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danses-with-dogmeat · 2 years ago
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wait omg can i request joshua for the praise thing?? it's so cute i think i'm gonna pass out /pos (gn!six please)
Joshua Graham Reacts to g/n! Six Giving him Praise
Ahh yes! I'm so glad you enjoyed it, that piece was just too darn sweet to write, honestly.
Sorry it took so long to come out, but here it is! I hope you like it! 😁
Also, here's the original ask as well:
"I just have to ask you for a few characters 👉👈 Porter Gage, Hancock, Raul, Charon and Gob ack don't call me out for my ghoul loving ass just getting showered in praise. I just feel the ghouls don't GET enough lovin', they are all wonderful, handsome and great men."
And here is the link to the full post!
I'm gonna add Joshua to the full post as well, btw :3
“Joshua?” Your voice carried smoothly over the sand, through the hot, dry air. But Joshua didn’t stir, he didn’t even seem to register his name. 
“You okay?” You pressed forward, craning your neck as you took a couple steps in his direction, trying to see what it was in the creek that had caught his attention so fully. 
“Did you… find something?” You bent down as you reached Joshua’s side, noting the way his unblinking eyes seemed glued to… nothing. Nothing, but his own reflection, staring back with the same intensity. 
The sand shifted beneath you as you settled by Joshua’s side. He noticed you, out of the corner of his eye, but remained silent. 
What could he say? 
How could he speak all that he was thinking, as he peered down at his scarred and bandaged face? Could he voice the way that he feels? So unworthy of your devotion to him, so confused as to why you stay by his side, so appreciative that you care for him the way you do, but so wholly afraid that if he speaks his fears, that they will come true. That, as soon as you come to your senses, as soon as the novelty of being with him fades, you will leave…
Who could love a face like mine? And more… Who could love the man that this face belongs to? A man who has done so much wrong, that his sins could only be absolved through the most violent forms of suffering? And even still… Am I truly free of them? 
He did not feel it. 
“I... am not worthy…” The missionary began quietly, and saw your head snap towards him as the words met your ears. “I am not worthy of even the least of all the deeds of steadfast love and all the faithfulness you have shown me.”
“What?” You asked, your brows furrowing as you shifted your body to face him, rather than the stream of water below. 
“It’s a line from Genesis." He attempted to clarify, "Jacob is speaking to God, speaking to him of his own humility in response to the devotion that the Lord has shown him.”
Your brows didn’t unfurrow. 
“And that… That has to do with…?” 
“I’m not…” Joshua’s jaw clenched as his eyes finally left his own watery visage in favor of hiding behind his downed lids. 
“I’m not sure why I said it. The quote just… came over me.” He lied, knowing full-well that the words had everything to do with you. 
If I tell you that I feel unworthy of you, will that start something? Will that plant the idea in your mind that I don’t deserve you? Will you then act on that idea?
“Hey.” 
He felt your touch upon his shoulder as your voice met his ears, it was light, but unyielding as your fingers clenched at the bandages insistently. 
“You can talk to me.” You smiled as Joshua’s eyes opened and his gaze landed upon your face, and he wasn’t immune to it. Nor your words, and all that they promised. 
Love rejoices with the truth.
“I’m humbled by you, Six. Humbled by the love you show me every day, and I feel… As Jacob did with the love of God. I feel unworthy of you.”
He felt your grip tighten upon his shoulder as sadness flooded your expression. It pained him to know he was the source of the strife he saw in your eyes.
“Sometimes it’s easy to forget who I am, what I’ve done… What I look like, when I’m beside you, but then, my reflection finds me. Then as I look upon your face, as I remember your deeds and your devotion to me, your kindness to others... I cannot help but feel confused.”
“Joshua, I–” 
He continued insistently, his scarred brow hardening over the intense blue of his eyes as you saw them spark with fire from within.
“I have erred more times than I could possibly count, and yet, each is written upon me, like a shouted word, etched into my very skin for all the world to see. For all who gaze upon me to pity me and my failures, to hate my deeds and to agree that I am unworthy of compassion and repentance. That I am unworthy of happiness, and certainly, of love. They see you beside me, and they know, simply by seeing me, that I am unworthy of you.” 
