#just because people have taken the anonymity from them doesn't make it okay

[puppercupboard]

Apparently Unpopular Opinion but if you are using the members of the band behind the masks as what you think the ghouls look like in any way that cannot be seen with them in full uniform or in any way that they try to Hide when in full uniform you're just doing Demon Au RPF

[rosesradio]

The post you just reblogged made me wanna ask

If the seven were slashers (seprately)

What would be their motives?

hm, okay, this is interesting...pretty much just the dark!version of each character

jason is the easiest to me. he was born of the lust of zues & a mortal woman chasing fame & glory. he was raised by wolves & primed to be an errand boy, a tool for the gods with no feelings of his own. i could see a path of him being driven to madness, urging for revenge. he would resent his friends, who reluctantly follow the orders of the gods. he would resent them, yet want to protect them from a more violent death. when he delivers death to his friends, it's like he's delivering a gift: salvation, relief, and a silk-dressed pillow pressed gently to one's nose & lips.

leo is driven by jealousy. he stews in his insecurity, unable to help but notice what everyone else has. unable to help but notice what he is missing. he doesn't want to rise to the level of everyone else because he was never given the chance to. he had everything taken from him at every turn—so he would take everything from everyone else. tracking how death follows the son of hephaestus would drive the best detective over the edge; each incident & accident is different, each hand-crafted with desire to own the lives he takes.

annabeth, i've always said, would join luke if not for her loyality to percy & thalia. her hubris would be her downfall. she would believe herself to be more intelligent, more cunning than any serial killer that ever lived, constantly learning from their mistakes instead of making her own. she would ensure that she would not be a footnote in history, no matter which side whe would be on. her death method of choice is a slash to the throat with her dagger, though she also changes things up to avoid suspicion.

percy would be the victim of his own abilities. the sea does not like to be restrained, and the sea lives within every cell of percy's body. much like how he reveled in the darkness of seeing how much misery Misery could take, he would revel in the ways he could eliminate all of his problems. riptide, sure, but why bother? drowning and blood-bending are more fun. the ocean would hunger for more victims, more food for its inhabitants, as it muses in percy's mind that he was only ever meant to be a vessel.

frank knows of the fragility of life more than anyone. his extreme powers were "evened out" by his curse, the threat of fire to burn his life force weighing on him. he would become reckless with his strength, stirred on by the voices of ares & mars in his head. he would unintentionally be one of the most diverse killers of the seven—being his victim could mean anything from a poisonous bug sting to a dragon attack.

piper would be used to getting what she wanted. she learned long ago that life would be hard for her, so why not use her abilities to her advantage? there's a certain hollowness to her life—she's been charmspeaking people into loving her for so long, there's an absense of real love that can never be filled. when she kills, she's covering her tracks, reasoning with herself that it was best for everyone involved. if she can't have someone, and they don't want her...they're better off with a knife in the heart, matching how she feels.

hazel would tip the scales of life & death, as she's always done. her second life would be all about repaying debt to her brother, who brought her back as a consolation prize. she, like jason, would be used in service to the gods, always & forever. she would take on a vigilante role, calling the shots on her own for who deserves to live & die. by breaking the natural order, she would ensure her curse would never be broken, but no matter; she loves anonymously gifting pretty jewels to whoever she sees fit, some so small that her next victim can't even tell if it's been slipped in their pocket.

[minerwarfare-suzuya]

A Scam and A Spiteful Client?

Mobox87 is a scam. Why do I say this? Well if we go back to previous posts talking about Mobox87's prices on her OCs and her Patreon subscription. We can recap some stuff that has been nearly lost when this blog almost got taken down from false reports made.

Now before further discussion. I do wanna state that these are old posts I'm linking. Some of these are likely dated and might not hold up well since Mobox87 likely changed her prices as time went by, which I'll be going over those changes.

Anyways let's bring up-

OC adoption price scam:

I have to say during the time that has passed. Mobox87 has made a better approach in selling off her OCs with prices now and I think this was something she took a good understanding out of the criticism thrown at her.

But of course, I still think the biggest gripe is the characters being sold in designs that look alike... Though that's not my only issue about these OC adoption sales.

My biggest issue has to be OCs being sold twice and I've been catching on to that with Miles buying OCs. I think it should be stated that once you buy that OC you should get the character completely and not have to be sold just one variant. Every version of that character design should be sold to you.

Except one thing I want to clarify is that Mobox87 didn't charge Miles $200. Miles offered her that amount and begged for the OC to be sold to him.

Honestly, Mobox87 should've already given him the character design prior to the first purchase of Oliv but no she took the cash because "She really loves money" (Who doesn't? Lol).

Other than that I think the biggest elephant in the room is still Mi-

Her Patreon subscription overpriced:

Okay, this obviously remains unchanged and I think it'll remain like that. Her Patreon is basically dead and it is currently left with an unfinished comic. Plus, you can just subscribe or donate to her Kofi for $5 and that's a far more affordable option that offers more considering Mobox87's activity on Kofi.

Either way, making only 1 subscription tier $70 for access to a patreon that has very little posts and an unfinished comic isn't worth it. You would totally need a lot more locked posts or content shared to want to pay that amount.

So-

We've talked about the issues with Mobox87 being a scam and we kinda do see that there's been some changes regardless of how Miles spends his money carelessly. Despite one thing-

The Spiteful Client

Yeah, I shadow dropped a post on Miles and made it private for awhile for a certain reason until now. I just think it's time to be full on more open to the fact that no one really accepts Miles'apology at all. I don't need to fake the funk with anyone and it's better to be honest about it.

Miles has not changed at all and has gone out of his way to bully people in private through direct messages.

To put matters even worse. Apparently he has resorted to now buying Mobox87's OCs to spite others from buying them. He has not done this one person but with two people which ironically Mobox87 knows about this and has taken Miles side.

It's no darn secret that Mobox87 would keep supporting Miles'bad behavior because his money is what gets her to hustle online.

So, there's NO POINT in announcing on the Affinity blog that you're selling OCs when it's basically being treated as a bid and that you let Miles still get the upper hand in buying your whole stocks.

There's no fucken sale going on at all! It's clear that your only buyer is going to be Miles and I think it's better off that you're honest about it.

Anyways, I think until then. This will be the second to last time I'll mention Mobox87 in drama since I do wanna talk about her in a more important post because there are some things that thegoldfiles (Moboxcritique) blog doesn't really talk about.

Until then I'll catch y'all later on talking about Arion since there're far more important things to talk about.

[kcokaine]

I B A

Dude

[affectionately, btw pronounce if i may ask]

Your art it's soo good !!

Like i love it so much that i wish i could eat them cause they look as soft and plump as Marshmello.

The art style, the anatomy, the colors, the original design (from clothes to the hairstyle to the actual body design ex. Kojiro ), the entertaining backstories and the fact that they look "flexible" ------------->

--> like when they're moving or put in certain position,that it's not egyptian pharaoh statue , they do look soft and natural, which isn't something to be taken for granted , cause it's harder then many people think it is.

For example if you're a beginner artist trying to draw, you're subject moving you may, the first times, obtain the "it's moving/doing an action, but it looks static" effect (like it's posing, i know it sound stupid because it's a drawing). BUT in your art there's not this "effect", which make you're art even more appealing to the eye, yeah that's exactly what i wanted to say, like i could just have said ------

"I LOVE LOOKING AT YOUR DRAWINGS, BECAUSE IT'S SO SATISFYING" and it would have summed up everything. Well opsie

• Btw just one little critique about you're blog :

Lemme begin with the premise that I don't shame no one for they're sexual preferences and the things they enjoy doing in their intimate times, BUT DAMN why you're blog full with frustrated anonymous people with their butthole plugged with an 8 inch tentacles dildo.

Like okay maybe it's me, who doesn't find having a stick up their on ass appealing. But geez their mothers didn't love them , and shows, which is a shame cause they would have adored me.

To summon up this last part :

I find ridiculous and hilarious, people mad about you're art /blog in such a personal manners like chill man, you're rent is not going to increase if someone want to draw their oc in certain way and modified a canon story in another.

Good luck reading all of this , cause i wouldn't.

So much love

- Milfy

I forgot to respond to this cause it just had such impact on me that i didn' know what to say (i still dont know😭) but thank you SO MUCH!!! These kinds of things just keep me going man im so glad you enjoy my work this much. It will endlessly motivate me knowing there are people i inspire. Im sorry about the horny anons, its kind of weird when they make the sexual advances towards me personally, like gooning over my ocs okay but i dont appreciate direct things aimed to me. It flatters me but idk, kinda makes me feel uncofrtable Also thank you again!!!

