, the idea that Meghan might run for president. When she has never given the slightest indication that she has any intention to do that. Her and Harry's intentions are to be activists and philanthropists on a global scale, to use their platform to highlight the causes they care about. They've said that over and over. And yet, again and again the publications crusading against her return to this idea that she'll run for office. They're absolutely fixated on this idea, one they invented from thin air, the same way they've invented a whole woman to hate, the devious, scheming, brazen hussy who is somehow at the same time a vapid and shallow nitwit.

It's that she's liberal? I guess? And they're afraid she might make a good political candidate? So they have to destroy her pre-emptively? But like, even AOC who is surely a much more relevant political threat, and also an attractive woman of color, doesn't get smeared on this level. She gets smeared, don't get me wrong! AOC gets all kinds of deranged racist nonsense, but it's not on this level. It's not front page every day in every tabloid for years.

So if it's not just politics, and if it's not just the racism, where does it come from? Why this need to vent hatred against Meghan constantly? Why does it feel so personal?

[getting-messi]

twt fans really are the worst 😭 i love a lot of the accs on there but (esp i guess on the more 'stan' side of football twt) theres been a surge of what people are now calling 'face card fc' who are all up m/appe and h/kimi's ass and keep shitting on messi for every little thing. i WISH i had some of the stuff they say saved, it's literally deranged. m/appe just scored FIVE goals against 6th tier club with self-confessed PSG fans and ultras as players and all they have to say about it is 'see what happens when messi isn't there' which... and they keep blaming messi for m/appe and neymar's not being friends anymore as if that wasn't all m/appe's doing 😭😭 but how would they know? their lot weren't even around before the wc lol. messi and neymar been friends for YEARS, even if they didn't fall out, neymar ain't ever rate him like messi, be fr ✋. they also keep saying messi shouldn't renew so m/appe and neymar 'can be friends again' and psg can 'play better' like say you only google the match and skim through that timeline thing they have lmao. him and messi actually play well together but they ain't care about that, just their little blorbos.

that was a vent 💀. nah fr tho, as funny as it can be sometimes, you're better off never seeing it cause it's actually so infuriating 😭

you know what? I was briefly on footy twitter and was miserable so i just stick to footy tumblr. But during this world cup, i did come across the stan side of it and appreciated it SO MUCH MORE than the mainstream side. Looool, i slowly came to this discovery by finding fancams underneath Popbase/Pop crave's tweets during the world cup and learned some Argentine multi-fandom accounts that were also Barca fans as well and i was like ahhhh my people🤧

But ohhhhhh, i TOTALLY noticed that there was a surge of a weird combo of h/kimi and m/appe stans that like dead serious know NOTHING about what they're talking about and just posted tiktok clips of them interacting with each other. It is SOOOO weird how they are trying to make this dumb beef between Messi and them like...............i know they're new around here but?

I completely appreciate the vent, PLEASE vent in my inbox, like i enjoy hearing from others SO MUCH. But yeah, Messi and Mbappe are like polite colleagues but that's it. Messi RAISED Neymar like that is his SON, Neymar adores that man. Just remembering how often Neymar used to talk about Messi when he left Barca, how Messi consoled Neymar after Brazil lost against Argentina in Copa, how Neymar wrote an entire post on IG congratulating Messi after winning the world cup. Like they're love for each other runs deep.

[reaper-bird-san]

Hi. Welcome.

Here you will find:

ー Art (Find all drawings on #reaperbird_ some are fanarts, some ocs/fcs some vents )

ー Ocs (Most of them dont have a story. Im terrible at this )

ー Fanbase Brainrot (I 100% encourage you to interact cause I dont know many people with the same interests)

ー Interactions (mostly with Dani cuz they're my only friend in this plataform)

ー Vent (May be triggering! Be safe and pay attention to the tw)

About me:

ー My pronouns (Along with other stuff. I recomend reading it before interacting)

ー My interests (so you know what i like and decide if you would like to interact)

ー My kinnie list (comfort characters)

ー I am actually mentally ill (I guess its obvious if you read the vents so, again, tw)

ー I'm not a proffessional artist (Don't expect me to be amazing at it.)

ー I'm from Argentina (Please correct me if I write something wrong, I'm still learning english)

ー My other social media (If you wish to chat there or anything let me know who you are first please)

I will NOT tolerate:

ー Any kind of discrimination towards the LGBT+ community. (Misgendering people on purpose, drama between sexualities, comments that can be offensive, using slurs, etc..)

