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The Spell of Desire
In the dim light of the evening, Ezra, a reserved art history major, returned to his university dorm room, his mind preoccupied with his unrequited feelings for his roommate, Brandon. Brandon was the epitome of a college jock—muscular, charismatic, and, to Ezra's knowledge, straight. Their shared living space was a constant reminder of what Ezra couldn't have.
As Ezra entered, he froze at the sight before him. There, sprawled on his bed, was Brandon, or so he thought, in all his naked glory. The room was silent except for the soft hum of the air conditioner, and Brandon's usual confident demeanor seemed replaced by a strange vulnerability.
"Brandon, what the hell?" Ezra managed, his voice a mix of shock and intrigue.
The man on the bed shifted, sitting up with a look of flustered confusion. "Hey, Ezra, uh, I was just... I thought I'd surprise you. You know, with a, um, prank. Yeah, a prank," he said, his voice not quite matching Brandon's usual deep timbre. It was higher, more nervous.
Ezra raised an eyebrow, his curiosity piqued. "A prank? Since when do you prank me by getting naked on my bed?"
"Well, you know, I've been feeling a bit adventurous lately. Wanted to spice things up around here. Plus, it's hot, and I thought, why not cool off a bit?" The faux-Brandon chuckled awkwardly, trying to mimic the easy laugh of the jock.
Ezra couldn't help but let his gaze linger over the body that was supposed to be Brandon's. There was something off, something not quite right in the way he moved, the way he spoke. "You're acting weird, Brandon. What's really going on?"
"Okay, okay, you got me. I'm not Brandon. I'm Theo. Theo from your literature class. I... I used this old spell book I found in the library. I swapped bodies with Brandon because I've been crushing on you for ages. I wanted to be close to you, to... to see if you felt the same."
Ezra's eyes widened, the pieces falling into place. "You swapped bodies with Brandon? With black magic?"
"Yes, I know it sounds crazy. I'm sorry, I'll reverse it, I just—"
"No, wait," Ezra said, stepping closer, his voice dropping to a husky whisper. "If you're going to be Brandon, let's make this believable. What would Brandon say now?"
Theo, still in shock, tried to think on his feet. "Uh, he'd probably say something like, 'Hey, roomie, you caught me. Now, what are you gonna do about it?'"
Ezra chuckled, "That's more like it." He began to unbutton his shirt, revealing his toned physique slowly, deliberately. "And what would Brandon do next?"
Theo swallowed hard, his borrowed body looking out of place with the expression of a shy nerd. "He'd probably... um, flex a bit, show off, right?" He awkwardly flexed one of Brandon's muscular arms.
"Close, but let's make it more... intimate," Ezra suggested, letting his shirt fall to the floor. He climbed onto the bed, his body close to Theo's, the heat between them palpable. "So, 'Brandon', what do you think of this?"
Theo's eyes followed Ezra's movements, his breathing quickening. "I... I think you look good, Ezra. Really good."
"Shh, just keep being Brandon," Ezra instructed, a playful smirk on his lips as he leaned in, capturing Theo's lips in a kiss that was both exploratory and demanding. After a moment, he pulled back slightly, "What would Brandon say if I kissed him like that?"
Theo, encouraged by Ezra's seduction, began to settle into Brandon's identity. "He'd probably say, 'Damn, Ezra, you're full of surprises. But I like 'em.'" His voice was gaining confidence, mimicking Brandon's casual arrogance.
Ezra laughed softly, his breath warm against Theo's skin. "And what would he do?"
Theo, now more playful, pulled Ezra closer, his hands finding his waist with a newfound boldness. "He'd pull you in like this, and say, 'You wanna play, roomie? Let's play.'"
Ezra let out a low moan, "Good. Now, what would Brandon want next?"
Theo, channeling Brandon's confident, friendly arrogance, whispered, "He'd want you to join him, to make this moment even more real." His voice was steady now, playful and teasing.
Ezra's eyes sparkled with desire. "Is that so? Well, let's not disappoint 'Brandon' then." With a fluid motion, Ezra undid his belt, letting his pants slide off, joining Theo on the bed fully. "What's next, 'Brandon'?"
