#just started thinking abt the 3.5 cut again

[obscureoperations]

Not me being a complete fookin thot and imagining

Actually starring in a film with JA. The two of you are due to record a very explicit scene. He visits you a few hours beforehand just to rehearse.The director leaves it up to your discretion whether or not you want the scene to be authentic. J just really wants to figure out what you like

[hua-fei-hua]

almost 15 min till midnight but trivia for the Bb oneshots pls~

WOOHOO

these works are actually why “alternate universe - marching band” is one of my top ten additional tags on my ao3

three cents shy

three cents shy was published the night before i went on tour with band as a junior

i did not double check the final posting before leaving, so when i came back four days later, i found out that a rare character i used counted as an emoji, and like most of the last scene was cut off and man i was embarrassed 

i actually don’t really reread this fic bc well, it’s an older fic the self-improvement since then is glaring and bc of aforementioned embarrassing memory but god i’m having feels now 

there’s a bit in three cents where momo’s practicing the flute, and she lists off the notes in her head while counting. 

the notes she listed off were part of a real song i played on the piano that actually might come back as a chapter title later on in the series

it’s an anime song but i translated those lyrics myself 3.5?? years ago in english class dammit

the rhythm, however, was taken from one of our festival pieces from my sophomore year that the flutes always had trouble with

i got a review on ff.net on three cents from a girl who played the flute whose boyfriend played the trumpet telling me how much she loved the fic bc it was about her otp and they played the same instruments as her and her bf, and honestly i still think abt that sometimes. how is flute girl doing i wonder

she also said she’d wait forever until more of the series came out so again i wonder how flute girl is doing

three cents shy was initially titled without you, life would Bb, which would have also been a pun on momo’s flute being flat

obviously, the title changed when i realized i could MAKE THIS INTO A    S E R I E S

three cents is also the only fic in the series w/o a very clear musical pun on it; it only makes sense if you read the fic

oh dear god i forgot abt the bit in here where it said kyouka got her soulmate to stop being a dumbass by playing nothing but the pink panther theme on loop for a week AHAHA

and that’s how she lost her chance at the sax solo freshman year she was too busy badly playing the pink panther theme lol

todoroki’s not actually the type of person to gravitate towards the trumpet; i just picked tpt for him bc i like boys who play the trumpet LMAO

fucking sue me man

besides, there’s always the exceptions to the rule; instrument stereotypes are stereotypes for a reason but they’re usually spot fucking on

i had hardly started chapter six of orchid when i wrote three cents: you can actually see the starting struggles of that chapter a few pages before you get to like eight solid pages of just working on three cents in my tiny notebook lol

“‘we made good progress today but remember…’ ‘there’s always room for improvement’ the band teased. some memes died hard.” is actually lifted straight from my own band

we memed hard on one of our drum majors for always saying “we made good progress today but remember, there’s always room for improvement!!” since he got the job

kyouka going c” in her texts is smth that i habitually use instead of winking like c; in texts w/friends bc even though i don’t know the inside joke that had some of my other friends start using it, it carries these different, more smug connotations to it in my mind that can’t be encapsulated w/either c: or c;

three cents shy as an idea/fanfiction pitch actually came after paper faces

kyouka’s name in momo’s phone was originally 𝓴𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓴𝓪𝓷𝓾𝓽, but was changed to normal lettered “kyoukanut” bc of the aforementioned rare-character problem that embarrassed me when first posting this to ao3 lol

kyouka having the nickname kyoukanut is actually bc i’d just left the snk fandom, and they had this one joke on one of the characters looking like a coconut, so i think that was just fresh in my mind and i was like “ah yes i should make a coconut joke out of kyouka’s name” and now it’s just my go-to dumb phone name for her in fics 

three cents is the only prequel oneshot; all the others happen concurrently to or after music of the moment

we actually don’t get wifi signal in our practice rooms unless we’re very lucky, which is a detail you’ll see more often in moment

fermata

i started fermata on the bus while on tour in my tiny notebook, though i was mostly thinking abt a krbk love, simon au which i really do still have a lot written out for it’s just that whenever i reach the end of that doc i’m immediately stuck as to how to connect it to some of the other good chunks i have

my friend sitting in front of me asked me what i wrote in my tiny notebooks as i was doing so, and i was like “mostly fanfiction” and she was like “idk what i was expecting but definitely not that”