[dark9896]

Spoken Magic [Head Canon]

Requested by Anonymous ✨

Speakers were once nomadic, it was very recently that they collectively settled within Hellsalem's Lot for the purpose of aiding the Caster who had called them from the corners of the globe. Every known Speaker family remains separate from the rest, save for times of crisis when they band together, offering their strongest magic wielders to the fight. Their stories, their mythos, even their magic is centuries old and only recently brought to a more public eye.

No form of "physical" Arcana can compare to a Speaker's magical abilities and everyone who needs to know does. Due to Caster relations with Libra, Speakers were quickly introduced to form a secretive trinity meant to keep Hellsalem's Lot safe. With the Casters acting as a public face for all three groups.

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You were still in training when your family traveled to the first permanent home you or anyone in your family had ever known. Being among the strongest of your clan it was inevitable for you to work alongside Libra. Which is how you met your current boyfriend...

Klaus

He is enraptured with the centuries of history you can recite from memory, more so with any folk tales and their modernizations/alterations through retelling

If there's something you can't (or won't) reveal about your family or culture as a whole, Klaus understands completely

He might still be curious, but you said no and that's the end of the conversation

Whatever kind of magic you perform, Klaus can get distracted because of how different it looks from a blood blade attack (though only for a second because middle of the battle)

He has offered to get things to write down, or at least record an audio log of your stories (something the elder Speakers are hesitant to do...)

At first thought you had to be much older than a human life span considering the way you spoke of events from years before you were born as if you were there (but that's just how Speakers recite history)

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Steven

He is fascinated by the old stories and depths of history you know, but the two of you have argued about specifics of dates and times

He won't try to pry too hard when you mention being unable to let a non Speaker know certain things, but sometimes he pushes a little too hard (mostly because its work related)

If you ever just start telling a story (and Steven isn't busy) then he'll be laying across your lap listening intently (and not about to sleep he promises... just resting his eyes... your voice is very soothing)

He is very taken back by how powerful even your supposed low tier spells are and forgets how much space to give you at all times (he can be very protective)

No, he doesn't like how often you use fire on his ice... no he won't admit that refreezing the ice makes it stronger or less resistant to cracking... he is a stubborn man

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Leo

Poor boy can see the runes floating out of your mouth when you cast spells and it freaks him out sometimes

"You... you look so normal that it's just weird to see that."

Will not admit that he forgets what you really are, but jumps whenever you start arguing with Zed or Steven for a historical inaccuracy

He falls asleep easily around you because history was never his strong suit, and he finds your voice soothing... but mostly the bad at history thing sadly, he can't deny it

Gets very concerned when you start arguing with anyone who wants to jot down a thing you say for records as it is not just rude, but also a taboo among your people (meaning you need to get permission from the elders, or at least the elder of your clan)

Though with the All Seeing Eyes, Leo does try to actually see what it is you're talking about given he should be able to

Sonic no like the magic person... froze his banana then roasted it too much. But sometimes is okay with magic person... until he slip on ice

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Zapp

Does way too much to avoid when you're about to go into "lecture mode", he doesn't want to sit around listening to a history lesson

Nor does he want to listen to your stories, he tunes out everything because it all sounds the same

Though he will stay right there if you start talking, just expect him to fall asleep to the sound of your voice

Also expect him to fight others on your behalf. Whether its someone trying to write down something against your will or someone trying to argue historical accuracy with you

The only real problem Zapp has with you is the fact that you're so powerful... he gets jealous easily and thinks he should be the powerhouse between you two

He is the fighter dang it! You're supposed to be the brains of the operation!

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Zed

He could sit for hours as long as you tell stories and recite history

There might be a few points he'll want to discuss or debate, but he won't stop you before you've finished saying anything (in case there's some context he's missing that you... or rather your ancestors knew about and passed to you)

As much as he wants to write down what you're saying, the fact that you can recite it verbatim repeatedly keeps him from pushing the issue too far

Though the things he is allowed to write down (or if you write something down for him) he cherishes it forever

Whenever you are using your magic, Zed is very careful to stay a good distance away... though he still gets distracted from time to time

Zed tries to learn magic from you, but that doesn't go over very well since he sometimes trills mid spell and everything goes colossally wrong (meaning you wind up cleaning the whole thing, though you keep trying to teach him since he's willing)

[ralseinumberonebiggestsupporter]

OKAY I'M MAKING AN INTRO POST

my main is @isitsafetodrinktherainwater32 so if you see it in your notes... THAT'S ME

hello my name is joe i'm a lesbian and i use any pronouns except he (YES EVEN NEOS) this is my utdr sideblog where i post my silly drawings and i scream about ralsei my favorite marshmallow man

i follow from there so um. Watch Out

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i've made a lot of deltarune aus lol but the ones i post about a lot are triscript, my lightner ralsei au and soap seam au!!!!!!!!! ^_^ i like making aus because i like putting characters in silly outfits. i made triscript because i wanted to try and make a deltaswap-style thing, lightner ralsei because i wanted an excuse to draw susie and ralsei being siblings and soap seam just popped into my brain one day. WOOHOO!!!

i also have a few deltarune ocs but i don't post about them that much... except for tenna because she's fun to draw xD

i have also made a 100% not serious parody of just dance called just dodge which is basically deltarune's story of undertale. it's cringe on purpose so i think you should definitely read it teehee heehee

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about tags:

#my art is anything related to art that i make (mostly drawings but there's also a few Other Things 0_0)

#epic slideshows 300 is for my cool epic videos that i post

#rb is my reblogs tag, self explanatory

#srb are self reblogs.. sometimes i reblog from myself

#welcome back to me screaming is the me being annoying tag. if you want to read my thoughts... it's there

#asks for answers to asks that i get

#req for drawing requests from my darling followers

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i reblog everything that i like (and is utdr related because. this is an utdr blog lol) and i try to say interesting things in the tags but i'm not that good at compliments lol... i'm trying

sometimes i don't reply to comments unless i'm sure that you know what my main blog is because i still can't comment from my sideblog. so it would just look like a random person entering a conversation LOL

reblogs are very appreciated ^_^ likes are good too but reblogs help spread my art, so if you think my drawings are good then consider reblogging them! maybe even write something in the tags if you're feeling fancy. no pressure though! i just like reading tags °_°

SPAM LIKERS / REBLOGGERS VERY WELCOME!!! I LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE GO THROUGH MY BLOG AND THINK MY DRAWINGS ARE FUNNY ^_^

my askbox is always open and you can ask me anything (but please be normal lol) OR send me drawing requests!!!!! i will reply to everything unless it makes me uncomfortable

i don't have a dni, i think the block button is more effective LOL but if you have an empty blog i'm going to treat you like a bot and block you. PLEASE put on a profile picture it could be an ms paint drawing of an onion and write something like "im a new user!! im a lurker" in your bio so that i know you're human it doesn't have to be personal information!!!!! just act human!!!!!!! please!!!!!!

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also...

to all spamton fans, i have very bad news for you. if you've ever wanted to see spamton in my artstyle you must know...

i have taken an oath to never draw spamton. dig through the #spamton haters anonymous tag to find out why...

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THAT'S BASICALLY IT!!!!!!!!!!! HAVE FUN SCROLLING THROUGH MY exponentially worse content™

[rp-academy]

roleplays make me very intimidated by the other people because i'm worried i'll do something they don't like or mess up the roleplay somehow. i'm also just very shy about even introducing my characters because even though cringe culture is dead i am still heavily anxious about if my OCs are too edgy to be taken somewhat seriously. how do i get over these worries?? do i just kind of rip off the bandage?? input/help greatly appreciated. thank you!!

Aw, honey. I feel you, seriously.

Here's the thing about it — Cringe culture is not truly dead. As much as we'd like it to be the case, our society still is and likely will always be critical of things that are harmless. God forbid someone does something that doesn't really affect anybody else in a negative way, you know?

Meet Phil. He's one of the OC muses I write over on @fledermuse and has been developed with the help of @pointdointy for the past several years. He is a character that I initially was VERY, VERY afraid of letting into the RPC, because I considered aspects of his character to be too uncomfortable and too overloaded with potentially triggering content.

He suffers from mild to moderate paranoid schizophrenia, which I used countless medical sources to research.

His childhood is riddled with abuse, neglect, and overall trauma, some of which I referenced from my own childhood experiences, while others referenced from medical/academic sources.

He bears a curse which, when he is too distressed / in the midst of panic, his mind responds to it by reverting to that of a dog's, making him act like a sort of foolish, friendly canine in a human's body.

He's one of my odder OCs, certainly, but to my following that's been with me for a while, he's a fan favorite. The problem lies not in if he's "edgy" or "weird", but the way that he is labeled and handled.

