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blue skies

chapter: six

7x1 7x2

after aaron told you he was being shipped off to pakistan you didn’t know how to feel. when he told you he’d be gone for six months to eighteen months that broke your heart even more.

you and aaron had been doing well with your relationship. you were getting to know each other better and going on many date whenever he didn’t wasn’t called on a case.

what hurt the most for both of you was telling lizzie. you knew she still had a hard time understanding why her father was leaving so much for work.

but normally aaron would be gone no more than a week. this time she wouldn’t get to see him for long periods of time.

you asked aaron if it was anything he could do to get out of it but it was done. telling jack and lizzie was harder than you thought. seeing their sad little faces. it broke your heart.

and with jess having to work as well, you knew it was hard on aaron. he had to find someone to care for him. when you offered he wasn’t sure. ^it wasn’t because he didn’t trust you. it was because he didn’t know what to expect from jack. sure, jack gets along with you. but taking him to the park occasionally wasn’t the same as taking him own full time. he didn’t want jack to feel like aaron was trying to replace his mom.

haley would always be his mother. no one could take that away from him. but aaron wasn’t planning on losing you ever again. he knew one day he wanted to marry you and maybe have two more kids.

when that time comes he wants jack to look at you like another mother figure. he didn’t want to rush into that for his sake or for yours.

on top of that you had a full time job as well. you told him that you can cut back hours. your boss would understand your family comes first.

after discussing it with jack, he agreed. jack told his dad he’d love to spend more time with you and his little sister. aaron was happy that he was enthusiastic to spend time with you.

when he left it was a tearful goodbye. you cried because you knew lizzie was gonna miss him terribly. watching your daughter shed tears and hold on to aaron tightly broke your heart.

but you also cried for yourself. you were beginning to open your heart out more to aaron and seeing him leave for possibly a year and a half broke you.

aaron promised to try and call and skype any chance he gets.

aaron kept his promise to you and the kids. he called at least once a week. during the day when he caught the kids he’d mostly talk to them. whenever he skyped the kids would be even more excited seeing their dads face.

though jack wasn’t very found of his fathers new look. aaron had grown out his beard over the last few months. jack would tell him to shave every time he’d see it.

lizzie didn’t care much. she hardly paid much attention to the beard. she was just excited to see her father.

late at night whenever he missed the kids the two of you would talk. he knew you had very different feelings about the beard.

aaron would tease you about it constantly. you’d dismiss it and tell him you’re with jack and he needed to shave immediately. he knew you felt otherwise.

you’d always mumble about him being a profiler. he’d tell you it’s not because of his profiling skills. he just knew you.

after four months of him being gone you got a early morning phone call. you groaned before grabbing your cell and answering.

“hello?”

“im sorry to wake you.” aaron whispers through the phone. you immediately sit up. aaron never called this early. whatever it was you were nervous.

“whats going on, aar? are you alright?”

“im okay. look, i called jessica. she should be there in a second. i—i wanted you to come get me from the airport.”

“what?! i thought you said you wouldn’t be back—”

“change of plan. im coming home early.”

you get out of bed when you hear the door being unlocked. you knew it was jess. you got dressed and told aaron your bed there soon.

when you arrived and spot aaron you run towards him. he had his arms open and you immediately buried your head in his chest.

“hi, honey. i miss you.”

lifting your head you had tears in your eyes. he kissed you passionately before grabbing his bag and walking straight to the car. you hand him the car keys. he knew you were probably exhausted and didn’t want to drive back.

“why are you back early?”

“something to do with a case.”

he doesn’t say much else. you frowned at that. you knew it had to be a major case if it brought him home early. you just leave it before arriving home.

you were both greeted by the kids. jack and lizzie were surprise to see their father. they wanted nothing more than to tell him everything and show them a few items they got throughout the time he was gone.

but by the look on aaron face you knew he needed to get back to quantico. you let the kids know that they’ll have plenty of time to catch up. aaron thanked you before he walked to the bathroom and took a shower.

when he finished he kissed you and the kids goodbye before leaving once more. this time you knew he’d at least be home tonight.

when aaron arrived to quantico he heads straight to the round table and looks at the board.

once penelope walks in and hands him a few files aaron walks into the interrogation center. dave stares at aaron intensely.

“well, that’s a good look.” aaron grins as he text derek.

“how was the desert?”

“hot.”

“have you see the kids yet?”

“yeah. yn picked me up from the airport. i spoke to them briefly.”

“how do they feel about the new look?”

“we skyped every week. jack isn’t a fan. i don’t think elizabeth cares too much about it.”

“and yn?”

aaron smirks as he shrugs his shoulders. dave knew what that meant. he smirks back before the two watch as derek interrogates ian doyle.

when aaron and jj run into each other, jj gives him a knowing look.

“hey. got your message.” jj states.

“it’s time.”

“why? morgan may be able to break doyle without her.”

“declan tried to make a call. she’s on the way.”

jj sighs. she’d been dreading this moment for a while. “alright. ill get morgan.”

“ill tell the others.” aarons states.

when they gathered the team. they stand by the round table and wait patiently for whatever news was coming.

“welcome back.” derek was the first to speak when aaron walks into the room.

“thanks. everybody have a seat.”

“why? whats going on? everything alright?”

“yes. six months ago i made a decision that affected this team. as you all know, emily had lost a lot of blood after her fight with doyle. but the doctors were able to stabilize her. and she was airlifted from boston to bethesda under a covert exfiltration. her identity was strictly need to know. she stayed there until she was well enough to travel. she was reassigned to paris where she was given several identities, none of which we had access to for her security.” aaron states. he looks at the group of agent as they all showed different emotions.

“she’s alive?” penelope was the first to speak.

“but we buried her.”

“as i said, i take full responsibility for the decision. if anyone has any issues, they should be directed towards me.”

“any issues? yeah, i got issues.”

when everyone turns they see emily standing at the door.

“oh, my god.” penelope sheds tears as she sees her friend she’d been mourning for months.

spencer was the first to stand and hug her tightly.

“i am so sorry. i really am. not a day goes by that i didn’t want to—” emily stares at derek as he looks shell shocked, pissed, and stiffed.

emily walks over to him and hugs him. derek leans in a little. he wasn’t sure how to feel or who to be upset at. aaron could tell his anger was more directed towards him than anything.

he knew he’d deal with the outcome of all this later. for now the team asked emily questions to figure out who kidnapped ian doyle’s son.

after emily tells the team that the female partner is most likely the dominant partner, she also lets them know the suspect pool is most likely larger.

emily, jj, and penelope all head to penelope’s tech room and find a whole suspect pool of women. when they finally leave the room they walk back towards the others.

the team looks at the new suspect pool before emily speaks.

“these women are associates of doyle’s who may have crossed paths with gerace.”

“anyone have a deeper personal connection with doyle?” derek asked.

emily shakes her head before aaron speaks. “whoever took declan showed a lot of rage at the nanny.”

“she had been with doyle since before declan was born.”

“the nanny represents a caregiver, a mother figure.”

“who’s declan’s mother?”

“doyle told me she was dead.” emily states.

aaron simply nods his head. he lets the team know he wanted emily in the interrogation room. they knew that seeing her would shock him but ultimately he’d be the one to tell her the real story on the whereabouts on declan’s mom.

after finding the mother the team gather around the round table once more. penelope finds a clip of declan’s mom just walking into his school building.

penelope shakes her head. “oh, that is creepy.” she states as she watched the clip.

“we thought doyle was bad. check her out.” dave states.

“yeah, she ran an international prostitution ring before moving on to chemicals.” jj states.

“distribution and trafficking, manufacturing, possession, weapon charges?” spencer questioned.

“went away for three years.” derek states.

“that’s it?” dave questioned.

“she hardly seems like the mothering type. why would she take declan?” jj asked.

