#jshk ch 118

[thelunarfairy]

The look without shine

So, it really was Amane.

And yes, they share the same entity, since always, as I have already mentioned in thousands of posts out there.

It's always been here…Always.

This made me think… that tired look in Amane's eyes… That vague and lost look in Tsukasa's eyes… two lost children who had their innocence stolen by a "thing".

What that thing, what that entity made them become… all for one wish, the wish to save each other…

The wish that took them both deeper, further away from the salvation they so desperately sought. It's painful to see how far they could go for salvation.

To see that even in the "ideal reality" they wouldn't have salvation, neither of them…

Amane trying to do what it takes to save the one he loves, but being devoured equally by what Tsukasa was pulled into.

I can understand why Tsukasa gave up, why he wouldn't come back. Why should he prolong the suffering? In truth, it was Amane who should have left in the first place.

But neither of them accept this pain.

To see those tired eyes, trying their best to continue holding on to this painful love.

Seeing Amane in that state

Didn't make me think about guilt, about villainy, about whether or not he was responsible for all of this or that everything that was happening was his fault, or even the people or what was left of them screaming from the other side of the windows for Mitsuba to run away.

I was thinking about the weight, how those eyes of his reflected an emptiness, a darkness, a tiredness that apparently no one could help alleviate.

How could someone so hurt, hurt other people… the fear of pain, the fear of loss, the "injustice".

Why would Tsukasa have to have a twin who would die so soon? Why would he have to suffer with the death of his beloved brother? In the same way, why would Amane have to lose Tsukasa?

The injustice of life.

The twins made innocent people pay because of their tragic fate, even if no one was to blame for Amane having that terminal illness, even if Tsukasa had chosen to leave, no one should pay for their happiness.

So that look… that tired look of someone who knows what they are doing, of someone who knows that the choice they have made and are making is wrong, but still keeps moving forward because the world is not "fair". Because they want to live next to the person they love.

The look without light, without shine…Just wanting to live again…just wanting happiness..

It makes me particularly sad, their fate is the same…

Maybe, we have the same thoughts….Tsuchigomori….

[treahollow]

can- can I cry... they are so adorable...