Joshua’s hand traveled slowly up to grasp at yours. Your eyes were wide and glistening as he gently took hold of you, and removed your touch from him. 
The air was utterly caught in your throat as your partner released your hand from his grip and stood beside you, his gaze resting back on the reflection in the running water that marred his covered features even further with each ripple over the small, jagged river stones that weren’t yet smoothed over by the current. 
“But it seems that you’ve failed to note this. Whether by choice, or simply because you are too righteous to see such things, you’ve still stood by me, even despite all that I’ve done, and that I am... I had to be sure you know the truth, Six. So that you can make your own decision about me, about our relationship… And you can find the words and inspiration you need to leave me behind, and to move on to better things. To be with someone who deserves you.” 
And truth will set you free.
The thought sprung unbidden into Joshua's mind.
I don't feel free.
But perhaps... Perhaps, now, Six can.
Still, you sat in the sand, in shock at everything that had just left your partner, the man you love, and have loved happily for the months you’ve been together.
Where had it all come from?
One moment you’re making camp, waiting for Joshua to collect water, dusting off the fabric of your tent, laying out the bedrolls close enough to later rest in his embrace all through the night, and now he… what? Wants you to leave him?
What changed?
Joshua made a move to step away from you, to leave you kneeling there, alone, beside the river that had apparently inspired these harsh words that encouraged even harsher actions, but you would not stand for it.
You could not. 
“I won’t leave you, Joshua.” You got to your feet as he paused his steps, and he tilted his head towards you, to better hear your words. To hear the justification that he was sure would be well-meant, but ultimately, unfounded. 
“Why?” He whispered, and you got the sense that he was going to speak more, that he would continue monologuing until he convinced himself further that you do not belong with him, even when you know that, beyond all reason, you do.
“Because Joshua, because..." You took a breath as righteous words filled your mind, "'You are precious in my eyes, and honored, and… I love you.' That quote comes from the book of Isaiah. And it’s God speaking to Jacob, telling him that this is why men are worthy of him, and why, even if they’re not, they’re still deserving of unconditional love, even by one as divine and perfect as God.” 
Joshua’s eyes were the ones widening now, and his body turned so that he could face you fully once again. 
“Now, I’m not saying that I’m perfect, but… If God can stand to love you, if he can keep you here, after all you’ve been through, if he can promise you life, even after going through what should’ve meant your death tenfold, then can’t I do the same? Can’t I promise you a life with me, can’t I love and accept you for who you are, no matter what anyone else thinks?” 
Joshua’s light eyes were glistening as they fixed on the sand below him, and you couldn’t help but step forward to try and draw his attention back to you. 
I had to sit through your monologue of self-hatred. Now it’s your turn to listen to all the reasons your words were wrong.
I won’t have you tuning me out.
“After living a life so devoid of it, there’s no one I can think of who’s more worthy of love and compassion than you.” 
You placed both hands on either side of his face, gently urging his eyes to meet yours. 
“Everything you’ve done, Joshua… You’ve been made to pay for. Just as you said, it’s all written upon your body, but it’s here too.” You dragged one palm down to rest over his chest. It was warm to the touch, even through the layers of his bandages and clothes. 
“And here.” The fingers of your other hand brushed over his temple, then his forehead. 
“You’ve paid for it enough. With these horrible thoughts, these feelings of unworthiness plaguing you, every mark upon your skin, all the pain you feel every day. Trust me, my love, you've paid for it. Now… I think God and I both just want you to know peace.” 
Joshua’s hands rose to delicately collect yours, to pull them down in between your bodies. But he didn’t release them from his grasp this time, only held them there, embracing you as much as he could allow himself as his mind still swirled with turmoil. 
“But why?" He asked, "You don’t have to be with me. No one is requiring it of you; and with another, everything would be so much easier. You could be happy… Happier than I can make you.”
“Why you?” You almost laughed at him, it seemed so obvious within the confines of your own mind, the mind that was almost always occupied with thoughts of him only. “I love you, Joshua. I love how you speak to me, how you respect me and want me in your life. I love that I’m able to help you, but you… You’ve helped me more than I think you know.” 
“How?” His voice was so desperate for an answer, it was almost demanding.