“it isn’t love.” aaron states.

he stares at jj and the team. they knew exactly what this was. revenge.

the continue to discuss. bouncing back and forward ideas on one another.

aaron was silent for a few moments. allowing everyone else to speak before he finally made himself known once more.

“forgetting the international ties for a minute, what would these unsubs do?”

“you know statistically the abduction of a child by its mother, no matter the psychological disposition of said mother would be low risk to a child.”

“she’s got plenty of connections. she could go underground.”

“is there anywhere in the u.s. where chloe and doyle had history?”

penelope shakes her head. “no. but they do have a lot of ties in europe.”

emily soon walks in. she had a paper to aaron. “doyle came up with associates of chloe’s who have healthy bank accounts.”

“he thinks it’s a trade?” jj asked.

“for what, weapons? drugs?”

“does it matter?”

aaron hands the paper to penelope. “garcia, run these names. see if any have local connections.”

“yeah. what else should i be looking for, you guys?”

“secluded properties.” dave states.

“a legitimate business that requires international bank accounts and trade.”

“it could be mundane. they survived under the radar.”

“garcia, start with irish backgrounds. this time of feud could go back generations.”

penelope nods and she types in everything the team suggested. when she finally got a hit her eyes widened. “oh. it looks like the doyle’s and the mcdermotts have a thing.”

“what kind of thing?” derek asked.

“ian doyle murdered jimmy mcdermott, but his younger brother lachlan owns an import company.”

“do they ship internationally?” aaron asked.

“you know it. he has three warehouses, one of which is slated to be demolished.”

“where?”

“inner harbor, baltimore.”

once the team figured out chloe and lachlan were fleeing with declan they came up with a plan to get declan back alive.

when arriving to stop the jet from taking off, aaron offered a trade. they give them declan for ian doyle. the team had everything planned out.

unfortunately ian got killed in the process and declan watched his father take his last breath.

when aaron arrived home he was met with his kids running towards him. he smiled at them before picking both his kids up.

“daddy!” lizzie holds onto her father tightly.

aaron kisses the top of her head. “hi, princess, g-man. were you two good tonight?”

both jack and lizzie nod their heads. “they were angels. though they missed you terribly.” you state.

“you’re not leaving again, are you daddy?” jack asked.

lizzie looks at her father with hopeful eyes.

aaron shakes his head before setting his kids down. “not for a while. why don’t the two of you give me and mom privacy, yeah?”

jack and lizzie both nod before running off to their shared bedroom. you frowned before walking closer to your boyfriend. you wrap your arms around his waist and wait for him to tell you what was going on.

aaron explained everything to you. from faking emily’s death, to finding doyle, to him and the team immediately being suspended.

you sighed. “are you okay? is the team alright?”

“the team will be fine. i know we broke a few rules and their will be consequences. i just—we had to catch this guy and a child was in danger. we had to do everything in our power to protect him.”

you knew aaron took cases involving children the hardest. you couldn’t imagine what he was going through in those moments. imagining something like that happening to jack or lizzie must have broke his heart. it broke yours.

“do you know how long it will take before the hearing?”

aaron shakes his head. “it could take weeks or even months before they decide.”

“im sorry.”

“it’s okay. i get to spent a lot of time with the kids. and, we can go out more without being interrupted.” aaron smiles at the thought. you shake your head but hug him nonetheless.

“i guess that’s a bonus. we haven’t went out since emily’s—death?” you questioned considering.

aaron shakes his head. “i know. it’ll be nice to take you out. i miss spending time with you outside of these four walls.”

you hum in agreement. before aaron left you had dates in his apartment. aaron would rarely come over yours just in case. jess would take the kids while you two had alone time.

the dates mostly consist of tv dinners or cuddling on the couch with wine, a bag of popcorn, and a movie. it was nice but you both wanted to go out.

“maybe next saturday? i wanted to try this italian restaurant dave has talked about. maybe we can get jess to watch the kids?” aaron kissed right below your ear. he remember how sensitive that spot was.

despite dating for nearly eleven months, the two of you haven’t gone farther than simple make out sessions. aaron felt like a teenager all over again. he craved you.

you were equally flustered. but neither of you wanted to make that move just yet. now with him being gone for four months, you missed him terribly and wanted him more than ever.

and with the beard—it wasn’t fair he looked that sexy with facial hair.

you knew what would happen if jess decided to watch jack and lizzie. part of you was excited. the other half was extremely nervous.

the last time you had sex was with aaron. the night you conceived lizzie. your sex life since consists of your fingers or the few sex toys you had hidden in a box in your closet.

“what do you say?” aaron asked.

“yeah. i—i think i can manage that.”

aaron smiles.

“i do have one request.”

“whats that?”

“maybe—i know jack hates it but maybe you can keep the beard? at least until after our date?”

aaron smirks. “i think i can manage that.

weeks go by, the hearing comes and goes, and the team ultimately doesn’t disband as aaron suspected.

he could thank emily for that. things go back to normal and emily is rehired. cases come and go and the team is starting to get use to emily being back.

aaron is concerned about spencer. he’s the main one that’s given the team—especially jj—the cold shoulder. he didn’t know what to do.

he couldn’t think too much of it because he was going through problems of his own. first the team had cases piled up. since being suspended he had to pick up the slack. he thought being gone the team’s replacements would do a decent job.

unfortunately his hopes were too high. he was put into work immediately. when he went back home he was exhausted most nights.

yn had rarely come around due to how late he’d arrive home. some nights she was there already but they didn’t get to spend time together because how late it was. she was already passed out on his bed.

aaron would spend as much time with the kids as he could in the morning.

unfortunately jack ended up getting the flu last week and aaron got called on a case that day. yn offered to stay but aaron was afraid she’d get it as well as lizzie.

she insisted and took care of jack. he was right about her and lizzie getting the flu. he almost flew home right then and there if it weren’t for yn telling him she wasn’t as bad as the kids and could take care of the three of them.

his plate had been full and he was exhausted. he didn’t have time to get fix the tension between spencer and jj.

when aaron received another case he almost quit right there. instead he read over the file as he emailed the team, letting them know they have another case. once he was through reading over it he was met with everyone sitting at the round table.

the team goes over the case together. they were all headed to oklahoma. after penelope goes over the case aaron tells the team to be on the jet.

he walks over to his office to call yn and the kids.

“hey. everything okay?”

“hi, honey. how is everyone?”

“we’re good. jack and lizzie helped me make lunch. they’re now playing dinos and princesses.”

aaron smiles. he loved how different his kids were yet they came up with ways to play with each other. jack loved his dino collection while elizabeth had her very own doll collection. she had every disney princess so far except princess aurora. she didn’t like princess aurora as much as they others.

when aaron asked why she looked as if he insulted her. “because, daddy, she sleeps in most of the movie.”

the two came up with dinos and princesses because lizzie wanted to play with her big brother and jack wanted to play with her as well. they compromised and made the princesses warriors with pet dinosaurs that defeated the bad guys. it worked perfectly.

“did they catch the bad guy?”

“mhm. professor turtle. he may seem slow but he’s a genius who was trying to take over the land.”

aaron smiles. “im glad they caught him. listen, we got another case.”

“i figured.”

“im sorry, honey. i know i promised you and the kids pizza and movie night.”

“aar, it’s okay. you’re needed. just be safe okay? come back home to the kids and i in once piece.”

aaron hums. “ill try. may i speak with them?”

“you don’t have to ask. kids, daddy’s on the phone.” yn yells out. when she hands the phone to the kids he lets them know he would be leaving. he could tell they’re a little disappointed but they understood.

it almost breaks his heart how his little girl is now use to aaron leaving just as much as jack. but he pushed it down as he grabs his go bag.

hours of being on the case aaron noticed the cold shoulder spencer was giving jj. aaron knew he needed to speak to him. he just didn’t know when the right time was.

after the team delivers the profile is when things escalated from there. he noticed jj and spencer were in a heated conversation.

he watched as spencer tried walking away from jj.

“spence?”

spencer turns and throws his arms in the air.