Theo, feeling the heat of Ezra's body against his own, grinned, "He'd probably say, 'You're making this too easy, Ezra. But I like it.' And then maybe he'd..." Theo hesitated for a moment before continuing with a smirk, "He'd start kissing your neck, right?"
Ezra tilted his head back slightly, giving Theo access, his voice low and seductive, "Go on then, show me how 'Brandon' does it."
With a newfound confidence, Theo leaned in, his lips brushing against Ezra's neck, planting kisses that were firm and teasing, just as Brandon might do. He felt the thrill of embodying the jock's persona, the playful arrogance coming naturally now. "You like that, huh, Ezra?" Theo asked, his voice now a perfect mimic of Brandon's casual, cocky tone.
Ezra chuckled, his voice a soft moan, "Yeah, I do. What’s next Brandon?"
Theo's hands roamed over Ezra's back, pulling him closer with a confident grip. "I'd probably want to feel more of you, to make sure you're as into this as I am." His fingers traced the line of Ezra's spine with a deliberate slowness, savoring the reaction he elicited.
Ezra, feeling the shift in Theo's demeanor, whispered, "And what would you say if we went further?"
Theo, fully immersed in Brandon's identity, smirked, "Finally, took you long enough, man. Let's see what you've got." His tone was playful, almost challenging, as he watched Ezra's hands move to the blanket covering him.
Ezra smiled, his hands moving to pull the blanket away, revealing Theo fully. "Then let's not keep 'Brandon' waiting." As the blanket fell, Ezra took a moment to appreciate the view, his eyes dark with desire. "You look good, 'Brandon'. Really good."
"You know, Ezra, you've always been too fucking quiet for your own good," Theo said, his voice a low, teasing growl that was unmistakably Brandon's. "Let's see if we can make you scream tonight."
Ezra, his heart racing with anticipation, looked up at Theo with a mix of excitement and surrender. "Show me then, 'Brandon'."
Theo smirked, the cocky grin that was so characteristic of Brandon spreading across his face. He leaned down, his lips capturing Ezra's in a kiss that was commanding, leaving no room for doubt about who was in charge. His hands roamed over Ezra's body with purpose, guiding him to lie back on the bed.
With a fluid motion, Theo positioned himself above Ezra, his movements confident and assured. "You ready for this, roomie? 'Cause I'm gonna fuck you like you've never been fucked before," he said, his voice dripping with playful arrogance and a vulgar edge.
Ezra nodded, his breath hitching as he felt Theo's presence so close, so dominant. "Yeah, I'm ready."
Theo, now fully embracing the role of Brandon, didn't hesitate. He took Ezra's hands, pinning them gently above his head, his gaze intense. "Good, because I'm not holding back, you little slut," he whispered, his tone a mix of promise and challenge.
The room was filled with the soft sounds of their breathing, the rustle of sheets, and the low, appreciative moans from Ezra as Theo explored his body with a deliberate slowness, savoring each reaction. Theo's touch was firm, his movements those of someone who knew exactly what he wanted, and right now, what he wanted was Ezra.
As Theo prepared to take the lead, he maintained eye contact, ensuring Ezra was with him every step of the way. "You're gonna love this, Ezra," Theo said, his voice confident, as he positioned himself.
Ezra, caught in the throes of desire, could only nod, his body responding eagerly to Theo's dominance. The moment was charged with an electric intensity as Theo, embodying Brandon's assertiveness and vulgar charm, began to move with a rhythm that was both commanding and raw.
Their connection deepened with each thrust, each movement a testament to Theo's complete immersion into Brandon's identity. Ezra's moans grew louder, his hands gripping the sheets as Theo took him to heights of pleasure he hadn't known before.
"You like that, huh, you dirty boy?" Theo teased, his voice a husky whisper in Ezra's ear, maintaining the playful arrogance that had become his second nature. "Tell me how much you fucking love it."
"I... I love it," Ezra managed between gasps, his body arching into Theo's with every motion. "You act like him so well, Theo. You've made him so fucking edgy, and I love it."