ー Any kind of xenophobia or racism (Anything against the #blacklivesmatter or #stopasianhate movement, being disrespectful to another culture, using slurs, etc )

ー Any kind of hate towards women (misoginistic comments, "not all men" talk when a victim of abuse is talking, sexualizing women in non sexual contexts, asking or sending dick pics, etc...)

ー Extreme political talk (For example: Extreme feminism: meaning hate towards men or saying only cis women can be feminists, trying to convert someone into your own ideology, etc.. I personally dont like drama and politics make my head hurt. If you wish to discuss this topics im sure you can do it in another blog or just go to twitter lol )

ー Pedophilia (Commenting that you are atracted to underage characters, answering a comment made by a minor with sexual jokes or implications, supporting MAP's or claimimg that you are one, etc )

ー Incest (Shipping characters that have the same blood or have been raised as family. Such as Kaeluc, Pinecest, etc...)

ー Shaming (Shaming people by their looks, body type, weight or interests, using dissabilities as insults, making fun of people using tone indicators, being unessesarily mean about my art or anyone's art, etc...)

ー Toxic fangirling (Being untolerant of other ships than your own, sexualizing real people, hating on other fanbases, etc...)

I don't mind:

ー Slight Nsfw (Sexual content, suggestive topics, smut, etc... Do not send nudes tho)

ー Gore (Blood, horror, etc...)

Feel free to send asks i guess... I dont really use them much but it will make me happy of you do! I dont do commisions but you can request stuff if you really want a drawing from me.

If all this info wasnt enough.. search my posts that have this tag -> #about me And find out more!

[voidsfanficfortress]

Reader is latina ( more specifc, Argentine,bc yours truly is from there).

This has mentions of whats going on on south american, and also kind of hurt comfort.

●♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤♤●

Poker nights were fun.

Only IF you were and spectator.

-i dont get it- you say looking at the cards that displayed on the table before you- how in the fuck do you have a six if gilles already had one?-The old timers look at you, amaru even stares at you like she had a sudden realization- beacause to one point you have him a six, and you said this cards do not repeat, so how the hell do you have a six Vicente?-

Capitao stared daggers at you,like " dont blow my cover".

Then out of nothing alek flips the table and cracks his nuckles, you and amaru decide to retreat out the kitchen.

-¿Cómo te habías dado cuenta de eso?-( how did you notice that?) Amaru asked you.

-era muy obvio,¡ yo sabía que se estaba carteando!- ( it was way to obvious, I knew he had cards up his sleeve!) You answer- he gets nervous every time he pickes a card -

- youre really observant, no surprise you and ryad get along so well- the peruvian commments

Both of you Walked to the rooms area.

-Hows he?-you question-, I heard hes getting closer to the hijo de puta ( son of a bitch) that Killed his brother-

-He is, he has almost all the evidence he needs-

-Im so happy for him-

-we all are- says the older woman- we all are-

[...]

Capitao entered the kitchen, ignoring the russian old timer's gaze, then he looks at you, or at your back.

-bom dia- he mutters half asleep, making a coffee.

Then he hears sobbs, your sobbs, in reflex, he turns around, and looks at you, putting a hand on your shoulder.

- Hey...you fine?-You turn around, eyes red, Pink cheeks, and broken breath.The brazilian hugs you, caressing your hair, trying to calm you down- what happened- you dont answer- what happened( y/n) -

-my siblings- the woman says- they are running out of money, dad has no work, and the manifestations are getting violent...they almost hurt my youngest sister...-Alek gets up, about to say something, but Vicente shakes his head, then the russian leaves.

The brazilian Man sits you on the sofa, giving you a cup of tea, he caresses your back.

-Todo se está llendo a la mierda-(everythings going to shit), you know whats going on on your home country, Chilean protest, Venenzuela is starving and Argentina's money is devaluing at alarming rates, god...I hate this- you say- this isnt us, aquí se comparte ( here we share) lo mío es tuyo ( whats mine is yours) * , and my siblings, they Barely have money for food, amd and i miss my little Angels...-

Capitao lets you talk, lets you vent, knowing how hard it is now in south america, how people suffer, how people protest and fight for what is rightfully theirs,and yes, your job is people suffering , seeing people suffer, but this is your home, people you know , the place where youre from, your origins , your roots, and its okay to let it hurt, and it is okay to get angry when the americans say shit and complain for silly stuff, its okay to be angry at the people who can help and doesnt.