“im sorry.”

“it’s too late, alright?”

the team looks at the conflict. emily was the first to speak. “reid?” she calls out to the young profiler as he walks away. they all turned to see jj trying to hold back tears.

hours go by after the altercation between jj and spencer. the team tries to move forward with the case. it was a bit difficult but they kept everything professional. in the end they knew they needed to find the unsub before he harmed anyone else.

“it would have had to have been a woman very close to the unsub to make him react this way.” aaron states.

“then why go after surrogates?”

when spencer walks back into the room the team feels the tension ten times more than before. still, they remained calm and professional.

“i don’t think we’re dealing with a typical homeless person. he’s good with chemicals and owns a car. i think the only mistake in our profile was assuming there was something wrong with his physical composition, reducing him to some sort of stereotype.”

“you think it’s only his mental state?”

“i think this guy might be smart enough to use his disability to his advantage so he comes across as harmless.”

“the. When he’s alone and the victim rejects him, he goes off.”

“what if he doesn’t live on the streets? what if he’s in a halfway house?” jj asked.

“garcia, i need a list of halfway houses and mental health centers in the unsub’s comfort zone.”

“ok. five are being sent to your phones.”

“which of those were around i. The eighties, garcia?” derek asked.

“there are two in your area.”

“morgan and prentiss take the first. dave and i will take the second.”

“and what about us?” jj asked as she quickly looks at spencer. the others gather out.

“stay here and check vicap for similar mos and signatures. reid,” aaron looks over at spencer. he walks over to aaron before he continues. “if you want to be mad at someone, be mad at me.”

spencer shakes his head. “i can’t. i didn’t come to your house crying for ten weeks. spencer states as he walks away. aaron sighs as he looks at spencer.

he didn’t know what else to do but he knew whatever it was, it would have to wait later. they all had a job to do.

after arriving to their location aaron and dave received a list of names. his phone rings when they were leaving the halfway house.

derek tells lets him know they received nineteen names. he tells derek to send the list of names to penelope. when he ends the call dave asked the question that was weighing heavy on everyone.

“how’s reid?”

“he’s angry and frustrated. im surprised everybody isn’t.”

“some of us had an inkling.” aaron turns to dave with a questioned smile. “what? im good at what i do. so, are you gonna get psychological counseling for the team or handle it internally?”

“no, i think that if we all just got together, maybe a cooking lesson and at the home of one of our founders—”

“oh, no, not you too.”

“it could boost morale.” aaron gives dave a pleading look.

“is this an order?” dave asked.

aaron smiles before shaking his head. “no, it’s just a—it’s a very tempered suggestion.”

“tempered suggestion.” dave walks away. aaron watches with a smile before following. when they get in the car and aaron starts to drive dave looks over at him.

“ill do it on one condition.”

“what’s that?” aaron asked.

“you have to bring yn over too. it might be too late for the kids but it’ll be nice for the team, including myself, to meet the woman that’s got you all smiles lately. and maybe finally tell the team about the godchild i made a trust fund for almost two years ago.”

aaron hums in agreement. he’d already thought about telling the team everything. he just wanted it to be during a time they were all gathered together and not chasing down a serial killer.

that night when aaron arrived home he told you that jess would be willing to take the kids for the night.

you didn’t know why or what he was planning until you parked into a driveway to a beautiful big house.

when he told you that you were at dave’s and the team was inside you felt panic. you weren’t sure what to expect or if they’d like you.

you were beginning to question your outfit. aaron grabs your hand and kisses the back of it.

“trust me, honey. it’s gonna be fine.”

you shook your head. “aaron,”

“just—we have to introduce you eventually! why not tonight? come on. i won’t leave your side.”

“promise?”

aaron smiles. “i swear.”

you nod your head slowly before he hops out of the car and walks over to open the door for you.

when aaron knocks, jj was the one to open the door. you recognize the team from photos aaron has showed you years ago and the last few years as well.

jj looks at you confused. aaron just squeezes your hand before walking in and going towards the kitchen.

there you saw emily, derek, penelope, and dave who was behind the kitchen counter.

you noticed that spencer, the youngest guy on the team had been missing. you knew the tension going on between jj and spencer from aaron venting to you the last few weeks.

you and aaron stood between penelope and derek. the team looked at you with a questionable look. aaron didn’t say anything. he wanted to give spencer time to come before speaking. if he didn’t he’d just inform him later. dave poured you and aaron a glass of wine.

after informing you not to drink until dinner was ready. dave soon begins speaking.

“cooking is the most sensual art form. and these are my paints.”

“so your hands must be brushes.” penelope interrupts.

“don’t interrupt.” the team looks at each other and begins laughing. you look over at aaron and he shrugs before listening intently.

“in a pot of boiling water we cook our spaghetti until is al dente, firm to the tooth.” he lifts up the spaghetti noodles. he hands the team each a noodle.

“now. in a large pan, we fry up or pancetta. keeping a sharp eye that the edges are crisp.”

“but careful not to burn the onions.” aaron states. you nudged him. you knew aaron was an excellent cook. the few meals he prepared you over the years have been delicious.

when your relationship first began, you didn’t know how to cook at all. aaron was the one to give you a few pointers. you still let him do most of the cooking. only knowing the basics.

“bravo aaron! we sauté until translucence.”

the doorbell rings “i got it.” derek states.

dave thanks him in italian before continuing to tell the team what to do next.

“sorry im late.” spencer walks into view. dave shakes his head.

“yeah. and this is why i cook alone.” dave states.

spencer stands next to jj. he silently looks at her and she immediately understands. she nods her head before the young genius turns to look in aaron’s direction and stares at you.

you give him a shy wave before he waves back.

“so, when do we get to drink the wine?” emily asked.

“almost there. ok. we start at the beginning. you eat what you cook, ill supervise, but we’re gonna do this altogether, just like a family.”

jj was the first to raise her glass. “okay now?”

“now.” dave nods. the team grabs their wine glasses and toast before drinking.

after everyone finished making their own pasta, the team gathers around and eats at the table as a family.

the conversation start off small. they discussed a few things about work and laughed about the memories they shared. you listen to them intently.

aaron squeezes your leg under the table. after a few more minutes penelope finally whispers in your ear.

“it’s good to finally meet you. i—im the one who helped find you for hotch.” she states.

“thank you. means a lot.”

“how’s elizabeth?”

“she’s great!”

“is she getting along with jack well? sorry for prying. hotch doesn’t talk about you much. he—he likes to keep his home life private.”

you smile before shaking your head. “it’s fine. i know everyone probably has a lot of questions. i mean i just showed up as the only plus one. im sure a lot of them are confused. but, yeah, jack and lizzie get along well. jack adores his little sister and lizzie loves jack to pieces.” you explained.

penelope was going to ask you another question before she was interrupted.

“what are you two whispering about baby girl. you two know each other?” derek frowns.

the team now had their eyes on you. all of them remembering that their stoic boss brought a date.

you blushed.

“sorta.” penelope whispers.

aaron clears his throat. the team looked over at aaron. they wait patiently for him to speak.

“almost two years ago—it will be next month—after haley’s death i asked garcia to track someone down for me. yn.” aaron states.

you waved your hand shyly.

“i—after losing haley it broke me down. for many reasons i was sad. i was mourning the woman i used to love, the woman i married, the woman who fathered my only child. but i had mourned our relationship when we divorced. up until i met her.” aaron looks at you lovingly.

“i met yn during haley and i separation. it was the case we had in johnson city, texas.”

it was coming back to the team. emily, aaron, and derek were the ones to interview her years ago.

“after we found our unsub, yn and i started seeing each other immediately after. i know what ive said about getting to close to anyone we interview or interact with during cases but there was something special about her. i—i couldn’t let her get away.”

derek nods understandably. he remembers getting close to one of his victims siblings a few years back. how messy the relationship got after awhile. ultimately derek wasn’t looking for anything serious at the time.

that resulted in many curses thrown in derek’s face in the end. he would never make that mistake again.