“Ever since I woke up from that grave… I didn’t really have a purpose. I didn’t know who I was, didn’t have anyone in my life to turn to, I didn’t have a path... but you gave me one. With you, I could help people in ways I never imagined. You were always so sure of your own path, that it inspired me to be sure of it too. To become a part of your path.”
You could feel your hands shaking where he held them between you. Your whole body was trembling with insistence, begging him to take your words to heart.
Everything about this night that the two of you were sharing once pointed to normalcy. Making camp, divvying out duties, feeling the warmth of the fire against the cool desert air, hearing the wind sweep over the dunes of sand; it was like so many other nights spent with one another. You hadn’t expected to have this conversation, hadn’t thought you’d be fighting tooth and nail to get your partner to understand how deeply you cared for him, how much you couldn’t stand the thought of leaving him, let alone ever consider it without his knowledge. But it was happening, and now this night was so much more important than all those others, because if you fail… It could be the end of all of this. This bliss that you’ve taken for granted. 
You’d survived without him for months before you ever met him, you could find happiness without Joshua, you knew that, but… With him, you didn’t have to look for happiness. With him, it surrounded you. 
“You have made my heart beat faster with a single glance of your eyes,” You said quietly, and even with the linen wraps covering Joshua's visage, you could see the way he softened at your words. “You made me love you more with every word you spoke. I can’t imagine who I’d be now without you, and I don’t want to.” 
Your hands tightened within his grasp, and you pulled his body closer to yours as your eyes stayed locked to his mesmerizing gaze.
 “Darling… in all my life, I’ve never been happier than when I’m with you. Believe me.” 
You insisted, and then you leaned forward even further, and kissed him. 
The thin linen obstructed you a bit, but it didn’t matter. You could feel the heat of him through it, sense the shape of his lips as they moved against yours, as they relented to your touch, and to your words. As he let you love him. 
Joshua’s hands released yours, allowing you to press yourself closer to him as you felt his touch upon your hip, and around the nape of your neck. In the same movement, your arms smoothed over his chest to grasp at his shoulders. He took a deep breath in through his nose, as though he’d been devoid of oxygen until you pressed yourself to him, and you felt the warm puff of air pass through his bandages and caress your face as he exhaled. Subtly, you could taste him through the barrier, the sweetness of cactus fruit, and the tartness of the healing powder he mixed into the water he drank. You sighed into him at the familiarity of it all. His touch, his taste, his burning warmth that sometimes felt unnaturally hot. Enough so, even, that it could scar you in return. 
And though it never had, Joshua hadn’t ever left any physical blemishes upon your skin from his touch, from his love of you, you were certain that you hadn’t gone completely unmarked by him. Like the words he spoke, like the thoughts and actions he inspired, like the emotions that surrounded him in your mind, his mark was within you. And all of that, all of his influence, his own love for you in return, that you felt was as permanent as any scar left upon his own skin. 
“Thank you,” You felt Joshua whisper against you as you parted, but remained pressed to one another. “Thank you, Six, for all that you have given me. I… I still do not feel worthy of it, but, I will do what I can to change that. No matter how long it takes.” 
“Mm.” You hummed, a grin touching your lips as you pressed your forehead to his and closed your eyes, soaking in the simple feel of him. “And I’ll be right here. Right beside you, all the way.” 
You felt the outline of his own smile as Joshua leaned forward, and captured your lips with his once again.
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zenythycal · 2 months ago
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Flesh for Kindling
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sunfishsiestalah · 6 months ago
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don't talk to me i'm in my whatsapp aunty era
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dotssu3 · 8 months ago
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yesssss...
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sacreblugh · 5 months ago
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joshua graham ain't playing with the matching snakeskin booties, pistol grip, and belt 🙀🙀
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streetfrightmanifesto · 3 months ago
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I LOVE SMUG VULPES!!!!
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thekingpengu · 4 months ago
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malapis legate
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feeshies · 5 months ago
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send any criticisms to my venmo thx
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toffee32 · 5 months ago
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Prodigal Son
to match this Edward
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unsaiiinted · 3 months ago
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[ SKIN BONE SINEW ]
good luck!
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suniverse-art · 14 days ago
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who up joshin their graham
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danses-with-dogmeat · 2 years ago
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🦀 👑 for our Mormon boy Joshua please! "I'm not afraid of you."