I think the most important things to remember are ReWind: Research and Warn. If your muse has a medical condition or trauma that you yourself do not have, you should research that condition to better understand it. Take accounts from those affected firsthand and listen to their experiences. Do not fall into incorrect stereotypes. Once you feel you have a respectable grasp of this content, you need to put an upfront label on your blog that tells others that this blog contains discussions/mentions of [x].

Some will be alright with it. Others will not. You may occasionally receive hate about the character. More often than not, those same people who are rude to you about your character will be hiding behind anon. Remember that this gives them a lot less merit. They find themselves protected by their ability to be anonymous and not take accountability for their words. If it is a legitimate concern brought up about your portrayal, question which aspects of it might be offensive and research again. Use your own judgment and listen to criticism, taking accountability where necessary.

As for actually revealing these characters, ripping off the bandage is a big part of the experience. You have to have the courage to put yourself out there at the risk of getting your feelings hurt. It is going to happen, and it is going to suck. There will always be people in the community who don't want to write with you, and that is okay. It is a part of being in the community, and I understand it can be very lonely when you first start out, but it truly does get better.

[stargazer-sims]

here comes the show

It may still be dark outside, but the ridiculously early hour hasn’t stopped Eden from getting up and putting himself together perfectly. He arrives at the airport looking like he's ready to pose for the cameras, because that's exactly what today is likely to have in store. He knows that if he and Haru actually do kiss goodbye in front of the crowd like they’ve talked about doing, all eyes will be on him.

He tells himself he should be more nervous, but he’s oddly composed. It’s like the feeling he gets before a competition, calm confidence interrupted only by the smallest flutters of anxiety and anticipation. Maybe he feels this way because he's used to putting himself on display. Figure skating is as much performance art as it is athletics, after all, and he's been doing it since he was a child. Perhaps he's been unknowingly preparing for his true moment of fame for most of his life.

He's thrilled and amazed when he thinks about it; the notion that destiny has brought him and Haru to this precise moment in time, guiding them without either of them ever having predicted it. If anyone had told him that he'd find himself in a relationship with someone as wildly famous as Abe Sakuharu, he would've laughed at them, loving the idea but not really believing it.

Yet, here they are.

He, Eden Seong, is dating a J-pop idol. Getting to know him as a person. Falling in love with him.

After today, there'll be no going back. If he kisses Haru in full view of friends, fans, airport staff and members of the media, thousands of people are going to know his name within seconds. Within the day, everyone who knows who Haru is will know who Eden is, too. No matter what happens between him and Haru in the future, he'll never be able to be entirely anonymous again.

I'm okay with that, he decides.

In fact, he's more than okay with it. There's a certain exhilaration in being recognized. He loves to hear the spectators clap and cheer for him when he skates, loves picking up an armful of tossed bouquets from the ice and waving to everyone on his way to the kiss-and-cry, loves standing arm in arm with Nikolai and talking to the reporters and getting his picture taken by the news photographers afterwards. He knows what's coming will be way more intense than any post-competition publicity, but he's looking forward to it.

And he's also looking forward to the moments when the cameras and spotlights are off, when they can shed the guises of figure skater and pop star and just be themselves, Eden and Haru, two boys exploring what it's like to be in a real relationship for the first time. The attention and and excitement will make those quiet times all the more precious, he thinks. He's already had a taste of the warmth and intimacy and genuine human connection they can have when they're alone, and he doesn't want to give that up any more than he wants to give up his chance to be famous.

Maybe we really can have it all.

He smiles as he makes his way toward the elevator that will take him up to the departures area. A lot of other people are moving in that direction as well, and he wonders how many of them are passengers, and how many of them are fans, here to catch a glimpse of the members of Sugar Valentine as they head out on the first leg of their world tour. Judging by the amount of pink and yellow being worn, he guesses a fair number of them are Valentines.

I hope you're ready, Eden says silently to them. Because here comes the show.

[decayfromwithin]

Could I have a reality check? If that isn't okay, please disregard this message.

I worry I am starting to have the delusion that we are a lil spiritually/psychically connected, that we may be the same "souls" experiencing similar but different lives. A lot of the things you post I feel like I "get it", and maybe I project my own identity onto you.

This all sounds very narcissistic and egotistical 🤢 But it is comforting. I don't wish to be close, and I wouldn't want to cause you harm. I've followed you for like 6 years, and these thoughts have only been recent.

This doesn't seem right, does it? /Genuine

Im probably not the best person to ask for a "reality cheek" from since i belive reality is individual. But ill try answer this ask regardless.

I think im a very "spiritual" person, i do belive in connections between people that are deeper than "normal connections", and connections that are meant to be. But theres no way for me to know if we have any sort of connection because you are anonymous, i know nothing about you or who you are, or if we have talked before. I have discovered to have deeply spiritual connections to people before though. But thats alwaya been discovered in physical reality, not online. As its also a physical feeling.

I do not belive in souls at all. In my mind there is no way two people can be the same person. There is only me, in my current life. I wish it was different honestly, and i could hope for more. I cant allow myself the comfort of thinking i have or am more than what i currently have. (Unless we are talking about different dimensions , but we share one, and i can only exsist in one dimension at the same time. But all dimensions i exsist in are a part of me and my current reality, not separate and i could not interact with myself from another dimension, just gain consciousness of it and experience them Simultaneously)

Its very normal if you "get" my posts, and relate to me. But before you get delusional about me , maybe talk to me on a personal level first. Because im very complex in ways that cant be precived from just following me and seeing my online content... even if you feel yourself seen or reflected in 100% of what i post online, that would not mean you are me or even similar to me as a person, or that you even understand me in any degree as your preception of me could be horribly off/wrong.

And again, i dont show all of myself online. Im very carefull to keep my most personal information or even traits to myself or close ones to learn about. I also have DID, so this is just a small part me as an antire person in itself. Our life experiences that shape us are completely diffrent too.

If we do have similarities, if youre able to relate to me deeply, or feel we might have a connection, i think thats at most a great opportunity for friendship. Feel free to dm me, id love to talk. If not, thats fine too. If you are concerned youre getting attached to me in an unhealthy way, maybe just block me and walk away. Whatever you think is best.

I don't understand "dont wish to harm you". The only thing that would upset me is trying to claim you are me online or impersonate me. Id also be uncomfortable to me if you tried to copy my behavior, art or style in order to feel closer to me or being me. There is lovely wonder in accepting yourself as your own being and exploring your own self. Being you is the one thing you will always have that can never be lost or taken away. (Well.. only by de*th...) id say you are the most important being in your own life/reality. Just like i am to myself. And you should focus on that and enjoy it while you can.

Youre free to find comfort in me and my content though. I know a lot of people do relate to my posts and find it comforting and it makes me glad to hear. I want to bring comfort to people. Never pain, hurt, fear.

Wish u the best<3

[alastaircarstairsdefenselawyer]

I posted 425 times in 2022

73 posts created (17%)

352 posts reblogged (83%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@have-a-holly-jolly-angstmas

@flowersbloomuntiltheyrot

@when-wax-wings-melt

@cant-think-of-anything

@i-think-i-can-speak-here

I tagged 224 of my posts in 2022

Only 47% of my posts had no tags

#ask - 18 posts

#alastair carstairs - 14 posts

#the last hours - 9 posts

#tlh - 9 posts

#self reblog - 6 posts

#thomas lightwood - 6 posts

#aly!! - 5 posts

#thomastair - 5 posts

#anonymous - 5 posts

#toh spoilers - 4 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#this post is thanks to the 2 presentations we did in my 2 person class today &somehow we picked the same exact theme for both presentations

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

judging by how many wips I have where alastair is gravely injured, you would think I hate him or want him to get hurt. the opposite is true, in fact. I want him to be taken care of. doted on, even. my man needs a break. he does so much and is constantly taken for granted. if this is what it takes for people to realize that he might not always be there, well...

58 notes - Posted May 25, 2022

#4

this is kind of a niche reference but I want a scene for cordelia like that scene in fhsy when adaine went into her sister's memories and saw all of the times that their parents were cruel to adaine and how her sister started to loathe herself for never saying anything. I want cordelia to look back on all of the times that elias treated her as a golden child, all of the times he berated alastair and praised her in the same breath, and feel guilty. I want her to regret never being able to protect him. I want her to feel angry that she was ever in that position in the first place. I want her to be able to accept that she was a child, and alastair was a child, and it's no one's fault except Elias'. I want her to realize that it was never her responsibility to protect Alastair and it was never Alastair's responsibility to protect her, but he did and she didn't and that's a guilt that she'll just need to learn to live with. I want her to realize that it's not too late and she can still repair her relationship with her brother. it might not be living in a bunk bed at the top of a wizard's tower but I need cordelia and alastair to be able to label what happened as abuse and heal from it together.