As they reached the peak of their passion, Theo's confidence never wavered, his control over the situation absolute. The culmination of their encounter was explosive, leaving them both breathless and satisfied, as Theo came inside Ezra with a groan that was all Brandon's vulgar satisfaction.
In the quiet that followed, Ezra turned to Theo, his eyes soft with affection. "You know, if you could really stay as Brandon, I wouldn't mind at all. You could stay like this forever."
Theo chuckled, still in character, playing up the confusion with an ironic twist. "Stay as Brandon? What are you talking about, man? I am Brandon, you idiot. Always have been," he replied with a smirk, his tone playful yet convincing in its irony.
Then, as he lay there, still inside Ezra, Theo added with a mix of sincerity and vulgarity, "But you know what, Ezra? Your hole makes me crazy like no girl ever did. Fucking you, it's... it's something else, man."
Ezra laughed, the warmth of the moment enveloping them. "Right, 'Brandon', right. But seriously, you're incredible like this."
Theo, or 'Brandon', pulled Ezra closer, their bodies still intertwined. "Well, then, let's keep this going, roomie. Because I'm not going anywhere." And with that, they drifted into a contented sleep, the boundaries of their reality blurred by the magic of the night, the playful deception of identity, and the unique intimacy they had discovered.
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𓂃⋆.˚ ۫ ꣑ৎ a short n’ sweet guide on how to induce the void state ft. hachi
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meet hachi a young girl who one day stumbles on how to induce pure consciousness. this is her journey:
day 1:
hachi spends her first day scrolling through some of her favorite bloggers posts; a little bit after she scrolls through “#void state” and “#pure consciousness” after a few minutes she comes across a post that reminds her of her power and how she can induce the void state like literally R I G H T N O W now hachi is ready and excited to induce pure consciousness, so she lays down and goes through a flow of instructions and BOOM she is now and her most natural and pure form, which some know as pure consciousness, the void state, I am state, or whatever you wanna call it. now if you thought the following while reading hachi’s journey, you do not understand what it means to be god.
-if you thought that hachi’s journey sounds too fake or too unrealistic because she induced her purest form on the first day of finding out about it, you do not understand.
- if you feel bad now that your journey is longer than hachi’s you do not understand, it doesn’t matter if it’s been two weeks since you’ve been on your journey or if it’s been 4+ years it does not matter at all.
-if you thought of ANY limitations or had any doubt or thoughts of how you can still fail or even uttered “b-b-but that doesn’t make sense, that’s not pos—” yeah, uhm I’ll stop you there before you accidentally make a fool of yourself.
what are you talking about, “impossible” “unrealistic” “too hard” nothing is any of those words for you; a god. like seriously stop making my point fly across your head, YOU ARE GOD. period.
now for the curious people who are wondering, “what did hachi do to induce the void state so fast????”:
step 1: recognize your truth
𓂃⋆ the first step is realizing the most important truth: you are god. you are not a body, not a mind, not tied to any rules or limits. you are pure consciousness—infinite, powerful, limitless. there is no separation between you and the universe because you are the universe. everything flows from you. the void state isn’t something outside of you—it’s within you, always has been.
step 2: it’s already yours
𓂃⋆ the void isn’t something you need to “enter.” there’s no effort, no struggle. it’s instant. you are already there because you are it. time doesn’t exist in the void; it dissolves the moment you recognize your infinite nature. don’t overthink it. you don’t have to do anything special. the void is your natural state��limitless potential, pure being. just by knowing this, you’re already connected to it.
step 3: let go of limitations
𓂃⋆ close your eyes if you want, but know it’s not even necessary. all limits, all beliefs, all stories are illusions. they don’t define you. in this moment, drop everything that tells you who you are “supposed to be.” you are beyond all of that. realize the simplicity of it: there’s no need to fight or overcome anything. just let it go. you’re already infinite.
step 4: feel the stillness
𓂃⋆ once you let go of everything, there’s only stillness. this stillness is you. it’s not the absence of movement—it’s the presence of infinite potential. in this space, there’s no need to question, doubt, or analyze. you don’t need to “try” to reach the void, because you’re already embodying it. the moment you stop chasing it, you realize you were already there.
