#john winchester :(

[noybusiness]

Which is why I like the fresh vibe on The Winchesters between the core four.

Which episode was the tussling on the bed from, again?

[1x20]

'Cause you're following Dad's orders like a good little soldier?

a compilation of times dean did what his dad told him to in season 1. or - why sam doesn't shoot john in 1x22

[atticwifesam]

5x13 the song remains the same // 3x05 bedtime stories

[endversecastielobsessor]

I don’t see John Winchester as violently homophobic. Like if he found out Dean and Cas were dating he’d just give them weird looks and like not mention it or make vaguely disrespectful comments. I’ll still read a fic if he’s like extremely homophobic though because it’s entertaining as fuck.

[naturalsuper]

im thinking about little Sammy watching his dad and brother get drunk every other night, almost bleed out every hunt they go to, his dad yelling and smashing things whenever he gets angry, dean being the same way when john isnt there to be the angry one, watching dean fill his nights with alcohol and sex, almost getting himself killed at least once a month because he is so reckless when hunting, watching his dad start leaving them alone for longer, watching dean grow up way too fast, drop put of school and fill up the role their father was supposed to take and im just imagining little Sammy sitting there knowing exactly how abnormal all this is and feeling so so sad because he knows there is nothing he can say to help them quit, help them change because hes just a kid and they would never listen to him seriously. im imagining him crying himself to sleep because he is watching as its happening his only family slowly destroying itself

[deerainy]

I think that Dean is honestly one of the best eldest siblings ever written. I'm currently on season 9 and I'm still deeply affected by the ending of season 2. As an older sister myself who had to look after my little sister and fix up her wounds when my parents weren't around I know how it feels. It's so rare to see such a well portrayed parentified older sibling and I'm grateful for it. I particularly like how they are written, a lot of people hate Dean for his misogynistic view of women especially in the earlier seasons and honestly at first I was a little disturbed by it and then I realised it was actually so accurate, what I'm trying to say is that Dean never got to be a child, the way he jokes about literally everything and seems to be a 'womaniser' is because he wants to be noticed. I don't want anyone to start saying 'no it's because of his mommy issues' shut up it's not!!! He has to put on an act, a persona and he chose the persona of a womaniser who doesn't give a shit about anyone and doesn't care much about objectifying women in public because he wants to be seen that way. He wanted his little brother to look up to him and see a father figure. I know it doesn't make much sense really but I get it, it's hard because at the same time I'm very aware he's written by men and what I'm analysing is just my view on this but, to write a man who cries so often, who shows so often vulnerability that to men with a fragile masculinity see as 'pathetic' (aka John) seems to be opposing the other side of his character who is a douche bag, it seems to me that it was written purposely. Dean is nothing like his father, he isn't a douche with a fragile masculinity, he is vulnerable and he cares so deeply about everyone. He had to put up this persona in order to survive, because he needed to be seen as the tough guy with strength and who doesn't let women be his equal, he was playing the part of a misogynistic douche to survive. Again that's just how I see it, but his character development to me is honestly the biggest proof of that, he got tired over the years of playing this role and then Castiel arrived and I believe that he showed him that men are really nothing, that the world is much bigger than himself and I think Castiel's arrival gave him faith, it's a faith he had never had before, the proof that God exists no matter if he cares or not, he exists and that I think changed everything, he was saved by this angel who saw in him a great potential. For the first time in his life he was the first choice, he was seen as who he really is so he dropped his act and little by little became the good man he was always.

Again I'm pretty tired I should have been asleep hours ago and I'm just yapping but yeah I miss my sister and god he's so relatable, I wish an angel could save me like me when I'm tired

feel free to debate with me thehehe

i love to read too much into things like ik it's not that deep but leave me alone I like making things deep

[fallen-angel-444]

I'm watching spn season 10 and sam mentions how dean has type O blood, but in the 2nd season they very briefly mention how John's blood type is AB. It's apparently basically impossible for someone with AB blood to have a kid with type O blood, and I really like the idea that the reason john treated the two so different is because dean wasn't actually John's kid.

