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thehighpriestess1 · 2 years ago

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August : 3

Summary: Gojo Satoru was a powerful man but only he knew what he had lost to gain this power.

Pairing : Gojo x y/n, Gojo x utahime

Genre : angst

Warning: yandere themes

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Utahime opened her eyes as the sun rays fell on her face. She found her fiance sleeping soundly by her side and smiled to herself as she turned towards him. He looked beautiful, almost ethereal under the morning light and she fell for him again. She loved weekends, there was no rish to make sure the breakfast was ready, no rush to keep up with her busy fiance, and above all… no empty house. She swiped away the almost silver strands of hair from his forehead and made a mental note to schedule a haircut and pressed a kiss against his forehead.

Like his sixth sense kicked in, Gojo opened his eyes as Utahime brushed hair from his forehead. He could only see the dark silhouette of the woman in front of the sunlight. Still under the wraps of hangover and fatigue, he smiled to himself, imagining the woman to be the one he desires. He was content in his hallucinations. But every dream came to an end and his’ was broken as soon as he heard her voice. “Good Morning Satoru”. Three sweet words laced with love left a bitter taste in his mouth. He was awake…more than awake now. “Utahime..”. That’s all he said as he got up and sat on his side of the bed with his back facing her. “I need to get ready for the office. What time is it?”.

“Satoru it’s saturday”. She crawled across the bed and wrapped her arms around his neck as she pressed her cheeks to his warm back. She could feel him sigh and tense up, “What happened?”.

“Nothing”. He said as he got up and made his way towards the bathroom, locking the door once inside. He never had to lock the doors but something about being with Utahime made him want to put as many barriers between them as possible. He leaned over the sink and thought about the previous night…thought about you..your smile…your scent..your warmth..you and …you and Hiro. He looked up at his reflection, even he could see the anger in his eyes as he gripped the edge of the sink when he thought about you and Hiro.

Utahime heard the bathroom door locked and felt an ache spread through her body. She knew she would never invade his space but the thought that he felt to lock the door hurt her. Brushing aside the disappointing morning she made her way towards the kitchen and gave instructions to the chef for breakfast. Today was her day with Satoru and she was going to make sure he sees that she is more than a spoiled girl.

Gojo walked down the stairs with a towel around his shoulder to catch the droplets falling from his hair. “Get me a first aid kit”. Utahime turned around on hearing his voice and her eyes widened at his hand. He was holding his hand wrapped in another white towel with red dots scattered over it. “Satoru!”. She yelled and ran towards him, the maid and the head of house staff jerry followed her. “Jerry, get me the kit. It’s just a cut”. Utahime tried holding his hand but he withdrew from her, his attention on Jerry who was kneeling in front of him picking out the ointment from the red box. “Sir, should I call a doctor?”. The middle aged man asked when Gojo winced lightly as Jerry cleaned his wound.

“No, I am fine”.

"Toru! You should get it checked!". Utahime said with her hands over her mouth.

"Utahime! I said I am fine!".

“Satoru..how did it happen?”. Utahime asked, sitting next to him. “The mirror broke, call someone and get it fixed”. Utahime would have been hurt by his cold response had she been paying attention to him, her focus was on the slant cut spreading across his palm. “I’ll go and get ready..”. She responded and turned towards the bedroom. “Ma’am be careful, there might be glass on the floor”. A maid said and Utahime looked at her fiance. She was half expecting Gojo to stop her but he didn’t. Perhaps he was in pain and didn’t pay attention to her. Utahime walked over to the bathroom and saw pieces of glass in the sink and a broken mirror. She gulped thinking what could have happened…

“Did you not like the waffles?”Utahime asked, looking at the untouched plate in front of Satoru, sitting opposite to her with phone in one hand and his cup of coffee in another. “Did you make it?”. He asked, corking an eyebrow at her.

“No”.

“Then why do you care?”. He said as he focused his attention back to his phone. His words hurt her and made her wonder whether she should have cooked him breakfast, was that what he wanted? She mentally cursed at herself for her silliness.

“I have ..movie tickets for the afternoon show. We can watch that and maybe go to the arcade …. like old times?”. Old time, times when they were just friends.

“I’m busy today”. It was the same response she had heard for 10 consecutive weekends. But this time she was not going to give up that easily. “Come on Satoru! It is the new part of that horror movie franchise you love so much!”. Gojo stopped typing and looked at her. He hated that movie but you didn’t. The only reason he watched it was you. Maybe… you’d show up too. There was one in a hundred chances of you showing up to the movie but he was willing to take it. “Fine”.