78 notes - Posted May 20, 2022

#3

sometimes I remember how alastairs sole advice to his sister in her marriage was "being treated badly by someone doesn't make you love them more" ...and yet there are still people who defend ch*rles 😪

86 notes - Posted April 3, 2022

#2

apparently it's now canon that the reason elias' death year is wrong on the family tree is because some bitch named esme hardcastle asked alastair when his father died and he was like "idk he's been dead to me since like 1894" and she said "okay bet"

93 notes - Posted July 18, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

the interaction between alastair and charles where charles tells him that barbara died and alastair asks if thomas is okay and charles goes "i thought you hated those fellows" and alastair simply says "no" despite saying to cordelia literally 15 minutes earlier "let's never talk to those terrible people ever again" is the alastair equivalent of lucie complaining that thomas wont let anyone see his tattoo and alastair saying "I'd like to see it" and thomas immediately rolling up his sleeve

309 notes - Posted March 3, 2022

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"bioessentialism requires prescription by the accused bioessentialist; it requires that your imagined bioessentialist (me) decide post-hoc that certain biological claims about a person determine whether they can be transfeminine or not. if transfemininity was just a set of expressions, forms of behaviour and labelling, a particular aura or whatever, it would be indefensible to gatekeep people from it based on assignment. but that's not what transfemininity is."

What is the role of the word "just" in the last sentence?

Wouldn't it make more sense to re-word that sentence?:

"if transfemininity prescribed or exclusively offered expressions or behaviours, referred to an aura or vibe or labelled people in order to reinforce a connection between biology and social norms, it would be..."

Otherwise it sounds like expressions, behaviours and labelling and "auras" are somehow gatekept but that's okay, since there's more to transfemininity than that...and I don't think that takeaway is intended.

"transfeminine isn't just a particular appearance or set of labels—"

But is transfeminine actually in any way working to draw that connection at all?

Wouldn't it be fair to say that transfeminine is a makeshift /emergency solution. It doesn't describe how anybody should behave, nor how anybody must behave, nor does it in any way classify behaviours for the purpose of drawing social lines between groups of people.

Instead, the word "transfeminine" is intended to convey how someone is targetted: an Islamophobe targets not just Muslims but also people who appear Muslim, such as Sikhs. Similarly, a transmisogynist doesn't just target trans women, but also non-binary people who are sufficiently like trans women, which often involves the discriminating offender to use biological essentialism to pick their target and thus exempts people who are not considered (by the transphobe) sufficiently like trans women ...based on their understanding of biological criteria.

When someone examines "transfeminine person" as a label, from the outside, they might be mistaken in thinking that the label is meant as a permanent distinction between people who are referred to by the label (who likely share some biological characteristics) and the broad outgroup of "tme people" who, it should be pointed out, are much less likely to share any gendered biological characteristics.

But just as resistance movements of indigenous people lumped together very disparate cultures under the very essentialist "Indian" labels that colonizers placed upon them -- and thus, for example under Tecumseh, might have gotten close to a resistance movement had history not taken a less pleasant turn... so too can the very essentialist "transfeminine" label have plenty of liberating use. In a sense, it isn't an essentialist label at all, but a label of convenience built to create the right kind of awareness for problems faced uniquely by those people it refers to.

As long as we can clarify the sense in which we are referring to trans women or transfeminine people, we are not excluding other people from the use of those labels etc.

I don't find the anonymous asker's example all that bad. Many TERFs (especially in the 1970s, but occasionally even today) were sincere in their pursuit of feminist politics and did not understand how "men" could be involved. They did this because they conceived of women as a political development and thus had to further their feminist project by excluding any intruders in these feminist music festivals, music studios, get-togethers, bars, rallies, self-help groups, and other such events, locations, and so on.

I find this type of conversation to be a little bit like ships passing in the night or people talking past each other. Each side embarks on a specific definitional terrain with the intention of using these politically developed definitions for liberational purposes. Then each side encounters a moment of impasse, where the definition that they need to achieve liberation encounters limitations (the anon asker is clearly skeptical about using "transfeminine" for people who are grouped bioessentially and prev's response indicates skepticism about a more open definition that might obscure the violence faced by transfeminine people through transmisogyny).

But obviously as long as you clarify in what sense a person is which thing, the problem disappears: every person can (in the name of being open with labels) lay claim to labels like transfeminine and trans woman IF it is clear from the outset that the default way in which we need to use these terms in the world today (on account of the actual genocide going on and how transmisogyny and conversations about "male bathroom predators" and "male crossdressers" and "men in women's sports" and Drag Queens and sometimes simply trans women such as in the phrase "trans woman stripper" etc. plays a crucial justifying role in it) is tied to a form of discrimination that parts of the trans community are exempt from on account of how the genocide-intending political forces are framing their own actions biologically.

This clarity is already present between women's and transgender issues: feminists can talk about abortion without excluding or erasing transmasculine people...and here too, the word transmasculine is used in a way that can be misunderstood as exclusionary. But it isn't, because it simply matters that you clarify how you use the word. I know a trans person who identifies both as a trans woman and a trans man and uses any/all pronouns. I think they are allowed to do that. I also think that in specific situations it matters whether they are an intended victim of transmisogyny or not. Does that make sense? I'm not depriving other people of the freedom to identify however they want, I just ask that they don't confuse people in an emergency situation. If someone is offering a resource for people in immediate danger of bioessentialist violence, the people who should make use of that resource are the people in immediate danger of that violence and it's not discrimination to ask others to refrain from using these limited resources.

Could we say that rejecting afab transfemininity is a form of bioessentialism because this rejection is based the sex assigned at birth of this category ? Isn't this like rejecting amab people from womanhood for the same reason ?

this only makes sense if you believe that "transfemininity" was a freely-made, vibes-based gender category with no prior anchor in the world. bioessentialism requires prescription by the accused bioessentialist; it requires that your imagined bioessentialist (me) decide post-hoc that certain biological claims about a person determine whether they can be transfeminine or not. if transfemininity was just a set of expressions, forms of behaviour and labelling, a particular aura or whatever, it would be indefensible to gatekeep people from it based on assignment. but that's not what transfemininity is.

transfemininity as a term developed to describe a category of gendered subjectivity in response to transmisogyny. the transfeminine isn't just a particular appearance or set of labels—transfemininity is anchored to the way transmisogyny shapes the subject-formation of those people who are subjected to it. like being a trans woman, being transfeminine is a politicized positionality determined thru cisnormativity and its reflex, transmisogyny. and the logic of transmisogyny operates precisely thru birth assignment.

here is a second clarification: birth assignment is not a biological fact about someone. birth assignment itself is a bioessentialist social action done to someone in the maintenance of hegemonic sexgender. the corrective machinery of gender then sets its normative expectations in accordance with ASAB, and metes out its punishment likewise. and transmisogyny is the specific genre of punishment reserved for those who have betrayed the expectations of being coercively assigned male at birth: the class of failed men who become an underclass of failed women because they cannot even perform the kinds of reproductive labour expected of women "proper". the transfeminine is a subject formed in response to this experience: a gendered category that coagulated against the stream of transmisogyny. it was not an invention ex nihilo, but political development.

so when I reject "afab transfemininity", I am not engaging in prescription. I am just describing transmisogyny, and deducing what must therefore be true of transfemininity. to call this bioessentialist would be a category mistake. take it up with the instruments of transmisogyny. the bioessentialism sits much deeper than a trans lesbian saying no—and your comparison to transmisogyny itself rejecting trans womanhood is, to be honest, absurd.

[byemizumikahago]

Is it possible for the victims who received explicit material from mizumi while underaged to file a police report or take legal action? If so, I strongly suggest it.

I got this question a while ago, and I've been thinking about it ever since. I thought about how to respond, but I never could think of the right way to say this. I knew if I said something too positive that, if the eventual outcome wasn't as good as I promised it'd be, it would've gotten people's hopes up for no reason, and just causes more hurt than good.

On the flipside, however, I knew that if I said something too negative, it would probably just make a lot of people pretty depressed. And it'd probably discourage people from ever trying to take action, or make things better, because "what's the point if it's just gonna be a fruitless effort in the end?"

I thought about just not answering this ask for a while, but I also thought that I should answer, because this brings up an important conversation topic about online predators and how shitty our real world laws are at protecting victims/preventing online crimes from targeting minors.

So, even though this is gonna be a hard pill to swallow, it's important to be realistic and talk about these issues properly, instead of just sweeping the implications this ask actually has under the rug.