“i was still dealing with the divorce, gideon had just left, and dave was back to joining the team. all i wanted was to try to make things right with my son. i never meant to fall in love and she didn’t either. but we just—we clicked. i was still scared of what that meant for me and her. i didn’t admit my feelings at all. when she finally did i pushed her away. i made the mistake of telling her she meant nothing. it was wrong and only broke both of our hearts in the end. when foyet threatened me and my family i could only sigh in relief knowing that yn was safe. i was still in love with her and it made me feel guilt. though i felt sick to my stomach he was threatening haley, i just couldn’t let him know about her. i couldn’t lose her too. and when he killed—when he murdered haley, so many emotions were running through me. but the biggest one remained guilt. i felt guilty i was relieved yn wasn’t dead. she was still alive somewhere. after her funeral i asked garcia to track yn down,”

aaron looked at penelope to tell her side. “i found her with little information hotch provided. i knew it would be easy to find her though. johnson city wasn’t a big town. what i discovered shocked me. i found yn but i also found she had a child. her name was elizabeth hotchner.” penelope finished.

the team eyes widened.

“hotch, does that mean?” emily looks over at aaron. he nods slowly.

“yn took care of our baby girl for three years without me. i—i don’t blame her for keeping it from me. considering i pushed her away and blocked her immediately after leaving her, it was difficult for her to contact me. but now, now we’re working on our relationship while im managing being a father of two.”

the team was silent. aaron looks around expecting the mixed emotions.

spencer was the first to speak. “why’d you hide this from us for so long?”

“at first i wanted to keep this to be a need to know. penelope knew because i asked her to find her for me and dave guessed. then doyle happened. and though he was exactly after me and my family, given the history, i needed to protect them at all cost. after it was just a matter of how and when. after emily’s return i thought it was a perfect time to tell you about yn and lizzie. first we needed to learn to navigate with emily back. work on our emotions before i introduce you.”

“is that why you’ve been so distant? this whole time you were hiding your daughter from us?” derek asked. he was a little hurt. he understood why he did it though.

it didn’t mean he liked the idea of aaron keeping so many secrets. he thought aaron trusted them better than that.

but he understood in the end. protecting emily was a priority to catching doyle and after aaron lost haley and almost lost jack, protecting the woman he loved and his daughter by keeping them private was understandable.

“yeah. i apologize.”

“anymore secrets?” jj jokes.

aaron smiles before shaking his head. “none that i know about. honey?” he turned to you before you shake your head.

dave smiles as he raised his glass. “if that’s it let’s welcome yn to the family.”

everyone raised their glasses. aaron kisses the side of her head before the team gets back to dinner and enjoying each others company. just like a family.

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who i write for:

aaron hotchner (thomas gibson)

eddie munson (joseph quinn)

harry styles

zayn

all of my stories are black!fem reader and most of them are instagram stories with a few story plots. if you enjoy leave a like, comment, or reblog the post. i appreciate and love you all <3

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• astrology

• blue skies

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• multiverse

• hospital surprise -blurb-

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• too sweet

• bloom

• orbit

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multiverse

one

note: this idea just came to be at 2:30 am so here i am writing another aaron hotchner fic. wtf am i doing?!?!

derek was the first to notice the girl. she looked no older than sixteen. she had beautiful curly dark hair, she stood about five seven, she was wearing blue jeans and what seems to be some kind of band t-shirt. she looked around confused. derek tapped emily on the shoulder and pointed.

she looked equally confused before the girl noticed and begins to walk towards them.

“excuse me, is there an aaron hotchner here?”

suddenly she had emily, derek’s, jj, and spencer’s attention. “uh—he’s upstairs.” spencer states. she thanked them quickly before walking over to where spencer pointed.

they knew she couldn’t have been a danger considering that she got past security. they still had no idea who she was or what she wanted with their stoic boss. the curious and nosy co workers just stared as she knocks on hotch’ door before opening it.

aaron looks up from his paper work expecting one of the members of his team. instead he was shocked to see a teenage girl. aaron stares at her confused. she immediately picks up a picture of his family.

“excuse me. who are you?”

when she doesn’t answer aaron begins to get a tad bit frustrated. who was the girl and what was she doing in his office? what was she doing in this building? how did she get in? when she begins to open up her backpack he instantly got nervous.

he instantly put his hand on his gun before she pulled out a picture. she hands it to him and he was even more confused.

his heart starts to skip a beat as he looks at a photo of him and the woman he loved years ago. the one he left to be with haley.

aaron thought he was making the right decision at the time. haley was his high school sweetheart. they had decided to split up when they went off to two different colleges. that’s when aaron met her.

she was beautiful. everything about her was perfect. her smile, her laugh, her hair, her beauty. she made aaron feel free. something he had never felt before in his life.

they dated for two beautiful years. but when he visited home, ran into haley, he couldn’t help but feel like she was the one. all those memories they shared. haley was his first love. he had to give her a chance. they decided to do long distance. when aaron went back to university he broke the news to her. she was devastated.

she cursed him out, yelled, screamed, cried, and suddenly she just disappeared. it was a big school but they were both law students. they would always run into each other. he ran into one of her friends and all she told him was she transferred. that was the last time he saw her.

“sixteen years ago you and a woman named yn yln were dating. she ended up leaving the university you attended together because you broke her heart.”

aaron just stares at the girl before she continues. “she was very angry at you for so many reasons. but the main one was because she had huge news to tell you the night she came back. she never got the opportunity to tell you. that woman there was pregnant with your child. i am that child.”

aaron eyes widened. he shakes his head in disbelief before the girl pulls out a photo of the woman in question, pregnant and glowing.

she also pulls out a big orange envelope. aaron looks at her before opening it. sure enough it was proof that aaron hotchner was a match.

“how did you—”

“get your dna sample? ive been kinda following you for a bit. you um—i saw you and your wife and son at an ice cream parlor where you threw away a water bottle. i took it and—well you know.”

aaron clears his throat. “does your mom know you’re here?”

“she doesn’t know ive been looking for you. i just—ive been wanting to know who my dad was for the longest. my mom would tell me she doesn’t know much about him all my life. but knowing who my mom is, i doubt she’d have many partners to the point of not knowing. one night, when she was away, i snooped into her room, found an old shoe box, and saw multiple photos of you and her. i also found an old necklace with the initials ‘ah.’ on them and this photo in particular that has your full name on the back.”

aaron turns the photo over. there it was. ‘aaron hotchner. forevermore.’

“im sorry to be—i guess ruining your life. i know you have a family of your own. your wife is pretty. i just—i had to know who you are. ive been wondering my whole life.”

“no. it’s—it’s okay. listen, why don’t we go out? there is a sandwich shop across the street from here.”

“i probably shouldn’t—”

“you came all the way down here to meet me. judging by the bus pass i saw on the side of your backpack, you probably don’t live anywhere near the city.”

the girl hums. “took me four bus rides just to get here.”

“then it’s the least i could do. i just—i need to make a stop somewhere first. you can wait right here.”

she hums before sitting down in one of his chairs. aaron leaves his office and walks towards penelope’s.

“oh, sir. hi.”

“can you give me a phone number, please?”

“sure. may i ask who for?”

“a yn yln.” he gives her a bit of information on her before penelope begins typing before finding her quickly. aaron thanks her before dialing her number.

“who is this?! please tell me its an update on my daughter?! oh god?”

“ma’am, calm down.”

“no offense officer but please do not tell me to calm down. my child is missing!”

“he’s right you know? you should calm down. it’s not good to stress in these situations.”

aaron heard exactly how he sounded. he regretted saying those words instantly.

“aaron?”