So he lets you cry.

And cry.

Until you fall asleep in his arms.

[...]

You wake up in your room, smelling food,your body rises from the bed, seeing the tray full of pastries and a hot drink.

[ ...]

Its been almost a month, you and Vicente grew really close, bonding over where you were from, sharing your traditions,your ways.

And even tho you both knew about the others country just for being in the same continent, both of you felt like the country of eachother were as your own.

- So- you say,a Sly smile on your face - you ready for poker night?-

-I am- the brazilian Man said, smirking- that russian dog doesnt know whats in for him tonight -

-well, before you go, I need to make sure youre not slipping cards on your sleeves-

- What are you, the poker police- he grunts as you see into the pockets of his pants and shirt- trust me I dont have--

- You liar!- you screm grabbing a deck of cards off of his shirt's pocket- I knew you werent going to --

Your screams of victory were cut off by capitao's lips on yours, in that moment the world stops,leaning on the kiss, you Grab his waist and pull him closer.

-Fuck- you say- took you long enough!-

Then you kiss again.

[...]

-Were is souza?-

The russian veteran asks.

- I bet hes scheming more of his dirty play-

Then jackal comes in with a very unconfortable face.

-Whats up Ramírez?-

Amaru asks.

-I know why souza isnt here-

-tell US!- the old timers demand.

- trust me , you dont want to know-..

Both of you skippped poker night, for once.

[ ...]

- hermana!- ( sister) you hear a child scram from behind you- te extrañamos!- ( we missed you!)

You turn around to see your youngest sibling, Enzo, running at you with his older sister, isabela, you scoop them up and twirl them around in your arms.

- do you like my surprise?-

Vicente asks, smiling as your older brother and sister, Florencia and lautaro are behind him.

-So thats why you werent here today! -

Later that day, you and your family, had dinner togheter, and a poker night, and for once Vicente played fair.

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* lyrics from Latinoamérica, by calle 13

- Void

@grain-crain-drain

[gskyllas01]

I am going to start using this sort of as a diary for when I wanna just vent since nobody will see this except me :// 

October 6th, 2019

So I am currently laying in my bed.. I have worked all day at my job that I both love and hate at the same time. I am alone but not alone... I am single but not single... I'm dying but not dead... 

My parents are divorcing but I am the only one who knows because they think my sisters will lose their minds. The thought of them separating just breaks me, but I can't say anything or express how I really feel because they all claim I'm the “glue” of the family... If I show any sign of weakness or me breaking, it'll just be downhill from there. 

This guy and I had been talking for two months but then he left to study in Argentina for a year; we both really really like each other but we didn't want to start the relationship off with distance so theres no title. I miss him like crazy-- I look at pictures every single day and I replay the playlist I made him! He can text me MAYBE 5-10 minutes a day if that honestly because of how busy he is. I feel like he is slipping away, yanno... out of sight out of mind-- he doesn't see me so therefor he doesn't think about me. He says he misses me and stuff but it doesn't feel like it sometimes. but when he was here, he treated me soooo good. I don't know... I just don't want to be wasting my time, but I really see something with him. who freaking knows... 

I have cancer and its a pain in the ass... I don't know what more to say about that because that alone just breaks me day by day. I try not to think about it but its hard when you wake up feeling like death. I try to make it seem like its not that bad when talking to people about it but truthfully, its the scariest thing because the feeling of potentially dying any minute just scares the shit out of me... but in reality, any minute could be anybody's last moment if ya think about it. 

Abusive ex... don't even get me started. this man has spit on me, talked shit about me and my cancer, broken my wrist, held me at gun point, almost broke my ribs, suffocated me, attempted rape, hit me, kicked me, slapped me, pulled me around by my hair, drugged me, I mean if you can think of it he has probably done it. But I'm fucking stupid because a piece of me truly cares about him. A piece of me understands that he thinks the way he thinks for a reason. that he does what he does, for a reason. he is misunderstood. I have seen the soft side of him, I have seen the crazy side, I have seen both the selfless and selfish side. he has issues, we all do... I'm just a vulnerable target because I understand him and where he is coming from, and nobody else can really relate to that. He loves me, despite what he has done to me, I know a piece of him truly loves me. I know this because he only treats me like that, and it may sound crazy, but its just that he doesn’t know how to control his feelings. He doesn't;t know how to control himself. And I know you may be thinking, “why would he want to hurt the only person who has truly cared for him that he truly loves?” the answer to that is that he doesn't believe it... he doesn't believe that someone can honestly care for him because he has never had that. So he wants to intentionally push away the only good thing in his life because its “different” to him. Its a mechanism that is hard to understand, but its real. idk. he has fucked me up in more ways than one, but I have a soft spot for him. 

