#just having a bit of a tokophobic crisis

[dummerjan]

fuck fuck fuck i've had a therapy last week and today dedicated to me not being able to cope with a friend being pregnant first time i've really talked about my tokophobia with someone after three weeks of knowing and not replying to my friend's text i've finally figured out what to reply but decided i wouldn't want to see her while pregnant i just can't and now she's talked with my mother and said she wants to meet up with us this weekend i was going to avoid her and wait until she has had the baby and then she'd be too busy being a parent and i can't stand kids at any age so we wouldn't meet and then our friendship would fizzle out which would be sad but happens it's the first time a friend is pregnant and i'd been dreading it for years i can't meet her i can't see her pregnant i don't want to think about or talk about or hear anyone talk about the topic and if my mother is present she is bound to ask about it i just can't i can hardly stand the sight of pregnant stranges on the street