“yeah. i—she’s here. she came down this way to meet me.”

he hears her sigh in relief. “thank god. im—im on my way!”

aaron hears his phone beep. he immediately text her the address on where to meet them before he walks back into his office and spots his teenage daughter. he still couldn’t believe it. he was a dad to a teenager. aaron was just starting to get use to be a dad to a preteen. now he had a teenager on his hands.

he had no idea how to tell jack. he didn’t know what to tell haley. sure they’d been divorce for a long time but, it was still something he had to discuss with her.

and beth. he didn’t want to think about any of that. right now he wanted to take the daughter he hadn’t known about just twenty minutes ago, out to lunch.

“you ready?”

she nods her head as she grabs her backpack. aaron walks right behind her. as they got in the elevator he noticed his team giving him a confused look. he shakes his head to himself before the elevator doors closed.

when they arrived at the sandwich shop and ordered their food, aaron couldn’t help but stare. she looked like a perfect combination of him and yn. she had his brown eyes but yn smile, she had his hair color but it was as curly as her moms, she had his nose but her ears. she was beautiful.

he suddenly realized he didn’t know her name. kicking himself he finally asked.

“it’s jules. juliet technically. or juju. whatever’s fine.”

juliet. that was what he always wanted to name his daughter if he had one. he couldn’t believe yn decided to give her a piece of him. after all he put her through.

“so, aaron. what’s your deal?”

aaron eyes furrowed. “my deal?”

jules nods her head. “yeah. i read that you use to be this badass prosecutors. you made people cry on a daily. suddenly you just decided to change careers. and im assuming the fbi doesn’t pay you half as much as a law firm. why the sudden change of heart?”

he shrugs his shoulders. “just—felt like i could do more. maybe save some lives, you know? always felt like i was too late by the time the cases reached my desk.”

“makes sense. mom feels the same. but she puts her energy and making sure the evil, sadistic, psychopath gets locked away for the rest of their lives.”

he smirks. it sounded exactly like yn. he remembers her being equally as ruthless back in college. before everything changed.

suddenly the father/daughter duo feels a presence. they turn and see yn walking over. jules gets up nervously as her mother hugs her tightly.

when she pulls away she glares at jules. “do not do that again?! i nearly had a heart attack when the principal said you left and never returned.”

“im sorry, mom. i just—i had to meet him.” jules pointed to aaron.

yn looks over and sees the man who her daughter resembled. she never thought she’d see his face again. after leaving she swore she wouldn’t allow this man to hurt her or her child for as long as she lived.

“go wait in the car. we’ll discuss this when we get home.”

jules hesitated before she runs off when her mother gives her the infamous stern look. yn turns to aaron and shakes her head.

“i apologize for her bombarding you. thanks for feeding her lunch.” yn opens her purse and pulls out her wallet. she hands him cash before he shakes his head.

“it’s the least i could do. you don’t owe me a thing. i do however want to talk.”

“what is there to talk about mister hotchner?”

aaron winced. he wasn’t expecting her to address him by his last name. “jules.”

“it’s juliet.”

“right, juliet.”

“we don’t need to do this. we can pretend this never happened and you could go back to whatever it is you do and i can take care of my daughter.”

“yn—”

“we were fine for sixteen years without you. we’ll be fine again. i don’t need nor do i want your help, aaron.” yn glares at him.

aaron was trying to stay calm and be rational. he knew he’d hurt her but this was different. she hid a child from him for sixteen years. that’s sixteen years of not getting to know his daughter. not witnessing her birth, her crying at an ungodly hour, feeding her, her crawling or walking for the first time, her first words, her first tooth, her first christmas. sixteen years of not being there for his child. aaron missed all the major zones in his child’s life. it was taken from him and he felt many emotions. mostly anger.

aaron glares at her. “i don’t think that’s for you to decide anymore. you took away my daughter, yn. you robbed me of a chance in being her father.”

yn laughs comically. “you cheated on me, aaron! you promised me that you were over her. you swore that i was the girl for you before you left and came back to tell me you fucked your ex girlfriend and you wanted to be with her instead. i wanted nothing but to tell you i was pregnant with our child. that opportunity got ripped away from me when i found out i was just some token trophy you bragged about to all your friends!”

aaron frowns at her. he didn’t know what she was getting at but he didn’t want to argue in front of customers at a sandwich shop.

“could we please discuss this somewhere more private?”

yn shakes her head. “i think we’re done here. don’t contact me, please? goodbye aaron.” yn walks away quickly. aaron sets money down on the table before following her outside. she hops in her car quickly before driving off. aaron watches as the woman he never stopped loving disappeared again. this time will a child he finally knew about. his child.

when you get home you immediately tell jules she’s grounded. she shakes her head before storming into her room. you didn’t want to deal with anymore drama tonight.

instead you grabbed a glass, poured you some wine, and plopped down on your couch. you sigh as you think about everything that led you here.

you were still very livid with how things turned out. you were upset that aaron used you. you still felt disgusted today. how could he pretend that he was innocent? you’re adults now. you’re forty-six and you have no time for games.

your main priority was jules. she deserves all the love in the world. you weren’t gonna let her heart be broken like yours was sixteen years ago. jules didn’t deserve that.

you sigh when you suddenly hear her footsteps. you turned to see your daughter looking directly at you.

“just because you don’t like him—for whatever reason—doesn’t mean you have to punish me. i deserve to know who my father is.”

“jules—”

“since i was little you’ve been honest with me, mom. the only time you’ve hidden something from me was with my father. i finally found him and i want to know more about him and where i come from.”

you sigh deeply. you gesture for your daughter to come sit beside you. when she does you wrap your arms around her as she leans into your shoulders.

you’ve always had a great relationship with your daughter. she’d been your rock the moment you gave birth to her. you promised yourself you’d have a better relationship with her than you did with your own mother. you never wanted to disappoint her like your mother disappointed you.

“im sorry ive been hiding your dad from you. it wasn’t—isn’t right that you don’t know your father. i guess i was protecting myself and being totally selfish when it comes to you.”

“why did you hide him for so long?”

you weren’t gonna tell her the story. she didn’t need to know. you simply shake your head and shrugged. “he just—he broke my heart a long time ago and i guess i didn’t want him to do the same to you, baby. im sorry.”

“i want to at least get to know him, mom. he’s my dad.” she whispers.

you kissed the top of her head before nodding. “okay, baby. let me talk to him first. discuss everything and then we can probably meet him, yeah? this time without you stalking him and skipping school.”

jules nods her head. you kissed the top of it once more before she runs upstairs to her room. you sigh as you grab your phone and call aaron.

“hello?”

“we need to talk. meet me at that sandwich shop tomorrow afternoon!”

“yeah. sure.”

“goodbye, aaron.”

“good—”

you ended the call before he could finish. you just wanted to get this over with.

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blue skies

chapter: five

6x13 6x18 (brief mention) 6x19 (still brief mention. hotch pov during the faking of emily’s death) 6x20

note: this chapter will be more aaron centric than anything. i will be going through the case more than i did the last four chapters. also this will be the final chapter related to season six.

being on a date with aaron at any time comes with many challenges. aaron wanted to have a breakfast date with yn. with jack staying with his aunt and elizabeth having a playdate with jane’s boyfriends kids, they had free time.

yn knew he had this job that was unpredictable and he could be called in at any given time. it had only been their fourth date and he felt he was letting her down once more when his phone rang.

she was understanding of course. she let him know that he had to catch the bad guys. this didn’t make him feel less guilty. still he payed for lunch, dropped her off at her apartment, and heads to the office.

arriving before anyone else, aaron reads over the case file. when everyone makes their way into the round table, aaron strolls through with files. he hands everyone their own before speaking.

“i know we’ve all seen the news. mass murder in miles city, montana. six people shot and killed at the gas station.”

“robbery?” emily asked.

“no apparent motive.”

“any security footage?”

“no. no cameras, no witnesses. ballistics say we’re looking at two shooters.”

“well, something at the station must have triggered them. it doesn’t look like they had much of a plan.”