step 5: exist as pure consciousness
𓂃⋆ in the void, you are pure consciousness, untouched by the world, unshaped by time or space. you are everything and nothing at once. feel this—you are the creator of all, and yet, you are perfectly still. this state is simple, yet profound. you don’t have to do anything to maintain it. just be aware of your own infinite nature.
that’s it. the void state is effortless because you are it. there’s no process, no waiting, only instant realization that you are god, and everything is within your power. hachi did nothing but know her powerful and boom— she manifested her dream closet, her dream body, her dream boyfriend and her dream life in general. if she & so many others can—then so can you 🩷 it’s nothing that deep :p
note: the steps are not required duh anything and everything you do whilst holding the intention of inducing the void state is correct and guaranteed you are god so stop doubting. https://www.tumblr.com/sugarplumfairy777/772229618617991168/failure-doubt-limitations
#void state#loa#loa tumblr#loablr#loassumption#pure consciousness#vaunts & affirmations#manifesation#manifesting
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Foreign Words
Reader, a young adult, is tired of their monotonous, stressful and depressive life. One day, they absurdly appears in the world of the famous Chinese play called "Journey to the West", but, surprise, they don't know Chinese!
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Reader.
Aka "little one" or "foreign".
They are a modern, ordinary human who accidentally appears in the ancient world of the Chinese play called "Journey to the West."
A human without magic, but that don't stop them. They are a boundless workaholic, probably managing money even in the middle of an ambush. When they're not trying to work on something (or everything), they can be found playing their beloved guitar, which they carries around like it's they best friend.
As an insomniac musician, Reader possesses the surprising (and worrying) ability to survive on an amount of sleep that would make any normal human collapse. While others are sleeping peacefully, they are awake, making up songs about their misfortunes (as a way of coping) and singing them. They are likely to solve problems faster, although sometimes their ideas are meaningless when sleep deprivation takes its toll. They also have a short-term memory most of the time.
"Who needs sleep when you can put your problems to music?"
They really misses sleeping in a normal bed. Please, someone have mercy on them.
Sun Wukong.
Sun Wukong is small, but his power knows no bounds. Impulsive, he always acts first and asks questions later (if he asks anything at all). He doesn't have much patience for following orders, and if someone tells him what to do, he'll almost certainly do the opposite just for the fun of it. A rebel at heart, he's never been a fan of authority, especially if it comes from someone bigger or more important than him (which is almost everyone, given his size). Wukong doesn't have time to think before he acts. Plan? Nah! Better to jump headfirst into danger and see what happens. He's cunning like few others, always finding the quickest way out, or at least the most entertaining one.
However, despite his wild nature, Wukong knows how to get out of any mess he gets himself into (which happens more often than he'd like to admit). And when you earn his respect, he's loyal to the end. He defends his friends with an intensity that shows that, even though he has a hard time admitting it, he has a big heart. He may be mischievous and a bit chaotic, but he's always there when you really need him… Although sometimes you wonder if he does it for you or because he's just bored.
Tang Sanzang.
Tang Sanzang is the kind of person who firmly believes that peace and understanding can solve almost any problem… Even if he’s surrounded by hungry demons who want to eat him. Wise in many things, he always has profound and instructive advice to offer, though sometimes his innocence leads him to underestimate how dangerous situations are (such as when he insists on dialoguing with monsters who would clearly rather devour him than listen to his profound words).
His compassion is so great that he feels bad even when he steps on an ant, making him a pacifist at heart. While his peers prefer the “hit first, ask questions later” approach, Sanzang always advocates dialogue and non-violence, though sometimes that tests the patience of his more impulsive protectors. Despite his apparent fragility, he has an inner strength that drives him forward, convinced that kindness can conquer even the most terrible evil. He'll probably ask you to put the staff away and try to talk him through it, though… Even if the monster looks like he wants to use it as an appetizer.
A pacifist by nature, he'd rather sit down and have tea with a demon than fight, which sometimes makes his companions wonder if he's a little overly optimistic… Or if he just doesn't realize how dangerous the situation is.