fermata is also the one and only fic i’ve ever posted where when i finished responding to one comment, two more came into my inbox

fermata is actually my most popular ao3 oneshot. not just among my bnha oneshots, my most popular ao3 oneshot

still chasing that high tbh

i mean rereading it i can understand its popularity. it’s definitely very self-indulgent lol

i wrote both these oneshots before i started encrypting the names in the fanfic written in my tiny notebook, so if i posted pictures they’d actually be entirely readable lol

fermata was written during my self-imposed fanfiction exile in my junior year when i was studying for ap chem, and there are comments on it from when i came back a month later that i just. never responded to and still feel bad abt lol

bakugou was initially supposed to be a trumpet player in this au, but then we got the cultural festival arc at around this time so we were like “oh i guess he’s in percussion now”

the line “We the players are expendables and mean nothing in comparison to our several-thousand-dollar instruments” is a real thing our drum majors and (old) band director told us as a joke

“didn’t she get mad at you for getting water all over her drumset last year?” is actually referencing smth that was supposed to happen in moment, but due to story changes is probably not gonna happen 

which basically means it’s almost definitely not gonna be shown :c

i might have to retcon little bits of this one due to a major plot point that’ll come up later in the multichap, but it’s not in need of a rewrite like ty for the music bc it’s one of those subtle details that gets revealed and recontextualizes some previous happenings

“fifty push-ups is not a reasonable punishment for dropping the baton”

1. this is a real thing that happened to our clumsy drum major, but with five push ups

2. like a year after publishing this fic i found out that there are two DIFFERENT sticks that drum majors twirl: one’s a baton, which is smaller and easier to twirl; the other’s a mace, which i’m pretty sure is just a bigger, heavier baton, but it takes far more skill to twirl

anyway i actually got a comment on ao3 from a person saying that their band’s drum major just had really reflective gloves and didn’t get to do anything as cool as twirling a stick and i still think about that sometimes tbh

“fuck you and your two hundred dollar mallets too” bc drumsticks are like ten bucks but a pair of timpani mallets are for whatever reason like two hundred dollars

this fic is probably the first time i ever referred to bkg by his first name, and reading it actually feels kinda weird to me rn lol

the only reason fermata is rated t is bc (you guessed it) bakugou katsuki swears a lot, but also, jirou gets to say fuck

i put a little fermata into the document title of the google doc just bc 

c:

thank you for the music

you obvs already know this went under a complete rewrite recently so maybe this’ll be a mix of trivia abt the rewrite and the original so we’ll see

this was named after an abba song bc abba slaps and was mostly titled such bc it was meant to be the last part of Bb chronologically

the fact that it’s the name of a oneshot in the series means that i don’t get to use it as a chapter title during moment tho >:C

this was also my first time writing izch and remained my only izch oneshot until legato lol

i don’t remember how long it took for me to write the original version, but the second version came out all in one day i think

both versions were written entirely in onenote and then copy-pasted into google docs afterwards

i feel like you know most of the trivia abt this one already like how it was rewritten bc i needed to retcon the ending where ochako did the soulmate reveal bc w/the new quirklessness parallel deku can’t hear the thing

this is my first published instance of eri, and i have to say published instead of writing here bc i’d written her into moment before writing her in the rewrite here lol

yeah she was mentioned in the original one but that doesn’t count she didn’t show up or say anything

she shows up in moment chapter four, just as an extra trivia fact

this was actually a semi-obligatory oneshot bc at the time of first publishing, i was like “i have four favorite bnha ships that i want to actively write fic for, and we have smth for the first three, so i guess i need to write one for the fourth one too”

not a trivia bit abt any of my fics, but i actually call the four aforementioned fave ships (tdmm, kmjr, krbk, n izch) “the usual convoy” where i like to write oneshots featuring them n if i can fit them into my story i’m gonna do it

and then i have a few more for a total of btwn seven n nine ships that i call “the extended convoy” (so like three to five beyond the usual) where i don’t usually have plans to have them star in any fics, but if i can fit them into the bg, be mentioned in passing, or just have an idea that can accommodate a large cast/number of ships, i have a few extra go-to extras

legato

no idea where the idea of this came from. i was just sitting around literally two weeks ago, thinking abt Bb, thinking abt izch as dat good ol bffs to lovers dynamic, thinking abt some fun shitty headcanons/worldbuilding for the au, and then i guess they all came together and i was overcome by an immediate urge to write this

honestly it probably just came from me thinking of old choir warm ups hahaha

i think abt Bb a lot these days so that would make a lot of sense

yeah legato’s existence technically ruins the joke for ty for the music’s title but i love the way it turned out???