Oooohhhhh this is a good one! And perfect for Joshua too, omg.
Writing for this dramatic man is so much fun, I can't--
I also know he's a horrible person, but I always feel like his partner would overlook that and have similar philosophies as him
But anyway, morals aside, I hope you like it! 😁
Your hand shook as you reached for him, the soft sound of air puffing through Joshua's covered mouth the only noise in the still and silent tent. Wary eyes stayed locked to his closed ones, your own breath held tightly in your lungs as your fingers brushed over the linen that was firmly secured over the swell of his cheekbones.
His scars were barely visible, but as the fabric was slowly pulled away, the dark, ravaged flesh was revealed to you inch by inch. Your lungs began to burn as you neglected them, your attention only on the way the linen gave way beneath your unraveling fingers, your eyes wide and glossy as your throat tightened with emotion, with sympathy, with hurt that bordered on physical pain. Slowly, you released a breath, the air shaking as it left you, passing ever so lightly over the exposed skin of your partner where he lay beneath you.
You blinked once, a necessary action after your eyes' unrelenting contact with the sleeping man in front of you, and when they opened, they were met with his own icy gaze, and your wrist was met with one linen-covered hand as it grasped you tightly to halt your movement.
"Six." He said, his voice low.
A gentle warning.
Your gaze darted to Joshua's lips as he spoke your name, now as exposed as the bridge of his nose had been, as those eyes that barred your movement have been since the day you met him.
"Enough." His hand pulled yours away from his face, and the linen slipped from your fingers dejectedly.
"Why?" You whispered, your brows scrunched with the injury his words were inflicting upon you. "Why can't I see you?"
Joshua looked down in thought, his scarred lips a thin line as he sat up in his bedroll. The thin sheet covering his torso fell down to his lap, exposing the same such linen wrapped tightly about his toned chest, which rose and fell heavily as he sighed.
"Such things are not worth seeing."
"I think I'll be the judge of that." You snapped, more harshly than perhaps you meant to. "How can you tell me what I would or wouldn't like to see?"
Joshua's brows hardened over his light eyes, and even with the way the ruined flesh of his nose seemed to melt down his face, you could see the way his nostrils flared.
"These scars are a testament to my sins, my love. A monument to all of the wrong I've done in my life, every affront to my religion, to the morals that I should have been adhering to all along. The ones that, in my pursuit of selfishness and power, I've not only ignored, but knowingly and violently disregarded."
Pain shone in his eyes as he flinched with every word passing through his lips, as his memory transported him to that infamous day, that gruesome fall that would've destroyed any man but him.
"My skin is a map of my failures that I would not subject you to. It's the guise of a sinner, of an apostate who betrayed everything he was meant to stand for. That he vowed to stand for. It's the skin of a man, of a monster, that you never could've loved."
"No." You told him firmly, no more than half a moment passing before your mind was made up, your words decided. "This is the skin of the man I love. A man whose been through hell and come out more devout than anyone I've known."
His hand was warm to the touch as you wrapped yours around it, caressing so delicately the covered flesh that he so despised.
"You're no monster, Joshua, and I'm not afraid of you. Or of who you once were. You had to go through that to become what you are now, and any other man I've met would've turned sour, would've given up or gotten worse than he was before, out of bitterness and hatred, but you didn't."
Your fingers moved as you spoke, the edges of the linen wrapped around his hand loosening as you slowly unraveled it.
"You returned to yourself, you gave up the way of life that led to this end, you learned and you grew. You're worth more now than you ever have been, you're stronger in will, in faith, than you ever could've been, had this not happened."
He didn't move to stop your movement, instead, he offered his hand to you as his eyes stayed locked with yours, extending his fingers to ease the process of unveiling them.
"And I love you. This you. The man you've become, the one whose had to go through so much to get to this point. I love this man, and I want to see him. Scars and all."
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stellaeono · 9 months ago
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toxicentity405 · 10 months ago
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Been a while since I posted one of these. Some of the characters were kinda hard to place in a specific category for this prompt, but I think I got it somewhat accurate lol
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dotssu3 · 5 months ago
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Good Afternoon
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sacreblugh · 3 months ago
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started this in june but forgot about it 💀💀💀
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