“Thanks! The show is at 11:00 AM so we better get ready!”.

-X-

“I swear I had kept it here last night!”. You were frustrated this morning as you couldn’t find your moon necklace which you swore you saw last night.

“Maybe the ghost took it”. Hiro shrugged as he leaned against the doorframe.

“Hilarious. I can’t believe I lost it!”. You said as you aggressively tied your hair up in a ponytail. While the past few days were filled with storms, this day was filled with sunshine and felt like it was 1000 degrees outside. “Come on y/n! We’ll be late for the movies!”. You sighed as you finally gave up.

You were woken up today by Hiro banging on the door with two movie tickets in his hand. Though it was your favorite movie franchise, you didn’t want to leave the house today. But when Hiro pulled his I am your best friend and I am taking you out to have a good time card, you had to agree. Hiro knew how tough the past week had been for you and he was not going to let you sit in your house and mope around all day. So here you were, making waffles for breakfast as Hiro, who was sitting cross legged on the two seater dining table in the corner of your kitchen, went on and on about the new guy he was seeing.

“So…are we going to talk about last night?”. Hiro looked up at you as you sat opposite him.

“What about last night?”. You said, as you frowned and poured syrup over your waffles.

“Mr.Gojo Satoru coming to drop you off in the middle of the night..Did you guys..you know..do it?”.

“Hiro…it’s not that”. You explained to him what happened at the pier and he could only listen with his mouth agape. “Man! He is your knight in shining armour!”. Hiro said when you were finally done with the story.

“Yeah right. A knight who is making me work for his wife!”’. You said, aggressively cutting into your waffles and offering him a sarcastic smile. Hiro looked at your minor aggression and chuckled. “First of all, His fiance. Secondly… You don’t know what really happened. I am not defending that asshole but I think you’re being too harsh in your judgement”.

“Look, I don’t care about what happened but I refuse to believe that being the CEO he had no voice in the decision, or maybe he is so madly in love with her that he has lost all consideration for others’ feelings”. Saying the last part hurt you but it had to be said. Hiro saw the tears lining your lash line and decided that it was enough about Gojo.

“Fine..Anyway! You have to help me pick out a few shirts, I haven’t been shopping in forever”.

“What time is our movie though?”.

“Umm..11:00 AM”. Your eyes widened at him, you glanced at the clock and shook your head. “Hiro! We need to rush if we have to shop before the movie!”.

“It’s too hot today”. Hiro said, fanning his face with his hands.

“Yeah..now I kind of miss the storm”. You said, as both of you walked inside the mall and smiled satisfactorily as you felt the cold air envelop you. “We have around an hour, we can shop for you and make it to the movie”.

You walked around the shop as Hiro tried to find the shirts to his liking. You looked at your reflection in the mirror and smiled, you didn’t look as bad as you did a few days ago. Your short blue and white summer dress hugged your waist perfectly, your loose curls that escaped the ponytail look natural and framed your face perfectly. You smiled and thanked the gods for the good hair day.

“Okay! I found three shirts and I just need to try them and then we are done”. Hiro said as he dragged you towards the dressing room where you sat on the designated boyfriend/husband couch. As if on habit your hand kept reaching towards the neck and you tried your best to think where you could have dropped the necklace. But like all thoughts, it led you to Gojo. You wondered whether he told Utahime about meeting you. Was that even a meeting or an accident, how did he tell it to her?

“How do I look?”. You were broken out of your trance as Hiro stepped out of the changing room. “It looks good”. You said the same thing for the other two and Hiro was convinced you were slipping into your thoughts. He paid for the clothes and both of you made your way to the theatre on the topmost floor of the mall.

-X-

Utahime sat next to Satoru in her floral white dress and her hair tied by a red ribbon. She had spent over half an hour getting ready but Gojo sat silently next to her in the back of their BMW. “How do I look?”. She asked fidgeting with her ring.

“Okay”.

She gulped looking over at him, wondering if he was still mad about her joining the group. “Do you like horror movies?”.

“Kind of”. Gojo said, barely looking up from his phone.

“I get scared easily so… I don’t generally watch horror movies”.

Gojo sighed and locked his phone, keeping it in his pocket.“Then you shouldn’t have booked the tickets”.

“It’s okay, I know you like them so I guess I can learn to like them”. She retreated into her seat when she didn’t get a response from him. “You didn’t even eat your breakfast.. we can have lunch at Pierre’s after the movie”. She spoke again after a few minutes as the silence was unbearable for her.