it’s the only Bb oneshot so far to have not come out in 2018

what this means is that basically i took a series that’s over two years old and suddenly gave it new, unplanned content

that being said, it’s the only Bb oneshot to be fully compliant with the overhauled plot and details of music of the moment upon first publishing

the ice cream parlor izch hangs out in is run by sir nighteye, and it’s called the night eye’s scream as a really really bad pun

unlike most locations in this au, the ice cream parlor does not have a real world counterpart

technically, neither does the park, but the park at least draws from a bunch of different parks i’ve been to and hung out in

the reason ochako mentions she really likes the music in the shop is bc there’s this one worldbuilding detail i came up w/a while ago that shops and cafes often like to have unique songs that will occasionally play in their locations so that if you have a soulmate who works there or just hangs out there a lot, you can easily track them down

we actually played a piece called “baroque hoedown” for our winter concert in my senior year, and it really was fucking hell, as mentioned in legato

i mentioned this in the a/n, but the reason it’s titled legato is bc it’s supposed to reflect the smooth, seamless transition btwn friends and lovers for izch

i remember sitting down and writing this and thinking, “what should iida’s ringtone be?” and then realizing that they are modern american teenagers in this au and any meme i can think of goes, and ochako would probably be the memelord of the three of them (of the dekusquad todoroki is obviously the biggest memelord behind closed doors), so i was like “SONIC FUCKING X THEME”

all the songs that deku plays for ochako to figure out are all pep tunes from my time in marching band, which is why they’re so mish-mash and random

the bit where ochako says “it’s the milf song” (n then deku’s like “that’s not the first time you’ve called smth the milf song”) is referencing a bit of joke dialogue that’ll probably not make it into moment, but will almost definitely appear another oneshot

i also had no idea that stacy’s mom was a milf song and made the terrible decision of going against my section leader’s recommendation to not look it up and heard the lyrics and was like “oh no :(”

legato is the only Bb work so far to not include the tag “alternate universe - marching bang” bc it doesn’t include enough of band to warrant that tag; hence why it’s tagged under “alternate universe - musicians”

i say so far bc i had a very cute ojtr idea for this au where tooru stars in the spring musical, and they’d probably get tagged under “alternate universe - theater/musicals” or smth. idk if i’ll write that bc i haven’t had stage acting experience in a long time, but it’ll be alluded to during moment

i had a very strong vision for what i wanted in this fic, which is probably why it came out with me feeling very satisfied w/it compared to ty for the music, which like i mentioned earlier was initially written out of lowkey obligation

legato had a lot more direction and knew what it wanted to be, whereas ty for the music was just kinda like “and then this happened lol”

legato is currently the only fic i have on ao3 that i didn’t cross-post to ff.net

dunno why, i just had a bad feeling abt doing that, so i left the first edition of ty for the music up on ff.net and made legato an ao3 exclusive

i previously had fics up on ff.net that i never cross-posted to ao3, and i still have some of those up (see: nineteen snk fics on ff.net vs. seventeen (two hidden under the anonymous collection) on ao3), but this was my first time doing it the other way around

this was the only fic i’ve ever gifted on a whim (bc i felt you’d really like it) and not bc someone told me i should write more fanfiction and i was like “yeah i should” and then gifting them the thing when it was written

[unitedstatesvsdisbelief]

