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sydney mortimer laurence / frank carter and the rattle snakes / jane austen / myself / charles bukowski / tony kushner / myself / sandy copier & virginia woolf / julia andreevna petrova / brick and mortar

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lights always shine brighter in contrast

every sliver i find

i hoard away

into my little box of keep sakes

not everything fits in the curves of my hands

i find myself holding

to empty bottles and glass

i have tried to fill with refraction

illusions that leave in the pitch

if i could collect the moon for us

simple like fire flies

id give you a jar to put in your box too

a ray for me and you

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i am in control; this body isn't mine

i am in control; i am not scared to pilot this vessel into the ground

i am in control; i am not here

through the souls of my boots

through the cement

down the walls

i am counter weighted

where would i go if nothing was holding me down?

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"I think I'm most afraid of Just be careful. I'm most afraid of the Long Drop. I'm most afraid of Asleep and impending weightless doom."

"I'm most afraid of me."

- All The Bright Places

i am just some guy trying to make shit work when it really wont sometimes. consider this the journal i write all those stupid thoughts that i end up burning later

i am trying to remember:

i'm alive

i'm real

i'm awake

i cannot fall.

i cannot drown.

DISGRESSION: suicidal ideation, drug use/addiction, mental spiraling, and more. im an adult expressing my emotions, if thats scary you can leave

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#jpe.pic = photography

#jpe.txt = ramblings

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