“and it may happen again. spree killers often repeat themselves.”

on the jet ride aaron couldn’t help but think about yn and the kids. it’s no surprise he had his family on his mind. he’s felt this way when he was married to haley, when they had jack, and when he started seeing yn to begin with.

it wasn’t like it was before though. now with haley gone. one of the bad guys killed his ex wife. they look jacks mother from him too young. having that happen, aaron became more nervous leaving jack. he’d been afraid something could happen to his son while he was away. someone could have taken jack from him.

that thought scared him enough. but now, having yn in his life again, having someone to love and care for again, having someone he could see a future with knowing the evil that lurks in the darkness, it haunts him that she could be taken from him too.

what’s even worse, he had a daughter. now with two kids he wanted to do everything he could to protect them. it hurts him being away from them. it breaks his heart knowing someone could snatch his family away from him in a blink of an eye.

but it motivates him to catch the psychopaths and sociopaths of this world. he will do whatever it takes to protect yn, jack, and lizzie. even if that meant being away from them for a few days.

“hotch?”

aaron looks up and sees emily frowning at him. “are you okay?” she whispers. aaron simply hums before he looks over at the case file.

when they arrived in montana, aaron gives the team assignments on what to do and where to go. aaron, derek, emily, and dave all head to the now new location where another shooting incurred.

“sorry to reroute you to billings, but last night this went down.”

“have you released a statement to the press?”

“no, but it’s already hit the air.”

“where’s the car they dumped?”

“it’s over there. agents are searching it now. one of the vics said the shooters were male and a female.”

“how many people were murdered here?”

“eight. if you add the miles city killings, we’re up to fourteen.”

“male-female teams are usually committed to pleasing each other. both mentally and physically.” emily states.

“these guys are thill killers. they’re aroused by the adrenaline rush. so they’re not gonna stop until we catch them.”

“so this is just foreplay.” dave finished.

the next day, after the team discovered they were newlyweds last night, the team was currently at the precinct.

aaron was going through the case quietly. his usual scowl on his face when his phone suddenly rings. he looks at the caller id. aaron excuses himself from the team for a moment before answering the phone.

“hey. is everything okay?” he whispers.

“yeah. lizzie just—she’s a little upset.”

aaron frowns. “what’s going on? is she okay?”

he hears static before hearing yn voice once more. “she misses you. when i told her you were at work she was a bit upset you weren’t here or we weren’t with you.”

aaron feels guilt. it’s only been a few weeks since telling lizzie aaron was her father. he loved spending every waking moment with his kids. jack was a little older so he understood a bit better. plus jack had more time with aaron. elizabeth wasn’t use to her father being around or having time with him much.

“is she asleep?”

“she’s still awake. she refuse to go down for her nap until she talks to you. sorry for calling. i tried to explain that you were probably busy.”

“it’s okay, yn. let me speak with her.”

“lizzie, baby, daddy’s on the phone.”

aaron hears static once more before hearing his little girl sniffle. “daddy?”

“hi, princess. why are you crying?”

“mama said you’re workin’ didn’t say bye, daddy. miss you.”

aaron smiles sadly. “i miss you too, sweetie. im sorry i didn’t get to say goodbye. just—dad got called into work.”

“you catchin’ bad guys?”

“yeah, baby. im catching the bad guy. so i had to go somewhere to find the bad guys, hmm? but i will be back.”

“promise, daddy? you gotta come back and give me, mama, and jack kisses.”

aaron chuckles. “yes, princess. and you’ll all get all the kisses from me, yeah? you know i love you but you gotta be a big girl for me, hmm? you gotta take a nap or you’ll be cranky if you don’t. can you do that for me?”

“okay, daddy. love you too.”

suddenly aaron hears yn voice once more. “thank you, aar.”

“of course! call me anytime, yn. i don’t care what im doing or where im at. you, jack, and lizzie come first.”

suddenly it was silent before he hears a silent whisper. “thanks. i should put her to bed. ill—ill call you later.” she states before ending the call.

aaron slowly walks back into the room. he stands behind the door when he hears his name.

“come on rossi, somethings up with hotch. he’s been weird the last few months.” derek states.

“more like the last year.” emily mumbles.

“stay out of it, kids. he’ll tell you when he’s ready.”

“we just wanna know if the rumors are true? ever since haley—he hasn’t been the same. fair he’s gone through a lot but quitting the bau?!”

aaron frowns. he knew their were rumors but he didn’t think it spread this bad. he wasn’t ready for the team to know about his personal life. he was just starting to feel like he’s gotten a second chance at life. after almost losing jack he wouldn’t be taking any chances with yn or lizzie. he couldn’t keep jack hidden, the team knew and so many people in the world knew—due to being in the news many times after foyet—he was gonna do everything in his power to protect yn and lizzie from the world. if that meant keeping a secret or two from his team, he’s willing to sacrifice that.

aaron suddenly walks back into view. the team goes quiet. he pretends that he didn’t hear them. he didn’t want to open those can of worms just yet.

when aaron suddenly received another call he knew it was another crime scene. he gathered his team and they headed out.

when they arrived he aaron was disgusted by the scene. he gained his composure before he spoke to dave.

“so they steal the liquor from the gas station, they go on a binge, and then they come to a meeting?”

“what if the unsubs met at a meeting? they hear each others stories and develop a bond because of their similar backgrounds.” dave suggest

“that makes sense. people typically drink to excess because they’re unhappy with themselves or their past.”

“from the looks of it it looks like one of the unsubs shot from up front.”

“if the meeting started at eight and this happened at eight forty five then they were probably in the sharing portion of the meeting.”

“so maybe they didn’t come in here to kill.” derek buts in.

“what if they really are struggling with sobriety? if they’re really working the program they could be working on the hardest steps.”

“which are?” aaron asked spencer.

“seven, eight, and nine. acknowledge your shortcomings, accept responsibility, and make amends. the trouble is, these unsubs already broke one of the most important steps.”

“what’s that?”

“the thirteenth step. members aren’t suppose to get in a relationships with each other when trying to get sober.”

the team gathers outside to deliver the profile. the police officer and detectives gather around as they begin speaking.

once they finish giving the profile they continue trying to figure the unsubs out, throwing out theories and ideas to each other.

emily ends up calling penelope. they were trying to figure out who the unsubs could potentially be. emily asking penelope to trace who accessed the alcohol anonymous meeting they attended yesterday.

“three people went to that website, one on a mobile and two on dsl.”

“cross check they with a list of anyone married in montana in the last two days.”

“no, no, im coming up empty.”

“see if anyone on the list who access the site is from north dakota.”

“bingo, baby. ray donovan of devils lake.”

“ironic.”

“whats his story?” aaron asked.

“he is twenty-seven. he’s been in and out of foster care since he was ten. he looks like kind of a lush and a bit of a meanie. he’s has two duis in the last two years. he was slapped with a restraining order by an ex-girlfriend.”

“sounds like our boy.”

“whats her name? she might be his partner.”

“no, she’s not. her names amy wichowsky. she died a year ago of an overdose from a mix of alcohol and heroin.”

“garcia, give us the address to the foster home. somebody there might know something.”

“sure. give me a sec.”

once the catches sydney and ray they expected for them not to surrender. they knew both unsubs were too far gone and likely to commit suicide by getting the cops to kill them.

they figured ray most likely took matters in his own hands when it came to killing sydney. after finding out she’s the reason amy died, it wasn’t hard to put those pieces together.

when the case was over and they were all on the jet back home, aaron was ready to get back home to yn and the kids. he looks up and sees dave holding a glass of scotch and hands it to him.

aaron takes the glass as dave sits beside him. “so, im assuming you heard the team gossip about you?”

aaron nods his head slowly.

“they’re just concerned, aaron. it’s been a year, they’re profilers, they notice things. when are you gonna tell ‘em?”

aaron shakes his head before shrugging. “i don’t know, dave. it’s not—it’s not that simple.”

dave nods understandably.