I was also mugged a couple days ago... my grandma Is in the hospital for the millionth time and I was going to take her the rest of my cash so she can have some money to do whatever in the hospital. Well... I was getting into my car and a strange man held a gun to my head and told me to give him all of my cash, so I gave it to him... that was traumatizing... 

I almost got in a car accident and it was scary, but what was scarier was that in the moment it was almost like I was just ready to let go? In the moment it was as if I was unfazed, and that scares me the most. Just like when I got mugged, yes it was scary, but in the moment I really just couldn't get myself to care. 

I just don't know what to think or feel... I have people that say they are there for me but I hate the thought of bothering people. I used to never cry, but now it seems as if thats all I can do anymore. I am just so sad, crushed, and absolutely broken-- but I can't let anyone else see that because I have to continue saving face. I tell people to be optimistic, everything happens for a reason, and people get what they deserve but it gets harder to believe as the days go on. 

[ross24fps]

15 Bandcamp Albums This Year That Are Worth Your Time To Listen To:

Bit of a different post this time, but these are some self-released / under-the-radar releases that have come out this year that I think deserve better recognition, so I thought I’d give these artists a platform to possibly give them more attention.  Hopefully you all find some new stuff in here to enjoy!

1.) AKIRA SAKATA / CHIKAMORACHI / MASAHIKO SATOH - PROTON PUMP

Insane, free-form jazz quartet record performed live in Tokyo.  A weird science theme persists throughout the album, with song titles such as “Voyage of the Eukaryote” and “Bullet Apoptosis”, making this probably the most creative and ballsy jazz record of the year.

Link: https://familyvineyard.bandcamp.com/album/proton-pump

For fans of: The Lounge Lizards, late John Coltrane, Albert Ayler

2.) BAMBARA - SHADOW ON EVERYTHING

Mysterious, slightly edgy desert rock that sounds like you’re driving a Jeep through a desert - only the desert used to be a suburban town and the setting is post-apocalyptic.  It kind of sounds like the type of music you would hear in the new Twin Peaks series.  These Brooklyn boys have a dark future ahead of them (and I mean that in a good way).

Link: https://bambara.bandcamp.com/album/shadow-on-everything

For fans of: Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds, Swans, Tindersticks

3.) C’YOTES - THREATS

Raucous, fun, queer indie rock with sing-a-long choruses and just enough raw tonality to prevent it from being typical commercial b.s.  You can almost taste the beer seeping in through the music on this thing - loads of fun.

Link: https://cyotes.bandcamp.com/album/threats

For fans of: The Vaccines, Arcade Fire, Kimya Dawson

4.) CAMO MEAL - EMO LOVE

Interesting little experimental EP that’s supposedly meant to reflect on adolescence through the mindset of an adult.  It’s not very nostalgic, more like a snapshot collection of memories that somehow feel significant - just like real memories.  It’s always exciting to hear such an original new voice.

Link: https://camomeal.bandcamp.com/album/emo-love

For fans of: I dunno, early Future Islands, maybe?

5.) CELESTAPHONE - TYING UP LOOSE FRIENDS

Definitely the weirdest and one of the most original indie rap albums of this year, if not the entire decade.  It sounds like a demented cartoon - hilarious and surreal.

Link: https://cele.bandcamp.com/album/tying-up-loose-friends

For fans of: Busdriver, Danny Brown, Adult Swim cartoons

6.) COLD MEAT - PORK SWORD FEVER

Fun and brutal all female punk EP.  All female punk bands are kind of my jam, and if it’s your jam as well, this is about as good as it gets.  Raw and awesome.

Link: https://staticshockrecords.bandcamp.com/album/pork-sword-fever

For fans of: The Soviettes, The Slits, The Raincoats

7.) CSCOT - BASH BACK

Insanely brutal queer industrial noise electronic project from Argentina.  Not for the faint of heart or sensitive of ears or virgin of anal.

Link: https://cscot.bandcamp.com/album/bash-back

For fans of: Merzbow, Death Grips, Lightning Bolt

8.) ERIC CHENAUX - SLOWLY PARADISE

Weird, French atonal improvisational guitar music.  It would be right at home in the early 80′s New York scene if it wasn’t so oddly smooth and relaxing.