So, my answer to, "Can the victims who received explicit material from mizumi while underaged file a police report or take legal action?" is...

No.

Okay, well, technically, yes, the victim can PHYSICALLY go to the police and report it, but my point is that, even if they did, that doesn't mean it'll fix everything. If anything, depending on the context, it could make everything worse. Or (since that scenario I presented is kind of an extreme, and again, don't wanna be too negative), if the victim brought this to the police, the case would most likely be dismissed on the spot. There are also a number of other factors for why taking this online issue to real life wouldn't help, is that;

1: From the few conversations I've had with the victim, their main, primary concern is maintaining anonymity. They seem to just want to put this whole situation behind them, and focus on healing from this experience. They gave me permission to talk about what mizumi did to them, but requested to be completely anonymous.

If this case was ever taken to court, like, actual court, with a Judge and a Jury and lawyers and the public, the victim's anonymity would disappear. Their face would be seen by everyone, and whatever sense of security they had would be gone. Everyone, like their friends, family, classmates, and random people on the street would know them as "that online grooming victim". The label will stick with them wherever they go, and it'll be all anyone can ever see them as.

Also, if mizumi was sent a notice stating that she had to appear in court as the defendant (either in person or by video call), the victim's personal info, like their full name, will be on that notice. And I don't think I need to go into depth on how terribly that'd go.

2: There's the issue of cross-country laws affecting the ability of this report to be taken seriously. Mizumi and the victim both live in different countries, and both have different age of consent laws, and both ALSO have a ton of holes/loopholes that can be exploited, or have to be closely looked into with a magnifying glass to read between the lines. Your local police officer-receptionist, who is working long hours on their depressing job and is constantly tired, isn't gonna bother to investigate the laws of a different country to determine whether this case is suitable for court or not. They're just gonna say "Ah, it's a different country, the culture is different there, the laws are different there, get over yourself kid, and stop wasting my time with this bs"

3: This incident happened a year ago, back in January of 2022. It is nearly the end of 2023, so it's been a little while since this incident took place. To anyone with a brain, you'd be thinking "Okay, sure, it happened nearly 2 years ago now, but that time-gap doesn't mean anything! It should still be looked at in court! The perpetrator has gotten off scot-free for two years, that means the time to act is now, before it's too late!" And I would 100% agree with you, but unfortunately, the people-in-power, who decide what should be taken to court and what shouldn't, do think that this time-gap means something.

In a post from Rainn.org, they state that, statistically, out of every 1,000 sexual assault cases, 975 of the perpetrators will walk free. And, while researching, I came across the Statute of Limitations; it states that there's a time limit to report a sex crime, and it's appliable to most places in the US. It comes from the belief that the sooner you don't report, the less evidence there will be, so there's no point in reporting at all after the fact.

Also, to add onto the un-likelyhood of this report ever being taken as a serious case, the examples I showed you were all from IRL cases of sexual assault. This incident took place online, where there is less physical evidence of the crime taking place. This video series is from the youtuber Illymation, who was a victim of an adult online predator sending sexually charged messages to her when she was a minor, herself. At one point, she talks about her experience with bringing this issue to the police, and how her case was not at all considered seriously before being tossed out. This is just one example from one person about how the justice system screwed them over. But go onto someplace like AskReddit, and you'll find HUNDREDS of THOUSANDS of people sharing their experiences just like this.

So, yeah. Filing a police report about this mizumi incident not only has a statistically low chance of actually leading somewhere, but may actually put the victim in more danger than not.

So, what does this mean? Is there no point in trying to stop these types of things from happening? Will justice never be served? Will mizumi walk away scott-free, with no consequences, ready and willing to pull something like this again?

Well, personally, I don't think it has to end as depressingly as that. In fact, I don't think it should EVER end like that. I think there's still a way to both not take this to court and have an innocent person doxxed, but ALSO make sure mizumi never has the power to exploit another minor again.

Have you heard of the author, VelvateCarnage, of the infamous danganronpa fanfic "Lavender"? Well, he was exposed as being a creep who sent sexual messages to minors, and basically EVERYONE in the fandom knows this. When he was exposed, he deleted all of his social media accounts, and ran away with his tail between his legs. Since then, a group of have been working together to compile all the evidence of his grooming, and multiple screenshots have circulated, showing his true nature.

Now, everyone in the dr fandom knows what a monster he is, and are now on high alert, so whenever he tries to sneak his way back into the fandom, people immediately notice, and chase him out. This ensures that he can't come back to a space with lots of minors, and create even more victims.

I don't see why the same can't happen for mizumi. I think, that if more people knew about what mizumi did, we could ALL work together to kick her out, and make sure she never comes back.

What I'm proposing isn't the most perfect, best, ideal situation. After all, the best place for a child groomer to be is behind bars, but since we, as individuals, don't have a lot of power to change the system, the best we can do is work with what we've got, and come together to stop more incidents like this from happening.

I might write up a post on what exact things fans can do to help, and stop mizumi from creating more victims, so I'll work on that. But for now, thank you for the ask, throwawaycomplique, you raised a very interesting question; one that really made me realize and reconsider what this blog should be about; not just calling out mizumi's behaviour, but actually putting a stop to it, altogether.

[kendrene]

Ohhhh i love trope mash-ups! the more tropes the merrier! Soooo...Supercorp - Baby fic + Blind date fic, for maximum awkward first date lol.

Ohh okay. Hear me out.

Alex and Sam are exes that stayed friends even after they moved on. They both have a problem. Alex's is named Kara and Sam's is named Lena. Both have sworn they will never date again - Kara because of her failed relationship with Mon-El. Lena because she's tired of being taken advantage of for her last name. Lena did want a kid though, so she went and got an anonymous donor and has a baby that's a few months old.

Lena is stressed, juggling work and the baby and even though she's happy to be a mother she is also repressing the fact that she underestimated how hard it'd be to do it all alone. Of course she can, of course a lot of other people are single parents and they're good parents it'd just be nice to have someone that'll take turns getting up when the baby cries at night. She doesn't admit she'd maybe possibly want to be in love, she's stopped believing in love, it's all very practical. (Right)

Kara is just pretty miserable and heartbroken and drowns her aching heart in work but it doesn't help.

Alex and Sam decide to set them up (Kelly tries to explain how badly it can backfire and is the general voice of reason, not that they listen much)

Kara and Lena agree to meet if only so that the others will stop bothering them. Lena tells Sam that she's nervous and can she bring a plus one. Sam of course offers to go with, but Lena is like no, I want to bring someone who didn't help set this whole thing in motion and can be more objective than you. She mentions Jess.

Sam is like okay, I'll watch the baby then and Lena is like no I've got it covered. I'll text you after the date bye. Secretly she plans to bring the baby in order to "scare" Kara away. You know, single mom and all that.

She has not factored in Kara "Sunshine" Danvers, who's been miserable for months but perks up the second she lays eyes on the baby and starts to make goofy faces to make them laugh and buys/wins a plushie for them (plus one for Lena because why make one Luthor happy when you can make two) and by the end of the night Lena is falling, and oh no, I'm falling in love pls help.

Lena panics to Sam who very smugly tells her that's the point.

She holds the front door ajar, watching Kara's battered pick-up truck disappear past a bend in the road, cheek still tingling from the ghost-touch of her lips, and only lets the door slide shut completely when Caragh grows fussy in her arms.

"I'm falling in love, I think." she texts to Sam once she's put her daughter to bed. "You're welcome."

It amuses me that Caragh is pronounced Kara and Lena only finds Kara's name out on their date because Sam refused to tell her anything beyond, you should totally go out with my ex's sister.