“i lost so much the last year. so did jack. it may have only been a year but jack, he’s grown attached to yn and he adores his sister. i can’t begin to imagine what it’ll be like if he lost either. i—i can’t imagine what id do if i lost him, yn, or lizzie.”

“aaron, the team will be fine. not knowing about lizzie and yn for a long time. they’ll be okay with you laying low and keeping your family private,”

aaron stayed silent. he knew it was a but coming along.

“but they’re more than just the team. we’re all more than just a team. we’re a family and families get worried whenever someone they love feels distraught or distant. i will understand if you decide to take this with you to your grave. i just worry this secret is eating you up inside. besides, you know the team would do absolutely anything and everything in their power to protect lizzie and yn as much as they protect jack.” dave nods his head before leaving aaron to think.

when they finally land he doesn’t even go to the office. he’d normally head straight back to work but he wanted to see his family immediately.

emily follows him to the parking lot. she looked like she was equally in a rush.

“heading somewhere?”

aaron looks at her with his normal scowl. “i am. you?”

“i—i have something important to do.”

aaron knew it was more to the story. he didn’t push though. he had his secrets and he wanted to hold on to it just as much as emily held to hers.

they both go their separate ways. when aaron arrives to his apartment he was met with jack and jess. “something smells good.”

“daddy!” jack runs to his dad. aaron hugs his son immediately. jess was still in the kitchen finishing dinner.

aaron holds his son as he goes on and on about how the last few nights with in school and with his auntie jess. when aaron was home he made sure his attention was on his family. whenever jack told him about his day he nodded along and made sure he jack knew he was listening to.

now with lizzie he did the same. he needed his kids to know they would always be top priority. work could wait when they needed him at.

“and auntie jess and i went to pick up lizzie. we got to go to the park while yn and jane had to work.”

“that’s great buddy! im glad you got to spend time with your sister.” aaron starts. “why don’t we go wash our hands, yeah? auntie jess is about done with dinner.”

jack simply nods his head as aaron sets him down. he runs to the bathroom, giving his dad and aunt time to talk.

“thanks for taking on lizzie. yn told me she was called into work.”

“aaron, lizzie is your daughter. she’s a huge part of jacks life which means she’s a huge part of mine. im willing to take her any time.”

aaron nods his head. he knew jess would treat his daughter like family. jess was haley sister, sure, but she was also like his sister as well. even after the divorce and haley’s death, jess stood beside aaron.

unlike haley’s other family members. haley’s father and older brother never liked aaron. the moment haley brought him home they gave aaron the cold shoulder. when he proposed they were the ones to tell haley she was making the biggest mistake of her life.

it took haley’s mom to force her husband and son to come to their wedding. jess and haley’s mom loved aaron unconditionally. they were the ones to make him feel welcome and apart of the family. when haley’s mom died it changed everything.

aaron was no longer welcome in the brooks household. haley stopped coming to family gatherings or holiday dinners because aaron was shunned. aaron would tell her that he’d be okay if she went without him. she wouldn’t have any of it.

when they had jack, haley was very reluctant to let her father and brother in his life. aaron was the one to tell her that jack deserves to know his uncle and grandfather. since aaron never saw his own parents in years and sean was barely around.

jack deserved to have at least haley’s family around.

now with lizzie, it was a bit more complicated. aaron’s family wasn’t exactly great people and he knew your own history. he wanted lizzie to have that kind of connection.

it made him think a lot of what dave said. aaron may not be close to his parents or brother but he had the team. jack even thought of them as aunts and uncles. he had family who loved and adored him and his son. someone who’s willing to protect him with their lives. lizzie deserved that just as much.

“you okay?” jess frowns at aaron.

“yeah, sorry. you’re gonna stay for dinner? i would hate for you to not eat the dinner you just cooked for us.”

jess smiles but shakes her head. “i have leftovers at home. besides, it’s just mac and cheese.”

aaron nods his head understandably. jess grabs her purse.

“jack! come say goodbye to aunt jess.”

jack runs into the living room and hugs jess. “bye, aunt jess.”

“bye, baby. love you. bye aaron.” jess waves before leaving.

“ready for dinner?”

“yeah.”

aaron had been up all day and night. the team had been trying to figure out emily’s connection to ian doyle.

while they were discussing the case aaron grabs his cell and dials emily’s number. he walks over to emily’s desk and finds her phone, badge, and gun.

“guys.” aaron holds everything out for the team to see.

“she left her badge and gun? why would she do that?” derek questioned.

“that doesn’t make sense. why run? we’re her family. we can help.”

“doyle’s killing families. she’s not married. not close to relatives. he was ready to wipe us out. she ran to protect us.” dave finished.

this brought aaron back to the night he immediately went home. emily was equally in a rush.

he didn’t questioned it. he should have! he should have known something was wrong with emily the last few weeks. all the sighs were there. aaron couldn’t believe someone else from his family was in danger.

it made him think about the conversation him and dave had on the jet that night. he knew if anything happened to emily he’d hate that she didn’t meet his daughter. he’d hate that he didn’t get to introduce yn to her. he knew they’d get along.

he knew once he finds emily he was gonna tell the team about his kid and the woman he loves. he was gonna introduce lizzie and yn to the team officially.

the decision to fake emily’s death didn’t go lightly. aaron and jj knew the risk. they knew how it could affect the team. ultimately they needed to keep emily safe.

faking her death and having her hid out in paris was emily’s choice.

though it was really hard and difficult, it was the right call. aaron also decided to keep yn and lizzie private a little while longer.

with doyle knowing who the team was, including the private lives of the team, he had to keep his family safe. the less that the team knows the better.

what was hard for him is not being able to go out with yn, lizzie, or even jack publicly. until they catch ian doyle, he wasn’t gonna take the risk of him hurting them.

he knew he was mostly after emily. but he wasn’t about to test being seen with his kids and yn just in case. he wasn’t going to allow another unsub to hurt his family.

getting back to work was another factor. when they had a case in portland, oregon, the team had been extremely distracted and distant.

they managed the find the unsub, ben foster. he was pleased the team kept it together. he knew he still needed to discuss the ‘death’ of emily with them.

he just didn’t know how to approach them or what exactly to say. he knew he had to put on this shield so the team wouldn’t suspect anything. even with his signature scowl and neutral stance, they were profilers. anything out of the ordinary could bring questions.

aaron was sitting across from derek. derek stares at aaron before leaning back on the couch and sighing.

“so i came in here to do what? talk about losing emily?” derek scoffs and shakes his head before continuing. “strauss put you up to this?”

“the assessments routine. i asked her to let me do it rather than bringing somebody in from the outside.”

“so let me guess—it’s about the five stages of grief. you want to figure out where we are. hmm?” derek asked. he looks at aaron before rubbing his palms against his legs. “alright. denial. im fine, this can’t be happening to me. well, it didn’t happen to me, did it? so that rules that out. what else is there? bargaining, depression, acceptance. obviously i haven’t accepted it otherwise i wouldn’t be in here. so where does that leave me?”

“angry.” aaron states.

“angry. yeah. yeah, sometimes i feel like i want to quit my job and spend my time chasing down the son of a bitch who killed emily. you’re damn right im angry.” derek states. he shakes his head before continuing.

“sixty seconds. if i had just gotten there sixty seconds earlier, emily might still be with us.”

“derek, you know that you did everything you could.”

“yeah, yeah, i know. i did everything i could. we all did. I know. what, that’s suppose to make me feel better?”

“you protected each other for years. don’t expect this to go away anytime soon. this what? this what? this guilt?”

“just because you were the last one there doesn’t mean that you could affect the outcome. we all wish we had that kind of control.”

“so what do we do? we just chalk it up to fate? what, i can’t blame anybody? what, this is the will of god? no. i do blame somebody. i blame doyle. hotch, what am i supposed to do to do? she was my friend. i lost my friend right in front of me. and im suppose to go on like nothing happened? you know we, um—we come in here and talk to you. where do you go? where are you in all of this?”