Link: https://ericchenaux.bandcamp.com/album/slowly-paradise

For fans of: Arthur Russell, Frank Zappa, Leo Kottke

9.) HISATO HIGUCHI - SHOKUBUTSU TO HIKARI

More improvisational guitar music, but much more traditional and meditative.  It gives the impression of a long driving trip, falling asleep in the backseat of somebody else’s car amid Japanese landscape.

Link: https://hisatohiguchi.bandcamp.com/album/shokubutsu-to-hikari

For fans of: Steve Gunn, Leo Kottke, Glenn Jones

10.) LITTLE GOAT - 2012 - 2013

Albums like this are the reason that I love Bandcamp.  This singer/songwriter wrote these tracks as a way to recover her mental health and prevent her own self-abuse, and the results are amazing.  These songs are universal, beautiful, and profoundly touching.

Link: https://littlegoat.bandcamp.com/album/2012-2013

For fans of: Fiona Apple, The Mountain Goats, Mount Eerie

11.) LONG NECK - WILL THIS DO?

Awesome suburban indie rock.  The lyrics are potent, the singing is on point, and the instrumentation rocks hard.  This album is going to be ignored for the Courtney Barnetts of the world, and that’s a shame - this album is the epitome of underrated.

Link: https://longnecklass.bandcamp.com/album/will-this-do-2

For fans of: Frankie Cosmos, Screaming Females, PJ Harvey

12.) PAUL DE JONG - YOU FUCKEN SUCKER

One of the members of The Books makes one of the most unsettling albums of the year.  A musical comment on the perpetual mental illness present in the social media age, the albums is at turns uncomfortably hilarious and genuinely terrifying.  Always surprising, never boring.

Link: https://pauldejong.bandcamp.com/album/you-fucken-sucker

For fans of: Negativland, The Knife, Diamanda Galas

13.) RICH MACHO GENTLEMEN - CATCHER IN THE CABAGEFIELDS

No, I didn’t misspell it - that’s the title.  Very fun collection of Japanese shoegaze rock, complete with ear-worm hooks and atmospheric noise. Very impressive debut.

Link: https://richmachogentlemen.bandcamp.com/album/catcher-in-the-cabagefields

For fans of: The Pastels, My Bloody Valentine, Oasis

14.) SCATTERZONE - ABILIFY

Beautiful, minimal EP used as a soft venting outlet.  Relatable, unsettling, slow-moving, this is bedroom pop that provides everything except comfort.

Link: https://scatterzone.bandcamp.com/album/abilify

For fans of: Coma Cinema, Sufjan Stevens, Daniel Johnston

15.) SPECIAL INTEREST - SPIRALING

Queercore glam no wave?  Sign me up!  This EP from this new New Orleans group is filled with sucker-punch riffs and social commentary to spare.  I recommend this to anyone who’s tired of queer music being boiled down to glitzy pop music.  Bring on the sweat and the blood!

Link: https://specialinterestno.bandcamp.com/album/spiraling

For fans of: Limp Wrist, DNA, Sonic Youth

[redlenai]

Feel free to ignore my rant, I’m just venting

Well... It seems that in order to know further about my diagnosis I have to do a devolution... it’s either in person or through videocall.

Personally speaking, I wouldn’t have trouble doing this if the specialist was a total stranger. But the thing is, that for ADI-R and ADOS, the one that did the test was my aunt, I have no relationship whatsoever with her, neither I want to interact with her.

Little insight... The therapist is my aunt, back when I was younger she and my mom fought, they are thick-headed so there was a misscomunication which lead to a misunderstanding, we had to find a new apartment, repair it, all while my mom was pregnant and almost ready to give birth (And a lot of other stuff). Even if now they came to terms and solved the misunderstanding, I really try to have zero to none contact with my aunt. It was a lot of effort for me to go and do the test with her (I literally collapsed for 4 hours after I came back home, it was too much stress)

I know she is a professional, but still, I don’t feel with the patience or even the energy to mask myself and put on a good face, I asked if she could give me a written devolution and the documentation instead of having to use a videocall and the documentation (I genuinely don’t like using the mic nor camera, it stresses me out even if I’m in the safety of my home, and on top of that with a person I don’t want to interact with) and she rejected it, and just told me that whenever I felt ready to make an appointment.