[stormysunday-spnj2fanlw]

I think this is the most real thing I've seen about John, lol.

hi heres a dramatic enactment of how i think dean winchester's coming out to his dad story would go:

dean: "uh dad i thought you should know i'm bi"

john: "??? 🧐🧐 and?? why are you bothering me with this?? 🫤🫤 you know I've been awake for four days transcribing this ancient text i got from some yahoo that has a 0.001% chance of leading me to find out what happened to your mother?? 😡😡 do you not realise how important this is?? AND ANYWAY why are you even in here while sammy's alone in the next room where anything could get him?? 👺👺 i don't care if he's 17 and can kill with his bare hands you need to protect him!! 🥺🥺 come back when you have coffee and advil 🙄🙄 jfc boy"

and then dean would silently walk out and they would never talk about it again

[spnseasonsgirl]

#deanwinchester #jensenackles

#samwinchester #jaredpadalecki

#samanthasmith #marywinchester

#johnwinchester #jefferydeanmorgan

#Wednesday #Winchester Wednesday

1. Samantha Smith Instagram from #SPNAustin 2024

2 & 3 Supernatural #season14 #episode13 .

#thanksgivingeve 📸

[novastaree]

Adam not being Mary's child is really important to how he was treated as a son and as a brother.

this is probably the most obvious thing ever but to me it does make sense why John never tried to introduce Adam into hunting and thats because Adam wasn't Marys kid. If Adam was Marys kid John DEFINITELY would have forced Adam into the hunting life with his brothers because the boys were made to hunt so they could track down and kill the thing that killed Mary, to get revenge so It wouldn't make sense to have someone not related to Mary join them on that. Also hunting is in the boy's blood not because of John but because of Mary so Adam didn't really have the family relation to hunting like Sam and Dean. Also since Adam was born not to Mary i imagine John wasn't too happy with himself especially since he never really let Mary rest, and that probably why he only visited him a handful of times and kept his family separate because I can't imagine Sam and Dean having a good reaction to their father basically moving on from their mother but shaping their whole lives around her death

I think that's why the brothers had their own extreme reactions to finding out they had a brother. Dean not excepting it till he had hard proof, and when he did wanted to help the kid and then probably stay away from him and then Sam who tried to have him become a hunter literally immediately, as he saw their situations similar. I think they both wanted Adam to feel what they felt growing up

[kamisobsessed]

Those of you who have been to an SPN convention, how much did you spend in total and what all did you get/do? I sooo want to go next year, and at least meet Jensen and Jared, but I know it can get pricey and I don't know if I'll have enough🥺

[angel-e-v-a]

Hello, boys.

[homosapien42069]

Wincest only works if they're fucked up

thinking about wincest and just people who ship it and like I can fully see it through a flowers in the attic type situation- like the aloneness+ John being a villain I can totally see it as a thing, but people who want to portray dean/sam as healthy, well-adjusted, and not predatory are just not living in the real world

[that-wannabe-vangoghgurl]

The way this is written - uffffffffff- chef’s kiss✨

Requested by : @whats-goingon22 : John Winchester comes back to find a fully grown daughter he does not recognize. How do they both react, knowing that John Winchester was never a good father? (Full request)

Warnings : Swear words, death of a father, and a heartbreak?

A/N : i'm so sorry 😂😭🤍 i've been wanting to develop my writing style and so writing the way " i do" has been sooo torturous. It's like you want out of your skin but you're stuck into it.

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John winchester is the ghost of your life. The fruit of one too many dreams to count.

He existed more in your sleep than he ever did in your physical life. He, in the most literal of ways shaped you, the person you are now- a blessing in some cases but mostly a curse. He was definitely In your life. Just never in a happy way, though.

The itsy bits of life you've shared with him went from dada, to daddy to father and then to sir!

One specific moment haunted you, a moment that came to look different as you grew older. Your father had you cradled in his arms, he'd held you tightly as tears streamed down your cheeks. He'd shushed you and held you tightly before turning on his heels and leaving. You'd thought you hurt him to the point that he couldn't face you anymore, but the reality of that moment was that John Winchester couldn't bear the face of terror, even on a child.

He couldn't bear the vulnerability of a child. He left because he was ashamed of your humanity.

A humanity that faded as the years went by- Even when he was still around. You could never be yourself around him and soon enough you forgot how to be yourself, how to feel. You lost a part of yourself that completely dissapeared with John's death.