“the same place as you. wishing she was here.”

next he interviews penelope. he knew out of everyone it would be slightly easier for her to open up. penelope always wore her emotions on her sleeves.

as soon as she sat down she spoke. not leaving aaron a moment to say anything.

“i get it. we’re a family, and it’s important that families talk, and holding it in will just make this sick, sad feeling of awfulness more awful. right?”

aaron nods his head. “internalizing does make it worse.”

“ill talk, but i don’t want to talk about her being gone. can i talk about how she made me smile?”

“of course.” aaron nods his head.

penelope smiles before she spoke about the good memories she had with emily. aaron listen intensely. he nods her head and smiles at the memories penelope had with emily.

once she finished aaron was going to speak again before penelope says something he wasn’t expecting.

“i think she’d like her, sir. yn, i mean.”

aaron gives her a small smile. “you think?”

“em—she thought of you like—like her stoic older brother,”

aaron smiles once more. “when haley died it affected the team. emily saw it though, she saw how distraught you were out of everyone and she tried to be there for you. she knew haley meant the world to you but she—she felt like you were grieving differently. she saw you grieving a friend and the mother of your only child—as far as she knew—and not as the woman you were in love with. i think deep down she knew. she knew their was someone else you loved. others you were trying to protect.”

aaron nods his head. despite emily being protected, he didn’t tell her about yn or lizzie. when this was over he wanted to tell the team together.

“i think they’d get along, sir. yn—from what ive seen—please don’t be mad i stalked her socials—seems lovely. she looks kind and she’s a bit of a badass. she’s been through a lot yet she’s so strong. i know yn and emily would’ve gotten along and she’d adore your daughter.”

“i think so too. thanks for sharing garcia.”

“thank you, sir.”

next was spencer. spencer had silently grieved emily. he’d put all his energy into work or a case they’d been on.

aaron knew he’d been going to see jj almost everyday. crying on her shoulders. letting out all the bent up emotions he’d been holding in.

“the last time i was on a couch like this was when my father left. they all thought i needed to talk, but developmentally i wasn’t guided by conscience. i could only reveal what my mother and teachers told me was acceptable.”

“you told them exactly when you knew they wanted to hear. you don’t have to do that here.”

spencer takes a deep breath as he looks down. “it’s just unfair she’s gone. it’s like if we can’t keep each other safe, then why are we even doing any of this?”

aaron knew he couldn’t say anything. he knew if he uttered the words, if he told spencer, if he discussed with anyone other than jj, it could kill emily. he had to keep his mouth shut.

seeing spencer like this broke his heart. spence was like a son to him. he hated seeing the genius emotionally distressed.

“sometimes i think maybe—maybe gideon was right, you know? maybe it’s just not worth it.”

aaron shakes his head. his heart breaking a little. spencer was too young to feel that way. too young to give up on his dreams. he was too smart to quit on something he worked so hard on.

aaron would do anything and everything in his power to make spencer feel like his work mattered. he mattered. 

the last person he talked to was dave. when the sun set and the moon lit up, aaron poured them a glass of liquor.

dave raised his glass up. “there are benefits to meeting after hours.” he states before taking a sip.

aaron was holding his own glass. “you know everyone’s feeling it and nobody wants to talk about it.”

“it’s too soon, aaron. you know that better than anyone. and, uh, doesn’t strauss usually run these assessments?”

“there was no way that was gonna happen.”

dave scoffs. “yeah, i didn’t think so. and i also know that you grieve privately. but you’ve been through more than any of us in a very short time. how you holding up?”

“im alright. i think its an ongoing process. this is not my assessment. im suppose to be asking how you’re doing.”

“ive always had trouble letting people in. but this is different. i guess ive come to realize—im more married to this team than i ever was to my three ex wives.”

aaron laughs at that. “it’s been a hard year. we’ll get through it.”

“yeah. we will.” dave raised his glass. “emily and haley.”

aaron raised his glass before both men take a sip.

that night, when aaron arrives home he knew yn stayed over. she’d offer to watch jack since jess was busy.

he expected her to be sleeping. to his surprise she was wide awake in the living room reading a book. aaron smiles before setting his briefcase and walking over to her.

“hi.” he whispered. he knew the kids were asleep. and knowing lizzie is a light sleeper he didn’t want to wake her.

“hi. how was work. didn’t you have that assessment today? seeing how your team is after losing a member?”

aaron hums as he sits beside yn. he wraps his arms around her before kissing the top of her head.

“i did.”

yn runs her hands up and down his shoulders. “how’s everyone? i know it has to be difficult. losing someone you cared so much about.”

aaron nods.

“how about you? how are you feeling? it’s—it must be really difficult for you. with losing haley and emily not too far apart. this can’t be easy on you, aar. did you talk to someone about it?”

“im okay.”

yn shakes her head. she wasn’t accepting that answer. aaron knew she’d want him to open up to her. let her in.

that’s one thing they’ve discussed about moving forward in their relationship. things may have been going slow—aaron hasn’t even kissed her yet—but yn discussed she wanted clear communication. if they were going to work they needed to talk to one another.

“i—it’s hard. im suppose to protect everyone on the team. i feel like i failed. i should have seen the signs. emily had shown sighs of distress for awhile and i didn’t ask questions or—i should have known better.”

aaron was being completely honest. though emily was alive and well he still felt guilt. he blamed himself that this happened in the first place. if only he’d talk to emily, pushed her into opening up, payed more attention, maybe she wouldn’t have to hide out and his team wouldn’t feel this loss.

“don’t do that, aar. don’t blame yourself. i am sure you did everything you could. i know your team probably blamed themselves and you told them otherwise. im telling you the same.”

aaron smiles lovingly at her. he didn’t deserve this second chance she was offering him. she was too perfect in his eyes.

he wanted nothing but to kiss her. he missed the taste of her lips. he felt like this was the best way to show her how much he loved her, how willing he is to give her everything, how desperate he is for her.

he gently caresses her cheek. he looks back and forward between her eyes and lips, silently asking permission to kiss her. she blushes and nods her head. aaron slowly leans in.

when their lips connected for the first time in four years it felt like the very first time. sparks were flying as they poured their emotions into each other lips. aaron couldn’t believe he gets to be with yn like this again.

when she pulls away he opens his eyes to see her smiling just as big as he is. “that was—”

“everything i missed. i swear, yn. i will not fuck this up again.” he whispers to her. she hums.

aaron knew it would take time for her to believe and trust him again. he had a lot of work to do and was willing to spend the rest of his life proving to her he was in. yn, jack, and lizzie are the three most important people in his life and he’d sacrifice himself to protect them.

“should we get some rest?”

aaron nods his head. “ill—ill take the couch. you can sleep in my bed.”

yn shakes her head. “don’t be ridiculous. we—i don’t mind sharing.”

aaron heart beats faster than usual. “you sure?”

she smiles and nods her head. aaron sits up slowly and grabs her hand. they both slowly walk into aaron’s bedroom hand and hand.

after aaron changes into his sleeping clothes and gets into bed, yn scoots closer to him. aaron wraps his arms around her before kissing the top of her head.

“goodnight, aar.”

“goodnight, yn.”

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first meeting

mornings

first time

one

two

celebrity news/interviews

tmz reports

l’official usa

yn on jimmy fallon live

award interview

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insta one

insta two

insta three

insta four

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story in chronological order

- first meeting (march 18th, 2023)

- mornings (july 17th, 2023)

- first time (july 29th, 2023)

- insta one (february 10th, 2024)

- insta two

- insta three

- tmz reports (april 3rd, 2024)

- insta four

- l’official usa (april 17, 2024)

- insta five

- yn on jimmy fallon live

- insta six (june 1st, 2024)

- insta seven

- insta eight

- award interview

- insta twelve (august 13th, 2024) 

- two (september 10th, 2024)

- insta nine

-insta ten

- one (october 1st, 2024)

- insta eleven

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