I honestly don’t want to speak up about my reasons be it the logical ones about my problem with cellphones audio/videocalls or well, me not wanting to interact with her at all (I just think, whatever she wants to tell me, she can write it down, or even use one of those apps that records your audios in text) and it kind if makes me feel like an asshole and well I don’t deny I am one but still... , I did the test not for my own sake, but for my mom, since she is the one that was worried about it after my brother was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder (I believe that would be the name, here in Argentina Aspergers is still used, and that’s the diagnosis my brother got) and since she saw a lot of things my brother had on me, well, it’s only fair to want to know. I only did it to give her peace of mind.

[beautifulmiracle]

I love Taylor more than life, but I’m from Argentina and I have always felt ignored and disregarded by her, and it’s always felt personal with my country or with my continent (all of South America has been ignored all this time).

And, at almost 24 years old, I’m mature enough to say that, even though I love her to death, I’m pissed at Taylor for the way she’s treated us all these years. Well, actually, I’m angry that she hasn’t treated us at all. I have never once felt acknoledged or included by her and it somehow feels like it’s getting worse and lately I’ve been feeling so frustrated that I’ve basically written this very same post multiple times with different words. I have no other way of venting.

Taylor’s entire career is made for Americans. Everything is USA exclusive. The Ticket Master stuff, the merchandise, the Apple Music stuff, the AT&T stuff. CAN WE, SOUTH AMERICANS, GET SOMETHING FOR ONCE? IS IT NOT ENOUGH THAT SHE’S NEVER TOURED HERE THAT SHE HAS TO MAKE EVERYTHING UNREACHABLE FOR US? I CAN’T EVEN BUY A FUCKING T-SHIRT BECAUSE IT COSTS A FORTUNE PLUS A SECOND FORTUNE FOR THE SHIPPING, IF THERE EVEN IS SHIPPING AT ALL.

What’s worse now, the physical copies of Reputation won’t arrive to my country on the day of the release and they will most likely not come with the magazines because, SURPRISE, IT’S FOR AMERICANS ONLY.

I’m just tired and angry and frustrated. I can’t just put up with this shit anymore. It’s been 9 years of this for me. It’s been way too long. Taylor will never read this, but I so wish she would. She probably doesn’t even care about making the effort to include us. She probably doesn’t even realize she’s not including us. The US is a bigger market, so who cares about a third-world continent, right?

[thisdaynews]

Rugby World Cup 2019: Scotland must do-or-die against Samoa in Kobe

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Rugby World Cup 2019: Scotland must do-or-die against Samoa in Kobe

Finn Russell attempts an offload during Scotland’s 27-3 defeat to Ireland in Yokohama

Rugby World Cup 2019 Pool A: Scotland v Samoa Venue:Misaki Stadium, KobeDate:Monday, 30 SeptemberKick-off:11:15 BST Coverage:Full commentary on BBC Radio 5 live and Radio Scotland, plus text updates on the BBC Sport website and app

For the guts of a week, the Scotland players have tried to move on from the events of Yokohama against Ireland. Not an easy transition, that.

Every day has brought a new inquisition, new questions about their mentality and their ability. It’s been uncomfortable and occasionally brutal. In various reports they’ve been called spineless, clueless and pathetic. One headline ordered them to hang their heads in shame.

At times you felt some players wanted to jump across the table and throttle their interrogators at their hotel in Kobe, but a media conference is not the place for them to vent their fury. All of that should come out against Samoa under the closed roof at the Misaki Stadium on Monday.

After the week they’ve had then, a response is surely coming. Scotland need to start well at the Misaki, need to work harder, need to defend better. The list of things they must do – and didn’t do last time out – stretches the length of Sannomiya, the city’s main drag.

Bonus-point chasing is risky business – McInally

Scotland make five changes for must-win Samoa game

Shock Japan win will ‘ignite World Cup’

Samoa will see Scots as wounded animal – Lamont

The most recent meeting of these sides – a 44-38 Scotland win at Murrayfield in Gregor Townsend’s fourth game in charge – showed the extremes of this team, its excellence and its flakiness. Scotland played some class rugby to sail into a big lead in that game. They mauled Samoa off the park, scoring two tries off driven line-outs, both touched down by Stuart McInally.

Then, they fell asleep. Samoa piled through a dozing defence again and again. They scored five tries that day. Scotland scored six. Townsend doesn’t need such drama this time. He needs a professional and clinical performance free of mental frailties. Or else.