“Whatever you want”. In another life this would have been romantic but Iori knew the underlying meaning and it ate her up.

“We are here Sir”. The driver announced as he stopped the car in front of the mall. Gojo got out and walked towards the mall with his hands in his pocket and Utahime jogged to catch up to him. He was turning heads in his black skinny jeans and light blue linen shirt as his tall and muscular frame made way through the crowd. Utahime was used to being the centre of attention but with Gojo she knew it could never be the case, so she stuck by his side and snaked her arm around his’ to let everyone know that he was hers’.

Gojo looked around the crowd looking for the only reason he agreed to see this movie. “Satoru, let’s go in. The movie is about to start”. Gojo nodded and followed her inside the dark theatre. “Ours is G12 and G13”. Utahime said as she led the way. They walked in front of the people and Utahime sat first and motioned Gojo to take the next seat. He sighed and sat down running his hand through his hair. He kept his arm on the armrest but it fell on top of another arm.

“I’m sorry”. Both him and the woman next to him spoke at the same time, turning towards each other. Gojo looked at her and his heart threatened to beat out of his chest.

“Y/n are you okay?", Hiro interjected from the other seat. Utahime was too leaning over upin hearing your name. The four of you didn't speak at all. You and Gojo could only stare at each other in utter disbelief and for a second you could have sworn you felt his hand on yours.

"Y/n". You were brought back to earth by Utahime's voice. "Hi..I …um … I'm….here with …". You were still in shock as you pointed your thumb towards Hiro who waved at Utahime. "I'm Hiro, Nice to meet you". Gojo was brought back by Hiro's voice, irritation rising inside him as he saw the man once again. Were you on a date? You brought Hiro to watch the movie you watched with him? Was he that special to you now?

"What a surprise, right y/n?". Utahime spoke, now looking at you with a plastic smile. "Yeah..it is".

"Are you two on a date?".

You looked at Hiro with your mouth open. Your brain had stopped working and this was the time you needed your friend to rescue you. "Yes we are!". Hiro spoke cheerfully, looking at Gojo instead of his fiance. Gojo gulped and straightened in his seat. Luckily for you the movie started just in time.

"Are we on a date?". You whispered, leaning towards Hiro. Gojo looked at you from the corner of his eyes and tried his best to hide the school forming on his face.

"Well, if that asshole can make you work for his fiance then I can at least try to make him jealous and moreover if Utahime thinks you have a boyfriend then she wouldn't be a bitch to you". Hiro whispered back. You nodded and didn't pay much attention to it, though you doubted if Gojo would get jealous, afterall he had everything he wanted in this life.

Utahime wasn't doing any better, she should be focused on the movie so she could eventually talk about it with Gojo but all she could do was curse herself. Did Gojo tell you that he was going to the movies? It can't be a coincidence! So you purposely bought those seats so you could sit next to him! . She scoffed unknowingly, making Gojo turn his head towards her. "You okay?". She looked up at him and smiled. "Yeah". She wrapped her arm around his biceps and rested her head on his shoulder. But no sooner than she got comfortable, Gojo shifted, making her sit upright again.

You were engrossed in the movie, the director had really maintained the continuity. Unlike you, Hiro was scared to his bones, he was never into the suspense Gore and this particular scene had him clasping at your hand. You turned your head towards him and chuckled. "You alright there?".

"Let it never be said that Hiro never did anything for you y/n l/n". You bit your lip to stop yourself from laughing and rubbed his hand to calm him down, an action that didn't go unnoticed by the white haired male.

Even though you tried hard to ignore Gojo's presence, it was getting difficult by every second to focus on the movie. The accidental brush of his hand, the gentle nudge of his knee every time he shifted, how beautiful his eyes looked illuminated by the screen. It was all getting too much and soon you found yourself rushing towards the restroom to calm yourself down.

You splashed water on your face and stared at your reflection in the mirror, your cheeks were tinted pink and your chest was heaving. It's okay. Just an hour more. That's all. He is here with his fiance. I can do this. It is all a big unfortunate coincidence!

You walked out the restroom and found the reason for your misery leaning against the wall opposite to the door. "Utahime isn't in there". You said, frozen in your place.

"I know". He took a step towards you with his hands in his pocket

"Men's restroom is the other way". You said, trying to ignore his feral gaze.

"I know". He took another step towards you.

"What happened to your hand?". You asked, looking at the bandaged hand. Gojo smiled at your kindness, "I cut it with glass". He said, standing in front of you. You didn't want to talk to him particularly but something about being able to talk freely here was better than sitting awkwardly inside.