But still, Just the thought of him elevated the hairs on your arms-and you thought about him a lot-it worked your stomach up in a way nothing else could have. It would stiffen your mucles and somehow work it's way to your intestines, twisting them in knots.

It physically and mentally hurt. Always. fucking. have.

But now, as you stood before him at the bottom of the bunker stairs, a different kind of pain surged through you, one you've never experienced before. Because as much as you wished you'd see him-you actually never thought you would. But there he was standing before you.

John Winchester.

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You walked down the bunker stairs, your ears pricking up to an...ambiguously familiar voice.

"Hey-"

Sam abruptly shot up from his seat, jolting your fight or flight response in the process. Curiously pushed you forward as you walked the last steps, startling when your eyes landed on him-the fourth person in the room.

And you wished they hadn't. Because as your heart pounded in your chest, you froze, you completely froze.

The bunker went quiet and....Da....D...J-Jo-John seemed to be just as confused as you were. Just as shocked.

It felt wrong seeing him, saying his name-looking at him. He looked older, somewhat wiser. His face worn down by the traces of his fights, haunting his every feature. He watched you just as you watched him back, mouth agape-

All those things you'd said to him in your dreams. All the fights you'd had with him about how badly he treated you. About the emptiness he left within you. The constant look out for that fatherly love you'd so desperately hunted for. Nowhere, because your voice had failed you.

Just then, you noticed that your chest was heaving and you...You couldn't. You couldn't be here anymore-you...You needed to breathe. And so you took off running.

The silence in your room felt hauntingly suffocating as it allowed your thoughts overflow. And you realized then- You've never ever gotten over it. Having Sam and Dean was nothing less than a blessing. But they could never seal the hole left aching.

But...but he looked different and you...you...he's here and...Maybe you should...

You leaped off bed and sprinted to the door, sticking your ear to the latter. Their voices were quite drowned but... They suddenly went quiet. Does that mean...Does that mean he's leaving again?

No...No..NO.

As you flung open the door, an "I'm ready" from the other side of the hallway caused adrenaline to rush through you. And you sprinted.

"DADDY"

A loud shout surged from your throat as you rounded the last corner, crashing into your father's arms just as a loud thump echoed throughout the room.

Sam crushing the pearl only had you grip your father's jacket tight. As if your embrace could keep him in place. Like an achor in an angry sea.

Your dad envelopped you just as tightly, each hand gripping the opposite shoulder. A firm hold-one that would usually hurt-but instead, one that only felt like a plea for forgiveness, for all the wrong doings, for the void.

But then, just like that, all the weight around your body, the weight you leaned onto vanished. And you felt light again, a physical lightness that complemented the heaviness consuming you.

You fell to the ground, just as your whole world collapsed. All those walls you build to protect yourself, all that strength you dug from god knows where. All gone.

Your chest swelled and an ugly sob broke free of you, followed by a pool of tears that begged the question : am i happy or am i sad?

As you lie there, overwhelmed, another figure leaned over you, holding you in a protective embrace, murmuring words that outpaced your own thoughts.

And although you were lost, you knew for sure that-you finally had your goodbye.

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Hii! What do we thiiink ? Hope yall enjoyed this and see you next tiime!🖤🖤🖤🥀🥀🥀

[hacked-wtsdz]

I love early seasons supernatural aesthetics so much. The isolated highways, funky motel rooms, neon signs, shiny guns and shiny cars, leather jackets, old books, through a film camera lens in seasons one and two, makes for such a specific atmosphere. It transfers the isolation Sam and Dean experience so well, cramped into the seats of a 67’ Chevy impala, claustrophobically un-alone while individually lonely. The nasty, sometimes created with horrible special effects, monsters really do look monstrous, unsettling more than outright terrifying. With yellow eyes, in dirty clothes, glitching and pale. The whole colour palette is grey-ish and cold, you almost feel the contrasted darkness, the distrust, the nagging belief that something wicked may be hiding behind every corner, behind every corner of your own self as well. Idk. The blood looks dark, the sulfur looks sickeningly yellow, the skin looks unnaturally pale. It’s all so horror-coded, and gives such an atmosphere of instability in your own existence in the world, which aligns with the themes of the seasons. This atmosphere, to me, makes it a better horror show than if it had had better special effects and scarier monsters. Because the horrifying is in the daily existence, in how you are, rather than what you face.