[eremiie]

pretty for the camera

❥ nsfw | 4.8k words | camboy!eren x reader

❥ content - breeding kink, exhibitionism, choking, dumbification

❥ you had no problem just being behind the scenes of eren’s little livestreams until you catch a glimpse of his comment section. maybe it was time he needed to bring on a guest.

based on this ask here!

ty to @murmikaa @arlerted for beta reading, ily guys!

ewrose: wanna replace ur hand w mine

min1103: fuck u look so good

yasminab: holding my phone with one hand rn

lyssa1997: if only i was there to help you out<3

you made a disgruntled sound as you scrolled through the comment section of eren's live. it was comment after comment, and even though your face would scrunch up in displeasure at each lewd remark, you continued to let your finger drag across the screen to see more.

you didn't know why it made your stomach turn, you were the one who told eren it was okay. you told him you were fine with him recording videos of himself for the internet to see, you told him you were okay with him live streaming while you twisted in a chair in the corner of the room.

you had no reason to be upset when he was the one who repeatedly said, "are you sure, baby? i don't have to do this." and you repeatedly brushed him off and said it was fine. on the plus side, it put a few extra bucks in his pockets for the both of you.

you weren't the jealous type. if you were you probably wouldn't even be able to sit in the same room with him as his hand worked himself in front of a camera in front of hundreds of people. but it was something about the way they talked so explicitly about what belonged to you that made you pout, that made you sink into the chair and glance eren's way one too many times.

but what good would come out of you complaining? watching eren with envy as if he didn't fuck you good every other night— as if that couldn't be you beside him, showing his stream what belonged to you, or better yet having him show his stream what belonged to him.

your legs falls from the seat of the chair until your toes touch the carpet. your hand slips under eren's shirt that you wore, unclasping your flimsy bra and letting it fall around your waist. grabbing the hem of the shirt, you scrunch it between your hands and pull it over the top of your head. once you're in nothing but your panties, you stand up from the chair, making as little noise as possible and toeing over to stand next to the camera.

catching sight of him again almost left you awestruck. the imagery of his head being thrown back and him grunting while his attention lied on the tip of his cock. he must've felt you staring at him because he pulls forward again, half-lidded green eyes meeting yours, making you blink a few times and snap out of the trance he put you in.

catching sight of him again almost left you awestruck. the imagery of his head being thrown back and him grunting while his attention lied on the tip of his cock. he must've felt you staring at him because he pulls forward again, half-lidded green eyes meeting yours, making you blink a few times and snap out of the trance he put you in.

a warm smile was thrown his way and his gaze trails down your body, taking every inch of you in before he looks to the camera. It's amusing how he quirked his brow when his eyes met yours again.

you didn't blame him. you had never done this before, never had the courage to do this. but once again, it needed to be known that you were an actual person, that there was someone behind the camera that got eren's attention when it was off.

he doesn't speak and doesn't even try to, he just lets his eyes tell you all about it so subtly. you were interrupting his stream but he couldn't let the people watching know that.

your finger points to the camera while your other hand trails from the curve of your breasts to the soft skin of your stomach, passing the hem of your underwear and rubbing at the fabric, a silent message to eren that you hope he'd understand.

eren's hand slows in his strokes and his tongue smoothed over his bottom lip, eyes meeting yours again. a raise of his eyebrow asks you if you were sure. you've never joined one of his streams before; this is a first and he wanted you to be certain.

miathesl4t: what is he doing

mochibts: ??? the show must go on

you nod your head and step one foot forward, pausing for a moment until eren scoots back on the bed. he lets go of himself and watches you saunter over until you stop between his legs.

you're aware that hundreds of eyes were on you now. they're probably studying the curve and dimples of your back, the cotton fabric of your underwear, and the soft skin that only eren got to feel under his hands.

the light highlighted every dip of your body and every inch of you while the camera stared at you so dauntingly. it made your body tense. you want to shy away, but this was a decision that you made. you get as close to eren as possible, wanting to feel his skin up against yours to feel that comfort that he brought to you, help you ease up.

yasminab: wait who's that

mayle.e: omg um???

your leg swings over one side of him, then the other, straddling his lap. warm hands settle on your hips while his cock sat taut against his stomach between you both.

"what's up?" he murmurs, only low enough for you to hear.

your hands come up to cup his jaw, tan skin hot in your grasp. he turns his head to press his lips to your hand,softening up at the feel of you. he almost completely forgets he's recording because that's the effect you alone have on him.

his reputation precedes him— someone who has never met him before, who only knows him from his streams, his filthy videos, and pictures would say something completely different about him than you would.

you, however, knew how tender he could be, how loving he could be. you also knew what he put up for the camera wasn't completely a sham because well... you've experienced it first hand, and you reckoned if you asked kindly you could experience it again.

"want you to fuck me." your nearly whispering to him as you spoke.

"on camera?" he's not taken aback, he knew that you knew what you were getting into the second you stepped foot in front of the camera. if you wanted to back out now he wouldn't mind. he'd never force you to do something you didn't want— even if it would disappoint the watchers, even if it would disturb his live.

"on camera." you roll your hips forward, his hands on either side of you tightening as he hums. pink lips press against your shoulder before he rests his head on it, verdigris eyes meeting the camera again with a small smirk.

"we have a guest guys." his voice is sing-song, eren failing to hide his excitement because he was excited. excited to show you off, excited for his followers to see you in all your glory, to see what was his like you wanted them to, to see who fucked you dumb every chance he got.

erenwhore21: i did not sign up for this

you turn your head to the side so your profile is showing, fluttering your eyes at the camera as if you were a natural-born star that was made for it, and you give a shy smile as you lean forward into eren. his body on yours was a haven. "hi."

erenwhore21: but i am not complaining

lillilyx: HE GOT A GF omg

erenwhore21: he didn't say that

"she wants me to fuck her on camera." eren's hand comes up to turn your head towards him, pulling you closer by your jaw and pressing a kiss to your bottom lip while his other hand moves down to squeeze at your ass— an abrupt slap making you yelp. "isn't that nasty?"

your eyes roll at the irony of his words— as if not moments ago he was getting off for the eyes of strangers.

"so what do you want, baby? tell them what you told me."

your hands slip over his shoulders and your arms dangle behind them. you lean forward to peck eren's lips as his hand slides underneath your underwear to grip the flesh of your cheeks. "i said, i want you to fuck me."

he reciprocates your kiss and his lips upturn as he does, happy with your compliance. your arousal pools in your stomach, not only because you're about to give yourself to eren, but because you're going to let him have you on camera for everyone to see.

"you hear that?" he's not talking to you although his eyes are on you. he's searching for a sign of hesitation in them, a sign that you don't want to do this anymore, but you're too giddy. so when he finds none he pats your side, "turn around."

and with that same lack of hesitation, you listen, pulling your legs from over him and turning to face the camera.

the light felt brighter than it was when it could only see your backside, the camera felt farther than it was before you were facing it, and you press back on eren as much as possible. your eyes dart around his set up while you get comfortable in his lap, sitting pretty— a doll on display. "this is my girlfriend, she wants me to slut her out for you guys."

lillilyx: eren shes HOT

yasminab: thought he was single :((

b3li3v3: bI pANIC BC WHEW

eren's hands travel to your breasts, kneading both of them while pressing soft, wet kisses to your neck. you can't help but squirm in his lap— you wanted to feel something down below, you were already ready for him from the moment you stepped foot in front of the camera.

"she wants to show you guys how i fuck her when no one is around. she's dirty; my little whore, right?" the way his voice vibrates through your body from where he speaks against your neck sends a shiver through it, your back unintentionally arching and your hips trying to gain friction from your position on top of him.

one of his hands drops from your chest to your clit, giving it a few taps over top of your underwear. "right?" and only then did you realize he was speaking to you.

your eyes were focused on the camera, the thought of what was to come racking your nerves delightfully. "right... yours, no one else."

he nods his head, rewarding you by slipping his hand down past your underwear. your lips part in surprise as his warm fingers brush against your clit before dipping down further to your folds. "then show them."

eren draws a small whine from you and your hands scramble to tug at your panties, begging eren to take them off without opening your mouth. and he listens, helping you pull them off with his other hand while you lift your hips.

he slips them down far enough so that you're able to get them down your legs and let them fall to your feet. sliding out of them you open your legs further while his hand covers your cunt as if he was hiding it from his— your audience.

"you guys wanna see?" he taunts, and your head falls back onto his shoulder. you ached for him to really touch you, to really make you feel good. the camera moves into your subconscious and it almost feels like every other time when it's just you and eren.

his palm cups your heat while his fingers dance across your slit, and you find yourself trying to grind against him, trying to get more from him.

"she's so wet... don't even think i need to prep her," and as if he was testing his theory, his two fingers plunge into you making you moan at the feeling. his fingers always stretched you open so nicely, even if it was in the slightest bit.

your pleasure was short-lived. as fast as he buries his digits into you he pulls them out, and your eyebrows furrow in discontent, muscles in your leg tensing beside eren.

"eren," you whine his name, chest jutting out— god was he such a tease, you could hear him chuckle from over your shoulder before bringing his fingers up to his lips to taste you.

he made a noise of satisfaction, another small peck to your shoulder, reassuring you you'd get what you wanted. his hands come down to massage the skin of your stomach as he looked up to the camera. "i should just fuck her, yeah?"

lillilyx: YES

mira928: please do

it was funny— it didn't matter what the chat said; eren wouldn't be able to read the comments from the distance away he was from his set up. it was his decision to make. it was always his decision to make.

you found yourself nodding your head, jaw brushing against the side of eren's with every up and down motion before he pats your side, signaling you to stand.