"Did it hurt a lot? It would be better if you get it checked, it can cause an infection".

"I'll get it checked today. It's funny isn't it?"

You looked up at him, confused. "What's funny?".

"Two years ago we made a plan to watch the next part together and even if we didn't plan it ..we are here". Gojo smiled fondly looking at you, making you realise that your relationship was nothing but a fond memory to him.

"Ya". You bit your lip and looked at the ground.

"You .. you look good".Gojo said, looking at you, it was true in every sense. The moment he saw you next to him he couldn't take his eyes off of you. The dress hugged your figure perfectly and made him want to do unspeakable things to you. He wanted to tuck the strand of hair behind your ear so he could get a better look at your face, he wanted to nuzzle his face in the crook of your neck and take in your scent, he wanted to play with your earrings to annoy you ..but he couldn't .

You didn't know why was here, why was he talking to you? But you were not going to fall for his charms any more than you already had.

"I should get going, Hiro must be waiting". You were about to walk towards the theatre when he pulled you by your arm and pushed you back into the restroom, locking the door behind him.

"What are you doing?". You spoke as your back collided with the tiled wall.

"Are you dating him?". He leaned down to face you as he caged you between himself and the wall, His demeanor completely different from what it was moments ago. You couldn't move as his hands resting against the wall barricaded you.

"That's none of your business".

"Y/n…. We can talk as … friends …". His words didn't mean anything as the way his eyes drifted to your lips told you otherwise.

"We aren't friends. Friends don't… don't do this". You let out a shaky breath and tried to reason with him.

"Are …you …dating …him?. I'm asking for the last time". Having known Gojo Satoru for over four years you knew better than to deny him what he wants when he's angry.

"Y-yes. Yes I am". Gojo straightened up and leaned down, holding your chin between his thumb and index finger. He was merely inches away from your lips, his eyes focused on your tinted lips but then his gaze shifted to your eyes and you felt your knees go weak. You could see the dark blue specks against the blue, his eyes darkened as he leaned in even closer.

"Are you happy with him?". His hot breath tingled your mouth and you pressed an arm on his chest to stop him from doing what he was about to.

"Goj-"

"That's not my name!". His voice echoed through the restroom making you flinch in your place.

"Sa … Satoru. I.. I need to go".

"Are you happy with him?". His brows pinched together as he tried his best to contain the searing pain inside his chest.

"Are you happy with her?". The question took Gojo aback. He didn't know how to answer it. "This isn't about… me and her".

"Why is it about me then? Why are you here?".

"Y/n… I don't -".

"I am. I am happy with him. He makes me feel loved. He cares about me and I know that he's always going to be there for me. I am …. Very very much happy with Hiro". It was a lie. A brutal lie. But you knew he made a choice and now he was going to have to live with it. You knew he was in love with her and his actions… they meant nothing to you when compared to what he had put you through.

Gojo backed up, looking into your eyes, hoping to find any hint which could convince him that it was a lie, but he didn't. So he walked out of the restroom, slamming the door behind him and you fell to your knees trying to catch your breath.

You didn't have the heart to go back in, so you sat outside on the couch with your head in your hand. "y/n are you okay?!". You looked up to see Hiro kneeling in front of you. He had your bag in one hand and a bottle of water in another. When you shook your head he draped his jacket over your frame and pulled you into a hug. "What happened?".

"I just… Can we leave? Please? I'm sorry…I … ruined your day". Your voice broke and Hiro cupped your face, tilting it upwards to get a look at you. "It's alright. You don't have to apologise for anything. Let's get some lunch and then we can leave okay?". Hiro said, stretching out his hand to you. You nodded and took his hand in yours.

"Where were you?". Utahime asked, trying not to sound hurt. She didn't expect to spend more than half of her date alone but she wasn't going to upset Gojo anymore than she already had. Gojo ignored her question and nudged Hiro, "You should go check on her". Hiro frowned at him but got the hint and left the couple alone.

"Satoru, What happened?". Utahime asked again, trying to understand what was happening. She saw how his jaw clenched and the way his gaze fixed on a random spot in space. She knew Gojo was not with her, he was in his head, somewhere far away, somewhere dark.

Gojo Satoru wasn't the kindest man in the country, he had his virtues and vices. Right now, as he sat across from his fiance who was going on about the movie, he was busy texting his secretary.

Gojo: In which department does Hiro work?

Miwa: He works in accounts.

Gojo: Is that position in Kyoto available?

Miwa: Yes sir. The position requires a senior manager.

Gojo: I have a recommendation ..

