#jojo and firstkhao yall better pay for my therapy

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its been 12 hours since i watched it and i am still so pained by the whole thing i am finding it difficult to think of anything else. this is NOT fun. i did NOT sign up to be THIS emotionally invested. i signed up for mess but i signed up for the mess to be amusing me. not to feel like the mess is causing several ton of bricks to rest on my chest. i didnt sign up for this level of pain. i didnt sign up for flashes of the two of them while im idly sitting trying to think of literally anything.

its all my fault really. did i actually think firstkhao couldnt make me wanna rip my heart out in pain? that they couldnt do it just 5 eps in? its totally on me if i didnt see it coming ig. but gawd fck this pain sucks. i wish i could watch with more objective distance from the characters, but sadly for me im not wired that way.

if im feeling so sad at THIS, i dont frickin know how i could have handled bad buddy ep12 preview if i was watching it while it aired. i was so glad i didnt suffer like that. that was one of the reasons why i told myself i will watch this show all at once the episodes all came out. but tumblr cant talk about anything but them (LIKE I CANT RN) and i got fomo. and now here we are.

the lesson here my friends is, everything is pain, never love anything. goodbye.