Zhu Bajie.
Zhu Bajie is the kind of fellow who is always looking for two things: food and a nap. A top-notch glutton, he seems to have a bottomless stomach, and if there's food nearby, it's sure to be on his plate… Or in his mouth. His personal motto is something along the lines of "work as little as possible and eat as much as possible." In fact, if he can avoid a fight and resolve the situation with a feast instead of a battle, he'll do so without hesitation.
Besides being a slacker, Bajie is a born comedian, always cracking jokes (sometimes too inappropriate) even at the worst of times, making him the comic relief of the group, though not always intentionally. Despite his good humor, he has one very clear weak spot: women. An incorrigible womanizer, Bajie always has his head (and eyes) set on any lady who crosses his path, which usually gets him into more trouble than he can handle. Although he sometimes gives the impression that he doesn't take anything seriously, deep down he's a loyal friend who cares deeply… As long as you don't ask him to make a stale joke about Sun Wukong.
Sha Wujing
Sha Wujing is the rock of the group, the kind of person who always remains calm, even when chaos is unleashed around him (and traveling with Wukong and Bajie, that happens quite often). With his cool demeanor and calm voice, he's the one who manages to bring some sanity to the craziest of arguments, though he rarely butts in directly. He prefers to observe in silence and speak only when he has something important to say, making him a comforting presence for his companions at times.
He's incredibly loyal, the first to offer to shoulder the group's burdens, literally and metaphorically. If there's something heavy to carry, a thankless task to accomplish, or simply someone who needs support, Wujing will be there without a complaint. His resilience has seen him overcome trials that would have broken others, but you'll never hear him brag about it. Humble to the core, he seeks no recognition or glory; he just wants to do his duty and protect his friends along the way.
Despite his serious and chilling appearance, Wujing has a warm heart and endless patience, making him an anchor for the group. In a team full of chaotic personalities, he's the one who remembers that it doesn't always take magic, humor, or impulsiveness to face challenges: sometimes, it just takes someone who won't give up and keeps going, one step at a time.
Bai Long Ma.
Bai Long Ma, once a dragon prince, lived a life of luxury and pride… Until one bad decision led to his banishment. Now, in his white horse form, he accompanies pilgrims with unwavering loyalty. Although he can speak, he rarely does, preferring to let his actions speak for him.
He is altruistic in nature, always willing to bear the burdens of the group without complaint. His presence is calm and pleasant, as if he carries with him a little bit of the majesty he once had as a dragon. Silent but noble, Bai Long Ma is the companion who is always there, strong and reliable, even when no one else notices.
PD: This character reference sheet may change. In any case, notice of any changes will be given.
#jttw#journey to the west#sun wukong#my artwork#foreign words#tang sanzang#zhy bajie#sha wujing#bai longma#jttw x reader#journey to the west x reader
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people will be like oh yeah making things together is a great way to bond!!! don't talk to me like that. last time I willingly baked with another person I was so irritated and barely held back on the passive aggressive behavior. don't take a single step in my direction when I'm baking. back away.
#let's not talk about how I left my brother to finish a cake I was trying to make when I had to step away#the fully grown man forgot to add FLOUR#it was literally like. liquid in the pan and I just stared at him like. how do you forget flour????? in a cake???#did you even READ the recipe???#and another time I was baking w a cousin and like I can't even say I enjoyed it because I straight up kinda hated it#the thing that stuck with me was the recipe was like “add butter” and then she melted the butter in the microwave#to make it easier to mix into the batter#yeah I mean there were good intentions#but I just stood there like. what did I just see. and I clenched my teeth and I was like. yeah yeah it's fine let's just add it in#but the cake ended up dry and kinda nasty and bad texture#and then the next time I made the cake there was a significant improvement as in 1. IT WASN'T DRY#t'was moist and actually quite enjoyable to eat#and I DIDN'T melt the butter and completely followed instructions#what I don't understand is how people struggle to bake. idk maybe it's just but like.#how hard is it to follow a couple instructions? don't add anything else unless u r comfy w it but if ur still getting used to it#just follow the instructions. it's not hard
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Really love the vibe of the first-person cutscenes/sections, feels like something straight out of an ENA animation.