"Is that y/n and Hiro?!". Utahime said, squinting at someone. Gojo turned and saw you and Hiro being led by a waitress. "They'll sit with us". Utahime declared, raising her hand to get the waitress' attention. You froze in your step and clenched Hiro's hand, you didn't expect them to be here. This wasn't some fancy restaurant where people like Gojo go, so what were they doing here?

You and Hiro walked over to the table and greeted the couple once more. "It's alright, I..we don't want to disturb you guys". You said, trying to sound polite.

"Absolutely not! You must sit with me! Satoru is being a bore anyway!". Utahime held your hand and nudged it to make you sit next to her. Hiro smiled and took his seat next to Gojo. You don't pray all that much but in that moment you prayed for the earth to swallow you whole.

"Why did you guys leave the movie early?". Utahime asked, starting the conversation.

"Well… y/n was feeling claustrophobic so we went to the arcade instead".

"Ooh. Are you fine now?". She turned towards you with feigned concern. "Yeah I'm alright now".

"What a coincidence, both of us are wearing white today". She said, as she eyed you down.

"Yeah. You look lovely though". You said sheepishly.

"Thank you. Mine is Dior, what about yours?". You pressed your lips into a smile and said, "Mine is thrifted so I have no idea. The tag was cut off". Utahime opened her mouth to say something but then looked at you like she felt sorry for you. "Y/n, you look beautiful too". Utahime turned towards Gojo and her smile dropped. The compliment that she had been yearning for since morning was wasted on you.

"I see you guys went shopping too". She said, corking an eyebrow towards the paper bags.

"Yeah. We had to buy some clothes for .. both of us". You said, not noticing the way Gojo was glaring at you. You looked at Hiro sitting in front of you and wiggled your eyebrows and he could only smile in sympathy.

"How romantic". Gojo spoke for the second time since you guys sat at the table. "I never took y/n to be such a romantic". He continued, sipping his wine.

Hiro didn't want to poke his nose in your business, but you were his friend and he was going to do his best to stand up for you. "Y/n is a romantic. Just this morning she made the most amazing waffles". He reached for your hand and held it, squeezing it gently, letting you know that he had your back. "I mean, that's all a man could ask for after a …. How do I say it…. A rough night".

You bit your lip trying to hold your laughter. It was surprising how Hiro could flirt better than any straight man. "Yeah". You said pressing your lips together, your cheeks turned pink when Hiro winked at you, not because your heart was fluttering by his tactics, but because of how hard you tried not to burst into laughter.

"It must have been a rough night. Right y/n?". Gojo interjected, you knew what he meant, Hiro knew what he meant, Utahime knew what he meant. "I liked the morning more" you said, smirking at your friend. You didn't realise but Utahime relaxed in her seat as she saw you and Hiro. Though she wished she could have the same bond with the man in front of her.

"Wow, you guys are an active couple". Utahime said, sipping her wine. Hiro chuckled and shook his head lightly. "I guess you can say that Mrs.Gojo". Suddenly a silence settled over the table. You and Gojo stiffened in your seats while Utahime smiled thankfully at Hiro. Her claim was made, You had to acknowledge her as Mrs.Gojo now.

Even though it hurt you to accept the fact that you would have to call her that eventually, the events of the morning didn't leave your mind. If Gojo could demand to know the status of your relationship then surely you could assume his'. So you decided to rip the bandaid off and call her as what she was going to be. "How was the movie, Mrs.Go-".

"Y/n!". You were interrupted by Gojo whose eyes warned you… dared you to finish the sentence. Gojo realised that his little tantrum didn't go unnoticed so he continued with his saccharine eyes fixed on yours. "How about we order now?".

Utahime gulped and quickly picked up the menu to hide her scowl. "I've heard they have good pizzas here". She said, clearing her throat.

"I can't wait to work with you y/n". Utahime said, biting into her Pizza. She wasn't the one to come to cafes like this but she wanted to show Gojo that she could be like you.

"Yeah me too". You smiled awkwardly at her.

"I hope Hiro doesn't mind that I am taking his lovely girlfriend away from him". She winked at Hiro who smiled widely at her. "I was a bit sad when y/n told me but I guess I got enough of her at home" he said, making Utahime and you laugh.

"Can you ever get enough of her?". Gojo asked, smirking at you and then shifting his gaze at Hiro who visibly stiffened. "I guess not but I don't have a choice". You wanted to reprimand Gojo for pulling these tactics. You were confused by his behaviour, shouldn't he be happy that you found someone too? Or was he so self absorbed that he couldn't bear to see you happy? .

