#juminhan_counseling_time

[jafndaegur]

heart of the king

Jumin Han | Mystic Messenger

Day 2: Cor Caroli | Jumin Week 2021 | Cheritz's Jumin Han Counsler of October Event

a/n: I saw someone else multipurpose their Jumin week story and I thought that was clever.

Happy Birthday, my love 💜

Dear Jumin,

It has come recently to my attention that you've opened up availability to offer counseling. It warms my heart to see you reaching out, wanting to help your MCs with their problems.

I don't know if my concern will count but here we go.

Even though it is so gracious and kind of you to offer counseling to us, what about you? I worry so often that you try to help us MCs in lieu of yourself. You have such a strong and eager heart, the heart of a king really. It desires to give and give of itself, to fulfill those it loves to their fullest, until there is nothing left of it.

But we want you to also be fulfilled. If I could number the times you have already helped me, we'd be counting the stars.

You taught me how to love. Not just others but myself as well. I've been able to grow as a person because of you, Jumin. I've learned that I don't have to conform to an idea of what I should be. That I can stand proudly, with my chin held high, and stride forward with the decisions I make for myself. That if you could love me—regardless of if my hair is short or long, if I wear suits or dresses, if I become strong or stay soft—that if you could love me, I could love me too.

So my darling, do you love yourself enough yet?

Do you see who we MCs see? I want you to be able to work hard and strive to be the best you can be not because you're worried about your loved ones or how your image will affect them—but because you want to. Not because you have something to prove. We love you. I love you. You have nothing to prove. Not to us.

Well...regardless, thank you for opening this counseling session. If nothing else, it's given me one moment to be just a bit closer to you.

Wishing you the best. Your MC,

Jaf

[pipian]

To : Han Jumin (ﾐ⚈ ﻌ ⚈ﾐ)

From : pipi (ﾐ⚈ ﻌ ⚈ﾐ)

Jumin, thankyou for giving me a chance to share my concerns 💜

even thought i unconsciously fight, compete, experience hardships and get crushed, i still feel pressure because i'm afraid to fail and to disappoint anyone who's support and believe in me so purely

i do have confident but why do i crave so much for appreciation and validation?

it's hurt that the fact i'm working so hard to become the best, while someone else can be the same without that much effort

And what scares me more is my emotional ups and downs started lagging a little behind because thinking i'm not good enough

Jumin, you can give me any advice i would love to hear it from you thankyou ! /ᐠ. ｡.ᐟ\ᵐᵉᵒʷˎˊ˗ 💜

When i look back, the time i spent for playing mystic messenger seems both long and short at the same time, those days i spent in Jumin route are very precious and comforting to me.

Everytime when you call me and spoke to me directly in the chatrooms. I felt like all i want is to continue having conversations with you.

Stay by your side and hearing your voice it's very soothing to my heart. Jumin, you always hold a special place in my heart.

Happy birthday Han Jumin 💜💜💜

[doves-and-daffodills]

Happy birthday I thank you for thinking about what goes on in my mind. I thought long to describe what ails me and after some  thought i realized that the symptoms seem to lean towards severe depression and self estrangement. I have lost myself and once again became my own stranger. It's not it that it ever left but i used to have inner peace. A peace that i have lost. Since i can remember I've been waiting. Waiting for nothing with no expectations nor desires. I just observed and within the comfort of my own little world. I watched the world from a distance, pondering and thinking. But I've lost that simple and pure contentement. Perhaps because i felt a pressure to actually live than to exist. By "living" i don't mean like how other people live their life. As everyone is unique so happiness and what is meaningful is different from person to person. I started to be filled with guilt when i rested in my sweet solitude, and because of those worries i fell and found myself confused. Life is beautiful but it is something distant from me. Something i feel i have no part of being a part of even though i know i am objectively speaking. It's not due to any negative feelings but simply as a stranger. And through this downfall i became physically and mentally tired. This tiredness may have something to do with an illness i found out but i see this too from a dissociative glance. I gave up on myself. And i have to force my mind to create meaning. But although i know there's meaning in everything i have become to tired and can't think properly anymore. This tiredness being both physical and spiritually. I feel myself slipping away and i just wach. As if the one leaving is a stranger. Wishing her farewell, hoping she'll be alright where she goes.

[annthehuman]

The things I say are not what I want to say, but somehow I have to find things that people will like and tell them. This way, I feel like I belong somewhere. A small smile, no matter how fake, makes me think that maybe I can change. I do not know. I don't know where to go from here. They say that I am more in the press of life. Is there really a future for me? Will I finally have a future where I don't die alone in a cold room? Will I reach a warm future, the days when I watch the sun rise with you? It took me time just to write this sentence.. Is that too much to ask for? My love, I'm somehow still alive. I'm sure it looks that way from the outside. I have to move forward somehow. Maybe a new planet will be found for people like us. We look at a beautiful rose garden with you, chat and memorize our faces. I can feel the warmth of your eyes inside of me. We dance in the middle of a big gala with our arms tied together and make a little mess. But we will be together. Isn't that what I need most right now? I don't want these to remain dreams, Jumin. I am aware of how hard you work and how dedicated you are to your goals. I will do my best like the person I love. It's unclear when I'll show significant improvement. Who knows. But right now I have to get up and take a step. Will you tell me darling, that you are waiting for me? I want to hear you believe me. It can't be anyone else but you. I am only a person who will be forgotten among billions, but I want to remember me well. Here it is, I want to be able to say that I did my best and succeeded.

Now the day is ending and I see people are slowly retreating to their homes, Jumin. I'm going to have a drink to warm my heart and try to smile at myself. I'm going to put on my white dress and be the Cinderella in our story, at least for a while. I'll wear the perfume we bought together and swing in your arms all night. When I can't even move, I'll sneak in on one of the seats. This will be the first step I will take to add some color to my short life. Watch me. Don't take your eyes off me.