Blow torches, ripping it up & Bradbury’s moment

Townsend has taken a blow torch to the squad that failed so woefully in Yokohama. Some senior men have got it.

Being Scotland captain for two years offered no protection to John Barclay, who has been dumped from the match-day squad. Being captain in Scotland’s second last game was no help to Ryan Wilson, who’s been demoted to the bench. Being one of the country’s highest try-scorers was no use to Tommy Seymour who has also missed out on the 23.

In their place, mostly youth. Darcy Graham – a pocket battleship, a terrific finisher and a player on form – was unlucky not to start against Ireland, but that chance has now come. Graham sounded psyched for the battle when he spoke on Saturday, as did outside centre Chris Harris the day before. If Harris can back up his words with actions, then it won’t just be the Samoans who are hitting hard.

There was agony in losing Hamish Watson, but Townsend has ripped it all up in the back-row. Magnus Bradbury has gone from living a parallel universe in Japan – in the country but not in the squad, existing in the margins as injury cover – to being at the heart of the action.

One of the myriad problems against Ireland was the lack of ball-carrying grunt up front. Bradbury can do it – and he can do it well.

His tendency has been to do it in fits and starts in games. An angry Bradbury needs to turn up against Samoa because this kid can play and fight when the mood takes him. If he’s ever going to mark himself out as part of Scotland’s future then this is his time, this is the moment.

Magnus Bradbury comes into the back-row after Hamish Watson’s World Cup was ended by a knee injury

Scotland lacked energy and aggression and work-rate against Ireland. Ireland’s dog was a Rottweiler. Scotland’s dog was a poodle.

Jamie Ritchie’s elevation ups the growl factor. Good on the floor, good in the collisions, decent with ball in hand, Ritchie has the tough job of replacing the injured Watson. He’s no Watson in the specifics of ball-carrying and groundhog, but he’s got a similar edge as Watson. He’s got the same appetite for work, the same kind of hardness.

In between them, there’s the great unknown that is Blade Thomson. All that we hear is that Thomson is different to anything Scotland has in that position. He’s a ball-carrier with game intelligence and footwork, a clever thinker, a back-row forward with Scottish ancestry but very much of the New Zealand school.

Thomson needs to be as good as his team-mates say he is. The evidence so far is inconclusive. He hasn’t played enough Test rugby to settle the argument one way or another, but he deserves his chance.

Scotland’s back-row against Ireland had 146 caps. Their back-row against Samoa has 23. In his search for energy, Townsend has sacrificed experience. Not too many people will disagree with the calls he has made.

‘The biggest day of Townsend’s coaching life’

This is monumental stuff for Townsend. The biggest day of his coaching life and one of the biggest days of his rugby life. If it doesn’t go well, then Scotland are goosed and this World Cup will go down as the worst in their history.

The fallout would be scary. Townsend and his staff would be pilloried to the point of demands being made for their heads. The players would be subjected to the kind of slating that would make the reaction to Yokohama seem like a warm-up act. In defeat, Scotland would have nowhere to go bar a deep, dark place.

If they have anything about them, then there’s a big performance coming against Samoa, a nation all but abandoned by the powerhouses in world rugby. Samoa have little money and little opportunity to improve. You could write a book about their plight, but the bottom, and sadly unchanging, line is that the treatment of the Pacific Island countries is a scar on rugby.

Maybe that sense of isolation gives them an extra anger to feed off. They are still very much alive in this World Cup, having beaten Russia with a bonus point. Another win against Scotland and Pool A will have had a second seismic result following on from Japan’s unforgettable victory over Ireland on Saturday.

On Yokohama form, Scotland are vulnerable. What we know about Townsend’s team, however, is that they can bounce back quickly from disappointment. They need that resilience now more than ever.

After Wales hammered them in the opening game of the 2018 Six Nations, they then beat France and England in their next two games. When the USA upset them in Houston that summer, they followed up by destroying Argentina in Resistencia. When France took them apart in Nice last month, they found something in adversity and did them in the return game.

Gregor Townsend has gone for youth over experience in Scotland’s second Group A match

Clear signals and signals of intent

Japan’s win of the ages has crystallised Scotland’s challenge here. Mere victories are not sufficient any more. They need bonus points now, beginning with Samoa, a team that has in the recent past caused Scottish sides to break out in a rash. In the past five meetings, the Scots have won four of them but the points total across those games is 130-126 – in Samoa’s favour.