"Well then you better put a ring on it". Utahime said, smiling at you. Hiro nodded and winked at you. "I better. Should I put a ring on you y/n?". Hiro asked, making you almost choke on water. "Do it as soon as possible". You retaliated, keeping the flirtatious banter going. "I guess I just need to find the right way then. Any suggestions?". Hiro said, looking at Utahime.

"Well. Every girl wants her proposal to be special so you just need to find what she likes". She said the last part glancing at Gojo.

"What does my y/n like?". Gojo drew in a sharp breath hearing another man refer to you as my y/n. He clenched his injured first and a wave of pain rippled through his arm. "She likes beaches, well sunset at beaches and … stargazing". Hiro chuckled, "You're right Mr.Gojo. I better start planning a beach wedding".

Wedding, Gojo looked at Hiro through the corner of his eyes. How dare someone like him even imagine being married to you? He didn't deserve you.

Utahime gave a pressed smile. She looked at you and wondered whether you were nervous. Did she make you nervous? She averted her gaze to your alleged boyfriend and wondered whether he knew that you were with Gojo last night. She didn't want to jump to conclusions but in her mind a woman and a man can only be together that late for a reason. She was jealous of you for having two men wrapped around your fingers, you had a boyfriend and yet …and yet you wanted to wreck her home.

"So Hiro …. Did you like the movie?". She asked, smiling to herself as she laid her trap.

"Yes. It was alright but horror movies are not my favorite".

"My favourite part was when .. the cheating girlfriend gets caught by her boyfriend". She added a chuckle at the end to hide the intent but it was clear to everyone. Your fork didn't reach your mouth and ended back on the plate as you looked at Hiro. If looks could kill them Utahime would have turned into ashes by Gojo's glare.

"Ahhh yeah. I guess it was alright". Hiro added nervously.

"What would you do if you found out that y/n was cheating on you?".

"Iori!". Gojo spoke, warning her. She clenched her jaw upon hearing her name. Gojo rarely used it and it shows that she was getting on his last nerve.

"It's alright Mr.Gojo". Hiro said, trying to rescue the mood. "Mrs.Gojo, I know for a fact that Y/n would never cheat on me. If anything…. She is a one man woman and….expects her partner to be one woman man".

Gojo tensed wondering how much had you told Hiro. Knowing you he knew you would always be honest with your partner but how close were you to him that you told him everything?

-X-

You sat quietly next to Hiro on the bus, gazing out of the window as the sun settled over the city. "Y/n, don't think much about it".

"I'm sorry". You shook your head and hid your face in your hand, trying to control the tears. "Why? It's not your fault. To be honest they deserve each other!". You sniffled and looked up and Hiro immediately held your hand. "I'm sorry you had to get involved Hiro. I … I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry".

"Don't be stupid. You're my friend and you have done a lot for me too. When that homophobic landlord refused to rent me the place because he suspected I was gay, you pretended to be my girlfriend …I just returned the favour. It was my idea anyway so don't be sorry".

You rested your head on his shoulder and closed your eyes, thanking the gods for a friend like him. "Good job being the best fake boyfriend"..

-X-

"I'm glad you finally got that cut checked out. Looks like you have started listening to me, toru". Utahime smiled as she kept her bag on the table. Gojo remained silent and walked straight to the bedroom.

"Did you have to do that?!". Gojo yelled at her as soon as they were alone in their shared bedroom. "What do you mean?". Utahime asked as she focused on removing her jewellery, she looked up and saw Gojo glaring at her through the mirror. "You very well know what I mean!". His tone made her flinch causing the bracelet to fall on the ground. "I just invited them to have lunch with us. Does that make me a bad person?". She asked, as she crouched down and picked up her Cartier bracelet.

"You insulted her! You invited them and you insulted her! Do you have any sympathy? Is all this not enough for you?! Do you need to ruin everyone's life or is ruining mine not enough?!". Gojo couldn't bear to look at her. Being married to her would have been easier had she been half a woman you were.

Her lips quivered as tears rolled down her cheeks. She clutched the bracelet in her hand and threw it at his chest. "If I'm so terrible then why the fuck did you agree to marry me?!". She stepped forward and hit his chest with her fist. "Why?! Why did you cheat on me! Why?!".

Gojo held her wrist and looked down at her. "I cheated on you?". Utahime sobbed and stepped away from him trying to wiggle out of his grip. "Yes! I know…. I know you were with her last night".

Gojo let her arm fall between them and took a deep breath. "How?". Utahime gulped, her heart aching at his acceptance. Did he not care to at least deny?

