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theloveinc · 2 years ago

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not to turn this blog into a mental health journal LOL, but had therapy for the first time in maybe... 3-4 years... and was asked about my sexual libido because apparently it can be an indicator of mental health levels (?).

and honestly i'm just so relieved to hear that because... ofc it relates to my real life and stuff (not being interested in sexual relationships currently) ... bUT ALSO I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO FIGURE OUT WHY I STOPPED WRITING SMUT lmfaoooooo.

which isn't to rule out other factors and reasons, too😖... but knowing it's not entirely my fault and being able to relate that to my (other) creative processes as well... i'm jumping for joy LOL.

#we talked about how the pandemic really catered to people with anxiety (me)#but really to their detriment because often they became too comfortable #and now have a hard time moving away from that isolation #which... SO TRUE #but it was just so nice to have explained to me #bc even tho we only talked about l*bido for like 2 seconds ... it made so much sense #cuz i was so happy during the pandemic (when i started IHB) and had so much desire to write sm*t #and now i'm like... at one of the lowest mental health points ive ever been in my adult life #and i have no creative juices whatsoever and basically no s*x drive #i really thought i was broken or changing but couldnt comprehend why.. like it can't be X or Y #bc it's never been this way before #and that's a nice feeling .. to know now what's happened (or at least a piece of it)#anyway i was kinda scared going into it bc i was assigned an old white dude #but he was really nice #and told me he used w*ed LMFAOOOO basically #so i'm excited!!! to move forward with him #anyway thank u for reading if u did <3 #just a lil update of sorts but also to share the knowledge hahaha #caitie blabs #mental health tw

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