"all fours," and you stand, the camera getting a clear view of your backside while you crawl onto the bed. eren stands up as well, positioning himself behind you, as his hand follows the curve of your spine before giving your ass a firm spank that made you wince from below him.

his eyes flit to the camera for a minute, and you reckon he was trying to make sure you were centered enough for them to see you well before his hand presses down on your back making you rest on your forearms.

his dick slides against your folds and you shudder with anticipation, letting your head rest against the sheet and pushing back on eren as he teases you.

it was teasing for him too. as much as he wanted to fuck you he had to take his time, let his viewers indulge in everything, let the camera pick up everything from the sounds of your slick coating his cock to the soft impatient whimpers that would fall from your lips.

"ready?" you can't tell if he's talking to you or the camera, but you nod your head faster than expected anyway, pressing back on him before he adjusts your hips. "gonna fuck you so good."

your mouth can't help but drop open when eren's tip meets your cunt and your breathing stutters as he slides into you. although you were slightly aware so many faces could see you, this time felt no different from the rest.

he grips your hips and sheathes himself fully inside of you, a low groan emitting from his throat as he bottoms out completely.

you feel so tight, so good, better than you usually do— and eren isn't sure if it's a trick of the camera or not. either way, he indulges in the feeling of you sucking him in, slicked up and ready for his cock.

you bury your head into the sheets to smother your moan, the way every inch of eren settles inside of you making your body quiver and your eyes roll.

eren doesn't seem to like this, his hand reaching forward to grab a handful of your hair and exposing your face again. he angles his grip facing you towards the camera, the red light winking at you, taunting you; almost like it was telling you to smile.

"look up, they can't see your face."

this is what you wanted. if you were gonna disrupt his stream the least you could do was listen to him. so you stable yourself on your elbows and keep your head up. his hand falls from your hair and onto your shoulder to keep himself steady as he begins to move.

the way he moves his hips back and forth 'til they're flush with your ass is enough to make you shudder. you can feel every movement of him sliding in and out of you through your whole body— and it feels better than ever. you're sure the attention on you has something to do with it.

"god, eren,"

eren speeds up his pace and the smack of his hips can be heard throughout the whole room alongside the sound of your juices getting pushed around every time he fucked into you. it was lewd— disgusting, but what was even nastier was the comments.

they were enjoying this, much to eren's satisfaction and possibly yours too.

jjjohn21: fuck she's hot

cumslxt0: turn her more to the camera ;p

itachiwife: need to see more tits!!!

guest37657: i wanna fuck someone like this

"god," as if eren could read what they were saying he adjusts your body by pulling you up by your neck, hands warm around your throat while your back presses up against his chest. he's radiating heat, it makes you even more warm and gushy than before, and a small whimper leaves your mouth. "you like this?"

another whimper and your eyes slide sideways so you can see the camera in your peripheral, the image of it jumping every time eren slammed into you.

"yes, yes, yeah," you gasp, your words choked.

"you like everyone watching you?"

your eyes flutter for a few seconds, mouth open to speak but only small croaks slip from your lips.

you did like everyone watching you. you liked them seeing how eren fucked you; how his cock slid in and out of you swiftly. deep strokes that made you dazed, unable to utter anything but quick confirmations to his words, and even then— barely that.

if it wasn't for the pleasure that swallowed you whole you would've felt embarrassed, would've been trying to sink into eren because of the eyes on you, because of the way you stupidly stumbled when trying to be coherent. and it was all at the hands of eren.

you didn't feel embarrassed, you felt hedonistic. felt devoted to this way of pleasure, like this was the only way you'd ever feel so euphoric— on top of the world. you could do this a million times over.

the vulgar comments no longer bothered you because you were sure they were about you. you were sure people's free hands were typing away trying to appraise how hot you looked. from your chest moved with each forceful thrust, to your ass clapping every time eren reached your cervix, small uncomfortable cries tumbling from your mouth that were a blend of pain and pleasure.

you'd try to speak again. "shit—" maybe hearing your sultry voice would help the image of you that they all had burned into their heads by now. "eren,"

maybe it would help the mirage they'd form at night from here on out. it'd be them fucking you, running their hands over your soft curves and helping you bounce over the top of them while you whispered obscenities in their ears. "hah,"

you could see why eren liked the camera so much now.

despite your hokum, you felt like a star, and you played the role so well. eren must've been long forgotten the minute you stepped foot into his spotlight.

but he couldn't have that either.

first and foremost, the only reason they were able to see you in this state was because of him. he's the one who fucked you so stupid, so dumb that you couldn't speak. you were his and as if he knew what you were thinking he'd let it be known.

"you can't speak baby?" he hums condescendingly ashis fingers crawl up from your neck, the tips prodding at your lips, slipping into your mouth to make sure of it.

your tongue lolls out so gracefully, the sloppy surface of it wetting eren's fingers and making him push up in your mouth so he could get a better grip. "fucked you so dumb?"

you nod your head, his fingertips grazing the back of your throat and eren's chuckle turns into a guttural sound when you clench around him at his words. "shit— you like that? like showing everyone how well i can fuck you?"

another nod, another whimper.

"and i'm the only one who can fuck you like this, yeah?" he slows his strokes and when he's buried inside you his hips grind against yours as if he's trying to get as deep as possible. trying to reach your stomach— hell, you can feel him in your stomach.

your yes is so mumbly, but eren can understand it all too well— you're not sure about his viewers though. "that's my girl." he lets his fingers fall from your mouth, a string of saliva connecting his index to the tip of your tongue. your spittle is smeared onto your nipple by him before he lets go of you completely, letting your body fall to the bed with a plop.

you don't even realize how you're circling your hips against his until eren pulls out of you, falling onto his knees and shuffling to the edge of the bed to pull you into his lap. you're straddling him, cunt searching for his dick— fluttering at the empty feeling.

eren couldn't have taken any longer to position you, you wanted to be full again. "let's show them how your slutty pussy takes my cum too."

lillilyx: they r so hot im crying

nbhdluvr: bestie THIS is so hot

laur7n: (s)CREAMING /s

eren's dick is coated in your slick and it glistens as light reflects off of it. eren's thankful for his setup, it makes the sheen of sweat coating the both of you look like an intended glow, accentuating your best parts and making you camera ready.

he pumps himself a few times before lining himself up and pushing into you again with a sound that's near titillating.

your moan is so breathy as you accommodate his length so easily. eren hisses at the feeling of your squishy walls squeezing him again. it's like he's fucked you so many times that you're molded to him, a perfect fit for him— cinderella's glass slipper.

"oh god— eren," you're becoming spent, leaning almost all your weight against eren, wrapping your arms around his shoulders and burying your face into the crevice of his neck.

you mouth at his skin, hot open-mouthed kisses being planted on the tan of his neck, and he reciprocates the gesture by smoothing his thumb over your ear, holding you by your nape as he leans back.

he presses a small subtle kiss to the side of your head that may have gone unnoticed by the camera but not by him and you squeeze your eyes shut relaxing against him.

"fuck me." you mutter. it's so quiet that you're not sure if eren begins moving because of you or because he would've anyway.

eren's movements are steady, bucking up into you so you don't have to do much work— only taking him and taking him so well. he's proud of your performance and he's a little sad the two of you were already in the last act of it.

he speeds up a bit when you tense up, back arching and you putting in a little work as your orgasm creeps up on you. your head lifts from eren's neck slightly and you begin to let out small pants of breath. "eren..."

"yeah?" his voice is shaky and his pace begins to falter. he's just as close as you are.

"almost there," now your meeting eren's thrusts, slamming down onto him as he bucks up into you. your hand finds its way to your clit, rubbing small circles into it to the best of your ability, squeezing around eren and your mouth dropping open to let out larger pants, let out moans. "'m almost there, 'mma cum,"

"me too, me too." stray brown strands stick to the sweat coating eren's forehead. his hand on your nape falls down to the small of your back pushing you as close to him as possible. there's a furrow in his brow as he stares straight at the camera. the heat bubbles in his stomach, that familiar build-up, and it doesn't matter that he's looking at the camera— he can barely see it, eyes half-lidded and his mind blanking as all he's focused on is you and him. his high and yours.

"come," your tone pleading, you wanna be filled to the brim with his cum. want it to leak out of you for everyone and have him push as much in because you can't waste a single drop! you want eren to claim you on camera for your last act and your body shivers at the thought. "please!"

eren groans at your voice, the tremble of it is almost enough to send him over the edge. he leans back even further so you're more on display and his breathing gets heavier. "shit— want me to.. to cum inside you? fill you up?"

"yes, eren, please!"

his body tingles, that same pleasurable sensation spreads. "breed that pretty pussy, like the little slut you are, yeah?"