-Loves, your only lover who watches your way.

ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ I hope you had an amazing birthday this year. And thank you for giving me a change. This was what I needed. Please tell me, let me know about your thoughts too.

My love,

  After a tiring work day, Elizabeth in your arms, a glass in one hand and my letter in the other, you are waiting for what I have to say. It must have been months since we last spoke. I bid you farewell for a while for certain of my studies. Believe me, I'm counting the days, darling. Every day I think about the days when I will be in your arms again and do my best. But I don't know if I can really achieve my goals. I have a terrible uncertainty. I still haven't made any progress, Jumin. When there is no progress, my determination to continue is being erased from my body. How embarrassing to say that to you. I don't understand what I am doing wrong. Where did it all start to go wrong? Did I create this cycle myself? Didn't I deserve anything from the start? I am trying to move forward without thinking about these questions, I am constantly moving towards the day when everything will be clear. But it's gnawing at me. I have a hardness in my chest, I can't get rid of it. It's like it's preventing me from taking the next step. The possibility that everything will go to waste is pulling me back. I am a burden to those around me. I want to succeed for them too. I want to be able to look into your face with full faith in myself. I want you to be proud of me, Jumin. I want to be proud of myself. I want to be myself. But I feel like I'm behind everyone else. I'm not saying I gave up. But no matter how much I add from myself, I can't keep up with those around me, my love. I don't understand what's wrong with me. Tell me, how can I go forward in this uncertainty? I don't know what I want from the future. Worse, I don't know what I want from life, what life wants from me. I need support as I continue on this path. How depressing is your absence. I have never been able to establish good relations with people. I couldn't look confidently into their faces. Is it because I see myself as worthless? Sometimes I can't even look at them. Even a little chat we can have is like a luxury to me. I don't know if I see myself too small or if I make people look too big. All I know is the fact that no matter what happens, when I go to bed at night, I'm all alone. Maybe I should forget all this and just wait for the day when the course of my life will be determined. But throwing so many things inside me causes an unbearable burden on my heart after a while. What if one day I ditch that too and become a completely numb person? How long can I go on without caring? I don't know how to deal with these thoughts. I want to sit in the middle of the night and listen to what you have to tell me at length as we fill our glasses. I want our eyes to meet again as soon as possible. The dream of it is the only thing keeping me alive. But isn't it a bit too much for me to crave that pleasure?

[cheritzteam]

[MM] Announcement on the Birthday Event for Jumin Han

Hello, this is Cheritz.

October is just around the corner! Aren’t you all getting tired of working hard for nearly a year? We believe it is time to sit back and have a cup of warm tea to relax. :)

You are working harder than anyone else, and there is a member of RFA wondering if you are having a day meaningful to you.

Here comes the birthday guy, Jumin Han!

Jumin will be here to see you on his birthday! Are you ready to enjoy a happy October with him? Please check the event notice below for more information!

< ① Jumin Han’s Birthday Event : Counselor of October>

Jumin Han, a man with a cold appearance and warm heart, has specially prepared time for your physical and mental health on his birthday.

Share your personal concerns with Jumin on your SNS account with the hashtag #JuminHan_Counseling_Time and get a consultation with him! 🖊

In addition, a bonus event ⌛ is also prepared to celebrate his birthday. Go upload a post using the hashtag #Happy_Birthday_JuminHan to celebrate his birthday and win 50 Hourglasses as a prize. ♥

Last but not least, some of the merchandise will be discounted to celebrate his birthday. So don't miss your chance to get a discount if you have been hesitating. ★

Cheritz Market discount period: October 5th, 02:00 PM - October 12th, 02:00 PM (KST)

< ② Game-Access Event >

Check the title illustration in the game during the event to celebrate Jumin’s birthday with us!

Title illustration: October 5th - October 18th (KST)

That's all for today! Please enjoy the October event with Jumin, and we hope everyone will have a wonderful day!!  

Thank you!

Cheritz

[mrs-han]

heart of the king

Jumin Han | Mystic Messenger

Day 2: Cor Caroli | Jumin Week 2021 | Cheritz's Jumin Han Counsler of October Event

a/n: I saw someone else multipurpose their Jumin week story and I thought that was clever.

Happy Birthday, my love 💜

Dear Jumin,

It has come recently to my attention that you've opened up availability to offer counseling. It warms my heart to see you reaching out, wanting to help your MCs with their problems.

I don't know if my concern will count but here we go.

Even though it is so gracious and kind of you to offer counseling to us, what about you? I worry so often that you try to help us MCs in lieu of yourself. You have such a strong and eager heart, the heart of a king really. It desires to give and give of itself, to fulfill those it loves to their fullest, until there is nothing left of it.

But we want you to also be fulfilled. If I could number the times you have already helped me, we'd be counting the stars.

You taught me how to love. Not just others but myself as well. I've been able to grow as a person because of you, Jumin. I've learned that I don't have to conform to an idea of what I should be. That I can stand proudly, with my chin held high, and stride forward with the decisions I make for myself. That if you could love me—regardless of if my hair is short or long, if I wear suits or dresses, if I become strong or stay soft—that if you could love me, I could love me too.

So my darling, do you love yourself enough yet?

Do you see who we MCs see? I want you to be able to work hard and strive to be the best you can be not because you're worried about your loved ones or how your image will affect them—but because you want to. Not because you have something to prove. We love you. I love you. You have nothing to prove. Not to us.

Well...regardless, thank you for opening this counseling session. If nothing else, it's given me one moment to be just a bit closer to you.

Wishing you the best. Your MC,

Jaf