"I saw her necklace while I was looking for your phone.."

"That doesn't mean I cheated on you!".

"Then what were you doing with her?! Tell me! How can you expect me to be fine with my husband being out with another woman!". Gojo took a deep breath. This was the worst fight they have ever gotten into. He knew the risks involved. He knew what could happen if Utahime decides to ruin you but unlike Utahime he was playing the long game.

"I am not your husband. I told you before the engagement that I would never love you, you knew what you were getting into and I didn't cheat on you. I coincidentally met y/n at the pier and a drunkard was trying to harass her and I dropped her home, her boyf..Hiro was there to pick her up near her apartment". Gojo spoke through gritted teeth.

Utahime looked into his eyes and knew that she messed up. He was telling the truth. "I… I don't know. I just assumed that you and y/n-"..

"There is no me and y/n". If Utahime hadn't been looking at the carpeted floor she would have seen the tears in his eyes. If she wasn't so focused on her pride, she would have heard the pain in his voice.

"I am engaged to you, I agreed to live with you, you went behind my back and still I made y/n work for you .. I agreed to go out with you today and you…you ruined it". Gojo turned on his heel but Utahime grabbed his arm. "Satoru please! I'm sorry. I'm sorry…please don't leave. I…I'll make it up to you, I promise. I'm sorry".

"Iori, let me go".

"No no no no. Please. I'm really sorry. Satoru please!". She was sobbing into his arm but he didn't care. He couldn't forgive her for what she did to you. He could never forget the look on your face as she taunted you. "Please Satoru!". Gojo shrugged his arm, making her lose her balance for a second.

"Go to bed". He said as he walked out the bedroom.

Utahime collapsed on the floor. She wanted to scream and scream until her voice was heard across the city. She couldn't believe that she doubted Satoru, that she doubted her Satoru. He was right, he did so much for her and she doubted him.. she was going to make it up to him. She was going to prove that she was better than this.

-X-

Gojo lay on your lap as you say with your back against the tree. His eyes were closed and he felt your fingers running through his hair. You read out a poem from the book you were reading but he could only focus on how sweet your voice was. But then you stopped reading to him. Gojo opened his eyes and it was no longer a sunny day, the dark clouds surrounded the park. He got up and looked at you. You were no longer smiling, your face had turned pale and tears rolled your cheeks. "Was my love not enough for you?".

Gojo sighed as he opened his eyes. Same dream. Same heartache. Same ceiling. He wiped his eyes with his thumb and index finger and got up from the leather couch. He walked over to his desk and turned on his laptop. Few more weeks and then he'd be free. He opened the restricted chat server and texted the only man he could trust in this country.

Gojo: Any update?

Geto: Wow! A man can expect a hi at 2 am.

Gojo : Hi geto. Any update?

Geto : She moved because the rent of her previous apartment increased. Lives alone now but goes to work with a guy.

Gojo: anything else?

Geto: did she ever tell you about any loan?

Gojo: what kind of loan?

Geto: some relative of hers took a loan on her behalf and then passed away so she has to pay it back

Gojo: how much?

Geto: 350k

Gojo: was it a loan shark?

Geto: yeah. Heard from some of my men that these goons even showed up at her apartment and that's why the landlord increased the rent to force her out

Gojo: find out who they were

He locked the laptop and went back to the bedroom. Utahime looked asleep and as much as he wished he couldn't sleep in the guest bedroom. So he lied down next to her, keeping as much distance as he could.

Gojo had forgotten what a good night's sleep was. He would either lie awake till the early hours of the morning or would be woken up by recurring dreams. Tonight, he closed his eyes and thought about how beautiful you looked. He could almost smell you in his memories. Was he dreaming again or were you caressing his cheeks, he could feel your thumb swiping across his lips, he could feel your breath on his face, he could feel your skin under his thumb as his cupped your cheek, he could feel your lips on him and involuntarily he moved his lips in sync with yours, but something was off… it didn't feel like you, he kept saying to himself that he had to wake up but his body felt paralysed. No, he can't kiss anyone else! He can't cheat on you! He kept repeating the same words trying to wake himself up.

After what seemed like an hour but was merely seconds, his eyes shot open. He could see a woman … but it wasn't you. Almost voluntarily he pushed the woman off of him. "Satoru!". Utahime yelped as her back collided with the mattress. "What were you doing?!". He yelled and sat up in his place. "I… I just wanted to make it up to you". Utahime said, getting up and resting her arm on his shoulder. But gojo shrugged her arm off. "Don't you ever do that again!".