i’m... kind of annoyed. i’m just thinking about my cousin who i used to be very close with. incredibly close. i used to drive 3.5 hours away to see her & my aunt like AT LEAST once a month. sometimes twice or more. my cousin & i started really having issues probably 2016. maybe before but i couldn’t tell you, i don’t remember. i just remember her being SO personally offended by my political opinions starting specifically before & around the 2016 election. she always hated that i was a democrat and she always was very backhanded about obama but it wasn’t like, mean??? she just disagreed and would be a smart ass but like, not in a really hurtful way or at the time i didn’t perceive it as so. it got really personal during the 2016 election. it’s like every little thing i did and every single opinion i had she felt was a direct and personal attack on her. she deleted and blocked me on facebook, she would screenshot my political snapchats (which sometimes, i’ll admit, were posted with the intention of getting under her skin) i mean she literally just started to not like me?? because my opinions were so offensive to her. after having a close relationship with me all of our lives. like her political opinions to me?? deplorable, literally disgusts me to the very deepest pits of my core. SOME of her opinions literally made me feel unsafe, made me feel unaccepted. her treatment of me made me feel unloved. but i never once argued with her. i never once stooped down to her level. with every single fight she picked with me i just told her “hey, we don’t agree. that’s okay. we’re family, we don’t need to agree. agree to disagree.” before she deleted me even my own friends would stand up for me against her when i wouldn’t stand up for myself. if i didn’t fit this exact mold that she had put me in EVERYTHING i ever did offended her. it’s still that way. like no matter what i do, what i say, i’ll never be good enough for her. our relationship honestly hurt me more than almost any familial relationship i’ve ever had. she really made me feel inadequate and it really hurt me, all of it. i know logically that i am better off with out that kind of relationship in my life but there is a part of me that still feels incredibly hurt, incredibly small, etc. i don’t think it would even be so bad if it weren’t for her kids. i love those kids like they were my own. i still miss them every single day. genuinely every. single. day. if it weren’t for them, i don’t think being like ostracized by her would really bother me so much. i mean yeah it’d annoy me but not to the level it does now. now those kids think i am just another family member that doesn’t keep in touch, another family member that left them. and i hate that. it fucking kills me. bc i remember that shit from when i was a kid, with other family members. to go from seeing those kids more times than i could count a year to once in the past 11 months? it’s shit.

it’s not for lack of trying on my part. i’ve reached out to my cousin every single time i’ve been anywhere remotely close to where they live. left on read, radio fucking silence. could not be more clear that she wants nothing to do with me. she comes into town once every month or two to see her half sister (who i actually AM close with. despite the fact that she’s not my actual blood) but when they come in? she doesn’t reach out. hasn’t once tried to see me or my siblings. idk. i’m just harboring SO many bad feelings about her. i want to not care. i want to not be hurt, to not feel so worn down by someone who doesn’t think twice about my feelings. i have so many fucking feelings i’m sitting here at almost 4 am on the night before i have to get up for working writing PARAGRAPHS of it. she doesn’t even spare me a thought unless i’ve done something to offend her (like a few weeks ago when i was “disrespecting christianity” by posting a picture of the collection of jesus pamphlets we’ve saved up at my restaurant job from shitty/no tippers.

when i responded kindly, respectfully, offering up a genuine conversation over what she was accusing me of? left on read. never responded. she just wanted to fight. and that’s all it ever is really. all it’s ever gonna be again i guess. i’m not going to give up pieces of me to someone who would rather break me apart. the funny thing is i still stuck up for her all the time, if my dad says something backhanded. i still, despite how she’s treated me, have enough kindness in me to stand up for her. idk. like. cutting off her mom was different. cutting off her mom was like emotions sliced with a knife (we had a big falling out. she hurt me but due to her alcoholism. my cousin isn’t an alcoholic she just hates me because i’m

not who she thinks i should be. who she wants me to be. my aunt was just a fucking bitch. i cut her off the SECOND she hurt me. the moment she fucked me over it was over for us. i felt hardly anything. i miss who she used to be sometimes, sure. but i don’t dwell on it like i dwell on this. idk man, i’m gonna delete this in a few days once i read it all to my therapist lol i just really REALLY needed to externalize clearly. if any of you have any tips on how to not feel like shit bc your family is mean lemme know!! also to be clear, yes i hate her political views. but for family, there was still a piece of me who was willing to look past it, so that i could still be a part of their lives, of the kids lives specifically. idk if that makes me weak, or what.

if any of you /actually/ read all of this.. damn. you’re a real one. lots of love if anyone made it this far lol. sorry to clog ur feed with my bs

oh also one more bitch abt it all... she got mad at ME bc i didn’t tell her that i was bi. i came out on fb and to her mom (bc i was closer with her at the time) she made MY coming out about herself. and then tried to gaslight me when i was rightfully upset. i told her i wasn’t sure she would accept me.. which honestly??? isn’t crazy. with her views, the man she voted for. the president she fucking loves so much?? why would i feel safe coming out to her? god!!!! sorry i really will shut up now goodnight all