"yes!" you're practically sobbing for him, sobbing for it.

"fuck, baby take my cum..." and eren shoots inside of you, warmth filling you up. you cream all over him at the same time, your cunt clenching him so tightly. an unintelligible cry of his name escapes your lips. you sound so consumed, so weary, and eren loves it.

he tenses up underneath you, eyes rolling to the back of his head as he fills you up like you wanted, like he wanted.

yasminab: omg

guest11923: ughhh sexy

it was no doubt you belonged to him now.

your body still twitches, and eren has yet to pull out. the two of you are calming down, it's only your heavy breathing that fills the room.

after a moment eren finally speaks, tapping your side. "come on, get up." and as much as you didn't want to you do, lifting yourself up slightly on weak knees— eren's cum following his cock out of you and dripping onto his leg. he sighs at the sight and you sigh at the feel. what a finishing touch to your performance.

your skin gets prickly and cool albeit the warmth of the room, and you're hyper aware that the camera's on you once more. the exterior you built up begins to fade, and as if eren can read your mind he stands up to shut it off and end the live as he usually does.

you relax, watching as he turns off some of the extra lights, and heads to the bathroom, coming back to clean you and him up before sinking into the bed with you wrapped in his arms.

you're tired, your eyes are droopy, and you know eren's holding off the few more things he needs to do to cuddle with you, to lull you to sleep.

he's peppering kisses along your cheek, massaging the fat of your stomach, and holding you so close to him. "you did so good," is what he mumbles between every kiss.

the softness in his voice is what makes you feel tender, feel loved.

your envy was absurd. it's the way he gently kisses your skin that makes you realize that on or off camera eren belonged to you. you didn't need to show out for his viewers (not that you regret it), or prove anything to them. sitting behind a camera was fine as long as it was you who had eren in his entirety at the end of the day.

even after your realization, you're not so sure if this would be the last time you'd step foot in front of a camera, with or without eren.

[utilitycaster]

So I think this will probably be the last thing I'll say about this episode barring questions* until next week, because it is very true that it's extremely unresolved.

I feel like my personal qualms are hard to articulate well, and that might be why I feel nothing has been said in response to them.

I have no concerns regarding the cast not having fun/feeling unsafe (I think it's valid of Matt to address that on Twitter because I'm sure there are people who are saying these things; I'm just not one of them). I hope it's also apparent from this blog and the many things I've discussed over the past few years that I don't mind permanent character death in stories, nor do I mind violence or upsetting content (to the point that I find unsolicited offers of trigger tags annoying, in that they're more likely, to me, to be spoilers or pointless chatter, rather than anything helpful).

This morning I thought a lot about how I'd feel if Fearne and/or Orym weren't killed...and it doesn't really change what I dislike, which I think is an important perspective to bring up.

Much as I hope it's clear that I don't shy away from discussing death and mortality, I hope it's also clear that I like Imogen a lot and that she's been one of my favorite characters this campaign, and that I've enjoyed a variety of different character arcs for various different characters throughout the past two campaigns, both front-and-center ones and more subtle background ones.

Which is what frustrates me: this combat has the elements of an Imogen arc, and yet Imogen doesn't even feel important to it other than the button that must be pushed. I don't want to diminish the deaths of Orym and Fearne, and I get why that's such a huge part of the conversation, but when I get past that, this is what I fixate on: Imogen doesn't even feel like a person. It's just a thing Otohan is pushing her to do. It is, as others have said, almost cut-scene-like in nature.

More generally, I feel this is kind of the problem I have with a Dark Phoenix plot; those stories (the only ones offhand I can think of are Dark Phoenix and House of M, and I'll admit to only having broad comics fandom familiarity with both) end up primarily being about the other people fighting the effects of the reality warper, rather than the person who lost control of their powers, because as a key part of this kind of plot, that person becomes less of a character and more a force of nature (and not in the fun Keyleth way but in a 'Jean Gray is effectively dead and only the phoenix remains' way).

To be completely fair, I don't know if that's what has happened, and that's why I'm still watching. I actually can, through talking through this, see how a group hallucination or similar could make this all work as a plot point. If this ends up being, for example, a vision of a dark potential future, I will still have my criticisms of Otohan as a character and some details of this combat, but it could be handled well. It's not an easy landing to stick, but it's absolutely not impossible either.

Anyway I guess this is just to say that I would be interested in a thoughtful defense of the episode that addresses this and I haven't really seen one. Honestly, it might truly be that the only thoughtful defense is "it's not yet resolved, so wait a week" which is entirely fair. I'm certainly not going to pretend I'm not quick to judge nor that my judgments haven't been proven wrong by future episodes. I just kind of wanted to point out that most of what I've seen beyond "give it a week" have been "geez, death is okay" or "the cast is okay with it", both things I inherently agree with but which do not address what I actually have problems with.

*just a quick reminder to please keep things to questions and not statements on how you feel. Feel free to DM me if you just have thoughts, and on some level I understand preferring to send criticism anonymously to someone sympathetic to it given how criticism in general is at times taken in this fandom; but, and this is a whole other conversation, the best way to change that is to make your own posts, and if you are not up to that, and I understand if you aren't...I still will be deleting those anons until such time as things are a little less heated.

[gerardpilled]

ok in have a lot of questions about this but what is the prevailing fandom theory as to why gee and linds got married if they are both probably queer or even lyrically gee reads as ace to me at times, or if triple r, then WHY did they get married when they’d literally known each other for like two months? and it’s been….almost 15 years. like that’s a good long track record for a marriage of arrangement/agreement/convenience/appearances for both whatever you want to call it. but it doesn’t answer why…to raise a family? to make their families happy? i guess i need to read some good theories because i’m nosy af about this aspect.

ummm... okay sorry but I can't tell if you're genuinely doubting the validity of gerard's marriage here or if you're just curious as to what theories exist around it. If you're doubting the validity ohhhh boy you are wrong i'm sorry.

If you're just looking for theories, and know their marriage isn't a scam, i'm sorry i don't really know any specifics other than 'she's a beard!!'

I'm going to answer this under the keep reading because i have a lot to say.

gerard and lindsey are both not straight to the best of our knowledge, but that doesn't mean they can't get married. I think a lot of theories created around this time were both completely uneducated on sexuality and just hated the woman gerard was dating. No offense, but I don't think either of them are asexual. Like maybe I can see where that's coming from with gerard seemingly awkward about stuff, but I'm sorry they were making the bus stank i know it....

Gerard started dating lindsey a few months after publicly announcing they broke off their engagement to Eliza. There's a lot of speculation around that relationship, but if anything it proves gerard is an all-in typa person. Plus the two knew each other from a few shows MSI and mcr played together back in the day. There's even an article in which they both admitted they both started working out before projrev when they found out the other was going to be there.

In terms of why people think their marriage is a scam, I really just a mixture of think people's inability to imagine a non conventional relationship and having a shipping agenda. If we give people the benefit of the doubt, they were being protective of gerard and wanted to make sure they weren't getting taken advantage of. If we don't, these people were just (even subconsciously) jealous of a woman, whereas the already fan-popular Frank was pre-approved and just enough not like the audience that it didn't feel like he was 'taking their place'. Again if you're asking for theories, i really just think people did not think deeper than 'lindsey is a beard'

I think a lot of confusion about all this is that the gerard and lindsey romance all happened while on proj rev, which a lot of people consider to be the 'gayest tour' with all the stage nonsense happening. Admittedly, it is confusingly hilarious. By accounts i have read, Jamia was also on the tour with them so there was no reason all that repression needed to come out on stage. I do however think that they were just all having fun and feeling themselves, which leads to my next point -

We literally have no idea about the dynamics of their relationships. Nor should we, as the public, know. The idea of a non-monogamous relationship is hardly talked about now, let alone back in 2007 when these theories started. I'm not going to go into a trutherism theory about this, but I just think it's something these people need to keep in mind before they claim the marriage is a coverup

This relationship was all happening around the time Frank was sad-posting on his 'anonymous' blog about being heartbroken. Again I'm pointing to my previous bullet.

People hate Lindsey. At first, probably just for being a woman. Now, for genuine reasons that are completely valid and well founded. I don't think people are able to differentiate between "hey this woman has done some shitty stuff" and "she is completely unredeemable" So people extend that to their relationship.

So yeah, if you want my personal opinion here - I think Gerard really just found love and didn't see a reason to wait. it's hard to say it was a crazy impulsive move now because from all accounts they are still hopelessly in love and I just can't feel anything other than happy for them, even despite the issues.

Again sorry if you weren't even trying to deny their marriage. I at least hope i was able to explain why people had misplaced doubts if that was the case!