What the fuck man?
#who writes instruction like that?!#(it wasn't actually hard to follow but i did have to write down the order)#enjoying the game so far :)#only played like 2 and a half hours but I may resume later just cause i'm invested now#its pretty inventory screen-heavy but i expected that#controls are pretty good for a horror game (clunky enough to add tension but not to the point of being obnoxious)#only real nitpick is that i wish you could peak through doors to know if an enemy is standing right next to it#i mean yeah i get it its a horror game it would probably break the tension#but having to run in and out of doors until an enemy is far enough away to shoot/evade can be mildly annoying at times#ramblings#signalis
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guess whose oliver plush got stolen because the delivery driver cant follow instructions or even bother looking at the address AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#in neg city#dialtown#fuck you it goes in the dialtown tag#dogman STOP MAKING PLUSHES WITH MAKESHIP THEIR DELIVERY SERVICES ARE AWFUL#THEY DONT GO THROUGH UPS OR USPS AND SO THERES NO WAY FOR ME TO GIVE THEM DELIVERY INSTRUCTIONS#THE DRIVER DIDNT EVEN DROP IT OFF AT THE RIGHT /DOOR/#AND THIS TIME I HAD THE DOORCODE FOR THE DOOR /IN MY ADDRESS INFORMATION/!!!!!!!#and of course makeship doesnt tell you something has delivered until TWO HOURS AFTER THE FACT#meaning even if i couldve had my landlord come scoop it up from outside no he fucking couldnt bc IN TWO HOURS THE PACKAGE WILL HAVE ALREADY#BEEN STOLEN#i feel like a fucking crazy person but how hard can it be to just FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS#DO I NEED TO STAPLE THEM TO YOUR FUCKING FOREHEAD?#I WORK A FULLTIME JOB I CANT BE SITTING AT HOME CAMPING OUT PACKAGES#HENCE WHY. I INCLUDE. MY DOORCODE!!!!#BUT THE DRIVER COULDNT EVEN BE ASSED TO DROP IT OFF AT THE RIGHT DOOR#im so mad i just wanted a fucking oliver man. i put in another service ticket but i doubt they will ship me another one#i dont Have another address for them to even ship to. im so mad im like crying right now#so frustrating!!!!! i want to support an indie creators work but i cant even get it bc makeship is a USELESS MERCH COMPANY#at this point im tempted to cancel my mingus plush order which sucks bc i REALLY want mingus!!! shes one of my favorite characters!!!#but if i have to go through this fucking rigomarole its not worth the $40!!!!
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#not to be a bitch but i am surrounded by incompetent idiots#i write emails i leave detailed notes with doodles and demonstrations even 'do it like this ->' etc etc and yet#every morning i come to work and something is not done correctly or not done at all#it can not be this hard to set up a buffet and follow crystal clear instructions and patterns#like i cant come an hour early every morning to hold your hand through this please just do what i tell you to do for once#i left a note for tonights night guard reminding her like 'heyyy we use these prettier bowls for the veggies now :) so please use one#for cucumber and one for tomato and one for paprika :)' and i put said bowls next to the note on the counter#i come into work this morning and the bowls are still on the counter. i walk to the buffet and there are no veggies.#also no fruit btw??? for whatever reason????#girl youve been cutting fruit every morning for the past month why didnt you do it today#if something got in between and you couldnt then at least leave me a note but nothing#and when guests already start pouring in and im busy restocking bread and eggs and bacon and croissants and beans and fucking everything#i dint have time to also cut fruits and veggies#that was YOUR job#like i can also come into work at 5 to be the one to prepare breakfast i have no fucking issue with that but boss wants the night guards#to do it so the breakfast shift can work longer so this is how it is.#except i guess tomorrow i will have to come into work a little early just to make sure everything is there and in order like#im so tireddddddd of this please please please just do your job
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I’ve been thinking abt one of my older oni colonies and decided to doodle my first three dupes in that save
#keese draws#oxygen not included#but yeah these guys were my main scientist digger and rancher respectively#this was one of my actual spaced out style saves so ofc I chose the cold asteroid still#it was painful opening this save again to look at their traits as it was basically my first longer attempt#let’s just say I had no idea what I was doing and ran out of power literally everywhere#might do a rescue attempt on this save tbh sounds like a fun challenge#but yeah I actually have characterizations for most of the dupes in this save in my head they’re like semi ocs to me#they’re the ones I like to imagine fumbling about post olivia entering sleep mode#cause there’d be such a harsh contrast in how they’d all react and move forwards#burt in particular would take it rly hard mostly because he’s the only scientist#so everyone ends up looking to him for answers and help and he just doesn’t know how to provide any of it#he had already spent so long feeling overworked and under appreciated so this wouldn’t help at all#quinn on the other hand is generally more optimistic as they have gone through a lot of rough shit and made it out on the other side#so they see this as an obstacle they’ll all overcome and grow stronger from#they’re also just very used to being suddenly forced to say goodbye to people for potentially forever#harold was almost relieved by the whole event because it lead to a lot less activity in the neural chip network#which is in fact a big source of panic for most of the dupes but harold pretty much exclusively goes to like 3 rooms so he’s not as effected#he also just doesn’t like the noise of the hundreds of commands that he can’t even follow#he just manages the plants and the pips and sometimes helps with the cooking#he honestly really likes the freedom of figuring out what to do without instruction#as the pip farm he manages is very. well let’s just say pips tend to starve in there a lot#yknow thankfully I did give these guys a bunch of phones so at least they’d be able to still know what’s up with eachother still#still an uncomfortable feeling loosing that connection that you’ve been relying on for years