It’s true that this vintage doesn’t look as good as their recent predecessors, certainly not in the same class as the side that pushed Scotland to the wire in the World Cup four years ago. That was a terrifying afternoon in Newcastle. This version has a lot of the power and attrition of the sides that went before but not quite as much of the game-breaking brilliance.

They are also without some important men. Rey Lee-Lo, the centre, and Motu Matu’u, the hooker, are both banned after their reckless headshots against Russia. Their number eight, Afa Amosa, is out of the tournament with a knee injury. Scrum-half Dwayne Polataivao, scorer of two tries against Australia in a warm-up game in early September, hasn’t recovered from a concussion sustained against the Russians.

Depleted, they’ll still bring a rage to proceedings. As their coach, Steve Jackson, has put it: “We’re under no illusions about what Scotland are going to bring in that area [physicality] and they should be under no illusions about what we’re going to bring.”

Samoa are not happy with the Scots. In the wake of those Lee-Lo and Motu’u high tackles against Russia, Greig Laidlaw said they wanted referee Pascal Gauzere to keep an eye on the way Samoa go into contact on Monday. Not unreasonably, Laidlaw said that Lee-Lo and Motu’u should have received red cards on the night instead of yellow.

Jackson was unimpressed by Laidlaw’s intervention. “There’s obviously been a lot in the press with people making things a little worse than they already were,” he said. “Things put in the media by people in the Scottish squad, talking to the referee about our tackling and all that sort of stuff.”

There was always going to be a major edge to this game and the chat in the preamble has only added to it. As one Scottish player after another said last week, this is do-or-die now. They either front up or they start getting ready to go home.

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[spiritusdiavolos]

30 questions tag

i saw this on @beckoningforest and i wanted to do it!

rules: answer 30 questions about yourself, then tag some blogs that you would want to get to know more :)

1. nicknames? ale (ah-leh), alex

2. gender? female

3. star sign? sagittarius

4. height? 5'8"

5. time? 12:43 am

6. birthday? december 4

7. favorite bands? hahaha fuck ummm i’ll do current top 5 (not in order): arch enemy, behemoth, the raconteurs, amaranthe, and mayhem

8. favorite solo artists? i’m doing composers bc WHY NOT (also top 5 not in order): shostAKOVICH, bach, MAHLER, debussy, and i guess mozart lol

9. song stuck in my head? one of the movements from shostakovich no. 9 but i can’t remember which one…

10. last movie watched? uhhh i think it was full metal jacket

11. last show watched? the walking dead

12. when did i create my blog fuck i think some time in 2014

13. what do i post? metal, macabre/dark stuff, memes, animals, nature, places, people, occasional nsfw, whatever basically lol

14. last thing i googled? de mysteriis dom sathanas (lmao i really like the album artwork)

15. do you have any other blogs? yes! one is my classical music humor blog, and my other one is my mental illness/venting blog.

16. do you get asks? no lmao and i want people to ask me stuff so please feel free!!

17. why did you choose your url? it comes from the rotting christ song titled “grandis spiritus diavolos” and at the time i was beginning to use tumblr more i really connected with the song and i liked the feel of the last two words of the title so there we go :)

18. following? 215

19. followers? 118

20. favorite colors? black, red (mostly dark red), dark blue

21. average hours of sleep? HAHAHAHAHAHHA

22. lucky number? 14 or 17

23. instruments? oboe (most proficient), english horn, piano, handbells

24. what am i wearing? t shirt and mens boxers

25. how many blankets i sleep with? during the summer none, but in the winter my highest record has been 4

26. dream job? orchestral performer (oboe)!!!

27. dream trip? travel all over europe and some parts of asia! do lots of swimming and hiking and wandering around and getting lost :)

28. favorite food? FUCK. shit. this is hard. i love grilled eggplant and asparagus with seasoning and all that jazz, fruit smoothies w/ almond milk ;)), mac and cheese, it all fluctuates depending on my mood HAHA

29. nationality? i was born in the U.S. but i have family history from argentina🇦🇷, paraguay🇵🇾, spain🇪🇸, italy🇮🇹, syria🇸🇾, yugoslavia (croatia)🇭🇷, armenia����🇲, germany🇩🇪 LOL pretty widespread.

30. favorite song now? the world is yours by arch enemy. such a fucking masterpiece

i’ m tagging @nemesis-poopina , @death-delirium , @postorganichallucinations @freezingm0on , @kawaiichurchburner@waiichurchburner , and @death-and-the-healing!! if anyone else wants to do this just tag my url in the post! :)