"Why can't I Kiss my fiance?". Gojo wanted to laugh in her face. "I am tired. I need to sleep". Gojo said and rolled over facing his back to her. He felt guilty, he felt like he needed to tell you that he kissed someone else.

As Gojo closed his eyes again, he prayed and prayed to whatever god that was listening that when he wakes up, he wakes up next to you.

-X-

"What is this?" , You Asked looking at the paper in front of you. Your eyes drifted from the paper to Gojo, who was standing near his bed, refusing to meet your eyes.

"It's a non-disclosure agreement". He said , looking to the side.

"I don't understand. For what?". You picked up the paper and read through it. "You don't want ... You don't want me to tell anyone about our relationship". Your breath hitched thinking about losing him. "Why?". You asked, looking at Gojo.

"Y/n, it must be done. With everything going on with Utahime... It has to be done". Your brows tensed as you swallowed the lump in your throat. "So it's true then?". You asked grabbing the pen.

"y/n please. Nothing is fixed now. This is just a precaution". Gojo failed to understand why you were making a big deal out of it. You of all the people should understand what he was going through after all you were as ambitious as he was.

You stood up with the signed paper in your hand and shoved it in his chest. Gojo walked towards his desk and pulled out a thick brown envelope and offered it to you. "What is this?". You asked, staring at the envelope. "The agreement says that you'd be compensated if you agree to the terms". Your world came to a halt as Gojo uttered those words. You looked at him teary eyed and let out a shaky breath. "I can't believe this... You think...I want..." Your voice hitched as you pointed at the envelope. "That...you think I want your money? If this is just a precaution then why...why? And what is the compensation for? For our time together? ".

"Please take it. It's.. I know you need it y/n. It's just ....just take it". Gojo didn't know how to convey what he was really feeling. He wanted to help you and in his deranged mind this was the best way possible.

You stared at the envelope and chuckled. "Consider that, your engagement gift Gojo". You said and walked out of the bedroom. It dawned on Gojo what he had done and he snapped out of his world of money.

"Y/n wait! Where are you going?!". Gojo followed you from his bedroom to the living room.

"I'm leaving!". You declared as you grabbed your bag from the couch.

"Love, listen to me!". Gojo tried holding your arm but you pulled it away. "Why?! It's going to be the same excuse! I am tired of these excuses, Satoru! I am sick of hearing about you and her! I am sick of being your secret!". Tears rolled down your cheeks as you turned to face the man. Gojo cupped your cheeks and wiped your tears with his thumb. "I am taking care of it. I promise. Just … please trust me y/n. I need you to trust me!".

You pushed his hands away and took a step back. "No. I can't do this anymore. I can't be your secret anymore. I don't want to be the other woman in your life!".

"Y/n...Love, you're the only one in my life. Please just trust me. I need time. It's… it's complicated". It wrecked Gojo's heart hearing you refer to yourself as the other woman. If he could he would rip his heart out and put it in the palm of your hands so you could feel what he felt for you he would do it right away.

"It's not. Either you clear up the rumours and let our relationship be known to everyone or … or you get engaged to her and forget about me". Gojo had never felt so helpless in his life.

He couldn't bear losing you heck he could hardly go a day without seeing you. He didn't want to do this to you… he didn't want to be this man to you…"When we started seeing each other, you told me that you don't want people to know about us because I was your boss so why does it matter now". He could barely look at you as he uttered these words. He knew why it mattered now, he knew how people thought but he had to do it.

"I .. I can't believe that you're asking me this. But, fine I'll tell you. It matters now because you're getting engaged. Why her? Is it because I have nothing to give to you? Is it because I don't come from a family like hers'?". You clenched your first by your side. Trying to contain the hurt but it seeped through you like ink on a page. "Was my love not enough to make you stay with me Satoru? ".

You turned to leave but Gojo grabbed your hand. He didn't pull you towards him like he wanted to, he didn't take a step towards you like he wanted to, instead he uttered three words and hoped that you'd give him a chance. "I am sorry".

His shaky voice made your heart drop. You turned around and placed your hand over his'. "I will wait for you for as long as you want, but the moment you put that ring on her I'd be out of your life". You pulled his hand away and walked out of his penthouse.

Gojo stood there, helpless, hurt, heartbroken..

Oh how badly Gojo wished to tell you what your love meant to him. But like you ,he had his pride and he had his greed. He wanted to have it all and he would realise it on a sunny day in August when he would see you with another man that in his pursuit of power he lost what really mattered.

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