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actually i think its kinda weird because ive gotten the impression that other people tend to think. like. very linearly? their minds eye is very similar to their physical senses, or it occurs in one direction like the flow of time.
meanwhile to me it's like. i see things as three dimensional objects? even for concepts and things. and seeing all these different parts included within them at once and see how they interact with each other and touch each other and how they touch other related things in compounding ways. like its just. how my line of thought works, that everything is a massive object that i can see all aspects of at once.
which i guess is why i always got tripped up by that one "mentally visualize an apple and tell me which one you see" meme, because as ever im Some Other Third Thing. like its not. sight, really, not sensing like how any other sense works. its just. thinking in a way that conceives every part at once in a way where i can move it around and make it assume different shapes.
i guess in that way id liken it more to a dolphins echolocation? like, sensing the three dimensional structures within and how they connect all at once without needing to take it apart, having all of this layered over itself and altering it like those videos of four dimensional objects, which are not actually being altered at all. its seeing without seeing. its some other sense that i cant use any other senses to describe.
which i guess is also why i think its hard for me to talk about what merfolk cognition is like! just because theyre all like this and most people tend to think of things like theyre reading a book i guess.
#all the care guide says is 'biomass'#like this is why i go nuts for worldbuilding and spec evo and all that#because i just like. think of all of it at once.#i dont have to wonder about complex systems or interactions because theyre just There#but this also makes. following instructions and being given new information Very Hard#because people will say one ''simple'' thing and i cant understand it#because its not real. its not CONNECTED to anything. it has no presence.#i cannot follow it because its just a flat phrase and not a real thing that exists like all the other real things#if any of this makes sense#like its just. Words#theyre disconnected from the thing i am supposed to actually physically interact WITH
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After unsuccessfully trying to create a recolor for a variety of clothing items for about 4 hours I have a wholly new appreciation for the modders in this fandom XD
#I honestly have no idea what I'm doing wrong...#only that nothing is working XD#either I'm using the wrong models or I'm messing something up when it comes to... packing? I guess? the mods?#but the tutorial is pretty clear so idk#might try again on the weekend or sth but yeh...#I really really want something rainbow colored for Vince XD#but damn... this is hard af#or I'm dumb af with following instructions xDD (which could absolutely be the case mind you)#had a similar experience the first time using AMM though so idk#maybe I just need a second start
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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol#except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade#plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me#god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set#looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u#the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno?#it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control#executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont#wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral#sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive#lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not#forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho#my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly#need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im#dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter#what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by#my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything#interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to#fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i#described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that#idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean#ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said#she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the#parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the#disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage#but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain#just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked#unrelated
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hmmm a little scared for tomorrow....
#i have to get a ct scan and then i have a driving lesson and like neither thing is all that scary its just two mid-tier stressful things#back to back in one afternoon and its definitely going to use up all of my brain cells#its my last driving lesson but theyre 2 hrs long and its just a little awkward and socially draining bc like i'm socially anxious and#anxious about driving and then trying so hard to talk normally to the instructor and act normal etc#the ct scan like its for somethign that is probably nothing and at least medical stuff is usually just following directions so thats ok#also the driving lessons are a little awkward bc I’m very much ready for the test so I don’t need much instruction at all
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Half of "nobody wants to work anymore" is BS and the other half is hiring managers begging the universe for one fucking applicant who can follow instructions on the application well enough that we know you actually read them. When the job says "attention to detail" and you can't follow the instructions on the application, you will not be hired. Plz...
#they arent hard instructuons either. it just says that once you complere the application#you text the number at the bottom with what kind of dog you would be#so we know you read the full application and can follow directions and so the manager can reach back out easily#tens of applications. one text message. bro.#we are working with animals! if you cant follow instructions we cant trust you with the living creatures!!!!!#bootsie's adventures
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i am genuinely incapable of interacting with or existing around other people without fucking everything up and i'm so tired
#i'm so incredibly lonely but at this point i just#don't even have it in me to keep trying?#i'm just going to spend my whole miserable life alone with no friends and it is what it is i guess#i try so hard and still never get anything right and i just don't have the energy or ability to keep trying so hard#if i can't do anything right with all of my focus and effort then why even try?#if i'm going to be lonely and isolated and a bother to everyone anyways why am i still making an effort?#my roommate is my only friend at this point and all i ever do is piss her off and do everything wrong even though i try so hard#and i don't know what the point is anymore#if i'm just a bother and a burden at my best then why am i even trying#i give up#i give up on friends i give up on trying not to make people angry i give up on tryring not to ruin everything i touch#even when i think i'm following someone's exact wishes and instructions i still misunderstand somehow and get it wrong#and it doesn't matter how many times i DO get something right because i've messed up before and that's always more relevant#everyone always acts like i'm intentionally a fuck up or malicious and not just a goddamn idiot#who can't understand other people and what they want no matter how hard i try#venting#i guess#idk i'm being annoying right now even but i have no one to talk to and i have to get it out somewhere#i'm at the end of my fucking rope with just existing
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boy it sure feels bad losing in that stupid rigged blitzball game lol. like youre a beginner, the menuing and field navigation are ridiculous, and youre against an overleveled team. and theres no way to cheese it by, say, grinding in a training mode or something
not to mention its just plain not fun and tedious. who thought this was a good idea. god i cant stand blitzball doivsodiboibvoi i play rpgs for a reason and the reason is certainly not fifa lite 2001
#and dont tell me oh just follow x instructions. all the walkthroughs say this is incredibly hard to win unless you reload saves and are sick#and twisted#ffx talk#ff talk
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the longer my girlfriend (and now me too) has worked in an animal shelter the more im like. wtf is WRONG with private vets. what the hell. how did u check out a cat and NOT notice the glaringly obvious ringworm but I, someone who had never seen an actual ringworm infected cat or ringworm at all, could see it right away. Not even with the woodslamp like that confirmed in but.
#or like we adopted out two siblings and one had a bigger spay scar bc she had ovarian cysts and was a difficult spay#and she played real hard right after adoption (under a week after spay) so it reopened! which is not good!#and these ppls reg vet REFUSED to see her because another pet had A URI. Like oh my GOD what do you mean.#you wont even treat a cat because ANOTHER ONE IN THE HOUSE has THE MOST BASIC THING TO TREAT.#so we took her to clean it out and give them follow up instructions etc#just what the hell what the hell what the hell what is wrong with vets#charging up the ass for basic things and turning people away for the easiest of issues
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